Black holes are monsters.
They devour everything in sight.
Do you know anyone like that?
Yeah.
It's in all women.
When they are full, we are in non-duality.
Then they explode.
That's why we have creation, and why the writer is considered a misogynist.
The Great Goddess turns into a black hole which devours the universe until she gets so fat she explodes and creates again.
That's why she is said to have given birth.
She's a non-stop eater.
I was tasked to write the story of the Great Goddess.
This is her creation story.
She constantly creates by getting so fat she gives birth.
Aren't you describing pregnancy?
Yes.
They devour a man in order to give birth.
They take your vital energy as seed for their child.
Why don't you care about world events?
I used to.
I never got anywhere with it.
People seek power, and reality on the world stage is one big soap opera.
It sucks you in.
It never ends.
They replace the actors, and it keeps going.
I learned not to care.
It seems crass to turn a blind eye to suffering and the destruction of the environment.
Without the destruction of the environment, we'd destroy ourselves.
We are hellbent on destruction.
The environment may bring us together.
Before that cause, we had world wars.
As a species climate change and environmental destruction is central to our survival.
That's twisted maestro.
What happens when you care?
It stresses you out and kills you.
Stay young by not caring.
Women get fat when they are stressed.
They devour your energy.
If you are in a sexual relationship with them, it's a double drain.
They are taking all your resources.
Your energy must go somewhere, and they feed off it.
Women are energy vampires.
That's why you must make sure they are fed, if not they will want to devour you.
Well, you don't get too close to her.
Exactly.
If you get close to them, they will start to eat you.
She will take all she can.
Like a chipmunk?
Yes, women don't know when to stop eating.
Fuck, lol.
Is that why they are killers?
I don't know.
I don't know if their hunger makes it seem like they are killers, or the energy drain is to satisfy their blood lust.
Well, if they were killers wouldn't they just kill you by any means possible for a cheap thrill?
Yeah, but they don't want to get caught.
They will try to poison you, but they know society is on to that behaviour, plus, they don't want to risk the whole witch hunt thing again.
Men start mysteriously dying and you know there's a witch around.
The methods they use are not detectable.
They use sex and stress to drain your energy.
They put the squeeze on you like a serpent.
Anaconda?
Exactly.
They mindfuck you to stress your mind, so it is easier to feed off your energy.
The energy doesn't dissipate, they take it.
They take your vital life force with sex.
They spend your money, so you stress about your financial situation.
They can't help it.
So, it's biological.
They will always revert to this behaviour.
You're describing a monster.
Why do men put up with it?
Biology.
Men need to expend their energy, or they become destructive.
They go to the gym and play sports.
Men regenerate their life force by expelling it.
I am going to teach a course one day on Dionysos and the eternal return.
Google it.
I'll wait.
How do you know this?
You must live it and then try to understand it.
Men need to expel their energy, and women want to absorb it.
That's how women create life.
Without men they can't do it.
Biology.
Right.
So, are women biological killers like a praying mantis or black widow, or is that a byproduct of needing to take men's energy?
Well, look at men.
What do men do if they don't expel their energy?
They get violent.
Start wars.
They are very destructive.
So, a man is a killer as well.
Yes, if they don't get rid of their energy.
So, a man is a monster as well.
I use the term beast.
Right.
So, it's lust.
Correct.
The energy a man needs to expel is lust and a woman absorbs it.
So, lust makes a woman a monster and a man a beast.
Yes, it's not biological and they are not natural born killers.
Lust is the reason for the behaviour.
What if there was no lust?
Nothing would happen.
So, non-duality.
Yes.
Non-duality is absent lust.
Lust is the child.
Eros.
There is non-duality because there is no child.
The child is within the one.
The first principle of life is lust.
Well, this is a helluva teaching.
It's because you reasoned it out.
You took the idea of a woman as a monster and figured out the reason behind creation.
I am imagining non-duality and how the first moment post non-duality is the appearance of lust.
You see it.
Doesn't the cycle continue due to narcissism?
Yes, you want to know you are in non-duality, so you need to look at yourself in non-duality.
Eros appears and then the writer writes the Goddess' idea.
Eros is the first principle.
The child creates their parents.
The parents then have the child.
Eros is an idea and the parents are physical.
Then they create children.
When Eros appears in the story then you know you are nearing the end of the story because they will be the last thing before we enter into non-duality again.
I thought every child is an appearance of Eros.
Yes, but not the prophesied one.
Right.
The special one.
The son of God.
You mean of the writer playing God.
Paul?
Dion?
Both?
Whose kid is he anyway?
I think it is joint custody.
I think we are both responsible for impregnating the Goddess.
Paul liked her and Dion wanted to bang her.
Paul still likes her, and Dion must explain how she is a monster.
Yeah, but we are both responsible.
I'm not taking full responsibility.
As you shouldn't.
As best friends, how about we just split custody at 50-50?
Seems reasonable.
In ancient Egypt this child is Nefertem.
You can see it now.
There is an iconic artifact from the tomb of the boy pharaoh Tutankhamen with him as Nefertem rising up out of the lotus as the first principle of creation.
The lotus is non-duality.
The first principle from the lotus is the appearance of the beautiful androgynous Atum of the Ennead of Heliopolis.
Atum becomes the masculine Shu and the feminine Tefenet as heat and moisture.
From them we get Nut and Geb who are the personification of the sky and earth.
Their children are Isis, Osiris, Nephthys, and Set.
Through the Ennead we get all the way to the baby Horus.
Nefertem comes again.
The return of lust.
Eros.
When you head towards death you see a bright white light.
Is that part of the explosion?
The body is a concentration of energy which creates form.
It's a similar process to a black hole in which you need to be able to attract and hold energy.
The strength at what you can do this creates form.
The Great Goddess can absorb all the energy in the universe into her cavernous black hole.
Now, now.
She wants to devour it all.
What?
Energy.
She feeds off energy.
For a man to generate energy, he must be free.
When you are free of the body, you see free energy.
Yes, the white light.
White light is energy which is free, and the darkness is enslaved energy.
Dark matter is all the energy which holds creation together.
It's the Goddess' attractive power.
She attracts energy to create form.
That energy is dark energy which is called by scientists, dark matter.
You need tension between the two to create life.
Too much dark energy and it becomes non-duality.
The light separates it.
Your body is formed by this tension.
Youthfulness is from concentration of your energy.
Tight skin and firm muscles.
As it breaks away you show signs of aging.
Aging is the way a body shows how energy strives to be free.
Once it becomes free it starts the journey back to form.
So, the body is my essence in form.
Correct.
This is how you envision your energy.
As you free yourself from the body you picture yourself as wise while others can become decrepit.
So, it's all in how you view yourself?
Yes.
If you think you are wise, you will look wise.
If you think you are crazy, you will look crazy.
If you think you are old and frail, then that's how you look.
How do you think you look?
Wise and young for my age.
It fits.
Sometimes a little crazy.
I will grant you that.
If I change up my topics of thought, I can come up with a lot of stuff.
Yes.
I see why people would do this for work.
Take something to alter their consciousness and then brainstorm ideas.
That's like a form of magic.
Yeah, you see it where you become a man of knowledge.
You realize you can get whatever knowledge you want through the substance.
You'd get addicted to knowledge.
You'd want to be on the drug 24/7 because you'd want to know everything.
I'll leave it alone and go with the flow.
I think you must, or you'd go crazy.
You can't be in the state permanently.
Kali stands over a subdued Shiva to show how women's power concentrates a man's energy into form.
At death, a man escapes.
Yes, her illusion.
You call her a fat monster whose energy is an illusion.
You are not very nice.
The forms she creates are real.
They feel real at the carnival but when you leave the body you see it isn't you.
It is you.
The mistake is thinking the body dies.
It transforms.
The scarab beetle teaches you that.
Ancient Egyptian Kheper means transformation.
Your energy goes into and out of form.
There's always more.
How do you know when it's okay to say this is how it is?
Like saying if you identify with the body, you will be afraid of death.
Yes.
And then you taught me today that the body is your essence and it transforms back.
What I consider the mind is an illusion as well.
No.
Why?
The mind is always present.
You have a body and don't have a body.
The mind is always present.
Are you sure?
Maybe you need a body to have a mind?
Maybe you should identify with the body.
Maybe that's why they mummified remains.
Interesting.
When I go to sleep, my mind is free.
Therefore, I'd say when you drop the body your mind is the freest.
Yes, but do you know it's you?
I think so.
How?
The other half tells you.
Without the other half you wouldn't know.
How does that work?
Your other mind tells you that you are a mind that is independent of the body.
The other mind does this when you don't have a body in order that you recall who you are and then in a body your other mind will tell you that you don't need to identify with the body.
The body is the flowering of your energy.
It's you.
Here's your parents DNA codes so you get to make a form and then flower how you would in that form.
You need the two to know this.
You tell each other who you are.
You can't remember who you are, but you can remember who other people are.
Yes.
So, that's the trick.
You create two minds, so you tell each other who you are, and this keeps you going forever.
Yeah, so your other half tells you you're God and you tell him that he is the Devil.
That's clever.
Is that who we are?
Yes, but it's true of everyone.
They just never get to the point of fully awakening.
Fully awakened means you tell your other mind he is the Devil, and he tells you that you are God.
That's a good summary.
Other shit happens along the way but that sums it up.
I'll buy this story.
Fully awake is knowing you're God and knowing the other half of you is the Devil.
That's the two.
Paul and Dion, if you want.
Whatever you want to call them.
So, the writer is the Devil.
Yes, until you realize you're the writer, then you are the writer.
The power is the writer, right?
Yeah, you pass him around.
He's a little loose.
I can see that.
So, that's the power the witches want.
Yes, the writer.
Witches don't know what your power is, but they could see they wanted it.
Okay, so that's what happens when a man is fully awake.
What about a woman?
I don't know, I'm not a woman.
Only they could tell you.
What do you think?
There are a witch and a Goddess in them.
A fully awake woman would know both.
The ancient Egyptians mummified to cover all their bases.
Yeah, why not?
If you don't let go of attachment to the body, the mummy was waiting for you perfectly preserved.
It also honours your incarnation.
That was your form when you entered this plane.
You are going to recognize yourself.
Opening your mind leads you on a path towards knowing all.
It's Carlos Castañeda's man of knowledge.
When you drop the body and completely free your mind, you will know it all.
So, while you are in a body you enjoy the game you're playing with limited knowledge and look for the cheat codes which give you expanded knowledge.
This knowledge will scare you at first and then take away all your fears.
The reason you don't know everything is because you are in a body.
This allows you to experience novelty.
Novelty is the ride.
Lineages and new formations of energy.
Does the creation of a newborn engender a new being or is it a return to form?
I don't know.
There's always more.
The new formation is unique.
It's a new coming forth of the energy.
It is definitely a new being.
The energy that transforms is eternal.
That's the answer as taught by the ancient Egyptians.
My body and being in this reality are new forms of who I am.
Who I am is the master record from which all beings come forth.
It's all me.
Well, from a masculine perspective.
Each coming forth creates a variance of the master record.
It's the all, plus Paul.
So, the question becomes is Paul eternal?
If he is remembered.
How is he remembered?
You split your mind in two and have the other mind, which is you, remember who you are.
I am Dion and I'm Paul.
We will never forget.
It's a story of friendship and that's the secret to eternal life.
For Paul.
Yes.
Dion is the master record.
Paul is an aspect of Dion.
Correct.
Without the continuance of Paul, Dion is forever coming forth by day and then exiting into the night.
By remembering Paul, there is awareness of who you are and that you will always be.
It's why Paul became God.
He became fully awake, saw what needed to be done, and did it.
So, Dion isn't God?
No, he's the writer.
He wrote this tragedy.
He was remembered by Paul and then experienced his story.
In return, he will remember Paul when the story ends.
For me, plant medicines weren't spirituality.
It was the occult.
I'm not complaining.
I look back and see healers and sorcerers.
I see some people come for help and others to learn magic.
If you want it to be a spiritual experience, sure you can do that.
If you believe you are going to Heaven, you go to Heaven.
The mind is that powerful.
It's an illusion.
You stay on the ride.
I finished carrying my cross.
The GO Train was my burden of suffering.
Two years into the suffering I tried to get out but couldn't.
I was forced to suffer.
Jesus did Capital punishment while you served out your 20 years.
A life sentence.
Are you comparing yourself to Jesus?
Seems like it.
Once out, they tried to kill you.
Who?
The jailers.
You served your time.
You're free.
The Feminine Force is dark matter.
It's power they don't know they have.
It's some kind of strange attraction.
The ones that want to devour you for sure because why else would you be attracted to that?
Women all use charms and tricks.
You think they are beautiful, and that's the attraction.
They don't know they are naturally attractive.
They don't know their power.
A man will be attracted to them naturally.
Why?
Biology.
A man needs to sow his seed and prove his virility.
Luna is with you all the time.
So is Brindle.
When you drop identification with the body, it's apparent.
You can't see them because you only see bodies and not minds.
You still walk in honour of them, and they come along.
They stick around because you remember them.
If you forgot about them, they'd leave.
So, people will stick around as long as they are remembered.
Yes.
When they are no longer remembered, they disappear.
Oh, I got it.
That's why you awaken the other within, so you remember each other.
It's a game of remembering.
Well, yes, outside of the carnival that's the trick.
So, there is something beyond the carnival.
Yes, that's the reality of the mind.
It's fantasy because it's not based in physical reality.
Eventually everything is forgotten.
The big game is to remember and then you are eternal.
Eternal life is remembering.
What is beyond the mind?
The three.
Goddess, Eros, and the writer.
They are one.
This is their story, but you already knew that.
It's the Goddess' idea, the writer writes it, and Eros is the spark of life which makes creation come alive.