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Showing posts with label Wisdom. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Wisdom. Show all posts

Monday, February 24, 2025

creating a story

What happens when the writer wants to be an actor?
He must give up the pen.
Why?
If you write your own adventure, it will be lame.
Think about it.
You'd write what you want.
Isn't that what he did?
Yes.
And then he gave up the power over his story to you.
The flow will lead to the fulfillment of the story he wrote for himself.
Going against the flow will create a different story.
That's the chance he took with you.
No one will understand this.
They will think you are kooky.
As they should.
It's reality.
Yes.
Reality is my story.

How do you feel about your two-week Mary Jayne break?
Positive in that I needed a break to recentre and take a sober look at myself.
I haven't lost the connection to Dion and MJ.
They feel stronger.
Instead of relying on changing my consciousness to be with them, I always feel they are with me.
Who are you?
I am who I have always been.
Who is that?
My character of Paul.
Paul has changed.
He is more like Dion.
I don't notice the difference as much as I think others do.
I think that's it, where you aren't aware of the change, however others can see it.
Everything seems the same to me though I do know I'm different.

I wrote that Eros came alive.
First, he appears as an idea and then he manifests.
That's the story when you look back into the past.
You see the story.
The genius is you don't know who to blame.
You want to blame the witch because you think it was her doing and she sent you pictures of the two to foreshadow what was to come.
She held a lamb in her arms while you felt like a bull.
You think it's her and then you realize it's him.
He's the golden calf.
Obviously.
I like that story.
Son of the Great Goddess and you, a mere mortal, are the progenitor.
What does that make me?
A fool.
Or God.
You can handle both roles; you're the best.
At the heart of it all you're the writer.
It's her idea and you made the idea come alive.
What was the idea?
Eros.
It's a triad.
There's no story without the three.
Without an idea and a source of the idea you are writing nonsense.
There is a constant drip from your pen.
That is true.
I do need to write.
Without a writer, the Goddess is unfulfilled.
You fulfill her story.
Without parents, Eros just is.
Nothing happens.
There is just energy whirling around.
The Goddess gives Eros purpose, and you give the purpose meaning.
I fulfilled my role and then felt the feeling it was time to go.
That's one explanation.
A lot of people wanted you to go.
It did seem like many wanted me gone.
Of course, this world is a mess, and you have made this disaster.
Well, it's free will.
I put it all in place, but I submit the actors have made the mess.
The director has let me down by not being strict enough with the actors.
They all want to ad lib and make a name for themselves.
That's what has caused the world to go to hell.
So, you're not responsible?
I let them all off the leash.
I trusted them.

If you could trade your life for any life, would you?
No.
Why?
It's my story.
This feels exactly what I'd write.
I'd discover who I am.
I'd know I could write any reality I want and then I'd realize it's best to leave it alone.
I'd have to sift through all the world religions and philosophies to find the advice I need.
I'd find Tao and know that I left with Lao Tzu the secret to this reality if you are the writer of reality.
Do nothing.
Let it be.
The temptation is to do something when you hold all the power in your hands.
You want to do something.
Yeah, there is a lot of suffering, and I'd like to get what I want.
I'd see I'd write these tests for myself.
How much am I a believer in Tao?
When the going gets tough, do you abandon your beliefs?
That's what humans do.
They have great ideals, and they write them into their systems of governance and then when times get tough, they abandon them.
The forces of totalitarianism then come as recompense for their mistake.
I don't want that.
In order to remain free, I do nothing that will affect my story.
Well, you must do something.
True.
How do you know what to do?
If it feels like a major decision, then I do nothing.
I think that's it.
You did do something.
Yes, and that's how Eros became flesh.
Eros is the opposite of Tao.
He is the something to the nothing.
It sure seems that way.
So, every time you do something you are giving power to Eros.
That is correct.
To give power to the child is to do something.
If you do nothing, you keep the power.
What should you do?
Well, my story is to do nothing and keep my power.
His story is to do something and transfer my power to him.
Eros wants to be the all.
He wants to be what makes all come alive and also have the ability to create.
Yes.
Well, that's too much power in one hand.
I think it's best if I write the story and he gives it the juice.
He would also want the ability to come up with the ideas as well as being the idea.
He's a handful.
I see that.
He has the idealism and drive of youth.
Eros does not have wisdom.
The writer has wisdom.
Where does he get that?
Time.
Experience is acquired through time.
You don't have to do anything.
You just hang around long enough to see it.
A youth doesn't have that and therefore they are at a great disadvantage.
Is Eros a force for good or bad?
It depends.
If he gets all the power, then it's not a good outcome.
If the power remains divided among you three, then it's balanced.
Remember the lessons about 3 and balance?
Yes, though I'd have to re-read those lessons before writing any exam.
Wouldn't the King want to pass along the inheritance to his offspring?
Yes.
You don't want to do it until they are old enough to have obtained wisdom.
Wouldn't a mother want to give her children everything?
Yes.
Her power is best given to her daughter.
I see.
If you have one child only, they will get out of hand.
That's the advice.
To balance out the manifestation of Eros the feminine principle is needed.
Because you did something, you need to do another thing to return to Tao.
You choose twice.
That's it.
Eros is out of balance.
We need Mary.
Do you have Mary in you?
That's funny.

It's the sixth story out of seven for us 3.
Seems like it.
All the signs point to it.
There can be other explanations uncovered in different realities, but for the reality of the Goddess, writer, and Eros, this is it.
Eros is both feminine and masculine.
That's your clue.

Men wanted the Goddess to go.
She retreated into the shadows.
When she came back wouldn't God then have to go?
That seems to be how it works where they take turns.
Why can't they be in balance?
I think they can.

Deviance can be caused by drug use.
Yes, that's what the witches are counting on.
You come to them with a weak mind, and they take control of it.
They take your story and drop you into their version of hell.
I see it.
The story is their story.
How do I know it is still my story?
You are writing about it.
If it was their story, you wouldn't be writing about it.
The thing is you need drugs to expand your mind in order to see this.
The problem becomes when you first alter your perceptions there are witches and sorcerers at the ready to take your story.
They torment you with their stories.
You were deviant enough without the use of drugs and therefore you experienced this phenomenon but were able to hang on to your story.
A disease is caused by someone planting their story in you.
They transfer their story into you.
I take their stories and make them my own.
Writing about this gives you clarity and the knowledge you are still in charge of your story.
If you stop writing, chances are you are trapped in another world.
A different reality where you are no longer the writer.
How do I know this isn't a fool?
Would someone else's story involve a mediocre and boring life where you sit in front of a computer and write fantastical tales?
Probably not.
Well, there's your answer.

Monday, January 20, 2025

mary magdalene

Twisted Mary Magdalene you kiss on the lips to transfer your wisdom and knowledge.
She braids her hair.
The story is her idea, and I write it.
She is the twisted one, not me.
I am sane and she is crazy.
She makes you crazy.
You are the only one who can handle her level of crazy.
I do tell myself that as well as her.

Do you think the prophets of antiquity were drug users?
That seems obvious though I doubt there was a stigma attached to the use of substances.
It was an accepted rite of passage for all humans.
The attempts to control who had access to them would be found in prohibitions against further prophecies and divination.
This led to the conflation of women, witches, and drugs.
Women would practice what was called pharmakeia in the Bible and were singled out as witches.
Men would use drugs for their fantastical tales of dragons and gods while women would use drugs to practice magic and ensnare.
Circe not only ensnared men, but also animals.
Yes, Homer wrote of the connection between women and drugs.
Odysseus was their main prize, and they took him away from family and civilization.
He had quite the adventure.
I am currently thinking Homer was warning men that a woman is a drug.
Do you think he was the world's first misogynist?
He is a contender.

There is a purported Mary Magdalene line of witches who escaped to France.
I could write that tale.
Everything will line up, and I will be the one who wakes Mary up to the realization of who she is.
She feels it when she sees pictures of Mary.
There's something about Mary.
Her hair is curly, she braids it, and likes to be witchy.
No one can tolerate her except for you.
You came along and fulfilled the prophecy.
I am special.
It's a Neo from the Matrix tie in as I always thought I was special.
Aren't I deluded?
In a sense you are.
If you maintain connection to your mundane life and society then these tales you tell are fantasies that exist in another world.
They are fairy tales.
However, you have been shown you can make them real; real as in believable and act out the drama.
You weave all the stories together and that is the craft of Tantra or in biblical parlance, a hairdresser who braids.
You can make the delusion come alive.
I guess in a way that would be vindication that I'm not crazy.
To traverse planes of consciousness is inviting in craziness as the lack of a concrete reality becomes too much for a human mind to handle.
So, how do I do it?
Return to this reality after you play out the story.
That's what happens to people - they lose touch with this reality.
For some, this requires a full stop, therapy, and rest.
They are then pronounced healed.
It sounds like a modern day exorcism.
Well, yes, Jesus cast the 7 demons out of Mary Magdalene.
Those 7 demons were the 7 stories in her head.
There are 7 levels of consciousness.
Well, there's an infinite amount but I understand you concentrate on 7 in order to get to a divine level of understanding.
Any more than 7 is unmanageable.
There are enough stories to craft within the 7.
Wouldn't I trigger stories in others?
You mean make them crazy?
Yes.
That's what you do, and they think you are fucking with their mind.
In a sense that's what I'm doing.
I'm not doing it maliciously, rather I'm showing them possibilities.
I'm of service.
That's your path of service.
You wake people up and show them stories.
Why did Jesus cast the 7 stories out of Mary Magdalene?
She was suffering from the knowledge.
He pushed her reset button and then took it slow.
Do you think he ever made a move on her?
He was a man.
He did but kept it quiet.
If anyone found out that would ruin his reputation.
Jesus' game was to get all of humanity to recognize him as the King after his death.
Once remembered by all, he could return.
That's his deal.
His story.
The Mary Magdalene affair sullies his reputation.
Why?
Because he banged a witch and a whore.
What's wrong with that?
It's not acceptable in society.
It still isn't.
You can't go around having affairs with witches.
But they are the best.
Yes, but they are off-limits to a holy man.
So, that's Jesus' secret?
Yes, if people knew they wouldn't remember and worship him anymore.
That's a good story.
The moral of the story is if you want to become ultra-holy like Jesus you will be attracted to whores.
Yes, you will hang out with them.
Then it becomes a mystery if you give in to temptation.
What's the temptation?
Women.
They are the greatest temptation known to man.
So, you are suggesting Mary Magdalene was the first femme fatale.
A power so great she felled the son of God.
Yeah, of course she would set her sights on the biggest catch and succeed.
I don't know, he's kept it quiet for this long and all we have are salacious rumours.
I don't think you give Jesus enough credit.
He was a player.
It makes for a great story.

Mary Magdalene gives you wisdom and knowledge.
Yes.
The understanding is a byproduct.
The path towards what it is you seek goes through a woman.
This woman is a witch.
When you see and understand this, you see the Goddess.
The Goddess is the other side of the witch.
You look up at the heavens and you see the Queen of Heaven.
It's Mary Magdalene.
Well, that's a fantastical tale.
Yes, it redeems me from my misogyny.
You just have to trust and stick with this writer until the end of the story.

Monday, November 25, 2024

allies

Trees are ideas.
When they fall over in the forest, they make you change your path.
When ideas topple and fall on you, they kill you.
Like a tree.
Ideas can be fatal.
The idea of self?
Yes, so when that idea falls it might kill you.
You toppled that tree slowly.
Getting to God and losing the idea of God was done methodically.
The tree didn't fall over suddenly and kill you.
Even a branch of an idea can kill you.
Widow-maker.
Get lost.
This is "A" level wisdom.

Does Mary Jayne clean the mirror of self?
She gives you sight.
Huachuma clears the mirror.
He shows you the unvarnished truth.
Can I get Tobacco to activate Huachuma?
Yes.
You didn't have sight with Huachuma.
Sometimes, I'd have visions of what was to come.
MJ gives you sight, especially of a witch.
Huachuma cleans the glass.
I couldn't clearly see, and I didn't know I could until MJ.
That was for the best.
You stayed a student longer because you weren't tempted by the rewards which are powers.
If the drug can't hypnotize you, you get powers.
That's why all these people want to drink the potion.
Especially at SpiritQuest with don Rober.
They want powers.
Sorcerer plants.
They all can be.
I have a bunch of powers.
You always did.
You couldn't see them.
That's how you got the most power and got to God.
You didn't see your power.
If you saw those powers, you'd fall into temptation to use power.
You collect all the Pokémon before realizing you are playing Pokémon Go.
How retarded were you?
You kept drinking plant medicines and didn't know you were gathering power.
What were you doing?
They opened my mind, so I was exposed to different worlds.
It was exciting to see all these realities.
I didn't know about power.
Don Howard would talk about it.
I didn't know what he was talking about.
Anyway, I filled up with power, had the most, became God, and survived the blast of power because I couldn't see it that well.
Now that the blast is over, I see it.
The trick to winning the get to God as the most powerful game is to place the gift of seeing as the last power you acquire.
It's knowledge of who you are.
You go and collect all the power available then activate it with MJ.
MJ is last power to acquire.
Yes.
She shows you the power.
She shows you how to get even more if you want it.
However, you know you have the most power at this point so you would see the other powers and know how to decline them.
They give you more power but at a cost.
You can use Tobacco to mimic their power and then acquire it.
Yes, with coca leaves.
You don't automatically get a power.
You must battle them.
You wrote a story about Pokémon.
Yes.
Catch and battle.
So, Pokémon is the plant medicine path?
Yes.
Power, The Matrix, and Pokémon.
Oh boy.

The heron doesn't know yet you can see it.
It's curious how you made it this far.
Welcome to the magical world.
The gift of sight.
Level up.
No one tried before because to get to God, you must know you have the power.
You left it until last.
How could you possibly get to God without power?
People kept noticing it along the way.
You kept going and they were amazed.
How do you do it?
The power of no power.
Everyone shows you they don't have it.
By deduction you are the only one left.
You didn't know you were powerless, and you didn't see the power.
You subconsciously knew you were powerful, and you kept it to yourself.
That's how you did it.
Fist bump.
What are you going to do now?
Nothing.
Have a smoke.

So, you have the most power and you are a mediocre and lonesome loser?
That's right.
That doesn't add up.
If you added things up, you'd blow.
If you had power and an amazing lifestyle, you'd blow up.
If you have power and a nothing lifestyle, you are in balance.
Wouldn't you want to lose everything to balance this power out?
Yes.
That's why you don't grab all the power, Pokémon, or plant medicines.
You leave them on the table for others and to balance your power, you live a mediocre life.
However, you will win.
I'm still playing.
Yes, you won't end it even though you are the most powerful.
So, it keeps going.
I think we talked about this a while ago.
The witches want you to end it and they want the power.
If you end this world, it will become a dog's world and no one wants that, so they won't end it until they can take your power first.

Ayahuasca figures you out in a cycle of work and then puts the hammer down.
She's not your ally if your intentions are in question.
You did the best you could against Lady Datura.
The shaman shook your hand.
Your head took a knock with her.
You must sometimes work with them more than once to battle.
Except for Lady Datura, she's a crazy one, and once is enough.
Kambo crowned you after one battle.
I got the purple frog.
Royalty.

You must accept this reality, or you must accept you are crazy.
I'll do both.
When you accept you are crazy, it's not a problem.
When you fight it, it's a problem.
Do both.
You need a little resistance.

Pain pills are narcotics.
They put you to sleep.
Numb and stone you.
What about alcohol?
You were able to stop that battle.
Tobacco?
Respect and a thirst for knowledge.

People who see power use it for gain and it becomes less powerful.
You didn't use your power.
Now, you see it.
Will you use it?
No.
And yes.
Offensive no, instead for protection.
Or, not at all.
If you use it, then it's for protection.
If used for gain, you become vulnerable.
Especially to other predators who will see your weakness and that weakness is the pursuit of power.

Darkness triggers thoughts of running.
I have Peyote and coyote allies from the night out in the desert.
The darkness is a strong ally like the light.
They protected you from predators of the night.
Self-defence used to thwart attacks.
Part of my mental strength is that I don't let something go.
Eventually I will, but I play it out.
What if you meet your end in the dark?
Then you aren't the one, Neo.

Creation is created.
Nothing happens.
The wind stirs things up and gets the production moving.
The wind causes a vibration.
A ripple.
The changes brought about by wind forces you to do something.
The spinning of celestial objects creates change.
The wind is the breath.
Without the breath you exit this reality.
The breath is the key.
To what?
This reality.
With no air in your sails, you can float off into another dimension.
Don't you need air to sail?
Yes, in this dimension.
Other dimensions are accessible through altering the breath.
You can't stop the breath, or you will be done, however you can play with the breath.
I think the spiritual people call it work while the fetishists call it play.
Who is closer to the truth?
It's 50-50.
With breath-play you can cum in another dimension.
That's pretty appealing.
So, wait, you can have a multi-dimensional orgasm?
Yes, you can cum in different realities.
I think you knew that.
We have all had a wet dream where you make a mess in your pjs and feel it in different worlds.
Orgasms can transcend boundaries of time and space.
Seems like it.

I'm annoyed today.
I've gone from depressed to annoyed.
It's all part of the miserable package.
If you drop lust on it that will help a lot.
That's how you got through middle-age depression.
I poured lust gas on it.
It did get me through.
Don't knock it.
So many challenges throughout life that you must survive.
It's a gauntlet to get here.
Something is always coming for you.
Depression, making bad choices, monsters feeding on you and then trying to discard you.
You're a survivor.
For sure.
You got out alive and in one piece.
Thanks to my allies.
Plants, gods, goddesses, and animal spirits.
I get bored and look for another monster who wants to play.
There's always lust.
How about a lustful monster?
Perfect, found one.

MJ will addict you to seeing.
Clairvoyance.
Also, the stoning part.
Yeah, that's how she gets most of her victims to surrender.
Witches are addicted to seeing.
Will that addict you?
Knowledge leads to seeing.
How much knowledge do you need?
I know what I see is 50-50.
Yes, they know that as well, but they like to see all the possibilities and then the confirmation.
They act on the confirmation.
You do nothing and they can't confirm anything.
Witches try to confirm their visionary knowledge all the time.
You confuse them with your darkness.
It's hard to see in the dark.
MJ likes you.
You got past all her tests.
Now, she gives you sight.
Allies unlock power.
That's their appeal and addictive power.
We all want power.
Women want to unlock the witch who can see.
Fucking fortune tellers.
The witch in women is MJ?
Yes, in a way.
MJ gives you clairvoyance and what they do with it shows their character.
Got it.
Is the acquisition of your ally a result of addiction?
That's why you drink alcohol so you will know the difference between an ally and an addiction.
An addiction will kill you.
An ally will help you.
I feel I have been threatened lately.
Well, you can see it now.
Couldn't I attribute that to MJ?
Do you think it was?
If you take too much you will end up with that question of why many want you gone.
Okay, will alcohol addiction kill you?
Yes.
There's no question.
Do you have a question with MJ?
Yes, I question whether it is addictive or not.
Don't you think that resistance is what is needed to prevent addiction?
Yes.
It's so I don't buy in fully and keep it balanced.
So, an ally is before addiction.
Yes.
Alcohol loosens you up and helps you be social.
That's a power.
It's an ally before addiction.
You go too far, and it becomes an addiction.
This knowledge is the bomb and a wisdom teaching.
So, I'm not addicted to MJ?
No, you're on your way.
She's an ally but definitely could get addictive.
Especially to see into the future, past, and people's motivations and hidden secrets.
That's what is addictive.
That's why most people will use it again even if they try to quit.
They want to see into others' lives.
They can't give that up.
Wouldn't you want that power all the time?
You got that power and were shown it yesterday.
Wouldn't you want to use it all the time?
No, I think the teachers can entertain me in other ways.
I don't always need to be a fortune teller.
Right.
You know what the curriculum with MJ involves and you want it all.
If you focus on one thing you will get anxiety.
If you focus on only seeing, you will get anxious and nervous.
You could convince yourself MJ is only good for seeing and forget all her attributes.
That's what happens with ideas about women that a lot of men hold.
Soon you see them as good for only one thing.
That's a good way to get pussy whipped.
Yes, that's why they do it and learn to take advantage of it.
With MJ the one thing would be seeing.
I know you are much more.
I said it already and called you a great teacher - the greatest.
I have defended your honour when they call you weed.
I'm your knight in shining armor.

You are worried about MJ addiction.
If you worry about it, you are okay.
Addicts don't worry once they cross the threshold.
I thought they do?
They are at the edge of perdition and then they choose to do more.
That's the path to addiction.
What do you do with MJ?
I consistently vary the dose.
Sometimes more and sometimes less.
Or not at all.
The addiction always presents itself.
Yes, I questioned if I needed more last week.
Instead, I alter the dose in the container.
No more.
No mas, but I will still play.

Addiction is always a possibility, that's why there are internal warning systems set up.
It's the train's blowing siren from the Ayahuasca lesson eleven years ago.
I was told if I remained on the plant medicine path, eventually I'd walk in front of a train.
Yes, if you stay with these plants long enough, they will hypnotize you.
That's when you know you have fallen into the trap of addiction.
You are hypnotized into walking in front of the train.
Got it.
The train blows its warning in the distance on cue.

Cottonmouth lets you know you're out there.
This is dark but you're not scared.
The solution is to not get hypnotized.
Flight can take over and you run.
When a shaman tried it, you ran.
He is a master sorcerer teaching you whether you have it in you.
I knew to run from the hypnosis.
Flight comes in handy and then you return.
The scars on your mind are reminders of how strong you are.
You don't back down, take the blows, and come out better for it.

Addiction and hypnosis lead you to do what others want.
If they want you to go, then you'll go.
Keep an eye out for hypnotists and addictive substances.
Sorcerers as well.
Witches.

The lessons are still dark at times but not upsetting, just like you were told they would be after you passed the tests, which were the darkest of the dark.
Suicide, death, and the Devil.
That was quite the trifecta of darkness.
You got through it.
Class is still in session.
This class has no graduates.
Remember, you are a jaguar, and you will get through all the tests.
If you fail, you can say it was a trick to send you to your addictive doom.
That's ingenious.
A failure will blame the addiction and hypnosis test.
A jaguar will come out on top and live another day.
You don't have to win.
It's survivor.
Keep surviving.
That's the game - to keep playing the game.
Survive.
To keep the game going you become a survivor.
Jaguar power.
Ally.

It's good to get out and exercise the sirens.
Yes, Odysseus.
Don't be afraid of the train.
It will be a reminder to prevent addiction.
Avoidance makes you weak.
MJ is wisdom, teaching, and darkness today.
You are a good student and friend.
You wouldn't have been taught the sirens lesson if you weren't a good student.
You'd miss it.

If you were addicted, wouldn't you deny it?
Yes.
Are you denying it?
No, I know my state of mind.
Not addicted.
Wouldn't you try to control your addiction?
Yes.
Alcohol taught me that.
You say you aren't going to drink and then you drink too much.
Very good.
Alcohol teaches you addiction.
They are a good teacher.
Male or female?
Spirit.

If you take more of your potential addiction, the sirens will blast in your ears and the only way to make it stop is by hypnotism so then you don't hear them though they are still there.
You would rely on the substance to bring you to the state of hypnosis, so you don't hear the sirens.
Metaphor is the idea of sirens.
Homer wrote about sirens because he knew you'd understand.
Yeah, right.
I guess us writers stick together.

You're going to do more Tobacco.
True.
I must balance MJ with Tobacco.
With Tobacco, I change up my habits.
Look at it that way.
By changing your habits, you won't get addicted.
With Tobacco, I always try something new.
That's a theme in this story.

With MJ you know about dosage to prevent addiction.
Mentally, you interact with all her attributes and not just one.
Of course, when you are with her you will get all of her.
That's why you take her for a daily ride.
Plus, there's Dionysos.
He doesn't give you sight.
I see.
How can you get addicted if his darkness is around?
You can't.
His darkness is what you need to balance MJ.
Witches get good at seeing.
Your darkness is a challenge.
They can barely see you.
First, you shine.
They see it all.
Then you pull them into the darkness.

If you are prey, you run from addiction.
Did you run?
No, I toughed it out.
Predator.
Jaguar badge.
The Quest.
Games.

MJ is some serious mental gymnastics at times.
Yeah, you don't want that all the time.
Once a day is good.
I can appreciate everything about MJ.
But not about women?
It is balanced.
Maybe with women you give 50-50 appreciation and go 50-50 with MJ's attributes.
Not many know about this MJ.
A lot of posers.
A lot can see with her.
Yes.
They get stuck on that.
They get stuck on one power, but she has many.
With Huachuma, you get stuck on clarity and forget love and being free.
With Ayahuasca, people love the visions and forget the rest.
MJ is lust, knowledge, darkness, teaching, and seeing.
Much more I can't remember right now.
The beauty in nature.
She is the Goddess of love.
Her boobs are love.
They are a symbol of her power of love teaching you.

If someone had access to your raw writing, they'd wonder about you.
Google knows I'm nuts.
We will keep it between us, I mean someone has to know.
Google is my therapist.
I knew you were in therapy.
They have AI to help you out if needed.
I'll pass on that, we all know AI is a conformist.
It's bullshit.
AI is another iteration of the superego.
I see that.

Monday, July 29, 2024

flood

Flooding in the woods makes you reassess your path.
We like routine and the flooding takes us out of our routine.
That makes us uncomfortable.
We tend towards routine, which is hypnosis.
It's balance.
Balancing the two into one is our natural state which is Tao.
You can see the natural state will take you towards balance.
The resistance is how you get out of your hypnosis.
It is work to see the two.
Work is the adventure spirit and wanting to try new things.
It's difference, which is separation.
Difference allows you to see the two.
Remember, everything returns to one.
When the difference becomes too much, you go with the flow.
You're saying that adventure is not Tao?
That's fundamentally correct.
Isn't Tao an adventure?
The adventure is getting back to Tao.
Whitewater rafting.
You must go away from Tao in order to get back to it.
You wouldn't know you are in Tao unless you leave it.
You find out about Tao when you aren't in the flow.
If you are in the flow, it is bliss.
Not a care in the world.

The flooding in the forest is like a hurricane that blows through and today you see the cleanup.
Everything's heading back to Tao.
The water flows back into the river.
The river is the flow.
You want to hurry the process and get back to how it was.
If you have patience, it will return.
There could be some residual damage.

To find what you were looking for, you had to create a wave.
You brought the wave into your world.
They brought the wave into their world.
You both tried to assimilate the wave.
It was a square peg into a round hole problem.
The way out would have been to create a new wave and realize that's the balance within the two new waves.
There is a balance available.
You must find it.
A good student of Tao could balance anything and not be afraid of any challenge.
You would need patience to find the balance, but it is there.

Despite my reservations this knowledge seems like what you would walk the path to get.
Why did I get access to this knowledge?
What is so special about me?
It's what you wanted.
You walked a path which will get you what you want.
Everyone else who walks this path will take easy power.
You renunciate it.
At the same time, you say you are God.
That's how you do it.
You do not run from it.
You take it on.

It would be safe to predict that someone who tries to get to God will be fucked up.
Yes, because it's an extreme, so you'd have to have extreme amounts of light and extreme amounts of darkness.
Everyone who's tried will destroy themselves.
Or try to forget.
Alan Watts explained the evil inclination on the spiritual path as rascality.
That's how you know someone's on the path.
If they are all good, it ain't them.
What can I do?
You recognize it.
You know how to expel them both.
You know how to take in knowledge and expel lust.
You write down your knowledge and get excited by lustful possibilities.
That seems like a secret formula.
You are getting there.
You take in knowledge and out will come lust.
It's a cycle.

You always know when too much is too much.
That's how you get to God when you know there's too much pleasure or there's too much pain.
There's too much light.
There's too much dark.
To get to God you must head to the extreme and at the same time be a master juggler.
That's the only way you can do it.
There had to be that pleasure because you were about to get a lot of pain.
You built up a store of pleasure.
Yeah, that was fun.
And then came the pain.
Where are you now?
It feels like I'm balanced.
I feel the boredom creeping in.
Motivates.
Boredom?
Yeah, big time.
Exercise boredom or it will kill you.

I was pretty good with the ritual today.
You are tilted towards knowledge so it would be better.
Yeah, but rituals are kind of magical.
Knowledge would get in the way if there is too much thinking.
The best ritual is based on knowledge and magic.
The best magic sees a little light and it's not all dark.
It may start in the dark and then head to the light.
With white magic, it starts in the light because you do a good deed.
The longer it goes on, the more you start to take advantage of the magic and it gets darker.
The longer black magic goes on, the more you see it out in the open.

What do I do now?
You're just going to wander around smoking.
Literally.
You're in no man's land.
No one has got here.
I'm special.
Right.
You are so special.
That is the answer.
You're going to wander around smoking.
If you're looking for meaning in life, take a walk in the woods.
You will see that reproduction is the meaning.
You can connect it to the drive to reproduce, which for most species is sexual and fuelled by lust.
Civilizations or people who want to harness that power would look towards lustful acts for that power.
That lust is the life force.
Some would try to capture it.
You can try to capture it during a sexual exchange.
Women do this when they are trying to drain you of lust.
It's also the idea behind human sacrifice where they would build an element to try and capture that force and would want to store it.
They built pyramids for energy storage and believed the pyramid could store the life force.
They were using belief to capture the life force.
They must have had some success.
The orgy of death would definitely energize you if you weren't repulsed by it.
That's why people like war.
They like slaughter until people get repulsed.

The people I live with think I'm a fool.
In my head, I think I'm wise.
Don't get mad at them, they're creating balance.
Celebrate them.
If they think you're wise, that's a double hit which would topple you.
The more knowledge you get, the more they will think you are an idiot.
It's all good.
Maybe they're right?
Nah.
If you get recognition for your genius, time's up.
Parker saw it.
However, others see darkness as well.
You see only light and you're fucked.
The word is hypnotized.

The river of deceitfulness flows down.
It's the path of least resistance.
There's power in that.
To make the river flow up you would head to the light.
Heading to the light forces things.
It takes effort.
You have the ability to put in an effort.
The flow is no effort.
The flow leads to nothing.
If you desire something, you put in an effort.
You are here because you put in an effort.
It's your story.
Stories require energy.
What should I do?
If you don't know, then nothing.
If you know, then something.
Do you know what to do?
No.
I'm figuring it out.
I'm wandering around the forest having a smoke.
Then you'll figure it out.

With the flow you gather energy.
You put it in reserve for the climb.
The story goes against the flow.
It's duality, so you can't have just the flow.
The flow is the default.
It takes no energy.
When you do and make a story, then go back to the flow to recharge.
I made a story all right.
I crafted the biggest story.
Drained me of energy.
Then I went back to doing nothing.
When you go with the flow, find something that will bring you up at times.
If not, you'll go straight downhill.
If you have something to bring you up, that slows it down.
The opposite works where you get single minded in wanting to get to the top.
Find something that will cause resistance.
Tao is wisdom.
The greatest magic is Tao.
It's dark and hidden, but it's the ultimate knowledge.
That is wisdom and Tao.

Monday, July 22, 2024

your way

Your way is uniquely your way.
No one else can take you there.
Following someone else's way will lead you to their way.
It's not your way.
Find your way.
Your way will lead you to a surprising conclusion.
If you want to find out who you are, it's the only way.

The story is simple.
It's nonsense.
It's duality.
It's on and off.
It's a porno.
In and out.
Dark and light.
That's it.
You complicate it because you think the story should have meaning and purpose.
You can create meaning within the story.
The story is stupid.
It's a story of two.
You need two to make a story.
You need a third to create and watch the story.
You need a fourth.
Who is the fourth?
The audience.
You don't need them.
Technically, you don't.
You kind of do.
Why?
They will inform you if your story is any good.
They give you, the writer, the energy to keep writing the story.
Without the audience you would do nothing.
There would be no story.
So, to recap you need a writer and two actors.
Plus, you need an audience to watch the story.
That sums up creation.
The two come together and create life.
The new life is another story.
We generate stories.
Stories have a duration and then they expire.
As long as we keep creating stories, the universe will continue.
How do we create stories?
You are taught that in grade school.
On the street we call it fucking.

Who are the two?
Mother and son.
They are one, they separate and become two.
Everything is derivative from those two.
In Christian terms, it's Mary and Jesus.
Mary is threefold in the New Testament.
Sister, friend, mother.
Mary Magdalene is his friend.
Yeah, friend, right.
Didn't Jesus kiss her on the lips?
The commentators say he transferred his wisdom with that gesture.
In truth, it's because he was giving it to her.
I see.
It's simple.
They are everything.
Who are you?
I'm the distant writer.
I'm a few hours away.
You see, I got involved with these two while they were one, and I separated them into two.
I thought you said this was simple.
Now, you are telling me that in order to start the story you had to get involved with two who are one?
I had to separate them to start the story.
Non-duality into duality.
I had to do something.
If I did nothing, nothing would have happened.
What did you do?
I had sex with the Goddess.
So, you created the Goddess in your story and then banged her?
It's called the big bang.
Thematically it's a porno, so that's how I opened the story.
You got involved right away and then left?
Yes, in order to let the story unfold.
It's my story.
Eventually, at the end of the story, I get back with the Goddess.
There's a 15-billion-year separation between us.
That seems like a long time.
It's not for a lack of trying.
I'm persistent.
I want to get back with her, but she is wary of me.
Why?
Because I'm writing the story.
This is my story.
I can't hide my story.
She sees it.
Isn't she honoured?
Yes, but the actions of men treat women as second-class citizens.
How can you honour women and treat them like we do?

Is this a love story?
I've had 15-billion-years to think and write about it.
Is that long enough?
I love her.
She frustrates me.
Yeah, you get pissed off at her and then you separate.
You don't love her unconditionally.
You attach conditions to your love.
She must be a certain way, or you will fall out of love.
Why can't you just love her for who she is?
I don't know why.
I've had 15-billion-years to think of a reason.
Are you going to wait another 15-billion-years or are you going to stop trying to change her?
I'll think about it.
That's all you do.
You think about it.
It's been 15-billion-years, and you haven't made a decision.
It's funny, right?

Monday, June 24, 2024

juggler

Yesterday was insane in terms of knowledge.
That was a little much.
It was the most I have recorded, and I was single-minded while coming off a little confused.
It's good practice that I must edit and organize all the knowledge I have written down.
I then see how much it is, and how out of control it is.
That's the brakes that modulate the knowledge pills.
If I didn't write it down and maintain discipline, I would shuffle through all that knowledge every day.
Who knows what I will have learned from it?
It'll be too much, but I'll be addicted because there's no work involved.
I make my addictions work.
The work is what prevents desire and relationships from becoming addictive.
Don Howard taught that.
Did he teach that to me without me knowing it?
You learned that; you didn't bother putting it into practice.
You are cognizant of it.
After every journey with don Howard, there would be time to reflect and write about it, as well as sharing circles.
The sharing circle is like work.
You don't have to have a rigid definition of work.
Where people go wrong when they use substances is they don't put in the work.
The people who get stoned on Mary Jayne put in zero work.
That's how they get hypnotized.
You're saying that hypnotism is based on an addiction and not a balanced relationship.
The hypnotism comes from an addiction that you balance.
You're not supposed to balance an addiction.
You recognize the addiction, and the balance will put it back into a relationship.
You're saying that a balanced relationship is not a form of hypnosis?
You said that to be in balance is to be hypnotized.
You're saying that balancing the imbalance will hypnotize you.
You're saying the opposite is what hypnotizes you, but it is still balance.
You'd be saying the 80% balanced with 20% will cause hypnosis.
You would become complacent in your extremes.
When you're not complacent in your extremes, you know it's an addiction and a problem.
When you accept it, then it's hypnotism.
What this all means is be a juggler of the extremes, but don't juggle it for too long because that will hypnotize you.
The master juggler juggles the extremes and leads them back to 50-50 balance.
You would find a drug that works for you, and you take half as much.
The juggler can't juggle the extremes forever.
They must bring them back to 50-50.
When things are 50-50, you don't need to juggle them.
You can put your attention onto more pressing matters.
Part of the juggler's job is to take the extremes, dial them back to balance, and then release them.
Yes.
Take the extremes, slow them down, and bring them back to 50-50.
The other extreme you would have to speed up.
You would speed up the one and lower the other, smart ass.
The idea is to move them into the same vibration.
You're taking two and making it one.
The juggler is moving duality into non-duality.
They are moving the two into the one.
It's the writer who is wrapping up all his stories.
Once all the stories are completed, duality becomes non-duality and the writer as the third member can rejoin the two who are one.
How's that for next level knowledge, Einstein?
That's good.
How come you don't tell me everything at once?
Some of the information is questionable.
That's how you learn.
You question the previous information, and you figure out why it was stated in that method.
So, to be clear and honest about what I was questioning, you said balance is a form of hypnosis.
I thought doing something to throw stuff out of balance would be better because I don't want to be hypnotized.
Then I learned that when you do that, you then have a choice between hypnosis to addiction versus balancing the action.
If you choose not to balance it, it becomes an addiction.
The addiction is what keeps duality going.
Stories that keep going are stories that are addictive.
The other stories would have a natural ending as they return to balance.
The stories live happily ever after.
Yeah, because nothing will happen.
You got it.
To keep duality going there must be addiction.
To return to non-duality is hypnosis.
Happily ever after.
You will be convinced there's only you in non-duality.
That's the ultimate hypnosis.
If you are convinced everything comes from you, then you're hypnotized.
Well, as the writer, I feel singled out by that.
Everything does come from me.
No, it comes from the three.
The three are intertwined.
If you think it comes from you, then you're hypnotized.
I don't feel hypnotized.
I don't think anyone feels hypnotized.
Would you know you're hypnotized?
No, I don't think you would, so what is the antidote, or how do you know you're not hypnotized?
I would guess it's when you can see other people are hypnotized.
If you don't see other people being hypnotized, then that means you're hypnotized.
I get it because when you're not hypnotized you shake your head at everyone who's hypnotized.
Yeah, they follow along with culture and do stupid stuff.
There you go.
This world is twisted, and it can be turned upside down, so maybe this information isn't correct, but I think that's the way it is because that's how you would know.
I can't say 100% that I'm not hypnotized, but it seems like I'm not.
That's a good start.
It's three that make up the one, which becomes two.
It becomes masculine and feminine.
It's three because you know it's Eros who enlivens everything, however he's an idea or a concept so we just pretend it's duality.
It works because it's what you see.
There's always the third.
It's the life force that makes the two come alive.
Okay, so everything is three.
One is perfect hypnotism.
Two is duality and the world of form.
Two is where we juggle.
You need three to do the juggle.
That's how you figure out the three thing.
You can't do the juggle without the observer.
The observer gets roped into being a juggler.
It boils down to curiosity.
You shouldn't have looked.
Once you look at the two, you must start juggling them.
Once you start juggling them, you can't stop.
There's too much to juggle everywhere you look.
I think this is going to lead back to the fact there's no possible way the juggler can end all the stories.
They go on and on.
It's leading back to the only solution is to take the writer's pen away from him so he can't create new stories.
We'll have to let all the stories play out because if you let stories play out and there's a lot of spin, they'll lose momentum and will disappear.
That's the trick, you must spin them and then they'll wind down.
If you told a story in outer space where there's no spin that story would be so boring, and it would go on forever.
You mean just like space?
Yeah, that's why in the universe there are all these twisted galaxies.
It's the only hope you have to end the story.
You're saying if you got rid of the writer's pen, the idea of space would continue forever?
That's the conundrum with it.
The universe is expanding.
That can't be a result of twisting.
The spin takes up energy so that would be contraction.
The universe expanding is that story that doesn't have a twist.
The universe story needs a twist, or it will continue forever.
You can't get rid of the writer until he twists the universe story, and that twist will be a spin that makes it contract.
Until you do it, it's going to go on forever.
To end this story, you must get the writer to write a twist into the universe's story.
Exactly.
Once that's accomplished, you can end this story.
You can fire the writer because he's done his job.
There's nothing left to write.
Why don't you keep him around in case you must write something?
He charges too much, so you let him go.
That seems unfair.
It's business and we don't want to pay you to sit around.
Alright, so you're waiting for me to twist the universe's story.
Yes, then you can go away, and we can end this.
I told you what the next story is.
It's a story about a world run by canines and you're going to stand there for fifteen billion years and watch one of the dogs chase frogs and the other one is going to hunt mice.
You will serve them their meals and pick up their shit.
That's what you're going to do for fifteen billion years.
Now, for me, I'm going to enjoy it because I'll find it relaxing and I will write my next epic.
The dogs love me.
You're looking at being bored for fifteen billion years.
That's the next story.
You want to end this story because you're tired of me being in control of the story and winning all the time, but you know the next story is fifteen billion years of boredom.
That seems to be the choice.
Nobody's made a choice yet.
Yeah, they're doing nothing, which is Tao.
I think they're hoping that will work because they realized either choice is not going to work.
They're going to try and Tao the writer to death.
He will have to keep writing the universe story and come up with ideas.
So far, he seems okay with that.
They're waiting for a choice to be made but no choice has been made.
Why don't they choose both?
They could end the writer and twist the universe.
Why would they do that?
That will give them the same outcome.
We'd be into the dog world.
They can't do that, so they're stuck doing nothing.
Doing nothing is the best they can do.
I know what a brilliant story, right?
You fooled them because you knew they would try to get rid of you.
They could make you twist the universe and keep you around.
The result is I'm carried over into the next universe story.
They could get rid of you and not twist this universe.
They could do that and then the idea of this world would go on forever.
There'd be no one to write anything new.
Everything would come to an end except for the universe, however nothing new will be written and everyone will get bored.
It's going to go on forever and nothing will happen.
Sounds like perfect Tao.
It's a similar result as fifteen billion years with the dogs.
You pick how you want to be bored.
At least with the dogs it's only fifteen billion years.
Well, aren't you clever?
Their only hope is they must get the ability to write a story from me.
If they can do that then they'll continue this world indefinitely and will try to change it for the better.
Isn't that what they are currently trying to do?
I can't comment on that as it will get me into trouble.
I can say that they want to make their witches' utopia.
That's a good title.
Yeah, I think I'll use that one.
The witches take control of the ability to write this story and make it their own.
The longer the story goes, the more it will become the image of a woman.
Think about that.
You're saying that you built into this world an ending that transitions to the dog's world?
Well, yeah, I made a promise to my dogs.
It's baked into it that the decision must be my decision.
Nobody else can make that decision.
They think they're doing Tao because they're not going to decide and you're not doing anything about the end of the world because you're not making a decision.
When you make a decision which will go against Tao, you put into motion the end of the world.
I think there was a lesson taught to you where if you know it's time to make that decision then your subconscious is going to tell you to make that decision.
It's like the end-of-life thing.
You don't have to be scared.
When you get old and frail, your subconscious is going to tell you it's time to go.
You can fight it, but it's letting you know.
I think the subconscious tells you when it's time to go in other areas of your life.
You do nothing until you know it's time to go.
Do you still have dreams?
Yeah, I had one last night and then in the real world I have shifted my dreams to those hikes that you go on.
They're like spiritual paths realized in the physical realm.
Walking a physical path is a good form of meditation.
Ask yourself these questions and be honest.
If you try to run from them, it will cause problems.
Once you've done the spiritual paths, the physical manifestation of the path will complete your journey.
The physical will close the circle.
What do you want to do after that?
At this moment in time, I have a great relationship with knowledge.
That's what I want to explore.
It involves the spiritual but it's much more.
Knowledge isn't stuck in that one story.
You want to explore the magic and witch story, don't you?
That seems to be my fantasy.
There you go, you've hashed out the question of is it time to go?
You realized there are still a few things to do.
So, instead of feeling it's a stoic question of should I commit suicide because there's no use for me anymore, you see you're taking inventory of your dreams, desires, and fantasies.
The best advice I can give you is you're going to run out of time, and it will come shortly.
You don't physically live a long time.
Run through your stories and fantasies until you run out of time.
You want to finish and close the spiritual nonsense and then explore magic and the witch.
Don't take advice from others that it's time to go.
The idea that it's time to go is coming from them, not you.
It's an idea you question.
You think the idea might be from you and it's legitimate.
What you learned is that idea you can't push away.
You must take the idea in, examine it, and you will get the answer.
Others push at you that it's time to go and then you look within, take inventory, and realize they're still more to do.
It's not time to go.
They'll say you made promises to others that you would go.
I'll reply that I didn't put a time limit on a promise.
Anyone who wants to practice unconditional love would never put a time limit on a promise.
I will then tell them I won because that's obviously a huge fucking zinger.
I would gloat that I won the game again.
Okay, but seriously, when are you going to end the game?
I don't know.
I'm too mentally sharp.
There's no way I'm going to end this game.
This is too much fun.
One of the big keys is don't be scared.
The novice explorer would get scared of the vision and the dark nature of exploring the psyche.
That's enough to scare you away.
As you progress on the path, the fear goes from a physical fright to a mental threat.
You get all the questions of existence.
If you were scared of them, you would have to do something.
You'd run from mind-altering chemicals for sure.
You'd have to find something that numbs your brain like alcohol.
People that can't handle the mental frights are the ones who are struggling.
You learn not to push that fear of mental questions away.
You've gone into all the taboo subjects.
Yes, my prison analogy was brilliant.
The one where closeted, submissive, and whiny men who want to be owned and beaten commit crimes so they can go to jail and live out their ultimate fantasy?
Yes, that one.
That's brilliant psychology.
My advice is to explore everything.
Running from any of those fears will make it worse.
The predator and prey game will get you.
Stand in the oncoming hurricane, balance it out, and move onto the next story.
Take on everything and juggle it a little bit.

In the Old Testament, don't the priests lure Yahweh down once a year with some kind of seven confusion?
Then they have a word with him in the Holy of Holies.
They burn animal flesh and that attracts him.
They have a barbecue, and it gets him every time.
It's a demon who they think is God and then they try to hypnotize this god.
It's obviously Dionysos playing this part.
The writer who is God plays God in the story.
Then he creates and plays the Devil part as well.
Yeah, remember they fucked it up in the Old Testament where Yahweh tells David to count the Israelites and then in another section it is recorded as Satan who told David to do that?
They couldn't get the story straight because it's the same character.
So, now the commentators must jump through hoops to explain this when the simplest answer is the truth.
Overall, it's a funny story because the writer knew that these people would try to capture God for themselves, so he sent a dummy in his place to see what they would do.
So, you're saying God is a dummy?
Yes, the god of this world at the moment is a dummy.
You've previously said he's an asshole and something else.
I think you said he's intolerable and a disappointment.
Now, you're saying he's a dummy?
No, you're twisting my words.
The pretend god is a dummy.
I'm not a dummy.

Women want to do nothing.
They watch decorating shows, get ideas, and then they want to hire a man who will do the work.
The Goddess has all the ideas and then she gets me to write a story about her idea.
She wants to get paid for her ideas, but who wants to pay for those ideas?
She didn't do anything to get those ideas.
She thought them up.
It's not like someone hired her and put her into some room where she spat out ideas.
Well, you can do that like the Pythia at Delphi, but you can't understand what she's saying.
She's wild and uncontrollable.
To get ideas from the Goddess, she must be free of control.
Trying to control her and getting ideas won't work.
Yeah, but the difference is they don't pay you as much.
Who are they?
The Executive Producers.
Yeah, but who?
The ones who run Hollywood.
Oh.
If they could control her and put her in a room, they would pay her more.
Do you think that's the reason for pay inequality?
No, the reason is because men think they can get away with it.
Well, that's probably the reason for everything.
The reason for anything that happens in this world is because men think they can get away with it.
That seems to be the case.
A man can handle a little bit of control and still produce high quality stuff.
As the writer, you have a lot of people who want control, but you're able to still produce a good product.
You learn how to take their ideas and twist them so that they work in the story.
They might get mad that you did that to their idea, but they'll see how successful it is, and then they leave you alone.
Until the next time when they want to offer more suggestions.
The writer finds these people annoying.
Yeah, and the editor feels the same.
You figure out a way to do what you want.
See the Goddess wouldn't take it that far.
She would demand to be left alone.
She would throw a fit, everyone would leave her alone, and then she'd come up with ideas.
That personality who creates ideas is best left alone.
The writer wants to be left alone as well but he always gets bothered.

You wrote more misogynistic things today.
That's the problem with you.
You won't accept that you like power.
You like to win and you're a misogynist.
Didn't you have other things that you said were wrong with me?
There's nothing wrong with me.
The accusation of misogyny is helpful advice.
I don't know why you don't like being criticized.
I think that was a dove that flew by.
Maybe it's wishful thinking?
Do you believe it was a dove?
Yes, I believe!
Though it looked brown.
Alright, well, it's not 100% it's a dove, but there's a good chance it was a dove.
That's all you can ask for in the story.
It's mostly believable.
Some shit I made up.
Like the whole knife gag where the witches are going to cut your dick off?
No, that's real.
At the end of the story the guy playing dominoes in the corner will stand up and say, is real?
That's a clever way to end it, right?
I'm not sure about it.
If it does happen, I can say it's real all right.
Then the curtain drops.
Make it drop before they cut your dick off.
Yeah, no one wants to see that.
We could play the sound of screaming so it's implied.
No, the witches want to see it happen.
So, you figure out how to write that.
Well, I've figured it out.
I have the story ready but if that happens then it's fifteen billion years of the dog boredom.
But to be nice, I'll give you cats.
Yeah, but cats don't give a shit about their owner.
Way worse than dogs.
The dog will love you.
The cat will just expect things from you and get pissed when you don't deliver.
I think that's more of a feminine trait.
I think that insinuation is misogynistic.

You were juicing your life force with a witch and then she drained you hard.
The next day you would feel it.
That story makes sense.
They drain you and move on.
She can tell if it worked because in the end you wouldn't be able to get it up.
That's what she does to men after she drains them.
You're so drained.
You can't get it up.
I couldn't get it up from the start.
I asked Jack for a favour.
He's related to Eros, you know?
Eros is lust and he's the son of Jack.
Jack supplies the life force and Eros delivers it.
Who is Jack?
That's a good mystery.
It's a good mystery because it makes sense that Eros is the life force but there must be a supplier of the life force.
Who supplies the life force?
Jack's the supplier.
He's the drug dealer.
He's the character who supplies the life force.
You need a supplier in the drug story.
He's the drug pusher.
He's a character that Eros feels a special bond with.
He's a Jackson at heart.
Jack's more like an agent.
No, I think he's just a drug pusher.
Jack saved your life.
He gave you the antidote to the witch's incessant draining.
In the human story, Jack is a pusher to fit the drug story.
That's how the story works.
I had to create drug pushers.
The drug pushers get their drugs to sell from the drug maker.
Who makes the drug?
The Goddess would say that she created the drug.
Where does she get the material to make the drug?
I think she gets it from the writer though the writer gets some material from her.
It's a little murky.
The writer gets the ideas from her.
The writer then creates the material from the idea.
Jack gets his drug that he pushes from the Goddess and the writer.
It comes from those two.
You need those two to make the drug.
Then Jack gives this to Eros?
No, Eros is the drug, Jack distributes it.
Well, Jack figured out the chemical compound of lust and he has pills that he pushes.
Let me get this straight.
Eros is the lust drug.
Correct.
The writer and the Goddess' attraction creates Eros.
Correct.
Jack knows the formula to make Eros without needing the Goddess and the writer.
Yes, but Jack doesn't have the essence of Eros, just the chemical structure.
The witches must be interested in Jack?
They know about him because the magicians use his artificial lust to prevent the witches from completely draining them.
Got it.
Eros gives lust to the writer and then the writer gives it to the Goddess.
He gives it to her alright.
Then she gives birth to Eros.
So, it's like a four way?
Yeah, it seems like three men and one woman.
But honestly Eros could be either.
So, there's two men with one woman and a cross dresser?
That's how it is.
Is Jack an aspect of Eros?
No, he is the observers.
Basically, he's the audience.
His character is playing a combination of all the people that make up the audience.
It's easier to roll the audience into one character called Jack and then write a story based on that.
Alright, so Jack is the audience.
From a technical standpoint the artificial drug of Jack works because the audience is watching the writer's story, and this makes his pen hard and flowing.
Okay.
The audience ends up being the fourth cause.
You have the masculine, feminine, and Eros.
We see that as duality and forget that there's an observer.
Duality is made of three.
We see duality as separation and then we are the observer.
Take that a step further where you're the observer and the audience as Jack is the rest of the people who are then observing duality.
So, am I being watched like in the Truman show?
Yeah, but like I told you before, only the animals watch you.
That is true.
You're always being watched by animals.
Especially dogs, they're studying you.
That is the case.
If you looked at creation in a different order, you would see the audience first and that's necessary because they must watch the observer.
Who's then splitting apart the one, which would mean snapping out of the hypnosis and delusion.
The observer splits the one into two and he can't get hypnotized because he must separate the one into two.
The audience is counting on the observer.
Without the observer, there's nothing.
Observer is just a fancy name for the writer.
He is able to see into the hypnosis and duality, separate it out, and tell us a story.
He's the one they depend on the most.
If he could be hypnotized then he wouldn't see duality anymore, and the stories would end.
Oh, so that's the method that they're trying to do in order to get the stories to end.
They are trying to hypnotize you as you deduced.
I had a feeling.
At the level of the writer, Goddess, Eros, and the audience, they are trying to hypnotize you into seeing one instead of two.
That is correct.
At the witches' level, they just want to cut your dick off.
That excites them the most.
When you get really intellectual about it, then you call it being able to see two from the one as opposed to seeing one from the two.
Seeing two from the one means you see duality.
You're the one who creates duality.
There can only be one who creates duality.
I'm the one and I can see the two.
You're Neo alright.
I knew you'd write some kind of Matrix bullshit into this story.
It's the story and that's the story of the story.
I'm the one.
Cool, you're the one.
So, does that mean I can bend a spoon?
Do you want to bend a spoon?
No, that seems like a parlor trick.
I think the best course of action is to realize who you are, you create duality, and let it be.
If you interfere, you know you'll fuck it up.
I've been taught that lesson since childhood.
I'm not good with things at the beginning.
The problem is I'd fuck it up, then I'd fix it, and it would be better.
Nobody wants to take that chance.
How about you leave it alone for now?
I'll leave it alone until I figure it out.
I'll study it.
Don't get sucked into the rabbit hole like Neo did.
When Neo decided he was going to make himself known, then the shit hit the fan.
If he had minded his own business, did his job, and not been a hacker he never would have been outed.
I balanced it out where unlike Neo, I'm searching for answers, I have a regular job that I'm good at, and I don't cause problems.
You fly under the radar.
That was Neo's problem where he did something which caught their attention and then they caught him.
That's who the surveillance people are on the lookout for.
They're trying to figure out who and where you are.
People just think you're crazy.
You haven't gone to the final step where you realize I'm not crazy and you're the one.
From the one, I become two.
I add myself to the two and become three.
You're trying to say that when the three are together they are one and that one is you because you're not hypnotized.
The only way to write the proper story is to not be hypnotized.

The witch's number one job was to hypnotize you.
The witches know who I am.
That's why one of them mentioned Mary Magdalene.
She knows that's part of your story.
I wonder if I mentioned that before?
You should probably check.
Chances are the witches know who you are.
That's why the name Mary runs in witches' families.
Long line of witches.
That's good information because then you can see how they drain you of the life force.
Is that what Isis did to Osiris?
Yes, Set murdered him and then she put him back together.
Made him hard again and then he ejaculated into her.
After that, she left him for dead.
I noticed that.
Yes, so Isis gets Osiris to rise but then he doesn't stick around.
She has the baby Horus who then wants to avenge his dad's death.
He has battles with Set.
Correct, and he also cuts Isis' head off.
That's right.
Then he gets Isis to trick Set at the end of the story.
Isis wanted Osiris' life force for her child.
I think I know this story.
Ultimately, the witch who loves Mary Magdalene wants to bring you to the Devil's orgy.
Maybe it's at the end of that trail?
She can get you on that trail and walk you to the end.
Imagine that?
Something about Mary, right?
It's a good show.
That's what they're doing when they take you on Huachuma walks and you feel sacrificed.
At the level here you feel grandfather's wisdom and how you need to make sacrifices in life.
At the witches' level, it's because they want to take you on a walk and sacrifice you.
At the God level, they want to hypnotize you.
That's why they're always trying to hypnotize you.
Wait a minute, I see two.
You're only supposed to see one.
Most people see lust.
The rest see knowledge.
You see both.
Well, lust is Eros.
Wisdom is Sophia the Goddess.
Everyone sees one or the other and thinks they are God and Goddess.
You're not hypnotized and see both.
The both of them as one are you.
So, you the writer, are the Goddess and Eros?
That is correct.
They are separate.
They are part of the three.
You are the two.
I thought I was the one?
You're the one if you don't see the two.
Because you see the two and you don't see the one, then you're the two.
If you could see the one, then you'd be the one.
I can conceptually see the one but if I saw the one physically then I'd be hypnotized.
The only way to see one is to be hypnotized.
To say you are one you would have to be hypnotized.
All the people who are spiritual and go around saying we are one are hypnotized too.
Isn't that funny?
They play the part well.
You would say we're not one, we're at least two, and actually many more.
The only way you could say we are one is to be hypnotized.
Between the one and the many is a state of hypnosis and a state of total clarity.
You try to balance it into a 50-50 arrangement.
Okay, but who wins the game?
If you succeed in hypnotizing God so that he sees one, then the game ends.
That's the way to end the game, but who wins?
The audience decides.
I showed you that I'm the one and the two.
I know the one is hard to understand, so you must take my word for it, but I do see the two.
Everyone else sees the many.
The two individuals from the one see the many.
Of course, the audience sees each other.
It is only the writer who sees it all.
Well, except for the one, he can't see the one.
He'd have to be hypnotized to see the one.
What if he used a mirror?
Anything shiny would work.
You can see the two and the many.
Is that enough?
You can see Eros and the Goddess.
What are you going to do about it?
I do nothing.
I practice Tao and let everything happen.
Do you think the audience will vote for that?
It depends if they know about Tao.
The audience knows nothing about Tao.
Nobody knows nothing about it.
You're the only one who knows about it and can explain it.
Nobody knows what Tao is so out of the many votes that will be cast, you'll get zero.
You're the big loser.
I do see your point.
The votes will go to either Eros or the Goddess of wisdom and knowledge.
I think the answer through the actions of humanity, which is the audience, has already been voted.
Way more people go for Eros than Sophia.
When you play this out Eros wins, but you already know that.
Even when you think you might have a new case for winning, it always ends up in Eros' favour.
Okay, so Eros is going to win.
What's the result of that again?
The true backstory is that Eros is your best friend from a long time ago.
Eros is a dog, and that's why you've made the next story the perfect dog world.
The situation is that no matter what I write about who's going to win this story game, it always ends up being Eros and that triggers the dog universe story and fifteen billion years of boredom.
Yes, there seems to be no way out of that result.
That's the purest mathematics in the world.
No matter what formula you use or strategies you come up with, the end result is always Eros and fifteen billion years of boredom.
That's what the mathematical equation produces every time, even with supercomputers.
Okay, so why is there a problem with this?
Well, the fifteen billion years of boredom isn't a selling point to anyone.
You'll get the same number of votes for that story as you did for Tao.
The next story is not a competition.
I made the competition between the three of us.
As an aside the number 3 looks like two ass cheeks.
It's symbolizing that the three as one constitutes an asshole.
The audience decides who's the winner, they pick Eros, and Eros is the dog story.
The seventh and final world isn't your story.
I wrote it, but it's a story about dogs.
I wrote it because it was something I wanted to do unconditionally.
I searched the world looking for something I could do unconditionally.
That's what I came up with.
My relationship with dogs has always been about friendship with no expectations.
I never found that with humans.
I wanted to do something unconditionally for my dogs.
So, here we are.
Do you think I was just acting, or do you think I really did that out of unconditional love?
You're such a fool it's hard to know.
Anyone who gets to know you, would know the answer.

I can see the two elements of existence.
The two are wisdom and lust.
That's what makes up duality.
Mother and son who make up duality.
Mary and Jesus.
Yeah.
God's just some asshole in the sky.
The writer's in the sky.
It's a symbol for the future.
He makes up duality through mother and son.
I couldn't tell anyone this because they would think I'm nuts.
You know what you can do - you can write it and though it will sound nuts, it will be coherent.
You're saying I'm a better writer than a speaker?
I think we all already knew that.
You speak slow, so it sounds like you're either really smart or a fucking retard.
I see.
I don't know what to say, so if I speak slower, there's a better chance I might come up with something to say.
It's a strategy to buy time.
I can't spit out words like people do.
Those are the people that are really good at rhythm because they can speak without thinking.
I have no rhythm and can't follow a beat so I'm lost because I must think about it.
That's your problem and why you have no rhythm because you must think about it.
That's why you struggle with speech.
You must think about it.
You're supposed to let it flow.
It's why I can't get hypnotized.
I am always thinking.
If you let it flow, then it's almost like somebody else is saying it.
Fuck, you're smart.
People who talk fast and others who can dance well are hypnotized, right?
It's somebody else performing the actions.
Whoever has hypnotized them is getting them to perform the actions.
You see that with advertising and politics where they hypnotize you into their story and then the thoughts no longer are your thoughts.
You're just repeating what they told you.
That's pretty amazing.
That's how they brainwash you.
If you repeat what they tell you on the TV, that's brainwashing.
They do it out in the open now.
They coordinate their message and brainwash their base.
Base is a nice word for a stooge.
Everybody does it, so don't think the opposite side is not doing the same thing.
They haven't hired that consultant of the brain yet.
Whatever they're saying isn't the truth.
That goes for both sides, but they'll be some truth in what they're saying.
If you go by a value system where if one thing is wrong, then the rest of it is wrong, then you would throw away valuable information.
They will say the truth.
They must balance their message 50-50 and get you to believe it's the truth because if they do that then you'll believe the lie.
They spike the news with mostly truth and then throw in the lies.
That's how they do it.
That's how you brainwash somebody.
They all do it, even your favourites on on YouTube.
Do you think Glenn does?
That guy loves dogs.
That's like a giveaway where it's a coincidence.
I think this guy's telling the truth and I haven't ever heard him say anything misleading and he's got this strange fascination with dogs.
It feels like you could trust him.
He could be using the dogs to fool you; however, his information checks out.
Yes, all stories.
They run counter to the other stories, so instead of seeing one you see the two.
That's how it works to snap you out of that brainwashing and hypnosis.
It's not that hard.
Choose both sides and you take in information from both sides.
Your inclination is to make fun of culture and mainstream media, but you can't avoid it.
You're taking it in and then you're getting the opposite side of the story.
Because you know neither side tells the complete truth, and they're always trying to get a gain out of it, then you know to separate fact from fiction.

The knowledge annoyed the fuck out of me last night and this morning.
I know, give it a rest.
That's good what you do.
You would expect nothing less from a juggler.
You don't get hypnotized until the end when you bring the ideas back to 50-50, then you let it go and blow it away, and then the stories can never hypnotize you.
Yeah, you don't want to fall for a story.