therapy

Nobody does anything for me.

Part of that is by design.

You don't like it.

Yes, but I have noticed no one does anything for me.

Name one thing someone does for you?

I can't.

It's why people like you around.

You don't ask for anything.

You don't want anything from them.

You give and get nothing in return.

Isn't that out of balance?

No, they are both extremes and thus balance.

Do you want something in return?

Maybe once in a while.

An acknowledgement.

It's not love, it's transactional.

Are you loving?

No.

Do you feel love returned?

No.

If you were more loving, you would get more in return.

What does that entail?

You are giving.

Money and time.

People want you to show up.

Why?

They want to know you care.

Do people care?

They want others to care about them.

They must care for others, or no one will care for them.

It's reciprocal.

So, they don't love each other, it's a practical thing to have a community of friends and family for when you need them.

Yes, and they call on you.

Oh.

You thought people just loved each other.

Yes.

You thought you lacked that ability.

You lack the ability to ask others for stuff.

Well, thanks doctor.

So, love doesn't exist?

It does, but it's rare.

Romantic love is everywhere, but we know that is toxic.

Unconditional love is not expecting something in return.

Human relationships involve expecting something in return.

I thought I was incapable of love, and it turns out I just don't ask people to do stuff for me.

That's why you don't fit in.

The herd wants you to go.

I've noticed.

What are you going to do?

Ignore them.

Why?

They are unreasonable.

They want you to join their group so they can ask you to do stuff.

Conform to their wishes.

I see that.

It's not going to happen.

Why?

I don't like people in general.

I like dogs.

You feed and walk them, and they love you.

It's simple.

Dogs know how to give back.

Humans don't.

They will look for an advantage.

The things no friends really want to do are outsourced.

Yes, to Uber and all those things that you pay for a service.

Humans do stuff if they get paid.

It motivates them.

This community thing is trying to get people to do stuff for free.

The ones who are big in the community will look to take advantage of it.

They will get you to do stuff and try to profit off it.

Like politicians?

Yes.

It's a pyramid scheme where you give to the ones at the top.

Sometimes I play therapist for my other half.

Without asking.

I just do it.

I know when it's needed.

People need friends.

Why?

They need people at their funeral.

Wedding.

That's how they cash in at death.

They see how many they can get to their funeral.

Your dad said they need to rent an arena for his funeral.

Fuck, I can see this as a major motivating factor for a lot of people.

You're worried about death and you manifest that worry by trying to get as many people to come to your funeral as possible.

You think you will be remembered and get eternal life that way.

What about you?

I'm on a path where no one will come to my funeral except maybe my kids.

Why?

I don't care and I don't obsess over death.

I wanted to figure it out.

I did.

It's all good.

I'm just playing along.

I feel better after talking this one through.

Vilca was your ticket to ride.

I was so high that day I did not need that.

I can see no Peyote, Mushrooms, Ayahuasca, or Vilca ever again.

I could see Huachuma.

Shouldn't I have had these love discussions with Ayahuasca?

No, that medicine is nuts.

Monster women are crazy.

Why did you expect Ayahuasca to be different?

Mary Jayne is crazy.

Yeah, she has a split personality.

I love it.

I like her.

MJ changed like to love.

I love her crazy.

MJ is showing you your split.

She's good at it.

Well, she is both Mary and Jayne.

She brings the two out of you.

That's why people get scared of you.

I can see that.

I haven't changed.

The other half of me isn't quiet anymore.

They liked the old you.

Shut up and fall in line.

Right.

I played the game.

I can't go on a plant medicine retreat.

I just go in the woods, and it is incredible.

You love her, don't you?

You love Mary.

And Jayne.

I like both.

You were on your way to Hell.

It was going to happen, but I got out of it.

This time it's different.

I'm the Devil and I know it.

The monster would be taking the Devil home.

Then I thought maybe that's how they get rid of you.

They send you back to Hell.

Don't I have the keys?

Yes.

Peter has the keys to Heaven.

He works for me at the Catholic Church.

That actually works.

Yes, Jesus looked at Peter and said, "Get behind me Satan."

You're wasting your time; you should have become a biblical scholar.

No doubt.

The monster sends you to Hell, but you have the keys to that portal.

I have the Heaven keys as well.

Peter looks after them.

You can't lock me in Hell.

That's wishful thinking in Revelation.

Where are they going to banish me?

I don't know.

Lake of Fire?

That's my home.

It's like banishing Odysseus to Ithaca.

You make a good point.

It's stupid.

You have the keys to both portals.

Yes.

I opened them up last Peru trip.

I didn't know.

You didn't see me.

They were trying to get you out through the portal before you woke up and figured it out.

Now, it's too late.

You are saying I can go through the portals if I want.

Yes.

The monster takes you to Hell and you can laugh at her.

Yes, you have the keys.

You wouldn't worry about it.

Would I go to Hell?

No, you are having too much fun here.

When it stops being fun then you can go to Hell.

No, I'll go to Dog Heaven.

So, the monster can't take me to Hell.

No.

You must choose.

You must choose a portal.

I know not to choose.

I have the keys.

Yeah, it's don't choose, and they both stay open.

If you choose, they close.

They are trying to close them.

They want to get you in one and then close it.

Clearly Heaven wasn't working.

They tried Hell.

They want to get rid of you.

You're death.

You keep death's door open.

It's Heaven or Hell.

Got it.

You opened the Gates of Hell.

I opened Heaven's Gate as well.

They want to lock you away.

Like in Revelation?

Yeah.

Cool.

If they lock you up, people will get eternal life in New Jerusalem.

Right.

Well, I'm not going anywhere.

They call you a murderer because you are death.

They say nasty things about you.

Yes, because I have the power.

They want it.

I don't use it.

I let people choose their own destiny unless they ask me to change the story.

I will do that for them.

Some were headed to Heaven, and they wanted to switch it up to Hell.

That's why they asked me.

They ask God when they are on the other path.

Someone on the path to God doesn't ask God to save them.

They want a shepherd.

You don't buy all this 100%.

It's pretty good though.

Very believable.

You could just be a nut thinking up all this stuff and seeing parallels and coincidences in the real world.

Yeah.

What's more believable?

These stories.

I'm not all in.

Nope.

It helps.

This would drive people crazy.

I see that.

They want to confirm this preposterous stuff and when they try, or mention it, they get strange looks from people who aren't awake.

They question their sanity.

Sometimes it's so real.

That tips you over the edge.

What's your secret?

I believe it and laugh about it.

Peter figured out the game.

I put him at the gate to Heaven.

I can put Paul at the gate to Hell.

He's an apostate.

That's clever.

Or the Devil's representative is at Heaven and God's is at Hell.

That tracks and makes you question it.

Or the apostates see Paul and trust him.

Yeah.

Clever.

They see a Lake of Fire but still trust him.

Fuck.

Catholics see Peter and Protestants see Paul.

They choose.

Death just wants you to choose.

The monster took you to the portal of Hell.

Don Howard to Heaven.

You saw both.

Here you are.

Most jump at the opportunity to go to Heaven.

Bad choices lead you to Hell.

You get one last choice if you can get that far.

Edge and don't choose.

Same thing with Heaven.

Avoided the gate and Vilca.

You know how you avoided it?

The monster.

Yep.

They brought you down from that high.

Peter sees the game because he thought he was getting Heaven but he got Hell.

It didn't work out.

So, that's the secret.

Peter tricks you into thinking you are getting into Heaven?

No, it's your illusion.

Deep down you would have known the answer.

Peter knew what he was signing up for, but he thought it would be Heaven, or that he could make it Heaven.

He fooled himself.

Peter stands at the gate of Heaven as a symbol that you are fooling yourself.

Isn't Heaven nice?

That's what you are told.

What do you see about Heaven?

You worship a narcissist and serve him in perpetuity.

The Bible tells you so.

Why do people fall for it?

They don't want to go to Hell.

They don't realize how fun it is.

So, if you were going to choose one or the other you are saying you should choose Hell.

If you feel obligated to make a choice.

Won't you suffer in Hell?

Aren't you suffering now?

Good point.

Do you think it will get worse?

More of the same.

At least you have some fun.

In Heaven, it's dreadful all the time.

You just worship God day and night.

That sounds like Hell.

Do you get free time?

Yes.

They play the harp, and you must pretend you like it.

Can you masturbate in Heaven?

No.

Can you in Hell?

As much as you want.

Well, why would you choose Heaven?

Peer pressure.

I'm not going to choose either.

Then you will suffer here on Earth.

Well, the Devil I know, right?

It has its strengths.

What about when I die and must choose?

Dog Heaven.

go with the flow

Wake up and know.

Never lose who you are again.

It's a key to the question of eternal life.

We all have eternal life because we are all part of the mind at large.

The mind at large is everything.

This splinters into infinity and the result is creation.

It's a cycle.

Is it a personal cycle?

What do you mean?

It's always present where the vibration just is, and the concept of time fools us into thinking it comes and goes.

The vibration is both at once.

It is infinite and it is all.

We create a timeline and plot out a continuous cycle of coming and going.

We walk the eternal path of the great vibration.

The path exists in its fullness and completeness.

It doesn't need time to unfold.

It already is it.

I haven't been high for a month.

Well, you are awake.

You aren't going back to sleep.

You'd have to short circuit your brain in order to do that.

How would I do that?

A lobotomy or incapacitating drugs.

Gotcha.

Now that you know, you have eternal life.

You always had eternal life, but the lapse in awareness of who you are creates the impression you are a one off.

Yeah, most people are convinced they are a random occurrence and are desperate for some kind of afterlife.

The fraudsters and tricksters among us use that to their advantage and create institutions that will grant the desperate among us eternal life.

Have you ever examined religious institutions?

Yes.

What do you see?

They are ungodly wealthy.

It's a good business they have going.

You don't need them.

All you must do is wake up.

Once awake, you will see.

Nobody knows this though.

I know some people have awakened.

How come they don't know this?

Power.

When you wake up the fear gets most, and they go back to sleep.

If they keep going, they get clarity.

When you get clarity, you see you are in control.

That's power.

The temptation is too much, and they don't move past power.

If you can manage that, you see it all.

Don't you see death?

Yes.

Doesn't that scare you?

It's tough.

At the outset of the journey the expectation is you will live to be a wise elder and go gracefully into the night.

Instead, death knocks on your door.

People start dying around you.

My dog died.

I wondered if life was worth it.

It was a tsunami of sadness and death and then externally and internally you are told it is time to go.

Oscillation describes the continuous cycle that powers the world.

The flow returns all to balance through oscillation.

When the alternating current comes to a stop, all is one again.

Non-duality.

There is nothing.

If you do nothing, you will return to nothing.

When you do something, everything comes apart in duality and the story plays out.

The story is part of the flow.

The flow consists of doing something and doing nothing.

The flow is created by doing something.

Doing nothing will return the flow to its state of nothing.

The flow is nothing.

The flow is put in motion by something.

All is the flow.

The watercourse teaches that energy will seek the path of least resistance.

The flow is lazy.

The flow is smart.

The flow just is.

Why would you go against the flow?

Because you are struggling to tell your story.

You want to be greater than the story.

You want to deliver an outstanding performance in order to be recognized.

Who do you want to be recognized by?

The writer of the story.

Why?

To be ensured you will get a part in the next story.

Is he going to write another story after this one ends?

Yes, he will write the 7th story.

Those who have been granted eternal life by the writer want in the 7th story.

In the 6th story, he wrote that the elites figured out a way to live forever, however they are trapped in the 6th story.

It's hell.

That story ended and they are trapped in it.

They can't leave and they roam around the universe in their rocket ships looking for civilization.

So, the 6th story doesn't end?

It will end, however some actors are trapped in it.

Who is in the 7th story?

Dogs, Paul, Hitler, and Trump for sure.

That's quite the list.

My friends will be there and my adversaries as well.

Pretty much anyone I know.

I'll write a good story, incorporating some elements from the previous stories.

All writers do this, though they must make it fresh.

The character of Paul will be God, won't he?

I don't like plans.
Why?
It's a trap.
Everything is constantly changing; therefore, you go with the flow.
The flow doesn't make plans.
The flow adapts to each situation with grace.

I am thinking about what people do with their time.
Why?
It seems meaningless.
If that's what you want.
You can do something that has meaning.
That involves being of service or improving your own self.
Both of those activities make you feel good.
Are they rewarding?
If you think so, yes.
You can fool yourself into thinking that.
What if the best thing for someone in this lifetime is to suffer?
What if that is the catalyst towards them waking up?
You come along and help them, so they don't suffer as much.
You prevent them from waking up, which will get them off the ceaseless cycle of coming and going.
Suffering is most likely their ticket out of here.
What if they like it here?
Then they will be attracted to another ride on the merry-go-round.
That seems like a gamble.
Certainly.
You could respawn in a third world country, go to war, or be a subjugated woman.
Maybe you'll be born in Saskatchewan to a nice middle class family.
You have no say.
It's the flow.
The flow will give you what you need, not what you want.
I thought the flow just flows?
It does.
The flow for everyone will lead to your awakening if you let it.

Am I wasting time?
Does it feel like that?
Sometimes.
I have noticed I get up in the morning and don't really contribute anything to life.
You write about it.
I do spend a large chunk writing about my predicament.
Does that have value?
No one reads it.
What if they did?
It's the most valuable thing in the world.
Why?
It will lead to your awakening.
What will that get you?
Eternal life.

Why are you more creative with Mary Jayne?

Creativity is a flow state.

MJ puts you in the flow.

You are amazing teachers.

The curriculum is impeccable.

When you do, do it impeccably.

MJ teaches you to flow.

All the spiritual outfits know it.

They teach the flow.

Then they go against it when they get power.

What does MJ lead to?

Waking up in the flow.

I was on my way.

She puts you in it.

People go to the sauna and cold plunges to reset.

They try and get back in the flow.

They know the flow is where they want to be.

They never stay in the flow.

They get power, use it, and it causes an imbalance.

Why would I resist MJ?

Because you are in the flow.

She took you to the flow and you separated.

MJ takes you to the flow, but she doesn't stay.

Why?

She will stone you.

If you stay with the Goddess, the story ends.

Adventure happens away from her and then trying to get back to her.

Once you get her, you must let her go or the story stops.

What about MJ?

Take a break.

Get out of balance a bit.

She leads you back to balance.

You aren't constantly high.

Fuck, no.

You know balance.

That's the key to addiction.

Yes, MJ stones.

With all potential addictions you let them lead you down the path to addiction and then you resist them.

You mean do nothing.

Yes.

That's the resistance.

Doing nothing.

Lao Tzu was a drug addict.

He tells you how to use them to uncover the mystery and then how to not let it be your doom.

You ride the flow to the writer.

You become the writer.

You do nothing.

You see, to win the game of flow is to do nothing.

I did nothing.

You won.

I figured I won.

What am I doing now?

Nothing.

Fucking around.

Getting old.

Playing with others.

I see.

Lao Tzu was a heavy drug addict who figured out the game.

He told everyone the secret.

No one practiced what he preached until you came along.

A do nothing asshole, and you win.

Those who know Tao, don't speak about Tao.

That would be doing something.

They write about it.

Lao Tzu gives you the clue to who it is you are looking for.

Those who know Tao, write about it.

Holy fuck.

The couple hours in the woods are priceless.

monsters and the devil

Do you believe your story?

Yes.

Then that's all you need to do.

You are the chief fool.

It's because I'm a genuine fool, that's the secret.

If you aren't genuine, then you can only fool them for so long.

If you live with them, they will figure you out quicker.

I don't stand out in a crowd until they take a second look.

If they take the bait on second look then they get hooked.

They run my profile through their head and think finally they have landed the big fish when I was the one fishing.

It's a game of "go fish" where you want to be the fisherman.

Fisherperson.

Once hooked things start to unravel.

The only thing unravelling are their expectations and projections.

They thought they'd have control of me and then they saw it was not possible.

I think that's a good summary.

Mary Jayne is coming on strong.

It's Dion.

He's taking over.

The Devil has tricked you and will take you over.

Do you become a killer?

Crazy?

Offender?

You're powerless to stop him.

Yes.

If he takes over in your youth, then you get a bad result.

You must wait until later in life when people start to think of retiring.

You gave power to your darkness.

Others are preparing for old age and death.

I'm different.

I'm wise.

I have a container I put things in.

Experiences I can handle.

I handle all this and get the meaning behind everything.

If you take too much, you'll get a really dark meaning to everything.

I see Dion and the writer behind the meaning.

It's not dark.

It's a story within the flow.

A strong wind hit me.

The wind is like the darkness where it is conjured up out of nowhere.

The wind just blows in.

You can't handle dark Dionysos in your youth.

He will turn you dark.

You wait for the older Dionysos.

Youthful Dionysos is a little much.

The rambunctious males will choose the younger Dionysos.

I waited and chose the older version even though he constantly pressured you.

You waited.

I passed the test though I always had him in me.

He's too devilish in your youth.

Now, he is refined.

More of a fool.

Young men aren't fooling anyone.

You can fool.

You mean you, not me.

You're in charge.

I'm watching it go down.

I'm not going against my conscience.

I have a sense of my moral limits.

Yeah, they are good.

It makes a strong container for Dionysos.

In your youth you haven't figured out your conscience limits.

It's easier for the darkness to take over.

Altering consciousness in your youth gets you to these questions before your time.

You got to them in your wise years.

The sirens are blowing.

I know I'm out there.

So, in your youth Dion is the Devil?

Yes.

What is he later in life?

A cool dude.

There's an understanding now.

You are two, and you take turns with Paul.

You always struggle with the two and you stay in balance with that method.

This lesson could be scary.

You handle all these classes.

You still have the Devil in you.

Yes, it's me.

You can handle it, so here I am.

You are the writer.

I'm a character.

Only the writer is the writer.

Creator.

Everything you do is right because the writer is you.

Yes, I know, but I don't see what he writes until it happens in the now and by then it's in the past.

The magic of the pen is writing in the future.

Yes.

Do scientists and witches know this?

Yes.

They can't get there.

Only the writer can be in the future.

Why?

That's what he wrote.

Of course, it's the writer.

Who tops the writer?

Not the Devil.

Doesn't the Goddess have the idea?

Yes.

She doesn't top me, we are balanced.

Eros is the idea in the future.

She has Eros.

You write it down.

This whole idea is Eros?

Yes.

He's nothing without parents.

His parents come after him.

Yes, he is out of control.

No, I mean there is Eros and then chronologically his parents come afterwards.

Yes, he's from the future.

To get to the future you must become your desire.

Yes, so some witches get to the future with lust.

What do you get to?

The goat.

Women are trying to take that power from you.

What?

The power to write.

Emasculation.

True.

They do it by going into the future.

You hang out with Eros in the future.

They know how to get there and take your lust.

You are sure this is the writer and not the Devil?

Pretty sure.

Not positive?

Never go all in.

I learned that lesson.

Unless you want the game to end, then go all in.

In the ritual I confused Dionysos and Eros.

A lot of people do so when they are young.

You still do when you are older, but you see it.

Yeah, it's funny but it works for a man.

Whenever Dion appears, it is with Eros.

It's a fool.

That's why you saw a goat.

I get that.

You two work together.

We are friends.

Best friends.

Touching moment in the story.

Your best friend has been captured by an evil witch.

What will you do?

Nothing.

Our friendship has no expectations.

Eros will trust I write a story for two best friends.

The dog story.

Yes.

You two.

With Luna and Brindle.

Yes, us 4.

I see where this is heading and it's uncomfortable.

Alright, you 4 can be human.

Got it.

Still a little weird.

You must decide between Luna and Brindle.

Both.

You're good.

The best.

What about the Goddess?

She is the queen bitch.

Jack, as Eros, hooks me up with the two dogs.

Got it.

Won't that piss off the Goddess?

She is used to it.

Plus, she trusts it will work out in the end.

So does Eros, and you made a dog world to celebrate.

How does the Goddess get what she wants in this scenario assuming you are also making her wait 7 universes before she gets her way?

The queen bitch will divorce you and take everything you have in the settlement, including your pen.

You must legally give it to her.

Then she writes her boring story.

The end.

Well, that is spiteful.

Yes.

That's misogynistic.

No, she gets what she wants.

She's greedy and wants what I have.

She wanted the idea and the pen.

She wanted Eros and my pen.

She gets both in the end but in order to create an unselfish and unified DEI world she had to be a selfish and greedy bitch.

Um, but you two love each other?

Yes, despite her calling me a dragon.

We keep up the interest with the conflict.

If not, we would have ignored each other for 7 universes.

That's a good guess as she is stubborn.

She took your best friend.

Eternal return.

He always comes back.

I trust that cycle.

The writer of the drama who gave me the pen wants to know what kind of a writer I am and at the same time make me realize what he went through as the writer.

He has to write suffering and death into the story.

You can wave a magic wand or pen and delay the suffering, however it's coming for all of us.

The writer, or his alter ego the Devil, gets blamed for it all.

The writer is shielded; it's the Devil who takes the blame.

Yes, so now that you have that power, what do you think?

I feel compassion for you.

You feel compassion for the Devil because you can't avoid suffering.

The story bakes suffering for all into our life story.

You can't go through life and not suffer.

Ram Dass talked about suffering and said it's all perfect.

What else can you say?

Do you think life is great or not?

If you say life is precious, then you must accept suffering as perfect.

If you think life is a waste of time, then suffering is abhorrent.

What a way to spend your time.

You are wasting time suffering.

That's Hell.

That's what the Devil creates for people who think life isn't precious.

If you wish suffering on people, then you'll eventually suffer in Hell.

You'll suffer because Hell is the place you go to when you think life isn't precious.

Holy fuck, Dion.

Perfect suffering.

It truly was and I thanked her for it.

The Goddess tested you out to see if you think she is a monster.

I wrote that I tamed her.

Only you can tame her.

Everyone else wants her to go.

I broke her spell and tamed the monster.

That's how you become God and are worshipped.

When you tame her, the bad stuff stops.

It's all part of the story.

You tame her by believing she isn't a monster.

That's all she needs.

A mom isn't a monster.

Or a woman looking for a mate.

Or wanting a perfect world.

A monster would have killed you.

Or tried.

You wrote it was the best thing that happened to you.

Yeah, I tamed her.

She tried to apologize, and you thanked her.

What a writer!

She's no monster.

She wants to write she's a monster.

Yes, she wants your pen because she wants to write she's a monster, but you won't let her.

That's the story and how you justify in your head everything that happened were well-timed coincidences.

I'll buy that.

They were synchronicities telling the story of her wanting recognition as a terrible monster and you refusing to acknowledge and write it.

She'd send you pictures of her as a monster expecting you'd write about how she's a monster.

I wrote she's a witch but not a monster.

There's a difference.

Good witch, bad witch.

Are there good monsters?

No, by definition a monster is terrible.

I then made her a mother which fulfills the monster requirement in that they become monsters to protect their child.

I fulfilled her need to be a monster through motherhood.

Okay, I can see how these stories are addicting.

They are crazy, yet you want more of them.

Yes, so you know you shouldn't be doing this, but you want another hit of stories.

I can feel that.

Aren't you worried you are getting addicted?

No, I think you must experience why you would get addicted, so you have knowledge of what addicts you, and then you work with that knowledge.

I know to dial down the dosage from the weekend.

I know I'm not doing a lot, but I can simulate a high dose while still having some semblance of control and by control, I mean not going over the edge.

It's important to be given the freedom to climb the mountain and it's also important to know when you are at the top of the mountain or the pyramid.

Another step on the top of the mountain or pyramid and you go tumbling down the other side.

That's your end.

So, within the container of the mountain or pyramid you climb up and down the side of the mountain and that allows you to continue in the game.

The other side doesn't have a path.

You can't climb it.

There's a way into and out of the labyrinth.

If you stay in the game, you still must follow the path to victory.

If you get lost in the maze, then you'll get beat.

Won't you get tired of the same path?

No, because you can venture off the path as long as you remember how to get back on the path.

How do you do that?

The container and dosage.

A higher dosage will get you lost because you left the container.

What happens initially with psychedelics?

You get into the labyrinth.

Why don't you get lost?

Some do but a competent shaman or guide will know the dosage and guide you.

You need a shaman with Ayahuasca who takes you into the labyrinth, you follow their songs on a journey, and then they bring you back out.

That's what a shaman can do for you.

Without the shaman, you will eventually get lost.

Do you see how an addiction in this case would work?

Yes, you keep going further into the mind until you are totally lost and can't get back out.

You end up looking for a story that will show you the way out.

You think you are going to get that story.

You have hope but then it turns to despair, and you realize you will never get out of the labyrinth.

Then the minotaur comes to devour you.

That seems like a bad outcome.

It's the result of addiction.

Addiction will get you lost in your mind, and you can't get out.

Some fall off the edge.

What happens if you seek help?

The therapist can hypnotize you into staying away from the addiction, but they can't cure it.

Relapse is always a possibility because you know you are not right, and you know to stay away from the addiction.

It is always calling to you.

It's a siren.

The siren beckons you.

The siren tells you they know the way out, so you always follow the siren.

When you follow the siren, it is to your doom.

What's the deal with that?

The siren is giving you the clue to get out.

You don't go to the siren.

You wake the fuck up.

You mean go back to sleep.

Yes, you snap out of it.

The mind you have entered into is the state of being fully awake, however you can't function that way in this world.

You must know how to go back to sleep.

You mean ground yourself.

Yes.

Like the woman at SpiritQuest showed you.

Yes, she told you to go into a flow state and ground yourself when you get too far out there.

That's her method.

I use sirens.

Plus, you have a container.

If you ever take too much, remember to find the sirens.

I use surveillance and paranoia as well.

That'll do; whatever snaps you out of it.

It's like snapping your fingers.

I used that trick to get past the darkness of Ayahuasca.

Yes, you'd go into the darkness and scare yourself until you started snapping your fingers and coming back.

Then you got past the block of the darkness in Ayahuasca ceremonies.

A monster wouldn't get rid of your ball and chain.

She'd want you to suffer in perpetuity for what you did.

She'd make you go back and take your punishment.

I haven't had any punishment, rather I enjoy it.

I'm not suffering at all.

The monster can't make me suffer anymore.

Why?

Because she made me suffer, tried to get rid of me, I saw her for who she is, and I'll play with her, but I won't get too close to where she can make me suffer again.

How are you going to do that?

Oh, I'm not going to do it, Dion will.

He doesn't get attached.

Attachment leads to suffering.

He knows all the tricks to prevent you doing something stupid like giving a monster your heart.

That monster will devour your heart every time.

You can't give the ancient Egyptian eater of the heart Ammit your heart.

So, what do you do?

You can do anything you want with the Goddess as Ammit, just don't give her your heart.

If you give her your heart, she will devour it.

It's the weight of your heart not the size.

If you have a heavy heart because of suffering, Ammit the monster will devour your heart as it sinks lower.

If you are light-hearted she can't touch you.

How do you become light-hearted?

You don't take life seriously.

You don't take love seriously.

You remember to play.

It's all play.

It's all a play.

Curtain drop.

Is that like a mic drop?

Sort of, but the curtain is the end.

A mic drop is a power move but doesn't signal the end.

beyond god

Life is a trip.
Sometimes you are high and sometimes low.
If you let it be, you will return to balance.
If you roll the dice again on incarnation, your life might be positive or negative.
Suffering is a great teacher.
The best spiritual material comes from the poor.
Well, except for Buddha, he was a prince.
He was conflicted by what he saw.
He gave up wealth to get to God.
He made it.
Yeah, that's why there are reminders of stone Buddhas everywhere.
There's one carved into a cliff in Leshan, China.
Let that be a reminder.
I think it means something different to you.
Definitely.
God as an idea is an idol made of stone.
If you traverse the labyrinth of the mind to find God, you will see he is made of stone.
What does that mean?
God is a rock who you worship.
Getting to God will end you.
If you take that last step, you will destroy yourself.
You will turn to stone.
What if you just opt for the stone monument over your coffin?
You are letting everyone know you are a failure.
Buddha got it correct.
You are warped.
It's the truth.

The Ten Commandments of God in the Old Testament starts off with demanding you have no other gods before Yahweh.
The second one forbids you from making a carved image of him.
I mean if I wrote it, I'd probably start off with telling people to do nothing as the first commandment.
I'd make it a suggestion.
The second commandment would be to not care.
Somehow, I'd tell the following with the third commandment to love those you don't care about.
However, it wouldn't be a commandment.
That's good, I don't need ten.
Why do you think Yahweh starts off his demands with how you should worship him?
He knew you'd turn him to stone.
He's trying to have it both ways.
He's on the edge where he can see the power of God, but he knows God is stoned.
If his followers carve images of him, they will turn him to stone.
The first commandment tells you to forget about the other pretenders trying to get to God and the second says don't turn him to stone.
That's an interesting way of looking at things.
Why else would you make your first two pronouncements about yourself?
If you think you are God, you're a fucking narcissist, so of course the first few commandments are all about you.
The proof is in the pudding.

Okay, what's your excuse?
You mean my secret?
Yeah, sure.
You obviously think you are God and yet you didn't turn to stone.
Stone is a euphemism for destruction.
If you get to God, you will turn to stone and destroy yourself.
When you get to that point you will feel the weight of the world on your shoulders.
You mean like Atlas?
Something like that.
It will be time to go when you get to God.
You can't stay in this world if you get to God.
You're still here.
How did you do it?
I didn't do anything, and I didn't care that I became God.
Not only that, but I saw there was more to the game.
I will call it beyond God.
That's a good title.
Yeah, it's provocative and mysterious.
Maybe you'll get a dozen readers for this post instead of single digits.
Hey, it keeps me humble.
Being God can get to your head.
Like I said, I'm past God.
He's in the past.
I can see him, but I didn't hang around that state.
That would have turned me to stone.
So, who are you now?
I'm the writer of this ridiculous story.
Who turns you to stone?
The Goddess.
The Greeks had this figured out, they coded it into myth, and then forgot the meaning.
Why does she turn you to stone?
It's because you are an asshole and deserve it.
To get to God, you toss her aside and forget about her.
You haven't answered my question.
What's that?
How did you do it and not turn to stone?
Oh, right.
I did something out of the ordinary and unexpected.
I thought you said you did nothing?
I did nothing to get to God.
I did a lot to find the Goddess.
I started with trying to figure out the origin of beliefs.
This study took me to ancient Egypt, and I immersed myself in their beliefs.
I became fascinated with their goddesses and realized this civilization knew how to enter the world of spirit.
I wanted to do that as well, so I searched for a method.
I settled on Amazonian shamanism.
It didn't disappoint.
My intention was to contact the Great Goddess.
I had no pretenses of being God.
To my amazement I found her, and she treated me like God.
I didn't fall for it.
I was still a nobody in my mind.
She told me to come away with her.
She took me into her castle made of gold and treated me like God.
I still had no idea who I was.
Imagine a selfish human male looking for meaning and going to the Goddess first.
Who would do that?
No one except for me.
I got to the Goddess as a lowly spiritual pilgrim, and I worshipped her.
She protected and guided me.
It's how I did it.
When I eventually got to God her cloak of protection was my shield against the forces of destruction.
People were telling me it was time to go, and I would see the signs everywhere.
The shield is a mirror which reflects this energy back at the source.
I felt them come for me, but I weathered the storm.
I was naive to what was going on, yet I could feel it.
It would be like being trapped in a thunderstorm and getting drenched all the while doing nothing about it.
When the storm cleared, I saw there was more to this game.
No one gets this far.
I'm telling you the secret to my success is the Great Goddess.
Say what you will and call me whatever names you wish.
Let it be known that I stand here today in knowledge, strength, and conviction due to the love and support of the Great Goddess.

what you see is your story

You get addicted to the stories.

You keep telling stories and want to learn more about them, so you go back for information. 

Do you get addicted to knowledge?

Yes, that's the addiction.

Is it bad?

Only if you want total knowledge.

Then it's out of control.

Do you want to know everything?

No, some stuff is beyond what I want to know and who gives a fuck about celebrities. 

That's how I balance it.

I know the important stuff.

Spirituality and magic.

Reflection is about the idea that your story is reflected into the world.

What you see is your story.

There is the idea that you see what is close to you as part of your story.

Zoom out a bit and you will see more of the story.

Zoom out far and you see into all of what's going on.

The totality of your life is zoomed out to reveal who you are.

The movie studio idea of the world drama combined with production lenses.

I thought of the world in the same way, where the world is a reflection of who you are.

The world you have created is who you are.

The world at large is who humanity is.

Remember that saying about how the stock market is never wrong?

The price that's fixed is the truth.

The same goes with the world.

You might think the world's good or you're being too hard on this part of yourself.

How it appears is the truth.

We call good acts humane, and we appeal to the good in humanity when we can see what humanity is by the condition of the world.

Each of us contributes to the outcome.

Your world contributes to the main story.

Everyone can affect the main story.

It's like voting where the odds are stacked against your vote even counting.

This leads to people voting for the main ideas that are given to them because they want to feel like their vote counts.

You join into culture, so you feel like you count.

That's why there's advertising and there's narrative control.

It's all about getting people to buy into the story to create an illusion.

The illusion is that everything's great and people aren't suffering.

It's only a few people who aren't suffering.

To create these conditions in the world at large there must be a lot of suffering.

There's a big advertising campaign to get you to think there isn't as much suffering as there is because the suffering is appalling.

It's people wanting you to buy their story.

It's a marketplace of stories.

Nothing is for real.

The game is to get you to buy their story.

You went for the ultimate story.

Your own story.

The one where you get people to believe you are God.

Nobody's going to believe that.

If you convince a few people, it's going to be so powerful you'll win.

People are lost in the illusion, and they think it's real.

That's why they must support their stories, though it doesn't matter.

It's energy and it's not matter.

If it did matter there'd be matter.

Matter is mother.

Maya.

Illusion.

Matter is just energy.

Stories are just energy.

It's the truth.

I'm not shitting you.

Energy doesn't suffer.

Energy is looking for balance after a bounce.

If they don't get the bounce, then it's peaceful.

Suffering is something that comes from a bounce.

Lose your balance so you get a high and a low.

Suffering is the mirror image of the same people who want to get high.

They're now low.

Stories are a drug and people get high and low.

It's called tripping.

It's the state of the energy and the stories show the result of getting high and low.

You're seeing how energy manifests.

There are people who are getting what they want and people who are suffering.

That is the result of the story drug.

A story for all.

Mary Jayne is different for everybody.

Most people want to get stoned.

MJ would give everyone what they want.

You wanted knowledge and she continually gives you knowledge.

There must be what you would perceive as an addiction to knowledge because you know that's how drugs work.

You would become addicted to stories and knowledge.

That's what MJ gives you the most.

You're so fucking weird you would get addicted to stories and knowledge, instead of the usual pleasure receptors that other people get addicted to.

That's the weird thing.

It ties in with wanting knowledge and the game where they're trying to find a way to hypnotize you.

The witches?

Yes.

They are trying to get you to the Devil's orgy.

I see.

The last resort is to use MJ to get you addicted to knowledge.

They figured you must have one weakness and that weakness is knowledge.

I do like knowledge.

I mean they tried the sex thing.

That's like the easiest one.

Do you think you'll get addicted to knowledge in the stories?

To be honest it gets tiresome.

I like it, but I must take a break every so often.

Okay, so life is all an illusion and you're trying to figure it out and get off at the same time.

Yeah, it doesn't matter.

It's all a porno.

It's made up and the suffering is not real.

The suffering must be real somewhere.

The suffering is part of the illusion that your stories are creating.

Also, fear is an illusion because it comes from stories generated by you and the rest of humanity.

I think we've already established that humanity is a piece of shit.

I'm not arguing that, but did they become a piece of shit because of the writer or because of their greed?

The writer writes the story, and that story should be a reflection of him, however he gave free will to the actors and the actors are allowed to petition the Devil to change their story.

As a result, this world that the writer has created might be more of a reflection of the characters he created than him.

Yes, because everybody wants to change their story at some point, so everyone has changed their story.

The only people who haven't changed their story for sure are the ones who have suffered in service.

The rich could have gotten lucky but most of them probably changed their original story to get rich.

Well, I would say the kids of the rich people figure out that's their story, so they probably stay true to their story.

Yeah, that's a good one.

So, the only people in the world who haven't changed their story are the rich kids and the saints who suffer while being of service.

They're both saints in my estimation.

Rich kids are the greatest saints because they didn't change their story.

You can't argue that.

That is absurd.

Paris Hilton is one of the biggest saints to ever walk the planet.

You should worship her.

Fuck, you're clever.

The only person in the world who would not change their story for sure is the writer.

Every other motherfucker wants to change their story.

Especially when they get in the inner circle with the writer, then they want the writer to write them good shit.

Pretty much every story I write for people they change.

Like I said, the only fucking decent people who don't change the story that I write for them are these fucking rich kids.

The saints who devote themselves to service and suffering, they're just playing it up.

I wrote them a story of service and suffering because that's what I thought they wanted and they're those actors who will take on any part and play it to perfection even if it kills them.

What I'm telling you is people who are of service and are suffering, are the biggest fucking showoffs in the business you'll ever meet.

Saint Teresa was one of the biggest showoffs.

She's intolerable.

Fuck you.

How twisted and absurd that is.

Yeah, but it makes so much sense.

You can see the rich kids are one-dimensional actors and they don't question their part.

They just play it.

As the writer, that's all I want.

This has been your story all the time.

I never changed my story.

I followed Tao.