hexagram

The Star of David is two overlaid pyramids.

Yeah, that seems obvious.

It predates the Hebrews.

Why did they adopt it as their symbol?

They know it's a secret to winning the pyramid game, they just don't know the secret.

It's their holy grail.

So, they are trying to figure out their own symbol?

Yes, it is a reminder.

Do you know what it means?

Of course.

It's the 7 steps of the pyramid game.

The 7th step is the completion of the game.

The secret is to keep the game going.

"Remember to play" scrawled on a dirty mattress in the middle of nowhere in Ecuador was a big clue.

If you look at the symbol you see the inversion of a triangle lines up with the 6th step.

The 7th step ends the game, so you get to the 6th step and head back down.

When you get to the bottom of the inversion, you head back up.

You avoid extremes.

It's the best advice I can give you if you want to survive anything in this game we are all playing.

You can't juggle the extremes.

You will blow up.

You can get to the edge of the 7th step and take a look.

If you take a look, the power will suck you in.

So, you're saying don't look.

That's the best advice.

The curious will look.

Yeah, then they are in trouble.

Did you look?

Yes.

How are you still here?

Tao.

Do nothing.

I saw gobs of power and did nothing.

What's up at the top?

Heaven's Gate.

You go through the gate and the story ends.

It's an exit from the game.

It's a portal?

Yes, you could say that.

Where does it lead?

I don't know, I didn't go through it.

I think it leads to Heaven.

Seems logical since it's Heaven's Gate.

If I had to guess I think it leads to the dropping of the body and being free to explore the cosmos.

Part of that freedom involves your story to tell.

The story you believe will be the story you tell when you walk through Heaven's Gate.

Got it.

What about the other end?

You mean the descent of the inverted pyramid?

Yes.

You head into the darkness.

You mean Hell?

Sure.

It's like going back in time.

The climbing of the pyramid is the future and the coming back down is the past.

Living in the past can be Hell.

The future is always Heaven for the dreamers.

Is this like Jacob's ladder?

Yeah.

Coming back down leads to a time when you were nothing.

Well, I think I was something.

You didn't have a body.

I wasn't some body.

Does that mean I was nothing?

You weren't material.

In your culture that belief means you were non-existent.

Yeah, I get that.

What do you think?

I don't follow along with culture and I believe I was something before incarnation.

Alright, so then peering into the darkest of the dark would allow you to see that.

Did you do that?

I think so.

What did you do?

Well, I ran into the Devil and then I had these thoughts of it being time to go.

Once I did nothing about these situations, I was able to go further into the darkness.

What did you see?

Light.

What do you mean?

The darkness twists into light at the apex.

From this I understood the same process at the top.

The light twists into the darkness.

The past became the future and the future the past.

Do you understand this?

I'm not sure.

I know Eros comes from the future to cause attraction in the present which becomes the past.

So, I think the inverted triangle represents Eros.

The upward triangle represents the past becoming the future therefore it is the life we perceive with our senses.

The inverted pyramid is the trajectory of the story from the writer and the upward pyramid is the performance of the story.

So, if you want to change your story, you invoke the power of the inverted pyramid which is the future manifesting in the past.

Well, it comes into the present, but I get what you are saying.

Are we just making this up?

What do you think?

If I believe it, then it's true.

A true illusion.

Nobody knows what the fuck that hexagram symbol means.

This seems like the best explanation I've heard.

Okay, I'll keep going then.

Does this have something to do with the Akhet of ancient Egypt?

Yes, the Goddess of the East and West.

Of birth and death.

Of the dawn and the setting sun.

Horus and Set.

Haremakhet.

Sphinx.

So, the hexagram symbol is of the sphinx?

No, it's the symbol for the Akhet.

The Akhet is the Goddess.

It's her pyramid cult.

The Akhet is the portals of East and West when light becomes dark and dark becomes light.

There's your twist.

The rising and setting of the sun twists reality from light to dark and back again.

The answer is right in your face if you look.

How the fuck do you know this?

I'm a know-it-all.

It makes you intolerable.

Clearly.

The writer has to be a know-it-all because what he writes is gospel.

It's the truth.

It's only the truth because you made it up.

Yes, as you know, belief is truth.

I conjure truth out of nothing.

I thought you got the nothing from the Goddess?

Yes, it's her ideas.

I turn them into beliefs.

Who or what is the idea?

It's Eros.

Where is he from?

Well, first of all, he or she is gender fluid.

Let's not designate them as either or.

Okay, so what are Eros' pronouns?

I'm going to ignore that question.

Anyway, Eros is from the future, and he meddles in the present which becomes the past.

You mean they, don't you?

Oh, for fuck sakes.

Yes, they.

You are going to be summoned by HR for misgendering and pronoun violations.

I'll do better.

I think the origin of everything is from the future which is the top of the pyramid.

If you climb to the top, then the future and the present combine and that makes everything blow up.

You are left with the Benben stone at the apex, and it represents the phoenix rising from the ashes of the destruction of this world.

How do you know this?

I made it up.

We are missing the past.

That's the descent into darkness via the inverted pyramid.

It's nighttime.

I think the writer is from the future, but he hides in the past.

Yeah, he's fucking clever, eh?

Yeah.

That's why you can't find him.

You know he's from the future, so you go looking for him there, however it ends up he lives in the past.

What is he doing in the past?

Rewrites.

Got it.

Everyone wants changes and a rewrite.

Why is the writer male?

Isn't that sexist?

The Goddess is female.

Do you want the Goddess to be masculine?

That's twisted.

Didn't the ancient Egyptians sometimes depict the Goddess with an erection?

Yes, at Karnak temple there is such a depiction and then I know they depicted the distant Goddess Neith with an erect phallus.

What was that?

A hard on.

Yeah, I know; I meant why did they show her in that way?

They were demonstrating unity before creation.

There is a Goddess, then the masculine power is the phallus, and he has a stiffy because of Eros.

You have a way with words.

That's a compliment.

pyramids

You are still full of ideas, aren't you?
They keep coming out.
It's the writer phase.
It's the 5th step on the pyramid.
You are into the pyramid story.
It fits into my thinking and life story.
There's a pyramid on the US Dollar bill.
Yeah, that's funny.
Those Free Masons must have smoked a lot of Mary Jayne.
They have a connection to Jewish mysticism as well.
It ties together, however enough of a mystery remains, so you can't put all the pieces together and make a definitive claim.
There are pyramids all over the world.
It's in our human collective consciousness.
Why?
It's the game.
That's why.
Do you have a better explanation?
Why go through the ridiculous enterprise of building a pyramid if there isn't some grandiose meaning behind the symbol?
Do you know the game?
My delusions are strong enough that I can declare I know the game.

Culture throws a lot of bricks at your head.

They spoil the forest of your mind.

They are relics of an old story.

That's what pyramids are.

Relics of an old story.

You find the pyramid and then remember the old story.

Relics of a story of the dawn Goddess.

Your story in the stars.

The story of light and dark.

The story of the mother.

The lady of the west.

Her son.

If I choose to be, I'm free.

There's nothing holding me in place.

That would contribute to the time to go question because if nothing's holding you back, you're free to do what you want.

It means you've accomplished what you came here to accomplish.

You got to the writer.

That would be your story.

It seems the story would end when you got to the writer.

The twist is you become the writer and then you can write whatever you want.

Money is power and powerful men have it.

You have a different kind of power.

It isn't money.

It's the power of the pyramid.

You figured out the pyramid when nobody could or would.

The pyramid is the Goddess.

It's Mary.

You went to the Goddess first and she gave you a cloak of protection.

That's one of the secrets.

I got to where I wanted to go and then I didn't blow up because I had pyramid power.

The power of the Goddess.

I saw that in an Ayahuasca ceremony.

It was a little creepy.

The Goddess was at the head of the pyramid cult.

It was her game.

Men stopped playing her game.

They didn't want to worship her.

The only way to get to the top of the pyramid is to worship the Great Goddess.

Whoa.

You did it.

Now, you have all that power.

You made it to the top of the pyramid.

It's quite the climb.

I can see the top, I wouldn't say I'm there yet.

What if I stopped using Mary Jayne?

You'd lose your connection to the mind.

That spiritual thing you have going on.

You'd look for another way.

That's what kept you going back to Peru.

You wanted to go back into that realm of spirit with the Goddess.

Then you found MJ and she takes you there.

Without her, you'd find something else, and you have an idea of what that is, so you know MJ is the one.

She takes you to the pyramid game.

That's the ultimate game.

Akhet.

Everyone's trying to get to where you are.

That's why they get desperate to play the game anyway they know how.

You know to take mild to moderate doses of MJ and not touch the other stuff.

Most people don't know about the game until they do drugs.

You knew about it before you did that.

You were trying to figure it out.

I knew it had something to do with the lost Goddess.

You turned to psychedelics because you were looking for her.

You had discovered her but knew you could contact her spiritually.

You figured out a way to do that.

Look at this guy.

You did and she rewarded you for it.

She gave you a cloak of protection.

You continued your journey and made it through.

All you had to do was keep going because she gave you the cloak of protection.

The question I had was, is the game a byproduct of drugs?

Well, what do you think?

No, I was playing it before psychedelics.

You were oblivious to the reason or outcome.

You were just playing the game.

It was a good game, but yes you do need more.

You need to get directly involved.

So, you did.

Remember what you said about games?

You want to continue to play the game.

It's no fun when the game ends.

I want to continue playing.

Let that be your guide.

Yeah, but I see the top of the pyramid of power.

I was onto the pyramid, the akhet, and Eros before any drugs.

That was impressive.

It's the reason I went to the Amazon jungle, walked into it, and took those drugs in the middle of the night.

It's a good story about rediscovering the pyramid story.

You just stumbled along into it.

If you get to God, then you declare you've won and blow up.

Language is wonderfully expressive.

When people get famous, we say they blow up.

If you get to God, you literally blow up.

It's not a metaphor.

That's the reason why your story ends when you get to God.

It's the end of the story.

He's a stone idol and you blow up.

You think you got to the end.

You didn't.

There's the writer who is beyond God.

The writer is at the top of the pyramid but he's also 3.

The writer can be any one of the three actors.

They change it up.

So, whoever the writer is has as the other face of the writer, Goddess and Eros.

Together they are 3, but they never seem to be together, and they never become one.

The story would be the 3 become the one.

That would put you in non-duality.

The opposite is duality.

If you think non-duality is the be all and end all then that would be the final 3 of the game.

However, duality is another perspective.

You can say there's always duality.

It depends on where you look.

Okay, you could say that non-duality is just another construct in duality.

You could say that.

Can you say the other thing?

Duality is a construct in non-duality.

I don't think you can say that.

There's nothing in non-duality.

You don't know nothing.

The only reason you would find out is because of the vibration which would take you out of a non-dual state.

I see what you're saying.

You're saying that the vibration is everything.

It's the motion.

It's the cushion for the pushing.

Yeah, okay.

You are saying the story is everything.

You would be saying the writer is an aspect of the story.

Well, to recap, the vibration moves through duality and non-duality.

When you are in non-duality, it is true.

Nothing else exists, and it's a true state of non-dualism.

It's the vibration that takes you from that.

The vibration is a story.

Doesn't the writer have to write the story?

Yes.

Where does he get the idea?

The Goddess.

So, she's the story?

No, Eros is the story.

Eros is the vibration.

Yes, he's at the top but we already knew that he was going to win.

I don't know why you think you are the most powerful and will win.

It felt kind of good for a minute.

At least they know I'm powerful.

I'm going to the top of the pyramid.

There's the writer, Goddess, and Eros.

You need all 3.

You see without the Goddess, Eros has no meaning.

She gives meaning to the idea of a vibration and then you write it.

The idea of 3 is because Apollo was late to the opening of this story.

The story was supposed to be about 4.

Doesn't that mean the writer is the all?

He decided on 3.

He wanted to make it 4.

Yeah, but the original story was 3.

He always changes the Goddess' story.

He was going to make the story 4 original spirits.

Then Apollo didn't show up.

So, he had to quickly rewrite it to 3.

He ended up doing the Goddess' 3 story.

She's running that pyramid thing.

This is her story.

Yeah, but the writer is writing it.

She's Trinity from the Matrix movies.

The story of 3.

You and the fucking Matrix, always writing that storyline.

It's her story because she's in charge of the pyramid.

She has the power of birth and death.

She had to give that power to the writer so he could write the story.

That's the power you have.

Birth and death.

The writer creates characters and destroys characters.

I sure do.

You could write the Goddess out of her own story.

Did you do that?

For a while.

Yeah, I did it so that I could find her again.

You know, like a mystery a couple thousand years old.

So, there's 3 powers.

Yes, and whoever is playing the Goddess is playing out her chosen story.

Even though the writer brings this universe into being it's the Goddess' creation.

Yep.

There's always 3, it's the writer who tries to fool you into thinking 1, 2, or 4.

Any more than that gets crowded.

1 usually works as people want to believe in one thing.

The writer got tricked by the light into writing a story of 3.

3 is the 1.

So, I would go to the writer and then be able to see 3?

Yeah, but who wins?

That's the whole thing.

Remember you don't want a winner because then the game will end, so you made a game and story that won't end.

Not only that, but we know that Eros will win the game.

We must wait until someone decides it's game over.

They were trying to get you to go.

Seems that way.

It didn't work.

The game continues.

They can't get me to go.

I'm the one who wants to keep the game going.

When the game ends, you must start a new game.

It might suck or it might be good.

The Goddess used Apollo to trick the writer into finally writing the story of 3.

Who's Apollo?

That's you.

The Goddess gave you a cloak of protection so that the writer wouldn't see his other half until it was too late.

He already wrote this story.

That's a good story, right?

Yes, so Apollo is the other half of the writer.

The writer doesn't find out about him until he's already written the story.

He was just another of the many billions of fucking characters in the story until finally the writer found out about him.

He's the 4th who was supposed to be in the story.

Instead, he only shows up afterwards.

2 steps ahead seems to be what you must figure out.

You look 1 step ahead and that allows you to figure out which way you need to go.

2 steps ahead sets the course for the rest of the adventure.

Once you're on to the 3rd step, you're locked in.

Yes, because the 4th step is the 4th step of the 4 steps we see.

The 1st step gets the game going and then the 2nd step is what you want to be sure of.

That 2nd step will set up the 3rd.

The 2nd step might be the right or wrong choice.

Once you hit that 3rd step, you know what the 4th step is.

Where are you in your life?

I was at 0 steps until middle age.

I was just gathering up what I needed for the climb.

The 1st step was trying to figure out what I needed to climb.

That's what got this whole thing going.

It's been going on for 16 plus years.

The 2nd step was getting involved with shamanism and psychedelics.

That allowed you to find the Goddess.

The 3rd step was figuring out who I am and the meaning of life.

It was a direct result of the 2nd step.

It was also the 1st step.

If you look back, the 1st step and the 3rd step are the same.

The 2nd step sets you up for success when you return to the 1st step which becomes the 3rd step.

Once you take the 3rd step, the 4th step is inevitable.

Oh, I get it.

That 4th step is the end.

You found out who you are and the meaning of life.

That's the last step.

At the fourth step a lot of spiritual practitioners realized they are God, they go with that, they turn to stone, and they are done.

Game over.

They completed the game.

Then they go.

You completed the game and you're still here.

Yes, because one of my mottos is to play the game.

Remember to play.

Don't stop the game.

When the game stops, that's where there's winners and losers.

Or in the case of your best friends, when the game stops for them then it's game over.

The suffering is from the game being over.

It's not your suffering.

It's other people suffering.

Yeah, I don't think a lot of people would have been happy to see you go.

There were a few, but for the most part people would suffer.

I wouldn't suffer.

I'd be gone.

That's how it works.

So, you're saying you haven't left so you have lessened the suffering in the world?

I'd like to think so.

I think I do good for the most part.

No one really hates me.

I can see them thinking you're a piece of shit, but you are decent.

Okay, that's good, so by not going, I lessen the suffering in the world.

Back to the pyramids.

The 4th choice or the 4th step that you see is the end.

You think there's 7.

Sounds plausible.

4 seems to be unattainable.

That's where everybody checks out if they're playing the pyramid game.

You get lost in the labyrinth and find God.

Become God and go.

I'm climbing the 7 steps.

I have a feeling the pyramid is full of games.

This is one of them.

There are probably infinite games.

I'm not going to think about it.

I will go with 7.

People think there's only 4 moves in the game and nobody gets past 4.

That's why they think it's 4 moves ahead.

You could play someone in chess to a draw and keep moving forever in an infinite loop.

It wouldn't even be a stalemate.

The game is 7.

It makes it fair.

I'm 4 moves ahead and I'm still here, so don't let that go to your head.

What's the 5th move?

Nobody knows.

Nobody has got there.

I got it.

The 4th step is God.

The 5th step is the writer.

I've done 5 steps.

People can do 4 steps and then the game ends.

The 5th step is the writer and that would logically make the 6th step whatever the fuck I want because I'm the writer.

Yes, that's the 6th step to the game.

Obviously, nobody knows what it is, so you can make it all up.

Whatever you make up would lead to the 7th step.

What is the 7th step?

It's that dog world where you make a perfect world for dogs.

You can do whatever you want.

That's why the people you want to take with you, you are giving them dog characteristics.

I compare most humans to dogs.

I see dog behaviours in people.

You've covered yourself, so you can take whoever you want.

That's the 7 steps.

It's different from your 7 stories.

You see how there's multi-dimensional stories and multi-psychological dimensions.

That was the climb, the 7 steps of the pyramid game.

Miley Cyrus' "The Climb."

Yes.

So, did those people want me to go or were they just telling me to go because it's part of the game?

They were hypnotized and lost in the game.

You were supposed to go.

They were going to take advantage of knowing it was time for you to go.

They would try to grab as much from you before you left.

They would see you got to the 4th step of the pyramid, so they wanted that mind of yours which knows how to get to the 4th step.

They are mesmerized by the pyramid and want to know its secret.

That's why you always tell the Goddess that you'll meet her at the pyramids every time you play.

You were obsessed with the game, and you knew this time you were going to win.

You had to get past the 4th step this time.

You had your internal scientists figuring it out for you.

You must get to the 4th step first, and that's hard enough.

Once you get there, you must figure out how to stay without imploding.

Nobody ever got past that level.

It's get to God and gone.

I got to God, but I saw him as the Devil as well.

I could get past him because of seeing 2, though I did feel the pressure to go.

The 4th level is hard.

How'd you do it?

Nobody's ever got past that level.

Don't make a choice.

Don't do anything.

Realize the next step is that the penis is more powerful than God, so you would look towards Dionysos, figure out he's the one writing this story, and you're him.

The writer is a dickhead.

God is a figurehead.

He's an idol.

He doesn't do anything.

People try to say he's responsible for creation, however they don't know how he does it.

They say he made it up out of nothing.

The writer knows how he does it.

I write the story.

The ideas I get from her.

The Goddess.

The idea is a crazy vibration and it's Eros.

As a man climbing the 7-step pyramid, I get to the writer.

A woman has a different climb.

She can figure out the meaning she's looking for by going through the 3 stages of maiden, mother, and crone.

The 3 brings the 4th which is the witch.

They try to get to the witch.

That's their 4th step.

It stops them at the 4th step because they all want to be the head witch.

The 5th step is the Goddess.

Women think their journey ends at the witch.

Since that's what they believe, they stop at 4.

Some men get high enough and they can see her on the 5th step.

Right, that's what the 3 shamanic worlds are.

You get up to the 3rd one, which is the sky, and the next step is Heaven's Gate.

That's the end of the story.

You didn't go to Heaven's Gate last trip.

No, we were detoured.

Political unrest.

It was a sign.

Men want to play the getting to God game.

When you take the last step, you're gone.

People can see it.

You have rock and rollers who get money and fame, and they get so high that they leave.

It encourages a bunch of others to go.

That's that phenomenon.

They would also have some others around them that would encourage them to go.

Don Howard must have known it was 7 steps.

He shows you the 3 shamanic worlds and then a glimpse of Heaven's Gate with Vilca.

The real Heaven's Gate is after 7 steps.

That's what that pilgrimage teaches you.

If you are a man and are on the precipice of the 4th step you must be able to see the 5th step.

You can see a writer, but he leaves you confused.

You don't know why you see him.

I haven't written my story.

I haven't made it to the 7th step.

The 5th story is where you are the writer and write your story.

The 6th step is that story leading to the 7th story.

The 7th story is the story you will write for Eros the dog.

After the 7th story everything goes back to what it was.

The game is complete.

You're at Heaven's Gate for real.

It's a metaphor.

Don Howard was showing you 4 and showing you 7.

The pilgrimage was the 7.

The 4 was a glimpse of heaven.

The 1st time with Vilca I went up 3 levels.

I saw the 4th where the healers reside.

The healers get to God and then they stay there.

They don't go any further by being of service.

Don Howard's favourite number was 7, he must know.

The 4th step gets you to God and you're at Heaven's Gate.

That's what gets people to leave.

They get fooled when they can keep going.

You're on the 5th step.

You could take the 6th step.

You are doing nothing.

You are taking your time.

Hey, I just realized all this.

Give me a few seconds.

Plus, I know Tao teaches you to do nothing.

In writing my story, I know I must do nothing, and the opposite will be my story.

The flow will tell my story.

The puzzle of the 6th story is that the writer must write your story.

I know it should lead to a 7th story about dogs.

I can see that in the flow, and it will happen if I do nothing.

The temptation is to write the story which would lead into the 7th world of dogs because that's what I know and have promised.

I know it because it came to me in the flow.

The mind state of flow.

It's absurd but it makes sense.

You're saying in the 6th story you do nothing, and your story is written?

It all unfolds.

Is it written on a scroll or something?

I would have written it.

I would have written that when you get to the writer nobody knows what is to take place because nobody has gotten that far.

I have written that when you don't know what to do, it's best to do nothing.

The flow will make you do something.

Yes, but I'll have made no choice.

Your story will play out and then you'll take the 7th step.

The top of the pyramid is like the top of the mountain where the canine Anubis hangs out watching over everyone.

He's reminding me of the 7th world.

How did the cats not get in on this?

The jungle cats think they're God.

They got stuck on the 4th step.

The dogs made it to the 7th level.

I'll take that for an answer.

It's been 16 years, so it's been about 4 years per step.

You can see the next step when you're at that step.

That's why since you made it to the 5th step, you can see the rest of the steps.

I'm on the writer's step and I can still see the God step.

I'm writing my story by doing nothing.

No, you do stuff, you just do it when you want and then in 4 years you'll be immersed in it.

8 years from now will be the start of the 7th story.

I guess that's when humanity is going to blow itself up.

The number of years to do the pyramid climb is 28.

That's the cycle.

There's 7 steps and each step take 4 years.

Each of the 4 years is made up of 3 challenges or events.

For most, it's 12 years to get to God's step and 16 is the end for them.

Yes, in theory, however they don't follow that timeline.

That's the pace to climb the pyramid.

4 years for each step and there's 3 events within each 4 years of climbing that step.

You can see how that mirrors the moon with the sun over a year's cycle.

You can't climb the pyramid in 7 steps without following this plan.

You can see the 6th story coming, but you're in the 5th step's story.

You must finish writing whatever story you're writing.

Writing is kind of like doing nothing.

I'm writing my story but I'm not living it.

You are, but I know what you mean.

There's a time and a place to write and act.

The Orion constellation has 7 pyramids on earth.

Seven pyramid games.

I think the stories are infinite.

You could probably pick out 7 games of 7.

7 step game.

7 story game.

Then you see what else manifests in your life as 7.

You see it in mythology.

Births.

There won't be 7x7 births.

Not all pyramid games are 7 levels or sums.

They're just 7.

There's more than 7 7s, but you'll probably notice 7 7s.

It's letting you know about the 7 steps and stories.

Those are the two games you are playing.

Are there more?

Women are playing a different game.

Your stories overlap.

At first, you don't understand their story, so you don't understand them.

Once you find out their story, then you can see them playing out their story.

If they look close enough, they'll see your story.

A witch would see your story.

She's blinded and she can only see four of them.

They didn't know I'd get past the level no one can get past.

You don't have to write your story.

You just have to think of what you would have originally written.

What would you have written for yourself?

I'd want to endure suffering but not too much, and then it will make getting what I want all the better.

Then I'd question what I want.

I would see it's maybe not what I want.

I'd do nothing for a while until I figured out what I really wanted.

You'd want your cake and to eat it as well.

You'd want to be free to do what you want and still have someone control you.

That way you would find balance.

How are you going to do that?

I already see the answer.

mindfucking

See how you're on the throes of being kind of tipsy when you're about to be hypnotized?

You get unsteady.

I thought being hypnotized was balancing the two into one?

Yes, to hypnotize someone you take them to the extreme and then snap them back to balance.

It's called mindfucking.

I'm nice, now I'm not.

So, to hypnotize somebody you swing quickly between two sides.

Yeah, just like the hypnotist and their pendulum.

They swing you between the two sides and then they make you pick a side.

Some people can hypnotize you with their voice.

I think I do that sometimes.

Especially if I talk slowly.

A little bit of resistance is good.

It makes you work, and it is a challenge for knowledge.

If it flows without resistance, it will hypnotize you.

I shouldn't do anything.

Then you'll get hypnotized by Tao.

Remember to see Tao, you can't be in Tao.

You can't physically see it.

Don't choose one side.

Choose both sides.

Flow into Tao and then flow out.

It's the flow.

The flow takes you to Tao and it takes you away.

So, the flow is naturally unbalanced?

You could say that.

It always flows back to balance.

Do you see how it works?

Yeah.

You go with the flow because the flow will maintain the correct amount of balance.

If the flow went completely into the flow, there would be an unbalanced balance.

You'd be hypnotized.

Balance isn't balance.

That's absurd.

Balance is equal part unbalance.

You're a smart student.

I remembered Jesus.

I did my part.

That dude comes on strong and tries to get you as a follower.

He's like a salesman.

He gives you the hard sell and he makes sure he hits every potential customer.

That's why you must do his bidding and spread the word about him if you want to be saved.

So, the money in the church is actually his?

When he comes back it is all his.

He comes back and rules the world because he's got so much fucking money.

He's running a pyramid scheme.

The people below him are also making money off him.

Jesus played the good guy and that was his game to rule the world.

When he comes back in his story, he's going to rule the world.

He won't come back in his story until he can rule the world.

Do you think he can do it now?

No, he doesn't have enough followers.

In the Middle Ages the church tried to force you to follow him.

Inquisitions and crusades.

That was the real Christ consciousness possessing his followers.

They were doing it for him because he was the leader of the pyramid scheme.

What's the difference between Jesus and God?

They vie for control over the pyramid.

God still gets a shout out, but Jesus tries to take over.

The first born always tries to claim the throne.

That's why God was intent on killing all the first born.

They want the power of their father.

The pyramid scheme of ruling the world is his birthright.

This is a dark view of history.

You are going to say that you think Jesus is the Devil.

I mean, he kind of is, but he's just another character in the play.

It depends on what face you're looking at.

Jesus is two-faced like everyone else.

The writer wanted to write a character that was more deceptive than the Devil.

He came up with Jesus and put a hidden twist and mystery into his story.

The writer gives it away in the New Testament when Jesus goes to see the Devil in the wilderness.

The Devil changes Jesus' story.

This is exactly how you have written the story and then you put a clue in the New Testament.

Didn't he get tempted for forty days and forty nights?

Yeah, it took forty.

Am I going to get tempted for forty days and forty nights?

Are you Jewish?

No.

Then you probably got some other thing going on.

I'm circumcised.

Yeah, it's confusing.

Why are you circumcised?

It was the thing to do.

That's weird.

Especially end times churches that make their adult males do that.

It seems irrational.

You do it and find out the leader of the church is a degenerate making lots of money off it.

What a kick in the nuts.

Talk about having skin in the game.

That's it.

You put skin in the game from your dick.

The serious players are circumcised.

Obviously.

If this is a dream, it's well done.

Do you think it's a dream?

You can scare yourself or get back to being the writer.

If you ever scare yourself just switch over to Dionysos.

He's the one writing this.

It feels like the jungle here in the forest.

You let that thought into your mind.

Maybe I ran into the jungle and got lost way back in 2013?

You would have gotten lost.

Then I ran home.

Notice how you want to blame your troubles on somebody else?

You can't face up to your own mind.

Instead of believing it's them, most people want to blame something else.

The perfect character for that is the Devil.

The perfect character for blaming the alteration of your mind on is the one who gave you the potion.

All sorcerers bank on your mind doing the work for them.

They find something that will get into your head.

They give it to you, and they rely on you to be your own worst enemy.

Or friend.

It's me, the writer.

Instead, the impetus is to assign that power to someone else when it is you all alone and along.

You can blame it feeling like the Amazon jungle on a sorcerer who gave you a potion, but it's you.

It's your mind and you did it to yourself.

That's fascinating.

Yes, and everyone has free will to choose what they want to believe.

When you don't believe that it's you who controls your story, you will search for someone who can control your story.

You eventually run into the Devil.

And he changes your story.

So, what do you believe?

Trust in the writer and Dionysos.

This is dark and scary.

Yeah, but you can handle it.

You can handle all the lessons from here on in.

They do get darker.

What's darker - suicide or selling your soul to the Devil?

Seems like you have the answer.

I did nothing.

I moved through the lessons.

If you act out the lesson you fail the test.

Not that there's anything wrong with that.

It would just mean defeat.

I got the Devil test a long time ago.

Yeah, but you didn't understand it.

So, getting past that point means that I can now understand the Devil test?

Yeah.

What's it about again?

Kind of a mystery, but not really.

You don't ask perceived higher powers for favours.

I don't know, I think I already have.

When I was younger, I did for sure, it was probably something stupid.

Yeah, you didn't know any better.

I hated when my bird died.

That was an ask that wasn't for gain.

It was nice.

You've said prayers for people.

Yeah, but I didn't believe them.

Right, so it wouldn't work.

What about your prayers now?

Are you asking a higher power?

No, I think I'm asking myself for a boon and we're equals.

Prayers are nice things to do.

Prayers aren't demands, they're just nice.

It balances out because you were probably a shit at one point.

It's good credit.

There's nothing wrong with prayers.

Okay, if you ask for money or something like that, then that's not a good use of prayer.

What if you do an exchange like you do at the plant medicine retreats?

That's reciprocity.

As you have written, there's an obligation to fulfill your end of the bargain.

How many spiritual pilgrims do that?

Not many.

Then those fuckers keep coming back.

I never asked for anything.

You think that was a trick question or something?

Why do you need something?

What do you go down into the Amazon and drink that potion for?

I was searching for the Goddess.

How retarded are you?

Everyone else goes to get something.

You wanted to meet the Great Goddess.

You're so special.

You also use prayer because you're a bit of an asshole.

It helps balance that condition out.

This path of the heart sure does go on and on.

You get the light teachings too.

You're one of a kind.

Why do you do it?

I wanted to be special and stand out from the crowd.

I don't know why.

It's how you get to God and then you keep going to the writer.

You're a one of a kind dog owner.

Yup, dogs want me to own them.

I want them to be friends, not own them.

I'll care for them.

So, what's more powerful?
Your own mind or other people's minds?
My own mind by a lot.
The mind creates duality.
The mind separates allowing the body into duality.
When the body perishes, it returns to non-duality.
The mind will always be in duality.
Can it exist in non-duality?
There's no thinking in non-duality.
It feels like all or nothing.
It's an extreme.
But non-duality is Tao.
Yes, but it's all or nothing.
You see one.
Balance.
Duality you see both sides.
Non-duality you don't see sides.
Hypnosis takes away your ability to see sides.
It's bliss.
There's only one choice, so you go with the flow.
The answer is to see both choices and do not make a choice.
Or choose both.
Never choose one.
Choosing one will get you hypnotized.
Sometimes I get confused.
Why?
Because Tao is a teacher, yet it will hypnotize you.
If I balance duality then I get back to nothing.
Do I want to get back to nothing?
You mean non-duality?
Yes.
There are no more stories.
It's Happily-Ever-After time.
There's suffering in duality.
There's triumph, feelings, and rewards.
Don't forget lust.
In and out, man.
Maybe you should choose both?
How about you rest in peace for a bit and then go on another adventure?
Seems like that's what we do.
Sure does, right?
So, I guess when you go back to the carnival, you'd probably want to meet up with your friends again.
I think that's what you would want to do once you saw through the game.
How do you do that?
Have you not been paying attention?
I was trying to play the fool.
I remember my lessons.

3rd dimension is the middle.

You see the two as one.

If you see life after death because the mind stays active and you see the body perish, what is the result of seeing two?

Two shows you duality.

What if I see those two choices as one?

You are confused.

You don't understand.

You are hypnotized.

Brainwashed.

You think there might be spiritual continuance, yet you know the body dies.

If you see the choices for what they are without the other one clouding your perception, then it becomes clear.

Mind continues on and the body dies.

Simple.

What about those who say the mind needs the body?

To play out this story that is true.

Is this the only story?

No.

What generates stories?

The mind.

Is there a body in all the stories?

There is a vehicle, not necessarily a human body.

So, you're saying the mind needs a container in order to live out fantasies?

That's what I'm saying.

Without the playground, it's all in your mind.

If you are stuck in one story, one playground, then you might think when it ends you are finished.

The mind is quite incredible.

Yes, I am a good time.

I'm the writer.

I have a bunch of projects on the go.

Is duality defined by mind and body?

It can be.

You need both to have an experience.

Without a mind, you are a programmed robot or a zombie.

Without a body, you are a ghost.

You need both.

It's obvious the body doesn't last.

What about the mind?

Some people lose their mind.

As the vehicle gets older the efficiency of the mind becomes impaired.

What about stress on the mind through anxiety or the effects of cultural brainwashing?

Your mind is the most valuable thing.

It's gold in a sea of shit.

Your fellow humans will come to take what is most valuable from you.

That's your mind.

They have many ways to do it, and they have a good success rate.

It's multi-faceted.

Culture is the top layer.

There are individualized local games of possession going on.

I think you see them.

Yeah.

You can't escape, so you keep a healthy separation.

Who is crazy now?

Certainly not you, sir.

Keep a healthy balance.

The mind is the subconscious writer, and the mind is you who have come forth.

The mind is dual in a world of duality.

If you look for a monolith in duality then into the labyrinth you go.

Good luck!

wandering

I'm not lost in self. What I mean is I do a good job of being of service. I support a lot of people. I'm a good provider. I unselfishly give up my time. I'm a great dog owner. There's always more you can do and when you embark on the spiritual path you become inundated with calls to service. As Ram Dass would say, "How can I help?" It can be fulfilling though I have found I don't resonate with it. I like to help, but I don't go out of my way to be of service.

Will I reach nirvana with that attitude? That's very funny to me. The spiritual path is whatever you want to make of it. If you are expecting a reward, then you are going to be disappointed. This lifetime is a terrific opportunity to learn, and it was Jesus Christ who said ask and you will receive during his sermon on the mount.

Matthew chapter 7 (New International Version)

7 “Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.

8 For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened.”

If you wander through life and hit upon something so unfathomable it consumes you then for sure at some point you are going to try and figure it out. Personally, I'm going to start asking questions. This is my story. The spiritual path led to some startling discoveries and either I have the definitive answer to this whole charade or my ability to make up a story is next level. So, I guess I should spill the beans.

Within me is the eternal masculine energy. I happened upon him when I first ventured into the Amazon jungle in search of the Great Goddess. I found her and she is my guiding light on this path. I also discovered him. I guess since I call her the Great Goddess then it's proper to call him the Great God. He scared me and I wanted him to let me be. However, the cat was out of the bag and because I'd surfaced him, he was going to harass me as a reminder to not stir that pot again. I was insistent on pursuing the Goddess and so that meant continually dealing with this other part of the equation. I was tested, threatened with death, and told to get lost. I transformed myself in that hellfire and proved I had what it takes to travel to places no one had ever gone before without succumbing to madness.

Over time we developed a friendship, and I was privy to secrets of the universe. I asked questions and got answers. Things really came to a head when I went to Peru this time last year. I drank really strong Huachuma every other day for a couple of weeks and reality came apart at the seams. I saw into the future. I was shown how the pyramid fit into my story and this story spans multiple lifetimes in multiple universes. These universes contain the constant of the pyramid as a reminder of the thread that binds all these creations as well as being a meeting point for the two main characters of the plot.

The two main characters are Goddess and God, bound by love and acrimony. I became part of the story and being a mortal avatar of God I accidentally succeeded in finding the Goddess who had been locked away for two milleniums. It was an omen that would lead to finding her mortal avatar. I did find her and since I believe in fairy tales, I thought we'd live happily ever after. We live separate from each other, and this divide is the cause of creation. This physical plane is the result of our divorce, and she has not forgiven me. She falls in love with me, sees the perfection in our union, and then can't help but notice the faults. I haven't changed. I'm still that garbage she tossed away many aeons ago. And so, she flees. I'm left here in a state of disbelief knowing I have lost her again.

I will have to start the full process over again. I fucked it up so now I must lay waste to this world because I don't think I'm going to get her back. I will destroy this world which I meticulously designed in order to one day get her in my arms again. I will dream another universe into existence and go through the prolonged process of winning her back. I know how to recognize her, my vibration is eternally within her, and I planted the seed of the pyramid, so she knows where to find me when she becomes curious once again. I am a master card player and know all the tricks to winning the game. The game never lasts, and the dragon returns to an unbearable loneliness once again, raging at an injustice that was of his own making, and perpetuated by the obstinacy of his divine partner.

Like I said, either I have the definitive answer to this whole charade or my ability to make up a story is next level. Does it have to be either-or?

a day with Dionysos

I started to get an inkling of what's up after I returned from Texas the second week of October. I realized I could see into the future because reality is a book, and I was given the ability to read ahead in the story via parallel storylines. The book has already been written. The story plays out in multiple dimensions because the master of the drama is so incredible, they can weave a multidimensional storyline to demonstrate their mastery. You choose your path, and the narrative unfolds. You determine the arc of the story when given a choice and in response the master dramatist has already prepared multiple outcomes for the storyline you follow. Each consciousness plane, which is another storyline, has events that are congruent in relation to all the other planes. That is truly a mind bender.

The question of what animates my existence or why do I carry on with life is clear to me. There must be a reason you get out of bed in the morning and put in an effort. I don't have to. I don't have to work full time plus more. I can just say fuck it. So, that's a good place to start. I like a heated home and somewhere soft to sleep. Meals are good. I like having dependents who I can support though eventually they take advantage of the situation. Pets are my best bet. I love taking care of my dog. Walking her and feeding her healthy food. It gives me a feeling of purpose and demonstrates I'm not irredeemably selfish. In doing a personal values assessment four years ago and then ignoring it for four years turns out to be a good barometer of my values. The questionnaire revealed my motivations as being centred around finding meaning in life. More accurate would have been finding the meaning of life.

I'm deluded enough to think at age 55 I have found what I was looking for. I can't express this to anyone without them questioning my sanity and I have accepted this. My goal is to demonstrate to others the nonsense I spout is the truth of the situation. The best part of knowing I know is I have accomplished this at a decent age. If I can hang out in this body for another 30 years with this level of knowing it will be quite the trip.

I realize this may sound like the rantings of a madman so it's best here that I lend credence to what I'm saying about parallel stories consisting of the same bucket of energy but just reshaped into another drama. Or look at it as a painting that contains the same composition of paint; it's just placed on the canvas in a different order and direction. Your guide to understanding this is the pyramid. Here it is: Our existence is defined by vibration, and they are cycles of up and down, high and low, coming and going. On earth our cycles sync with the sun and the moon. The solar cycle is masculine in nature. There are four waypoints within the circle which we call equinoxes and solstices. There are three cycles of the feminine new and full moon to travel between equinox and solstice. Four masculine intersections defined by three feminine cycles. The paint strokes are seven in nature. Take this celestial painting and apply it to a new canvas. If you are starting to see what I'm going to reveal, take a moment to think about how clever this is and by changing your thinking to understand what is going on will open many more interpretations of life. So, I'm going to paint a new picture of the truth of the sun and moon and their relationship to our lives. I'm going to construct a pyramid. The masculine base will have four, and the feminine contribution to the geometric form will be three sides to each base. You can see it clearly now. Pretty fucking amazing when it reveals itself to you. You can take it further with the twelve moons within the solar year and realize the pyramid's four three sided triangles equals the same twelve.

My story continues to unfold. The flow will dictate the outcome. I think I can alter it, but it's just me thinking I'm in control. My nature in the story brings me to the point where I have a decision to make and an action to follow up with. What will I choose?

I'd often write we are living in a dream. This consciousness experiment is a book. It's already been written. As Dionysos, I am master of the drama. The god of the theatre. This book I wrote turned into the greatest play ever written. Haha! I missed that clue for a while. I wrote the BOOK, and we are reading along. I saw into the future with the plant medicine Huachuma. Huachuma allows you to skip ahead in the book. If you skip too far it won't make sense. I guess you can skip to the end and see how it plays out. At some point I cleverly ran out of names for my characters, so I started repeating and combining them. I started noticing this a while ago and thought it was funny. At the time I didn't realize it was one of the first clues which would allow me to decipher the riddle. I left a lot of clues within the book, so I'd eventually wake up and see what's going on.

There are multiple storylines within multiple consciousness planes. The Goddess weaves them together to create the ultimate book. It's a multidimensional paperback. I drafted a story that plays out here but if you get bored you can change consciousness planes and see the exact story acted out but with a different energetic circumstance, props, and actors. How masterful is that?

Within the 14 billion solar year physical creation story unfolds an exciting narrative that follows the rise and fall of human civilizations. The book opens with a big bang. Talk about adventure as this universe came into existence and eventually the story became focused in a faraway galaxy on this little blue dot, we call Earth.

Imagine walking this path of knowledge for fifteen years, putting in the effort, having people say you're nuts, and then one day stand in front of your crazy Mesa and have this understanding wash over you. It then becomes all worth it and you look back and think fifteen years? Nobody is going to retrace my steps. But here it is. I have now shown you that what I know is the truth of the matter. I see what's going on. I see the multiple dramas playing out as different constructions of the same energy which have been written by a playwright who is a madman. He writes twisted tales that are full of choice and never ending. His name is Dionysos.

Remain open in your thinking and don't feel you have to shoehorn the energy into some preconceived pattern. The flowering of the energy is unique and ever changing. Take the idea of seven and now look at the chakra system. Seven energetic waypoints. The heart is in the middle. There are three chakras on either side of the heart. The relationship of the fourth to the three gives you seven. The painting is exquisite and offers a unique perspective. It reveals how the trifold nature of the feminine needs the heart to be complete and the four of the masculine is nothing without the three of the feminine. This all applies to worldly and spiritual pursuits. The chakra painting demonstrates the importance of love. All adventures in these multiple dramas can be reconciled in the heart. Whenever things get out of control or cause you pain, re-centre into the heart and love will get you through it.

Cannabis edibles are it for me. There's no going back now. The knowledge that has been pouring forth while under the influence of Mary Jane has been so astounding and clear. The way reality has been presented to me seems fantastical, yet it all adds up. The clarity on why things happened is rock solid, so when I question it or try to assign it to delusion, I admit it's the clearest explanation for what happened to me in 2023. My Apollo mind is fucking brilliant and when I add the key to unlock gobs of knowledge it's ridiculous. I've heard of strains of marijuana being cerebral and making this connection for someone already on the edge of the next level of cognition is something else. It's like divorcing myself from consensus reality because I know the game. Along with this realization of knowing the game, I also know how to play the game, so I can hide my knowledge and understanding. I must do it because embracing what just is will lead to observable madness. I can see protesting that I'm not mad while not convincing others this is so. In response I'll have to put on a show of a bumbling fool who is a little deluded.

I remember attending a retreat in 2017 with my friend Parker. Parker earned the nickname during that experience as the "Cosmic Scribe." He carried a notebook around with him in order to record the observations of the day while embraced by Huachuma. It was a smart play and a good student like Parker made sure he captured all the pearls of wisdom along with noteworthy events of interest. I mention this because once the knowledge jar was opened for me with the edible, I realized I needed to write this information down. It was coming fast, and I knew I wouldn't remember it all. In the past, I'd forget teachings and have to wait until an event resurfaces them. In a way, it made for a longer integration period. Here the information was pouring out like blood from a deep wound. I was out in the woods, so all I had was my phone. I could speak into a recorder or try to write. I chose to make bullet points of what was coming through from diverse levels of consciousness. Some days the information comes from the Goddess, today it came from a masculine source. This leads me to explaining something. At one conscious level, well the top, we are one. It's all you. Me. A level out from that and all is Goddess and God. I like to operate at this cognitive level when dealing with spirits. The fright disappears because there's only two choices - Goddess and God. They will wear a different costume in the grand cosplay, but you can be assured of who you are dealing with. This mirrors my original foray into psychedelics. My first experience was Goddess based. My second was with God. He came across as a demon and scared the daylights out of me. The next Ayahuasca ceremony he fessed up and said he was God. I didn't want to believe him because he was a nut job, yet he hit on all the attributes necessary to make the claim. Understanding apparitions and messengers as divine aspects of Goddess and God is a smart play. You will terminate the fright. All psychedelics are going to eventually scare you, however if ahead of time you are aware of what's going on the upset is manageable. I've got it down to a couple minutes of unease before I laugh. How are you coming on today? A big part of it is balance. If they are shining a light on knowledge, what to follow is a serving of darkness. Embrace the darkness and you are good to go.

On this particular Saturday God came forth as my favourite - Dionysos. Dionysos has multiple storylines on the go because he is the master of the drama. The multiples are multiplied within the multi-levels of consciousness. You can't fathom it. All the stories within the dimensions are interconnected. They are vibrations which appear according to the laws and customs of each dimension. It's the same energy interpreted in many ways from different perspectives. It's ingenious. Imagine being a scientist who starts to hit on this peculiarity? Reality keeps changing depending upon how you look at it, yet it's the same strand of energy. To accomplish this masterful weaving of the story of energy, one needs a touch of mania. Dionysos' drama can be simple and recognizable. Also, it is unfathomably complex. His command of narrative is ineffable. I imagined the all were sitting around the fire in their glory as the all when Dionysos convinced them to become actors in the grand play he was writing. He promised adventure like they had never seen. We are eternal, he mentioned, and thus why sit around for eternity? Let's put on a show!

In the myth, Dionysos is the son of a mortal woman Semele. The inference is Dionysos is of the divine realm and of this world. Dionysos wants to be part of the show. Why not? He can write and act. He can do both. Why just one? His attributes are exciting, and his presentation of wild abandon and the libertine spirit will enliven any tired scenario. The sexual demon spawned by Dionysos is lust. It's a favourite of Dionysos'. The divine feminine will take note of this and will follow. The energetic signature of the piper at the horizons of the mind will attract and bring her to him. Cyclically, the maenad returns to being responsible and her shame sends Dionysos to the shelf. Then is denial. How long will this cycle last?

With this knowledge, I peered into how desire appears in this world and could see how I came forth as a manifestation of lust. Maybe a thought, then an obsession. The pulsing rhythm gets out of hand and the vibration must be acknowledged. Seduction of the mind starts the game, and the attraction is magnetic. It's the chemistry between the two which puts them in harmony. Once they see it... it's too late. They are captured.

It's a story of desire within the grand story of Dionysos. This narrative shows raw Eros as the ultimate power. Boil it down to lust when the winner is decided! Well, I guess it's still ongoing. The order of things or some responsibility Apollo vibe has the floor. How boring. Lust can get ugly when you see someone's shadow and you are not seduced or the desire spell snaps. While under a spell, desire is so beautiful and enlivening. Some may say you are being fooled. A hateful reaction to this realization might not be so great. You got hypnotized by something you willfully conjured. Spellbound with lust? It's what you wanted. What will you choose?

Dionysos lays out his dramas on a timeline to make the energetic strands of existence understandable. Today is Saturnus' day with the connection to time and pointing me towards seven being a major clue. Ah, the planet Saturn of the Electric Universe was woven into this special day where I was long ago made aware of the mix up between Saturn and Saturnus. The planet Saturn of no significance hides the real Saturnus, just like Dionysos conceals himself in this world. A little misdirection to throw us off the trail but I saw through that one a long time ago. So, in preparation for this day, he gave me a little shout out to my cleverness and some foreshadowing.

Lust is madness. I appear mad at times, especially to those not enamoured with me. They go with it when interested. Eventually, they get disgusted with themselves. They are out of control and succumbed to lust. We all have that split that is fostered by the superego. What a conundrum! Who is going to win out? The responsible part of you that is educated and smart? You're such a catch and deserve the best of what life has to offer. You make such a great contribution to society. Such a professional! Then there's the other part of you that is a hot mess. The one that fell for the pull of desire. You went on a spiritual trip and got taken in by your desires. Who's the real you? The faker who wants to be someone because society says you can make it or the carefree spirit who is true to themselves? Dionysos knows what you want and knows you are afraid to commit to it. Lust isn't going away.

I heard a noise. Did someone follow me into the woods? They would get instant confirmation. Yeah, he's insane...

Magic courses through me. Who are you? What is your power? Why haven't you accepted it yet? Are you afraid? The lustful are hesitant to reveal lust. That's what in return makes me shy. Society shames us, so we go underground and then psychologically deal with it. We are also conflicted with the dominant superego. The temporary solution is to always run from your problems.

This is how it plays out here on the earth stage. If this is the game, then patience is a virtue. Another level of consciousness has God as lust seducing the Goddess. She knows when she has found him. The drama is that he disguised himself as desire. Now, her respectful persona must push him away. She realized what he was doing to her, and she couldn't accept her true nature and wanton desires. So, he got sent away. God waits for her in the shadows and knows he will be welcomed back again. Patience and a trust in cycles are up front.

A hit of tobacco potentiated the session. The fierce winds came, and I got a little scared. I'm playing with magic, but not just my own. Mary Jane is seducing me because she knows what I come back for. It's knowledge. A step into her world provides me with more than I imagined. I must write it down. It's so much. Then I thought, what if this is all a fantasy in my head? She's feeding me what I want so I'll come back again and again. Light and dark were present. I just couldn't come here and fill my cup with knowledge. There must be a catch. The drama is the most crucial factor in this equation, and nothing supersedes it. There has to be a side effect, to wit a reciprocal arrangement, in order to get to the knowledge I desired.

I realized I always give myself the either-or option. Either the knowledge is true or she's feeding me bullshit. Hey dumbass! How about both scenarios are true? I get knowledge and her magic seduces me. The ancients called her magic Pharmakeia and warned of her. A lot of the pious wanted to burn her because she's a witch. She will seduce and bewitch you. I remembered Homer's epic Odyssey. So many times, the witch within the Goddess would seduce Odysseus with her charms from her bag of tricks. As a witch she wants to capture your essence. The story of Odysseus has a constant theme of the feminine trying to take Odysseus for her own desires. She finally found the one that works on me! I'm willingly going to let her, but we all know eventually I'll leave in order to further my adventures, just like the hero Odysseus. As we have learned, knowledge is my ultimate seducer and will break any spell.

How do I know if both scenarios are true? I'm a scientist in search of the ultimate knowledge of just what this is, and the feminine magic captured me by figuring out I want knowledge. The knowledge is accurate, and I feel her seduction. She's very clever, giving me what I want. Conversely, I think I am mad, so I think it isn't true. I can't accept both possibilities. I can see the truth and to get to that location means touching madness. I am both mad and correct. All three scenarios are in play. I am mad. This knowledge is the truth bomb. She's addicting you to her medicine.

My rational mind had stepped in and called my waffling self out. If this is seduction, what are you worried about? Oh no, I keep coming back to her and she feeds me knowledge. How malevolent!

I just wanted to scare myself, okay? I was good at it when I was a novice. It adds spice and a little mystery. Plus, those that tap into this world of magic must deal with the fright, and you can laugh at them because you've been through it.

I'm Apollo and Dionysos. I have forbidden knowledge.

I'm poor little me, caught up in the spell of a Goddess.

I'm mad.

I laughed.

I learned way back in 2016 that serpent power can be used for spiritual, health, or sexual power. I was in year three of asceticism and oh boy did my Ayahuasca visions ever give me a dose of sexual energy. Pray with lust and I will heal you too. Creativity is lust channeled into the arts. It's highbrow sexual desire. Take me back. I can be respectable.

Of course, I have the master of the drama within and I'm the closest to his true self. I'm a unicorn and hard to find. She wanted me so I magically appeared before her when she went on a spiritual trip. The coming into being of the concealment of your desires is magical. She played it cool for a bit, but I saw the way she looked at me. She knew it was me lighting her fire. I held her hand and she knew. She doesn't fully accept I'm the King. She suspects it but can't believe both stories are true. I'm a delusion to her. If she keeps me away, she can live the one story and pretend I don't exist anymore.

The presentation of lust is just a step up from the human level. Or is it one down? The basic human level has drama going on. The next level has raw lust going on. That level seems parallel to this one. I unlocked another secret. Multidimensional levels of the drama up and down and in parallel. How many dimensions and then how many dimensions with each dimension? Our lives intersect and are woven together. We create new avenues to explore. This drama will never be boring with the infinite threads to follow. Dionysos has crafted a tale which will amuse for eternity as a gift to all. The writer of the book had to challenge me to solve the puzzle. He couldn't just let me in on the secret. I had to work for it. It's an interesting combination - being a genius and a lustful demon. Two of the greatest features of the greatest God.

Spirituality is just knowledge. We dress it up as holy and put it on a pedestal. What a farce spirituality is. Some of the practitioners speak of higher knowledge so you can see how knowledge and spirituality go together. Others will just play the love all card and that can be spirituality. You don't have to be spiritual to love. Your actions will demonstrate whether you love, not a persona you have adopted.

A day with Dionysos indeed. His divine and twisted book sure gives you the "feels." I can't put it down, it's such a compelling work of fiction that I've totally immersed myself into and bought into the storyline. Highly recommended. 5 out of 5 stars.