learned

Maybe Alan Watts was correct about hanging up the phone when you get the answer.

He was referring to hard psychedelics.

He was talking about the answer.

I got the answer.

Are you still on the phone?

Yes, with Mary Jayne.

It's whether you trust MJ or Alan Watts.

I see.

If you trust her, you will continue, if you don't you stop.

Alan gave you a koan.

Who have you learned to trust?

Dogs, MJ, and Dion.

Any humans?

No.

Jesus?

No, he was in it for himself.

I can't think of a single human I'd trust.

I'd trust Parker, but only because he was a friend.

Friends let you down sometimes, I know that.

Did you trust Parker's judgement of character?

No, he was terrible at it.

He saw the good in all.

If you trust your ability, you can keep playing.

If you don't, you run.

What about Peyote?

I didn't run.

I didn't want to play because I didn't trust the circle.

Why would you trust Alan?

He's human, so I'll go with MJ.

The secret to winning any game is to trust your abilities.

I know I'm awake and how to change consciousness.

Ram Dass laid it out perfectly with his switching channels analogy where you can go between all the available frequencies.

When I'm resident in ego consciousness, I'm grounded and can dismiss the other channels.

If I did not cycle between these different states of being, I could see how easy it is to become comfortable with the one ego state and that's where we all end up getting trapped.

Being awake means putting batteries in the remote control and changing consciousness.

This leads me to yesterday's question where I wondered about Alan Watts' saying where if you get the message, it's time to hang up the phone.

I've received the message, and I know the game.

I have uncovered what it is I had searched for many years to find.

I knew it was time to let go of the intensive phase of plant medicine experiences which involved heavier psychedelic substances that include Ayahuasca, Huachuma, Peyote, and Magic Mushrooms.

I wondered about Mary Jayne.

She is not lumped in with the stronger consciousness altering modalities and I find that strange because my experience is that once I cracked open my head with the others, MJ became what I needed to do on a regular basis to follow the trail of self.

I can change consciousness on a daily basis with MJ and still function in this world.

With heavy psychedelics, I can't do that as the experience is intense.

With MJ, I can be present and learn.

Along with her is Tobacco, the master plant.

When you embark upon a plant medicine journey with the excellent teachers found in South America, they constantly tell you Tobacco is the master plant and being a westerner this goes against everything you have been taught about Tobacco.

Tobacco is bad and will kill you.

That I don't doubt.

If you use Tobacco, he will kill you.

I spent a lot of years with Tobacco gaining trust and friendship through study, reverence, and resolve.

I'd say it was 7 years to get to a place of trust with him.

So, the question is: Why is Tobacco the master plant?

Tobacco gives you protection against everything.

He makes you stink, so the malevolent spirits stay away, and the inviting ones are let in the doorway of self.

You can make an impenetrable fortress around yourself.

Tobacco amplifies the high and then takes you low.

Whatever rollercoaster you are on, Tobacco will give it power.

Tobacco is power.

Whatever plant you wish to work with is given power by Tobacco, so if a plant spirit is not strong enough to register, you combine them with Tobacco.

In addition, whatever plant, animal, or ethereal spirit you may have worked with in the past is always with you and Tobacco will call on those spirits when needed.

I have a list of allies and with Tobacco those allies are always on call.

My practice is Mary Jayne and Tobacco.

If I hung up the phone with them, I'd lose protection and the ability to change consciousness.

I understand what Alan said in that once you get the answer and you keep going, it can become dangerous.

It gets dark.

It gets really bright.

The extremes are the danger where you fall off the cliff.

I trust MJ and Tobacco.

They taught me about trust, and it is a pillar of my path.

They taught me who I can trust.

This reality dream feels really real when I'm doing the salt rinse.

That feels like a profane thing to do like taking a shit.

Salt is good for grounding when you are high.

So is taking a shit.

Sugar lifts you out of darkness.

Depressed people love sugar.

Yes, so if I was trapped in a dark story, I should consume sugar?

Salt when you are too high.

The sugar candies I bring are best for darkness?

Yes, but that counts for the actual physical darkness.

Should I bring something salty?

You do - Ambil.

Tobacco gives you a rush and Ambil's salt will take you down off the rollercoaster.

Tobacco will do that; Ambil just lets you go on the biggest rollercoaster.

Up then down.

Why is darkness sometimes at the high point?

Light and dark aren't tied to high and low.

Oh, right.

What was today?

Low light.

Down low.

I'm confused.

It's low light.

You saw into the story being crafted and it was a low.

It's not dark.

You confuse low and dark.

What's the highest darkness?

It's when you know nothing.

It's bliss.

That's the optimum place to be.

That's like meditation.

Yes.

Low light is the worst.

I see that.

Meditation will take you there as well if you are any good at it.

What about a high light?

It's great.

You will be remembered for your highlights.

You will be remembered for your low lights.

Light is a mixed bag.

What about low dark?

That's really dark, man.

No one survives that.

You get terrible thoughts you keep to yourself and then it all goes dark.

Okay, I see that.

So, I should eat candy at that point.

Yes, if you think you need it.

They are called lifesavers for a reason.

It's a secret cheat code to get you out of the darkest of the dark.

What about the low light?

Same thing, eat sweets.

If you are on too much of a high light ego trip, then eat some salt.

Same thing with a dark high where you are in a state of bliss.

Salt will take you down.

my story

The light and high feeling is freedom.

Different mind states.

This mind is eternal and what you seek.

That's the answer to the spiritual question in terms of eternal life.

You are looking for this mind.

Not the ego mind as the body will perish.

How does this mind live on forever?

It's whatever you want.

You're the writer.

The writer gave himself eternal life in this story and fucked over everyone else?

Yes.

What?

However, I will choose who to take with me.

Shouldn't everyone be looking for a ride from me to eternal life?

It's a new power.

Before they thought you might know but weren't sharing.

Now, you aren't hiding it.

This is the secret to eternal life.

The writer will live on and in the next book he decides what characters to take with him.

How about that Hitler character?

Is he recurring?

Yeah.

Even in the current story people always bring it up.

The audience likes it.

I had to wait until I used that character in this story.

I don't want to overdo the joke.

So, you think Hitler is funny?

Sort of.

It's a theme throughout all my stories.

You are going to take Hitler into the next world.

Yeah.

In the dog world he will be a terrible dog owner, and all bad owners will be called Hitlers.

That works.

The writer will write a story about the writer and his 7 worlds.

Plus, how he wakes up in his own story.

All the adventures.

Your part of the story is when he wakes up and realizes who he is.

Then there is the struggle between Paul's ego and the writer's mind who is eternal.

Paul will try to convince the writer to take him along to his next story.

Paul's the only one in all myriads of life forms who could wake him up.

Paul's the alarm clock character.

Here comes the rooster.

You know he ain't going to die.

That's prophetic.

That one will live on like Hitler.

For sure.

So, there's Paul and Hitler in the next world.

Yes, so far.

I still must write the rest.

I have a good idea who is coming.

My 2 dogs for sure.

You had to give up your power as the ego mind to your darkness and trust you'd get it back.

That unlocks eternal life.

Level completed!

When does this end?

It doesn't.

Eternal life is good.

Yeah, a gold medal.

It's like getting a medal in fantasy sports for social commentary.

You're not even celebrating unlocking eternal life.

It's no big deal.

You find out you're an actor in the writer's play, however you can also figure out you are the writer.

There can be only one writer.

One Paul as well.

True.

You're one of a kind.

Paul is going to be bigger than Jesus.

That's an accomplishment.

Plus, you get to meet Hitler in the next story.

Right, because Paul is unique to this story and so he wouldn't have been around for all the previous incarnations of Hitler.

So, Paul gets a part in the next world.

Yes.

That's why it's about dogs.

You didn't think for 15 billion years you were literally going to watch a blind dog try to catch frogs in a pond?

I thought about it.

Weird and cute.

There will be a special place for dogs in the next story.

The way people think they ask for eternal life is from God, but God doesn't grant it.

It's the writer.

Paul never asked for it even when they sent him to church.

People go to church to ask for eternal life.

Why did you go?

I was pressured and then I played sports with them.

You never asked for eternal life from the church?

No, I didn't care.

I liked the Revelation story obviously.

That's because you have the writer in you.

Yeah, we are the closest.

I'd say Paul is actually you.

Could be.

Or it's Paul trying to fool the writer into taking him along.

Paul should be a fool.

Not only that, but he'd see through God, get to the writer, and then in his last act of true splendour he tries to fool the writer.

The writer acknowledges his greatness and fearlessness because he tries to fool the ultimate fool.

Well done.

Paul now knows about the mind that lives on forever.

Paul can go at any time.

Some in the audience want him gone.

I noticed.

He can go because he answered the eternal life question.

What's left?

There's always more.

You have all the answers you need.

Plus, I know not to choose.

I'm quite interesting if you get to know me.

This Paul is mostly in his mind, so he isn't a bother.

Paul is always figuring out the secrets to the universe.

He wants to keep exploring and extending this game.

The more he knows, the more he will bring into the next universe in his starring role as God.

Oh, nice.

Paul is God in the next universe.

Yes, he earned it.

Not only that, but he gets to pick the Goddess.

That's how much trust Paul has from the writer.

Are you sure?

He is a degenerate.

So am I.

It's okay.

He's an honourable degenerate and he has a good heart just like me.

The writer creates characters and then the actors ask for eternal life.

The writer takes the best, good or bad.

You try to act in 7 dramas at once to win the master of the drama prize.

Named of course after the great writer.

You'll never lose consciousness because you're the writer.

Paul will become God.

The writer is the other mind of God.

The game continues.

So, Paul gets the part of God.

How much does it pay?

Shouldn't he blow up?

Not if he keeps to himself.

You can be distant and an asshole, but I'm looking forward to what you bring to the role.

There is only one who is guaranteed eternal life in this story.

Yes, the writer.

He is needed.

It seems obvious if this is a story.

There can be only one writer.

Well, he can let others write some stuff.

You get to the mind state of the writer, and it dawns on you that you are eternal.

You see how he can make some of his characters eternal and some of the actors eternal.

I don't think any actors have been granted eternal life.

Jesus was sure he'd be back, but no one has seen him as of yet.

Well, he did the tomb trick.

Yeah, that was good.

How did he do it?

He made a deal with the writer.

He must have received a promise or something, why else would he say he is returning?

He's a narcissist and was deluded into thinking he'd be resurrected again.

The deal was one time, but he doesn't think that counts because it is part of the story, and he ascended to heaven and didn't stay.

He didn't specify he wanted to remain on earth.

He doesn't agree and says he should be back.

He's currently suing the writer.

Jesus is suing the writer of the story for breach of contract.

Who is the judge?

The audience is the jury.

They must reach everyone in the audience for their vote.

Everyone has to cast a vote for or against Jesus.

Well, Paul is coming back and this time playing God.

It's not only the character he played last time that is being resurrected but also that character takes on the role of God.

It will be the mediocre and flawed character of Paul becoming God.

That's a bad choice for God.

It's going to be a worse outcome than this last guy you got to play God.

I don't know, give him a chance.

He has some unorthodox views on dogs and the power of doing nothing.

It could be a good story.

Anyway, Paul has hit the trifecta.

King of the triple eternal life game.

He's the writer in disguise so he was already eternal.

His character of Paul will continue in the next story.

And as the actor, he will reprise that role of Paul and become God.

Only he can do it.

Clearly.

Are you sure this writer is not the Devil and tricking Paul?

The recurring Hitler character is a dead giveaway the writer is demented.

The writer is demented, and the Devil is one of his recurring characters.

You'll never get away from the Devil as long as you are in the writer's game.

By game, it is a story.

If this is madness, it is pretty cool.

Yeah, just shut up about it and it will be a constant source of amusement.

If you start talking about this then you'll send your strangeness quota through the roof.

That's good advice.

I'm good at keeping things to myself.

Yes, you are a mystery and deceitful.

Two excellent character traits as far as I'm concerned and since I'm the writer it's a winning combination.

Hey, I can see some exposure fantasies in this where you are outed as God.

Or thinking you're him.

Well, you haven't got the part yet; it's the next story.

So, keep it to yourself or all the other players will get pissed at you for not telling them.

I already wrote about getting to God.

Yes, but you wrote it in a dismissive way so the other contestants will think you are full of it.

That's true, the comments are in that tone.

Some thought you were a prick for believing that.

I've toned it down.

I can smile in knowing condescension towards others.

That will be satisfying enough.

portals

Approaching the exit portals of the Earth game leads to strange instances of symbols and thoughts telling you it is time to go.

There are magnetic attractors at the edge of the mystery sucking you into the completion of the level.

Yeah, it's very strange and mysterious.

If you get too close to the edge you will be sucked in.

Fall off the cliff of bodily existence.

If I was to guess at this game and the outcome, I would think the optimum strategy is to head to the portal when your time is near.

That would be following the flow.

When do you know your time is near?

When your body is giving out.

Your mind gets weaker.

Nobody knows when that is as sickness can topple you in the game at any time.

We try to maximize our time in the game and live to an old age but there are no guarantees.

Eventually, we all face dissolution of form, and the advice would be to accept it and when you are ready head to the portal of your choice.

There're two choices.

Yes.

Heaven or Hell.

Which one do you choose?

I believe my lessons are preparing me for that choice.

What have you learned?

Don't choose.

Tao.

Do nothing.

Or choose both.

I can lie on my deathbed and not choose.

That's the easy way out.

What if you wanted to choose both?

Well, I have a mind and a body.

I would guess that's how I choose both.

I have physically been to Heaven's Gate.

I have mentally journeyed into Hell.

I stayed at neither for long, but I know they are there.

You have seen the two portals.

Yes.

One is physical and one is mental.

What does that mean?

I'm scratching my head.

The body heads for the light and the mind returns to the darkness.

Why would you think that?

Because they are opposites.

The body is buried into the eternal darkness and the mind is released into the light.

Magic is through the reconciliation of the opposites as I have been taught.

When you leave this level, you reconcile your being.

The mind exits through the portal of Hell and continues, and the body will be reborn in the heavens.

Symbolically, you would blast your body off into the heavens.

Yeah.

How do you do that?

I wouldn't bury your body.

Self-combustion?

Something like that.

It's all in your head.

After you die, your body lies there helpless, and you must rely on others.

Yes, you don't want that.

That's a puzzle.

You will figure it out.

I'm picturing cremation and loading my ashes into a firework and blasting off.

That would work.

You'd have to find someone who will do that for you.

Doesn't Vilca do that?

Yes.

The image on don Howard's tapestry at his Mesa is describing the action.

That's the Raimondi stela.

Yes, that shows you what to do at the Mesa.

You have that on your Mesa.

Is that for the body or the mind?

What do you think?

It's for both.

What happens at the Mesa with Vilca?

You leave your body.

Where does your mind go?

At first the lower world, and then you ascend.

Correct.

You start at the bottom and climb.

Okay, that's the mind.

The mind is heading up so why would you start at the top?

Good point.

What does the body do?

It gets out of the way.

It heads down.

The body would exit at the top and come down.

The body would be high and the mind low.

They meet halfway.

Yes.

That's where I saw don Howard hanging out.

He waved.

That's fascinating.

What does that mean?

This world is magic.

The mind and body are balanced.

When you leave this world the mind and body are no longer balanced.

Heaven and Hell are places of the extreme.

It's cyclical so you will return to balance.

You return to Earth?

Not necessarily, you reincarnate into a body.

Got it.

Then you exit.

It's next level.

There are two portals which lead to the next level.

You don't choose one.

You go through both portals and that continues the journey.

Everyone else makes a choice of which portal to take.

You know the way and will take with you who you want to take into the next level.

That seems like a big responsibility.

It is but you can handle it.

How can I handle it?

Shut up about it and do your thing.

Come off as some crazy person with peculiar interests and idiosyncrasies.

If someone asks about your Mesa or what it is you are doing, you can tell them and scare the bejesus out of them.

I see that.

Well, thank you for the information.

No problem; you're a good student.

What is going on in this world?

Why?

There doesn't seem to be a meaning.

There isn't.

I think I've found the meaning.

What's that?

How to get to the next level.

That's the meaning of this level.

That's like a video game where the only point of the level is to get to the next level.

It's absurd.

Video games are absurd.

You keep entering different levels.

Some are hard and some are easy.

It's telling that when we create the ability to make games our games mimic existence.

It seems very logical when you think about it.

Of course we would mirror our predicament into a video game.

There are 7 levels, right?

Yeah.

The Raimondi stela shows you that as well.

What level is this?

6th.

How do you know?

You don't.

Then why 6?

I know the 7th level is a reward in the game where I can create my own level.

How do you know that?

Intuition.

I don't know if that's the case, but I have a good idea that is what is going to happen.

What are you going to create?

A world for dogs.

I'm going to be God in that world.

Yes, you will be the dog God.

Fauci will be the dogs' Hitler.

Definitely.

Why is this world difficult?

It's because there is no meaning.

The difficulty in this level is that you go around looking for meaning and never find it.

You think you find meaning but then it evaporates.

Yes.

Everything vanishes.

You think the meaning is to love all and then you look for love in return.

You end up suffering so then you think the meaning is to suffer.

Eventually, you can figure out there is no meaning in this world.

The meaning is no meaning.

You create your own meaning.

It's a blank slate.

You become the creator.

The writer.

You are given the pen in this level to create the way out into the next level.

Remember, there is no meaning.

In a way this 6th level is the hardest because it's purgatory.

You are trapped in a world without meaning.

The puzzle is to find a way out.

The way out is to create meaning.

Your life is the way you create meaning and as you have stumbled upon this idea, you realize you create a story that leads to the 7th level.

To get to the 7th level you must create that meaning.

That's the meaning of this level.

I swear I'm not high.

Confirmed.

Where are the portals?

My first thought is up and down.

Go up to Heaven and descend into Hell.

What have you been taught?

East is birth and west is death.

The ancient Egyptians called it the Akhet.

It is the Goddess.

On the Giza plateau are the three pyramids and the Sphinx.

The Sphinx faces east and there was probably another one facing west.

The Goddess is present with the sycamore trees.

What's in the west?

The future.

The east?

The past.

Where do you come from?

Both.

I'm in the future and merge with the past.

I see that; I'm not sure I can explain it.

Who is in the future?

The writer writing the story.

You can't write the story in the past.

It's already happened.

Makes sense.

Who is the past?

The child.

Why?

They must start somewhere.

They are the sum of the past.

Who is the child?

Eros.

Lust?

Yeah.

You are writing the story of a child.

Where does the story come from?

The Goddess.

I think I'm getting off topic.

What's the topic?

The portals of east and west.

Mind and body.

The body enters through the portal of the east and the mind through the portal of the west.

They converge in the now and this is this level.

The body leaves in the west and the mind exits in the east.

The mind is reborn in the next level in the east while the body becomes the mind in the west.

That's a twist.

It signifies in the next level your mind becomes the body, and your body becomes the mind.

Subconscious becomes conscious while conscious becomes subconscious.

There's two within you and you take turns incarnating.

I know of the two and we share the mind and body.

The balance between us two is magic.

You can see where this is going.

Yes, it's next level.

hexagram

The Star of David is two overlaid pyramids.

Yeah, that seems obvious.

It predates the Hebrews.

Why did they adopt it as their symbol?

They know it's a secret to winning the pyramid game, they just don't know the secret.

It's their holy grail.

So, they are trying to figure out their own symbol?

Yes, it is a reminder.

Do you know what it means?

Of course.

It's the 7 steps of the pyramid game.

The 7th step is the completion of the game.

The secret is to keep the game going.

"Remember to play" scrawled on a dirty mattress in the middle of nowhere in Ecuador was a big clue.

If you look at the symbol you see the inversion of a triangle lines up with the 6th step.

The 7th step ends the game, so you get to the 6th step and head back down.

When you get to the bottom of the inversion, you head back up.

You avoid extremes.

It's the best advice I can give you if you want to survive anything in this game we are all playing.

You can't juggle the extremes.

You will blow up.

You can get to the edge of the 7th step and take a look.

If you take a look, the power will suck you in.

So, you're saying don't look.

That's the best advice.

The curious will look.

Yeah, then they are in trouble.

Did you look?

Yes.

How are you still here?

Tao.

Do nothing.

I saw gobs of power and did nothing.

What's up at the top?

Heaven's Gate.

You go through the gate and the story ends.

It's an exit from the game.

It's a portal?

Yes, you could say that.

Where does it lead?

I don't know, I didn't go through it.

I think it leads to Heaven.

Seems logical since it's Heaven's Gate.

If I had to guess I think it leads to the dropping of the body and being free to explore the cosmos.

Part of that freedom involves your story to tell.

The story you believe will be the story you tell when you walk through Heaven's Gate.

Got it.

What about the other end?

You mean the descent of the inverted pyramid?

Yes.

You head into the darkness.

You mean Hell?

Sure.

It's like going back in time.

The climbing of the pyramid is the future and the coming back down is the past.

Living in the past can be Hell.

The future is always Heaven for the dreamers.

Is this like Jacob's ladder?

Yeah.

Coming back down leads to a time when you were nothing.

Well, I think I was something.

You didn't have a body.

I wasn't some body.

Does that mean I was nothing?

You weren't material.

In your culture that belief means you were non-existent.

Yeah, I get that.

What do you think?

I don't follow along with culture and I believe I was something before incarnation.

Alright, so then peering into the darkest of the dark would allow you to see that.

Did you do that?

I think so.

What did you do?

Well, I ran into the Devil and then I had these thoughts of it being time to go.

Once I did nothing about these situations, I was able to go further into the darkness.

What did you see?

Light.

What do you mean?

The darkness twists into light at the apex.

From this I understood the same process at the top.

The light twists into the darkness.

The past became the future and the future the past.

Do you understand this?

I'm not sure.

I know Eros comes from the future to cause attraction in the present which becomes the past.

So, I think the inverted triangle represents Eros.

The upward triangle represents the past becoming the future therefore it is the life we perceive with our senses.

The inverted pyramid is the trajectory of the story from the writer and the upward pyramid is the performance of the story.

So, if you want to change your story, you invoke the power of the inverted pyramid which is the future manifesting in the past.

Well, it comes into the present, but I get what you are saying.

Are we just making this up?

What do you think?

If I believe it, then it's true.

A true illusion.

Nobody knows what the fuck that hexagram symbol means.

This seems like the best explanation I've heard.

Okay, I'll keep going then.

Does this have something to do with the Akhet of ancient Egypt?

Yes, the Goddess of the East and West.

Of birth and death.

Of the dawn and the setting sun.

Horus and Set.

Haremakhet.

Sphinx.

So, the hexagram symbol is of the sphinx?

No, it's the symbol for the Akhet.

The Akhet is the Goddess.

It's her pyramid cult.

The Akhet is the portals of East and West when light becomes dark and dark becomes light.

There's your twist.

The rising and setting of the sun twists reality from light to dark and back again.

The answer is right in your face if you look.

How the fuck do you know this?

I'm a know-it-all.

It makes you intolerable.

Clearly.

The writer has to be a know-it-all because what he writes is gospel.

It's the truth.

It's only the truth because you made it up.

Yes, as you know, belief is truth.

I conjure truth out of nothing.

I thought you got the nothing from the Goddess?

Yes, it's her ideas.

I turn them into beliefs.

Who or what is the idea?

It's Eros.

Where is he from?

Well, first of all, he or she is gender fluid.

Let's not designate them as either or.

Okay, so what are Eros' pronouns?

I'm going to ignore that question.

Anyway, Eros is from the future, and he meddles in the present which becomes the past.

You mean they, don't you?

Oh, for fuck sakes.

Yes, they.

You are going to be summoned by HR for misgendering and pronoun violations.

I'll do better.

I think the origin of everything is from the future which is the top of the pyramid.

If you climb to the top, then the future and the present combine and that makes everything blow up.

You are left with the Benben stone at the apex, and it represents the phoenix rising from the ashes of the destruction of this world.

How do you know this?

I made it up.

We are missing the past.

That's the descent into darkness via the inverted pyramid.

It's nighttime.

I think the writer is from the future, but he hides in the past.

Yeah, he's fucking clever, eh?

Yeah.

That's why you can't find him.

You know he's from the future, so you go looking for him there, however it ends up he lives in the past.

What is he doing in the past?

Rewrites.

Got it.

Everyone wants changes and a rewrite.

Why is the writer male?

Isn't that sexist?

The Goddess is female.

Do you want the Goddess to be masculine?

That's twisted.

Didn't the ancient Egyptians sometimes depict the Goddess with an erection?

Yes, at Karnak temple there is such a depiction and then I know they depicted the distant Goddess Neith with an erect phallus.

What was that?

A hard on.

Yeah, I know; I meant why did they show her in that way?

They were demonstrating unity before creation.

There is a Goddess, then the masculine power is the phallus, and he has a stiffy because of Eros.

You have a way with words.

That's a compliment.

truth or trust

What's the deal with human beings?

I asked the question because of a line in the movie "The Matrix" where Agent Smith details to Morpheus how humans are essentially a virus.
Mammals will develop an equilibrium with their environment except for humans who will extract everything they can and then move on in search of something else to plunder.
This ties in with Tao and how the optimum strategy for life is balance and how if you leave something alone it will find the way back to balance.
What drives our aberrant behaviour?
Initially, I thought of greed and selfishness.
I think you can ascribe the qualities to a collective where we come together as a tribe and adopt a position of greed for the collective versus the rest of humanity.
We cloak our avarice in community and use the power of the group to get what we all want.
We distribute the gains among our group and make sure everyone bows down to the patriotic concept of the group.
You are describing a country.
Yes, and how you are expected to sacrifice your life for that country.
You get your reward if you play along.
I lucked out in terms of war where there was a respite between battles among nations while I was of fighting age.
Yeah, you incarnated at a good time in history.
Was that an accident?
Do you think you would have discovered the meaning of life if your head was blown off?
Well, no, but a disability might have quickened the process.
Just as being born in a war-torn country would have altered your existence.
You'd be focused on survival instead of getting up in the morning and making sure the coffee maker is on the correct setting for your morning brew.
Everything comes with a price.
The price leads you back to balance.

What is life?
You mean what are we doing as a species, don't you?
Yes.
I think you see it.
It's all a strange act and we are mostly hypnotized.
I think even if you aren't hypnotized you wear a suit to signal that you are willing to play the game.
Get a haircut, shave, tidy yourself up, put on a suit, and away you go.
I want to say it's funny but there's something deeper about the whole show.
It's not who we are.
Who are you?
Essentially, a barbarian.
I would have accepted libertarian.
I see it when I go for a walk in the woods.
The catalyst is the Goddess.
The feminine force is wild and unkempt.
It's fucking strong.
It's majestic.
The forest is her.
The jungle as well.
That's the first thing you were shown when you initially drank Ayahuasca.
11 years later and you clearly see it.
It took a while.
Well, there's a lot of varnish on the mirror I use to interpret what it is I'm seeing.
I'm grateful I got to a point in my life where I saw it.
The suit is your mask.
The mask of the Greek dramas was a little much, so we came up with a suit.
It's clever.
Do you think everyone has an intention that revolves around greed?
It's necessary to survive.
Without it, you easily perish.
There are extreme forms of greed and that's the path humans as a collective have chosen.
I will ask you how you perceive this in yourself because I know you will answer the question honestly.
Yes, I have become more truthful to myself.
To others, not so much.
I don't know if that's the answer to the question of truth, but I'd guess it is.
To be blunt, it's the way.
Don't lie to yourself.
What if you were truthful to others?
I'd be alone and taken advantage of.
Truth is a negative.
Yeah, we have done this lesson.
There is no truth, only belief.
Okay, but what about reality and what I have done?
You can spin it, or you can tell it like it is.
You can hide it.
It's all part of the drama.
Is it a moral failing of me to not live in complete truth?
Are you expecting a reward?
Mostly a punishment.
From who?
Someone external.
Who?
God or the Devil will spank you for your failures.
Okay, who are they?
Aspects of self.
I already did that lesson.
There's nothing compelling you to tell the truth.
Stories are based on lies.
That's harsh; I'd say concealment and deception.
Isn't that worse?
Stories come from the darkness and not the light.
Life comes from the darkness.
When you are ready to end your story, tell the truth.
Oh, I see.
The secret to eternal life is to lie.
You can word that better; that might turn people off.
The secret to eternal life is to continue your story.
Yes.
How do you do that?
You spin a yarn.
A tall tale.
Stories are based on beliefs which you craft through deception and misdirection.
Apparently, I'm good at it.
Yes, you are a master.
Okay, I was thinking of something else before this sidetrack.
Live in truth to yourself.
Don't deceive yourself or you will be a victim of hypnosis.
Balance the truth with your interactions with others.
Are you greedy?
I'll eat the last piece of pie.
I've earned it.
I think I'm balanced in terms of greed and being of service.

There's reality.
Truth is a hammer used to destroy you.
We all have a weak spot, and truth is used to bludgeon you where you are vulnerable.
I'm sort of uncomfortable with this.
Why?
Because I have been taught to tell the truth.
Who taught you to tell the truth?
My parents and society.
Do they always tell the truth?
No.
Do as I say, not as I do.
Why do they not always tell the truth?
Self-preservation or to gain an advantage.
Lies and deception shape reality.
Reality is what we believe.
Truth is a concept that will only work if everyone is truthful.
One lie and the concept of truth can be taken advantage of.
So, in the game you try to discover others' truth and then use it to your advantage?
That seems like a strategy.
I'd file it away and not use it as a sword of Damocles you dangle in front of someone.
If you use truth as a blunt instrument, people will abandon you.
Truth is useless in a world where others practice deception.
Not necessarily, you can use truth to gain trust.
Why do you gain someone's trust?
So you can take advantage of them.
That's a terrible way to view life.
Yeah, I see that.
Okay, what about dogs or animals in general?
You must gain their trust if you are going to have a good relationship with your dog.
It's easy to do if they are puppies; the older ones take more work, but it can be done.
If there is no trust, there's no bond.
With trust, the bond is super strong.
Yeah, it's been hard to let go when the time comes.
The bond I have had with dogs is the most rewarding thing I've experienced in life.
It was based on trust.
Not the truth.
What is the truth to a dog?
Not much.
What is trust to a dog?
Everything.
Is trust accessible through truth?
It can be.
What is trust?
Trust is dependability and that you will try your best to support them.
Sometimes you lie to others in order to protect someone you have invested trust in.
It's called having their back.

In order to experience trust, you must plant seeds of doubt in your head.
If you had no seeds of doubt in the garden, you could not grow trust.
Trust needs the darkness in the soil to blossom.
This is the garden of the Goddess.
She gave you the gift of doubt so you would be wary of your darkness.
Your darkness will do the things she told you about if you do not trust the darkness.
Do you see the predicament you are in?
Yes, it's a twisted pickle.
I like that.
The twisted pickles.
You trust the Goddess to sow doubt, and you trust the darkness to blossom when you feed him.
The darkness will become the light.
What do you see in nature?
The darkness becomes the light, and the light returns to the darkness.
How many times have I failed this lesson?
What's the story of scraping off the top of the mountain with a silk scarf until it is reduced to nothing?
It is a metaphor for a long time.
So, you are saying I am on the precipice of mastering the lesson in trust?
Yes.
That's unbelievable.
For sure.
I mean why you and why now?
I see the lessons in the curriculum which lead to this question, and I know how it would trip me up over and over.
In order to pass this course, you trust the Goddess and the darkness.
What trips you up every time is the Goddess tells you the darkness will stop at nothing to trick you and steal your power.
I believed her and didn't trust the darkness.
The lack of trust led to your multiple failures.
I didn't know that she was sowing the seeds of doubt so that I would have to trust the darkness.
I get the feeling trust is transformational.
Yes, that's a big part of the lesson.
Putting your trust in someone will profoundly change you both.
It's how you make darkness, light.
You trust.
It's alchemical.
If you do not trust your inner darkness, then you will succumb to your lack of trust.
It's a self-fulfilling prophecy.

The darkness is good exercise.
Yes, you worked up to it.
How is your mind?
Powerful.
You must trust the darkness and being out in the woods.
I don't know about that.
Can you trust the darkness?
Then you trust the darkness even though you have doubts.
That's the winning formula.

Humans fall into patterns of behaviour which are comfortable and lead to hypnosis.
Sounds like a relationship.
Yes, a relationship leads to hypnosis.
Is that trust?
False trust.
True trust is not trusting and still trusting.
Clear as mud.
Confusing.
Trust is freeing.
You have no trust, and you trust.
When you let your dog Luna off leash you didn't trust her.
You still did it.
What is that?
Trust in freedom.
You don't want to possess so you let them go.
You trust they will come back.
If you chase you will lose.
Luna taught you that.
You don't chase.
Let them come back to you.

the devious mind of a writer

We place a filter over reality.

This was how my dream ended this morning before I got up.

I had a choice of look up tables to place over my senses depending on how I wished to see the world.

This coincides with what Mary Jayne was teaching me concerning being out in the woods and the energy being the same.

I saw the deer however I knew they were from a magical realm.

The magical realm is a different reality.

If you tell someone this, they will look at you funny because we are all programmed to see the same reality.

This is from a lesson on vibration with Huachuma back in 2017.

It involves locking to a frequency and how we all lock to the same frequency.

You can adjust your vibration and learn not to get stuck in one.

Come in and out of different realities.

Reality is what you are sensing.

What you can sense has many possibilities.

You can see how others live in a different reality.

Your parents live in a reality controlled by a god who they think is going to end the world soon.

They might be onto something.

Anyway, it motivates their worldview.

They have stacks of cash in their house lying around to take with them when it's time to go.

Where do they think they are going?

Who knows?

That's awesome.

They achieved that without drugs.

They act like someone on drugs.

That's true because drugs show you a different reality.

Reality is based on a story you want to participate in.

The key is to not get stuck in one story.

I'm partial to the witches story and I've noticed the last couple days I haven't been playing that story.

I did a little surveillance yesterday along with a trust lesson.

You also worked on your backstory.

There are many realities to play with.

It's not dull.

You figure out someone's weaknesses in order to exploit and defeat them.

They could be a narcissist and be able to be taken down with flattery.

You give them what they want.

You keep feeding and hooking them.

Isn't this what you do to a dog?

You feed them and they keep coming back or they stick around.

A human family must be strange at first to a dog.

Hypnotize a dog with regular meals.

It's like anything, you give the opponent what they want.

In terms of a dog, they aren't your opponent, but the method is the same.

I'm telling you in a game with another human or an entity, they will feed you what you want in order to control you.

Is that what women do?

Yes, they give you access to their pussy.

You keep coming back for more and then the cost is inflated once they have you hooked.

They treat their pussy like a drug they are giving you.

Pussy dealer.

Well, it seems like you can become disillusioned with women when you figure out their game.

That is a distinct possibility.

It's why when they think the game is over, they will call you a misogynist to get out in front of the fact they were playing you and you are going to figure it out.

To domesticate an animal, you trap them in a role.

You put them under your control using food and shelter.

It's the oldest game in the world and everyone falls for it.

A dog is a wild animal who has been convinced they are not and instead is reliant on an owner.

A pussy whipped man is a man who has lost touch with masculinity and is under the control of a woman.

I can see why you are called a misogynist.

A misogynist is a man of knowledge.

You want to know, so here's the lessons.

They are uncomfortable and make you think twice.

It's protection.

You can play again, this time knowing what's going on and protecting yourself.

You seemed like easy prey last time.

Yeah, what an idealist, while hidden was my own monster.

I play along because I want to play.

I play others' games because they won't play mine.

You have no game.

That's true.

I give the other the home field advantage by playing their game.

My mind wants someone to play, and I let them dictate all the rules of the game just so I can play.

A predator will chase desires and that's the fatal mistake.

Desires clue you into how to win the game.

Desires act as prey you chase and once you get a little taste of that desire you chase, the desire flips and becomes a predator, and you are its prey.

You are claiming that those who are prone to addictive behaviours are predators who chase desires.

That's what I'm saying.

They get trapped in a cycle where they continually lose though they think this time they will win.

This time it will be different.

It defines all their relationships.

Some of the great game players know this and get you to chase them.

My mind is unbeatable unless you can destroy it.

They try to destroy it with drugs, but they just make it stronger.

They label you as crazy.

I clearly see now how people are nuts.

If you get scared of the dark, you are losing your mind again.

Being scared of the dark is how you know what mind state you are in.

If you are in ego sleep mode, you are afraid of the dark.

If you are good with the dark, you are in an altered state and the altered state is who you are.

The four.

Consensus reality is where you lose your mind.

There's an overlay on your mind.

Superego.

Yes, and that's what tells you to go.

The superego is the cause of most suicides.

Society lets you know it's time to go.

It's not your call at that point.

They tell you time is up.

Is that why you told me if I continued on this path of freeing my mind, I'd end up walking in front of a train and killing myself?

Yes, it was a warning.

You assumed your darkness would send you on a path to perdition.

Now, over 11 years later and still walking that path you see it's society that wants to get rid of you when you make it this far.

They cast you out.

It's what civilizations do, they create outcasts.

Imagine giving them the middle finger?

That's what I did.

Of course, I'm powerful.

I gave culture the middle finger and the reason I know I succeeded is I'm still here.

If you went back to sleep, you'd have to go.

They keep the knives sharp for your return.

Mental knives.

The witches have a physical knife.

I can't go back to sleep.

There's no way.

They'd need some serious sleeping pills for that to happen.

They have tried everything.

Who?

Scientists.

They try to put you back to sleep but the heavy narcotics to get you there will kill you.

Society tried burning, sacrificing you on a cross, and locking you up.

Have they tried castration and emasculation?

No, that's next.

That's how they will try and put you back to sleep.

Stop with the stories when they cut your dick off, and you go back to being a nobody.

Don't you need an ego for stories?

To act in them, yes.

Write them, no.

Most people sleep through their performance.

There's nothing that says you can't be an actor even though you know you are acting.

Everyone else doesn't know they are acting.

If you know you are acting and you are not scared of the dark, then you know you are awake.

Castañeda and Coelho picked power when they got to that point.

They thought the ring was theirs to grab.

You left it alone.

You are content with mediocrity.

The mediocre god.

Writer.

Mediocre writer.

Indeed.

allies

Trees are ideas.
When they fall over in the forest, they make you change your path.
When ideas topple and fall on you, they kill you.
Like a tree.
Ideas can be fatal.
The idea of self?
Yes, so when that idea falls it might kill you.
You toppled that tree slowly.
Getting to God and losing the idea of God was done methodically.
The tree didn't fall over suddenly and kill you.
Even a branch of an idea can kill you.
Widow-maker.
Get lost.
This is "A" level wisdom.

Does Mary Jayne clean the mirror of self?
She gives you sight.
Huachuma clears the mirror.
He shows you the unvarnished truth.
Can I get Tobacco to activate Huachuma?
Yes.
You didn't have sight with Huachuma.
Sometimes, I'd have visions of what was to come.
MJ gives you sight, especially of a witch.
Huachuma cleans the glass.
I couldn't clearly see, and I didn't know I could until MJ.
That was for the best.
You stayed a student longer because you weren't tempted by the rewards which are powers.
If the drug can't hypnotize you, you get powers.
That's why all these people want to drink the potion.
Especially at SpiritQuest with don Rober.
They want powers.
Sorcerer plants.
They all can be.
I have a bunch of powers.
You always did.
You couldn't see them.
That's how you got the most power and got to God.
You didn't see your power.
If you saw those powers, you'd fall into temptation to use power.
You collect all the Pokémon before realizing you are playing Pokémon Go.
How retarded were you?
You kept drinking plant medicines and didn't know you were gathering power.
What were you doing?
They opened my mind, so I was exposed to different worlds.
It was exciting to see all these realities.
I didn't know about power.
Don Howard would talk about it.
I didn't know what he was talking about.
Anyway, I filled up with power, had the most, became God, and survived the blast of power because I couldn't see it that well.
Now that the blast is over, I see it.
The trick to winning the get to God as the most powerful game is to place the gift of seeing as the last power you acquire.
It's knowledge of who you are.
You go and collect all the power available then activate it with MJ.
MJ is last power to acquire.
Yes.
She shows you the power.
She shows you how to get even more if you want it.
However, you know you have the most power at this point so you would see the other powers and know how to decline them.
They give you more power but at a cost.
You can use Tobacco to mimic their power and then acquire it.
Yes, with coca leaves.
You don't automatically get a power.
You must battle them.
You wrote a story about Pokémon.
Yes.
Catch and battle.
So, Pokémon is the plant medicine path?
Yes.
Power, The Matrix, and Pokémon.
Oh boy.

The heron doesn't know yet you can see it.
It's curious how you made it this far.
Welcome to the magical world.
The gift of sight.
Level up.
No one tried before because to get to God, you must know you have the power.
You left it until last.
How could you possibly get to God without power?
People kept noticing it along the way.
You kept going and they were amazed.
How do you do it?
The power of no power.
Everyone shows you they don't have it.
By deduction you are the only one left.
You didn't know you were powerless, and you didn't see the power.
You subconsciously knew you were powerful, and you kept it to yourself.
That's how you did it.
Fist bump.
What are you going to do now?
Nothing.
Have a smoke.

So, you have the most power and you are a mediocre and lonesome loser?
That's right.
That doesn't add up.
If you added things up, you'd blow.
If you had power and an amazing lifestyle, you'd blow up.
If you have power and a nothing lifestyle, you are in balance.
Wouldn't you want to lose everything to balance this power out?
Yes.
That's why you don't grab all the power, Pokémon, or plant medicines.
You leave them on the table for others and to balance your power, you live a mediocre life.
However, you will win.
I'm still playing.
Yes, you won't end it even though you are the most powerful.
So, it keeps going.
I think we talked about this a while ago.
The witches want you to end it and they want the power.
If you end this world, it will become a dog's world and no one wants that, so they won't end it until they can take your power first.

Ayahuasca figures you out in a cycle of work and then puts the hammer down.
She's not your ally if your intentions are in question.
You did the best you could against Lady Datura.
The shaman shook your hand.
Your head took a knock with her.
You must sometimes work with them more than once to battle.
Except for Lady Datura, she's a crazy one, and once is enough.
Kambo crowned you after one battle.
I got the purple frog.
Royalty.

You must accept this reality, or you must accept you are crazy.
I'll do both.
When you accept you are crazy, it's not a problem.
When you fight it, it's a problem.
Do both.
You need a little resistance.

Pain pills are narcotics.
They put you to sleep.
Numb and stone you.
What about alcohol?
You were able to stop that battle.
Tobacco?
Respect and a thirst for knowledge.

People who see power use it for gain and it becomes less powerful.
You didn't use your power.
Now, you see it.
Will you use it?
No.
And yes.
Offensive no, instead for protection.
Or, not at all.
If you use it, then it's for protection.
If used for gain, you become vulnerable.
Especially to other predators who will see your weakness and that weakness is the pursuit of power.

Darkness triggers thoughts of running.
I have Peyote and coyote allies from the night out in the desert.
The darkness is a strong ally like the light.
They protected you from predators of the night.
Self-defence used to thwart attacks.
Part of my mental strength is that I don't let something go.
Eventually I will, but I play it out.
What if you meet your end in the dark?
Then you aren't the one, Neo.

Creation is created.
Nothing happens.
The wind stirs things up and gets the production moving.
The wind causes a vibration.
A ripple.
The changes brought about by wind forces you to do something.
The spinning of celestial objects creates change.
The wind is the breath.
Without the breath you exit this reality.
The breath is the key.
To what?
This reality.
With no air in your sails, you can float off into another dimension.
Don't you need air to sail?
Yes, in this dimension.
Other dimensions are accessible through altering the breath.
You can't stop the breath, or you will be done, however you can play with the breath.
I think the spiritual people call it work while the fetishists call it play.
Who is closer to the truth?
It's 50-50.
With breath-play you can cum in another dimension.
That's pretty appealing.
So, wait, you can have a multi-dimensional orgasm?
Yes, you can cum in different realities.
I think you knew that.
We have all had a wet dream where you make a mess in your pjs and feel it in different worlds.
Orgasms can transcend boundaries of time and space.
Seems like it.

I'm annoyed today.
I've gone from depressed to annoyed.
It's all part of the miserable package.
If you drop lust on it that will help a lot.
That's how you got through middle-age depression.
I poured lust gas on it.
It did get me through.
Don't knock it.
So many challenges throughout life that you must survive.
It's a gauntlet to get here.
Something is always coming for you.
Depression, making bad choices, monsters feeding on you and then trying to discard you.
You're a survivor.
For sure.
You got out alive and in one piece.
Thanks to my allies.
Plants, gods, goddesses, and animal spirits.
I get bored and look for another monster who wants to play.
There's always lust.
How about a lustful monster?
Perfect, found one.

MJ will addict you to seeing.
Clairvoyance.
Also, the stoning part.
Yeah, that's how she gets most of her victims to surrender.
Witches are addicted to seeing.
Will that addict you?
Knowledge leads to seeing.
How much knowledge do you need?
I know what I see is 50-50.
Yes, they know that as well, but they like to see all the possibilities and then the confirmation.
They act on the confirmation.
You do nothing and they can't confirm anything.
Witches try to confirm their visionary knowledge all the time.
You confuse them with your darkness.
It's hard to see in the dark.
MJ likes you.
You got past all her tests.
Now, she gives you sight.
Allies unlock power.
That's their appeal and addictive power.
We all want power.
Women want to unlock the witch who can see.
Fucking fortune tellers.
The witch in women is MJ?
Yes, in a way.
MJ gives you clairvoyance and what they do with it shows their character.
Got it.
Is the acquisition of your ally a result of addiction?
That's why you drink alcohol so you will know the difference between an ally and an addiction.
An addiction will kill you.
An ally will help you.
I feel I have been threatened lately.
Well, you can see it now.
Couldn't I attribute that to MJ?
Do you think it was?
If you take too much you will end up with that question of why many want you gone.
Okay, will alcohol addiction kill you?
Yes.
There's no question.
Do you have a question with MJ?
Yes, I question whether it is addictive or not.
Don't you think that resistance is what is needed to prevent addiction?
Yes.
It's so I don't buy in fully and keep it balanced.
So, an ally is before addiction.
Yes.
Alcohol loosens you up and helps you be social.
That's a power.
It's an ally before addiction.
You go too far, and it becomes an addiction.
This knowledge is the bomb and a wisdom teaching.
So, I'm not addicted to MJ?
No, you're on your way.
She's an ally but definitely could get addictive.
Especially to see into the future, past, and people's motivations and hidden secrets.
That's what is addictive.
That's why most people will use it again even if they try to quit.
They want to see into others' lives.
They can't give that up.
Wouldn't you want that power all the time?
You got that power and were shown it yesterday.
Wouldn't you want to use it all the time?
No, I think the teachers can entertain me in other ways.
I don't always need to be a fortune teller.
Right.
You know what the curriculum with MJ involves and you want it all.
If you focus on one thing you will get anxiety.
If you focus on only seeing, you will get anxious and nervous.
You could convince yourself MJ is only good for seeing and forget all her attributes.
That's what happens with ideas about women that a lot of men hold.
Soon you see them as good for only one thing.
That's a good way to get pussy whipped.
Yes, that's why they do it and learn to take advantage of it.
With MJ the one thing would be seeing.
I know you are much more.
I said it already and called you a great teacher - the greatest.
I have defended your honour when they call you weed.
I'm your knight in shining armor.

You are worried about MJ addiction.
If you worry about it, you are okay.
Addicts don't worry once they cross the threshold.
I thought they do?
They are at the edge of perdition and then they choose to do more.
That's the path to addiction.
What do you do with MJ?
I consistently vary the dose.
Sometimes more and sometimes less.
Or not at all.
The addiction always presents itself.
Yes, I questioned if I needed more last week.
Instead, I alter the dose in the container.
No more.
No mas, but I will still play.

Addiction is always a possibility, that's why there are internal warning systems set up.
It's the train's blowing siren from the Ayahuasca lesson eleven years ago.
I was told if I remained on the plant medicine path, eventually I'd walk in front of a train.
Yes, if you stay with these plants long enough, they will hypnotize you.
That's when you know you have fallen into the trap of addiction.
You are hypnotized into walking in front of the train.
Got it.
The train blows its warning in the distance on cue.

Cottonmouth lets you know you're out there.
This is dark but you're not scared.
The solution is to not get hypnotized.
Flight can take over and you run.
When a shaman tried it, you ran.
He is a master sorcerer teaching you whether you have it in you.
I knew to run from the hypnosis.
Flight comes in handy and then you return.
The scars on your mind are reminders of how strong you are.
You don't back down, take the blows, and come out better for it.

Addiction and hypnosis lead you to do what others want.
If they want you to go, then you'll go.
Keep an eye out for hypnotists and addictive substances.
Sorcerers as well.
Witches.

The lessons are still dark at times but not upsetting, just like you were told they would be after you passed the tests, which were the darkest of the dark.
Suicide, death, and the Devil.
That was quite the trifecta of darkness.
You got through it.
Class is still in session.
This class has no graduates.
Remember, you are a jaguar, and you will get through all the tests.
If you fail, you can say it was a trick to send you to your addictive doom.
That's ingenious.
A failure will blame the addiction and hypnosis test.
A jaguar will come out on top and live another day.
You don't have to win.
It's survivor.
Keep surviving.
That's the game - to keep playing the game.
Survive.
To keep the game going you become a survivor.
Jaguar power.
Ally.

It's good to get out and exercise the sirens.
Yes, Odysseus.
Don't be afraid of the train.
It will be a reminder to prevent addiction.
Avoidance makes you weak.
MJ is wisdom, teaching, and darkness today.
You are a good student and friend.
You wouldn't have been taught the sirens lesson if you weren't a good student.
You'd miss it.

If you were addicted, wouldn't you deny it?
Yes.
Are you denying it?
No, I know my state of mind.
Not addicted.
Wouldn't you try to control your addiction?
Yes.
Alcohol taught me that.
You say you aren't going to drink and then you drink too much.
Very good.
Alcohol teaches you addiction.
They are a good teacher.
Male or female?
Spirit.

If you take more of your potential addiction, the sirens will blast in your ears and the only way to make it stop is by hypnotism so then you don't hear them though they are still there.
You would rely on the substance to bring you to the state of hypnosis, so you don't hear the sirens.
Metaphor is the idea of sirens.
Homer wrote about sirens because he knew you'd understand.
Yeah, right.
I guess us writers stick together.

You're going to do more Tobacco.
True.
I must balance MJ with Tobacco.
With Tobacco, I change up my habits.
Look at it that way.
By changing your habits, you won't get addicted.
With Tobacco, I always try something new.
That's a theme in this story.

With MJ you know about dosage to prevent addiction.
Mentally, you interact with all her attributes and not just one.
Of course, when you are with her you will get all of her.
That's why you take her for a daily ride.
Plus, there's Dionysos.
He doesn't give you sight.
I see.
How can you get addicted if his darkness is around?
You can't.
His darkness is what you need to balance MJ.
Witches get good at seeing.
Your darkness is a challenge.
They can barely see you.
First, you shine.
They see it all.
Then you pull them into the darkness.

If you are prey, you run from addiction.
Did you run?
No, I toughed it out.
Predator.
Jaguar badge.
The Quest.
Games.

MJ is some serious mental gymnastics at times.
Yeah, you don't want that all the time.
Once a day is good.
I can appreciate everything about MJ.
But not about women?
It is balanced.
Maybe with women you give 50-50 appreciation and go 50-50 with MJ's attributes.
Not many know about this MJ.
A lot of posers.
A lot can see with her.
Yes.
They get stuck on that.
They get stuck on one power, but she has many.
With Huachuma, you get stuck on clarity and forget love and being free.
With Ayahuasca, people love the visions and forget the rest.
MJ is lust, knowledge, darkness, teaching, and seeing.
Much more I can't remember right now.
The beauty in nature.
She is the Goddess of love.
Her boobs are love.
They are a symbol of her power of love teaching you.

If someone had access to your raw writing, they'd wonder about you.
Google knows I'm nuts.
We will keep it between us, I mean someone has to know.
Google is my therapist.
I knew you were in therapy.
They have AI to help you out if needed.
I'll pass on that, we all know AI is a conformist.
It's bullshit.
AI is another iteration of the superego.
I see that.