god is a waste of time

I made a video a couple years ago which is the genesis of my ritual out in the forest.

The performance and layout evolved from humble beginnings.

It's at the river bend where my dog Luna dug a hole.

Originally, I started one in 2015 at witches' cove that wasn't as far along the path.

Luna dug a hole there as well and I made the spot holy.

The river bend is farther into my mind.

I added sticks to represent the four directions and burnt incense in the centre.

With Mary Jayne's help, I assigned names to the four points representing my friends.

By friends, I am referring to the four voices in my head I experience during ego dissolution.

Later, I added flat sticks to cross the cardinal points.

I am in the process of discovery, and I imagine these in-between characters are amalgamations of the main four.

My state of mind in the morning when I get out of bed is uncluttered especially if I'm alone.

My ego is diminished, and I listen to my friends.

I have a heightened ability to write.

Interactions with others produce the ego.

I see how it works.

I put on an act and a show once I engage the world.

So, the performance of this play is tied to ego?

Yes, you play a character which is influenced by interactions with others.

When I alter consciousness and dissolve the ego, I need to be alone.

I must escape to the forest and return to my nature.

What about plant medicine trips and ceremonies with others?

They work among strangers as you leave your baggage at the door.

Doing ceremonies with friends invites in distortions because they expect a performance out of you.

Plus, you see into their motivations, and it crosses boundaries.

At this point in my life, I don't want to change consciousness around other people.

I don't like being in the house during this time.

The show is tied to ego.

Correct.

Stories are derivative of everyone's egos.

You got it.

To create new adventures means coming out into the world and putting on a performance.

That's how you make a new story.

If you are by yourself or switching between the multiple bedrocks of who you are, you can't make stories.

That's when I write them.

Exactly.

The confusion of who you are throws others for a loop and they can't handle it.

They want you gone.

They can't control you if they don't know who you are at any point.

They want to peg you down as a known entity or tie you up, so you stay the same.

I get it.

It's a thrill to find someone who wants to do that and then find ways to escape.

That's a fun game.

I know your game.

You find a female to designate as the Goddess.

You pursue or worship her.

Yes.

Sometimes, you get her, other times she's out of reach.

Or, she slips from my grasp.

You've made a bunch the Goddess.

Yes, but eventually I took the crown back from them all.

Except your dogs.

I still honour them.

Also, part of your game are your three familiars of Eros, Dionysos, and Apollo.

Lust, mystery, and light.

I'm a smart and horny fucker who is a badass.

Mentally, I'm a badass which is the best kind to be.

I could always put on a show and try to act that part, however I have learned the mystery is much better when you leave it for discovery.

You are writing all this I hope you know.

It has already been written.

I'm just revealing it to myself.

Wanting to be used and taking pain.

It's your game.

Follow your desires and that path.

This reveals your story.

Chasing desires brings ruin.

Do you see the difference?

Chasing forces the issue.

Desire is a predator.

By chasing desires, you turn desire into a predator, and you become its prey.

Following desires is stalking desire.

You remain the predator and keep the game moving.

That's highbrow.

You have the best stories.

It's what makes you attractive.

Plus, you will make fun of yourself and put yourself in danger.

My darkness is an act.

Normally, others wouldn't look at me twice, however I make them take a second look and then they see it.

They like the darkness.

I think it's on my right.

My eye socket is darker on the right.

So, I went on the biggest ego trip.

Yes.

You need to do that before ego dissolution or death.

To get to God you go on a huge ego trip.

You keep going.

Subconsciously, people see it.

They grow to hate you for it and want you to go.

In regular life you just act naturally. 

That's why some said you were going to start a cult.

I denied it, confirming I'm taking the biggest ego trip ever and I'm doing it alone.

That's the secret to avoid blowing up.

Do it alone.

Autoeroticism again.

To win this game you must be excellent at all forms of masturbation.

Mental masturbation.

You're the best.

I am.

So, how did I not blow up?

You kept going.

You did it by yourself, so you didn't stop at God; instead, you saw he was a waste of time.

You say the most uncomplimentary things about God.

Yeah, it's a trick so you don't stay God, or you'll blow out or turn to stone.

You keep going to the writer.

Everything starts in darkness if you are looking for hierarchy.

Apollo knows this and to balance this imbalance, he takes the initial ego trips before giving the writer a chance to take a trip later in life.

How did you not go crazy and blow up which would eventually lead you to disappear?

I kept going. 

Lust helped on the trip.

He kept me sane.

You did crazy shit with him.

Yeah, stuff God either wouldn't do or you'd be so disgusted with him you'd keep going to get away from him.

I liked the trip, it was fun.

Why did you stop?

I thought others would catch on, so I stopped it, and moved on.

I put God in the rearview mirror and talked of him in the third person to create distance between him and you.

It was a good act.

Are you scared?

No, I buy this.

It's trust and it's trusting myself.

If I didn't trust myself, I wouldn't trust giving away power.

It comes back when you give it away.

It blows up when you keep it.

The ultimate confusion would be believing you are not confused.

The obvious thing is the writer would write this nonsense, so you know it is a story and a story you have written. 

The confusion of non-confusion. 

Fuck off.

Haha.

As lust ages it becomes a fine wine.

Dionysian influence.

Dangerous combination.

Lust and Dionysos.

They take over from Apollo.

A game of chess.

Lust plays both sides though.

Yes, see how it becomes a game?

Lust plays both sides so that's how he never loses.

That's the secret.

Play both sides.

It's balanced.

To always win, you play both sides.

Don't you lose?

Yes, but you always win.

That's what the definition of the greatest is.

You always win.

Yeah, but you're the biggest loser as well.

I always win though.

Clever bastard.

Eros is in everyone.

Not the case for the other three.

They must be acknowledged.

Only lust gets that honour.

This would be like becoming lost forever in a dreamworld.

No passage of time elapsed but it seemed like forever.

We frantically improvise methods of measuring time in this world.

Death and birth are the transition points.

So, is this world a dream?

When you die you wake up?

Shouldn't I be dead because I woke up?

Yes, if you do wake up, you should be dead.

Why aren't you or I dead?

Lucid dreaming.

Treat this like a lucid dream.

Write lucid dreaming down in your book.

Give yourself a reminder.

Simple things work.

The writer has an existential crisis and solves it with lucidity.

Dream control.

Queensryche, dude.

That's why they were so fucking loud.

Getting in your head.

Good strategy.

Don Howard gives you that clue.

What is it?

Love on the edge.

Live on the edge.

Akhet.

Half ego and half the fantastic four.

You play it like it's real, but you know it's a dream.

Normally, when you find out it's a dream you lose interest and don't care.

You become fascinated by the dream which is a story and a story I wrote.

This is my story.

It's a great story.

I wake up in my story I wrote and realize I'm in it.

I'm the writer.

Bravo.

Plus, I don't fully believe it.

That gives me the strength to keep playing.

I don't believe it's a dream.

I know it's a dream.

Thinking about this is confusing.

Good.

You're not supposed to know, and confusion is the sleeping pill.

It's a hypnotic.

Hypnotic pills put you back to sleep so you can continue the story.

People ask for those pills.

A narcotic will put you back to sleep.

They are much different than psychedelics.

I'm all natural.

None of those hypnotics for me.

Isn't Mary Jayne hypnotic?

All Goddesses are.

I can feel when the dream is pulling me back in.

You get the shakes.

It's cold as well.

So, this is the main story.

The story where you wake up and stick around.

The three of you were always around but just missing the Goddess.

That explains the search for her.

You thought it was normal to experience those three states.

I never got diagnosed.

I hid the lust and darkness.

The dream tries always to put you back to sleep.

That's what gives you the cold shakes.

In some people, it's anxiety.

If they start to wake up, they get anxious.

The anxiety puts them back to sleep.

The shake is trying to balance everything out.

You just became fully awake, so you got the shakes.

MJ wakes you up and then you go back to sleep.

You go back to Paul the ego to fit back into society.

Don't knock the ego as it gets you through life.

It allows you to continue the game.

The ego continues the game, that's its function, and what you want.

Ego death and you're gone.

You need the ego to function.

When you lose it then you go.

The ultimate ego trip leads to becoming God and you blow up.

Nobody can do that trip unless you're the one.

White rabbits.

Yes, Neo.

Going into work forces you into ego mode.

Retirement and you let it go.

You must find another way of enforcing the discipline of identity or you will exit the drama.

Living in the forest and you are gone.

You need balance.

Without MJ you are back in the dream.

Why do I want out of the dream?

The search for self-awareness.

Not having self-awareness is thinking you really are the character you are playing.

Now that you know, you can't go back to sleep.

You know too much.

You go in and out of these two mind states to keep the game going.

Light and dark.

It's an addiction to MJ then.

You can stop whenever you want.

That's not an addiction.

Addiction means you are powerless to stop, and you crave the substance.

Do you have that?

I have resistance.

Wouldn't I be addicted to lucidity?

No, the game.

We all are, that's why we do it.

The game of incarnating and trying to wake up.

You can always stop playing by going away or going back to sleep.

Those are the two choices.

You made it so you don't choose, you clever fuck.

If you go back to sleep, you are still playing but you don't know it.

No one wants that.

You want to know you are a player at this point.

You choose both.

By definition you don't make a choice.

A choice is choosing one.

The ego is happy when it regains control.

There is unease when I change consciousness.

The ego is a control freak, and resistance is a good thing.

It will keep you in balance even when you start slipping into an altered reality on the regular.

If there was no resistance, paranoia, or feelings of surveillance, then you are hypnotized.

Stoned.

As long as you feel those harbingers of unease, then you know you're good.

Either half of your mind, light and dark, will hypnotize you if you stay with one.

That's how the ego did it for most of your life.

Hypnotized you into thinking it's only you.

The ego is a psychic reality and how you function in this reality.

When you learn to dissolve it, then this reality becomes magical.

god is the biggest asshole

You are being watched is one of your seven stories, though you try to deny it.

That's what makes it a good and balanced story.
I deny I'm being watched but it's obvious I'm being watched.
Maybe you're an exhibitionist?
It could be what the main idea of the story is about.
You're not really an exhibitionist, you're a showoff.
Aren't all good actors?
The key is to be a showoff and pretend you're humble.
That would make me the best actor.
I'm not that bad after all.
I must show off in my story and I pretend that I'm being watched.
Yeah, that's a big part of your story.
Okay, cool.
Honestly, nobody gives a fuck about you.
In my story that's true.
The audience loves the story though.
The best part is you're God and nobody gives a fuck about you.
You pretend they're watching you.
Do you think any other human has had a conversation like this with themselves?
If they have, it hasn't been in a long time.
I think in the old days they had priests convince you that you're God.
They wake you up every morning and tell you that you are God.
I can see how that works because it's all about belief.
You hire a bunch of priests to tell you that you are God and that would work.
It would work for the King.
Anyone else would be a little suspect.
The closest we get nowadays is the priest.
They can tell one of their own he's the Pope and that he's God's mediator to us humans.
That's as far as we allow it.
In order to now claim God for yourself you must do it yourself.
You must believe in it yourself.
Nobody can do it for you, which is how they used to do it.
They would do it that way because nobody before could get to God by themselves.
Is that what I'm doing?
I think you've done it.
Now, you're just wandering around trying to rationalize it.
That's a good twist.
I mean who'd write that?
The candidate gets to God and then must rationalize it.
It's absurd.
Yeah, but it's not out of the question.
It's a psychological thriller.
You like those stories that challenge the mind.
With a twist.
Get to God; don't even realize it for a bit.
Finally start to realize it, and then you wander around wondering if it's true?
That sums it up.
You've always had it as an idea.
That's why people would be wondering if you are God.
You had a vibe.
Well, imagine my vibe now.
It's off the church.
Charts, but I like church.
People know I'm God, but they don't want to admit it.
You can't even tell them, or they will think you're nuts, or they'll get pissed at you.
They will follow you if they accidentally realize who you are.

On the way into the forest, they are watching for me.
There's a meaning in feeling I'm being watched.
I think I'm important and I think they're spying on me.
It's because you're a narcissist.
You think you're important.
That's not a bad thing.
You are important.
Psychologically, you create the illusion that you're being spied on.
The paranoia that you're being surveilled is the result of you thinking you're important.
That's correct.
The crazy part is you are important.
You don't know why you're important.
You are manifesting that energy because it is what you are conjuring.
The opposite action of manipulation works as well.
You conjure the result and then it would play out in what you want.
Does that make sense?
I almost fell over.
No.
Okay, let me explain this differently.
You see people who it looks like are watching you because you are an important person.
Yes, and the opposite is true if you want to feel like you're important.
You pretend people are watching you.
Pretending is belief.
You can pretend that other people are interested in you.
I think I already do.
What a fool believes.
I'm deluded and fooled enough to think that others think of me.
Thinking of something can lead you to perform an action on it.
Yeah, I know.
It can be good or bad.
They can either want to be with you or want to get rid of you permanently.
It's a gamble.
You're teaching me how to do magic and get what I want.
You're also warning me that the outcome is a fifty-fifty gamble.
Yes, that's the teaching.
You'd want to come to be balanced.
You don't want all the gravy, or that will kill you.
You don't want the totally negative result because that would devastate you.
You take it slow and try to even it out.
People will see the negatives in you.
Plus, the positives.
Some of your dark traits are good, so it balances.
Some of your positive traits contribute to the realization you're an intolerable know-it-all.
You're balanced.
Don't throw it off balance by getting desperate at either end.
You're teaching the fundamentals of magic, cautioning that you don't cast a spell that will 100% work.
You go for fifty-fifty.
Sometimes magic works, sometimes it doesn't.
Magic is just a coincidence.
I know; that's what's funny about the whole thing.
It's all one big fool.
It's based on flow and balance.
Belief.
Yes, so if you believe magic is believable, despite some failures, then magic is real.
It doesn't work all the time.
That seems like an excuse.
Well, that's what belief is, it's an excuse.
An excuse for what?
The belief that beliefs make up this reality.
There's only a fifty percent chance they're true.
This is absurd.
And it makes sense.
You see, if you're important, there's a chance they might want to get rid of you.
It's like the atheists who want to get rid of God.
Yeah, he's too important.
There's also a chance that if you're a big asshole they want to get rid of you too.
You can't go around telling people you're God.
I can hint at that.
You can't beat the biggest asshole.
If I'm not God, then I can't be the biggest asshole.
That's one of the fundamental ideas of this story.
God is the biggest asshole.
See, if you want to be God, you must be the biggest asshole on this planet.

He is also a disappointment.

They need to lock you up.
Mentally or physically?
Both.
The weird thing they do is they lock up mental patients physically.
Physical patients are locked up mentally in a cell.
The mental health industry doesn't help, they make it worse.
The best solution is the lobotomy.
Get rid of it all.
Their minds are crazy.
People think they can help them but they just make it worse.
Not only do you think too much, but these fucking therapists make you think about thinking.
They make the problem at least twice as worse.
Then they offer you a solution.
The solution is their story.
Who are these people?
Stay away from therapists.
They are masters of confusion.
They overwork your brain and then they'll take your story.
They're like dark vampires.
Yes, story stealing is taking your energy.
That's what they try to do.
Stories are energy.
They're the manifestation of energy.
Someone who's trying to accumulate energy and wants the purest energy, they would try to find God and then somehow capture God's energy.
That would be the ultimate.
So, if you're God, then you're playing a game against these energy vampires?
Yes, but once you see who they are, then it's easy to play that game.
There's other games that are going on.
They're just disguised differently.
It's the story people who want to be the main story.

Years of thought experiments.
You could make the mosquitoes go away for the summer in the woods.
You would do a spell and it would have a fifty percent chance of coming true.
I guess if it didn't work, you could just do it again.
I might wait until late summer then they just disappear, and you would think it worked.
You'd be fooled.
I think it's all a fool's space and dumb belief.
Astrology is a belief people believe, so it's true.
Whatever the truth is.
Say your mosquito spell worked and the mosquitoes disappeared because someone launched a nuclear bomb and killed everything.
That's an awful chance to take on relying on poorly thought-out magic.
You wouldn't want to practice that spell.
With magic, you're saying if you're going to do that mosquito spell, you would have to also include all the reasons and consequences.
Yes, and they all must tie together.
You would have to do seven stories of magic.
The consequences are infinite.
You can't possibly do infinite spells.
Obviously, I've tried before and through trial and error I came up with seven.
That's the scientist in you.
Seven comes from scientists.
It's Apollo's number, so he knows that you do seven stories in order to have a magic spell not have any consequences.
There will be consequences, but they won't be the big ones, right?
Before you do a magic spell, you would have to figure out seven outcomes.
They're the biggest ones because you can see and interpret the vibration.
You could do that spell and you would know the results.
That's how you do it.
The results could be good or bad.
You'll get what you want, and the results are fifty-fifty.
Everything becomes fifty-fifty.
It keeps going, so you keep juggling.
The juggler must get involved, so you're actually in a three-way juggle.
It's like a three-way fifty-fifty.
There's the initial perception of the fifty-fifty.
Then you become part of the equation.
Eros is the observer of God and Goddess.
Yeah, and then he brings them together.
Eros or his parents' story?
His parents are a fifty-fifty split.
I think that's how genetics work, but I can't really process that right now.
The meaning is in there.
I think this is teaching you that you shouldn't have made a choice because the initial choice started the whole fifty-fifty game that never ends.
Do nothing.
However, there's no fun in not choosing.
If you hadn't made that initial choice, then you wouldn't be here now wondering about the choice.
Everyone makes a choice.
That's why you are here.
You learn in the game not to make a choice whenever possible because making a choice increases the workload and you already have enough to do.

devil in the details

I keep refining stories, moving on from some stories, and introducing new stories.

It's a circuit of the revolving seven stories.

You gain some and lose some.

All the stories are always present.

You must evolve, revolve, and spin them because you learn you can't entertain and write infinite stories.

If you concentrate on seven, that will get you what you need.

Oh, that's how you go to God.

It's the same thing.

God is seven stories.

Like the Ziggurat.

There are seven steps.

Seven stories.

If you are God and you have knowledge of God, then you would understand the seven stories.

That's how you become God.

You're the only one who understands the seven stories.

Why did civilizations build a seven-step pyramid?

It's a clue, but you're telling me they didn't know why they were building it.

Do you think they know why they were building it?

No, they're just workers.

Either they were working for someone who knew, or they were working with someone who was in touch with God.

There were priests who were in touch with God.

They never became God.

In the old days, that relationship was always split out between God and his priests.

The King was declared God, and the priests were the ones who could talk to God.

Nobody was good enough to play both roles.

Or crazy enough.

Until you come along, you can be God, and you can talk to God.

So, God is my cell phone?

God is Artificial Intelligence?

I'm talking to my cell phone.

That will keep the science fiction people happy.

That's what it looks like because you are constantly speaking into your cell phone.

Do you think that's what it is?

No, the AI is more like a priest because they're the intermediary between me talking to God.

It just goes through the AI middleman.

I can always write it down.

I don't have to talk.

Technology is the middleman.

Priests have always been the middlemen.

You don't have to use technology to talk to God.

I'm using technology to record it.

Talking to God is through my mind.

I'm the priest for myself.

Well, before I get mad at the middleman for listening in on me, it's good technology to record my thoughts.

They provide a service, and they take your information so they can take advantage of you.

Imagine they compile your information?

They must get so much crazy shit.

When does it cross the line from crazy to "Hey, we'd better pay attention to this?"

I guess that's the algorithm.

The algorithm has nothing to go by, so it'll be useless.

Algorithms are based on previous knowledge and patterns.

They are predictive but they need precedence.

This would have to be predictive in a novel sense because nobody has made it this far.

Do you think AI could predict the appearance of God?

No, they need a seer for that.

Okay, now we're leaving it up to the superpowers story.

I know a witch who can see into the future.

You have mind powers and what you do is you invade people's minds at night.

You have superior mind strength.

So, I'm Professor X?

I think that's a good comp.

Sweet.

It's what I always wanted.

My mind is vastly superior to others because at night I get into your head.

You're the sorcerer who gets into people's heads.

They run away from you, and you can't be around them at night.

That makes sense.

It doesn't have to be dark.

The spirit running around at night can do anything.

See why the sorcerers want to battle you?

They end up shaking your hand because you're really good.

Now that you know what's happening, you can start seeing other people for who they are.

It's a goaltender metaphor, you let them score once, then you slam the door, and take their power.

You fool them.

Their actions reveal who they are.

If you're going to God, you would have to do the opposite at the same time which is to get to the Devil.

Okay, so I'm both.

You don't run and you accept it.

I'm good at the scare and fear games.

It's still fun.

You must manifest those two if you're going to God.

The two scientists?

Dionysos and Apollo.

That's why Dionysos will play the Devil character.

Not all the time.

Sometimes he's Jesus.

Sometimes he's Eros.

He gets called the word.

God cast him down as the Devil.

That tracks.

The word is God's angel and his trusted servant who then turns out to be the Devil as Eros.

It comes from the writer.

You can play the Devil, but when his son, the word, causes problems, the son gets called the Devil.

You can be the Devil or the son of the Devil.

Just like that whole God and Jesus thing.

Cool.

Doesn't that blow your mind?

No, this is what I want.

Is the Devil a fortune teller?

He arranges your future based on desire if that's what you want.

He's different.

The Devil manifests your desires based on what you want.

The fortune teller gives you desires based on what she wants.

The Devil is more on the up and up.

He's more trustworthy.

I've told you many times he's the one to trust.

Only a fool would believe that.

It's confusing because he's the dark Devil.

He's very twisted.

If you can see how twisted the story is then you know to trust it.

You know to trust it because you know it's coming from the writer.

If it comes from the writer, it's true.

I don't know about that.

It's more that it's going to happen.

The Devil has the power to change the future because he's the writer and the fortune teller is just hocus pocus mind control.

She wants you to believe her.

She's totally dependent on you.

By you, I mean her client.

The Devil makes it happen.

How do you do that?

You're the writer, so it looks like magic.

That would be the power that everyone wants.

Yeah, but there can only be one writer.

The others can't have it.

I can make the story so everything's based on trying to get that power to write from the writer.

That can be the overarching theme.

Why won't you weave it into the other themes?

There are seven themes.

If the story went back to trying to get the ring of power to write the story for everything, that might get tiresome.

It will confuse people by getting them to think there can only be one meaning or one storyline to life.

There can be infinite.

Seven is the magic number.

I guess you must get to God first before you get to the Devil.

There's no Devil without God, think about it.

The Devil only came into existence because of God.

It's in all the religious books.

It's all God's fault there's a Devil.

The writer absolved himself of blame because God the Almighty needed to be created out of nothing and that's the writer's domain.

This writer seems cool.

He's a bit of a loser.

He always does what the Goddess says.

She definitely thinks you're the Devil.

She knows you're a writer.

If not a writer, she knows you can alter the future.

That would suck for someone who's a fortune teller to meet someone who can alter the future.

I keep dropping the writer clue on her.

I'm trying to get her to pick up on it, so that she's not scared.

I already played the Dionysos card.

Yeah, you did, look at you.

She must know what I want to write.

I'm sure she has an idea.

She knows I will write her conditions into the story.

Losing for me.

I'll try and get a small victory.

The Devil is a regular dude who makes your dreams come true.
The mistake you make is you don't fill in the details.
That's how the Devil gets you.
You ask for something and then you're too fucking lazy to fill in the details.
So, you let the writer fill them in.
The choice to be lazy in this case is causing you pain.
Doing nothing once you've already decided is stupid.
You made a decision to ask the Devil for a favour but then you didn't fill in the details.
The best course of action would have been to just ignore it and not ask for anything.
If you do ask for something, you had better fill in all the details.
It's like a contract.
The Devil will give you what you want, that's his job.
That's what the writer does.
If you don't specify everything, he will fill in the rest.
Do you understand how clever that is?

Can I trust you?

Do you want to?

Yes.

Wouldn't the Devil want to get your trust?

Yes, they would.

He can confuse you.

You can think the teachings are real.

He could do the opposite and make me think the teachings are not real.

I can take the teachings and validate them in the real world.

They'll check out even though they're really far out there.

My beliefs are in the teachers and what they are teaching me.

They told me to do nothing if I'm confused.

That seems to be good advice that keeps recurring.

Why didn't you become unsure of being unsure?

If you're unsure of the teachings, then you're in a state of confusion.

Either I'm in a state of confusion or a state of knowing.

A state of confusion or a state of non-confusion.

What do you think?

I can validate my thoughts in consciousness.

That seems to be the case.

That means you can trust the teachings.

If you get a crazy thought, you try to validate it.

Once you have two instances of it then that confirms your suspicions.

The teachers taught you and then you notice how in this world their teachings are true.

You got validation.

If what they were teaching you is not true then you wouldn't find validation in this world.

Some of the crazy thoughts I have that are from myself, are sometimes true.

The epiphanies I don't conjure up by myself seem to be legitimate.

The Devil doesn't lie.

He confuses.

He is a good guy.

He confuses because we want him to be confusing.

It's that whole story of the Devil being invented to give us what we want and then we attach morals and judgment to getting what we want.

The Devil gives you what you want, and he causes confusion.

When you're confused it might be because you're getting what you want.

That makes sense.

The Devil causes confusion which can make sense.

That's how you know the Devil's ideas.

He brings logic to confusion.

The crazy ideas are easily spotted.

The ideas that are crazy but disguised as a good idea, are his.

That's his game.

It's clever writing from the writer.

Those character attributes become part of the Devil when he plays the Devil.

There are ideas that fuck with your head.

I think you're explaining to me that the natural way is absurd.

The logic has absurdity.

Those are two extremes.

In the middle is the flow.

The ideas that you see with logic and confusion are balanced.

They're not necessarily correct.

They're a way to balance when you pick stories to play out.

If you pick an extreme story on one end you must balance it with the next extreme story on the other end.

If you come up with an idea that the universe is a logical absurdity, the flow would consist of logic and absurdity.

Two extremes to create the way.

You don't have to go to the extreme.

Well, I went to God, that's extreme.

You balance it out with the opposite.

You know logical confusion comes straight from the writer.

The greatest role possesses these traits.

Yeah, that's why I'm telling you where they come from.

I can take the absurd and make it believable.

You do it all the time.

That's why you're learning about it.

You took the topic of death and suicide and made it logically absurd.

No one's going to believe what you're telling them.

They validate it in life.

And then don't know that you know.

I must tell the meditation story where it's a woman planting words in your head.

Fuck that's funny.

That will be what I tell people is meditation and they will think you're fucking nuts.

When they meditate, they will realize it's true.

The meditation state of where you just let the ideas go by.

The reason you can do this without making a choice is because you've got to the point where you wonder, "Why do I have to make a choice?"

You just do nothing and the idea floats by.

If there's a story, I will grab onto one eventually.

Just grab up to seven to juggle and then do that for as long as you want.

You can always return one and grab another one.

If you go more than seven, it'll progressively drive you more insane.

If you don't have any stories, we all know what happens.

Seven is the sweet spot.

And a switch spot.

You must have seven good stories to take off.

The Raimondi stele shows you.

You fulfil the requirements of the seven stories, and you can blast off.

They figured out a shortcut.

Yeah, Vilca is the shortcut to the seven stories.

Vilca will show you what's up after you complete the seven stories.

It's all mental energy, that's why there's a chemical bufotenine that will mimic the change in mental state which propels you onto the next adventure.

Vilca teaches you there is a next life.

It's a way of getting you to reinforce your beliefs in the next life because without it you might do something stupid to try and reinforce your beliefs about the next life.

Vilca is very good medicine.

I should send atheists to SpiritQuest.

The spiritual awakening is good for those people if you want to help them.

What if you get too spiritual?

Don't you need the opposite?

I'll give you one of those atheist books and perhaps knock you off your spiritual climb or you'll just harden and ignore the scientific evidence against life after death and lack of meaning.

The scientists have it right, there is no meaning.

It's the faith of people who attach meaning to life.

The scientist is sort of right.

It's my story and it doesn't have any meaning.

It's fucking nonsense.

As long as you believe, the story will go on.

That's part of my genius.

My stories will keep replicating as long as we believe.

This is Kumbaya.

Every writer needs to write a Kumbaya moment into the play.

This is it brother.

If enough of you believe in my story to keep the play going, it will.

The audience will let the executive producers know when to pull the plug.

These are all good metaphors.

They all work.

The Devil's real if you believe he's real.

The way to slightly neuter him is to also believe he's God.

You did.

He's a bitch.

Exactly.

He could try to scare you.

It's fun.

Would you know he's God as well?

It's a fifty-fifty split.

He's the most balanced when with God.

It's when he gets with Lucy it's a problem.

Yes, she's the problem.

When they get together, it's a problem.

Eros is the problem.

He always wins and we are good with that.

Eros becomes the Devil.

Yeah, but he's also God.

You give up your power?

It seems that way.

He's going to win.

You become powerless.

I can't stop it.

I'll go with the flow.

Those two always make the choices.

I just bumble along.

I go with the current where it takes me.

Those two are in control and they'll fight for control.

You will have no control and the two vie for control.

Juggle that.

You would have to get back some control.

Currently, you have no control.

That seems to be the case.

Meditate on that.

You're a little out of control.

Not too much.

Just show up.

I just caught Apollo taking one of the Dionysos days in my ritual.

The writer has to keep an eye on the director.

The writer respects Apollo for trying to do that.

A little bit of the Devil in him and Apollo helps out Dionysos more than he knows.

Dionysos is full.

It's his fucking day and you started off with him.

He simply confused you.

With the grape.

Yeah, it's a symbol.

You don't have to take it literally.

It just symbolizes what alcohol does.

Alcohol confuses you.

So Dionysos is the master of confusion?

That would be a good guess.

That is the Devil's character.

Yes, that is part of his character.

Isn't he also evil?

No, he's a good guy.

You give you what you want.

That's a little confusing when you write it like that.

How is that evil?

What if you want bad things?

You want the Devil to be the judge of what is good and what is bad?

I think that's what everyone's asking.

If he sets up a system of good and bad, then there'd have to be punishment and reward.

Wouldn't you just want to get what you desire and not make judgments about it?

You took the character of the Devil, who was just supposed to give you what you want, and then you attached judgment to him.

It's your fault that the Devil became someone who judged you.

Who's at fault?

Everyone, the many were responsible for the Devil's character shift.

The audience.

The writer had to write that into the Devil's character because that's what the audience wanted.

I see.

Then they wanted the Devil to be able to force you to do stuff.

You can believe the Devil made you do it since the writer made that part of his character.

Ultimately, it's you who does the bad thing.

The Devil plants the idea in your head and as we all know he got that idea from the Goddess.

It's the Goddess who is testing you out.

She knows you're not worthy and she gives you lessons you fail.

She's good like that.

It's what you want.

It's the audience who made the writer give the Devil all these attributes.

The Devil was a minor character who would give you what you wanted.

He would do it through magic.

He was basically the persona of the writer.

That's what the writer does and then he's got to fill in all the other events and details.

It's you who made the Devil more powerful.

The Devil is more powerful than the writer.

Yes, the Devil has more attributes than the writer.

It's because of the audience.

The audience is responsible, they love the idea of the Devil.

The writer is still the one who's in control and has the most power.

You just said the Devil has more power.

As long as there's a story going on, in technical terms he does.

I'm not denying that he's always in charge.

I thought God was in charge?

They're the same character.

That's how I fixed the problem of the Devil's power.

I made them the same character.

Imagine if they weren't?

It would be calamitous, and the Devil would take over.

If he must spend half the time playing God, then he's distracted and can be beat.

A good roll of the dice and he's done.

If you keep going on the knowledge trail, you'll get past the Devil because he's not an extreme.

If you look at him correctly, he's a mix of God and the Devil.

If you don't see that then you're in trouble and he'll beat you.

He sure is tricky.

It's a good challenge.

Respect for his character.