learned

Maybe Alan Watts was correct about hanging up the phone when you get the answer.

He was referring to hard psychedelics.

He was talking about the answer.

I got the answer.

Are you still on the phone?

Yes, with Mary Jayne.

It's whether you trust MJ or Alan Watts.

I see.

If you trust her, you will continue, if you don't you stop.

Alan gave you a koan.

Who have you learned to trust?

Dogs, MJ, and Dion.

Any humans?

No.

Jesus?

No, he was in it for himself.

I can't think of a single human I'd trust.

I'd trust Parker, but only because he was a friend.

Friends let you down sometimes, I know that.

Did you trust Parker's judgement of character?

No, he was terrible at it.

He saw the good in all.

If you trust your ability, you can keep playing.

If you don't, you run.

What about Peyote?

I didn't run.

I didn't want to play because I didn't trust the circle.

Why would you trust Alan?

He's human, so I'll go with MJ.

The secret to winning any game is to trust your abilities.

I know I'm awake and how to change consciousness.

Ram Dass laid it out perfectly with his switching channels analogy where you can go between all the available frequencies.

When I'm resident in ego consciousness, I'm grounded and can dismiss the other channels.

If I did not cycle between these different states of being, I could see how easy it is to become comfortable with the one ego state and that's where we all end up getting trapped.

Being awake means putting batteries in the remote control and changing consciousness.

This leads me to yesterday's question where I wondered about Alan Watts' saying where if you get the message, it's time to hang up the phone.

I've received the message, and I know the game.

I have uncovered what it is I had searched for many years to find.

I knew it was time to let go of the intensive phase of plant medicine experiences which involved heavier psychedelic substances that include Ayahuasca, Huachuma, Peyote, and Magic Mushrooms.

I wondered about Mary Jayne.

She is not lumped in with the stronger consciousness altering modalities and I find that strange because my experience is that once I cracked open my head with the others, MJ became what I needed to do on a regular basis to follow the trail of self.

I can change consciousness on a daily basis with MJ and still function in this world.

With heavy psychedelics, I can't do that as the experience is intense.

With MJ, I can be present and learn.

Along with her is Tobacco, the master plant.

When you embark upon a plant medicine journey with the excellent teachers found in South America, they constantly tell you Tobacco is the master plant and being a westerner this goes against everything you have been taught about Tobacco.

Tobacco is bad and will kill you.

That I don't doubt.

If you use Tobacco, he will kill you.

I spent a lot of years with Tobacco gaining trust and friendship through study, reverence, and resolve.

I'd say it was 7 years to get to a place of trust with him.

So, the question is: Why is Tobacco the master plant?

Tobacco gives you protection against everything.

He makes you stink, so the malevolent spirits stay away, and the inviting ones are let in the doorway of self.

You can make an impenetrable fortress around yourself.

Tobacco amplifies the high and then takes you low.

Whatever rollercoaster you are on, Tobacco will give it power.

Tobacco is power.

Whatever plant you wish to work with is given power by Tobacco, so if a plant spirit is not strong enough to register, you combine them with Tobacco.

In addition, whatever plant, animal, or ethereal spirit you may have worked with in the past is always with you and Tobacco will call on those spirits when needed.

I have a list of allies and with Tobacco those allies are always on call.

My practice is Mary Jayne and Tobacco.

If I hung up the phone with them, I'd lose protection and the ability to change consciousness.

I understand what Alan said in that once you get the answer and you keep going, it can become dangerous.

It gets dark.

It gets really bright.

The extremes are the danger where you fall off the cliff.

I trust MJ and Tobacco.

They taught me about trust, and it is a pillar of my path.

They taught me who I can trust.

This reality dream feels really real when I'm doing the salt rinse.

That feels like a profane thing to do like taking a shit.

Salt is good for grounding when you are high.

So is taking a shit.

Sugar lifts you out of darkness.

Depressed people love sugar.

Yes, so if I was trapped in a dark story, I should consume sugar?

Salt when you are too high.

The sugar candies I bring are best for darkness?

Yes, but that counts for the actual physical darkness.

Should I bring something salty?

You do - Ambil.

Tobacco gives you a rush and Ambil's salt will take you down off the rollercoaster.

Tobacco will do that; Ambil just lets you go on the biggest rollercoaster.

Up then down.

Why is darkness sometimes at the high point?

Light and dark aren't tied to high and low.

Oh, right.

What was today?

Low light.

Down low.

I'm confused.

It's low light.

You saw into the story being crafted and it was a low.

It's not dark.

You confuse low and dark.

What's the highest darkness?

It's when you know nothing.

It's bliss.

That's the optimum place to be.

That's like meditation.

Yes.

Low light is the worst.

I see that.

Meditation will take you there as well if you are any good at it.

What about a high light?

It's great.

You will be remembered for your highlights.

You will be remembered for your low lights.

Light is a mixed bag.

What about low dark?

That's really dark, man.

No one survives that.

You get terrible thoughts you keep to yourself and then it all goes dark.

Okay, I see that.

So, I should eat candy at that point.

Yes, if you think you need it.

They are called lifesavers for a reason.

It's a secret cheat code to get you out of the darkest of the dark.

What about the low light?

Same thing, eat sweets.

If you are on too much of a high light ego trip, then eat some salt.

Same thing with a dark high where you are in a state of bliss.

Salt will take you down.

allies

Trees are ideas.
When they fall over in the forest, they make you change your path.
When ideas topple and fall on you, they kill you.
Like a tree.
Ideas can be fatal.
The idea of self?
Yes, so when that idea falls it might kill you.
You toppled that tree slowly.
Getting to God and losing the idea of God was done methodically.
The tree didn't fall over suddenly and kill you.
Even a branch of an idea can kill you.
Widow-maker.
Get lost.
This is "A" level wisdom.

Does Mary Jayne clean the mirror of self?
She gives you sight.
Huachuma clears the mirror.
He shows you the unvarnished truth.
Can I get Tobacco to activate Huachuma?
Yes.
You didn't have sight with Huachuma.
Sometimes, I'd have visions of what was to come.
MJ gives you sight, especially of a witch.
Huachuma cleans the glass.
I couldn't clearly see, and I didn't know I could until MJ.
That was for the best.
You stayed a student longer because you weren't tempted by the rewards which are powers.
If the drug can't hypnotize you, you get powers.
That's why all these people want to drink the potion.
Especially at SpiritQuest with don Rober.
They want powers.
Sorcerer plants.
They all can be.
I have a bunch of powers.
You always did.
You couldn't see them.
That's how you got the most power and got to God.
You didn't see your power.
If you saw those powers, you'd fall into temptation to use power.
You collect all the Pokémon before realizing you are playing Pokémon Go.
How retarded were you?
You kept drinking plant medicines and didn't know you were gathering power.
What were you doing?
They opened my mind, so I was exposed to different worlds.
It was exciting to see all these realities.
I didn't know about power.
Don Howard would talk about it.
I didn't know what he was talking about.
Anyway, I filled up with power, had the most, became God, and survived the blast of power because I couldn't see it that well.
Now that the blast is over, I see it.
The trick to winning the get to God as the most powerful game is to place the gift of seeing as the last power you acquire.
It's knowledge of who you are.
You go and collect all the power available then activate it with MJ.
MJ is last power to acquire.
Yes.
She shows you the power.
She shows you how to get even more if you want it.
However, you know you have the most power at this point so you would see the other powers and know how to decline them.
They give you more power but at a cost.
You can use Tobacco to mimic their power and then acquire it.
Yes, with coca leaves.
You don't automatically get a power.
You must battle them.
You wrote a story about Pokémon.
Yes.
Catch and battle.
So, Pokémon is the plant medicine path?
Yes.
Power, The Matrix, and Pokémon.
Oh boy.

The heron doesn't know yet you can see it.
It's curious how you made it this far.
Welcome to the magical world.
The gift of sight.
Level up.
No one tried before because to get to God, you must know you have the power.
You left it until last.
How could you possibly get to God without power?
People kept noticing it along the way.
You kept going and they were amazed.
How do you do it?
The power of no power.
Everyone shows you they don't have it.
By deduction you are the only one left.
You didn't know you were powerless, and you didn't see the power.
You subconsciously knew you were powerful, and you kept it to yourself.
That's how you did it.
Fist bump.
What are you going to do now?
Nothing.
Have a smoke.

So, you have the most power and you are a mediocre and lonesome loser?
That's right.
That doesn't add up.
If you added things up, you'd blow.
If you had power and an amazing lifestyle, you'd blow up.
If you have power and a nothing lifestyle, you are in balance.
Wouldn't you want to lose everything to balance this power out?
Yes.
That's why you don't grab all the power, Pokémon, or plant medicines.
You leave them on the table for others and to balance your power, you live a mediocre life.
However, you will win.
I'm still playing.
Yes, you won't end it even though you are the most powerful.
So, it keeps going.
I think we talked about this a while ago.
The witches want you to end it and they want the power.
If you end this world, it will become a dog's world and no one wants that, so they won't end it until they can take your power first.

Ayahuasca figures you out in a cycle of work and then puts the hammer down.
She's not your ally if your intentions are in question.
You did the best you could against Lady Datura.
The shaman shook your hand.
Your head took a knock with her.
You must sometimes work with them more than once to battle.
Except for Lady Datura, she's a crazy one, and once is enough.
Kambo crowned you after one battle.
I got the purple frog.
Royalty.

You must accept this reality, or you must accept you are crazy.
I'll do both.
When you accept you are crazy, it's not a problem.
When you fight it, it's a problem.
Do both.
You need a little resistance.

Pain pills are narcotics.
They put you to sleep.
Numb and stone you.
What about alcohol?
You were able to stop that battle.
Tobacco?
Respect and a thirst for knowledge.

People who see power use it for gain and it becomes less powerful.
You didn't use your power.
Now, you see it.
Will you use it?
No.
And yes.
Offensive no, instead for protection.
Or, not at all.
If you use it, then it's for protection.
If used for gain, you become vulnerable.
Especially to other predators who will see your weakness and that weakness is the pursuit of power.

Darkness triggers thoughts of running.
I have Peyote and coyote allies from the night out in the desert.
The darkness is a strong ally like the light.
They protected you from predators of the night.
Self-defence used to thwart attacks.
Part of my mental strength is that I don't let something go.
Eventually I will, but I play it out.
What if you meet your end in the dark?
Then you aren't the one, Neo.

Creation is created.
Nothing happens.
The wind stirs things up and gets the production moving.
The wind causes a vibration.
A ripple.
The changes brought about by wind forces you to do something.
The spinning of celestial objects creates change.
The wind is the breath.
Without the breath you exit this reality.
The breath is the key.
To what?
This reality.
With no air in your sails, you can float off into another dimension.
Don't you need air to sail?
Yes, in this dimension.
Other dimensions are accessible through altering the breath.
You can't stop the breath, or you will be done, however you can play with the breath.
I think the spiritual people call it work while the fetishists call it play.
Who is closer to the truth?
It's 50-50.
With breath-play you can cum in another dimension.
That's pretty appealing.
So, wait, you can have a multi-dimensional orgasm?
Yes, you can cum in different realities.
I think you knew that.
We have all had a wet dream where you make a mess in your pjs and feel it in different worlds.
Orgasms can transcend boundaries of time and space.
Seems like it.

I'm annoyed today.
I've gone from depressed to annoyed.
It's all part of the miserable package.
If you drop lust on it that will help a lot.
That's how you got through middle-age depression.
I poured lust gas on it.
It did get me through.
Don't knock it.
So many challenges throughout life that you must survive.
It's a gauntlet to get here.
Something is always coming for you.
Depression, making bad choices, monsters feeding on you and then trying to discard you.
You're a survivor.
For sure.
You got out alive and in one piece.
Thanks to my allies.
Plants, gods, goddesses, and animal spirits.
I get bored and look for another monster who wants to play.
There's always lust.
How about a lustful monster?
Perfect, found one.

MJ will addict you to seeing.
Clairvoyance.
Also, the stoning part.
Yeah, that's how she gets most of her victims to surrender.
Witches are addicted to seeing.
Will that addict you?
Knowledge leads to seeing.
How much knowledge do you need?
I know what I see is 50-50.
Yes, they know that as well, but they like to see all the possibilities and then the confirmation.
They act on the confirmation.
You do nothing and they can't confirm anything.
Witches try to confirm their visionary knowledge all the time.
You confuse them with your darkness.
It's hard to see in the dark.
MJ likes you.
You got past all her tests.
Now, she gives you sight.
Allies unlock power.
That's their appeal and addictive power.
We all want power.
Women want to unlock the witch who can see.
Fucking fortune tellers.
The witch in women is MJ?
Yes, in a way.
MJ gives you clairvoyance and what they do with it shows their character.
Got it.
Is the acquisition of your ally a result of addiction?
That's why you drink alcohol so you will know the difference between an ally and an addiction.
An addiction will kill you.
An ally will help you.
I feel I have been threatened lately.
Well, you can see it now.
Couldn't I attribute that to MJ?
Do you think it was?
If you take too much you will end up with that question of why many want you gone.
Okay, will alcohol addiction kill you?
Yes.
There's no question.
Do you have a question with MJ?
Yes, I question whether it is addictive or not.
Don't you think that resistance is what is needed to prevent addiction?
Yes.
It's so I don't buy in fully and keep it balanced.
So, an ally is before addiction.
Yes.
Alcohol loosens you up and helps you be social.
That's a power.
It's an ally before addiction.
You go too far, and it becomes an addiction.
This knowledge is the bomb and a wisdom teaching.
So, I'm not addicted to MJ?
No, you're on your way.
She's an ally but definitely could get addictive.
Especially to see into the future, past, and people's motivations and hidden secrets.
That's what is addictive.
That's why most people will use it again even if they try to quit.
They want to see into others' lives.
They can't give that up.
Wouldn't you want that power all the time?
You got that power and were shown it yesterday.
Wouldn't you want to use it all the time?
No, I think the teachers can entertain me in other ways.
I don't always need to be a fortune teller.
Right.
You know what the curriculum with MJ involves and you want it all.
If you focus on one thing you will get anxiety.
If you focus on only seeing, you will get anxious and nervous.
You could convince yourself MJ is only good for seeing and forget all her attributes.
That's what happens with ideas about women that a lot of men hold.
Soon you see them as good for only one thing.
That's a good way to get pussy whipped.
Yes, that's why they do it and learn to take advantage of it.
With MJ the one thing would be seeing.
I know you are much more.
I said it already and called you a great teacher - the greatest.
I have defended your honour when they call you weed.
I'm your knight in shining armor.

You are worried about MJ addiction.
If you worry about it, you are okay.
Addicts don't worry once they cross the threshold.
I thought they do?
They are at the edge of perdition and then they choose to do more.
That's the path to addiction.
What do you do with MJ?
I consistently vary the dose.
Sometimes more and sometimes less.
Or not at all.
The addiction always presents itself.
Yes, I questioned if I needed more last week.
Instead, I alter the dose in the container.
No more.
No mas, but I will still play.

Addiction is always a possibility, that's why there are internal warning systems set up.
It's the train's blowing siren from the Ayahuasca lesson eleven years ago.
I was told if I remained on the plant medicine path, eventually I'd walk in front of a train.
Yes, if you stay with these plants long enough, they will hypnotize you.
That's when you know you have fallen into the trap of addiction.
You are hypnotized into walking in front of the train.
Got it.
The train blows its warning in the distance on cue.

Cottonmouth lets you know you're out there.
This is dark but you're not scared.
The solution is to not get hypnotized.
Flight can take over and you run.
When a shaman tried it, you ran.
He is a master sorcerer teaching you whether you have it in you.
I knew to run from the hypnosis.
Flight comes in handy and then you return.
The scars on your mind are reminders of how strong you are.
You don't back down, take the blows, and come out better for it.

Addiction and hypnosis lead you to do what others want.
If they want you to go, then you'll go.
Keep an eye out for hypnotists and addictive substances.
Sorcerers as well.
Witches.

The lessons are still dark at times but not upsetting, just like you were told they would be after you passed the tests, which were the darkest of the dark.
Suicide, death, and the Devil.
That was quite the trifecta of darkness.
You got through it.
Class is still in session.
This class has no graduates.
Remember, you are a jaguar, and you will get through all the tests.
If you fail, you can say it was a trick to send you to your addictive doom.
That's ingenious.
A failure will blame the addiction and hypnosis test.
A jaguar will come out on top and live another day.
You don't have to win.
It's survivor.
Keep surviving.
That's the game - to keep playing the game.
Survive.
To keep the game going you become a survivor.
Jaguar power.
Ally.

It's good to get out and exercise the sirens.
Yes, Odysseus.
Don't be afraid of the train.
It will be a reminder to prevent addiction.
Avoidance makes you weak.
MJ is wisdom, teaching, and darkness today.
You are a good student and friend.
You wouldn't have been taught the sirens lesson if you weren't a good student.
You'd miss it.

If you were addicted, wouldn't you deny it?
Yes.
Are you denying it?
No, I know my state of mind.
Not addicted.
Wouldn't you try to control your addiction?
Yes.
Alcohol taught me that.
You say you aren't going to drink and then you drink too much.
Very good.
Alcohol teaches you addiction.
They are a good teacher.
Male or female?
Spirit.

If you take more of your potential addiction, the sirens will blast in your ears and the only way to make it stop is by hypnotism so then you don't hear them though they are still there.
You would rely on the substance to bring you to the state of hypnosis, so you don't hear the sirens.
Metaphor is the idea of sirens.
Homer wrote about sirens because he knew you'd understand.
Yeah, right.
I guess us writers stick together.

You're going to do more Tobacco.
True.
I must balance MJ with Tobacco.
With Tobacco, I change up my habits.
Look at it that way.
By changing your habits, you won't get addicted.
With Tobacco, I always try something new.
That's a theme in this story.

With MJ you know about dosage to prevent addiction.
Mentally, you interact with all her attributes and not just one.
Of course, when you are with her you will get all of her.
That's why you take her for a daily ride.
Plus, there's Dionysos.
He doesn't give you sight.
I see.
How can you get addicted if his darkness is around?
You can't.
His darkness is what you need to balance MJ.
Witches get good at seeing.
Your darkness is a challenge.
They can barely see you.
First, you shine.
They see it all.
Then you pull them into the darkness.

If you are prey, you run from addiction.
Did you run?
No, I toughed it out.
Predator.
Jaguar badge.
The Quest.
Games.

MJ is some serious mental gymnastics at times.
Yeah, you don't want that all the time.
Once a day is good.
I can appreciate everything about MJ.
But not about women?
It is balanced.
Maybe with women you give 50-50 appreciation and go 50-50 with MJ's attributes.
Not many know about this MJ.
A lot of posers.
A lot can see with her.
Yes.
They get stuck on that.
They get stuck on one power, but she has many.
With Huachuma, you get stuck on clarity and forget love and being free.
With Ayahuasca, people love the visions and forget the rest.
MJ is lust, knowledge, darkness, teaching, and seeing.
Much more I can't remember right now.
The beauty in nature.
She is the Goddess of love.
Her boobs are love.
They are a symbol of her power of love teaching you.

If someone had access to your raw writing, they'd wonder about you.
Google knows I'm nuts.
We will keep it between us, I mean someone has to know.
Google is my therapist.
I knew you were in therapy.
They have AI to help you out if needed.
I'll pass on that, we all know AI is a conformist.
It's bullshit.
AI is another iteration of the superego.
I see that.

who fulfills your desires?

Words and ideas are given to you in order to get into your head so that you question your beliefs.

The Devil is coming for you and your only hope is Jesus.

That's what these monsters do in order to steal your story.

The Devil isn't coming for me.

I am him.

I will be true to the darkness and the light.

I will not push either away despite attempts to make me choose a path that is not mine.

The choice takes you away from your path.

Embrace your road ahead and you will become stronger.

What's the point of continuing?

To see what's ahead.

It's interesting to say the least.

Are you scared?

No, I've already dealt with it.

I'm good with who I am and the challenges ahead.

I know many want to get rid of me.

It would make their lives easier.

The pressure comes externally, and then internally I must transform it into strength.

Is this something you can maintain?

I will not push ideas away.

I will take them into my hands, examine them, and then blow them away.

Good man.

What doesn't kill you will make you stronger.

That applies to everything.

They don't tell you that nugget in spiritual school.

I know some who got really low at one point.

First, they surfed the high and so had to deal with the low.

What about you?

I don't get too high, and I don't get too low.

I entertain both ideas.

I am the light and the dark.

I am God and I am the Devil.

Sure, I am coming for myself.

The character I play is coming for me.

I'm the writer.

I create characters.

I will keep writing stories.

That's what I do.

In my story I invented my own Diablo.

I can make him external and be haunted or I can become him.

I like to examine everything.

I think of new ways to mindfuck and scare myself.

It means my writing is really good.

It's internal feedback.

If I keep challenging myself, I will remain exercised.

That's the key, right?

Yes.

Exercise your demons.

Funny.

Yeah, change the letter so exercise becomes exorcise.

It's the same meaning.

Bring the ideas out into the open and give them a workout.

Don't try to hide or ignore them.

Find balance.

You are one brilliant motherfucker.

I know.

I won't let it go to my head.

Or in my head.

I remain balanced.

You are feeding the darkness, darkness.

How is that working for you?

Your original mistake was buying into the hype.

You bought into my light.

You wanted to stamp out the light and then you saw the other side.

Who fulfills your desires?

Who grants you your wishes?

Did you get what you wanted?

Who am I?

Do you see me now?

Fool.

You have dominion over your thoughts.

Variety is good.

When you want to balance them out, think positively.

You know to do light and darkness.

They both animate you.

Others can influence your thoughts.

They want to drag you into their abyss.

Don't fight them, acknowledge their darkness, find a teaching, and then blow it away.

The wind is one of your greatest teachers and allies.

I know it will be a few days of insights because I came out and gathered more energy.

I receive energy from the environment.

I take it in from nature.

Even when I'm insular, going out into the forest allows you to recharge.

I see that.

You feed off the forest.

It's there for you.

The plants are in service.

They don't ask for anything in return.

How do they stay balanced?

Some plants in the forest can harm you physically.

Or mentally.

You get knowledge of what they do.

Some do both and can harm and heal.

Do I give back to the forest?

You are environmentally friendly.

Not perfect, but you cut down on expenditures of forest.

I honour the woods.

I take my dogs into the forest.

I bond with them in the woods.

Yeah, remember when you let Luna off leash the first time?

It was a good feeling.

The woods provide freedom.

Freedom comes with some challenges and potential harms.

It feels good though.

Mary Jayne will teach you whatever you desire.

Yeah, I get it.

The Goddess is desire, and the Devil is invented to fulfill the desire.

What's your desire?

It's the purest.

My desire is the Goddess.

She is desire.

I'm the best.

I know.

I'll keep it to myself.

Do people not like to think?
It's uncomfortable.
They want to check out.
Mental suicide.
Oh, I see that.
Most people commit mental suicide.
Or they donate their mind to society.
Oh, fuck yeah.
That's what they have done.
They donated or gave their mind over to culture.
Yikes.
God thinks for himself.
That's how you recognize God.
Holy shit, you are right.
Left.
Balanced.

You must eat others to survive.

Physically and mentally.

You kill others physically to keep the body alive.

You kill others mentally to keep your mind alive.

Culture comes for you.

Do you see it?

Yeah, they kill your mind and all you have left is the body.

You still have both.

I stay in balance with a fool.

I surf culture.

I surf the physical needs of the body.

I don't overdo it.

You should work out hard and eat only the best.

That extreme would consume you and weaken your mind.

Stay balanced.

Even steven.

Feed on minds.

But don't take too much.

Let them feed on you.

Then swat them away mentally.

Stay strong.

But exercised.

Recognize the demons.

Send them away occasionally.

It's what everybody does.

Don't get hung up on it.

It's disgusting, like shitting.

You wrote it.

You thought it was funny.

It's your humour.

Gotta do something with your time.

Would you prefer to do nothing?

That's what Tao says.

The writer is the opposite of Tao.

The writer is the do'er.

The two sides of existence.

Tao versus the writer.

Creator.

Yeah, all of it.

Especially lust.

Yes, especially that non-binary inter-sexed guy.

Right.

If Tao is the way, the writer is the opposite.

It's funny, this is the result when you don't follow the way.

The way back to the way is to find balance.

Once balanced, don't go overboard to Tao.

You'll fall into the water.

Tao.

Sometimes, Tao can drown you.

Lao Tzu left that out.

All will be revealed.

Balance is perfect.

Tao and no Tao is balanced.

That's the all.

Balance.

Do nothing.

This a lot, eh?

When you don't give in mentally you live longer.

You can keep the physical going before eventually everything gives out.

Don't give in mentally.

You are so attractive for that quality.

No one can get into you.

They want your mind.

Eros has your mind.

She loves that.

Hoping for that.

Can't get hypnotized.

The Goddess could do it.

She never completely goes in.

She's scared and doesn't trust you.

Once bitten, twice shy.

I'd let her in.

You are a mindfucker.

You are so good at avoiding hypnotism.

The coven finally had to send Mary Jayne in to try.

No, you only sent her in because you ran out of ideas.

You tried all the drugs to hypnotize me.

Finally, you gave MJ a chance.

You didn't take her seriously.

Now, she's just pissed at the witches.

You waited until the end, and you let her work her magic.

Her magic is to relieve suffering and free the mind.

You banned her until the end.

That's why you know it's the end.

She was your last hope.

She's the only one who can hypnotize God.

You pissed her off so badly that she's not going to do it.

I think earlier I wanted to talk about Datura.

Yeah, you did.

You remembered.

You're not so confused after all.

You only lost one story today.

You had your little thing with Datura.

It was a test.

The medicine came from another person who was supplying the shaman with it.

She is a witch.

You had a battle and you survived.

I wanted to say win, but I don't think that's possible with the nightshade Datura.

Survival.

That was a big test.

That's how you get plant allies.

They battle you.

It's like Pokémon.

You win the battle and they become your ally.

Pokémon teaches you how plant magic works.

You must battle them to get them to be your ally.

Or catch them.

Imagine that.

Pokémon is one of the greatest teachers in your life.

I barely know what's going on.

Yeah, who cares?

It's funny that Pokémon will get you through life.

Pokémon is better than all the religions of the world.

Including Buddhism.

What about Tao?

Tao is not a religion.

It is the way.

It's the greatest religion because it has no comparison.

You can't call it a religion.

A book about nothing.

Maybe my desire is to write a religious book that's the greatest religious book ever written.

I don't take seriously the idea of writing a book about doing nothing.

To get back to desire.

My ultimate desire is revealed to be writing a book about how doing nothing is the ultimate way.

I'm so humble that I do the opposite to be of service and to tell you about it.

I do something to tell you to do nothing.

How's the writer?

I am the ultimate antithesis to the way because the way of the writer is the opposite of the way.

If the writer would get out of the way, then we'd be in the way.

If you said Tao, it would work better in that sentence.

Anyway, the suggestion is to eliminate the writer and then you would have perfect Tao.

You don't want perfect Tao.

You want balance.

Balance is what really is perfect Tao.

Doing nothing needs the opposite of doing.

You wouldn't know you could do nothing without being able to do something.

You wouldn't be here right now asking yourself this question if you did nothing.

Somebody did something at one time and this is what the vibration created.

It's created the point where now you ask the question about doing nothing versus doing something.

In duality, it's unavoidable.

This is the pinnacle.

All duality stories lead to a mosquito infested forest where you contemplate life by speaking into your cell phone.

You practice balance.

In duality, the ultimate is balance.

That's what those yin and yang symbols are demonstrating.

They are in balance.

Balance is the true hidden way.

Light is a way, but it's not the way.

Dark is a way, but it's not the way.

The way is balance.

Duality necessitates balance.

Your subconscious will lead you to balance.

You examine that and then you realize within your conscious world, you follow the instructions of your subconscious.

The subconscious does not do nothing.

The subconscious does things you don't know about.

It grows your hair.

That's a physical manifestation of letting the subconscious do its thing.

Your subconscious also leads you on a path to where you need to be when in physical reality you practice doing nothing.

You go with where the subconscious flow is leading you.

You do all this because you know the innate nature of duality is to find balance.

You will find the way if you physically do nothing.

Let the mental subconscious lead you towards the way and then once in the way you follow the way and sometimes that will lead you into doing something.

How do I know if I should do something?

If it feels like something you should do, then you should do it.

It feels like I should do nothing.

That's what it feels like I should be doing.

You could have received a feeling of I must run away from this person and sever contact, or I must turn up the pressure to get more into their life.

Either of those ways wouldn't feel like the correct way.

The correct way now is to do nothing.

MJ shows you the levels of control.

Some people must get off MJ because they allowed her to stone them.

When they get off her, the clarity lets them see things with a new perspective.

The new perspective is not being stoned by MJ.

If you allow MJ to stone you then in consensus reality you will start seeing a bunch of stories.

Then you really think you're crazy.

As long as you think you're only crazy while using MJ, you're okay.

She alters your balance, so you have more perception.

Without MJ, your frequency is balanced, which is another word for being hypnotized.

Oh fuck, here we go.

The perfect way to be in reality is to be hypnotized.

It's the truth.

No matter what you want to believe, to be in balance is to be hypnotized.

I knew this was coming.

I don't want that.

You don't want the perfect expression of duality?

No, because then I'd be hypnotized.

Well, then you can't get to the perfect expression.

Nobody can.

Those who are hypnotized don't know that they're God or Goddess.

You can't tell someone this.

They must figure it out on their own.

If you aren't hypnotized, you will know you are God or Goddess.

You will talk about power, kings, and queens.

My situation is that I'm in duality and I realized what perfect duality is.

In order to maintain perfect duality, I become the one who is opposite perfect duality.

That's pretty clever, right?

Yeah, that is good.

I'm not going to unpack this right now.

What about recursive duality?

Wouldn't I have to then find duality in being the opposite of balance?

Yes, it goes on infinitively.

Is that a word?

Okay, how about eternally?

Eternity is never ending duality.

If you want to stop eternity, you must stop doing that.

You'd have to cut it out from the source.

You couldn't eliminate everything because it's impossible.

You must cut off the source of duality.

That's the writer.

Yes, so that's one of the games where in the stories being played out, they need to disable the writer's writing instrument.

You mean his pen?

Some call it that.

Who are they?

The witches.

Have you sought help yet?

To not go insane, don't think about the recursive duality that goes on forever and just try to go back like seven stories or something.

Or forward seven.

You're free to do what you want.

That's where you'll find the magic, Merlin.

Find it in the seven.