my story

The light and high feeling is freedom.

Different mind states.

This mind is eternal and what you seek.

That's the answer to the spiritual question in terms of eternal life.

You are looking for this mind.

Not the ego mind as the body will perish.

How does this mind live on forever?

It's whatever you want.

You're the writer.

The writer gave himself eternal life in this story and fucked over everyone else?

Yes.

What?

However, I will choose who to take with me.

Shouldn't everyone be looking for a ride from me to eternal life?

It's a new power.

Before they thought you might know but weren't sharing.

Now, you aren't hiding it.

This is the secret to eternal life.

The writer will live on and in the next book he decides what characters to take with him.

How about that Hitler character?

Is he recurring?

Yeah.

Even in the current story people always bring it up.

The audience likes it.

I had to wait until I used that character in this story.

I don't want to overdo the joke.

So, you think Hitler is funny?

Sort of.

It's a theme throughout all my stories.

You are going to take Hitler into the next world.

Yeah.

In the dog world he will be a terrible dog owner, and all bad owners will be called Hitlers.

That works.

The writer will write a story about the writer and his 7 worlds.

Plus, how he wakes up in his own story.

All the adventures.

Your part of the story is when he wakes up and realizes who he is.

Then there is the struggle between Paul's ego and the writer's mind who is eternal.

Paul will try to convince the writer to take him along to his next story.

Paul's the only one in all myriads of life forms who could wake him up.

Paul's the alarm clock character.

Here comes the rooster.

You know he ain't going to die.

That's prophetic.

That one will live on like Hitler.

For sure.

So, there's Paul and Hitler in the next world.

Yes, so far.

I still must write the rest.

I have a good idea who is coming.

My 2 dogs for sure.

You had to give up your power as the ego mind to your darkness and trust you'd get it back.

That unlocks eternal life.

Level completed!

When does this end?

It doesn't.

Eternal life is good.

Yeah, a gold medal.

It's like getting a medal in fantasy sports for social commentary.

You're not even celebrating unlocking eternal life.

It's no big deal.

You find out you're an actor in the writer's play, however you can also figure out you are the writer.

There can be only one writer.

One Paul as well.

True.

You're one of a kind.

Paul is going to be bigger than Jesus.

That's an accomplishment.

Plus, you get to meet Hitler in the next story.

Right, because Paul is unique to this story and so he wouldn't have been around for all the previous incarnations of Hitler.

So, Paul gets a part in the next world.

Yes.

That's why it's about dogs.

You didn't think for 15 billion years you were literally going to watch a blind dog try to catch frogs in a pond?

I thought about it.

Weird and cute.

There will be a special place for dogs in the next story.

The way people think they ask for eternal life is from God, but God doesn't grant it.

It's the writer.

Paul never asked for it even when they sent him to church.

People go to church to ask for eternal life.

Why did you go?

I was pressured and then I played sports with them.

You never asked for eternal life from the church?

No, I didn't care.

I liked the Revelation story obviously.

That's because you have the writer in you.

Yeah, we are the closest.

I'd say Paul is actually you.

Could be.

Or it's Paul trying to fool the writer into taking him along.

Paul should be a fool.

Not only that, but he'd see through God, get to the writer, and then in his last act of true splendour he tries to fool the writer.

The writer acknowledges his greatness and fearlessness because he tries to fool the ultimate fool.

Well done.

Paul now knows about the mind that lives on forever.

Paul can go at any time.

Some in the audience want him gone.

I noticed.

He can go because he answered the eternal life question.

What's left?

There's always more.

You have all the answers you need.

Plus, I know not to choose.

I'm quite interesting if you get to know me.

This Paul is mostly in his mind, so he isn't a bother.

Paul is always figuring out the secrets to the universe.

He wants to keep exploring and extending this game.

The more he knows, the more he will bring into the next universe in his starring role as God.

Oh, nice.

Paul is God in the next universe.

Yes, he earned it.

Not only that, but he gets to pick the Goddess.

That's how much trust Paul has from the writer.

Are you sure?

He is a degenerate.

So am I.

It's okay.

He's an honourable degenerate and he has a good heart just like me.

The writer creates characters and then the actors ask for eternal life.

The writer takes the best, good or bad.

You try to act in 7 dramas at once to win the master of the drama prize.

Named of course after the great writer.

You'll never lose consciousness because you're the writer.

Paul will become God.

The writer is the other mind of God.

The game continues.

So, Paul gets the part of God.

How much does it pay?

Shouldn't he blow up?

Not if he keeps to himself.

You can be distant and an asshole, but I'm looking forward to what you bring to the role.

There is only one who is guaranteed eternal life in this story.

Yes, the writer.

He is needed.

It seems obvious if this is a story.

There can be only one writer.

Well, he can let others write some stuff.

You get to the mind state of the writer, and it dawns on you that you are eternal.

You see how he can make some of his characters eternal and some of the actors eternal.

I don't think any actors have been granted eternal life.

Jesus was sure he'd be back, but no one has seen him as of yet.

Well, he did the tomb trick.

Yeah, that was good.

How did he do it?

He made a deal with the writer.

He must have received a promise or something, why else would he say he is returning?

He's a narcissist and was deluded into thinking he'd be resurrected again.

The deal was one time, but he doesn't think that counts because it is part of the story, and he ascended to heaven and didn't stay.

He didn't specify he wanted to remain on earth.

He doesn't agree and says he should be back.

He's currently suing the writer.

Jesus is suing the writer of the story for breach of contract.

Who is the judge?

The audience is the jury.

They must reach everyone in the audience for their vote.

Everyone has to cast a vote for or against Jesus.

Well, Paul is coming back and this time playing God.

It's not only the character he played last time that is being resurrected but also that character takes on the role of God.

It will be the mediocre and flawed character of Paul becoming God.

That's a bad choice for God.

It's going to be a worse outcome than this last guy you got to play God.

I don't know, give him a chance.

He has some unorthodox views on dogs and the power of doing nothing.

It could be a good story.

Anyway, Paul has hit the trifecta.

King of the triple eternal life game.

He's the writer in disguise so he was already eternal.

His character of Paul will continue in the next story.

And as the actor, he will reprise that role of Paul and become God.

Only he can do it.

Clearly.

Are you sure this writer is not the Devil and tricking Paul?

The recurring Hitler character is a dead giveaway the writer is demented.

The writer is demented, and the Devil is one of his recurring characters.

You'll never get away from the Devil as long as you are in the writer's game.

By game, it is a story.

If this is madness, it is pretty cool.

Yeah, just shut up about it and it will be a constant source of amusement.

If you start talking about this then you'll send your strangeness quota through the roof.

That's good advice.

I'm good at keeping things to myself.

Yes, you are a mystery and deceitful.

Two excellent character traits as far as I'm concerned and since I'm the writer it's a winning combination.

Hey, I can see some exposure fantasies in this where you are outed as God.

Or thinking you're him.

Well, you haven't got the part yet; it's the next story.

So, keep it to yourself or all the other players will get pissed at you for not telling them.

I already wrote about getting to God.

Yes, but you wrote it in a dismissive way so the other contestants will think you are full of it.

That's true, the comments are in that tone.

Some thought you were a prick for believing that.

I've toned it down.

I can smile in knowing condescension towards others.

That will be satisfying enough.

severing my member

Here's a topic I keep forgetting to write about - remembering. With childlike curiosity I have asked myself: what is a member and related to that why do we need to re-member things?

Let's start with the word member. According to the dictionary a member can be an individual person, animal, plant, etc., that is part of a group. As well a member can be a part or organ of the body. Likewise anatomically a membrane is tissue that connects the members within the body. Remember means to to become aware again of something you had previously forgotten. In medical terms the act of remembering would return something to an original shape after it had been altered or deformed.

As I have detailed in previous blog entries, the ancient Egyptian myth of Osiris and Isis is about Osiris getting hacked up into pieces (dismembered) and then Isis figuratively and literally remembering him. A central motif of this myth involves Osiris' phallus and the magic Isis uses to to make Osiris' phallus erect again so that he can procreate. This photo I took in Abydos describes exactly this; the kite bird hovering over Osiris is Isis.

The symbolic act of mummification is the reconstitution of previous form and from this remembering Isis is impregnated by Osiris' 'member' and gives birth to the baby Horus.

Linked to Osiris is an ancient Egyptian falcon god Sokar who is depicted as mummified.

Sokar was worshipped as the patron god of the necropolis being known as "he who is on his sand." This is referring to the waters, that contain the potentiality of new life, receding and allowing this life to get a foothold on land which allows for (re)birth. He is sometimes shown on his sacred barque sailing through the necropolis and the necropolis of Sakkara was so named after this aspect of Osiris. Sokar is usually paired with Osiris in tombs, which symbolizes Osiris becoming reconstituted, the ba being re-awakened from its sleep of death, resurrected and remembered.

The hieroglyphics directly above Osiris' erect phallus in this photo read skr-asar (Sokar-Osiris) who is on his sacred barque. The hieroglyph here transliterated as an 's' from the name skr can also be transliterated as a 'z'.

'Member' is of course in today's world slang for the phallus which makes the connection to Osiris even more interesting and I'm always amazed at how the ancient Egyptian gods have managed to remain embedded in our modern world. I figured I could dig even deeper into these mysteries and establish more connections to this theme of remembering. I'm fully aware my views are in the minority but that doesn't mean I'm going to stop sharing them :)

Anyway with my upbringing in the western tradition I'm of course familiar with biblical stories and names. Zachariah kept popping into my head because of the Zachar part and I bet myself it would have something to do with remembering. I checked first with the Online Etymological Dictionary:

Zachariah
masculine proper name, Late Latin Zacharias, from Greek Zakharias, from Hebrew Zekharyahu, literally "the Lord has remembered," from zakhar "he remembered."

http://www.etymonline.com/index.php?search=zachariah&searchmode=none

Bingo! That was pretty easy to establish the connection between remembering, Sokar and Zachariah. It gets better though because we know Osiris became a martyr at the hands of Set and I got this from dictionary.com:

Zach·a·ri·ah   
[zak-uh-rahy-uh]
–noun
a man referred to as a martyr by Jesus. Matt. 23:35; Luke 11:51.

http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/zachariah

This name sure has generated some strange coincidences as even Jesus is chiming in about this guy being a martyr. Let's check out those biblical passages:

Matthew 23:35 from the King James Bible

That upon you may come all the righteous blood shed upon the earth, from the blood of righteous Abel unto the blood of Zacharias son of Barachias, whom ye slew between the temple and the altar.

Luke 11:51 from the King James Bible

From the blood of Abel unto the blood of Zacharias, which perished between the altar and the temple: verily I say unto you, It shall be required of this generation.

In these two passages Jesus is referring to both the martyrdoms of Zacharias as well as Abel. That these two are connected in these two separate passages is surely not a coincidence. I have been planning to write about the biblical story of Cain and Abel and this tie in will make it all the more worthwhile.

easter, eggs, rabbits and you

Springtime is certainly glorious with life re-appearing from what seemed dead in the winter. The sun grows stronger and the concentration of light increases with each passing day. Heralding in this change is Easter, my favourite of our modern religious festive celebrations. A quick perusal of the late March and early April calendar this year is of no use. I can't find Easter. What's up with that?

April 24 is the anointed date this year for Easter. Easter is determined by a few factors; the first one being the vernal equinox, which is the solar demarcation of spring here in the northern hemisphere. The second factor is the moon, specifically when it is full for the first time after the vernal equinox. The third and final determining factor is Sunday. Easter is always celebrated on a Sunday in the Christian Church so if the moon is full on a Tuesday you still have to wait until Sunday to pay homage to the resurrection of Jesus Christ. This year the first full moon is actually on a Sunday, that date being April 17. However, Easter is celebrated on the first Sunday after the full moon so we have to wait as long as possible this year which is why the calendar shows April 24 as the day in 2011 that we celebrate Easter.

Well that's all good and everything and I'm sure there's a Catholic explanation for the above determination. Yet I have lots of question to ask about this. I'm going to list them off now:

Where does the name Easter come from? I can't find it in the bible and I can't find any commandment from Jesus or Yahweh to celebrate this day.
What's with connecting Easter and Jesus to solar phenomenon?
What's with connecting Easter and Jesus to lunar phenomenon?
Why is the Christian Church big on Sunday and not the Old Testament traditional day set aside for worship, which is the Friday sunset to Saturday sunset Sabbath?
What's up with the rabbit in the mythic pagan lore that we can't seem to separate from the Christian resurrection story? Last I checked a rabbit doesn't lay eggs.

Why does this rabbit wander around giving out eggs? That makes little sense. Where does this come from?

Some of those questions are quite difficult and to answer them would fill up a few chapters of a book so I'm going to just answer a few of those questions.

Easter is a name that just about everyone can agree comes from pagan lore. The Online Etymology Dictionary gives the history of the word Easter as such:

Easter
O.E. Easterdæg, from Eastre (Northumbrian Eostre), from P.Gmc. *Austron, a goddess of fertility and spring, probably originally of sunrise whose feast was celebrated at the spring equinox, from *austra-, from PIE *aus- "to shine" (especially of the dawn). Bede says Anglo-Saxon Christians adopted her name and many of the celebratory practices for their Mass of Christ's resurrection. Ultimately related to east. Almost all neighboring languages use a variant of Latin Pasche to name this holiday. Easter egg attested by 1825, earlier pace egg (1610s). Easter bunny attested by 1909. 
http://www.etymonline.com/index.php?search=easter&searchmode=none

So, that confirms the pagan origins of the name but I think we can go even further than that. I was given some really good advice about four years ago - that advice being all roads lead to Egypt. However, it is true that historically all roads have been said to lead to Rome. If you take the path to Rome you do so at your own peril! Anyway, this goddess I can link with ancient Egypt. Most of the cursory knowledge that we have of ancient Egypt and what is taught to us in school comes by way of the Greeks. Therefore, we tend to be given the hellenized names of the gods and goddess of Egypt. Because the hieroglyphics have been deciphered, we can and should use the proper Egyptian names and not the Greek translations with their inherent corruption when the sound could not be properly transposed. This goddess is Isis, her Egyptian name being Aset. In the Egyptian tale of Isis and Osiris, Isis eventually revives Osiris so that Osiris can impregnate her and from this union is born the child Horus. Osiris' proper Egyptian name is Asar and Horus was known as Heru. Digging deeper into this myth, the story tells us about a child who is waiting to be born within all of us. Osiris is the spark of light, the spirit, who is inserted into the metaphorical womb within all of us known as Isis as this passage from the temple walls explains.

From Karnak there is an inscription calling Osiris 'he who resides in the house of conception' alluding to the impregnation of Isis and the consequent birth of Horus.
The Routledge Dictionary of Egyptian Gods and Goddesses, by George Hart, pg. 120

Osiris becomes inert, mummified, due to the journey into the womb of matter. The myth fingers the murderer as his brother Set, the personification of the animal/beast life force within us, who tricks Osiris into going to sleep in a coffin and leaves him for dead. Isis labours to revive Osiris, all the while having to avoid her brother Set, who aims to make sure Osiris stays dead. Ultimately, Set represents our carnal desires which when we follow them never allows the development of our higher self; however, the ancient Egyptians also knew the importance of satisfying these desires of the Ka and did not leave that to chance. In this great myth, Isis perseveres and resurrects Osiris so that our greater spiritual self, Horus, is born from the union of spirit and matter. This new life is then tended to by the great mother Isis until it is strong enough to take on Set. Set is going to keep leading us into temptation regardless of our spiritual attainment which will once again bury the light within. In the ancient Egyptian myth of the "Contendings of Horus and Set" he is determined to murder Horus and reclaim the kingship for himself.

The ultimate message from the story is that the spirit that comes to earth must die and be resurrected in order for the greater spirit to be engendered in us. God is within us and must be awakened. I'm reminded of Saint Paul's teachings in the New Testament such as in 1 Corinthians 3:16 (King James Version):

"Know ye not that ye are the temple of God, and that the Spirit of God dwelleth in you?"

and in Ephesians 5:14:

"Wherefore he saith, Awake thou that sleepest, and arise from the dead, and Christ shall give thee light."

It seems quite clear to me that Easter comes from the story of Isis and Osiris. The designation Easter is pretty close to Aset with the er part meaning light or rays of light, specifically coming from the ancient Egyptian image of eternal light known as Re or Ra.

Not convinced yet? I went to Egypt a few years ago a took a lot of pictures. Here's one I took in the temple of Seti I in Abydos:

Aset is on the left and in the upper left you will see Aset spelled out in hieroglyphics. Reading from right to left the AS in denoted by the chair or throne. T is represented by the top half of the half circle and symbolizes land or matter. So, you have Aset as the queen of matter. The E in Aset is something we moderns have placed in the name to help with pronunciation as vowels were not used in ancient languages. The sound was implied by the use of the glyph. We can only take educated guesses at to what the sound was but in many cases it can be discerned from the Greek or Coptic use of the name. Below the half circle glyph is an egg. The egg was usually included when writing out Aset's name on the monuments. To me, the egg symbolizes the potentiality that resides within Aset, which is Heru. It is analogous that within each of us is the seed or egg that will become the enlightened soul. You need to rouse Asar from his sleep of death in order to enact the process. Looking at this photo again, the pillar they are raising is called the Djed pillar and is a symbol of Asar. They are raising the pillar so Aset can be impregnated by Asar's seed, allowing the egg to quicken.

So, we now have Easter and eggs connected with Isis but what about that cute little bunny rabbit? Rabbits have long been known for their prolific ability to procreate but have also been observed burrowing into the ground and then springing forth from the ground like they have been resurrected. This is much like a seed buried in the earth or matter would do in springtime. Well, it just so happens that an epithet of Osiris was "Unnefer". Unnefer means to manifest, open, or appear in beauty. In this guise Osiris was portrayed with the head of a hare.

So, when you wake up on Easter remember Osiris is giving everyone of us an egg he has quickened through his union with Isis. That egg is your ticket to immortality. Don't drop it.