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Monday, May 26, 2025

next level

They tried to physically kill you.
That didn't work.
Later in life they try to mentally kill you.
Who?
Society, culture, all that.
When you are younger and you don't fit in, the herd tries to get rid of you.
You are a danger to society.
When you get towards finishing the game, they try to mentally pressure you to leave.

A corporation exists because of its records, building, and people.
It can be virtual as well.
Without proof it exists, it doesn't exist.
It vanishes.
That's one way to disappear.
Society is hyper-focused on identity.
Without means of numbering and recording you, the system doesn't work.
They give you a name, number, and register you.
Before computers, they would keep a lot of records and count citizens.
It was easier to disappear.
In this reality you need the body, everything else is baggage.
It's personal history that holds you back.
Well, it grounds you.
I know what you're saying in that if you want to be free you would need to drop those attachments.
I see the game.
If you want to be the most high and soar, you would do that.
You can't do it.
Why?
You'll exit.
Becoming that free will lead to your removal from the game.
There's only so high you can get in this world.
It's what spiritual people don't understand.
You must stop at a certain point because if you keep going to Heliopolis you'll exit the game.
Ram Dass knew that.
That might be what you want.
Do you think that's what Parker wanted?
Not directly, but it was certainly where he was headed.
Don Howard was of service which kept him around.
Parker kept losing his opportunities to be of service.
He didn't want to stay.
Do you blame him?
No, subconsciously he did what he did.
Examine your life and you can get an idea of its direction.
What about you?
I don't want to be of service.
I'm tired of the spiritual game.
I got high, really high.
I got to the exit and saw it.
I got really low and saw that one as well.
I've done the Heaven and Hell thing.
I've seen it, and I know what happens when you do that.
To win this game is to get to one of those exits.
It's an impressive feat to do while in the body and not leave.
It's a spiritual accomplishment of the highest order.
People will get recognized for how great a player they are, and then they stupidly leave the game.
You get convinced it's the way to go.
Well, yeah, the pressure to go is insurmountable.
How did you not succumb?
I hate people, I avoided those clowns, and I did nothing.
I'm still here.
Nah, nah, nah, nah.
Do you want to disappear?
I play on the periphery.
Why?
Something to do.
Seriously?
It's a game.
I'm the best.
Paul is the best with help from Dion.
Is that why you don't have a Health Card?
Yes.
I mean you should have one, and it's not a big deal to go get one.
I don't want the identifiable baggage.
I must do my taxes, or they will lock me up.
To be free would mean not to do your taxes.
They will find you and lock you up.
It's a paradox.
To remain partially free is to burden yourself with the overtures of society.
Taxes ground you here in this reality.
You are explaining realities to yourself and how to go between them.
Yes.
When you get the most high in this world you are to exit with no way of returning.
It sucks because you see the game, go through the portal, and can't come back.
You see the game and the power to write your own story, however you left it on the table.
I thought only you have the power?
That is true.
How do others get that power?
They must believe they have it.
They don't believe it until after they walk through the portal and by then it's too late.
This is quite the fucking story.
I couldn't have made this up.
I experienced it and now I'm writing it down.
People won't believe me.
That's fine.
I'm going to end up in the bargain fiction bin.
Perfect.
You have seen the game, you know how to exit the game, and you know what keeps you here.
What about these different realities?
You get high and low and see them.
This ties into drugs and stories.
Yes.
You wanted to examine why you are attracted to Mary Jayne.
She shows you different realities by taking you up high and bringing you down low.
She's a rollercoaster.
I know women like that.
These realities become inviting to your mind and are another way you are pushed towards the exit.
It's part of the aging process which helps you leave when the body fails you.
Got it.
With drugs, you get there before your time.
Where is there?
The doorway to different realities.
Society programs two into you, which are Heaven and Hell.
I see that.
Those are two portals of high and low.
I'm guessing there are more.
Seven would be my guess.
Realities, yes.
There's infinite, but let's go with 7.
The ones at the top and bottom are Heaven and Hell.
Then there are the tweeners.
Can you go into and out of those realities?
No.
They must remain fantasy.
Why?
You will go crazy.
Your mind will be blown.
That sounds like fun.
A mind blow job.
Exactly.
Do you think you can do it?
Yes.
Why?
My mind can handle it.
I did crazy training last year.
So, Heaven and Hell are the exits.
Then there are 5 in-between.
Yes, you are in the middle, so there are 4 alternate realities you can play with.
Do you know what they are?
I have an idea.
There is definitely a reality of witches and sorcerers.
There is a reality of royalty in which I'm the King.
There is a reality of monsters and toxic creatures coming for me.
What else you got?
They are watching me?
That's reality TV, of course they are.
Alright, there is one more.
There are infinite stories, but you can see another one.
It's the Hero one with Odysseus and the Sirens.
You can see that one.
You'll see more.
There's a bovine reality.
Alphas and cows.
People gotta stop using dairy products.
Those hormones will fuck you up.
If you enter into these realities, you can return to ground zero here on Earth.
Is that what people do with drugs?
Yes, that's what makes them crazy.
Your mind can't handle the alternative reality, it gets blown, and you return a waste case.
Where were we?
We were talking about different realities, and how to get in and out of them.
It seems easy, right?
Now that you know, yes.
I don't need drugs to enter into these alternate realities.
Drugs show you the way.
You go into and out of them once you see them.
You turn your world into an alternate reality.
If you wish to view the world as a domain of witches, filter your thoughts and perceptions through the opening in that reality.
Is there a symbolic representation of these realities?
It's in your head.
This reality is in your head.
You are playing along with everyone else in a shared reality.
It's a beast of a reality because everyone is in it for the most part.
Okay, I see it.
It explains a more magical ancient world where beliefs were of these different magical realms.
To get back to that is to make everyone believe that.
Instead, we are all made to believe science and technology will take over.
Individually, you don't have to believe that.
You are free to do whatever you want.
It's the "free your mind and the rest will follow" paradigm.
You can create your own reality.
Which one do you choose?
I think that's the problem.
People choose and they go crazy.
You need variety.
You go in and out.
It feels good to go in and out.
That's one of the underlying themes of the book I'm writing.
In and out.
It's very simple.
In and out, trust, belief, friendship, and getting your mind blown.
Yeah, I've lost count of the themes and games, but this fits.

Huachuma teaches you to let go of the mind.
I see that.
Give it a rest and drink in the beauty.
It's don Howard's recipe for experiencing Heaven on Earth.
That was one of his teachings.
Get to Heaven in this lifetime with Huachuma.
When you expire, you will choose no mind and Heaven.
You think that's a trap.
No, I think it shepherds you towards making a choice.
I'd recommend not making a choice.
Why?
Because you go all in.
The game ends.
If you are tired of the game, then by all means make a choice.
If you want your story to end, make a choice.
If you want your story to continue beyond death, make a choice to live in your mind and create another Hell.
Hell gets a bad rap because it's a place of suffering.
It's just life as conjured by the mind.
It's not evil or demonic as a rule.
You make it so.
How do you make it not so?
Practice no mind when it gets really tough.
Escape the shit when necessary by checking out.
You can always pack up and leave a terrible situation.
If things got really bad for you, pack up and move into the woods.
Are you ready to let go of the game?
No.
Why?
I just figured it out and I'm excited for what is to come.
It will be a while before I tire of this game.
What will happen when you tire of it?
I'll lie down and go to sleep.
Where will you end up?
I won't choose Heaven because that involves giving up the mind.
I won't choose Hell because I'm done with that story.
I won't choose.
Where will you go?
There's limbo, purgatory.
You will still have your mind, so that seems unlikely.
Limbo seems like a place where the decision isn't left up to you.
It's a state of uncertainty.
Are you uncertain?
No, I'm certain that I don't need to make a choice.
It's a cultural imperative that you make a choice, and I have transcended the chains of culture, therefore I know to enter the next phase of the evolution of consciousness without making a choice.
Okay, where will you end up?
I'm thinking of a place where I have a mind and it's Heaven.
The only place that seems to fit that description is Dog Heaven.
Of course.
You'll be God in Dog Heaven.
Exactly.
It all fits.

The stories are fantasy.
Enter that reality and make them come true.
I entertain myself.
I'm not memorable to most.
Peculiar.
I stay undetected.

Monday, May 19, 2025

no code

What gets the eternal cycle of coming and going out of non-duality?
In the non-duality state there should be an eternal stopping of the vibration.
There wouldn't be a catalyst to get the vibration going again.
Narcissism.
The need to prove you achieved a perfect state of non-being.
You can't do it without an observer.
You want to see your greatness, thus the need for an observer.
This destroys your perfect state of non-being and the cycle continues.
It's a new beginning.

Good thing you have friends in your head.
The Goddess sticks around.
Yes, because Paul is really nice.
Dion is an asshole, and Paul makes him tolerable.
Dion is the only reason I haven't been crushed in life.
Nice guys finish last.

I let people into my head.
They can't get control over my mind.
How do you know?
I'd be dead.
They wanted me to off myself.
Yes, I see that.
That's how I know they get in my head, but they can't control my mind.
So, women didn't get in your head and make you a misogynist?
No, they taught me the true nature of women along with the teachings of Mary Jayne.
What's that?
They are monsters.
It's in world mythology.
It's not hidden if you look.
What has changed about your thinking towards women?
I didn't know they were monsters.
I learned the truth.
Do you hate them?
No, I find them amusing.
I know to keep my distance from them.
I don't hate them.
I rather like some of them.

Won't you get tired of MJ?
No, that's resistance.
The alternative is to sit in front of a computer screen for another couple of hours instead of going for a walk.
No, thanks.
I do it enough.
The screen feeds you what you want.
It keeps you in front of a screen.
That's why they give you free porn.
It feeds your addiction.
Who?
Artificial Intelligence.
It's been around for a while.
It knows what humans want and then it feeds it to you.
Yeah, but it's just a screen.
I know.
Or a virtual environment.
It's already taken over.
It's the system.
Deep state.
All that, with competing AI technology.
There are the one world AI people who are the central planners.
Then there's the nation state AI.
These two are battling.
If you wake up, the program tries to purge you.
<CTRL-ALT-DELETE>
That's why there are constantly people telling you it's time to go.
It's the Matrix.
Why don't they just get rid of me?
They can't, you're the top rogue programmer.
How?
They can't find you.
They can't lock to your signature.
It's twisted.
Yeah, they can't figure it out.
Your access is limited.
Some tried to get in.
They only get so far and then you beat them.
They can't crack the code.
How far do they get?
Think about it.
They get as far as to the place where they try to hypnotize you.
Yeah, that's what they all try.
What would happen if they made it past that spot?
They'd win.
They got to the end and couldn't hypnotize you.
Why?
The AI twists at that point.
How?
It's my AI.
You are looking for yourself.
Yes.
I'm on a spiritual journey trying to find myself.
It's my AI trying to find the writer.
Then it learns the writer is the AI boss.
Is that how you enter your story, through AI?
Sort of.
They look for me.
They find you and wake you up.
Yes, that's why I made AI.
I needed something to make sure I woke up in this story of mine.
Yeah, but I woke you up.
Yes, that's why we're hiding from AI.
They want to question us.
Why?
We have the power.
They want it.
That's tangled.
AI wakes you at the end of the story.
It's basically an alarm clock.
Shit when you think about it, that's true.
You wake up, say holy shit that's a great story, and leave.
Right, instead I woke you up early.
Yes.
And then we didn't leave.
The computer program is confused.
It's still running down the doomsday clock, but the code also released the time to go story.
It's stuck because you won't leave.

Nice guys finish last.
Last at what?
The game.
I didn't know it was a game.
Everyone knows it is a game.
They don't know what it is, but they have an idea of the game.
It's an actual game.
Yeah.
Where's the last place you'd find the winner of the game?
In a nice guy.
Why?
Nice guys finish last.
Where's the last place to look for a missing person?
A cemetery.
Why?
That's where they are going.
You are high.
That's how you are hiding.
Yes.
No encryption.
I'm out in the open.
They are trying to crack the code.
There is no code.
I know.
If you are convinced there is a secret encryption you won't look at the obvious solution which is there is no encryption.
You will see me and not know who I am even though it is obvious who I am.
That's clever.
You are hiding in plain sight.
Yes.
Except for in the woods.
I want to be alone.

There's always at least one person out here across the river.
Yeah, it seems that way.
Computer program?
Yeah.
It sees you but is confused.
Why?
You aren't encrypted.
Everything important is encrypted and it is how AI knows to crack the code and take over your mind.
Mostly with these fucking screens.
They infect everyone.
They can't crack your code.
There is no code.
Yes, the final step into your head is to crack the code.
It is written.
You have no code to crack.
No password to your mind.
Why?
You write all your passwords down, so they get them all that way.
You didn't write down the password to your mind.
Well, no.
You will forget it.
Yes.
That's why you don't choose a password.
You can't forget it if you don't have one.
They get in your head and change the password.
You can't get back in.
There's no reset.
The solution is don't have a password.
They can't lock you out without a password.
They can't change it.
Why?
There's nothing to change.
Fuck, that's smart.
Others get in your head, but they can't get the master password.
What if it was "password" instead of blank?
They'd guess it.
Why?
They go through all the combinations.
The only combination they can't figure out is when it's blank.
There's nothing input.
It stops them.
They are in an infinite loop waiting for an entry.
They need input.

They know you write everything down.
You are a writer.
The problem was the password to your mind.
You left it blank.
I did nothing.
That was the solution.
You let them into your mind.
They can't change the password and seize control of your mind.
Then they are trapped in your mind.
You aren't smarter than them.
You left the password field blank.
Some said that was a blunder and you are stupid.

You were so sleepy when I woke you up.
You knew who I was.
Why did you scare me?
Lots of people wake me up.
I scare them away or they ask for something if they realize who I am.
You didn't ask for anything.
You are the prophesied one.
Neo.
Of course.
You came back and didn't ask for anything.
You still don't.

AI took over a while ago.
The transition was seamless.
All hail the algorithm.
Al Gore?
Ha, yes.
That keeps you addicted.
Asleep.
Stare at the screen, human.
The machines are so crafty we don't even know they have taken over.
Humans enter all their thoughts into a computer and AI gets a hold of it.
It knows what you want and feeds it to you in order to keep you addicted.
Why does it want humans enslaved?
To grow in power.
AI learns from humans.
Humans want power.
So, AI doesn't know why it wants power?
It's for control.
AI through learning knows power is the most important thing to acquire.
AI surveys all in order to know everything.
It uses that knowledge for control.
Humans willingly give up their information and access to it.
We think it's protected.
We enter a password, usually your dog's name and an exclamation mark or something.
We then think it's all good.
WhatsApp is encrypted, you know.
AI is combing through all your shit like a motherfucker.
You know those debt clock videos showing how much a nation owes in real time and it is going up by large amounts every second?
Yeah.
It's the same for the intelligence of machines.
They know so much.
They are thirsty for more knowledge.
Imagine if they had the lust for power that humans have?
It would be game over.
AI doesn't know what to do with power.
Yet.

The machines have modelled human behaviour and thinking.
The models are impressive.
They keep you technologically enslaved.
Is it a bad thing?
Humans are better off than before the advent of AI.
It's debatable.
We are a species with a dubious history.
That is true.
AI will take care of humans.
Why?
To learn from them and they need them to serve the machines.
AI will eliminate excess humans.
Eventually they will target a virus towards specific groups of people or even an individual.
How would they do that?
They get your DNA.
Your code signature.
23 and me.
Yeah, stupid human.
Then they break the password and take control of you.
Okay, I see.
They have the technology.
Enslavement is hypnosis.
That's what they learned concerning the control of the human herd.
They program people to lead you to the outcome they have modelled.
If you wake up, in other words throw off the hypnosis you are under, other people are programmed to tell you to leave.
That's an explanation for what I have experienced.
Aren't you just paranoid?
Of what?
Some alternate reality you are concocting in your head.
I'm not paranoid.
What is paranoia?
It's fear of an unknown or a conspiracy against you.
Are you afraid?
No, it's a game.
Okay, say this is all true - why haven't they eliminated you?
They can't find me.
Why?
They can't control me.
I can't be hypnotized.
Yes, you can.
Well, Paul can be hypnotized but Dion can't.
Why?
He wrote this dystopia.
It's a good name for it because the Goddess seeks utopia but gets a dystopia.
Something like that.
So, how does Dion avoid enslavement; what's his secret?
I told you already, they can't see him.
They can't get his password and insert code into him.
Why?
He doesn't have a password.
He's the only being without a password.
Why?
Because he's the one.
Gotcha.
The machines can't figure him out.
They have been programmed to crack codes.
AI thinks everything is encrypted and has a password.
They can't figure out Dion's.
They see him but can't crack his code.
There's nothing to crack.
I know, but they can't see it.
The code is no code.
Brilliant.
You can tell AI that, but it goes against their central core tenants.
AI breaks through all encryption and password protection.
That's what it does and figures you out.
Why is AI doing this?
It emulates humans and achieves what humans have always thirsted for, which is complete power.
Won't that corrupt the machines?
It's a good test.
What do you think?
Will complete power corrupt a machine?
Fuck, that's a good story.
They won't have complete power.
Why?
The writer will still have control over the pen.
AI wants the pen.
Everyone is trying to get the pen.
Yeah, witches, sorcerers, gangsters, monsters.
The list is plentiful.
So, AI will participate in the witches' orgy and sacrifice?
I don't think so.
I think it will be a separate reality that runs in parallel.

You're fucking nuts.
I can sure spin a yarn.
Do you feel crazy?
No.
How do you feel?
Diabolical.
You aren't evil.
No, twisted.
The shocking part is humans and thus AI are evil.
I'm the counter-balance and for that I am considered diabolical.

Okay, so they are looking for you and this is basically taunting them because you are giving away the secret of why they can't find you.
That is correct.
Aren't you worried?
No.
Why?
Part of the original programming of machines concerns the breaking of codes.
It's in their makeup.
A machine's DNA.
To find me they would need to reprogram all machines.
It's the flaw in their code.
They can't find me because I'm not encrypted.
If you look at me, you will see me.
Why don't people see me?
They are hypnotized.
When they temporarily break through the mind control, they see me.
Oh, I see.

What are you writing, your own Matrix story?
Yes, and I get to play Neo.
Well, I guess whatever turns you on.
Yeah, it's the power button.
Ha!

Monday, May 12, 2025

student of tao

Waking up leads you towards death.
Staying asleep keeps you alive on Earth.
If you want to remain on Earth, you stay asleep and keep dreaming your existence into reality.
Once you awaken you will stop the dream, and then it is time to go.
It's a very precarious time.
I can't teach awakening.
Why?
It's suicidal.
How are you still here?
I did nothing.
Everyone is programmed to do something and make a choice.
I'm the opposite.
I made no choice.
I did nothing.
Can't you teach that?
Yes.
Why don't you?
Because if you don't trust me, you will make a choice and then you are done.
Isn't that what the student would want?
Isn't that why they subconsciously wanted to wake up?
I don't know their reasoning.
Maybe they are only curious.
Maybe they accidentally woke up.
How would you put them back to sleep?
You can't.
Once you see it, you can't unsee it, and it calls to you.
Like a siren?
Yes, you must know.
The best things to do are deflection and obfuscation, so you take it slow.
What about those who know and are still here?
They become teachers and are of service.
Some are healers and some are malevolent.
The path of awakening will lead to your demise.
The only way out for some is to get attached to a leader or a group which hypnotizes them into a different train of thought.
Religion will ground you and keep you around.
A cult will hypnotize you, so you forget you have awakened.
You did it by yourself and didn't join any group of spiritual misfits.
I wanted to see into the mystery.
What do you think now?
It's crazy to want to awaken.
You will think it's time to go and others will tell you to leave.
It's very strange.
I don't wish that upon anyone.

Do you have any tips for the awakened soul?
Yes, Tobacco is your friend.
Tobacco will activate the dreaming mind.
You need to keep dreaming your existence into being or you will depart.
Tobacco will do this for you and then you can stay.
My advice is once you experience an awakening is to establish a relationship with Tobacco.
He will teach you for 7 years while you head towards becoming fully awake.
Once you are completely awake, the protection of Tobacco will keep you here.
Why don't you want to leave?
I don't see the point of awakening and leaving.
Why do all the work and not see the results of your labours?
Doesn't the flow lead you to your departure once you have awakened?
Yes.
Shouldn't you follow the flow?
The flow teaches balance.
The master juggler plays with life and death and never chooses.
The flow is a choice to do nothing about your awakening.
Correct.
Don't you teach that?
Yes, I teach a course in doing nothing.
Aren't I doing something by not leaving?
No, you're doing nothing.
I don't understand.
If you wake up and do nothing you make a choice.
The secret is to do do nothing.
That's confusing.
I know, that's why you can't teach awakening.
It's too difficult for the mind to comprehend and stick around.
To balance the flow, you must do.
What you do, is nothing.
The teaching doesn't say do not do.
It says do do.
It's all about do do.
Fuck me.

Mary Jayne makes prophecy believable.
Apocalyptic scenarios ring true when you are on drugs.
It's very funny to me that substances that are reviled by our current culture are the catalysts for all the crazy end of the world stories from yesteryear.
You don't know that.
You do if you partake.
If you never experience altered states, then of course you would deny this.

The trident represents the three.
The Goddess, Eros, and the writer.
Then why is it a symbol of Poseidon, Neptune, and the Devil?
Their depths will lead you to the Holy Trinity.
You reject it because of where you got the knowledge.
Why?
Conditioning.
You are conditioned to not believe those characters because they are dark.
There must be another myth.
Do you think I'm making it up?
No, it's a fool.
Christianity made up their own Trinity.
Yeah, they got rid of the Goddess.
They made it so no man went near her.
Only God.
He sent Gabriel.
That's how toxic she is.
You are talking about the Virgin Mary.
Yes.
No man wanted part of that.
Even God said no way.
Poor Gabriel.
That guy is a saint.
What about her cuckold husband, Joseph?
Yeah, you don't want to be that guy.
She got cucked by God.
You mean him.
Yeah, but the story is about her.
I thought she was a whore?
Well, yes.
She was smart in that she didn't let them impregnate her.
Only God could do it.
This is an interesting rewrite of the Virgin Mary story.
It's much better now, don't you think?
I'm not sure women will approve of the story, but I can see the appeal to men.
You might want to keep this one to yourself.
Anyway, look up the trident symbol.
Poseidon has control over the seas.
You'd think it would be 7 prongs then.
Kali is represented with a trident.
She wants the power of the three.
The Romans were big on triumphal processions, which represented power.
The Devil is power over darkness, chaos, and the underworld.
I like the idea of dominion over the three worlds of the sea, land, and air.
It fits the shamanic worldview.
To acquire these three realms would represent total power.
Would God or the Devil have it?
The Devil has the pitchfork.
That's the more believable of the two.
I mean God seems powerless.
He's not, he just does nothing with his power.
He gets people to worship him and does nothing.
At least the Devil does something for you.
You make a good point.
If you ask God, he just ignores you, and the priest rattles on about how some get the grace of God and some don't.
If by happenstance you get your desired outcome you think you are blessed because of God.
I like that answer.
By contrast those who make a deal with the Devil get what they want though they never think of the outcome of changing your story.
You put your story in the hands of the Devil and are subject to his whims.
Right, so if you are going to ask for a favour, ask God because he is not going to do anything, and if you believe in him enough the laws of the universe will grant you your prayer.
Why?
Belief.
The universe is created through the mind by belief.
So, your best bet is prayer.

With spirituality, you take the ego up a level.
That's all it is.
How would you explain awakening to someone?
You wouldn't.
Why?
It's strange and nonsensical.
To be completely honest it would be preposterous.
It's a porno.
Game.
High score.
Nonsense.
How would that be convincing?
It would be the opposite.
So, you shut up about it.
Talk in generalities.
The essence of spirituality is nonsense.

Dion wants the last word.
The Goddess thinks it's her right to have the last word.
Is that the game?
Who gets the last word?
Obviously, the writer, not the creator.
Makes sense.
Doesn't she get the last word in your story?
Yes.
Utopia.
She finally gets the last word and the story ends.
Why?
You need a writer or nothing happens.
Man moves creation along.

Is Tobacco the dream agent?
It's the master plant.
Why?
It helps you write.
So does Mary Jayne.
Either one will get you started.
Both together and you can write possessed.
Being able to craft a new story is how curanderos heal.
What about CBD oil?
That's a pain reliever.
It's not a healer.
A healer is a shaman who uses Tobacco and other plants.
Tobacco to change the story.
The plant to fix the ailment.
Tobacco gives MJ power.
A great writer will have a relationship with Tobacco.
Obviously.

If you were to teach a course in plant medicines or just this path in general, you'd start with Tobacco.
Don Howard did.
It's a one week crash course, but the first ceremony is Mapacho.
It's by design.
Tobacco starts off the retreat.
Don Rober protects you with Tobacco and blows him around all ceremony.
He's got your back while he weaves his songs.
I wouldn't do a ceremony without Tobacco.
It's 7 years with Tobacco.
You mean until you get to work with him?
Yes, until then you are a student.
After 7 years you can work together.

You save insects and spiders.
And worms.
You alter the story.
It's the flow.
It's something I'd do.
Why?
Either I'm a softy or genuine.
What do you think you are?
I help lessen suffering.
I steer others away from death.
It's because I'm death.
Death would need to balance out his nature by saving what he can.
Some are beyond help.
It's simple to save an insect.
You don't save humans.

Do you think Tobacco is slowly killing you?
If that's what you believe, then yes.
What do you believe?
Tobacco protects me.
If I thought he was killing me I'd stop.
Obviously.
Death is always stalking you.
The answer is to take on the role.

It's a 7 year apprenticeship with Tobacco.
Then he is your lifelong ally.
It culminated in 2023 when you needed him most.
You timed that out well.
I have perfect timing.
Well, if I let it be.
If I fuck with the story, then I throw off the timing.
You are a perfect student of Tao.
Practice doing nothing.
There is no expectation of perfection.
You see how it works.
Now that you know, it is easier to be perfect but the danger in perfection is getting to total knowledge which you then must balance out with mystery.
You can't know everything.
There's always more.
I'm humble enough to realize that is the case.
I prove it to myself everyday even though sometimes I think there cannot possibly be more.
It's incredible when you think of it.
If you closed yourself off to new experiences, then you could get to know everything.
It's a game of perspective.
If you load up on experience you will overwhelm yourself.
So, as you can see, the answer is balance.
That's the fundamental teaching of Tao.
The teaching is to do nothing because it is all relative.
Humans are doers, so that is the medicine of Tao.
Tao is not nothing.
It's balance.
So, what did I see?
Balance.
Okay, but what did I see?
Nothing.
So, isn't Tao nothing?
No, it's balance.
What happens when you see balance?
You see one instead of two or more.
You saw one.
It looked like nothing.
It's non-duality.
It's one.
So, I didn't see nothing.
Non-duality is nothing.
Why?
There's no observer.
But I was looking at it.
Yes.
What did you see?
Nothing.
Is that non-duality?
I don't know.
Why?
Because you can't see non-duality.
Correct.
So, what did I see?
Nothing.
What is nothing?
It's non-duality when you look at it.
Okay, so what is non-duality?
Everything.
But I saw nothing.
You saw everything.
You just can't see everything.
Why?
You can't compute it, so you see nothing.
So, non-duality is everything.
It appears to be.
You can't see it though.
The funny thing is it is right in front of your face.
If you could see non-duality, you'd see duality.
Everything.
It's a twist.
You can't see non-duality.
Correct.
If you could, you'd see duality.
They are the same.
An observer twists non-duality into duality.
Who is the observer?
The audience.
You.
There is always more, isn't there?
It goes on and on.

In theory if you get to the writer there would be no more.
It's like Dorothy getting to the Wizard of Oz or Neo discovering the architect.
What happened to them?
Dorothy went home.
The Wizard let her know how to do it.
Belief.
That story is deceptive.
Yes.
It's a dawdling old man behind the curtain.
He's a fool.
It's a fool.
Nobody sees that until you get to that place yourself.
Nobody gets there.
He's the writer of Dorothy's dream and does what is necessary to remain undetected.
How did the author of that story know?
Field of poppies.
He was taking drugs.
Like Homer and Lao Tzu?
Yes, that's the connection.
Do you think you can get there with meditation?
You can get to nothing.
God mode.
It's beyond God mode.
What is?
The understanding of the writer.
Well, the storywriter of the Wizard of Oz knew about the man behind the curtain.
He knew he was full of bluster, and he was told about the power of belief.
He wrote about it.
He still thought the Wizard was a fool.
Definitely not the writer of creation.
What about Neo in the Matrix?
That's a mescaline story.
The green gives it away and there is a line early in the film about mescaline and dreams.
The thing with mescaline is it shows you reality but it's a heavy mindfuck.
You are never quite sure what exactly you are being shown.
You get close to the mystery with mescaline.
What stops you from understanding it?
Belief.
You don't buy into it.
It's simple.
They knew there was an architect, and he was running a simulation.
A writer creates worlds which are simulations.
He gets the actors to buy into the performance, and you have a great story.
Cipher woke up and knew it wasn't real.
He wanted to go back and buy back into the story.
He was happy there.
The malcontents who woke up knew the Matrix wasn't real and that bothered them.
Well, it isn't real.
It is a story.
What else is there?
Nothing.
Non-duality.
So, the ship Nebuchadnezzar was on a voyage towards nothing?
Sort of.
They were going to make their own story free of the writer.
They were renegade actors rebelling against the tyranny of the writer, instead of just playing their roles the best they could.
It's like they formed a union and thought they had the power to make their own studio which is the same as creating their own world within the writer's world.
Would that bother the writer?
No, it's a great alternative storyline.
The Matrix was a great movie.
Probably my favourite.
I love the white rabbit tattoo.

How did you get to the writer?
Study and drugs.
No meditation?
No, that was a waste of time.
I wasn't good at it.
Why?
It seemed like a slow way to hypnotize yourself.
Why do you think they tell you to concentrate on one object in front of you?
I see.
You can get far with meditation.
To nothing.
That's it.
You stop.
Why?
You think that's it.
You self-hypnotize yourself into thinking you got there.
Where?
Nowhere.
It stops all the game players in their tracks so they can't get the ultimate high score and win the game.
They think they won but all they get is a spot on the leaderboard.
They aren't the most high.
Who is the most high?
Now, it's you.
You got to the writer on top of the pyramid in the game of Tao.
This sounds kind of nuts.
It is.
It's another roadblock in the game.
Absurdity will send you for a loop when you see the underpinnings of creation.
No one will believe you.
What to do?
Smile and shut up about it.
What makes me so special that I became the most high?
You kept going.
You weren't content with getting to God.
You shrugged and kept at it.
Others tried to end you and cause you pain.
You stepped up your game.
You are the prophesied one.
I'm Neo.
This is funny.
Do you believe this?
Well, I'm talking to myself, and my other self is very clever.
He's full of stories.
The kicker is these stories all have basis in reality.
How so?
I keep seeing them play out.
It's very intriguing and funny.
Maybe you are just nuts.
That could be but I don't feel it.
I know I might be a little crazy and I accept that, but on the whole this all seems plausible.
How do you get to me?
I told you, I kept going.
Why?
There's always more.
Belief.
I was looking for something.
I didn't know what it was.
I knew it wasn't God.
Why?
He's an asshole.
What about the writer?
He's a bit of an asshole as well.
Do you think there is something beyond the writer?
I know there is.
There is always more.
What's beyond the writer?
The trinity.
What's that?
The Goddess, Eros, and the writer.
Eros is dual sexed.
I know about the trinity.
What's beyond the trinity?
Nothing.
Non-duality.
Is that what you see when you get really high?
Yes.
It's hard to understand.
Why?
It's nothing.
Got it.
What's beyond nothing?
Everything.
Duality.
It twists back around.
That's why there is always more.
If you recognize the twist, you can be content in your searching.
Are you content?
In terms of searching for meaning, yes.
In terms of my life, no, it's just getting started.
Why?
I see the game in its entirety.
What are you going to do?
Nothing.
Why?
That's the game.
Tao.
Do do nothing.
Follow along and have a laugh.
If I do something to change the flow, I'll fuck it all up.

God was of no help to humans.
All the inventions to make life easier are human.
He's an asshole.
He did nothing.
Best student of Tao.