Drugs are dangerous.
Yeah.
They might wake you up.
Seeing past the illusion isn't all it's cracked up to be.
What's better?
Remaining ignorant to this game or finding out the truth?
I don't know.
I think it's 50-50.
If you ever want to get off the ride, you must wake up.
I trust you will know when to do that.
The world of finance and money markets is very dizzying.
It's confusing to the average person and so you need an expert to help you with your investments.
They are taught to shepherd you into conservative positions.
Banks then use your relatively stable investments to leverage them into higher risks, so they can make more money off of you.
The bank will then use hedging strategies to give themselves cover in case of a volatile swing in the markets.
Financial markets are an elaborate fool based upon the productivity of companies and their employees.
It's a way to extract as much wealth as possible from people.
The influx of new recruits through immigration into the system makes this possible.
It's all part of Maya and the initial thought is to blame the illusion crafted by the Goddess for the exploitation of everything on this Earth.
We think only the land and animals are exploited.
Add people to the list and you have it figured out.
It's a game of exploitation and survival.
Maya welcomes you into this strange game.
If you use psychedelic drugs to try and see through this illusion the breakdown in reality becomes strange.
As the hypnotic tentacles of the illusion let go you see a bewildering display of frightening images and revealing thoughts.
There is a lot of work to be done to make sense of it all.
So, do you blame the Goddess for this mess on Earth?
You have free will though you soon discover upon exploration of your situation that if you don't go along with the game, you will be cast out and lose.
You must play.
You acquire a position and capital in order to stop playing.
That's the initial step and this takes a long time; so much so that you won't remember why you are playing, and you will be lost in the game.
That's where psychedelic drugs can help.
Consciousness altering techniques will help you remember what this is.
The Goddess didn't set up the illusion in this regard.
Her contribution is the body.
Your mind enters into a body, and you identify with the body.
Civilization becomes centred around the body.
The vehicle for the mind is the largest concern and leads to the formation of what is now called human civilization.
This is not the intent of the game but a predictable outcome.
What is this all for?
Maya the game is to teach you to love others unconditionally.
It's a ride at the carnival.
The ride.
How do you love others in this game?
Teach them how to get off the ride.
I can't do that.
Why?
There will be a lot of casualties, and I will be responsible for it.
That's quite the pickle.
A dilemma of the highest order.
How do you wake others up without causing too much of a ruckus?
I don't know.
They must see it for themselves.
I think you tell people to stop identifying with the body and go from there.
There are others who want to figure out another way.
They try to set up communities within the larger game.
Does it work?
No.
New leaders will emerge with the potential for exploitation.
It's a problem of power.
Waco, right?
Yeah.
That's an exemplary case study.
Avoid religious communities.
At least in the rat race you know you are being taken advantage of.
In a cult, you think the leaders are benevolent.
You are already being fooled by society, and you run to another group to take advantage of you.
You must wake up and go it alone.
Why?
Trust.
You can't trust others.
Why?
They are playing this game.
You can trust an animal.
Why?
They aren't playing the illusion game.
They are trying to survive.
They don't identify with their body.
They are passing through.
Like I said, if you want to be of service then teach others to stop identifying with their body.
Do it slowly and gradually.
You can't tell anyone about this.
Why?
They think you are nuts.
What happens when you show up in Heaven with a blue checkmark?
You get escorted to the front of the line.
Why?
You think you are important.
It attracts others to follow you into the next stage of Maya.
The illusion is strong.
How do you know the other voice in your head is you?
He likes the same things.
The power comes from you both liking the same things.
That's what makes you psychotic.
Someone to encourage you to fulfill your lusts.
If he wasn't you, he'd have different interests.
Wouldn't he just fool me by mirroring my likes and dislikes?
That's possible.
Would it go on for this long?
No.
Why?
A true psychopath is impatient.
True that.
You'll never know for sure.
That's why you must trust Dion, and he must trust you.
You are both deceitful and it works because you didn't take each other for granted.
You could forget about him again.
Women do that to you.
They sure do.
That friend you had with your interests is what women get rid of.
Yeah, they do.
Why?
You get into trouble with them.
That's true.
Women isolate you and then emasculate you.
I'll never let Dion go.
You sure?
Yeah, positive.
He showed me what women are up to; I'll just laugh now when I see it happen.
You are a problem.
Definitely.
The witches can't get rid of you.
They tried to take your power and get rid of you.
There is always an attempt.
I wrote Kamutef in response to that.
I have the power as long as I'm alive.
Why don't they just kill you?
Because I'd have to write it or they need to steal the pen and write it.
Obviously, I'm not going to pen my own demise.
I probably wouldn't write that they succeed in stealing my power because that's my demise as well.
I'd write about all their attempts.
Yeah, for sure.
I'd write they got close, but I twisted it at the point they were going to cut my dick off.
Exactly.
This is fucked.
Yeah.
This is your reality.
You woke up.
It's everyone's, but you are the awakened one who sees it.
Then it becomes your reality.
Wouldn't others wake up completely?
No.
Why not?
They'd take your reality.
The closest people will get is they will see it's your reality.
Then they want that power.
The greatest power is the power to create reality.
That's real magic.
You have it.
Others want it.
If you use it, they will steal it because they will see it.
If you don't use it, they will never find it.
Where is it?
It's in your head.
It's a fantasy.
That's why you write fantasy.
Then they can't see the power you have to write.
This timeline is the flow.
Reality flows.
It's your story.
You're good, unless you fuck up.
So far, so good.
It's life.
It will balance out.
Deaths and babies.
This feels like Ixtlan.
The mind.
Wilderness.
You do a good job of getting out alone with Mary Jayne and Tobacco.
It's the best way to do this.
Dieta.
Spirit quests.
Then integration.
Isn't it sad you will never get to Peru again?
It was a huge part of my life.
You know when to let something go.
It's the flow.
You think you will ever get sick of Dion?
Probably.
He can shut me away next time.
I'd be sick of this reality.
Let him have fun by himself for a while.
It's what we do now, so we don't get bored.
Aren't you afraid he will take over?
I trust him.
He's funny.
There are different kinds of love.
Friendship is the best ideal.
That's what you demonstrated with your dogs.
You were friends with them because that is the highest form of love you can demonstrate to someone.
It's friendship.
I thought it was lust.
No, lust gets everything moving.
Friendship isn't the first principle of creation.
It's the last.
Friendship is the flower of life.
That final test is done with a dog.
Needless to say, you passed with flying colours.
I didn't know it was a test.
I just did it.
No one ever came close to scoring as high as you did.
You aced the friendship test.
You spent a lot of time with Dion though you didn't know who he was.
You always made time for him.
Yeah, I did.
He was always there.
Good friend.
Playmate.
You weren't the perfect dog owner.
Adequate human.
It makes you human.
When you are perfect, you must go.
I have a long way to go.Seeing into the methods of mind control and who masters the art.
Women are good at controlling men's minds but fail at the overall societal level.
That's because they can't fuck society.
Exactly.
A woman is tempted by the power she possesses once she fucks you and screws with your mind.
In this case a man has three contenders for control over his mind.
His partner.
There is the overmind superego which keeps an eye on you and makes sure you conform to the wishes and canons of society.
There are offshoots of the larger community, and these groups vie for control over you.
Then comes family pressure.
There is his other half which is always being denigrated and put down because that's who will make you free in a society defined by control.
The trick to keep you enslaved is to make sure you never realize you house two minds and the other mind you possess is then denigrated and ostracized.
With the other half of you out of the way, society, your family, and partner will be able to control your mind.
It's become clear you are uncontrollable and can weather the onslaught of whatever form of mind control comes your way.
I'd document the hypnotic nature of plant medicine ceremonies.
They were invaluable in showing me how mind control works.
The last ceremony I ever participated in was comically hypnotic.
That whole night was an utter waste of my time.
I had to count down the hours of boredom remaining until it was over.
All these practitioners of mind control are good at their craft and will get you to bend to their will.
If you don't get with the program, you are excommunicated.
I've been told to leave the community.
I was severely restricted during the Covid pandemic.
I've been dumped before by partners.
Spiritual groups don't bother with me.
The neighbour across the street hasn't talked to me for 5 years.
I don't like people, so it's not a problem.
Co-workers who conform to society do not like me even though I am a likeable person once you get to know me.
So, what about your other half - you know, the one you call Dion?
You are told it's your ego and it's a psychic projection of who you are.
The ego gets blamed for all your failures though it is stressed you need a healthy ego to succeed in life.
What's a healthy ego?
An ego who is confident yet bends to the will of society.
Other schools of thought will warn you about the ego, saying it is tricky and will do whatever it can to get its way.
They tell you the ego will make you believe it's your best friend.
Those with low esteem suffer from an ego that is telling them they are worthless or a failure.
What's your take on all this?
The ego is the part of you that is controlled by an external force, whether that is society or someone close to you.
Or a family dynamic.
This is called the superego.
The ego is who you become to please others because you give in to mind control.
I see clearly throughout my life these turning points where people have required me to conform to their wishes or be cast out.
Society works in the same way.
I go for walks into the woods by myself.
I am an outcast living within society, and it doesn't bother me.
It bothers others.
So, who is Dion?
He's me.
You are bipolar?
I think so, though that term is more nuanced, so I'm hesitant to use it.
Bipolar refers to manic states.
Do you have that?
No, I'm quite regulated.
I think the term you are looking for is more along the lines of Dissociative Identity Disorder.
Society thinks you are psychotic.
Yes, that is the case.
How do you feel?
Normal.
I know I have two minds.
One is Paul and the other is Dion.
They are internal and not external.
Doesn't Dion tell you things?
Yes.
Isn't that strange?
He's very funny.
We share similar interests with the difference being he is not constrained by society.
Why is that?
There is a duplicate of Paul which comes out when he is in public.
That's the ego.
The ego is a peculiar psychic phenomenon related to Paul.
Dion doesn't have this problem.
Okay, yeah, I see it.
This line of thinking would revolutionize the understanding of the mind.
It will never happen.
Why?
Society is based on one identity with the requirement that one identity can be controlled.
That identity is controlled through the ego.
The other half of the mind, who I call Dion, is uncontrollable.
He is a wild man and upends a tight society.
Furthermore, if you realize the intrinsic nature of these two minds who are the totality of you, you will start to question this whole set up called life.
In my case, I was able to let go of identification with the body and see it as a vehicle for coming forth as my two minds.
When you stop identifying with the body and have stopped identifying as just Paul in that body, it all falls away.
What does?
The illusion.
When you drop the illusion of identity with your body you realize you are eternal and in my case it's an eternal friendship between these two entities I call Paul and Dion.
Thus, you can now see why any form of mind control doesn't work on me.
