They tried to physically kill you.
That didn't work.
Later in life they try to mentally kill you.
Who?
Society, culture, all that.
When you are younger and you don't fit in, the herd tries to get rid of you.
You are a danger to society.
When you get towards finishing the game, they try to mentally pressure you to leave.
A corporation exists because of its records, building, and people.
It can be virtual as well.
Without proof it exists, it doesn't exist.
It vanishes.
That's one way to disappear.
Society is hyper-focused on identity.
Without means of numbering and recording you, the system doesn't work.
They give you a name, number, and register you.
Before computers, they would keep a lot of records and count citizens.
It was easier to disappear.
In this reality you need the body, everything else is baggage.
It's personal history that holds you back.
Well, it grounds you.
I know what you're saying in that if you want to be free you would need to drop those attachments.
I see the game.
If you want to be the most high and soar, you would do that.
You can't do it.
Why?
You'll exit.
Becoming that free will lead to your removal from the game.
There's only so high you can get in this world.
It's what spiritual people don't understand.
You must stop at a certain point because if you keep going to Heliopolis you'll exit the game.
Ram Dass knew that.
That might be what you want.
Do you think that's what Parker wanted?
Not directly, but it was certainly where he was headed.
Don Howard was of service which kept him around.
Parker kept losing his opportunities to be of service.
He didn't want to stay.
Do you blame him?
No, subconsciously he did what he did.
Examine your life and you can get an idea of its direction.
What about you?
I don't want to be of service.
I'm tired of the spiritual game.
I got high, really high.
I got to the exit and saw it.
I got really low and saw that one as well.
I've done the Heaven and Hell thing.
I've seen it, and I know what happens when you do that.
To win this game is to get to one of those exits.
It's an impressive feat to do while in the body and not leave.
It's a spiritual accomplishment of the highest order.
People will get recognized for how great a player they are, and then they stupidly leave the game.
You get convinced it's the way to go.
Well, yeah, the pressure to go is insurmountable.
How did you not succumb?
I hate people, I avoided those clowns, and I did nothing.
I'm still here.
Nah, nah, nah, nah.
Do you want to disappear?
I play on the periphery.
Why?
Something to do.
Seriously?
It's a game.
I'm the best.
Paul is the best with help from Dion.
Is that why you don't have a Health Card?
Yes.
I mean you should have one, and it's not a big deal to go get one.
I don't want the identifiable baggage.
I must do my taxes, or they will lock me up.
To be free would mean not to do your taxes.
They will find you and lock you up.
It's a paradox.
To remain partially free is to burden yourself with the overtures of society.
Taxes ground you here in this reality.
You are explaining realities to yourself and how to go between them.
Yes.
When you get the most high in this world you are to exit with no way of returning.
It sucks because you see the game, go through the portal, and can't come back.
You see the game and the power to write your own story, however you left it on the table.
I thought only you have the power?
That is true.
How do others get that power?
They must believe they have it.
They don't believe it until after they walk through the portal and by then it's too late.
This is quite the fucking story.
I couldn't have made this up.
I experienced it and now I'm writing it down.
People won't believe me.
That's fine.
I'm going to end up in the bargain fiction bin.
Perfect.
You have seen the game, you know how to exit the game, and you know what keeps you here.
What about these different realities?
You get high and low and see them.
This ties into drugs and stories.
Yes.
You wanted to examine why you are attracted to Mary Jayne.
She shows you different realities by taking you up high and bringing you down low.
She's a rollercoaster.
I know women like that.
These realities become inviting to your mind and are another way you are pushed towards the exit.
It's part of the aging process which helps you leave when the body fails you.
Got it.
With drugs, you get there before your time.
Where is there?
The doorway to different realities.
Society programs two into you, which are Heaven and Hell.
I see that.
Those are two portals of high and low.
I'm guessing there are more.
Seven would be my guess.
Realities, yes.
There's infinite, but let's go with 7.
The ones at the top and bottom are Heaven and Hell.
Then there are the tweeners.
Can you go into and out of those realities?
No.
They must remain fantasy.
Why?
You will go crazy.
Your mind will be blown.
That sounds like fun.
A mind blow job.
Exactly.
Do you think you can do it?
Yes.
Why?
My mind can handle it.
I did crazy training last year.
So, Heaven and Hell are the exits.
Then there are 5 in-between.
Yes, you are in the middle, so there are 4 alternate realities you can play with.
Do you know what they are?
I have an idea.
There is definitely a reality of witches and sorcerers.
There is a reality of royalty in which I'm the King.
There is a reality of monsters and toxic creatures coming for me.
What else you got?
They are watching me?
That's reality TV, of course they are.
Alright, there is one more.
There are infinite stories, but you can see another one.
It's the Hero one with Odysseus and the Sirens.
You can see that one.
You'll see more.
There's a bovine reality.
Alphas and cows.
People gotta stop using dairy products.
Those hormones will fuck you up.
If you enter into these realities, you can return to ground zero here on Earth.
Is that what people do with drugs?
Yes, that's what makes them crazy.
Your mind can't handle the alternative reality, it gets blown, and you return a waste case.
Where were we?
We were talking about different realities, and how to get in and out of them.
It seems easy, right?
Now that you know, yes.
I don't need drugs to enter into these alternate realities.
Drugs show you the way.
You go into and out of them once you see them.
You turn your world into an alternate reality.
If you wish to view the world as a domain of witches, filter your thoughts and perceptions through the opening in that reality.
Is there a symbolic representation of these realities?
It's in your head.
This reality is in your head.
You are playing along with everyone else in a shared reality.
It's a beast of a reality because everyone is in it for the most part.
Okay, I see it.
It explains a more magical ancient world where beliefs were of these different magical realms.
To get back to that is to make everyone believe that.
Instead, we are all made to believe science and technology will take over.
Individually, you don't have to believe that.
You are free to do whatever you want.
It's the "free your mind and the rest will follow" paradigm.
You can create your own reality.
Which one do you choose?
I think that's the problem.
People choose and they go crazy.
You need variety.
You go in and out.
It feels good to go in and out.
That's one of the underlying themes of the book I'm writing.
In and out.
It's very simple.
In and out, trust, belief, friendship, and getting your mind blown.
Yeah, I've lost count of the themes and games, but this fits.
Huachuma teaches you to let go of the mind.
I see that.
Give it a rest and drink in the beauty.
It's don Howard's recipe for experiencing Heaven on Earth.
That was one of his teachings.
Get to Heaven in this lifetime with Huachuma.
When you expire, you will choose no mind and Heaven.
You think that's a trap.
No, I think it shepherds you towards making a choice.
I'd recommend not making a choice.
Why?
Because you go all in.
The game ends.
If you are tired of the game, then by all means make a choice.
If you want your story to end, make a choice.
If you want your story to continue beyond death, make a choice to live in your mind and create another Hell.
Hell gets a bad rap because it's a place of suffering.
It's just life as conjured by the mind.
It's not evil or demonic as a rule.
You make it so.
How do you make it not so?
Practice no mind when it gets really tough.
Escape the shit when necessary by checking out.
You can always pack up and leave a terrible situation.
If things got really bad for you, pack up and move into the woods.
Are you ready to let go of the game?
No.
Why?
I just figured it out and I'm excited for what is to come.
It will be a while before I tire of this game.
What will happen when you tire of it?
I'll lie down and go to sleep.
Where will you end up?
I won't choose Heaven because that involves giving up the mind.
I won't choose Hell because I'm done with that story.
I won't choose.
Where will you go?
There's limbo, purgatory.
You will still have your mind, so that seems unlikely.
Limbo seems like a place where the decision isn't left up to you.
It's a state of uncertainty.
Are you uncertain?
No, I'm certain that I don't need to make a choice.
It's a cultural imperative that you make a choice, and I have transcended the chains of culture, therefore I know to enter the next phase of the evolution of consciousness without making a choice.
Okay, where will you end up?
I'm thinking of a place where I have a mind and it's Heaven.
The only place that seems to fit that description is Dog Heaven.
Of course.
You'll be God in Dog Heaven.
Exactly.
It all fits.
The stories are fantasy.
Enter that reality and make them come true.
I entertain myself.
I'm not memorable to most.
Peculiar.
I stay undetected.
