mediocrity

The tricks and illusions sent your way were a test to see what are your intentions.

The darkness tried to trip you up many times.

Confuse you.

Offer you power.

Get you enamoured with power, and you forget the whole reason for doing the spiritual trip.

You passed the tests and didn't become mesmerized with your glorification.

You remained mediocre.

That's the key - embrace mediocrity.

You weren't fooled by the trapping of power and the gifts of the spiritual climb.

So, I'm through?

You reached the summit of that climb.

The power is yours if you want it.

Nah, I'm good.

You shouldn't be here.

Like literally, you should be somewhere else.

Yeah, what happened?

Dionysos stopped the story.

Why?

It was getting out of control.

It was going to blow.

Yeah, for sure.

What a clusterfuck.

So, Dion wanted to keep playing?

You both did.

Well, I don't know; I think I wanted to blow up.

I kept walking towards that outcome and Dion encouraged it.

Then he stopped the game at the end of the path.

Seems to be a trust he will do that.

Why did he stop it?

He wanted to see how far you'd go and then when he saw it, he realized you're the one.

I'm Neo.

For sure.

Why would the writer give up a character who is playing the writer?

You are the one who can play the writer.

I can play with the writer and play the writer.

Yes, you're it.

Dion wanted to keep that character around.

Yeah, so now he is going to have that character play God in the sequel.

The character of Paul is great.

Some say the greatest.

God is kind and caring.

What a fool you are.

God knows who he is.

A degenerate?

Of course.

Strange dream last night taught me that in order to escape that reality, wake up.

Don't go back to sleep.

So, if you want to exit a situation or simulation, just wake up.

Well, if you want to get out of the whole mess that means a total awakening which would be death.

Death kills the reality dream.

What if you want to only change part of the dream?

Then you must petition the Devil or God to change your story, so you do that and stay in this reality.

You know to let it be and follow your story because you know it will work out.

That seems to be part of the lesson.

This is all part of your story.

Now you see it, you wake up and are supposed to go.

There are methods for awakening and when you get there then you go.

Except you.

I'm exceptional. 

Fuck, for sure.

You're going to ruin it for the others.

Why?

Because you are still here, and you know the game.

You figure it out and now you are going to tell everyone don't wake up or it's time to go.

I can tell them not to go.

They don't have your mind strength.

They'll go.

So, you will tell them not to wake up.

No, you just send them on a different path like in the labyrinth.

Get them lost for a bit.

That's the secret about the spiritual path.

Yes, it's a killer.

You can look at this as gravy time as you were supposed to go.

Parker is waiting.

Yeah, he went.

He took a lot of psychedelics.

Ram Dass tells a story about an acquaintance who reached that state and blew up.

It was a warning he was issuing.

Ram Dass comforted the dying.

He was a death doula; it was his path of service so he could remain.

He was a bodhisattva.

You spaced out your awakening and then found Mary Jayne.

MJ shows you what's going on.

She took away the confusion of waking up.

It's overtime.

I'm going to go for a skate.

The dream is over, or has it just begun?

Part of the story was waking up in this dream, knowing how to leave the dream, and staying.

The answer to leaving is obvious.

Yes, but for most it's suicide.

Nobody wants that but that's why they do it.

Their minds aren't strong.

You must be able to withstand the tests.

Don Howard never said what those were?

Well, obviously.

They are always looking for the one who can pass the tests.

Neo.

Mediocre Neo is the one.

Whatever happens, happens.

You should be dead.

How would they get you to go now?

You are already awake, and the past is gone by where I was supposed to go.

It's come and gone.

If you do something stupid.

That's a possibility.

In 2024 you were supposed to go, end the dream, and spare others the suffering.

Instead, you let it happen.

I did nothing.

The longer it goes on, the more suffering and revelations.

Yeah.

Oh, well.

Some would want you to end the drama and some to keep it going.

Especially the rich kids.

Do nothing.

Done.

Being alone in the woods mimics waking up.

Everything disappears.

All your troubles, hopes, and dreams.

It was all a story.

You make another story to rejoin your friends.

When your friends start to leave you see it's okay to go.

That's why you make new stories in the dream.

The key to being awake in the dream is to continue making stories.

By default, we do it while sleeping.

While awake you do it to stay around.

I was having a hard time getting to the conclusion of the dream last night and then it kept getting weirder.

Finally, I woke up and then realized it was done.

That dream was telling you about waking up.

The Akhet is where you bridge the two worlds of awakening and dreaming.

We are born in the Akhet and pass there as well.

The Great Goddess holds the keys to transformation.

It's the threshold you cross where the veil is put over you or removed.

Death in the west removes the veil and you see what it was you were doing.

Dreaming a story into existence.

Birth in the east places the veil over you so you don't know it's a dream.

It's a dream.

You can play along now if you'd like.

The danger is over.

What was the danger?

Waking up.

If you pursue meaning in some spiritual quest and you wake up, then you must go.

That's the natural flow of life.

So, I came out of the flow?

Yes.

How did I do that?

You did nothing.

Doing nothing is the flow.

Yeah, how absurd.

The secret to waking up in this world and not going is a puzzle.

An absurdity.

As always you have the answer, and it is to do nothing.

You bypass the natural flow by going with the flow.

Everyone fights death.

When it's time to go, we all try to avoid it.

You didn't avoid any of the signs telling you to go.

Some were literal.

People told me to go.

Yet, you did nothing.

I practiced all my life.

Now, here you are.

I'd almost think I'm invincible.

By doing nothing you can keep the game going.

A stone Buddha is awake and has no stories.

Like being stoned.

Samadhi.

He needs a prince to wake him up.

He's the prince.

I see the problem.

When people see you when you are awake, they tell you to go.

That's why I want to hang out in the woods by myself.

Plus, the animals are friends.

What's the 4 about?

I don't know, I forgot.

Dosage.

Different vibration today.

Yes, good knowledge.

If you take a day off from the lessons, you might miss something good.

Yeah, trust in the flow though.

I mean you'd drive yourself nuts trying to figure out an optimal dose from each day to get that piece of knowledge you are seeking.

What knowledge are you seeking?

I don't know.

I'll know when I see it.

The last stop on the awakening pilgrimage is Heaven's Gate when you are ready.

You went there in 2020, but you hadn't fully awakened.

They were supposed to take you there in 2023 but there was a detour on the day, and you declined the propellant.

That was Dionysos at work steering you past the rocks that were meant to hasten your passing.

You know when you see those events that look like a sacrifice and it now takes a short time to see them, well, the Heaven's Gate sacrifice took a while to see.

Yes, because I wasn't awake and couldn't see it, or see how my magic got me through it.

You avoided it on the 7th leg of the 7 stops while on your 7th trip to Peru.

It was a triple 7 where you should have hit the jackpot of awakening.

Well, I did, and I woke up because I went to the edge, but I never took the leap.

It's the last step.

The flow took me somewhere else.

Yes, that's your story.

You awaken in this world and then you find out that your story was to not only awaken, but to stay in the story.

Is that why don Howard asked about lucid dreaming?

Yes.

He knew that was the answer to the riddle of awakening.

He gave you the answer on the first questionnaire and then when you do the quest you see that's how you awaken and stay.

Did he do that?

Yes, he became of service and tried to be impeccable and give back.

That was his deal.

Who did he make the deal with?

The spirit within he awoke.

Did he know who he was?

He called him the Great Spirit.

He externalized him.

You know the Great Spirit.

Yeah, it's me.

There's nothing special about him except that he is the writer of this drama/comedy/tragedy.

Conceptually, he feels different but that's due to conditioning.

He's me.

Don Howard recognized don Martín knew of the Great Spirit and so he talked highly of him.

When you awaken the Great Spirit, you must externalize him and do what he asks.

I got it.

You awakened him, befriended him, treated him with respect and an equal.

Your studies took you to a place where you realized it was you.

That's how you do it.

You can teach that if you want.

The Peyote people aren't teaching that.

They get you hypnotized to the fire which reveals the Great Spirit.

He's external in their cult.

You are correct in that they give away their power.

That's how I felt that night when I was astounded that people gave away their power.

Yes, because you know that power is within us all and we give it away.

Do you have all the answers?

No.

I have the answers that everyone is looking for.

Plus, you still have your sanity.

Let's not get ahead of ourselves.

beyond mind

The reality I wake into daily is a world of mind. The mind is the great separator and conjures this universe into existence. The mind creates the exhilarating rushes we seek and sends us cratering into the abyss. The mind is God. The mind is Satan. One who does not know the other side of righteousness is cruelty knows not that the dark side of the face of God is the face of Satan. Let that sink in, deny it all you want, condemn me, and cast my prose into the virtual trash if you wish. I don't care. I'll just continue to call it as I see it.

What does it mean to be "awake" from a spiritual point of view? There's no world standard and of course humans will argue anything spiritual to its pointlessness. We will divide up experiences into cultural tribalisms and claim we hold the truth and all else is heresy, promulgated by infidels who must be eliminated. So, yeah, to define being "awake" is problematic.

But what's to stop myself from defining this state of being? Well, nothing really. I'm a spiritual free agent. I don't buy into anyone's system. The great thing about my beliefs is I can see the core of people's beliefs and though they have laid a cultural blanket over these spiritual realizations, I do see so much truth in their objects of worship. The big one for me is Jesus. I see him everywhere. I know him. I'd never worship him in the mainstream Christian sense, but I personally love the guy and my heart is filled with love for Jesus and Mary. I physically feel it, and I have this pull towards the divine pair.

Let me illustrate the love I have for Jesus and Mary in my heart which comes from a deep understanding of what was taught by spiritual masters of a long-ago age. Their teachings are now a curiosity, though the civilization of ancient Egypt is exhaustively studied.

When you engage the heart, you birth a King. The prodigy is the result of the marriage between the divine feminine heart and the divine masculine quickener. The process was called by the ancients, Hieros Gamos - the sacred wedding. The union of Goddess and God creates the child. Christianity is a patriarchal religion and thus proper due is not accorded to Mary, mother of Jesus. The elements of the myth are all present; however, the story is modified to fit the patriarchal narrative. If we go back further in time to the land of the Pharaohs, we can see the same story come forth in unadulterated splendor. Our king is the great god Amun-Re, and all Pharaohs of the 18th dynasty of ancient Egypt maintained a connection to the light of Amun-Re. In the palace of Karnak at Luxor, we find the great precinct of Amun-Re which is dedicated to the god, his wife Mut, and their son Khonsu - the great healer. The goddess Mut is the great mother Goddess, as the hieroglyphic for Mut is the vulture and the symbolic nature is one of motherhood. Mut is mother, and very interesting is the phonetic connection to world languages and the pronunciation of mother. The sacred coupling of the King and his Queen give birth to the healer; the healer is the coming forth of the love of the divine pair. The story becomes even more intriguing when we look into an epithet of Amun-Re. He is the kamutef. Kamutef is the bull of his mother. I have written about this subject previously if you wish to learn more about it as I won't go into detail here. Kamutef points towards an incestuous relationship between Amun-Re and his mother in order to produce the child, who is the coming forth into this world of the god. Cultural prohibitions make us squeamish of the taboo but to the ancient seeker of wisdom, they were more interested in spiritual truths and not distracted by Netflix, so they produced many wonderful contributions towards an understanding of what this mortal experience is all about. Let's go back to the mother goddess as a vulture. Lost in the sands of time is parthenogenesis. The female vulture was thought to give birth to the world without the need of the masculine. Aha! The concepts of maya and of the virgin birth are laid bare. The Parthenon of Athena in Athens of ancient Greece reveals its mystery. The connection by Plato of Athena to the primordial vulture of this parthenogenesis in ancient Egypt, the goddess Neith, is unveiled. I wrote a long blog post about this called, "weaving the rich tapestry." It's some of my finest work, though without an understanding of the ancient Egyptians, it comes across as a difficult read! Anyway, within the post I wrote this about Neith:

"Neith weaves the rich tapestry, this garment the all. The shuttle she wears is symbolic of not only the weaving of the universe but also has associations to the linen bandages that encase the mummified. In addition, she had warlike attributes as she could be represented with the bow and arrows. This aspect contributed to her masculine aspects with the act of releasing the arrow carrying allusions to the masculine sexual act. Curiously, the writing of her name in hieroglyphs contained within it the determinative of an ejaculating phallus giving rise to the aspect of her that contains not only the mother but the power to enliven the seed within her."

Yes, the goddess Neith who is said to be the Great mother goddess, gives birth to the light as Amun-Re. Amun-Re impregnates his mother and gives birth to the son. This is how the concept works. Khonsu is the coming forth of the love between Mut and Amun-Re. The great healer is love and thus all demi-god Saviours of religions who owe their heritage to ancient spiritual masters, teach love as the way and the light towards healing and salvation.

So, what does it mean to be awake? I'd call it lifting the veil. You see through the game and start to clue into why you are here. Being awake doesn't mean you have all the answers; however, when you see your predicament with a newfound clarity, the answers to life's riddles start to unravel. Being awake lets you see the immense suffering and understand why there is suffering. The atheists cry, "If there is a just God, why is there so much suffering? Why does a small and innocent child get stricken with cancer? Why would He let that happen?" Suffering is the denominator of desire and the impetus for change. Without suffering, our seeking of pleasure would bring us into a utopian bliss of stasis and thus pleasure must have the elasticity of pain. A world of duality bakes the suffering into the cards. The chance fulfillment of desire in a biological form came with its inherent risks but we all wanted a roll of the dice. I'll take the hit of the drug and put off the reckoning, with interest, until later. This is how the earth game works.

Being awake allows you to understand all suffering is grace. It doesn't mean you don't do what you can to help relieve suffering. You see, the earth is a place for people to suffer and there will always be suffering. Suffering will never be stamped out. If you are awake, you see that the death of the biological form will allow you to escape your imprisonment in a land of suffering. If you are selfish, then you would seek death because you see through the game and are going to check out.

Being awake allows you to see beyond the mind and when you do the clarity of your heart is undeniable. You see the Garden of Mary and all she has created. And then you see her son and eternal flame Jesus and know that he is the essence of who she is. Jesus is love who has come forth. El Corazón de Jesús! The eternal pair is within and comes forth when you are awake and enter into the heart space. The heart space sees the suffering and propels you into service. One who becomes of service to Mary and Jesus in Buddhism would be called a Bodhisattva. A definition of such a being, pulled off the internet, is such: "A Bodhisattva is one who is able to reach nirvana but delays doing so out of compassion in order to save suffering beings."

The definition still puts a Western concept of salvation onto such a being. I'm not sure of the idea of "saving" anyone. There's no eternal damnation but there is desire. If I wanted to help someone full of wants to be "saved" I might point them towards Tantra and have them burn through all their desires in order that they may turn the page on suffering. Carrying desires with you into the afterlife will indeed attract you once again to the carnival called earth. And the suffering will be repeated. For sure, this is a form of cyclical damnation, though hardly eternal. Eventually, all tire of the amusement park! To be eternally damned would be a result of your own damn self being a glutton for punishment. Even the soundest sleeper will eventually wake up.

I am aware I'm casting a shadow upon the playground of Pachamama. I'm equating what she has bequeathed her children to the Christian hell. We have collectively made it hell. I said it before, and I'll reiterate - you're in hell. A hell of our collective making. Take a sober look around you, watch the news, read the papers, and try to tell me it's not so. Once you see it, you'll never un-see it. Better to remain ignorant of your predicament and pretend this earthly existence is a rung above hell. If you see it, then comes the question: What did I do to deserve to go to hell? Desire is the answer you are looking for.

Luckily, the questioning will eventually lead you back to the machinations of the mind and the inherent duality conjured by the great magician. You see with clarity the hell world of suffering brought forth is buttressed by its opposite, which we call heaven. The enlightened being does what they can to relieve the suffering and the degradation of our home in order to lead us to heaven. A further questioning of this strategy reveals it is not heaven we seek, as heaven is another dualistic construct. Through suffering and struggle we find the heart, our mother. We see the heart path to the central axis mundi of our spiritual family, and in tears of joy return home.

liber pater

I could proffer you some advice if you are to go off in search of meaning, answers, enlightenment, a spiritual journey, or whatever you wish to call it; the guidance would be straightforward: your first stop along the path is liberation. Free yourself from culture and expectations; plus the old story and baggage you haul around. Like countless others, I didn’t do that and subsequently had to re-trace my steps and work to become free. I made my climb long and difficult due to a constant struggle with letting go of expectations, image, and self. All these chains and traits are the product of human social constructs that bind you to their mental prison.

 

From a wider perspective, you can see the chaos and breakdown happening within society, can’t you? As humans, we long to be free but don’t know how to go about getting liberated. In the mythic Greek literature, Dionysos is an outsider and he arrives from a foreign land. He’s an enemy of order and is embraced by the malcontents and those in opposition to structured society. He is scorned, derided, and chased away. Dionysos’ arrival on the scene gives you permission to be free. Everything becomes fluid. Where does hermaphroditism, gender identity issues, and the questioning of the social fabric we hold dear come from? Everyone is puzzled. Ask the Greeks - they intimately knew a god named Dionysos the libertine who would always pay a visit, especially when order became oppressive. Do you fight it or just observe? Are you concerned or smiling?

 

Dionysos is always coming to destroy order, whether that be society or your nice and tight life you have crafted. We men build and champion order and like a good Jenga game, the structure eventually gets knocked down. It’s the natural flow of the universal vibration common to all and we get pulled along. Culturally and individually, we face the dissolution of all we try so hard to maintain. It’s constant and really hard work protecting and ordering order. Seriously, you have to work at it or literally go to work, earn money, and use that money to keep your life together. Doing nothing leads to collapse. Funny how that works. I sat with that truth and finally realized I’m motivated to go to work because I’m addicted to order. I know I am because when I overdose on conformity and order, Dionysos always returns and questions me. I subsequently follow him on some kind of adventure to escape this hell I create for myself, all emanating from a proclivity towards order. Hell is spawned because of my pathological need to maintain order.

 

My life has been a struggle between these two polarities. I am constantly frustrated that I can’t maintain my facade and always drift back into some sort of hedonism or chasing of a thrill. I define it as a problem, unable to accept the flow. I’m pulled towards the liberation which I seek, yet I fight it and try to maintain order. I walked past a homeless person the other day and the voice inside me whispered, "he is free." I could not deny it. Think about that for a second. Freedom isn’t glamorous. As a society, we offer the dispossessed shelter and food which they accept but they don’t fall into the societal trap of having to earn a living and eventually go back out into the streets. Why don’t they want to play our game of social conformity? We can clean them up and get them a menial job. It’s mental illness we reassure ourselves, as we take great pains to not look into our own mirror of self because we might question our own sanity for the game we are playing. So, we try even harder to offer social services to invite the homeless back into our game. The plight of the homeless, unbeknownst to them, validates our life choices. We need them more than they need our handouts.

 

Ultimately, liberation involves dissolving all boundaries, letting go of attachments, and returning to the chaos always knocking at our door. You can taste liberation in this lifetime; I have and it’s sweet. I’m talking about being on a boat on the Amazon river forgetting about the worries of life and just being so goddamn high and in love. Being free allows you to finally exhale. I’ve learned it’s only the appetizer. To go all the way to Liber Pater involves dissolving the idea of who you are. Carlos Castaneda said erase personal history. Basically, kill your identity in order to be free. This expression brought me back to said boat ride in February in the grasp of Huachuma when Dionysos appeared in the clouds and he kept telling me this very same idea. Fuck me and my failure sometimes to listen to the plants.

 

On the boats heading off to the main Amazon river to visit the Murui Huitoto tribe I was so into the medicine and as high as the clouds. I was flooded with two sayings that summed up my bliss of forgetting who I was and how I was expected to act:

 

“Kill yourself in order to live.”

“The pious can go to hell.”

 

My intention revolved around learning now to stay in that high and loving state all the time. I sure got that answer and more all laid out for me. When I drank in the beauty of nature, of friendship, of the awareness of the wonderful world around me I was drunk in that state of bliss. When I engaged the mind at all it was clear that was the hell world. My thoughts went dark, I came down, I worried about the future, I wondered if I had the strength to complete this journey and so on. It was very unsettling. It was clear that it was a choice whether to live in hell or heaven and not even all that difficult a choice. Hey you! Give your mind a rest. The old “Be Here Now” choice; just live in awareness without spinning any thoughts or ideas.

 

I put this revelation off for a bit and here we are eight months later with the integration process challenging me and asking for a reconciliation with freedom and mastery. Castaneda writes about making yourself unavailable while erasing personal history. The reason for this line of thinking is primarily liberation. Having a history, means expectations of behaviour, and living a lie. Acquaintances and culture can manipulate you like a puppet because you don’t want to deviate from the identity you have created. If you have left nothing for these constructs to grasp onto then you can act independently. That’s one way through however for most of us our personal history is our life we have created. Sure at times we feel trapped but I would hazard to guess most of us don’t want to blow up our whole backstory and be left holding a big bag of nothing. That seems pretty extreme. It brings to mind the role of the Bodhisattva, a holy man who has seen through the game but re-enters into the game in order to help others see through it. It’s a noble call of service.

 

After seven years of plant medicine use, the information provided doesn’t upset me anymore. By this assertion I mean that when I first drank and met these archetypal spirits I was frightened and in awe of their presence as well as my newfound ability to lift the veil and peek into this obfuscated world. Now, I am able to listen and study the wisdom being offered. “Kill yourself in order to live.” Yeah it’s metaphor, don’t worry, I know that. My teacher has a twisted sense of humour. When I first drank plant medicines and he scared the shit out of me, he told me if I kept drinking the medicine and stayed on the path eventually I’d walk into the direction of an oncoming train and kill myself. I remember vividly that conversation with my shadow because he told me to stop drinking plant medicines, go home, and don’t ever come back. Live out your life, grow old, and don’t question existence. I left the jungle and he followed me home and harangued me; trying to put the final nail in the coffin so that I wouldn’t continue on this path. I did come back and I know my shadow now has a great deal of respect for me. I’m pretty sure he figured I was a weakling. Ha! I sure fooled him.

 

Seven years later, I can finally see what he originally meant by walking in front of a train and killing myself. It was metaphor as well, however at the time it was used to make me question this path I had embarked upon. I had to understand why I wanted to continue. I now sense he doesn’t readily accept students, as suggested by the fear induced and threats of death hurled my way. The adventure and chance at knowledge was too great to keep me away. Now here I am, standing on the train tracks. I understand what he was telling me. If you want to be free, you got to let the story go.

 

I see similar paths of earned respect with human teachers. For instance, my flesh and body teacher, don Howard, was very accepting to anyone who was sincere about walking this path. And I think he was genuinely surprised and happy when someone returned for another go around in the wringer of plant medicines. It’s very difficult and takes commitment but I remember just showing up again and I could feel the respect growing. There’s something divine about just showing up and facing the head wind of adversity, not knowing the outcome. Don Howard knew what it takes, what you are going to face, and have to choose. He let you progress at your own pace and had your back. I love that man.

 

How do I get liberated? It’s through mastering the self. That means all the attachments, desires, and pull of culture that call out to you are mastered. You become the King of Selfdom. You cannot ever defeat these challengers, that’s a tough one to learn, however you can rule them. After the continual frustration, you will learn this secret and that puts you on the path towards liberation. The only way to do this is to investigate the darkness within. Chasing the high will will never allow for a reconciliation with all.

 

There is a difference between liberation and enlightenment. Beginners in the world of spiritual seeking hear much of liberation and enlightenment. Spiritual enlightenment without liberation is still beholden to cultural expectations of religious experience. You know what I mean, don’t you? It all begins with being free. It’s the foundation upon which everything must rest. In order to love unconditionally, you have to begin from the tract of being free. Free of conditions. To become free you give up judgment. You give up conceptions of right and wrong. You give up morality. Free means free. Sounds crazy, right? Murder is immoral. Being free naturally extends to wanting others to be free. Being free would mean not imposing upon others. Murder is an act of imposing your will upon someone as a last resort because you couldn’t control them. Frustration on this spiritual path I have chosen could have been avoided if I would have went into the darkness of self to begin with and reconciled that part of me. The high would have been tempered with the low and I could have seen where I was at.

 

I have to admit though I wouldn’t change this journey for the world. Everything that has happened has been perfect. It has all contributed to my growth. Through these trials and frustrations, I have been pressured and forced to find answers. The natural inclination is to wave a spiritual wand and reach the highest highs without having to work for it. You know, take a pill or drink a cup of brew and find that elusive enlightenment. My difficult journey, on the other left hand, has been perfect.

racism

The answer to the problems in the world we are struggling with is within each of us. It’s consciousness or lack thereof. It’s found in the lens we choose to wear when viewing the world. It’s whether we choose to see separation and division or whether we see similarities and unity. Once again Ram Dass has a teaching that helps with the difficulties or comprehending what we are all experiencing at this moment in time. Delving into the meaning of this name Ram Dass he was given by his guru, it means servant of god and it is in the form of the monkey Hanuman that he serves god as Ram. The central teaching to understand is we are all god or to put it another way we are all one and it is through this remembering of unity that our consciousness is raised and we can lift ourselves out of the hell we create when we are ignorant of who we are. Hell is created when we engage the mind and use it to delineate and objectify which creates separation. Sports are a prime example of dividing human beings up into teams, pitting those teams against one another, and then watching the division boil up into outbreaks of fighting and brawls. Violent conflict is within our nature and the outcome when we separate.

Hanuman exists to serve god, in essence all of us, in order that we awaken to our divinity. Hanuman chooses to not merge with Ram in order that he may continue this work of awakening, similar to the Buddhist idea of the Bodhisattva, who after reaching enlightenment returns to teach and serve others. When we live in the world seeing everyone as separate than there is suffering, hence why Maharaj-ji, Ram Dass’ guru, says suffering is grace and it is all perfect. The suffering is the impetus behind learning there is another way or another reality of consciousness that will allow us to transcend this modality. If you look back on your life it is easy to see that through suffering, or trials and tribulations, are where we learned the most and made change possible, if not a necessity. Ram Dass in seeing he is to serve god, which is all of us, would see collectively we are not at that point where we understand who we are and so instead of proclaiming suffering is grace and it is all perfect, alternatively offers to help. That’s what we can do. How can I help? How can I be of service? The most help we can offer is to promote unity. As Maharaj-ji said, "It is deception to teach by individual differences and karma. See all the same. You can't realize god if you see differences."