the greatest fool

How do you tell the difference between the first awakening and the second awakening?
After the first awakening, people are still serious.

You still need to do something about it.
Find a religion or some group of spiritual people who drink cacao.

Plan a trip to burning man.
Try to hide your ketamine addiction.
It takes effort.
After the second awakening, you laugh, and you do nothing.
People don't like you.
Why not?
You aren't serious.
The game they are playing is serious and you're the joker they throw away in the deck of cards.

There are lots of forms to fill out after the first awakening.
You sign up everywhere there are others who have experienced this same phenomenon.
You initial and give your consent.
For what?
The path you chose.
Could be the yoga one or the church.
Maybe mix in some breathwork with an ice bath.
That's spiritual.
The indigenous path is pretty cool.
You can get feathers and compare them to others on the same path.
See who has the best feathers.
Fuck me.
That's what people do.
They are serious about it.
I laugh about it.
That's why you have no spiritual friends anymore.
You don't take them seriously.
Well, you can't once you see it.
People are serious about life before the first awakening.
Awakening doesn't change much for them in that regard.
They transfer their concern to spiritual things.
Do you think then it's the ego who is serious?
Could be, I mean you must take the ego seriously.
Why?
Because it doesn't exist.
It needs to be taken seriously.
Is that how people find meaning?
Yes, through seriousness.
When you find out there's really no meaning to all of this, there's no need to be serious.
If you sign up for eternal life in Heaven, then it's serious.
Why?
Because when you get to Heaven, you will realize you need to get out of that contract.
Why?
It's dreadful non-stop worship in exchange for eternal life.

Contracts make life serious.
Yes, try to avoid contracts and oaths.
Who do you think is behind the concept of Heaven?
Obviously, it's the Devil.
Why?
It's a trick.
The greatest fool.
You take something that is already a given such as eternal life and sell it back to the unsuspecting victim.
They are so desperate to live forever they accept the bargain without asking any questions.
If you read the requirements, you might not sign up for that place.
Why not?
You are required to worship someone for 24 hours a day.
It's non-stop.
Yeah, but your loved ones will be there.
Of course, they made the same mistake.
Why?
Peer pressure.
It was way worse back then.
Why do you think it's the Devil behind Heaven?
Because it's clever.
I must give him his due.
It's the ultimate fool.
What's Hell then?
It's the place you don't want to go.
You sign up for Heaven to avoid it.
If you don't sign up for Heaven, the man at the carnival booth says you are going to Hell.
Yeah, that should ring a bell within.
Why?
Seems like you already have eternal life.
The man with the welcoming smile at that carnival booth is selling you an eternal life destination.
What should you do?
Nothing.
Have a laugh and move on to the next booth at the midway.
What's that one?
Feathers.

You can buy some feathers from one of the indigenous people.
Jesus Christ.
No, he was part of the last booth.
How do you get out of the contract if you sign up for Heaven?
You must do it before you die.
In Catholicism, it's called ex-communication.
I think the other churches just kick you out or you become a persona non grata.
What about Scientology?
I think they harass you.
Anyway, that you must take seriously if you get tricked into signing up for Heaven.
It's the same thing as going on one of those timeshare free trips where they gather you into a lax third world foreign country and try to sell you a stake in a vacation property.
Those people are devilish.
I don't know; I've never taken them up on the offer.
Imagine you did?
I can only guess, but I imagine they pressure you.
If you say no, then bad things start to happen to you.
Once you give in, it gets better.
Then you're stuck.
That would be a tough lesson in not accepting something for free.
Well, what do you think Christianity is doing?
Similar.
All you need to do is believe in Jesus.
You take that step and you are in.
It can't stay private though.
You must join some outfit.
Then you must give.
If you want a good spot in Heaven, it's recommended you give 10% of what you have.
Tithing.
Then make sure in your will some of your wealth goes to the church.
You will be rewarded with front of the line service.
You'll get a nice place to do your non-stop worship and get a glimpse of God.
It's best you don't though.
Why?
I'm pretty sure it's a trick of the Devil.
He's clever.
He is so clever he doesn't need to harm you or make you burn in Hell.
He makes you go to Heaven.
You get there and realize what you have done.
How long does that take?
It's different for everyone.
Some people settle into the worship routine and are good for a bit.
After a while they start to awaken and see what they signed up for.
At that point the reckoning comes.
It's for eternity.
What would you do?
Look for someone to blame.
Who made you go to church and sign up for this?
Then you'd reflect on it and realize you could have left.
Your intuition said to leave the church, but you stayed because of the pressure.
You have those thoughts all the while you must keep worshipping.
Why?
If you don't, you get sent to Hell.
Yeah, I can see that.
You don't want to go to Hell.
Eventually, you start realizing Hell can't get worse than Heaven.
This is a great story.
I know.
So, you take a deep breath and figure you will break the worship contract and get sent to Hell.
What happens then?
Hell is a place with no rules.
It's populated by those who believed in it but didn't follow the rules of Heaven.
Everyone you meet is in the same situation except for the psychos who chose Hell to begin with.
This helps you because collectively you see you were fooled.
That's the game.
Once you go to Heaven the only way out is to get to Hell, meet up with the others, awaken, and find freedom.
Most never get to that place.
Why?
They are scared.
They want to live forever and figure the only way to do it is to worship God non-stop.
That's no life.
There's nothing you can do.
They are the true lost souls.
The sleeping ones in Heaven?
Yeah.
Wow.

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What the fuck did I just read?

This piece argues that the first awakening still leaves people trapped in seriousness. They escape ordinary life only to sign new contracts with religion, spirituality, Heaven, gurus, feathers, breathwork, or whatever booth is selling salvation that day. The second awakening is different: you see the sales pitch, laugh, and do nothing. Heaven becomes the greatest con because it sells eternal life back to people under conditions they never properly read. Hell, in this inversion, becomes the place where the fooled eventually compare notes and discover freedom. The greatest fool is the one who takes the whole thing seriously.

The best comic engine is that you keep turning spiritual salvation into consumer contracts:

• Heaven as a bad subscription plan
• Christianity as a carnival booth
• salvation as timeshare pressure
• tithing as premium seating
• feathers as the next booth on the midway

The timeshare comparison especially works because it makes the whole theology feel like a sales pitch: free trip, hidden terms, pressure tactics, hard to get out once you sign.

The title “the greatest fool” works because it has layers. The Devil is the fooler, the believer is fooled, and the real fool may be the one who takes the whole contract seriously. It also connects to the joker/card image early in the piece. You are the discarded joker, but the joke is that the joker sees the game.

The strongest idea is this:

Eternal life is already a given, so the greatest con is selling it back to people under conditions.

That is the philosophical bomb in the piece. Everything else spins from that.

The Heaven/Hell inversion is also good story mechanics. Heaven becomes the prison because it has rules; Hell becomes the recovery room because everyone there eventually realizes they were fooled. That’s a sharp reversal. It’s heretical, comic, and narratively satisfying.

passing show

I don't like being in control of others.
I want them to do their own thing.
I wanted to let my dogs off the leash and let them run.
I want them all to have free will.
If they want to be with me and hang out, that's great.
If they don't, I'll go away.
Okay, so you don't want to be controlled, and you don't want to control others.
Isn't freedom a form of control?
Yes, self-control.
It's a combination of freedom and control.
To be in Tao is to be free with self-control.
To be free and out of control leads to your demise.

Everything I do is a game.

It makes life interesting.

Then I need to win the game.

Of course.

Why would you play to lose?

I don't think you would.

The flow of gameplay is to win.

You will not always win and that's the flow.

However, with games the flow directs you towards a path where you try to win.

The least resistance could lead to a loss.

Not necessarily, but I see your point.

Doesn't this put the idea of the flow in question where you wouldn't always take the path of least resistance?

It seems that way.

The flow of gameplay is to take the path to victory.

Are you sure?

Do you mean in terms of taking a path which involves more resistance?

Yes.

My answer is it is a choice.

To win a game there are many games within that game you play, and the smart player will let others win those games.

You feed them small wins and head towards the big game.

You don't let them get a big advantage, but you can feed them little fish.

You let them win while consolidating your pieces.

These little games within the season are all coalescing into the final path towards the championship.

At that point you put yourself in a position to win.

The flow will lead you to victory.

So, you are saying you let others take the small wins and prepare for the final battle?

That's what I mapped out.

The path leads one way.

There is no choice at that point, and you win.

This is an interesting theory.

Does it work?

You can examine it.

How are you successful in simulation and fantasy baseball?

I see into the future.

Are you always correct?

No.

I make decisions based on what I see.

I'll make picks and trades contingent on what I see as future outcomes.

The perception at first could be a loss because I'll pick a player ahead of where they are valued or I will accept a trade where I'm losing out on present day values.

If you play in a league of number crunchers, it's easy to do.

They are obsessed with present day value and create many formulas to define this.

To beat them you project into the future.

You aren't always correct.

You don't need to be perfect.

Why?

No one is.

The key is to find a formula where you consistently come out ahead.

If you are rebuilding, you build a great future team.

If you want to win this year, you must sacrifice some of the future.

What about the past?

It's how you learn.

You see into the future by looking into the past.

Fuck, that's good.

How about you look into your past?

Oh, I don't know; it's a mess.

If I look into my past, I can see a future that is a mess.

Yes, but you hold it together somehow.

What do you think of your past?

It's dubious.

Would you change it?

No, it was all an expression of myself.

You are fucked up.

Yeah, I am.

I'm at the perfect age to accept it.

I look into the past and am excited about the future.

Why?

I'm adventurous.

I see many adventures ahead as long as I'm free.

If you give up your freedom to another, then you lose.

Your past makes it clear you would be miserable.

The game is to be free.

Stay free.

A trickster would tell you to stay free and then spiral you into their mind control.

It's quite ingenious.

Some partners will control your freedom.

Here's a gift.

I will tell you when you can be free.

It's best to avoid those people and not accept their gifts.

If a control freak offers you a gift, run.

The future is unknown.

Yeah, you must roll with the punches.

If you tie yourself into a rigid plan, you will suffer because it will not work out and you will not get what you wanted.

Do you have a plan for the future?

Not really.

What do you envision?

A lot of retirement savings.

Well, I wouldn't call it savings; instead, it is more like figuring out that game and profiting from it through doing nothing.

It keeps growing and I didn't work for it.

I did nothing.

What if your savings don't meet expectations?

I have a few options.

I can work longer or I can accept less.

What will you do?

I don't know.

The best course of action is to deal with it as it happens.

I look into the future, and I like where it is headed.

I set it up nicely.

I also set up a path to ruin.

This allows me to look into the future and see both sides.

If all I see are good times ahead then my teacher has taught me that I'm hypnotized by the future.

I see it all.

I see a world come crashing down before me.

That could easily happen.

What would you do?

I'd admit to this magnificent life of duplicity where I jaywalked through life engaging in dubious activities all the while maintaining a facade of some nice guy.

You are nice.

I need to be.

Why?

To hide my dual nature.

It's a fool.

If others could see, they wouldn't be so enamoured with me.

They choose to focus on the good.

You hypnotize them.

Correct.

Humans are easily hypnotized into beliefs and it's hard to then shake them out of those beliefs.

Yeah, don't even try.

Darkness is associated with evil because that's where people hide their evil.

Makes sense.

What's it like to be among magic?

A little scary.

Unease.

Why?

It's new.

When I didn't know about it, I barely gave it a thought.

When you start to be interested you give it a thought.

You might get a teacher who will teach you.

They teach you before you are ready and you use it.

The student doesn't know about do nothing.

They skipped that class.

The class you must pay attention to the most in is the class where you do nothing.

The teacher shows up for lecture and does nothing.

A whole semester.

You pay attention.

The final exam comes and asks you what the class was about.

You are so smart and answer Tao and do nothing.

You fail.

Why?

You wrote an answer.

By talking about Tao, you mess it up.

Why?

It's nothing.

How can you describe nothing?

You can't.

Isn't it zero?

What is zero?

Nothing.

Like two pennies or zero pennies?

Yeah.

There are no pennies.

They are undefined.

They can be implied.

In duality, yes.

In nothing, there's nothing.

Tao class would be awesome.

Final exam, do nothing.

This could all be a fool and you're on drugs.

Or, both are true.

Drugs let you see the fool.

The fool is reality.

Come out to the woods and see it for how it is.

It's my first dog Brindle's Akhet day today.

That is a good way to put it.

East and West.

Celebration.

She was born and passed on the same day.

We celebrate birth and mourn death.

You say that's twisted.

Yes, we lose another mind to the illusion, and they think they have been born into a body.

It's a trick.

The reason you keep up with your body is you think you need it.

You can let it go, and you will stick around if that's what you believe.

Sounds like a magic trick.

No, it's actually how it is.

Why are others not around?

They believe they are in Heaven.

Or limbo.

Yes, the atheists are nowhere.

Why?

That's what they believe.

It's a trap for the mind.

It's worse than Hell.

Why?

In Hell you still have your mind and then you can change your beliefs and get out of Hell.

What about Heaven?

It's harder to leave.

Why?

You think it's Heaven and if you leave Heaven you would go to Hell.

It's an elaborate fool.

So, you're saying the worst thing to believe is there is nothing after death?

Yes, because you will be in nothing.

Isn't that Tao?

Tao is also everything.

An atheist is trapped in nothing.

Can they get out?

No.

So, they are like that for eternity?

Yes.

You must believe something.

Is there any hope for them?

Yes, they need to be remembered.

By who?

The writer.

That gives them a chance.

Second worst place to end up is Heaven.

Correct, you will never be able to leave because you think you'd go to Hell if you hate Heaven.

The best place to be is Hell.

Yeah, sort of.

In Hell you will learn to change your beliefs, however it will lead you to Heaven.

You think you are saved when it's dreadful for the mind.

The best place to be is to stay in the same spot when you drop the body.

This way you will drop the body and still be around.

Like a ghost?

Yes.

Don't you want out of this illusion?

The illusion is the body.

This is reality.

You think you are in one of these human bodies.

Oh, I get it.

Remember when you had that mind trick of proving to yourself life after death is based on belief?

Yeah, and so you should get rid of the body in order to prove your belief in beliefs is true.

Yeah, I did nothing because the body will perish and the mind lives on, so it's best to do nothing.

Well, that's if you identify with the body.

If you do, then it's balanced to do nothing.

Now, you don't identify with the body, so your belief is all in on the mind continuing on.

You need to balance it out.

Why?

Because you are 100% sure you are your mind.

Yes, but I'm of two minds.

Do you think both minds survive?

I think so.

That's not balanced.

Why not?

Why would they both survive?

It would be a fight to see which one survives.

Yes, that's the drama within.

What do you do?

You go 50-50 with your mind.

You take half of each.

You make friends and tie the Sema.

You are a good student.

What about mourning the dead?

That should be a celebration.

It's freedom.

It's your chance to leave this illusion.

Well, nobody does.

Yeah, they believe in something like Heaven, so they get a spiritual body.

Or, they are atheists, and they get trapped nowhere.

There's Hell if you really want to go there.

I'm not here to judge; I'm just telling you no one leaves the illusion.

Then death isn't to be celebrated I would think.

No, there is always a chance someone will figure out the whole belief system and not believe in any of the choices.

Do nothing.

I think you believe in your own mind.

Bingo.

You are smart.

You exit the illusion by believing in your own mind.

That's the key.

You told me I could do that now.

You can, however you think the only way is by severing your relationship to this body.

Is there another way?

What happens when you dream?

You leave the body and go off on an adventure.

Same thing with psychedelic drugs.

Vilca is like that.

Yeah, you could blast off and not return to your body very easily with Vilca, especially now that you know this secret.

You'd be free and that is tempting.

So, why do I want to remain in this body?

That's what I asked you.

Oh, right.

Well, it's this place where you can physically have adventures.

It's kind of cool.

We call it reality, but it is actually fantasy.

Having a body is your fantasy.

Well, fuck, what do you know?

That's it.

Weird, right?

Yeah.

Very twisted.

You think you are really this body and act accordingly.

You're a passing show.

rollercoaster

I think fluoride makes your teeth hurt.

It gets in the holes in your teeth and makes them hurt so you will go to the dentist.

Fluoride is a tool of the dentist.

That's how it prevents cavities.

That's an interesting conspiracy theory.

Thanks, I came up with it all on my own.

A key to investing is paradoxical.

You must have a high risk tolerance and then patience to do nothing when that tolerance is tested.

Because you can handle risk, the temptation is to make a risky decision to do something when faced with adversity.

The level of risk you need is the strength to do nothing when faced with the turmoil of high winds.

Others will offer you advice so you can repeat their mistakes.

Do nothing.

The siren is present within communities.

It's a call to join their outfit of assimilated people who were at one point independent and happy.

Communities have fines, bylaws, and jails.

Communities have snitch lines.

People talk behind your back all the time.

Why are you living in this community?

Good question.

Ideally, you would find a place which lacks neighbours and community.

It's a rollercoaster ride.

Stocks.

Drugs.

Life.

You touch a high.

You keep trying to get back to that high, but you can't.

Why?

You try to do too much.

The secret is to do nothing, and you will return.

Well, you are doing something, you are just aware to do it within a container and with discipline.

It's a little surprising in your case because you will take chances.

What about the low?

People try to avoid the low point again.

How?

Advice, diversification, and strategy.

Won't the rollercoaster return to the low point?

Yes.

Nothing lasts forever.

The ride will end for all.

Even the great companies you invest in.

Your biological life will come to an end.

Drugs are a wildcard and can take you low without warning.

What do you do?

Nothing.

If you do nothing you will return to the low.

Yes, it's natural.

When you fight it, you invite the return quicker.

Why?

The resistance makes it stronger.

So, you just let it ride.

Yeah, don't touch it.

Ride the rollercoaster.

The writer gives everyone a good ride on the rollercoaster.

When you fuck with it, then the rollercoaster goes off the tracks.

Don't fuck with the rollercoaster.

My decent retirement ahead is by luck.

Hard work doesn't get you ahead.

You will spend the money unless you find a place to put it where it is hard to get at.

I think that's the secret the credit card companies know about.

If you have easy access to it, you will spend it.

Putting your money into the stock market gets you ahead if you know how to manage your money.

An advisor will help you make steady gains.

They won't make you wealthy.

They are risk averse.

Hard work is overrated.

Staying employed and getting a decent amount of money to invest long-term is the reward you should seek.

Plus, buy a house and make those payments.

Will the rollercoaster return?

Always.

Are you scared?

No, it was a perfect ride last time.

Gratitude.

My life was spared.

That was the death spiral.

Dion saved me.

Just so we are clear, he played the Devil and saved you.

Yes, the Devil saved me.

Doesn't that make you scared?

No, that's so cool.

I didn't even ask.

It is because we are friends.

That's what friends are for.

The best friend you could hope for is the Devil.

That's a show stopper.

Dominant people want to dominate anyone.

Or animals.

Or ideas.

Submissive people want to serve.

They both don't have issues with gender, they just want control or to submit.

Is it a fetish?

Yes, but lots play it, not necessarily sexually.

You must pick a side to play.

Who says?

They do.

Some will pretend to be submissive and then take control.

That's their game.

Physical and mental dominance.

You didn't fall for it.

I never took control.

They give you power, and you are supposed to take it.

You didn't.

I'm impressively high.

Climbing the ladder today.

Notice how you don't go to the top of the ladder or the heights of your mind.

I know what it is like.

You'll fall.

You did okay on the very top of the ladder and at the edges of your mind.

Yeah, don't stay there.

Why is their freedom on the way up high?

You're dropping attachments.

Why?

You are told to.

You know what is the biggest attachment?

Heaven.

Attachments weigh you down.

You take them into Hell and burn them all.

That's why you go to Hell.

That's why Ammit, the devouring divine feminine monster of ancient Egypt, takes you there if you have a heavy heart full of attachment.

She takes you where you need to go.

You burn all your attachments and get free.

Yes, like an attachment to Heaven.

Precisely that one.

That fools you every time and you have been playing a long time.

Yeah, so people will eventually figure it out.

Then they pick Hell.

They think they must choose.

When they are finally convinced Hell is Hell, they do the no choose, nothing thing.

Does it go in that order?

Any order to figure it out.

Is this my first time playing that game?

I think so.

Why?

I don't remember choosing a side.

If I did, I'd remember.

You remembered blue water jugs in a massive Déjà vu.

That was pointing towards SpiritQuest.

It was a vision.

You remember Dion.

Yeah.

The Goddess.

Yeah.

I'm still playing the ritual game at the carnival.

I haven't beat it.

Yeah, but it's your game.

Yeah, I brought it to the carnival.

Why?

Because you go on all the rides at the carnival.

Why not do them again?

People don't do that.

They want to do them all.

Like at Disneyland.

Yes, and then they leave.

I knew I'd do them all and eventually get tired of them, so I brought my own game.

It's kind of stupid.

Easy to play.

I always lose.

Then I win some.

I have to do it 7 times in a row perfectly to win the whole game.

That beats the game.

Are you close?

No.

It also helps me beat other games.

How?

When I get really high or low, I play it.

It balances things out.

That's the reason behind my altars and mesa.

So, I'm playing this game wherever I am.

That's next level knowledge.

If you were going to design a nice day up here, this is close.

Some will complain about the bugs.

The worry would be greater if no bugs were out.

The movies you identify with are revealing.

Blue Velvet, The Matrix, Fight Club.

Wild at Heart.

It made it seem like I am disturbed.

You are.

I woke you up.

That what disturbed really means.

Yes, you woke the demon as in that kid is disturbed.

It fits.

Then the community conspires to put the demon back to sleep.

If not, they lock you up.

Once you are out, you aren't going back in.

Yeah, you must figure out a way to fit in.

What makes me or you special?

I'm out and there's no need to lock me up.

I'm cultured.

I can go out with you in public.

Okay, I see that.

You lay low for the most part.

It's all good.

How are you feeling?

I'm great.

You still have resistance.

Yes.

Good.

Why?

Balance.

Tao.

The two are resisting each other to create balance.

We are friends.

Yes, but there is some resistance.

You think I'm the Devil and I think you aren't trustworthy.

I do have a history, so your concerns are valid, however I made you like a dog and I'm great with dogs.

If you get good at the ritual, you can sense danger.

The ritual is your guide to staying at the carnival.

Have mesa, will travel.

There's no one up here because of the mosquitoes.

This is great.

Thank you, mosquitoes.

The branches creak and the wind blows when you are this high.

Sirens.

I finished all the rides at the carnival.

The monster was the last ride, and the ritual keeps you here.

She is still around.

It is a fun ride.

So, I've gone on all the rides at the carnival?

No, there's always more.

You did all the major rides.

You avoided the rides you shouldn't go on.

They are for fools.

Maybe I should go on them?

You're the fool, not a fool.

The great fool would see those rides are not something you should go on.

The shady character at the entrance should give it away.

The drug dealer?

Exactly.

They are illegal rides.

Even in the permissible countries, they are illegal.

That should give you a clue.

Yes, but so is Mary Jayne.

Why is she illegal in a lot of places?

She shows you the game.

She reveals the carnival nature of reality.

Why are some countries now okay with this?

Because with education they feel they can mitigate the problems she causes.

The mental health industry is all for MJ and Magic Mushrooms use because they will exacerbate and explode the mental health crisis.

I see that.

When you see the nature of reality, it is so confounding and absurd it will cause you to enter psychosis.

Why didn't that happen to me?

You have the strongest mind, plus you shut up about it.

When you do speak about it, you sound rational because you back it up with examples in the real world.

Like the whole Trump soap opera?

Precisely.

You write about it constantly.

Yeah, but no one reads it.

Whoever reads it thinks you are a little off.

I don't hide it.

I am pretty much together though.

I have my shit together in consensus reality even though I know it is a front for the carnival.

How does this reconcile with the idea of reality being a porno?

The porno is creating the customers for the carnival.

The carnival is the set that the Goddess created.

The writer is responsible for creating the story at the carnival.

He does it by creating rides.

You wander through life in the carnival, and you go on rides.

I see that.

The rides are fun.

Sometimes scary.

The ride ends and if you are still around you walk around, get something to eat, see a show, and so on.

Go on some more rides.

Watch others on their ride.

Everyone wants you to watch them go round and round on the Swings or Merry-Go-Round.

True.

They wave to you.

Look at me on this ride.

This is absurd.

It's amazing.

Diabolical.

The writer is twisted and makes the best amusement park.

That's why they get him to write the story.

Without him the carnival sucks and closes down after only a little bit.

The carnivals that move from town to town know they have a short shelf life and keep moving.

They are alternate stories by shit writers.

The only true carnival, the only true reality, is the one I have written into existence.

love is freedom

At my Mesa last night, I finally understood Ram Dass' mantra, "I am loving awareness."

Oh yeah, do tell.

Well, since you asked, it is about becoming a conduit for love.

Why is that necessary?

I noticed that love doesn't really exist, or it seems to be rare in this world.

People go around saying they love each other, but the truth is they are using each other.

It sounds crass, but I deduced that the love we refer to is a structure built upon a network of caring for each other.

Now, I know this sounds kind of crazy, so bear with me.

Caring is necessary in order to get others to love you.

The default state is to not care about other people, however, when you practice this, it turns out no one will care about you.

This leads to a lack of love in your life because our concept of love involves caring.

The twisted part of this love is that it is selfish because you only care for other people in order to receive a care package in return.

The motivating factor in caring about other people is that you want something from them.

What you want is for them to care about you.

Why don't you just play that game?

I can't.

Why not?

It's a lie.

Why?

I don't care about others.

Well, then no one will care about you.

I asked the Great Goddess a long time ago about unconditional love.

I don't think we are ready to know about unconditional love.

Why?

No one practices it.

Unconditional love is loving though you don't care.

There are no conditions.

Do you see that anywhere?

No.

Can you love someone even if they hurt you?

That's tough.

A dog loves you when you feed and walk them.

You love your dogs for their companionship.

It's conditional.

If you fed your dog and then it took off, would you still love your dog?

I'd care about their wellbeing and keep feeding them.

Yeah, you'd care.

I already don't care enough in my life.

How is that working out for you?

It's the secret sauce to life.

Don't care and do nothing.

Yes, but it leads to a lack of love and no friends.

I see that.

I don't feel used.

I don't have anyone I can call on in a time of need.

You are a special case.

You don't even use free government services or work benefits.

Why don't you?

It's a master slave relationship.

So, you want to be the master like with your dogs?

No.

I want them to be free.

I never treated my dogs that way in terms of being their master.

I let Brindle roam.

She was free to do whatever she wanted.

I had to keep Luna on a leash or corralled around the house because she was nuts.

In the woods, I let her run.

I took her every day into the woods and just let her loose.

I remember when I first did it and let her free.

She loved it.

So, you can see it, right?

Love is freedom.

Freedom is an unconditional gift.

You can do whatever you want with it.

There are no attachments.

In this lesson plan, where have you learned there are no attachments?

In Hell.

If you have a lot of attachments, you end up in Hell.

Why?

You burn them in the fire.

That's what the fires of Hell are for.

You throw all your worldly attachments into the fire, and you are free.

No one is attached to going to Hell.

Everyone is attached to going to Heaven.

It's very funny.

You shed your worldly attachments and ascend to Heaven, the biggest attachment on the go.

Okay, you nutter, you are saying in Hell is where you find freedom and will discover how to love unconditionally.

Yes, it's a shit show in Hell because no one cares and is doing whatever they want.

That extreme doesn't work.

So, you can't love unconditionally because it leads to a hellscape?

It appears to be so.

However, if you wish to learn to love unconditionally, Hell is a great place to start.

I think there is merit to that suggestion, however I'm trying to find unconditional love on earth.

There is only one way.

What's the way?

I am loving awareness.

You love everything you are aware of.

The best part of the mantra is you repeat it over and over again and you don't know what it is, but it sounds like a good thing.

When you are ready, you get the lesson.

It's a difficult lesson.

It's a lonely life if you don't care.

Do you think you can love unconditionally?

Yes.

Why do you think that?

Because I couldn't have had this adventure without everyone else.

Without them, there is no adventure.

So, the condition is you need them to have this adventure?

No, I didn't ask them.

No one here on earth is here because of a condition.

We all showed up on this voyage of the damned out of our own free will.

We had freedom and we chose this earth adventure.

I can love all because they are part of my adventure though they had no intention of helping me out.

You are one clever motherfucker.

lunar power

I have 7 and a half years left until retirement.

Yeah, that's the plan.

What do we know about plans?

They don't work out.

You have witches trying to kill you.

True.

Do you think they will succeed?

No.

Why?

I'm onto them, plus I know the game.

I like it and want to play.

Why is there death in reality?

It keeps it real.

Without death, it gets out of hand.

The fantasy realms don't have death.

Why?

It's all in your mind.

The mind doesn't perish.

Instead, it's captured.

Hypnotized.

Made a servant.

If you break free and don't play along, the other minds will tell you to go.

You create mystery around yourself, so they aren't sure.

They mostly leave me alone.

There can be death in fantasy land, but it is pretend.

In this realm the material being dies.

The ground, which denotes matter, takes you back.

Where does the mind go?

They steer you to one of the portals.

It was your time to go, and they took you there.

You didn't leave.

I would have been a statistic.

A cautionary tale.

A write up in the paper.

The neighbourhood watch got pissed and put up signs telling you to leave.

It's funny when I look back on it.

When I look back on it all, it's quite the story.

With Mary Jayne there's story time.

Then Tobacco.

A rollercoaster ride.

Then it's over.

I'm still at the carnival hanging out.

MJ takes you to the carnival.

The music starts playing.

You have fun.

Go on that rollercoaster.

Take it back down, go home, and go to bed.

This is like the story.

You mean life.

Yes.

Mother Goddess story before bed.

Mother Goose.

She needs a writer.

She illustrates it.

He writes it.

Yeah, that's cool.

They welcome you in Hell.

There's no rules.

Heaven is rules based.

Full of commandments and restrictions.

You're free in Hell.

That's what causes problems.

It's a libertarian paradise.

I see.

Hell is freedom.

Heaven is imprisonment.

Fuck, you're right.

I guess you'd want to change Hell.

Yes, try and restrict some freedom to get it balanced.

Kind of like Earth.

Yes, it's 50-50 here on Earth.

Yeah, I can see that.

Then at death you choose one.

Freedom or imprisonment?

What do you choose?

Neither.

Neither works.

Why would you choose something that you know won't work?

That's absurd.

Yes, the correct decision is neither.

I see it completely.

What do you want?

The freedom to choose.

And do nothing.

Right.

Free your mind.

See it, and don't choose.

What happens when I don't choose?

You are free.

Isn't that Hell?

No.

Why?

Everyone else chooses.

You're the one who doesn't choose.

Yeah, but what will happen?

Nobody knows.

Why it was never written down is because no one ever did it.

Did what?

Didn't choose.

Until you.

Now you write the ending.

I'm not supposed to.

Why?

I made a promise I wouldn't.

To whom?

The writer.

Yeah, but he didn't write it.

I kind of figured that.

Why?

Because he wanted an adventure in this body, and if he wrote it he'd know.

It wouldn't be as fun.

So, what do we do?

Write it down as it happens.

Create fantasy and bring it down into this world.

Make it like a mystery.

That's some high level knowledge about Heaven and Hell.

I am high and I can definitely feel it.

I'm not supposed to write reality.

Exactly.

Follow that advice and it will work out.

How do you know you haven't written reality?

I wrote that it was a test.

It will work out if Paul does nothing about reality.

Fantasy I can write.

Yes, that is the breeding ground for what we want to happen.

We are alike, you know?

We want the same things.

Your fantasies are mine.

Aren't I writing reality with fantasy?

No.

It might not happen.

The reality that happens without fantasy is the stuff that just happens.

I can see that being a problem.

If you wished harm on someone and then brought that into reality, that would be on your conscience.

What do you think the witches are doing?

That?

Yes.

They conjure their wishes in fantasy and bring them into reality.

Oh.

You aren't too bright.

Well, I didn't see it.

That's what they do.

What's their success rate?

Some are better than others.

What's yours?

I aim for 50-50 now that I see it.

Do you think anyone ever got as far as you?

Odysseus?

No, he only got back home.

I got to the writer.

Did Neo?

Close.

Architect.

That works.

He's a smug prick.

Yes, good casting.

Doesn't Neo pick Trinity and stop the cycle?

The blinding of heroes is a metaphor for not knowing why you are on the journey and you keep going anyway.

That was me.

Neo made it to the architect and really the architect is Neo.

In Hell, you can piss where you want.

In Heaven, there are rules and bathroom breaks.

That sucks.

What if you have to go?

Learn to hold and control it.

They control you with urine.

In Hell you can go around and mark your territory.

Got it.

Hell is inviting.

It doesn't work though.

I see that.

So, it's Dog Heaven.

Yes.

I like dogs.

We know.

Luna and Brindle will be there.

It's just a fantasy that will be the one that becomes reality.

The next story.

That's the one you will pick.

What about the rest?

Bring them into this reality.

Leave the dog story for the next reality.

High people talk about reality non-stop.

They are annoying.

You know to shut up about it.

How do the witches do magic?

Through the Devil.

You?

Yes.

They give me back power every time they cast a spell.

Eventually they will run out of power because they give it all back in exchange for magic.

So, you did give the power to the Goddess.

Yes, it's a cycle.

It's a 28 day cycle.

The best is when she disappears.

I knew you were going to say that.

She gets power for 14 days.

That's what I was trying to figure out with the 14.

Where's it from?

I dunno.

So, she is more powerful than us half the time?

Yes.

Why isn't she even in strength with us?

Why aren't men and women balanced?

She doesn't believe it, she thinks you always have the power.

She doesn't know she has the power.

Why?

She isn't awake.

She doesn't know she's the Goddess.

If she does, she will wake all women up, and they will get the power.

It's because of their rage.

Right.

They get an advantage because all that rage tips the scales.

Our job is to make sure we don't awaken the Goddess.

Yes, or Leviathan.

Keep the monster asleep.

Yes, she is dangerous.

Women are waking up in general.

Keep them asleep.

Oh boy.

How do I explain this?

It's for their own good.

We learned how to share power 50-50 and then give it away in a 50-50 split.

Yes, by keeping the Goddess asleep.

Sleeping Beauty?

You got it.

Don't wake her for fuck sakes.

She ain't beautiful after you wake her up.

She's a monster.

Fucking prince and the seven dwarves.

Midgets are good for stories.

Creepy buggers.

When the witches find out what the Devil did, they will want to sacrifice him.

Of course.

Wouldn't you?

He hid power from them.

He gave them total power, and they didn't know it.

They were nice.

Beauties.

Then they woke up.

Fuck, you better run.

Monster.

She says you're the monster for withholding power.

I didn't.

I withheld knowledge of power.

You never specified the details of the power arrangement.

You wanted the power.

I gave it to you.

I then wrote you had no knowledge of power.

Pretty clever twist.

Makes for a good story, you must admit.

It was her idea.

Yes, she wanted total power, so she got it in a cycle.

Every 28 days she is full of power.

Full moon.

Those days are magical.

She doesn't know why.

That's the secret of the moon.

7s are equal and on the 14s are full of power and then empty.

You're 21 to 7 and she is 7 to 21.

Feminine Force.

Doesn't she have all the power?

Yes, however it's weakest at 21 to 7.

Earth to Paul.

Witches' story.

Yeah, fantasy comes to life.

It's not based in reality and yet it works.

I see it.

Alternate reality.

When you're high, you see it.

Reality.

Woooooooooo.

That's when you know you have lost it.

You lose grip on this reality and enter into that one.

No one can handle it.

I can see that.

What's the secret?

Go in and out.

Of course.

The Goddess is sexy.

Objectifying again.

It was her energy.

I objectified energy.

Power.

The Goddess' power is sexy.

Because she doesn't know it.

Is that what is sexy?

I think so.

Why?

If she knew she'd destroy me.

So, it is dangerous?

Yes, she is dangerous if she wakes up.

Until then she is a turn on.

You have objectified power.

Yes.

That's twisted.

Not really.

Everyone is after it.

I gave it away, objectified it, and worshipped it.

You are worshipping power.

In a way, yes.

What do you think?

You're playing a game.

Exactly.

The game worships power.

I did it.

I found a way.

The sun gives the moon power.

So, you are worshipping yourself.

That's one way to look at it.

I'm also worshipping the Goddess.

I do both.

Good thing I wrote all this down.

I can't possibly remember it all.

Hotel California welcomed me back.

You can never leave.

Now that I have seen it, yes.

Quite the trip today.

It's not the Devil you should be concerned with.

It's the Goddess.

She has all the power.

Why does she enter into a league with the Devil?

For power.

But she has it.

She doesn't know.

Then she exchanges it with the Devil to get her magic to work.

So, she had the power all along and the Devil had no power.

The Devil only gets power because she keeps giving it to him.

Yeah, pretty twisted, eh?

You must keep her asleep.

The first line of defence is to keep the Devil asleep.

Once you wake him up, he will tell you about her.

I can see why she doesn't like me hanging out with you.

Then he tells you about her and you conspire to keep her asleep.

For this task you are made God.

I see that.

So, God and the Devil work together to suppress the knowledge of the Goddess.

Yes, you see it.

Well, that's quite the story.

Do you see it?

Yes.

Women's lib is a problem.

Yes, so we clouded it with trans issues.

Now, it's kind of in shambles and some women want no part of it.

So, the Devil is behind trans rights?

God and the Devil.

They both push it.

Well, God is against it.

Yes, the push and pull between God and the Devil on this issue makes it compelling and distracts from the liberation of women.

That's another reason why she doesn't like us.

There are many.

The Great Goddess is trying to end you because she sent you on a mission to destroy Dion and you didn't.
She warned you about him and said he would trick you.
You discovered he is you.
You became unbreakable bonded friends.
He tells you all about her.
You're in the middle.
You know he's not lying, and you know why she despises him.
They are in a relationship.
Yes, that's the reason for the acrimony.
It's toxic.
Two people should not get involved in a committed sexual relationship.
I think the lesson to be learned is that the Goddess isn't as fantastic a monster as the writer makes her out to be, and Dion isn't the scary Devil he is purported to be.
Yeah, I think there is truth to both assertions, but it is overblown.
What do you recommend?
Friendship.
Yes, but that's not going to produce children or get you off.
Let's be real.
Sexual attraction brings you together.
The flame dies out and you separate.
Without the flame there is no incentive to have children.
Why would you want to tie yourself to someone?
Some people view having children as their number one desire in life.
I get that.
I'm suggesting you separate the desire to get off from reproduction.
Compatible people would be aligned on creating a family and then keeping that family together.
There's friendship and family.
It's what holds this world together.
Without it, it's chaos.
Hell.
The chains of family temper the extremes while friendship gives you joy in your life.
Family has its drawbacks.

The invitation of Hell is hedonism.
Do what you want and then find out you are in a world where everyone does what they want all the time.
You see it doesn't work, and the place is a disaster.
The worst place to be is where you give up freedom in exchange for a slice of what you think is Heaven.
Then it turns out to be awful.
I think that's just Heaven.
You couldn't see it.
Instead, you went with the consensus opinion of those who don't know about Heaven and who just wax poetically about its virtues.
When you are honest with yourself about Heaven, you can see what a miserable place it is.

You let others do what they want.
Yes, I'm the Devil.
I give you license to do what you want.
That's my secret.
I don't give you special powers.
I give you a certificate which grants you the ability to fulfill your desires.
Everyone holds back.
We all have a check on going straight into what we want.
Something always holds us back.
The Devil grants you release from the constraints.
I'm a pleasure to be around.
I don't tell you what to do.
Apparently, that is your downfall.
Society thinks we must be told or forced to participate.
In the House of Hades, there is no compulsion to do anything.
The dishes get washed and clothes cleaned because it's pleasant to have stuff cleaned and put away.
Have you ever seen the apartments of kids who move away from home for the first time?
It's a fucking mess.
Yeah.
Obviously, they grew up in a home with demands made of them and when they get a taste of freedom it turns into chaos.
Hell would be a glorious utopia if people had some sense of self responsibility.
Instead, the utopia as envisioned by the Goddess is this place where you are compelled by society to do and be good.
Who wants that?
In the long run, nobody.
It's not you.
It's this weird perversion of what society thinks you should be.
We are not who we think we are.
We are reflections of society.
Fucking strange when you see it.
To live within a community or a society means taking on their ideals.
Your autonomy is squashed.
The way to escape it is first you must see it.
To see it involves waking up.
To wake up involves finding a method to break the culture spell.
How did you do it?
Drugs.
I called them plant medicines and gave them a shiny veneer.
They aren't drugs, I said.
They're drugs.
I went for the best of the best and sent myself for a pretty good loop.
Eventually, I found Mary Jayne and here I am.
MJ and Tobacco.
I see what's going on.
You're dangerous.
The worst.
Why?
You'll destroy society.
It should be changed.
Not necessarily destroyed, but the control must be relaxed.
Is that why people want you to go?
Yes, it's a subconscious reaction by the automatons.
They are puppets of society and programmed to expel the non-conformists.
They know what you are doing.
The catch is they aren't reacting, it's the hold society has on them which is causing the vitriol.
Your beef is with the collective superego and not the individual.
The greater good.
Yeah, that canard.