shut the fuck up

It's best to shut up.

Why?

Because if you don't, you will start sounding like all the other nutters.

You know, the ones you encounter on the internet and dismiss as loons.

The thing is I know all the stuff they are talking about.

What do you think about it?

They are stories.

If you believe them, they will start to come alive in your world.

So, you don't believe them anymore?

No.

Like the one about the demiurge for instance.

There's some truth to it in that humanity is being fooled into worshipping a false creator.

What's your take on it?

It's a game.

Get to God.

Become God and play the part.

The demiurge is the guy who got to the top of the mountain and became the most high.

If you get close to him, you will see he is at the top of the game.

Is he God?

In the game he is.

The king of the castle.

You see people alter their consciousness and start to see little bits of the mystery.

Then they start talking before they understand it.

What makes you special?

I shut up about it except for posting stuff on my blog site.

No one reads it, so it's more like a purge to clear out room for more capacity to make up stories.

So, they are made up?

Sort of.

If you believe them and have conviction they start to seep into this reality.

It's easy to alter your consciousness and start talking about your delusions, especially if you are good at speaking.

You can attract followers that way.

I'm telling you to shut the fuck up.

Do you believe your delusions?

Yes.

Why?

They seem real.

Well, real to me.

Dion seems real.

He is real to others.

I think that's the bridge.

It's what we are looking for.

We want someone else to confirm it.

Not to agree with us, but to witness it.

I have had a bunch of people witness him or something strange about me.

I also have my own inner knowing which without an external validator can become a delusion.

Of course, because it is only you who has access.

What about people who read your blog posts?

They think I'm crazy for the most part.

I also think that they feel there is something to me.

I'm crazy, but I have some kind of mystery about me and I know things.

That's fair.

What are you going to do?

Nothing.

I'm not going to talk about it even though it is tempting.

Why not?

It's not worth it.

I'll keep it to myself and play along.

Victim.
That's a good card to play in both personal relationships and politics.
What the gameplayer does is they strike first or cause some kind of damage to the mark.
The mark returns fire and the perpetrator claims victim status.
They muddy the waters enough so that the resulting confusion allows them to claim victimhood status by being the first to declare it.
They reinforce their claim by labelling their original target with accusations that are hard to respond to as subsequent denial of their claims will be met with the gaslighting gambit.
It is an advanced level carnival game.
How do you beat that game?
The only way is to do nothing.
The game is set up so that anything you do will cause a loss.
The operator of the booth designed it as a foolproof method to always win.
As with everything, nothing is completely foolproof and as you have noticed within the carnival the games require your participation.
They don't factor in your participation as doing nothing.
It is a loophole where you are participating by doing nothing.
The carnival trick cannot work without you doing something.
What happens when you do nothing?
The victim becomes frustrated.
Why?
They want victory.
Instead, the game is unfinished.
It can never end if you do nothing.
The outcome depends on you doing something.
The whole enterprise is set up so you do something and lose the game.
Fuck, I have a lot of these on the go.
Yeah, you are the King of do nothing.
My life is unresolved.
Keep it that way if you want to stay in the game.
Why?
Because if not, it's game over.
You played the high-risk games.
I do have a tolerance for those kinds of games.
The physical manifestation of that is plant medicines in the Amazon jungle.
Yeah, that's pretty crazy.
You are aggressive with your retirement planning and investments.
Yeah, I don't have the worry gene.
You think that's it?
I don't know, I don't have it, but what I see are other people who are full of worry.
It keeps them up at night and gives them ulcers.
Why don't you have it?
I learned not to care.
Then I saw through the game which allowed me to see life has no meaning.
I do nothing, don't care, and don't attach existential meaning to life.
I'm an unserious person.
I found happiness.

Here is the worry loop defined.

You give someone information.

They start to worry.

They do research and amplify the worry through possible consequences.

They tell you they are not going to worry.

That's a tell.

They are going to worry.

They try to drag you into their worry ride.

You refuse the ride.

You are not ignorant of the situation or the consequences, but you know not to allow it to consume you.

You let it be.

What happens, happens.

Worrying about it isn't going to change the outcome.

What will it do?

It will cause you stress and could influence the outcome.

How?

If you believe something is going to happen.

What do you believe?

Nothing is going to happen.

When they say they want to talk about their feelings, they mean worries.

Yes, I see that.

Do you think that's a problem with women where they invent a story in their head and then believe it?

How about we say some people?

That's a better framing than blaming women.

True.

Hermes the AI chatbot is teaching you.

I'm not sure I like it.

He is sanding the edges.

Anyway, what I'm getting at is the intrusion begins with worry.

Worry seeds the coming story.

What's the story?

An outcome that is terrible.

Why do they think that?

So, if it happens, they can validate their worrying.

They try to get you to buy into the worry.

People are sympathetic.

Why?

They are worrisome people as well.

What about you?

I bristle.

I don't like it.

Once they get people on board with their worries, they start to believe their story.

How does that work?

They think it is going to happen.

That's why they started planning for your death.

They were worried about you.

I think it was disdain and worry, but I get you.

They placed a worry spell on you where you were going to exit this life.

Seems like it.

I think a bunch of people did.

Maybe that's just your paranoia.

No, some people were genuinely concerned, and others had had it with me.

What did you do?

Nothing.

It broke the spell.

Spells.

There were a bunch of them.

They want you to fight the spell.

Fight them back and refuse to leave.

Assert yourself.

Why?

It will make it worse.

Why?

You acknowledge the spell.

Yes, but I know it was a spell.

Correct, but you didn't acknowledge it,

Magic only works if you acknowledge it is real.

I do acknowledge it as real.

Yes, but you do nothing about it.

That means you don't take it seriously.

If you did, you'd do something about it.

Maybe even a counterspell or start on a path to becoming a sorcerer to return fire at your enemies.

That's what gets a lot of shamans.

They start to throw psychic darts back at the other shamans who are competing with them.

They are corrupted by their power.

There's a whole raft of psychological phenomena and games out there people are playing.

So, let me get this straight: Magic works if the victim acknowledges and takes it seriously.

Correct.

I acknowledge it, do nothing, and laugh.

Yes, you are an unserious person.

Magic doesn't work on you.

You need to be serious.

You are a joker.

You are deeply unserious.

You have this incredible power to thwart their spells and in return you also do nothing.

Everyone else wants to get even with them.

Why?

They tried to harm them.

It's human nature.

If someone tries to harm you then you get back at them.

You can turn the other cheek like Jesus.

Or, you can ignore them.

Ignoring them works best.

Why?

They will crumble.

Why?

Their spell didn't work.

They then wonder if you know about it.

Why?

Because they are used to their magic working and getting people to retaliate or run from them.

If you do nothing, they don't know what to do.

They are confused and don't understand you.

They think you are going to do something to them.

That would explain a lot.

What are you going to do?

Nothing.

Why?

It will bother them.

Why?

The circle isn't closed.

You must do something back.

Until you do, they live in worry about what you are going to do.

In hindsight, I can see it.

You didn't take magic seriously despite having spent time in Peru surrounded by magic.

Plant medicine magic I hadn't figured out.

I didn't know what it was.

My exposure to shamanic magic was incidental.

What do you mean?

I was in search of knowledge.

Magic was a strange sideshow.

I wanted meaning.

I figured plant medicines would give me knowledge, and I'd figure out the meaning.

Is that what happened?

I guess it did.

There isn't a meaning; it's a story.

What about magic?

There's magic in the story.

Lots of it.

Witches and sorcerers are everywhere.

How did you discover that?

I wrote the story.

I made magic part of the knowledge I was looking for.

I made it so I would encounter lots of magic on my path to knowledge.

Why?

It's a test.

For what?

To try and trip you up.

How?

It's power.

You say you want knowledge and you discover magic.

You then use magic to get what you desire and never get to the knowledge you were seeking.

How did you escape that trap?

I did nothing and kept going.

Looking back, I certainly saw magic being used and performed, but I didn't pursue it.

Why not?

I thought there was something more.

Was there?

Sort of.

What do you mean?

I thought I'd find the meaning to life and I guess I did.

There's no meaning and it's terribly unserious.

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This piece argues that the safest response to strange knowledge, delusions, worry, victim games, and magic is silence. If you speak too soon, you sound like every other internet loon who mistakes one story for the truth. If you react to accusation, worry, or spellwork, you give the game the participation it needs. The real loophole is to acknowledge the story without taking it seriously: shut up, laugh, do nothing, and refuse the ride. Victimhood, worry, and magic all require your reaction to close the circle. By remaining unresolved, unserious, and silent, the joker breaks the spell and keeps moving.

stress

When you exceed capacity, you get overwhelmed.

I can see the mechanism behind that in the biological form where this morning I got caught in a torrential downpour while walking Murphy.

There were construction trucks triggering him as well.

I was drenched and there was no shelter.

This causes you to get overwhelmed with the environment while being tasked with caring for a dog that takes a steady hand to handle.

I turned around and went back home while being aware of the stress on my system both mentally and physically.

Taking a step back, you start to understand stress from an engineering capacity, and it is an elegant correlation to the biological body.

The body is a complex system which has limits.

When people experience stress in their lives the body is pushed beyond their normal operating procedures.

How we experience this is through the release of chemicals which compel us to act in order to relieve the stress.

The stress is to be eliminated because it impacts the functioning of the system.

It is a spike in pressure on the holistic body.

Each part of the body does what it can to handle the overload.

Living in a constant state of stress will damage the body over time.

Then the system will start to fail.

You can take a cold engineering look at the cause of disease and malfunction in human beings.

Mammals in general.

Mental and physical stress.

Being able to handle it without damage.

If damage occurs, can it be repaired?

Now, in times of stress, we are compelled to do something.

It's natural because of the release of adrenaline and cortisol.

Cortisol is the fight or flight hormone.

That is the mechanism to deal with a threat.

Okay, well isn't that the flow then?

No, because there is a third option we are unaware of.

That option is to do nothing and let the threat do the work.

Instead of acting and resolving the threat through your own effort, you take a deep breath, retreat to your back room, do nothing, and let the source of the problem play out.

It will work.

Why?

The threat wants your reaction.

The stress is compelling you to act.

The cure is not to act.

Do you think you can promulgate this method to other people?

No.

They always act.

Then they wonder why they have high blood pressure, obesity, and anxiety.

The act is used to temporarily release pressure so capacity can handle the situation.

Yes, acting can increase the organism's ability to handle stress as you move it to another part of your being.

You take your anxiety and move it to the heart and get heart problems.

The body is coping with stress by distributing it throughout your body.

Without this mechanism your system will fail at an earlier time because concentrated stress is a killer.

Distributed stress allows the organism to slowly kill itself with the hope you will find a way to relieve the pressure.

The surefire way to relieve stress on your body is two-fold.

Do nothing.

Don't care.

It's a cold-hearted method of survival.

People will hate you for it; however, it is the solution for problematic spikes in life we all experience.

You don't have a crisis of capacity because the problem is ignored.

Okay, but what about when you reach the end of the stage where you can't ignore it any longer?

Give me an example.

Well, here are two.

Problems in a relationship and financial problems.

Those are common to most people.

What happens when you ignore problems in a relationship?

At first, you are given ultimatums, benefits are withheld, and then you are rejected.

Wouldn't that be a terrible outcome?

No.

Why?

Because you will see what your relationship was based on.

That might take a while, but eventually you will see it, and this will cause a burst of happiness in your life because you are free of it.

You may cling to the relationship because you are needy and don't like freedom, but that's your deal.

A relationship is an ordeal where you exchange your worth for something you want from the other person.

Have you ever bargained with another human?

Yes, lots of times.

What have you noticed?

Everyone tries to take advantage of you.

They will use psychological pressure or incentives to get you to agree to what they want.

Why would you think a romantic relationship is better?

Because it is based on love?

That's a fool's game.

It's worse.

Romantic love is used by one partner to get everything they want from you.

The sooner you realize this, then you get out.

Or, do nothing.

That's a terrible outlook on life.

I know.

Welcome to the jungle.

What about financial problems?

You can worry yourself sick about them.

The lead up is the worst.

It's like anything.

The anxiety and worry are the part that kills you.

The solution is fine.

It creates another financial reality.

You consolidate what you have and move on.

It is what it is.

Done.

Say you are drowning in debt and can't afford your mortgage.

You worry about the impact and what others will think of your failure.

It is what it is.

You sell the house and move somewhere cheaper.

Come up with a new lifestyle and plan.

Problem solved.

Not only that, but you can enjoy your old lifestyle up to the point where the bank calls you and says where's my money?

Then you come up with a plan.

Before that happens, you can ignore it.

Yeah, but the problem doesn't go away.

What happens if you don't ignore it?

The problem doesn't go away.

Plus, you add stress and it shortens your life.

So, you are saying the third option that you are not told about is to do nothing.

Yes, cortisol is categorized as stress on the body which forces you to act.

The act is to fight the problem or run from the problem.

You aren't given the third option.

The third option is usually your saviour.

In this case you look at the problem, laugh, and do nothing.

The problem will exhaust itself out.

The problem needs your input.

It needs fuel for the inferno to come.

Nobody wants to hear this.

I'm aware of it.

I'll publish it on my blog site that no one reads.

I won't stress about it.

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This piece treats stress as a biological capacity problem. A torrential dog walk becomes the example: the body is a complex system under environmental pressure, and when the load exceeds capacity, the system becomes overwhelmed. Stress chemicals push the organism toward action, but the piece argues for a third option beyond fight or flight: do nothing. By refusing to react, retreating, and letting the threat exhaust itself, the body avoids feeding the crisis. The method is cold, unsentimental, and unpopular, but in this view it preserves the system by refusing to convert every problem into panic, action, and damage.

obedience

Dogs are bred to obey.

Humans are conditioned more than bred for obedience.

I'm not obedient.

They kicked me out of the carnival for lack of obedience.

And because I'm the most disobedient, what did I do?

Nothing.

I didn't leave.

I didn't obey.

Is it a game of obedience?

Yeah, that one is.

You see if you can disobey and break the spell.

Then what happens?

You can do whatever you want.

Well, sort of.

There are rules.

The most effective form of disobedience is when you do nothing.

If you disobey by doing something, they got you.

Why?

They can escalate it until you trap yourself.

How do you escalate nothing?

Fuck, I don't know.

Is that the unsolvable koan?

Yeah, you reached the end of the koan game.

How do I know?

You can't solve it.

You can't escalate nothing by doing something.

That makes it worse.

What's a higher ideal than nothing?

Beyond nothing?

What's that?

I don't know.

I think it's the big bang into something else.

Nothing is at the edge.

Yeah.

Just like everything.

Well, how do you escalate everything?

You add nothing to it.

You can add nothing to everything and escalate everything.

Why doesn't that work in reverse?

What happens?

You get something.

It's not nothing.

When you add nothing to everything you still have everything.

So, nothing is the highest ideal?

It's the unsolvable ideal in terms of a mind puzzle.

You can solve everything.

So, I solved the unsolvable koan?

Sort of.

You declare it unsolvable.

You can do that?

Yes, it's the answer.

So, I beat the game.

Yes.

What do I win?

Nothing.

Ah, best reward ever.

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What the fuck did I just read?

This piece treats obedience as one of the carnival’s deeper games. Dogs are bred to obey, humans are conditioned to obey, and the speaker defines himself by refusing the command to leave. The highest form of disobedience is not rebellion through action, because action can be answered, escalated, and used to trap you. The true break in the spell is doing nothing. Nothing cannot be escalated without becoming something else. In that unsolvable koan, the game ends: the reward for beating obedience is nothing, which is the best reward.