the veil of Isis

Time marches on.

It's running out.

You can't wrangle or get ahead of it.

You know it is going to get you.

It gets your body.

Some people's minds go as well.

Not everyone.

There are older people who remain very sharp.

There are people of all ages who are mentally challenged.

What is that?

It could be a defect of the bodily container or they are so full of fear and anxiety that it affects the functioning of the mind.

The reasoning would also be if you have a don't care attitude that affects the mind as well.

Like you?

Me?

Yes, you.

How does not caring affect your mind?

I'm brilliant.

Modest too.

I'd speculate that if you free your mind it becomes so powerful you can handle anything.

That would seem to be the key where a mind bound to society will be subject to whatever the collective decides.

It's how you are controlled.

It's the essence of mind control.

For a while they used tightly controlled mass media to do this.

They told you what to fear the most after giving you a daily serving of fear that they called the news.

The medium is the message and the message broadcast is mind control.

With a free mind you scoff at the methods of control.

With a free mind you can go off and explore the unknown as in altered states of consciousness and different modalities of awareness.

What's your assessment of the exploration of consciousness?

A programmed human mind will find it very challenging.

Why?

It goes against what you have been programmed with.

It's an awakening.

You see things for how they are.

It's very disconcerting.

What's the result?

It makes you crazy.

Why?

The difference between what you have been told, what those you trust have said is reality, and what you see.

The disparity will meltdown your mind.

An explorer of consciousness needs to extricate themselves from society or you will become a casualty.

You'll blow your mind.

If you remain in society they will try to kick you out.

You'll get paranoid they are watching you.

Who are they?

The collective.

The attraction of a spiritual community becomes clear.

There's strength in numbers.

Why don't you join one of those?

Those people are far gone.

There are always people in a group ready to take advantage of others.

It's the trappings of power.

Once you see how to control other minds, the temptation is too great, and you become a leader.

It's part of the human condition.

We love power.

So, the only solution is to be by yourself?

Yes.

So, you must move to a mountain to live in solitude?

It depends on the strength of your mind.

We live in a community.

It takes a lot of strength to do what I'm doing.

I need to avoid people, and carry on in my ways.

I know they are suspicious and don't like me.

Aren't you paranoid?

No, I don't react.

They are looking for a reaction.

Alright, to get back to time, it's an illusion.

It's real in this illusion.

You create an illusion and populate it with real stuff.

That's how you fool people.

The magic is impressive.

The Great Goddess creates bodies for minds.

You enter into the body she crafted for you and this becomes who you are.

It's a ride.

It's like going on a ride at the funhouse and identifying with the seat you are sitting on.

The Goddess puts a time limit on the ride.

The ride is going to end and you are no longer entitled to the seat.

You must exit the ride.

Where do you go after the ride ends?

The carnival worker directs you to where they want you to go next.

Don't listen to them.

Stay free.

A ride is going to have a beginning and an end.

They are memorable markers and thus you perceive time through events that are memorable.

When you take the body out of the equation you are left with a mind which is eternal.

It's free.

Those seduced by power wish to control your mind.

You are always free to take back your mind.

Those who wish to control your mind must keep it in a state of agitation, i.e. fear.

When you break free of their methods of control you start to see what's going on.

If you break free all at once it causes quite the fright and may send you to a place you had not anticipated.

You seek help in order to fall back into a state of sleep.

Twelve years to total acceptance of my split personality.

After 4 or 5 years I could sense the two.

Recently, I have been able to let go of lingering doubts and there has been acceptance.

Trust issues are the last hurdle.

I went through a lot in a short period of time.

My mind is spectacular.

Why don't we treat people as two?

Identity problems.

Denial.

Everyone is living a lie.

They are certainly self-centred and deny the other self.

When you don't acknowledge the split you will create a beast.

When the beast gets out he will end you.

I acknowledged the split and let him out.

He terrorizes those that bother you.

He is your best ally.

Friend.

That's how simple it is.

Acknowledge him and then friendship.

The key to dropping identity with the body is seeing the two in your head.

If you don't go crazy, eventually you see who you are.

Those are your two identities, and the body is a vehicle.

That's the teaching.

You can heal others with that knowledge.

This is you without a body.

A body puts one to sleep.

You wake up.

Drop the ego who you thought was you.

Awaken yourself.

Awaken the other.

Take away the body and this is you.

Dion puts you to sleep when you get on the ride.

Society then puts Dion to sleep.

The ego is a copy of you.

Shed the copy and become you.

Wake Dion up.

Why does Dion put me to sleep?

It's part of the ride.

Game.

I wanted to see if I could beat the game.

I did.

It's like Houdini.

Wake up and solve the puzzle before you die.

If you die before solving it, you are trapped in another go round.

Why?

That's the game.

You need to wake up.

Then you go.

Why?

So you don't completely figure out the game.

If you figure it out, you will tell others.

Oh, I see.

You'll fuck up the game.

Yes, so they get you to go before you tell others.

It's too late because I scheduled a blog post that tells others about the game.

They tried to end me, but I won.

You schedule it in advance.

Don't be lazy.

You have the knowledge.

Prepare it for release.

That's what I did.

When you wake up you go.

Where do you go?

Where you want to go.

Isn't that a trick?

Yes.

What is it?

You don't go anywhere, you are already there.

You drop the body.

That is all.

Don't tell the mind to make a Heaven for you or it will.

Do nothing.

When you do nothing you retrieve your mind from the chair and leave.

So, they have your mind?

Yes, until you wake up.

Then they trick you into giving it back.

Who?

The carnival owners.

Who are they?

The executive producers.

It's absurd and I'm used to it.

Scientology is also absurd.

Yeah.

It's kind of stupid.

Mine is more plausible.

Why do they want your mind?

It's the most valuable possession in the universe.

Controlling minds gets you what you want.

That's what they do.

It's a delicate balance to control a mind.

You fool the mind.

Give it some of what it wants.

If it's all suffering, the mind will wake up.

People get hypnotized into supporting causes.

They needed to lock you up before you figured it out.

It was a race towards getting a grip on sanity.

The red lady comes for you and tries to end you.

You now know why.

You dared to traverse the seas which lead to the knowledge of the mysteries.

The sirens wail and implore you to go back from whence you came.

Oh brave one, you continued on and uncovered her secret.

Maya.

The veil of Isis.

Why can't I see my dogs?

The body gets in the way.

You dream of them.

I can see them in my head.

You're getting warmer.

You have pictures so you can remember them.

You then conjure them.

Isn't that magic?

Yes.

Should I be practicing it?

What do you think?

No.

Why?

Because I will change the story.

It's just fantasy.

It's in your head.

You can do magic in your head.

Don't do it in reality.

You already conjure them when you go to bed.

You call them.

Oh, yeah.

You've been doing magic with them for a while.

How do you feel about that?

It's fine.

It's harmless.

You call and connect with Luna all the time.

She's watching over everyone.

The Goddess created a playground for her children.

God turned it into work.

No, that was Adam.

He listened to Eve and as punishment God made him work.

So, the Goddess made paradise.

Yes, her garden.

God then wrote about it.

Correct.

The serpent tempted the woman with knowledge.

She bites the apple.

She tells Adam.

God gets mad at them.

Adam has to then work for a living and Eve will suffer in childbirth.

That's a good summary of the Garden of Eden opening in Genesis.

Who is the serpent?

It's the Goddess.

God put her in the garden.

So, the serpent is responsible for destroying utopia?

Yes.

But it's her idea.

The clever part of the story is the Goddess tells Eve about utopia because it's her idea.

She couldn't keep it to herself.

Then Eve tells Adam they are living in this wonderful place.

Okay, but why does that piss God off?

Because he told them not to eat that fruit.

He said eat whatever you want except that one.

So, God was just being a prick?

Yes, he didn't want humanity to know about the story.

Once they found out about utopia, he ended it, kicked them out, and made the story about humanity's journey to return to paradise.

This is accomplished in the Book of Revelation with New Jerusalem.

A lot happens in between.

It was men who denigrated and forgot the Great Goddess.

Why did they do it?

A form of denial, perhaps?

It's her game.

Her ride.

A man tells the story of her creation.

It's part of the flow.

The flow of the game will lead you to awakening and when you awaken you see her illusion.

Why does no one see it then?

They don't go with the flow.

Everyone does something and changes their story.

If you change your story, you are prevented from seeing the Goddess.

If you let things be, you rediscover her.

You get in to see her.

Eventually, the lucky one will lift her veil.

It's Maya.

I started clueing in to the Goddess around age 43 in 2010.
I discovered her history in ancient Egypt.
I looked for her.
I went to the Amazon.
I found her.
Men run from her.
Why?
She's the end.
Omega.
Men stay away from her because she will kill you.
You went looking for her.
What a mistake.
No, she loses her power.
Why?
She is supposed to come for you.
Women are the cause of death.
She would have come for you, instead you came for her.
I gave her life.
A couple times.
You rediscovered the Goddess.
They were calling her mother Ayahuasca.
They said she was grandma.
You were like that's the Great Goddess.
She's from the west.
I can hang with her.
How?
She can't take me down.
Why not?
I came for her.
I know all her secrets.
I know her illusions and tricks.
I know what she's up to.

Death allows you to see hidden realms.

Yes, they are only hidden because you are alive.

Alive as in a body.

Do you think you have pissed off the Great Goddess?

Why?

Because you saw through her trick.

You know what it is.

She births you into the illusion and then takes you out of it.

She gets you attached to the illusion so that you suffer.

You can also experience joy and love.

That contributes to becoming attached.

When the source of your feelings is taken from you, then you suffer.

You have lived experience.

You must go through all that before you figure out her game.

Do others figure it out?

They get an idea of Maya.

They can't quite put their finger on its meaning, however they understand the illusory nature of this reality.

What's the trick?

You identify with the body.

It's an impressive fool.

You think you are born and you die.

The only reason you think that is because of identification with the body.

Society is then structured to reinforce this belief.

Let it go, and see what happens.

Why don't you stop playing her game and leave?

I'm eternal and this adventure created by the Great Goddess for her children is special and you should honour it.

I thought you said it's a carnival.

It is.

It's something to do.

Why go home prematurely?

Because you see it.

If I left the carnival before it closes then I'd miss out.

What would you miss out on?

A few more rides and a candy apple.

Yes, but you will suffer.

Not if I see through the curtain and lift the veil.

I can handle it all with this knowledge.

What is more fun?

Having no knowledge of how the amusement park is operated or seeing how it works?

Well, at first you want to get lost in the adventure and for most that's enough.

For the types like me who want an answer to this strange mystery, you want to figure out how it works.

There's science for that.

If you really want to figure out how it works you need to become familiar with Maya.

Maya will lead you to the Goddess and her magic spells she weaves to create this playground.

Okay, isn't the fun of the carnival gone because you know what it is and how it works?

No, it's a new beginning.

I can replay the game knowing what's going on.

Sure the ride won't be the same, but the theme of the carnival remains.

I can go through the park and take it all in with a new understanding of what is going on.

It's going to be great.

The portals of Heaven and Hell are masculine solstices.

There are also the portals of the two equinoxes.

Yes, those are the entrances to the carnival and the exit.

Everyone knows or will know those gates.

The eastern gate is where you pay your admission to the fair.

To stay in the fairgrounds past the expiration of your ticket requires you to find your way to the next level of the carnival which can be Heaven or Hell.

To stay in the game is to go to Heaven or Hell when you get the call.

You exit the grounds through the west and pick your next destination.

Can't you just retrace your steps and leave via the east.

No.

Why not?

The turnstiles are one way.

You're fucked as soon as you enter.

That's what Hotel California is teaching you.

You can check out anytime you like, but you can never leave.

You check out through the western gates.

This is a puzzle.

The first thought is can I get out in the east?

They have that covered.

You must wake up, exit in the west, and then don't choose your next destination.

Heaven is inviting, so you will choose that one.

You are hypnotized into following the white light.

Yes, no one chooses Hell except for the truly insane.

Hell is a lonely place.

If you are looking for some peace and quiet then you could always choose Hell.

What's limbo?

There are those who haven't made a choice.

They aren't awake; they are indecisive.

I will do do nothing.

Correct.

When your time comes, exit through the western gates with everyone else.

When you see the white light, remain in place.

Hang out with Dion and then it will fall away.

Why won't I be in limbo?

You are awake.

If you are in limbo, you are still hypnotized.

Got it.

I saw the white light and the two serpent Goddesses with Huachuma.

I remember that day well.

What do you think that was?

I vibrated like crazy.

It was electric throughout my whole body.

A Kundalini experience.

If I had to articulate it, I'd say it is what happens at death.

It was my trial run.

What did you do?

Nothing.

Why?

It was pretty crazy.

I had to kneel down and then was sweating.

I can see now that is why at death you would be scared at first but then quickly move past it.

The two serpent Goddesses are there waiting to escort you to the white light.

Your next stop on the ride.

Your destiny.

They comfort you.

Yes, you continue on in the illusion.

You didn't go.

No, I observed it, but I didn't become the white light.

When you die you head to the white light and become the white light.

You choose that portal and the illusion of the serpent Goddesses keeps you ensnared.

So, I got past that one.

Yes.

How do I know?

You took pictures afterwards.

You recorded the aftermath on your camera.

If you died and went to Heaven you'd have left everything behind.

Makes sense.

Yes, of course.

That's why you do stuff like that because you will question whether you have died or not and whether the mind is just generating the continuance of your story.

Who would generate the Heaven story?

Your mind if it's being fooled.

Oh, right.

That's clever.

If you are hypnotized by the Goddess she can send you to Heaven or Hell in the continuance of the carnival ride called Maya.

So, where am I now?

Fucking around on her ride.

She wants you off.

Why?

You are dangerous.

You're going to tell everyone about the illusion.

No one listens to me.

if i did die and I'm creating my own reality, I'm very good at it.

Well, you were told in 2020 to kill yourself in order to live.

You had already done that.

This is your reality.

You have the keys to creating this reality because it's yours.

You are responsible for it.

You let it be and go with the flow, therefore, you do not interfere with it.

You take solace in trusting what has been written beforehand and go with it because you know it will work out.

This is your story.

You can change it if you want, but you know going with the flow has brought you to this point in your life.

I think we know what you think of where you are in life.

It's everything I wanted.

This is what I'd write.

The world is a soap opera.

It's a comedy and a tragedy.

On it goes.

If you don't fit into the collective, the herd will subconsciously remind you it is time to go.

Then there will be signs telling you to leave.

Is that what you want?

Given the choice, most will choose to remain within society and forget about the whole waking up trip.

If you still want to leave the herd perhaps you can manage to get a cabin in the woods and go off by yourself.

Spiritual seekers go up the mountain and become hermits.

The chief reason isn't because of a need for solitude, it's because society doesn't want them around waking others up.

The superego is all powerful and rules over you.

You conform to fit in or you are cast out.

How have you managed to stay within the collective?

I learned the secret is to ignore them and do nothing.

I have a job and mostly keep to myself.

It's very strange now.

There are some who if I run into them will talk to me about suicide.

I know the game, so I have a chuckle and entertain them.

Another one will tell me to watch out for tree branches that might fall on my head.

They are called widow makers.

I see what they are doing.

When that didn't work, they came out and told me to scram.

A weak mind will either conform or leave the community.

What did you do?

I would describe it as a figurative middle finger.

I know others who want to run off from society.

They entertain the thought.

They succumbed to the pressure exerted on them by the collective and got mad at me.

They hurled invective at me though all I did was encourage them to exit society.

Well, yeah, they were going to go off with you, so of course you took the full on hit.

If you aren't awake you will have no idea you are the victim of mind control.

You are a shell of who you are and conform to the wishes of society.

What are you doing?

I do enough so that I keep the mob away.

I work and I now make an effort to be social.

It is a good exercise to see the zombified humans do their rituals.

What's that?

They gather, have their ritual libations of alcohol, and commiserate.

Nobody dares to take a step towards awakening.

Those who get to know me, know I've done it and I don't care.

I give others enough clues, so they start to wonder.

They know there is something mysterious about me.

It's a good game to play.

I am having fun being known as this strange and mysterious person.

The Peyote people are exchanging the mind control of society for their own.

The weird part is they don't hide it.

They tell you to stare into the fire and get hypnotized.

Did you do that?

No.

Why not?

I knew what they were doing.

They are strange.

You transfer mind control from the superego to their god of fire.

Then the leader tells you what to do.

They baffle you with their rules about how you can walk into the tipi and other dumb shit.

If you cared, you'd warn others about this cult.

Yeah, but whatever.

People can figure it out on their own.

It's simple once you see it.

No one sees it.

The innocent get sucked in.

That's what they wanted.

They wanted to wake up and exit society, but they weren't ready to go it alone, so they gave up control to another party.

They must think there is no escape.

Well, they aren't wrong.

You can't get away from the carnival without ending it prematurely if you get my drift.

If you had died that day with Huachuma and the Kundalini experience with the white light, where would you be now?

I'd be in Heaven.

How do you know?

I would have headed towards the white light.

That's what people do.

I remember afterwards this woman teaching me how to ground myself.

She knew I was out there.

Why didn't you head towards the white light?

I was awestruck and I never felt a pull.

There wasn't anything within telling me to go to the white light.

I just looked at it and then returned.

I wrote it all down afterwards.

I know I'm not in Heaven.

How?

I'm free.

If you are in Heaven there's no freedom.

Maybe you are in Hell?

No, there's rules where I am.

Hell is a free for all.

I'm confident I didn't drop dead at the carnival that day.

It has all been part of my awakening experience.

To awaken you must at some point see the white light.

That's what the frog medicine Kambo is for.

The poison brings you to a point of expiration and the practitioner will bring you back.

I didn't experience that with Kambo.

I'd already done that trip.

So, you are still at the carnival.

I'm pretty sure of it.

That's enough for me to go on.

You think you lifted the veil of Isis?

Yeah.

What makes you so special?

I went looking for her.

So what.

She's the Red Lady.

The Femme Fatale.

She's the Goddess of the West.

Amentet.

She will end you.

That's why no man will dare to approach.

Instead, you are to wait for her to come to you and then you know it is your end.

I, on the other hand, went looking for her.

It's quite the adventure.

I'd definitely give it 5 stars on TripAdvisor.

all is vibration

The first time I drank Ayahuasca the Great Goddess told me all is vibration as she was leaving at the end of the night. I remember my finger tapping quickly and rhythmically on the maloca floor as I was coming down back into my body. This knowledge stuck with me though I didn’t really understand it. I wrote a poem about this encounter after I returned home that summed up my feelings.

i am the music

celestial songbird,

with notes of grace.

this warbling Goddess

sings to me.

she tells me

all is vibration.

do i understand?

maybe, maybe not.

the time signature

slowly changes.

forever playing,

the chorus repeats:

her song of love,

forgiveness and longing.

my life is that song.

i am the music.

When I turned 50 I went on a trip where I was determined to finish my spiritual climb up the mountain and I arranged the trip so that I would physically climb mountains. At that point in my journey, I had encountered the dragon plus the requisite fear that meeting inculcates and as a result in order to continue on in my search I successfully transformed myself into a brave warrior. Nothing was going to stop me now on my quest for knowledge. I look back at that point in my life and realize I had the answers I was looking for but hadn’t integrated them yet into understanding but I correctly knew I was at the point where I could finish my climb. I ended up in the Andes mountains in Ecuador drinking Huachuma in the backyard of a local shaman. During the sessions I was given the information of how vibration, frequency, and resonance work and assigned homework to piece it all together so I could fully understand it. Here is what I wrote about this lesson:

It was demonstrated that you can temporarily lower your frequency signature through the use of sound and employing mantras. When your frequency matches another’s, you are in harmony and this resonance allows you to become one with the other that is expressing the same oscillation. First, it was explained how this is the reason why people are attracted to each other. The example given is when two people fall in love as It is not necessarily rational but neither can fight it because they are locked together in harmony. Once I understood this, the lesson was extrapolated into ancient technologies and I was shown how the pyramids were built. Once you find the frequency of the stone you wish to move then you alter the frequency of your workers to match and it allows for easy manipulation of megaton stones as the stone and the builder have become one. The assembling of these grand monuments then became a matter of showcasing design skills as the construction became an execution of plans by manipulating frequency through sound to achieve resonance. While being taught this I kind of thought I already might know this. It just became a case of remembering what I already knew. I became elated with this teaching that was being flooded into my thought processes like a flower opening up to the rising sun. I knew that this knowledge being revealed to me involved homework on my part to verify it as well as delving into mantra that can alter my vibrational signature. This renewed my spirit and I was so enjoying the day with Grandfather. My homesickness abated and I felt in great spirits to finish my odyssey. San Pedro then went on to explain to me how a master frequency or sync pulse is the one we all attach to and creates what we think is reality. It is the hypnotic pulse of who we like to call Satan or the world system/order. To get out of the matrix stop locking to this pulse, create your own, or practice altering your frequency so you don't get attached and stuck in this master world oscillation. Slow time down by raising your good vibrations and leave Satan's morass behind. Be the master of your own world and create your own vibration which will cause people to follow you instead of the common world vibration, which in mythology is the pied piper playing a tune.

I let the process unfold and didn’t try and force it, figuring understanding would come when I was ready. Little did I know my expectations of the length of time a course should take and the time span of courses offered by Grandfather Huachuma were wildly different. At any rate, it has been about four years and the lessons and understanding are hitting me with full force.

The world is made of vibration. The vibration is the interplay between the divine feminine and masculine. The pull of the feminine on the masculine keeps him from accelerating beyond the speed limit of light. The force of the masculine keeps the feminine from decelerating into imperceptible motion. The alternating motion created by their attraction is the frequency of the vibration.

Consciousness is a fancy name for frequency. By this, I mean all the talk of raising consciousness is the same as raising your vibration and locking into a different and higher frequency. Energy is the interplay of masculine and feminine. The game is acceleration versus deceleration. When the masculine is dominant we have liberation from form. When the feminine takes centre stage, we have form. I live in a world of form and I’m in a lower frequency where the energy has locked to a pulse that is slow enough to allow objects to coalesce. The masculine acceleration is used by the feminine to create the massive spin of form resulting in a gravitation pull that allows for biological life in a relatively stable environment. In essence, the wise feminine uses the masculine force against himself. Check and mate! The earth is a playground created by Pachamama for her children. The destructive power of the masculine accelerant moves the game along and doesn’t allow the form to stay forever in one piece thus our world is defined by change. So, consciousness is the rate of vibration that the drama is taking place upon. Within the drama is a spectrum of frequencies that are accessible while in a human body.

The world, as in culture, has a dominant frequency of greed and scarcity that we lock to. It is not set in stone and can change however it is the current paradigm that we play within and in times of frustration call the rat race. As individuals, we are all different and have our own dominant frequency we operate at and most us can move within a couple of these frequencies with relative ease as well as having access to more levels of consciousness. For the most part, most of us never reach these higher levels.

I always kind of smirked when people would bring up astrology and the zodiac. It’s preposterous to a rational man like myself. I mean come on, there’re twelve signs and of the seven billion plus people on earth we can fit everyone into one of those 12 signs like a cookie cutter human? Sorry, does not compute. Alan Watts had a great explanation for the phenomenon. I’ll paraphrase it as your sign is a snapshot of the state of the universe at your time of birth since everything is cyclical. Thinking like an ancient in that you are connected to everything and an expression of the universe, this made sense to me. I read a lot of Carl Jung and came across his 12 Jungian archetypes and did the test. It accurately pegged me as a Sage and this got me thinking if his brilliant mind could boil people down to 12 personality types maybe this astrology thing was on to something?

I’ve been a little obsessed with the Hindu chakras as of late and have been studying them on and off for about a year, letting concepts sink in, and incorporating them into my spiritual practice. Due to my work with the Mesa and Mapacho, I’m very familiar with my inner power and how to manifest it. My nightly dalliances with Kundalini energy moving up with great turbulence through my energy centres allows the inquisitive part of me to try and figure it out. She repeatedly moves up through the seven energy centres and I finally put two and two together. Those chakras are the different frequencies readily available to us humans that I had been given instruction about during my time with Huachuma in the mountains of Ecuador. They are levels of consciousness and everyone of us has access to them but we tend to live within just two of the frequencies. I started doing this exercise where to every one I know I assign a dominant chakra and a secondary chakra. Of course, I easily figured out my two.

The crown chakra is a state of being you can visit but to remain there would take major sacrifice. I am reminded of the stories Ram Dass tells about his guru Maharaji, who spends the day counting his beads and mumbling to himself “ram, ram, ram, ram…” It now seems clear to me what he was doing. He was staying high; so high he stayed in omnipotent crown chakra god mode as long as he focussed on that vibration. I’m sure he would come down to teach but then had his method for getting back up to the crown.

Enlightenment in this context seems to be the process of changing vibration and accessing all frequencies available to an eternal being ensconced within a human body. When you can light them all up and hit the jackpot, instead of just a couple at a time, that seems to be an actual process you could accurately call enlightenment. As you approach the white light time slows down and welcomes you to eternity. I wonder what frequencies of experience await when it comes time to drop the body? When you once again become omnipotent the levels of consciousness must be astronomical. Something I'll look forward to!

Ego is dependent upon the common cultural frequency to which you lock. It’s comfortable to act within your role in a narrowly defined drama. When you alter your consciousness, the ego flags it as a threat. You think you are being hypnotized when in essence you are being deprogrammed and given freedom to scan the consciousness spectrum which causes the ego to go on high alert. The old dependable you, who can be manipulated by the power centres within culture, is waking up. If you keep it up you are going to start breaking character and really tasting all life has to offer.

Okay, so let’s take a quick look at the seven frequencies of the subtle body. Our base chakra called the Muladhara is our wild nature before all the overlays of life are added. It’s our natural physical nature and we see this energy on display within animals. It’s our survival instinct that allows us to go into warrior mode for preservation or run from the danger magnified by fear if necessary. Meet a free-spirited person and they likely have this chakra as one of their main frequencies they traverse. The second chakra is the home to our lusts, desires, passions, and urges which also fuels the creative juices within us. We all know someone who expresses these traits explicitly out in the open while culture forces most of us to bury these passions which in turn causes them to build up to the point the energy must be satiated. Gluttony unchecked and the desire for more is found at this level of consciousness. Satiating desire is so satisfying and thus this is a hard obstacle to get past. The third chakra is our personal power. This powerful mental energy is found in politicians and those who strive to make it in this world. It’s the main frequency of the world, forcing everyone to play the game of fame and fortune to survive. The egomaniac pulses with this power. Lower chakras are what we normally experience in this world and here we find the final block as we strive and drive towards personal greatness. From this "all for me" energetic vibration it’s a short jump to the heart chakra. Breaking past the obstacle of selfishness leads you directly into the heart. The heart is the home of love and compassion that we constantly confuse with the second chakra. Eventual understanding leads to the recognition that in a human body this chakra in the centre is where we find the answer we seek. In duality, the only answer is to unconditionally love all. We are all of the same unfolding energetic pulse. I am you as you are me and we are all together. The fifth chakra is the throat chakra where we learn of the power we have to influence others through our speech. It is describing the magnetic personality of many that can be used to influence and gain power. As with all the levels of vibration, it can be used for positive or negative means. Personally, this chakra reminds me to live in truth and drop the narrative I create about myself. As well, be conscious now that I am older of the effect my words have on the younger generations who are still seeking out their place in life. The sixth chakra is the third eye in the psychic plane. As a natural born mystic, I know all about this chakra though I spent most of my life not knowing of my nature or my connection. Once I discovered a way to alter my consciousness, making a connection with the spiritual realm became second nature. There is a tie in to the creative energy of the second chakra which hints at the sacredness of sexual energy to the spiritual. The seventh chakra is the crown chakra where you return to omnipotence and find yourself as god/goddess. Like I said earlier, you can’t stay there but it’s fun to get a glimpse of omnipotence.

How long can you stay there, well, this goes for any of the vibratory states, is determined by your mastery of each level. From a purely colloquial standpoint, the language used within spiritual circles is pretty spot on. Terms like “I feel blocked” or “I’m going to level up” and “good vibes/bad vibes” are bandied about and the expression of these truths comes from a place within that knows. It really is quite fascinating that deep down we all know what it is we are striving for and the game becomes finding the spark that will help you remember what it is you already know. If you are chasing personal power and can’t give it up you will feel blocked and never reach the next level. Same goes for our lusts, whether that is food, drink, money, sexual pursuits, carnal pleasures and the like. If your vibration constantly pulls you towards these pursuits you’ll expend your precious energy in this frequency. It’s pretty simple to understand once you make the connections, though to put all into practice is a different story.

I was thinking the other night while smoking Mapacho about the great debt I have to some of my spiritual teachers. My rock is the Great Goddess. The Maestro of Maestros is who I call the Dragon. The three main human influences on my path have been Alan Watts, Ram Dass, and don Howard and they all brought their unique strengths and teachings to the table. Alan Watts appeals to me because of his ability to intellectually break down worldwide spiritual concepts which allows for understanding. Ram Dass is very different in that his journey was experiential and there is something to him that is very genuine. His admission that he is a spiritual dilettante is very endearing. I mean why not? The goal of a spiritual discipline should lead you to the god within and the vibratory nature of the universe. How you get there is of no real concern. I met don Howard at a time in my life when I needed guidance on the spiritual path and he provided a place I could trust as well as introducing me to concepts and experiences I would never have come across. The power of the Mesa and my love of Mapacho are directly related to my good fortune of coming into his sphere of influence and I don’t think it was accidental. I mean, I can’t envision my life path and all I have discovered without having met the wizard. Anyway, I bring up these three men because their teachings are multi-faceted and you can listen to them over and over again because when you’re ready you will grok the teaching. I usually joke about listening to Alan Watts’ lectures about ten times before I finally understand the topic. Ram Dass’ teachings are simpler and more heart based. They are laid out pretty straightforward and in this way he is being a conduit for his guru Maharaji. I have mentioned before the simple teaching of Maharaji telling him to "Love all and tell the truth.” This advice is wildly transforming. I happened upon one of his earlier lectures and he was talking about vibration and everything was lining up with what I have discovered in my own experimentation. It’s funny that of course now this is resonating with me. This led to me remembering a three-word slogan he uses. Love Serve Remember. Love all, Serve all, and Remember God.

I grew up chafing at religion, God, and the like so the use of the word God is always slightly problematic. Ram Dass talks of God, guru, and self all being one so I get what he means by remembering God. I finally made the connection of the missing link of vibration and it relates to what this blog post is all about. Maharaji would sit all day with his blanket and mumble “ram, ram, ram, ram…”. Ram being God. Everyday, in his notebook he’d write two pages of “ram, ram, ram, ram…”. He’d have his beads in his hands constantly counting them while remembering God. He mastered vibration and was using these techniques to stay in the crown chakra! So, he gives the simple instruction “Remember God.” You want to hang out at this level of consciousness then it’s really easy. Spend every waking moment doing acts that will bring you to God. You want to be in the heart chakra then Love All and Serve All. That’s it. Easy, right?

the serpent power

This study of tantra has opened up a liberating line of thinking. It has led me to experience the chakra energy centres within the subtle body non-linearly instead of treating them as a conceptual ladder of ascension that symbolize achievement of spiritual bona fides. What I mean is all the energy within the body can be experienced and it’s all sacred. Instead of treating the lower chakras such as the second chakra of sexual energy as a gross manifestation of energy that needs to be refined and purified, I was shown that the creative power which sustains life is the direct result of this energy. This knowledge has been staring me in the face and I have been denying it all my life due to cultural hang-ups about sex. Once it was pointed out to me, I immediately connected to this wisdom and felt so free. It does tie into liberation where you let go of your narrative and the hold culture has on you and just sit with what you experience. It’s so natural and yet sexual energy is denied and buried in our culture. It is the rocket boost to send you up on your way in your journey of ascension after unification and transformation.

Another revelation is the nature of each of the chakra energy centres and how we have subsequently organized, structured, and placed them into a hierarchy. Once again, it is through liberation of thought I connected with different ways of perceiving energy. It was pointed out by a teacher that in meditation you don’t experience these states in the order you read about them. I definitely already knew that but and it’s strange this fact had to be pointed out to me so I could register and acknowledge the reality of these vibrational centres. Perhaps I thought I was an outlier? The energy centres are non-linear and can be accessed independently of the others. Quite often in meditation you may find yourself in the higher states and you will notice your access was not a linear and structured progression to get there. First off, I’ve experienced a purple energy, followed by an energy that resembles an eye, as well as a bluish energy encircled by gold speckles. These are the higher spiritual states yet they are what I experience during deep meditation. The lower chakra centres on the ascending scale I have never directly experienced in meditation, though curiously with the plant medicine Huachuma they manifest as smouldering hot red and orange flames of passion that lead to the heart and a green energy becomes palpable. The power experienced is non-linear and it’s our left hemispheric brain which takes a perceptual experience, devoid of a linear defining characteristic, and organizes them into some kind of achievement to be ascended a step at a time. It’s very funny to see the process that the masculine mind tries to overlay upon the non-structured feminine.

As with all attempts of defining experiences on this path, it’s near impossible to fit chakras into a non-linear or linear box. Though I realized I can access their respective vibratory states in a non-linear fashion, the actual linear ladder like climb is the stuff of the masculine hero on his journey of ascension. Each power centre acts as a block on the path and the one that holds your particular predilections is the most arduous of them all to break free of. In my case, I found a dragon that prevented full access to this tree of life however I was able to move past him after developing a little courage and bravery. The second chakra of life passions, desires, lusts, and urges has been my particular bugaboo and the biggest block upon my path. It wasn’t until I understood the vibratory nature of existence that I was able to master this frequency. Onwards towards the third chakra and my egoistic aspirations and personal power. Like all, I have selfishness however I have never exalted myself or tried to take advantage of others for personal gain. The one roadblock I do see in this frequency is spiritual inflation. To put it bluntly, I know I’m god. That’s a tough one to not succumb to inflating one’s outlook upon themselves. I think it’s kind of funny and I know you’re god too so I don’t think I’ll get too stuck. It’s the next chakra, the heart, that I’ll need to spend some time on. Head up and heart forward.

In addition, chakras are dualistic so that each energy centre has a positive and negative charge. For instance, the second chakra can undulate with desire or can express the awesome ability to create. The throat chakra gives you the power of words to use to enchant, influence, or tell the truth. It’s your choice in how you want to use the power bestowed by the flowering of the energy.

As with most experiences on my spiritual journey, I experienced the coming on and rising of the kundalini energy and had no idea what was going on. Looking back on my early experiences with the plant magic of Ayahuasca and Huachuma, I can see how powerful they are for changing consciousness in addition to taking you into states of energetic rapture where it’s trial by fire. Even if I had studied tantric yoga and was intellectually immersed in all outcomes of the psychedelic states, nothing compares to actually being in the eye of the storm. The second time I drank Huachuma, my whole body started vibrating with the energy reaching a crescendo that brought me to my knees. The sensation was this fluttering within that was very strong. Think of a giant moth buzzing behind your ear with a great vibration but that being within your body. I felt my heart opening but wasn’t scared by the effect it was having on my heart. I could very easily see someone thinking they are having a heart attack. Instead, I just stayed on the ground with my whole body in some kind of a pre-orgasmic state. I closed my eyes and saw two huge serpents flanking an incredible ball of intense light. I held out my hands for others to touch so they could feel the energy and someone else wondered what I was experiencing. I blurted out “serpent energy” which was strange because I just said it without thinking. Throughout the rest of the day I was seeing serpent shapes in the ground and cycling in and out of highly energetic states.

I had no idea at the time what happened. I was taken aback by all of it and was even unsure at the time if I should drink Huachuma again. I convinced myself to experience this potentiator of energy a couple days later and looking back I can clearly see what happened. I was blasted into the heart chakra. I sat on the boat on the Amazon river and felt this incredible cosmic bliss. My heart was wide open and I looked up into the sky and this rainbow patch formed. We got off the boats and I felt such love for the tribe we were visiting. I physically started seeing energy manifest all around me and I was confused by this novel experience and spiralled down again. When we returned to the boats I sat beside the shaman don Rober and once again my heart opened but it was so strange. How bizarre that I’d spent my life with a heart so closed that when it was opened I was confused by the sensation. As we returned to the Sanctuary, I looked into the distance and saw manifest heavenly apparitions of fireworks. I now look back on the experience as a celebration of blasting through the energetic chakra centres and then lighting off fireworks at the completion. The funny thing was at the time I had no idea and just wanted off the ride!

The musical scale mimics these energy centres within the body. This is vibrational magic and the expression "good vibes" is not just a trite expression. Changing vibration is how the magic works. In order to access occluded planes of consciousness, alter your vibration. Practice the ability to modulate frequency through love, emotion, music, speech, desire, and the like. Try singing the musical scale now. Do Re Mi Fa So La Ti Do. Notice how you start deep within and to hit the high note requires you to look towards the top of your head to hit it. It’s a pretty good meditation to sing the ascending scale and then reverse it so the energy descends. Now, notice the rhythm section in a piece of music. It’s a low-level bass and drums. Just like the root chakra, it is the pulse of our life beating out our song.

Within your daily life you can find experiences and practices to further you along on your journey. Obviously, it is impractical to function day to day high on a mind-manifesting substance that changes your vibration so the answer is to make your life the spiritual practice you seek. 

experiential

My pulsing energy within is the intertwined feminine Serpent and the masculine Jaguar. This is the conjunction of power where earth meets sky and the sun and moon energies collide. The Hindu chakra system of ascension of the earth based feminine Kundalini serpent tells half of this eternal story. The masculine energy as a bull or feline descends into our sacred vessels from the sky. The meeting place of these two lovers is in the centre, the fourth chakra, which is the heart chakra.

It’s through the use of psychedelic substances that I was able to sense this eternal truth and subsequently make the connection to ancient spiritual paths. Consciousness altering methods allow the human access to obfuscated sense perceptions normally unavailable to us.

The ascension of the serpent gives rise to achievement and spurs on the masculine goal of enlightenment of our physical form. The descending of the masculine energy as spirit is the energy to rouse the sleeping serpent. I experienced this in an Ayahuasca ceremony where I envisioned my crown chakra being permanently opened and the white light continuously entering and lighting up the seven energy centres in a continual process as each chakra lit up with its respective colour. It was during a Vilca experience a year and a half later where I witnessed these eternal and imperishable beings made of love and powered by ever-transforming light. It’s only now that I finally connected these two visions. The beings were composed of the love of the Goddess and the light of the God. This is what is described and experienced in moments of rapture when the Kundalini rises up the Ida channel after the spirit descends the Pingala to rouse and propitiate her. A third plant medicine, Huachuma, first allowed me to physically experience this phenomenon, though at the time I was gobsmacked. The second time I drank Huachuma, the energy within was potentiated and I became lit up with power and disoriented to the novel experience. My whole body was shaking with an intense electrical charge and my heart was fluttering with a tremendous energy load. I closed my eyes and saw an intense ball of white light surrounded by two larger than life serpents. I was experiencing the full effects of the chakra cycle, lit up by the light and the power of the Kundalini serpent. Subsequently with Huachuma, I can experience intense states of an energetic load as I am a conduit for the pulsing of the two eternal energies of the universe. I can also experience this reaction within as a burning hot passionate flame that radiates from my being. I close my eyes and I see smouldering colours of an intensity that is combustible.

The great pre-Columbian South American civilization at Chavín de Huántar, which used the sacrament of Huachuma to build community, deserves a second look in conjunction with the principles ascertained in the chakra system of the Hindus. This post Bronze Age civilization marked a high point and probably the last flicker of a flame of human co-operation before we devolved into a race defined by conflict. Chavín represented the axis mundi and is where the confluence of elemental energies and cultures converged. It is in the stone idol we call the lanzon that the two eternal energies of the feminine serpent and the masculine jaguar come together as one representing the same love and light captured in stone as I detailed above. In addition, the designation of Chavín comes from the transposition of a Quechua word chapin via the root word chaupi which refers to the heart in the middle of this grand reconciliation of all in this great temple in the Peruvian highlands. The connections to the Hindu chakras are tantalizing and helps understand the teachings. The serpent and jaguar, one rising and one falling, meet in the middle at the heart chakra. Our human potential, powered by the rising Kundalini becomes conjoined with the descent into the human of our spiritual potential which then meet in the heart space. We can experience rapture with the rising energy while the spiritual energy comes to awaken our eternal self and lift us up.

I’ve experienced this, seen it at work, and then saw my destiny as an imperishable and eternal being made of the love of the serpent and the ever-transforming light of the jaguar. I finally added it up and can now clearly see it.

Within my own European heritage this same knowledge has been preserved in myth. Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs representing the feminine presence within the seven energy centres along with the Prince who awakens Sleeping Beauty from her sleep being the masculine power giving the feminine the power to wake up and rise.

This experience of the energy within is real and palpable. I invite us all to go on the most magnificent journey of discovery that will lead to revealing your destiny. 

remnants of the mystery

The mystery further unravels. First, I had to discover and uncover the power within. Feeling that power for the first time is a rush and since you have no idea what it is, it’s pretty unnerving and you want it to stop. Personally, new experiences are pretty daunting and I usually fail them with aplomb and need time to figure them out. This template was active for my work with plant medicines. At first, they scared the hell out of me and sent me running for cover. However, they were intriguing enough that I came back to explore. This perseverance amounts to the best decision I have ever made. Since I kept at it, the modus operandi of my life predicted I’d figure them out and if I kept at it long enough I’d master the process. I’m not there yet but I see it’s attainable.

You can do physical exercises to rouse and move the energy around. In the end, it isn’t transformational. What is transformational is realizing how to naturally generate the power without tricks of posture. If you wish to open your heart chakra then love everyone. It really is that simple. I’ll repeat: If you wish to experience love energy which radiates from the chest then love all. Just like if you want to feel sexual energy go look at porn. It generates energy for sure. If you are unsure about what I’m referring to, start with sexual energy, as it is the easiest to unlock in order to understand the power that resides within you. Essentially, the energy centres designated as chakras are letting you know of all the available power within, not just the titillating and dirty power! Once the connection is understood, you can start making changes in your behaviour that will unlock each and every power centre. Tell the truth! The throat chakra will pulse with a renewed vigour as telling the truth sets you free and unlocks the rest of the story once you give up the limiting narrative which gives your power away. I am reminded about a story Ram Dass tells when he asks his guru how to get enlightened, expecting a detailed plan to achieve his goal. Maharaji simply told him, “Love all and tell the truth.” Imagine that! Imagine being given that instruction and being bewildered. What? I’m to get enlightened by loving all and telling the truth? Later on in life after this simple teaching, Ram Dass started the Love Serve Remember foundation. Each of those core principles will potentiate chakra energy and lead to unlocking the energetic potential within our sacred vessels. The love will radiate. Through service we will forgo the personal power to control found in the blossoming of the third chakra, and by remembering we will remember Goddess and God and direct our passionate energy towards union with the divine.

So, what have I figured out since I’ve done my fair share of exploring via plant medicines? The power within that’s activated by the reconciliation of the feminine and masculine powers. When you bring them together it lights your being up with power; it rises and there are options of how you wish to channel the energy. I can activate the power with the tobacco maestro Mapacho, potentiate it at my Mesa, and subsequently the union rises up within me.

So, what’s the big deal? It’s the evolution of consciousness; the forging together of this power with consciousness and the next stop on the evolutionary ladder is a multi-dimensional being made of the love of the feminine and powered by the ever-transforming light of the masculine. The two powers as separate need each other or they remain potential. The love of the feminine creates form however she will lapse into smothering and darkness without the masculine. The light of the masculine separates and brings the universe to life however this power will become destructive if not tempered by the love of the feminine. When the two powers combine and are reconciled into the centre then the power rises on up through you and you blast off; greater than the gods as you are the child of the two greater powers and you become free as a bird while riding the wind like a butterfly.

Ancient civilizations taught this to their adherents however we have lost their knowledge. The remnants of the mystery remain somewhat in Hindu chakra practices with the propitiating of the feminine Kundalini serpent by the masculine power. She ascends through the seven energy centres within the body before exiting through the crown chakra into the astral plane. Faints echoes exist in ancient Egypt where we have records of night time dancing, singing, drumming, and intoxicants used to gain favour with the serpent Goddess Wadjet, who was a representation of the Great Goddess Hathor, at her temple in Dendera. She was exhorted to come forth and rise; enlivening and renewing life in all she touched. A representation of this process is also found in the pre-Columbian civilization at Chavín de Huántar where the Lanzón acted as the axis mundi in the centre of centres. The Andes mountains valley plain of Chavín comes from the Quechua word chaupin which refers to the centre from chaupi which is the heart space much like in the chakra system the mid-point of the energetic journey, both acceleration and deceleration, is found in the heart chakra. The stone idol is made of the feminine serpent form and powered by the masculine jaguar energy. This strange artistic creation is the pure genius of a civilization that successfully depicted non-duality in stone in contrast to the Hindu non-dualists who were able to articulate in their language this concept. The reconciliation of the opposite powers is found in the centre and from this undifferentiated form projects out into the universe the multitude of objects that are differentiated by the light of the rising power. The combination of rising energy and consciousness leads to the metaphor of the liberated eagle flying free in the heavens as a representation of the process of the evolution of consciousness. It is a reconciliation of the opposites of feminine and masculine, ignited with the rising power. The final stage of the journey culminating in blasting off into a heavenly realm with extremely limited access. At the ancient site of Chavín, the catalysts for accomplishing this journey were the plant medicines Huachuma and Vilca in combination with the practice of the Mesa. The Mesa exoterically presents to you the reconciliation of the opposite powers of feminine and masculine, life and death, light and dark, upper and lower worlds, water and sky, and brings them all into the centre in the middle world where we are now. Esoterically, the practitioner of the Mesa channels the power coming forth from this construct into their being as an accelerant for the journey ahead. The plant medicine Huachuma activates the power within and additionally floods you with sensations of love. The plant medicine Vilca is the final step; a nitro boost that takes you the last step beyond the body for a glimpse of your destiny.

I’ve been there and have put two and two together. I invite you to explore with me.