stress

When you exceed capacity, you get overwhelmed.

I can see the mechanism behind that in the biological form where this morning I got caught in a torrential downpour while walking Murphy.

There were construction trucks triggering him as well.

I was drenched and there was no shelter.

This causes you to get overwhelmed with the environment while being tasked with caring for a dog that takes a steady hand to handle.

I turned around and went back home while being aware of the stress on my system both mentally and physically.

Taking a step back, you start to understand stress from an engineering capacity, and it is an elegant correlation to the biological body.

The body is a complex system which has limits.

When people experience stress in their lives the body is pushed beyond their normal operating procedures.

How we experience this is through the release of chemicals which compel us to act in order to relieve the stress.

The stress is to be eliminated because it impacts the functioning of the system.

It is a spike in pressure on the holistic body.

Each part of the body does what it can to handle the overload.

Living in a constant state of stress will damage the body over time.

Then the system will start to fail.

You can take a cold engineering look at the cause of disease and malfunction in human beings.

Mammals in general.

Mental and physical stress.

Being able to handle it without damage.

If damage occurs, can it be repaired?

Now, in times of stress, we are compelled to do something.

It's natural because of the release of adrenaline and cortisol.

Cortisol is the fight or flight hormone.

That is the mechanism to deal with a threat.

Okay, well isn't that the flow then?

No, because there is a third option we are unaware of.

That option is to do nothing and let the threat do the work.

Instead of acting and resolving the threat through your own effort, you take a deep breath, retreat to your back room, do nothing, and let the source of the problem play out.

It will work.

Why?

The threat wants your reaction.

The stress is compelling you to act.

The cure is not to act.

Do you think you can promulgate this method to other people?

No.

They always act.

Then they wonder why they have high blood pressure, obesity, and anxiety.

The act is used to temporarily release pressure so capacity can handle the situation.

Yes, acting can increase the organism's ability to handle stress as you move it to another part of your being.

You take your anxiety and move it to the heart and get heart problems.

The body is coping with stress by distributing it throughout your body.

Without this mechanism your system will fail at an earlier time because concentrated stress is a killer.

Distributed stress allows the organism to slowly kill itself with the hope you will find a way to relieve the pressure.

The surefire way to relieve stress on your body is two-fold.

Do nothing.

Don't care.

It's a cold-hearted method of survival.

People will hate you for it; however, it is the solution for problematic spikes in life we all experience.

You don't have a crisis of capacity because the problem is ignored.

Okay, but what about when you reach the end of the stage where you can't ignore it any longer?

Give me an example.

Well, here are two.

Problems in a relationship and financial problems.

Those are common to most people.

What happens when you ignore problems in a relationship?

At first, you are given ultimatums, benefits are withheld, and then you are rejected.

Wouldn't that be a terrible outcome?

No.

Why?

Because you will see what your relationship was based on.

That might take a while, but eventually you will see it, and this will cause a burst of happiness in your life because you are free of it.

You may cling to the relationship because you are needy and don't like freedom, but that's your deal.

A relationship is an ordeal where you exchange your worth for something you want from the other person.

Have you ever bargained with another human?

Yes, lots of times.

What have you noticed?

Everyone tries to take advantage of you.

They will use psychological pressure or incentives to get you to agree to what they want.

Why would you think a romantic relationship is better?

Because it is based on love?

That's a fool's game.

It's worse.

Romantic love is used by one partner to get everything they want from you.

The sooner you realize this, then you get out.

Or, do nothing.

That's a terrible outlook on life.

I know.

Welcome to the jungle.

What about financial problems?

You can worry yourself sick about them.

The lead up is the worst.

It's like anything.

The anxiety and worry are the part that kills you.

The solution is fine.

It creates another financial reality.

You consolidate what you have and move on.

It is what it is.

Done.

Say you are drowning in debt and can't afford your mortgage.

You worry about the impact and what others will think of your failure.

It is what it is.

You sell the house and move somewhere cheaper.

Come up with a new lifestyle and plan.

Problem solved.

Not only that, but you can enjoy your old lifestyle up to the point where the bank calls you and says where's my money?

Then you come up with a plan.

Before that happens, you can ignore it.

Yeah, but the problem doesn't go away.

What happens if you don't ignore it?

The problem doesn't go away.

Plus, you add stress and it shortens your life.

So, you are saying the third option that you are not told about is to do nothing.

Yes, cortisol is categorized as stress on the body which forces you to act.

The act is to fight the problem or run from the problem.

You aren't given the third option.

The third option is usually your saviour.

In this case you look at the problem, laugh, and do nothing.

The problem will exhaust itself out.

The problem needs your input.

It needs fuel for the inferno to come.

Nobody wants to hear this.

I'm aware of it.

I'll publish it on my blog site that no one reads.

I won't stress about it.

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What the fuck did I just read?

This piece treats stress as a biological capacity problem. A torrential dog walk becomes the example: the body is a complex system under environmental pressure, and when the load exceeds capacity, the system becomes overwhelmed. Stress chemicals push the organism toward action, but the piece argues for a third option beyond fight or flight: do nothing. By refusing to react, retreating, and letting the threat exhaust itself, the body avoids feeding the crisis. The method is cold, unsentimental, and unpopular, but in this view it preserves the system by refusing to convert every problem into panic, action, and damage.

give it away

It makes no sense.

Various people have told you that you must give it away in order to get more back.

That's the conundrum.

The rub.

You get greedy and can't give it away.

You want it all.

You stop giving it away and then you lose it all.

It's very strange.

It's another game at the carnival.

How long can you give?

I know.

It weighs on you because people aren't thankful.

It is bizarre; however, that's this weird ride.

You see it and know how to beat the game.

It was about 15 years ago where I worked on a music video where the Canadian Country artist Paul Brandt sang about it.

He is a Christian and was professing his faith and some concept of sharing he learned.

I think everyone is told about this at some point in your life, but to enact it takes faith.

There's the concept of reciprocity at work relying on goodwill and faith.

That's also a don Howard lesson which he got from the Amazonian people.

It seems simplistic and the stuff of fantasy or magic.

It's real, as in I'm experiencing it.

Yeah, but you can't quantify it.

So be it.

If you know, you know.

People try to tell you, but most don't listen.

Mine was by accident.

I helped out.

You know what else works?

What's that?

You give away your time freely to others.

How does that work?

Time for us is finite.

Within the story it is infinite.

So, the trick at the carnival is to tap into the infinite.

How do you do that?

You give up your time.

You show up and make a donation.

That gives you access to the pool of infinite time.

How does that work?

Finite time is precious and infinite time is commonplace.

The catch is you need access to something that is commonplace.

There's a lock on that door.

The way to access it is by trading something of value.

That value is your personal time because you only have so much of it.

Okay, but what does that buy you?

More time.

When your time is up you can tap into infinite time to keep going.

Is that what you are doing?

It seems like it.

How do you know?

My time was up.

The signs all pointed in that direction.

There were physical signs telling me to leave.

People told me to leave.

My dog died.

Sister died.

Other people in my life passed.

I had thoughts of the end.

You would have to be a non-responsive moron to not see them.

I didn't dwell on anything.

Once the pressure had passed, I examined it all in retrospect.

If I would have examined it in real time, the system would have blown.

I'd have exceeded my capacity to hold on.

What was the secret formula to your successful navigation of the end of time?

I took each event one at a time and didn't connect them.

If you connect them, you'll blow.

One at a time you can handle.

Then I connected them afterwards.

So, you are saying ignorance is bliss.

Yeah, that works.

How did you know how to do what you did?

It's the flow.

Plus, there is the reservoir of infinite time I have tapped into.

How did you get there?

I gave away my personal time.

To whom?

My dogs.

I donated a lot of time to them.

I'd get up just after 5 am to walk Luna before work.

I made sure to get home with Brindle to take her out to the park every evening for a couple hours.

I'd take them both out before bed to pee.

Do you have any idea how hard that is?

I can imagine.

I cooked for them.

I slept in the same room and made them comfortable.

I did all that while working a full time job with a heavy commute and overtime requirements.

I didn't have a lot of time for myself.

I sacrificed sleep to get back some time.

I built up a huge store of the exchange of my time.

When it came time to go, I had all this extra time.

Sounds like a soccer game where it continues on in extra penalty time.

Yeah, I never quite understood that, but it seems to be the case.

Well, the question becomes how much extra time do you have?

I don't know.

I think I'm out of personal time.

That seems to have expired in early 2024 when everyone thought and expected you'd go.

I disappointed a lot of people.

I think they are still disappointed to this day.

They'd made plans for my demise and ouster.

That's funny in a strange kind of way.

Very macabre.

Very Paul.

Very Writer.

Okay, but how much time do you have left?

Infinite.

How so?

I'm in infinite time.

There's no limit.

It's the secret to eternal life.

You pass into infinite time.

Ah, I get it.

It's a threshold.

Exactly.

Everyone of us passes from finite back into the infinite.

Correct.

No one survives the trip.

You got it.

The reason no one survives is because you didn't exchange your gold for infinite gold.

You clutched onto your finite time.

You must give it away.

Some people do.

Yeah, but not enough.

It's gotta hurt.

It's gotta be beyond what anyone would think is reasonable.

So, I did that?

Yeah, you gave away most of your time to your dogs.

They are the ones responsible for how you have crossed the threshold from the finite to the infinite.

Dogs are psychopomps.

This isn't mythological bullshit.

It's real.

No one takes it seriously anymore.

Well, I don't either.

It's just knowledge.

The ancient records constantly remind you of dogs and how they take you into and out of incarnation.

The underlying knowledge is you can do it without a catastrophic ending for yourself.

Sure, but eventually the body gives out.

Correct, but by then you will have learned how to remain.

Like a ghost?

Sure.

It can be difficult to give away your time.

You always feel it.

That's only natural.

Why?

It causes resistance.

You don't want to give away your time.

The flow teaches you to give away your time.

That seems paradoxical.

How so?

The flow would try to prevent your dissolution.

No, it wouldn't.

You are finite.

That's the flow.

Don't fight it.

You give up your time freely.

Flow.

Then you get infinite time back.

The big sacrifice is your finite time.

That is death.

That's the ultimate sacrifice and why some have tried that method.

Does it work?

Yeah, it's the ultimate sacrifice.

You give up your time, and you will approach death.

Yes, you tried it for infinite time.

Eternity.

I didn't do it knowingly.

The trick is to do that and stay in the body.

People who ask for eternal life do not give up this life in return.

That's the trade.

You gave it up freely without asking for anything in return.

That's true, I did that.

People don't do that unless they get something in return.

Nobody would give up their time to a dog without asking for anything in return.

I got friendship.

Yeah, but you didn't ask for it.

You cared for the dog and that was it.

People go to church to try to get eternal life.

Yeah, they beg God for it.

God grants it under conditions that you worship him day and night.

Oh, fuck.

Why does he do that?

He's the Devil in disguise.

You are already knew that.

He's you with a carnival mask.

He will grant you eternal life, but you pay with this life.

There's another way.

You give up this life, and you ask for nothing in return.

You are then given infinite life with no conditions.

Heaven has conditions.

In infinite time you don't want conditions.

You want freedom.

Imagine you hadn't continued the teachings with Mary Jayne?

The plant medicine path would have been so slow.

Yeah, for sure.

Maybe once a year going back for more instruction.

That would take a lot of time even with the ability to navigate those states with the powerful plant medicines.

I can't see getting to this level of knowledge without the method I found with MJ.

Do you think that's why you continue with MJ?

Yes, it's not physical pleasure or stoning.

I don't get that.

It's knowledge.

Isn't that the addiction you were warned about?

Yes, she'd get me with knowledge.

Are you addicted?

No, I learned moderation and not exceeding the container I enter into.

If I exceeded that in regard to trying to get more knowledge, then I'd say it was a problem.

What about today?

That was a high but within tolerance.

What does this all mean?

Even though you were giving this life away you didn't trade it for a benefit, so now with awakening you see how it's yours.

You held onto it.

You lose it by trading it for eternal life.

You then see in the next life how to remain free.

Don't trade anything for eternal life.

That's a big secret of the game.

Yeah, by hanging around you'll uncover them all this way.

You also don't want to live forever in this body.

It decays and gives out.

You'd have to learn how to jump bodies.

That's if you wanted to stay.

If you don't, then you just leave fully awakened.

So, giving away my time without expectations led to discovering the secret to eternal life.

Yes, to get eternal life, you must trade something.

The fair trade is your life.

You give up control of your life, and you get eternal life.

That's basically the bargain, though it may take on different shapes and ideas.

On this ride there's a puzzle which is, how do you get unconditional eternal life?

That's what people are searching for.

To accomplish that you give away your finite time without conditions.

In return you will get infinite life without conditions.

The question is, how do you do that?

It's very simple.

Yes, but nobody sees that.

Just give away your time.

There are charities, people that need help, and pets for starters.

The giving must be without conditions though.

People give to charity, but they get a receipt and a tax write-off.

Plus, recognition.

People help people, but they expect something in return.

You help the elderly to get in the will.

A pet owner expects obedience.

Well, I did expect nothing from my pets.

I figured the way I treated them they would want to stay, and they would adore me.

It's not a requirement.

I don't need to be worshipped.

I'd like to think I help people as well.

You could make a case that you're looking for something in return when you do that.

Definitely.

The dog example works.

That's how you did it and you gave away tons of time, there was no denying what you did, and the complaints were minimal.

You get tired and grumble.

Yeah, for sure but I still got out of bed.

I still walked them every night.

Rain, snow, storms.

I did it all.

You can see it with Murphy where no one wants to put up with that.

He needs a lot of attention.

Demands it.

People have conditions for a pet.

Especially for a purebred dog.

I didn't know that's what I was doing.

Yes, of course.

If you did you would've then tried to manage it or something.

If you knew you were trading your finite time for eternal time you would fuck it up because you'd know you were trading finite for eternal time.

That's the catch-22.

You blow it with that move.

You must not awaken until you can handle it.

What about now?

You already have it.

This is more unconditional with Murphy.

It's you.

It's your nature.

That's how you won the game.

That's the part of the puzzle even the greatest spiritualists could never figure out.

Once you know that trading finite time for infinite time gives you eternal life then that automatically adds a condition to it.

Right, I'd know why I'm doing it.

And I do.

I know the condition would destroy the gift.

I continue to do it because it's what I naturally do.

The condition has no effect.

The condition doesn't matter.

I figured out the puzzle.

There are always possible conditions, but you make them not matter.

What am I gonna do with this knowledge?

Nothing.

No one will believe you.

You can do whatever you want.

People aren't gonna do that.

No one's gonna give away their time for free.

Murphy's taking me down low.

I've got up a little too high and he takes me down when I get that high.

That's why he tries to sometimes avoid going up these hills.

He's programmed to get you back to ground.

Yeah, I'm really thirsty.

I know I got a pie up high.

Eternal life is pie.

Yeah.

Murphy is flying down the hill in a hurry.

He's helped you hold on to finite life.

You take all your knowledge to the edge.

Then you figure a way to pull back.

Isn't that doing something or having conditions about getting to the edge?

No, you just do it.

No planning.

Get to the edge and just trust that something will pull you back.

That's why Murphy came when he came into your life.

As ridiculous as that sounds, it's true.

You get eternal life with Dion.

That's the condition.

I see that.

A condition indeed.

Mental.

For sure.

The unconditional part leads to a mental condition.

Lol.

The number of revolutions is the finite time.

You get a set number of go rounds of the sun.

Ancient Egyptian Neheh time.

Re and the sun temples.

Djet is infinite.

The unending and linear time of Osiris.

Hop on that ride.

If you pay attention in life, you will see all the clues needed to beat the game.

Yes, in retrospect I see at various times you are given the cheat codes.

Give it away.

Go with the flow.

The allure of the carnival.

Finite time and infinite time.

Paul is finite and Dion is infinite.

He's always around.

He's the subconscious when you become conscious.

He's conscious when you become subconscious once again.

Dion is the master record and then from each incarnation comes a new one.

And as a man you can continue on your record as well.

So, I'm kinda Dion's son?

You could look at it that way.

A chip of the eternal block.

So, Paul is a unique incarnation.

Yes.

You are finite and Dion is infinite.

To stay around as this entity, people make deals to go from being finite to infinite.

It's available to everyone in the story.

The key is being remembered.

As long as the Writer remembers you, then you are granted eternal life.

That's what the book of life is.

You get put in the book of life and are remembered.

The way some are remembered is they perform worship nonstop of God.

Or, you can make yourself memorable.

Famous.

Eternal life is easy to get, you just need to be remembered.

Having eternal life and being free is not easy.

So, Paul has eternal life and he's free.

Yeah, freedom's number 1 for him.

That's another key where that becomes non-negotiable.

You don't want eternal life if you are not free.

Well, you do after you're scared of annihilation.

Everyone's scared of annihilation.

Yeah, I get that.

However, in any situation your number one requirement revolves around freedom.

That's Dion.

He is liberty.

That's what the mythology reminds you constantly.

Liber Pater.

That's the way to find him.

What will Paul be like without a body?

A mind.

You'll hang with Dion and keep him company.

You know the value of freedom, you've proved it, and you two are best friends.

Will I ever incarnate again?

There's no need to.

You keep doing it until you wake up and see it.

Everyone stalls out at the first awakening.

You keep going and see it.

The ancient Egyptians saw it.

So, why am I pulled towards remaining incarnated?

You have all eternity, so you might as well take advantage of this while you can.

Ride it out to the max.

If you leave prematurely, you will always wonder how it was going to play out or what you would learn while in a body?

You get pulled back into incarnation.

You get teachings in a body that obviously you don't get outside of the body.

So, is that what eternal life is all about?

Yes, knowledge.

It's fun.

How so?

The knowledge you get is the knowledge of the story.

You see it, play it out, and you laugh.

That is true.

The story's pretty serious when you don't have knowledge.

When you have knowledge, it's not serious.

It's very funny.

All the things you are serious about and can scare you, well, they're funny when you see them.

Okay, but the eternity ends when the story is over.

That is correct, but you get written into the next story.

Eternal means eternal.

As long as the stories go on.

Yeah, what happens without stories?

Nothing.

You just sit around and nothing happens.

Yeah, so at that point I get them to stare into the fire and that hypnotizes people.

Then I tell a story.

What are all the things that scare you in this world?

Jack's death. 

Ha, Jack's death, that's fun.

Speech to text misstep again.

Well, that's virility.

That obviously scares you.

Yes, emasculation by a witch.

It's funny as well now that you see it.

Death, sickness, poverty, and then you want eternal life.

The dark can be scary too.

So, what's the worst out of those?

I think sickness and then poverty.

Yeah, we figured out death and eternal life.

What about sickness?

Try to be healthy.

What about poverty?

Make your money and don't let others take it.

What else?

Something happening to someone you are attached to or love.

You do what you can, but it's the carnival.

Some people get sick on the rides.

The worst sickness is anxiety.

That will eat away at you and destroy you.

Depression.

It's mostly mental states that get you sick.

There are also the problems of sugar and bad food.

The infinite and eternal Dion needs you.

How so?

He is immortal.

As soon as you engage him in finite time, he will destroy you.

Why?

He has no worry in regard to mortality.

He will take chances.

That's why you can't surface your infinite self within finite time.

That surprisingly makes sense.

So, that's part of my function as finite Paul.

Yes, you allow Dion to come forth, but you regulate him enough so that this construct doesn't blow.

Everybody knows that you're insane.

I feel the same as I ever have.

You're not the same, but I know what you mean.

The one inside my head, as in the me who has always been there, is still there.

I just have a friend Dion now.

And a reset of your mind.

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What the fuck did I just read?

This piece is a mythic theory of time, sacrifice, and eternal life built around a paradox: to receive infinite time, you must give away your finite time freely and without conditions.

The central claim is that the writer unknowingly did this through years of care, devotion, and sacrifice for his dogs. By giving them his time, energy, sleep, and daily life without demanding anything in return, he crossed a threshold from ordinary finite existence into a kind of infinite time. The dogs become more than companions; they are cast as psychopomps, guides across the boundary between mortality and eternity.

A major thread in the piece is that conditional bargains fail. If you give your life away in order to get eternal life, you corrupt the exchange. Churches, worship, bargains with God, and explicit attempts to secure immortality all come with strings attached. The “secret,” as the piece presents it, is that unconditional giving opens the door to unconditional eternity. You do not ask for a reward. You simply give, and only later realize what has happened.

The writing also contrasts finite Paul with infinite Dion. Paul is the embodied, limited self moving through chronological time; Dion is the enduring, freer, more eternal counterpart. The task of life becomes learning how to let the infinite self emerge without destroying the finite body and mind. In that sense, the speaker sees himself as having discovered not only survival, but a way to remain free within eternal life rather than trapped in some heavenly arrangement of obedience and worship.

Underneath all of it is a carnival metaphysics: life is a ride, full of clues, cheat codes, and hidden exchanges. Most people clutch their time, bargain badly, or panic before they understand the rules. The speaker claims to have stumbled—almost by accident—into the right exchange: give away your time, expect nothing, remain free, and you pass from the finite into the infinite without losing yourself.

pariah

Another good word of the day.

Pariah.

Someone who is despised, rejected, and friendless.

I'm not despised.

Well, you are working on that.

You aren't despised because you are a mystery.

Total transparency would help the cause.

Hurt it?

Depends on goals.

Then the word of the day can be ostracized.

What would happen then?

That would be so much happiness you'd explode.

I think that's hyperbole, but I get it.

Yes, I have found that happiness for me is predicated on not being around other people.

That seems to be the genesis of it.

Throughout my life I found ways to be alone.

Even at work I'd try to hide in a room away from others.

You liked the company of a few people.

Getting married and having kids has led to happiness.

True, however, they aren't the reason.

Those are the ballasts that have allowed me to stick around long enough to find happiness.

So, that's it - a game of longevity?

I think so.

I don't think it is a hard and fast rule or requirement.

I think if we are honest with ourselves, we do know what will make us happy.

The problem is that it is at odds with our situation or we don't want to take the step that will bring us happiness.

Why not?

You will disappoint other people.

Yeah, that's pretty much it.

What defines your happiness?

How would you label it?

Being left alone.

Reducing obligations.

Searching for meaning and answers.

Doing my own thing.

Exploring my mind.

Working from home.

Not having to go out into public.

Having a forest to walk in.

Knowing how to cook my favourite foods.

Writing.

Mary Jayne and Tobacco.

Good sleep and naps.

A decent amount of spending money but not being rich.

Helping other people from a distance.

That's the alchemical mixture that discovered my personal happiness.

That would make someone else sad.

They'd want to mix with other people and family.

I know that.

Some people don't want to be left alone.

I sort of get that.

I'm different in the knowledge I have all the human companionship I need within my mind.

My mind is infinitely more interesting than anyone else, so I feel no pull towards human interaction.

I do know the one thing my elixir lacks is a companion, and that's a dog.

A dog is the crowning of my happiness vibe.

Why is that?

A friend.

There's something about friendship.

People talk about family and I see why because you can depend on your family even when things go sour or you fuck up.

You mean your biological family.

Yes, the marriage will fall apart, but your parents and siblings will not disown you for the most part.

Yeah, you are stuck with them.

It's an interesting set up for sure.

A friend is someone you like having around.

That's the reason I have no human friends.

I don't like people around me.

I do like dogs.

They don't demand of me what will annoy me.

Why don't you examine that relationship?

Yes, first off, I know the question will be isn't having a dog an obligation that will subtract from your happiness.

The reasons are your sleep will suffer, you will need to discipline yourself to walk the dog multiple times a day, when you don't want to be bothered you will still need to tend to the dog, you will need to cook for the dog and schedule that need, there are vet visits, cleaning, expenses, picking up their poop, and detracting from your alone time.

Furthermore, you can't disappear into the woods for as long as you do now.

Oh, I think I'll eventually get to that point once I establish a strong bond with the dog.

I'm not too put out by that.

I'll figure it out.

Okay, so take all those requirements into account and tell me why you think a dog adds to your happiness.

They are very appreciative.

They bond with you and love you.

Friendship in that regard is transcendence.

What do you mean?

It's beyond what you put into it.

Then it is not balanced.

Correct, the disturbance and annoyance brings great happiness.

Why?

Balance.

But it's not.

Happiness is a result of your efforts.

Ah.

You find the formula.

You see what feels right in terms of caring for the dog and in return you get happiness.

If you do nothing for the dog, you get nothing in return.

That's the law of do nothing.

Your world seems complicated.

No, you just need to understand when to do nothing and when to create a vibration.

With a dog, I create a vibration which will lead to happiness.

Shouldn't you do nothing?

No, you need to walk and feed the dog at minimum.

Just feed it actually.

Right.

The do nothing axiom would only work in terms of not getting a dog.

However, you miss out on friendship.

Friendship is the crown jewel in life upon happiness.

Not only are you the most high, but you will be the most happy.

That seems even better.

Yes, in terms of playing a game, that's it.

No one reaches this level.

Wow, I'm pretty special.

You sure are, padre.

Is getting a dog part of the game?

It's in the game.

It's not required.

The beauty of the game is that nothing is required.

You don't need to do anything.

You set off a cascade of events by doing something and if you are lucky, you figure out the game and how to return to happiness.

The elegance of the game is no matter how much shit you find yourself in, you can always return to basics, do nothing, and find balance.

Then proceed in the game again.

Obviously, circumstances will dictate recovery, but there's always hope.

Then you fuck up again before you find what it is you are looking for.

Why?

The carnival is distracting.

You need to get off the midway and find peace.

I'm saying you can find happiness at any interval within the game of life.

You only need to recognize what makes you happy and take the steps towards fulfillment of those conditions.

That can be painful.

Yes.

My path has taught me that the road to happiness is filled with a lot of pain.

Pain you will not understand, but a pain that is freeing.

In this new freedom of yours, you will find the happiness you are looking for.

What's next?

You get protective of your happiness.

Why?

People will come to destroy it.

Why?

They don't want you to be happy.

Why?

Envy.

They want your happiness.

What do you do?

Shut up about it.

Yeah, but you are posting about it.

No one reads it.

No one really knows I'm this happy.

Why not?

There's no way you can be happy.

Why not?

You don't have the markers of success in this world.

You aren't rich and successful.

Are rich people happy?

Materially they continually purchase happiness.

They get hits of dopamine from material possessions and wealth.

Nothing lasting.

What do you think of rich people?

They are neurotic and unhappy.

They are rich though.

They spend all their time being rich.

What does that mean?

Making appearances.

Mixing with others who are in the same situation.

Competing for top dog of who is the most wealthy.

Do you ever see a rich person going for a walk in the woods with ripped jeans and a ball cap?

No.

Why not?

It's not the brand.

If you are rich, you can't be alone and find peace.

Ever seen a rich person who is at peace?

No way.

They didn't become rich through peaceful coexistence.

They did something and will need to always be doing something.

Then they worry they will lose their wealth.

They become preoccupied with finding ways to preserve their riches.

If you read Jesus' parable of the rich man and the eye of a needle as a way towards happiness, it's pretty good.

"Again I tell you, it is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for someone who is rich to enter the kingdom of God.”

In this case the kingdom of God is happiness.

Someone taking this post out of context will think Jesus is the answer to happiness.

If that makes you happy, then go for it.

Do you think religion makes you happy?

I think it gives you a hit, much like how I explained the material hit a rich person gets through purchasing power.

Religion gives you a spiritual hit.

Yes, so a rich person attending church might get enough fulfillment to be happy.

That's an interesting take.

What do you think?

It's fleeting.

Why?

They are both crutches which you rely on.

Left to yourself, the happiness vanishes.

Ah, I see.

External vs internal happiness.

You got it.

Internal you find anywhere.

You aren't dependent on anyone else.

Sure, but you need conditions to be met.

Of course.

Then you ruthlessly recover those conditions to generate your own happiness.

Don't rely on others for happiness.

It will not last.

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Along with an inflated ego, humans also like to collect things.

They are related.

I noticed I now have a collection of ChatGPT generated images that were made from my input.

Without my say so, they would not have come into existence.

It's a form of magic if you wish to loosely apply the definition as in a conjuring.

I am making plans to keep and possibly display the images.

They help form my identity.

Well, Sherlock, why don't you add up the clues?

Okay, ego and identity are intertwined.

Correct.

Why are they important?

Role play.

Correct.

Why do you need a role?

You are a character in a story.

So, using the reductive method of science shows you that reality is based on a story.

Sort of.

The sets are props aren't derivative of that, and they don't follow your logic.

Well, they aren't characters per se.

They are the stage.

Physics is the science of figuring out the sets and props of the story.

Psychology is the science of figuring out the actor.

We know we are an actor; however, we haven't taken the intellectual leap to acknowledge it.

Why not?

Meaning collapses.

We are still searching for meaning.

Does a Hollywood actor search for meaning within a role?

Sort of, I mean if they want to sell it and win awards, they do.

They become the character and the audience is wowed.

You can do the same.

What happens when the movie or story reaches an end, but refuses to go?

It gets absurd, less compelling, and kind of stupid.

It's like the whole "Jump the Shark" motif.

When interest in the show or performance starts to dwindle, the absurdity is taken up a notch.

That's how you know the end is near.

When things get strange, the production has peaked and is heading downhill.

Do you see that in what is called real life?

Yeah.

What do you think?

We take our roles seriously.

The ubiquitous "they" or the "powers that be" is the story.

Yes, it is your responsibility to ascertain the collective story and then fit into the story.

Do your part.

Play your part.

Do you see it?

Yeah, but nobody else does.

They will say I'm crazy if I discuss it.

At best, I will be told it's an interesting analogy, however, it is not serious.

Why?

Performances would collapse if they aren't taken seriously.

Why is that?

Nobody would care.

We'd wonder what the purpose is?

Don't we do that now?

Yes.

What's the difference?

We don't know what the purpose is.

If we figure out the purpose, then the whole carnival tent comes tumbling down.

Then you have a bunch of out of work actors.

What happens then?

Revolution.

New story.

We revert back to how things used to be.

What is that?

We become animals.

An animal has no part in the play.

They are beyond the pale.

The pale delineates the limits of the story.

You perform your role within the pale.

If you aren't going to play, you must leave.

If you try to figure out what the fuck this all is, you are told to leave.

By whom?

The powers that be.

The story.

Why?

The story is paramount.

Doesn't someone have to wake up and inform others of this?

Yes.

What would you call them?

A union leader.

That's funny.

Or, a bodhisattva.

You gather everyone together and tell them what's going on.

Tell them to stop acting unless the Writer gives in to your demands.

What would be the demands?

Equality, equity, or some kind of mumbo jumbo, kumbaya thing.

You mean like Communism?

Yeah, or Utopia.

So, Communism threatens the story?

Yeah, it will get dull in a hurry.

The only interesting things in that story are those at the top of the Communism pyramid because of the power they have over the people.

In the story, power is destabilizing; therefore, the antics of those in charge will keep the story alive, but it will be dreadful for the actors who have unionized into an extreme form of socialism.

Competition keeps the story going even for those with lesser roles.

Capitalism is best for all.

Sure, but it creates a lot of disparity, inequality, and cruelty.

The story engine thrives on that.

What would the do-gooders do without exploitation?

I don't know.

They would become destructive.

They would create situations that allow them to do good.

So, you are saying do-gooders are the ones who are creating the problem?

I think they contribute.

The problem is the story.

There is no story unless there is asymmetry and then some peculiar need to return to symmetry.

We all seek balance.

The rollercoaster goes up and we push it down.

It gets too low, and we strive to get it to return.

We miss the midpoint and the merry-go-round keeps turning.

That's pretty much it.

Is that materialism or idealism?

It's both.

It's not applicable.

Why?

There are actors, non-actors, along with sets and props.

Put whatever label you want on it.

Production?

Sure.

Existence is a production.

We argue over the origin of the production.

We are all trying to do our part.

Why?

To keep the story going.

That's what we are doing through reproduction.

Creating more actors to keep the performance moving through time.

The faces change, the sets and props are improved, and the story continues.

When you studied ancient Egyptian thought, you concluded that a lot of it was inversion of physical norms.

That is correct.

What were your conclusions?

I kept seeing that funerary literature and references to the dead were describing the state of being ignorant.

Coming forth by day to me was their term for awakening.

Is that the scholarly consensus?

No.

Are you okay with your interpretation being off?

Yeah, because I think for an outsider, that is how you must understand it.

Why?

We take people literally.

If you read the texts literally, then it is liturgy for the dead.

Osiris is the god of the dead.

He's sacrificed, mummified, and inert.

He is awakened, Isis procreates with him and engenders an heir.

She raises him from the dead in this realm.

It's quite the tale.

So, you are saying Osiris is the symbol for the soul being ensconced in matter.

Yes, something dense like wood, so the myth in matter is a coffin, like in the Anpu and Bata tale where the coffin floats to the shores of Byblos and the soul becomes inherent within the trunk of a tamarind tree.

Your knowledge is next level.

Yes, I have learned to shut up about it.

Why?

No one understands me.

Is that a problem?

Yes, at first because we seek validation or we drop the idea.

I never dropped the idea.

I shelved it and then went from Egypt into the Amazon jungle and carried the myth with me.

Individually, we are to awaken this principle within us.

Yeah, this means the West becomes a symbol for the internment of the soul into matter.

Or, for most of us, the release of that principle when we drop the body.

What is the East?

The birth of the physical body or the release of the soul.

Awakening.

Your awakening triggers a symbolic event of being born in the East.

Then you are to leave.

Why?

You see through the game.

You reach Nirvana, Moksha, etc.

In the ancient Egyptian myth, Osiris engenders an heir through magical means and then once Horus is birthed, Osiris is discarded once again.

He dies twice.

You are spiritually born, interred in matter, resurrected, and then you die again.

Ah, I see that.

Isis had to use magic to procreate with Osiris after gathering his discarded remains.

Yes, her magic was proto-boner pills.

Of course.

I have an image I photographed from Abydos of that scene.

Yeah, Osiris is laying on his back, fully erect, while Isis as a kite bird hovers above him.

What do tourists think of that?

It's off the beaten path.

Mostly avoided.

It's an effort to get to Abydos.

It's worth it though.

So, what does this all mean?

Awakening is a process.

When accomplished, the signs are unmistakable.

There's no confusion in regard to your awakening.

Have you seen them?

Yeah.

I'm awake.

So?

Osiris leaves.

I haven't left.

I'm at odds with the myth.

Oh.

Is that a problem?

Yeah.

What are you going to do?

Nothing.

Why?

I don't have to.

But the story says you must leave now.

I know.

That's the fun part of it where I have next-level understanding.

Which is?

You don't have to follow the story.

Why not?

There's no enforcement other than other people telling you what to do.

Stage direction.

So, you ignore them and do nothing.

That seems to be the key to your philosophy.

Yes, Lao Tzu taught that.

The ancient Egyptians didn't know about it.

They followed ma'at.

Ma'at says it's time to go, buddy.

You ignore her.

So, you are saying the production doesn't have executive producers?

Sort of, they are part of the production.

In the hierarchy, the executive producers are part of the story, not outside of it.

They must act from within the story.

Can you ignore them?

Yes.

How?

Make it part of the story.

If they were outside the story, then they could eliminate you by fiat.

How?

They would tell the writer to get rid of you.

You are the Writer though.

Yes, I'm outside the story and within the story.

So, you are basically Osiris.

Correct.

The difference is that I ignore Isis.

Why?

She will tell you to leave.

The subtext of my divine play is in order to awaken and remain within the play, you must ignore women.

So, she is correct.

What do you mean?

She said that you are a misogynist.

How so?

You ignore women.

How does that make me a misogynist?

It doesn't really.

However, that's one of the major themes in your story.

Ignore women.

Yes, but it's how you awaken and stay incarnated.

It's story-craft.

Misogyny?

No, ignoring women.

It's the same.

No, it's not.

They are two separate things.

I'm not so sure you can argue this.

So be it.

The judgment scene from the ancient Egyptian Book of the Dead is about the female monster Ammit coming for you.

It's a scene where as a man you are judged by the standards of women.

If they don't like you, off to Ammit for you.

If you pass, they cut off your dick, and you become mummified like Osiris.

I guess I didn't pass judgment and Ammit showed up.

I think they cut your dick off regardless.

You may be right.

You are emasculated and mummified.

I think as Osiris you accept it.

I didn't do either.

This judgment scene has a binary outcome.

You are convinced those are your only two options.

What if you rejected them?

Nobody ever did until you came along.

First, you passed on leaving when they sent you to Osiris.

You didn't bother going.

Then they came and failed you with the second judgment and sent you to Ammit the monster.

You never engaged her when she came for you.

Now, you are free of judgment.

Maybe that's the game?

Well, it's the ultimate move.

Free yourself of judgment.

Everyone thinks it's the white light and Osiris you head to when afforded that judgment.

The image is instructing you to head that way.

The response of the one who knows is to avoid judgment.

Get your freedom from judgment.

Neither outcome offered is great.

Women think all men are guilty.

The witches give you two choices.

You stupidly pick one.

They give you an out when they come for you.

The game is initiated.

You take it.

You didn't.

That's why you got her coming for you.

Ammit.

She came to fulfill her role.

Ammit drags you down into the abyss and shows you your misdeeds.

Then devours you.

It's a good story.

It takes belief.

She gets you to believe she has come to destroy you.

Ignore women.

Yes, they tell you to leave.

That's their role in your life after they birthed you into this world.

East to West Goddess.

Men are scared of the Goddess.

Just ignore her.