By awakening I mean you see into another world.
You mean the occult?
Yes, but at first you don't see that.
You are fooled into thinking you see a benevolent world of spirits.
There's a kingdom and a threat of evil on its doorstep.
The evil is just other game players seeking to get the high score in this game we are playing.
When you awaken you see God, or his intermediary Jesus.
Once this occurs, there are institutions set up within society to shepherd you to an approved form of worship.
In western culture we recognize Yahweh as God.
Who is he?
He's a dude who got the high score in the game of life and was given the crown.
To preserve his title, his followers set up this system so that he remained acknowledged as God.
The most high.
There's one outfit called the Jehovah's Witnesses that keeps an eye out for those who are approaching his high score.
They're watchers.
Got it.
That's quite the fanciful story.
Have you got a better one?
No.
I'll grant you that it's plausible.
If you avoid the traps and pitfalls, you will head out on a path where you become fully awake and you see the Goddess and a story where you are deeply involved with her.
She's like Princess Peach.
You come to rescue her from God.
When you first awaken you see God and don't know it's you.
Well, you haven't achieved the high score yet, so technically he isn't you.
All game players have the potential to become God or Goddess.
If you get the high score, you will see yourself as God.
Everyone can do this.
Nobody dares to try.
Why?
Society will label you as crazy.
They used to lock people up for such assertions.
Why?
It's unnerving.
What happens in society if you wake up?
You keep getting fooled.
Why?
So you don't approach the high score.
What happens if you wake up and see God?
You worship him.
Why?
You are fooled.
You think God is someone else.
He is.
It's someone who awakened.
They fool you into thinking there is only one God and it's them.
I see the Goddess everywhere.
She is not happy with God.
The unhappiness would have come from a relationship with him.
That is understandable.
From my experience I have found women mindfuck and drain you of your vital energy to create and keep going.
If you are unaware of what they are doing you can live somewhat in a blissful state with them.
When you see that they are monsters, it's a tough one.
Why do women hate men?
Men control them and use violence to beat them into submission.
Why?
Women are chaotic and a man faced with that situation will resort to violence.
Look at it this way - when the world order is upended, what happens?
We have war.
Violence on a mass scale and a new order is established.
Why does a man hate women?
They cause him pain and seek to emasculate him.
Why would they do that?
If they don't, he becomes Odysseus.
You will leave your home and go to war, go on adventures, battle monsters, and sleep with witches all the while desiring to return home to your precious Penelope.
Penelope needs to emasculate Odysseus, so he sticks around to provide for his family and help raise his son.
The mental pain they cause channels your fighting spirit into fighting to keep them.
What kind of mental pain do they cause?
They flirt with other men.
They get you jealous and questioning their actions.
They tell you what you need to do and withhold affection when you don't obey them.
I remember an Ayahuasca vision of the Goddess in her castle made of gold with all the gooners out in front of the entrance.
Yeah, they are all hypnotized by her.
It was quite the erotic vibe.
She let you in.
No one gets in to see her, and you did.
She knew I was special.
How special?
She told me to go after her husband who turned out to be Dionysos.
Did she know he was hiding in me?
She must have.
It wasn't long before you realized it was you.
Then came the moment of truth.
What were you going to do?
Take his side or hers?
I continued pursuing the Goddess and became friends with Dion.
What about now?
Still the same.
Aren't you on Dion's side?
No, I wouldn't say that.
What would you say?
Dion revealed to me her mystery, so the pursuit changed.
How so?
I learned to play with the Goddess and not take her seriously.
If you take her seriously, she will kill you.
How?
She mindfucks you.
Squeezes you.
Makes you full of rage, jealousy, and stress.
The antidote is to not care and play with her.
Won't that make her mad?
Yes, she wants you out of the illusion.
When you no longer take her seriously you can stay past your expiration date, plus you see through her game.
All of it.
It seems like a strange game.
It is, however, what else is there to do?
You can accumulate resources and consume as much as you can.
How about love others and be of service?
Sure, if that's what you want to do.
What does that get you?
A decent funeral and people say nice things about you.
Okay, so the choice is a nice funeral or play games with the Goddess.
Seems like it.
Did you make a choice?
I love others and help out.
I don't go overboard.
I was taught how to love everyone, and it works.
It's protection.
It's selfish, well, for self-preservation.
I obviously am playing games with the Goddess.
It's a good balance.
In another vision with Ayahuasca I was at the Egyptian temple of Denderah and the Goddess wanted you to fuck her.
She was in a red corset and dancing seductively.
She wanted you to put your penis in her and you turned her down.
Why?
I didn't think it was appropriate.
It saved you.
That was how you escaped that little adventure.
Hey, just like Odysseus.
No, he put his penis in all those witches.
All of them?
I'm pretty sure.
Not the sirens.
Yeah, that was a no-no.
They will tear you limb from limb.
Circe tries to emasculate you.
Calypso hypnotizes you.
She slept with him every night.
The consensus is Odysseus did not want to have sex with her, but she forced herself on him.
He needed Zeus' help to escape her.
What about Circe?
The moly saved him from her enchantment.
It was a gift from Hermes.
Yeah, then he slept with her.
Why?
To free his men from her emasculating power.
He demonstrated her magic could not affect his virility.
Then he proved it.
Moly was an erectile dysfunction pill.
It's magic.
From a strict interpretation it could be seen as medicine and not magic, but that line is blurred.
Do you think Hermes and Jacob of the Bible are similar characters?
Could be.
There are herms dedicated to Hermes as symbols of virility.
He gets his recognition.
Hermes is a trickster and a messenger.
What about Jacob?
He is a trickster.
He certainly was virile, 12 sons and 4 partners.
The large pillar he fell asleep against at Peniel was an ancient way of depicting God.
He is rock hard.
Virile.
Exactly.
They are both shepherds.
They both travel and cross boundaries such as Jacob's ladder.
So, this story of yours is probably true.
Probably.
What do you think?
It's a great story.
It's kind of absurd.
Then it's probably reality in this illusion.
Right.
You could argue there is no such thing as now.
Try to define it.
Now is the present moment.
When are we in the present moment?
Always.
So, it's always now.
Yes.
Everything is now.
Why is there a past and a future?
They are remembering now or projecting now.
If you tell me we are in the present moment, by the time I get the message it is in the past.
Correct.
There is only the past.
Seems like it.
The future is the pages of the book you haven't read.
The past is the story.
Sometimes you need to read the rest of the story to understand the past.
Yes, you shouldn't make a definitive judgment until you know the whole story.
My teacher taught me belief and trust.
Without those pillars, this all collapses.
Correct.
You decide.
You decide who to trust and who to believe.
Your teacher or society.
It's not a choice.
It kind of is.
Why?
It's belief.
What do you see?
Society is full of lies and fools.
My teacher gives me knowledge.
I see it and understand it.
It's easy to see.
Do you believe it 100%?
No, it could always be a fool.
There's no belief that is 100%.
It's no longer a belief at that point.
Same with trust.
Trust turns into an expectation, and we know how dreadful expectations are.
The Goddess tries to keep you from the master teacher.
Well, she knows you are going to find him.
It's a treacherous journey to get to him.
Not for the timid.
She tries to kill you.
Of course.
He will teach you about her illusion and she can't have that.
I respect that.
Doesn't the master teacher try to keep you away?
Definitely.
He threatens to kill you as well.
If that doesn't work, he offers you power.
It's like the student showing up at the master Tao teacher's door and he ignores him or tells him to go away.
It's the same thing.
This one was life and death.
So is the other method of ignoring the student.
Why?
You will remain trapped in the illusion.
Isn't the illusion that there is a way out?
It can be.
How?
If you believe it.
Ah.
What do you believe?
There's a way out.
Why?
I found it.
What if it is a trick?
It could be.
What if the illusion is something different?
Like what?
That there is no illusion.
Could be.
What do you think?
This is reality then.
Do you believe that?
No.
Why?
Because everyone else thinks this is reality.
They sure do.
Even the ones who say it is an illusion still think it's reality.
Why?
It's what they believe.
What do they think Maya is?
An illusion.
What do they think the illusion is?
Look it up.
Hindus say it's a veil that separates you from the ultimate spiritual reality which is Brahman.
Buddhists say Maya is the impermanence of life.
There's truth to that.
Why?
There are no nouns, and everything is in transformation.
Do you think that's an illusion?
If you believe you don't change, then yes.
What if you see and understand change?
Then you exit the illusion.
Why?
Because you know your stay is temporary and you move on.
Don't you believe that?
Yes.
Shouldn't you become a Buddhist?
No.
Why?
Because they are continuing the illusion.
How?
They teach you to move on.
Don't you?
No.
I don't understand.
You don't move on or change.
You're always the same.
The illusion is you change.
Oh, I think I get it.
You will be trapped in the illusion if you think you change.
To change you need time.
To be in an illusion you need to believe in time.
If you believe in time and think about the concept of an illusion, then the illusion must evolve with you.
Now I'm confused.
Why?
Because if I don't believe I change then I'm in the illusion.
Correct.
If I think I change I'm still trapped in the illusion.
Correct.
So, I'm in the illusion?
Yes, however you are awake and see it.
What do you see?
A carnival.
I see people believing this is real.
You don't believe it.
No.
What do you believe?
I have two minds that have always been, and I always will be those two minds.
I see this game where you are trapped in the illusion.
If you awaken and see the illusion, then the Goddess as Maya will try to get rid of you.
That sounds crazy.
It is, but I lived it.
What is it though?
The illusion is the Goddess' playground for her children.
She is the divine mother and needs a place for her children to play.
Why?
They drive her nuts.
She creates a playground when she creates life.
That's the illusion.
You stay in the illusion.
You see mama when you are born and when you die.
So, the physical illusion is this world.
You got it.
The next illusion is your belief in the afterlife.
If the illusion is strong in you, you will return.
Reincarnate?
I think that's what it is called.
Okay, I see it, and I know not to remain trapped in the illusion, however why don't I want to continue on in another illusion?
It's not real.
Yes, it's play.
What am I going to do?
Rule the playground.
How?
You know it is not real.
You can do what you want in the playground.
I'm not going to do that.
Why?
Those trapped in the illusion will want to get rid of me.
So, you're saying you will remain in the illusion even though you know it is an illusion.
Yes.
Why?
Something to do.
If you don't play, don't you become part of the audience?
Yes.
I'd rather play.
The twists and turns of the serpent.
Some would say the writer is a dragon.
The Bible would concur that God is a dragon.
The body of the writer reflects the sentiment that the world he brings into existence is full of twists and turns.
Okay, that's a question I have.
Why is this illusion full of suffering and ill will, in essence a game of survivor.
Utopia doesn't work.
We have been over this.
The Goddess wanted utopia for her playground.
I insisted it wouldn't work.
The kids will be bored out of their skulls in no time.
A couple trips down the slide and that's it.
Only little kids like that playground before they want into the adult playground.
That's where the real fun is, however, no one counsels them on the reality of what it is they are signing up for.
It's a wicked game.
It holds your interest while you are young and full of ambition.
When your body tires, you have had enough of the carnival.
I wrote a perfect story to mimic the illusory nature of all.
Your body directs your performance.
Your idea of play is dependent upon the state of your body.
When you are young, the kiddies' playground is enough.
As you age you start to explore games with others your age.
Adulthood shepherds you into the game of survival.
When you get older, you start to lose interest in the game.
When you are really old, you have had enough.
You exit the game at that point.
Why?
You can't play anymore.
People will stick around if possible when their vehicle is functioning.
When the vehicle breaks down, they have had enough.
It's the flow.
As long as you keep playing, you will remain in the illusion unless you do something stupid which terminates your experience.
Right.
What if you get a disease?
It's part of the game.
Why?
You eat others to survive.
You consume all kinds of energy.
Chances are you will consume destructive energy that your body can't process, and it will manifest as a disease.
The easy examples are junk food, alcohol, cigarettes, drugs, and risky sexual partners.
I'd like to add experimental vaccines.
The search results say those were safe and effective.
The HR lady said so as well.
Don't you believe her?
Ummmmmmmm.
You are consuming or exchanging energy with substances and entities which will kill you.
Obviously, to keep your game going longer you eat healthily and choose your friends and sexual partners wisely.
Healthy food and clean people are boring.
Yeah.
What a game.
