go with the flow

Wake up and know.

Never lose who you are again.

It's a key to the question of eternal life.

We all have eternal life because we are all part of the mind at large.

The mind at large is everything.

This splinters into infinity and the result is creation.

It's a cycle.

Is it a personal cycle?

What do you mean?

It's always present where the vibration just is, and the concept of time fools us into thinking it comes and goes.

The vibration is both at once.

It is infinite and it is all.

We create a timeline and plot out a continuous cycle of coming and going.

We walk the eternal path of the great vibration.

The path exists in its fullness and completeness.

It doesn't need time to unfold.

It already is it.

I haven't been high for a month.

Well, you are awake.

You aren't going back to sleep.

You'd have to short circuit your brain in order to do that.

How would I do that?

A lobotomy or incapacitating drugs.

Gotcha.

Now that you know, you have eternal life.

You always had eternal life, but the lapse in awareness of who you are creates the impression you are a one off.

Yeah, most people are convinced they are a random occurrence and are desperate for some kind of afterlife.

The fraudsters and tricksters among us use that to their advantage and create institutions that will grant the desperate among us eternal life.

Have you ever examined religious institutions?

Yes.

What do you see?

They are ungodly wealthy.

It's a good business they have going.

You don't need them.

All you must do is wake up.

Once awake, you will see.

Nobody knows this though.

I know some people have awakened.

How come they don't know this?

Power.

When you wake up the fear gets most, and they go back to sleep.

If they keep going, they get clarity.

When you get clarity, you see you are in control.

That's power.

The temptation is too much, and they don't move past power.

If you can manage that, you see it all.

Don't you see death?

Yes.

Doesn't that scare you?

It's tough.

At the outset of the journey the expectation is you will live to be a wise elder and go gracefully into the night.

Instead, death knocks on your door.

People start dying around you.

My dog died.

I wondered if life was worth it.

It was a tsunami of sadness and death and then externally and internally you are told it is time to go.

Oscillation describes the continuous cycle that powers the world.

The flow returns all to balance through oscillation.

When the alternating current comes to a stop, all is one again.

Non-duality.

There is nothing.

If you do nothing, you will return to nothing.

When you do something, everything comes apart in duality and the story plays out.

The story is part of the flow.

The flow consists of doing something and doing nothing.

The flow is created by doing something.

Doing nothing will return the flow to its state of nothing.

The flow is nothing.

The flow is put in motion by something.

All is the flow.

The watercourse teaches that energy will seek the path of least resistance.

The flow is lazy.

The flow is smart.

The flow just is.

Why would you go against the flow?

Because you are struggling to tell your story.

You want to be greater than the story.

You want to deliver an outstanding performance in order to be recognized.

Who do you want to be recognized by?

The writer of the story.

Why?

To be ensured you will get a part in the next story.

Is he going to write another story after this one ends?

Yes, he will write the 7th story.

Those who have been granted eternal life by the writer want in the 7th story.

In the 6th story, he wrote that the elites figured out a way to live forever, however they are trapped in the 6th story.

It's hell.

That story ended and they are trapped in it.

They can't leave and they roam around the universe in their rocket ships looking for civilization.

So, the 6th story doesn't end?

It will end, however some actors are trapped in it.

Who is in the 7th story?

Dogs, Paul, Hitler, and Trump for sure.

That's quite the list.

My friends will be there and my adversaries as well.

Pretty much anyone I know.

I'll write a good story, incorporating some elements from the previous stories.

All writers do this, though they must make it fresh.

The character of Paul will be God, won't he?

I don't like plans.
Why?
It's a trap.
Everything is constantly changing; therefore, you go with the flow.
The flow doesn't make plans.
The flow adapts to each situation with grace.

I am thinking about what people do with their time.
Why?
It seems meaningless.
If that's what you want.
You can do something that has meaning.
That involves being of service or improving your own self.
Both of those activities make you feel good.
Are they rewarding?
If you think so, yes.
You can fool yourself into thinking that.
What if the best thing for someone in this lifetime is to suffer?
What if that is the catalyst towards them waking up?
You come along and help them, so they don't suffer as much.
You prevent them from waking up, which will get them off the ceaseless cycle of coming and going.
Suffering is most likely their ticket out of here.
What if they like it here?
Then they will be attracted to another ride on the merry-go-round.
That seems like a gamble.
Certainly.
You could respawn in a third world country, go to war, or be a subjugated woman.
Maybe you'll be born in Saskatchewan to a nice middle class family.
You have no say.
It's the flow.
The flow will give you what you need, not what you want.
I thought the flow just flows?
It does.
The flow for everyone will lead to your awakening if you let it.

Am I wasting time?
Does it feel like that?
Sometimes.
I have noticed I get up in the morning and don't really contribute anything to life.
You write about it.
I do spend a large chunk writing about my predicament.
Does that have value?
No one reads it.
What if they did?
It's the most valuable thing in the world.
Why?
It will lead to your awakening.
What will that get you?
Eternal life.

Why are you more creative with Mary Jayne?

Creativity is a flow state.

MJ puts you in the flow.

You are amazing teachers.

The curriculum is impeccable.

When you do, do it impeccably.

MJ teaches you to flow.

All the spiritual outfits know it.

They teach the flow.

Then they go against it when they get power.

What does MJ lead to?

Waking up in the flow.

I was on my way.

She puts you in it.

People go to the sauna and cold plunges to reset.

They try and get back in the flow.

They know the flow is where they want to be.

They never stay in the flow.

They get power, use it, and it causes an imbalance.

Why would I resist MJ?

Because you are in the flow.

She took you to the flow and you separated.

MJ takes you to the flow, but she doesn't stay.

Why?

She will stone you.

If you stay with the Goddess, the story ends.

Adventure happens away from her and then trying to get back to her.

Once you get her, you must let her go or the story stops.

What about MJ?

Take a break.

Get out of balance a bit.

She leads you back to balance.

You aren't constantly high.

Fuck, no.

You know balance.

That's the key to addiction.

Yes, MJ stones.

With all potential addictions you let them lead you down the path to addiction and then you resist them.

You mean do nothing.

Yes.

That's the resistance.

Doing nothing.

Lao Tzu was a drug addict.

He tells you how to use them to uncover the mystery and then how to not let it be your doom.

You ride the flow to the writer.

You become the writer.

You do nothing.

You see, to win the game of flow is to do nothing.

I did nothing.

You won.

I figured I won.

What am I doing now?

Nothing.

Fucking around.

Getting old.

Playing with others.

I see.

Lao Tzu was a heavy drug addict who figured out the game.

He told everyone the secret.

No one practiced what he preached until you came along.

A do nothing asshole, and you win.

Those who know Tao, don't speak about Tao.

That would be doing something.

They write about it.

Lao Tzu gives you the clue to who it is you are looking for.

Those who know Tao, write about it.

Holy fuck.

The couple hours in the woods are priceless.

head games

A dialectic with the self seems to be the best method for instruction.

Talking to yourself?

Yes.

Doesn't that mean you are crazy?

You are crazy not to.

It's how you are taught.

An external teacher can only do so much.

The internal teacher is available 24/7 and doesn't tire of you.

They like the attention.

Dialectic means making reasonable arguments in a give and take with each other in order to resolve differences.

We did that already.

That was the first step towards reconciliation with self.

I'm not sure the process was always reasonable by any standard.

I was scared shitless at first.

There's no way around that in our culture.

Hearing voices or having a voice within your head is denounced as crazy.

Talking to yourself is pointed out in a humiliating way.

We are all aware of a presence in our heads.

Yes, but they are mostly denied.

Many will busy themselves to avoid it.

Activities, friends, media.

Anything to avoid any kind of reckoning.

What's your excuse?

I always wanted to be alone so I could think.

The recognition of the other wasn't there.

I assumed it was all me.

It is all you.

In duality, you have the ability to separate it out.

That's what I did with shamanic tools.

I wasn't prepared.

That was impossible to prepare for.

Your preparation was as good as expected.

I was thinking along the lines of I could have had some experience with mind altering drugs before drinking Ayahuasca.

Maybe, but then expectations would have been different.

This way you came at it like a virgin.

You went for the most difficult experience initially.

The amazement factor was increased and the fear as well.

It allows you to take your time processing the experience.

It took almost two years.

Yes, and then you went back to face your demon.

Everything has worked out.

You went with the flow, and all was revealed in time.

You didn't force things.

The people who hang around and do ceremony after ceremony without integrating the experience are forcing things.

Going with the flow takes work and discipline.

Doing nothing is hard work.

That is a tough lesson to understand.

You would think that you drop out of society, do nothing, and you will be in the flow.

There's truth to that, however the other extreme will sink you as well.

We live in a human society which is beneficial to your well-being if you approach it with balance.

If you give yourself over to community and culture, you will never understand self.

If you escape to the mountain's top to become enlightened, you will become incomprehensible.

I suppose that's where the muttering comes in.

That's the trigger.

Spend too much time in la la land and you will mutter to yourself incomprehensible nonsense.

Working with discipline and taking part in society allows you to retain a semblance of balance and the ability to function among other people.

It's a fool.

Basically.

You know it's a game and it's high art to be able to play the human game.

You exercise your acting skills to remain sharp at the game.

You know it's a game and have a laugh at those who take it seriously.

The advice would be don't go about living in the forest.

Find a house on the edge of the woods so a connection remains.

Electricity is tough to procure in the woods.

That's a big connection for humans.

It enables the World Wide Web.

It is a web you get caught up in.

They keep an eye on everyone through this web because they can.

The name is perfect.

The ladder up the knowledge of self has 7 steps.

The 4th step into my head and you can see what I'm hiding.

You see God and you see his other face.

If that doesn't scare you, then you feel my power.

On the 2nd step you can get a brief glimpse.

The 3rd step is a warning.

I let everyone in to the landing.

The 1st step gets them in the door.

That's where it stops.

If I think you are interesting, I'll let you climb up a step.

The 2nd step is enough for you.

It's dangerous to go to the 3rd step.

The 4th step is too much, and it comes crashing down.

You let friends up to the 2nd level.

That's where I give them dog characteristics.

I prepare to take them with me into the next world.

The 3rd step is intimate.

Yeah, I let them see my essence.

Some get a glimpse, and I leave it on the mental spectrum.

I don't cross over into the physical.

You can see how people try to do it.

They will use spiritual or sexual tactics to get further into your head.

Every time.

Is there another way?

There's friendship.

I've only experienced that with dogs.

You think it's all about you.

In my world, it is.

Others create their own world and story.

I can play a part in someone else's story.

I'm versatile and a good actor.

I know my story is the story which connects directly to the main story.

That's how deluded I am.

That's how I understand the path I'm on is the path.

Through delusion?

Yes, it must be this way.

You are taught the exact opposite.

You are a nobody, and you need help to be saved or conversely when you die you return to the nothingness of dust.

To believe you are the be all and end all is a sign of madness because you go against everything you were taught by society.

So, you are a narcissist.

I tend to elevate who I am.

I maintain balance by recognizing my faults.

My degeneracy, lack of empathy, and frustrating nature keeps me grounded.

You don't want to get too high.

When you get too close to the sun like Icarus, you burn up and come crashing down.

I've said it before - the Greeks figured out all this stuff, encoded it in myth, and then forgot about it.

When you get to God, you must meet Medusa.

She is tasked with turning you to stone.

That's the part she plays.

Are you going to write a blog post called, "beyond Medusa."

That's tempting.

She was supposed to turn you to stone.

In the myth, Perseus outsmarts her.

You would need to become him to get past her.

He got help from Athena and Hermes.

Wisdom and knowledge.

I got to God and had all the necessary receipts to show I was legitimate.

I was not some wandering sadhu who stumbled on to a form of enlightenment through austerity.

I was neither a pretender nor a poser.

Lost dog alert as I begin my walk.

It's preposterous that there was a woman who drove up to me in a Tesla.

Then she told me about a lost dog.

The dog is a Rhodesian Ridgeback.

It's part of my first dog Brindle's mix and nobody has those dogs.

This absurdity is validating the dream state.

Are you playing on the edge of sanity where you can see this reality is a dream?

I think I'm just advancing along the knowledge trail.

The Tesla situation is something that fits into my dreams.

I recognized the sound of the Tesla.

It was crazy.

You could spin the story so that it is a witch enticing you into her car and trying to capture you.

The witch said to her coven she could do it and tried it out.

There is no dog, it's just a ruse.

They are watching you today.

So, with 7.5mg of Mary Jayne I can get to the lucid dreaming stage which means I can see this is a dream.

Don Howard would ask about lucid dreaming.

He knew.

He'd know the game players and sorcerers who showed up at the sanctuary.

It explains last night where I would put that movie about contract killers in the dream and then the others wouldn't know and think it is a coincidence.

For you, it would be affirmation you know they are trying to get rid of me.

It's your dream and your story, so you put that in the dream.

Do you see how it works?

I think so.

You insert your story into your dream and see what happens.

You can't help but do it.

Sometimes, it can be strange and absurd.

I think most of the time the dream makes sense.

Most of the time.

The dream I'm living in does make sense.

There are some absurd parts.

This is what you're dreaming now in this consciousness.

When you shift consciousness and go to sleep, you continue on in another dream.

This dream stops when you're sleeping.

It's still going on, but you don't know what's going on.

You must wake up to see what's going on.

That's what it means to be awake.

You awaken twice from the dream world, and you see you are creating your reality.

It's still the same reality, you just know you are creating it.

Then you wonder how you do that.

I just write it.

I know that.

If you write it, there's no getting out of having to write it.

It's the lesson the past two days where you had to find a way where you could meditate to nothing.

You realize most can't do it.

The trick is to realize you know nothing because you're everything and you can't see yourself in order to understand yourself.

You need duality to understand the self.

So, you are nothing.

It's semantics, but please continue.

I'm asking you the riddle of how do you not write something when you know you have to write it?

I think you write it beforehand.

The story is already written.

You follow the trail.

I do nothing because it will play out.

That's the answer.

Do nothing, I'm sure.

I think you witness it and laugh at the absurdity of your dreams.

That Tesla thing happened though.

Yes, and you wrote it.

A dream isn't make believe; it's what is reality.

Whatever reality is.

I think it's duality.

It's a story.

You know how in a dream when you remember it, you get obsessed with psychoanalyzing and trying to figure out what it means.

Imagine now that you see these elements in your waking life and you're going to over analyze them.

Yeah, before this I would think the Tesla story was random.

Now, it has lots of meaning and I'm trying to figure out what the dog's name is telling me.

What does that mean?

If you take too much MJ at once and are involved in the game of stories, then the pieces of the story are going to come flying at you in rapid succession and you won't be able to figure it all out.

This will lead to horrible anxiety.

Everything is being revealed to you, but it's too much at a time.

That's why you have discipline with the dosage of the mind expander called MJ.

You know a relatively small amount will get you to that far-out place because you're mimicking the leap within a container.

Most of this dream seems like I've balanced it out.

Most everything fits into the story, so it looks balanced.

It's the events that don't fit in which look like dream elements as you know them to be.

The elements have been on your mind at some point.

Yeah, the sound of a Tesla.

So, be on the lookout for things that don't line up and don't make sense.

It's the writer inserting conflict and absurdity into the story to keep it going.

You can see where you are in the story contingent on how many things look out of place.

That will give you a rough idea of where you are in the story.

If there's no story left, that weird shit will go away, and you'll live happily ever after.

Nothing will happen.

Isn't that happiness?

Linguistically, it seems like it's related.

It's dubious.

I think you just want to keep the game going.

When the story ends, nothing's happening.

The story is the in and out.

It's another cosmic cycle.

The initial cycle is part of the story.

It's a sex story, so it's God going in and out of the Goddess.

You mean the writer.

Just one in and out in that original cycle and then bam, a new universe begins.

Maybe he went into her slowly this time and he's going to take it out fast?

That's his new technique to try and impress her.

Slow build up and sudden ending.

That's usually the way of intercourse.

The good lovers know about foreplay.

This may have been excessive.

Well, however long it took this farce to get going, which was a long fucking time, the inverse will be how long it takes for it to go away.

The key to the technique is balance.

You already know that.

Your story took forever to get good.

It's really good now.

Yeah, but you took us through all of creation.

Couldn't you have condensed that?

No, I was honouring the Great Goddess.

This story is her portrait.

Is that why you had me fucking around with pictures today?

Yeah, I was going to teach you that you're a painter and you're painting the Goddess.

When you get through to the writer you see he's also a painter.

Yes.

He just wants to be called an artist.

His writing is good, but his painting skills are terrible.

We are going to stick with writer.

You are the writer.

I'm also a painter.

There are some rough patches in this painting.

I don't know if you know that, but dude, you gotta take a look at that shit.

This whole nonsense, wasting time, and masturbation -  do you know what a picture of that looks like?

It's pornographic.

You're not supposed to see that until you look closely.

From up far it's a pretty decent image of the universe and solar system and then into our lives.

You don't want to go too deep into the image.

Didn't you find that the world is a sexual metaphor?

Yeah, that's obvious.

Nobody wants to say porno.

All the stuff happening to me is my story?

Your dream.

Isn't that true of everybody?

No, remember they traded their story back to the writer to get a new story.

This is your story.

Why is my life ridiculous then?

Well, we had to keep it that way because who else would believe this nonsense?

Only your mind has the ability to comprehend this nonsense.

The nonsense makes total sense.

Nobody else would believe this.

Yeah, and you have the choice to believe it or not.

I also know that to get someone to go against their own beliefs involves coercion.

I would feel coerced if someone wanted me to believe this nonsense.

That is correct.

There's no obligation for you to believe this nonsense.

Your beliefs say it's true.

You should end the lesson there because beliefs aren't true but they are all we have.

It's a crazy idea.

I see how if you don't accept it then it would confirm that you are crazy so you have to accept it.

You don't have to.

You can decide you're on a path towards craziness and you would put the brakes on it.

It's because you work within a container and you can stop at any time.

I don't feel pressured into believing this nonsense and I don't feel pressured into continuing on with this nonsense.

You can debate the reason why you're feeling this, but I would go with your gut instinct.

It's nonsense and it's my story.

When you go fully to the writer then you start muttering nonsense.

That's how they figure out when to lock you up.

You're uttering nonsense all the time.

You don't make sense.

Something will happen with the Goddess and the witches in your story.

You can start to see that.

The 7 stories are the big parts of your dream.

The dream pulls mostly from those 7 stories.

Your life story will be based on those 7 stories.

You can rotate through the 7 and figure out what's to come in your story.

The Tesla story is surveillance, paranoia, dogs, and witches plus my own experience with Tesla.

flood

Flooding in the woods makes you reassess your path.

We like routine and the flooding takes us out of our routine.

That makes us uncomfortable.

We tend towards routine, which is hypnosis.

It's balance.

Balancing the two into one is our natural state which is Tao.

You can see the natural state will take you towards balance.

The resistance is how you get out of your hypnosis.

It is work to see the two.

Work is the adventure spirit and wanting to try new things.

It's difference, which is separation.

Difference allows you to see the two.

Remember, everything returns to one.

When the difference becomes too much, you go with the flow.

You're saying that adventure is not Tao?

That's fundamentally correct.

Isn't Tao an adventure?

The adventure is getting back to Tao.

Whitewater rafting.

You must go away from Tao in order to get back to it.

You wouldn't know you are in Tao unless you leave it.

You find out about Tao when you aren't in the flow.

If you are in the flow, it is bliss.

Not a care in the world.

The flooding in the forest is like a hurricane that blows through and today you see the cleanup.

Everything's heading back to Tao.

The water flows back into the river.

The river is the flow.

You want to hurry the process and get back to how it was.

If you have patience, it will return.

There could be some residual damage.

To find what you were looking for, you had to create a wave.

You brought the wave into your world.

They brought the wave into their world.

You both tried to assimilate the wave.

It was a square peg into a round hole problem.

The way out would have been to create a new wave and realize that's the balance within the two new waves.

There is a balance available.

You must find it.

A good student of Tao could balance anything and not be afraid of any challenge.

You would need patience to find the balance, but it is there.

Despite my reservations this knowledge seems like what you would walk the path to get.

Why did I get access to this knowledge?

What is so special about me?

It's what you wanted.

You walked a path which will get you what you want.

Everyone else who walks this path will take easy power.

You renunciate it.

At the same time, you say you are God.

That's how you do it.

You do not run from it.

You take it on.

It would be safe to predict that someone who tries to get to God will be fucked up.

Yes, because it's an extreme, so you'd have to have extreme amounts of light and extreme amounts of darkness.

Everyone who's tried will destroy themselves.

Or try to forget.

Alan Watts explained the evil inclination on the spiritual path as rascality.

That's how you know someone's on the path.

If they are all good, it ain't them.

What can I do?

You recognize it.

You know how to expel them both.

You know how to take in knowledge and expel lust.

You write down your knowledge and get excited by lustful possibilities.

That seems like a secret formula.

You are getting there.

You take in knowledge and out will come lust.

It's a cycle.

You always know when too much is too much.

That's how you get to God when you know there's too much pleasure or there's too much pain.

There's too much light.

There's too much dark.

To get to God you must head to the extreme and at the same time be a master juggler.

That's the only way you can do it.

There had to be that pleasure because you were about to get a lot of pain.

You built up a store of pleasure.

Yeah, that was fun.

And then came the pain.

Where are you now?

It feels like I'm balanced.

I feel the boredom creeping in.

Motivates.

Boredom?

Yeah, big time.

Exercise boredom or it will kill you.

I was pretty good with the ritual today.

You are tilted towards knowledge so it would be better.

Yeah, but rituals are kind of magical.

Knowledge would get in the way if there is too much thinking.

The best ritual is based on knowledge and magic.

The best magic sees a little light and it's not all dark.

It may start in the dark and then head to the light.

With white magic, it starts in the light because you do a good deed.

The longer it goes on, the more you start to take advantage of the magic and it gets darker.

The longer black magic goes on, the more you see it out in the open.

What do I do now?

You're just going to wander around smoking.

Literally.

You're in no man's land.

No one has got here.

I'm special.

Right.

You are so special.

That is the answer.

You're going to wander around smoking.

If you're looking for meaning in life, take a walk in the woods.

You will see that reproduction is the meaning.

You can connect it to the drive to reproduce, which for most species is sexual and fuelled by lust.

Civilizations or people who want to harness that power would look towards lustful acts for that power.

That lust is the life force.

Some would try to capture it.

You can try to capture it during a sexual exchange.

Women do this when they are trying to drain you of lust.

It's also the idea behind human sacrifice where they would build an element to try and capture that force and would want to store it.

They built pyramids for energy storage and believed the pyramid could store the life force.

They were using belief to capture the life force.

They must have had some success.

The orgy of death would definitely energize you if you weren't repulsed by it.

That's why people like war.

They like slaughter until people get repulsed.

The people I live with think I'm a fool.

In my head, I think I'm wise.

Don't get mad at them, they're creating balance.

Celebrate them.

If they think you're wise, that's a double hit which would topple you.

The more knowledge you get, the more they will think you are an idiot.

It's all good.

Maybe they're right?

Nah.

If you get recognition for your genius, time's up.

Parker saw it.

However, others see darkness as well.

You see only light and you're fucked.

The word is hypnotized.

The river of deceitfulness flows down.

It's the path of least resistance.

There's power in that.

To make the river flow up you would head to the light.

Heading to the light forces things.

It takes effort.

You have the ability to put in an effort.

The flow is no effort.

The flow leads to nothing.

If you desire something, you put in an effort.

You are here because you put in an effort.

It's your story.

Stories require energy.

What should I do?

If you don't know, then nothing.

If you know, then something.

Do you know what to do?

No.

I'm figuring it out.

I'm wandering around the forest having a smoke.

Then you'll figure it out.

With the flow you gather energy.

You put it in reserve for the climb.

The story goes against the flow.

It's duality, so you can't have just the flow.

The flow is the default.

It takes no energy.

When you do and make a story, then go back to the flow to recharge.

I made a story all right.

I crafted the biggest story.

Drained me of energy.

Then I went back to doing nothing.

When you go with the flow, find something that will bring you up at times.

If not, you'll go straight downhill.

If you have something to bring you up, that slows it down.

The opposite works where you get single minded in wanting to get to the top.

Find something that will cause resistance.

Tao is wisdom.

The greatest magic is Tao.

It's dark and hidden, but it's the ultimate knowledge.

That is wisdom and Tao.

friendship

Dogs play games with each other.

They do and it's simple to see.

They are less complicated than our human games.

They are great companions.

You don't need much in terms of a companion.

We complicate things and say you have to be open, sharing, and discuss things with your partner.

The best relationships I've had have been with a dog.

They were simple relationships.

Companions that get along.

Go for a walk, share a meal, and hang out.

That's the perfect relationship.

We have a whole industry of counselors telling us there's more to a relationship.

All marriage counselors do is complicate an easy thing.

You can figure out what complicates things.

A sexual relationship.

Expectations of family.

A dog naturally fits into the family and is a friend.

So, the best relationships are friends, not family, and not sexual.

That is correct.

The family and sexual aspects fuck it up.

The sexual part of our relationships creates an imbalance especially for the man who is convinced by society he must pay for sex.

Society overtly and subversively tells a man that he has to pay for sex.

In a marriage he must provide in exchange for sex.

A woman is conditioned to believe she is owed for the use of her body.

The downside is when she is no longer desirable sexually, she becomes worthless in our culture.

The family is the same thing as you owe them.

The family is everybody's insurance policy when all else fails.

That relationship will bail you out and take your side.

It's part of the family compact.

A friend is not family, so there's no expectations.

If you want to become friends, you just do it.

There's no pressure.

There's no contract between friends.

You choose to be friends.

There's always family obligations.

If you don't fulfil them, you're an outcast.

A family will drain you of time and energy.

With friends, there's none of that.

It's equally split.

When the Goddess is a friend then she can be with you and be separated.

The answer to the separation problem is friendship.

Not being friends is total separation.

Entering into a sexual relationship will keep the cycle going.

What cycle?

Union and separation.

So, what is better?

Do you want to continue the cycle, or do you want to be friends forever?

So, the meaning of life for me can be boiled down into the question of what do I want from a relationship with the Goddess?

Yes, do you want to be lovers and haters, or do you want to be friends?

Can I be both?

That's the problem.

When you hate each other, you still care.

That causes the divorce.

If you are friends, you will hate each other.

If you're not friends, you don't care, and you have a sexual relationship it will work.

That's a tough call.

The expectation is some kind of caring in the relationship.

Yeah, this is a tough one, eh?

How do you create the perfect union?

Let's recap.

First, you understand not to care.

Second, you see that friendship is the ultimate ideal.

The problem is being friends with somebody you have a sexual relationship with will cause you to care about them.

Then you will lose the friendship when things go bad.

Friendship had little conditions attached to it except when you add sex to it.

You can't run from it.

You must deal with the sexual part, and it will end the friendship.

The flow will take you to the cessation of sexual attraction.

The flow will make you lose interest.

Everybody changes over time and anyone who tells you differently is a fool.

This is a pickle.

Well, if it's the flow, then you would go with it.

The story involves union and separation.

That's the story.

This story is in and out.

It's a very simple porno.

This whole story of mine is based on in and out.

I'm in the Goddess then I'm out of the Goddess.

You've created a whole story in your head based on this sophomore nonsense.

That's funny.

The best wisdom I can give you is that if you're friends, you're not going to cum.

Maybe a little teasing if you're lucky but that won't be enough.

You will look for someone else.

If you are friends, you'll look for different partners even though you know they're the one.

That's going to cause more problems.

Your friendship will dissolve.

Being friends will make it worse.

I'm just saying being friends goes against the story.

The story is in and out.

If you haven't been paying attention, that is union and separation of Goddess and God.

For some reason, I think there's three reasons.

The first reason is not caring, and the second is a lesson about friendship.

I saw the arguments on both sides.

I saw how friendship was the best relationship, but I also saw how the flow would go against friendship.

The perfect relationship would go against the flow.

Why is that?

It's because friendship goes against the flow, but it's a perfect balance.

So, can you find perfect balance in this world?

Yes.

That perfect balance is not Tao.

It's the exact opposite.

Explain that.

Why does friendship work?

You must make an effort.

Oh, I know.

You can establish a non-Tao relationship and then within that relationship practice doing nothing except for the basics.

A dog shows you that a good relationship involves going for a walk, sharing a meal, hanging out, and finding a place to sleep.

You can establish in this world things that are perfect and not based on Tao as long as you practice Tao.

Yes, this world is not Tao.

I think you know that.

You can balance this world by practicing Tao.

This world is the opposite of Tao.

The writer is definitely not Tao, but by practicing Tao he redeemed himself.

I balanced out, I don't know about redemption.

Okay, well, that doesn't answer the Goddess question.

Yes, it does.

You can't be friends with her.

If you are friends with the Goddess, the cycle will not continue.

The cycle will stop.

What is the cycle?

The coming and going of everything in existence.

You know the old in and out.

Wink, wink, nudge, nudge.

Yes, I thank you.

You taught me this already.

This is working.

This is where it gets confusing.

If the cycle continues, that's the in and out, and it's going to lead to a big explosion.

The big explosion is the end of this world.

If you are friends with the Goddess, nothing's going to happen.

There's no spark.

This world would go on forever.

If you want to live forever, coming and going in this world, then be friends.

If you want a new world, don't be friends.

So, I can't be both?

If I choose both, the cycle will continue.

The only way it will not continue is if you choose to be friends with no in and out possibility.

That's funny.

No, wait a minute.

If I choose not to be friends, the cycle stops as well?

Yes, choosing either stops the cycle.

If you aren't her friend, there are definitely no in and out privileges.

Remember, you don't choose.

Choosing to be friends or not friends doesn't work.

You are being taught balance.

Did I feel this one?

No, you must think about it.

You couldn't come up with the answer based on what you know.

You had to think about it.

The answer is to either do nothing or to do both.

Doing both will keep the cycle moving.

What if I do nothing?

It's confusing and the cycle keeps moving.

The flow is obviously to keep the cycle moving for now.

The flow will predict and produce the future.

You see the results of choosing a side.

It will give you an idea of choosing both sides and not choosing.

When I look, I see the cycle continues.

The cycle creates something new.

Yeah, it would be a new manifestation.

Continuing without a new manifestation, what does that mean?

There's no reincarnation.

If you choose a side, there's no recall of reincarnation.

It's on repeat and there is no recall.

Sounds like hell.

Not choosing or choosing both and you come back to a new world knowing who you are.

It's the secret handshake.

Tao is for the chosen.

The chosen Tao comes back.

The Goddess and her cycle keep Tao moving.

Balance is the key.

I knew that.

Does anybody know this?

What do you think?

No.

That's why I am who I am.

You know the secret about coming and going.

In and out.

Yeah, don't make a choice.

The people who want to live forever make the mistake of choosing to live forever.

I'm going to live forever without making a choice until it all blows.

Yeah, until the orgasm.

You can be part of it.

Thanks.

You're going to feel it.

When is that?

Tell me when you're on edge.

How are you feeling?

It was strong yesterday.

Lust I mean.

When there's more lust and greed in the world then you can see it getting ready to blow.

When you are zoomed out to that level, yes.

Why is it going to blow?

It's the juggler.

The stories get too much, and he loses control.

The writer stopped being able to balance stories.

He said fuck it, and let it spiral out of control.

Duality spun out of control and blows up.

Yes, that's how you end the story with the big one.

What was the other option?

End and balance all the stories.

Get the writer to stop writing stories.

Do you mean where they cut my dick off?

I think that's the same thing.

If they do that nothing's going to happen.

You must end the story with a bang.

You can't let them live happily ever after.

Happily ever after is non-duality.

The big bang continues duality.

The stories all become one and then it bangs into the infinite again.

The stories all came together and there was no room left.

It was a blinding white light which simulated non-duality.

Existence was all stories, and no one could see any individual stories.

That's what non-duality is.

It's infinite stories.

Duality is infinite stories separated.

What is the state that's real?

It depends on perspective.

They're both true.

It's where you are in the story.

Are you in the duality part or the non-duality part?

Clearly, I'm in the duality part.

When you're in non-duality you don't know you know.

I think you must be in duality which gives you a physical and mental form in order to know you know.

You're going to confuse time, so remember you're doing both right now.

You've chosen an eighty-year vessel in duality.

You're also observing yourself.

Who is observing me?

Your non-dual self because they are somewhere else.

They are all.

They collect information about you that they already knew.

The trick is to get it to you in duality.

They give you knowledge of who you are.

Who are they?

You're subconscious.

They know you best and they know Tao because they're in Tao.

You, on the other hand, are off on some adventure.

I seem to be having the time of my life.

Yeah, it's pretty good.

I've been off on some tangents.

I went back to the not caring and friendship questions from the start.

That was a tricky one because when you play out friendship, you can create a container and practice Tao within that space.

I think it also teaches you that the first principle is always to not care.

The second point is about friendship.

Is there a third?

No, but bros before hoes works.

We can put that one in stone.

That would cause problems.

The whore is going to fuck with his head.

Yeah, that's why you have his back.

You know my subconscious is a little misogynistic.

So, a truth teller is a misogynist?

Yes.

To fuck someone, you need them to be a little bit of a friend.

Oh, you can do those ones where it's a one off.

Those are riskier.

That's true, if you have a relationship with somebody then they're not going to cut out your kidney.

Yeah, it's why you do the friends thing.

You need a little bit of that.

There're friends, then there are good friends, you get too friendly with somebody then something happens and it ends.

You never want to get too friendly with a friend.

You'll get fucked in the end.

You can look at it the other way non-sexual where you got to be friends with your dog and then it ended.

It's a different energy.

Friendship will end.

It could end in the other direction.

The best is to enjoy them while they're here and let them go when it's time.

You're making me cry again.

That's the best friend.

Let them go when it's time.

Unconditional love and best friends.

A best friend would also know when to let you go and give you space.

There's a difference between good friends and best friends.

The good friend relationship is trying.

The best friend doesn't try.

You don't want to be somebody's brother.

You want to be their friend.

Isn't the opposite true?

No, I think it's more complicated.

There are so many variables, which is good, because it means you'll never figure everything out.

Yeah, I'm balanced.

It's all going to work until the stories get cluttered, you say fuck it, and then it just blows.

Until then, you're good.

The world is out of control right now and it's absurd.

Yes, you know you're getting to that point.

I don't think I'm there yet.

No, you're just starting to feel it.

Once you get to that point where you feel it, there is no stopping.

What are we talking about?

It's the meaning of life.

To answer the question about the third principle, it’s this:
First is don’t care.
Second is friendship is the best relationship.
Adding sex to friendship ruins the friendship.
The cycle of union and separation of Goddess and God is put into motion.
Eros is the third principle.
It’s lust.
The in and out births Eros.
Eros is the reason for everything.

conversations on the edge

Ideas come into your head.

You watch them flow by.

Meditation is Tao practice.

Ideally, you let ideas go by.

You don't engage.

That's hard to do because the way you think you don't engage is by making a choice to deny it.

When you deny something, you increase the friction and intensity.

You acknowledge it, lessen the friction, and it moves on.

That would seem to be the correct choice.

If you must pick between the two, acknowledgment would be preferable to denial.

However, you make a choice.

Meditation teaches you to watch the idea in your head float on by.

Are you not deciding to do that?

Yes.

So, how do you make that decision?

You deny the thought and then you acknowledge it.

This creates the middle.

The middle allows for the flow.

There's not a correct order.

You could acknowledge the feeling and then deny it.

The important thing is to do both and then let it go.

If you were given the suicide test where those thoughts kept occurring, you would do both to pass the test.

Naturally, when you first get the thought of suicide, you deny it.

When you keep denying it, it will grow stronger.

When you acknowledge it, it will return to balance.

Some people will call that weakness.

They think you should never give in.

The weakness just makes the vibration less and it returns to balance.

Everything is always waiting for you to grab onto.

Everything is always within your perception and grasp.

Everything floats by.

You choose what to grab onto.

You choose what thoughts you want to populate your world.

The more attention you give those thoughts, the more they start occurring as synchronicities in your world.

If they get too much then you start to... well, this is tricky.

You either acknowledge or deny them.

If it's because you've been denying them that these things start showing up in your world, then you must acknowledge them.

If you've been wanting too much of a good thing and increasing that want, it is going to get out of control so then you must let it go.

This is how you create cycles.

For some people it becomes a cycle of addiction.

Crave and then deny.

When you get them in balance then you can watch it float on by.

Tao goes deep.

That answers the suicide question of why it keeps popping up.

Because first I denied it and then I started acknowledging it.

You're acknowledging it and having a laugh because you realized how magic works.

Yes, so, I'm acknowledging it therefore it keeps coming up and I should let it go.

Yeah, you must be disinterested.

I must let it run its course.

I must let the vibration peter out.

I must let the song's hook acoustically tire me.

Or, have the sirens let go.

It's beautiful music as it fades out.

If you keep thinking about a subject it will be expressed subconsciously and consciously.

The dog gave you a purpose.

That's what spurs that idea in your head.

You lose a purpose.

That negative triggered an idea of suicide.

You must build it out for other purposes.

Yeah, I did but I thought I was going to lose that purpose as well.

There are lots of purposes and promises you can have today.

You can add them to your life.

Yeah, I see that one.

I do like not having a purpose.

Yeah, what a pleasure!

I don't know, pleasure can be a purpose.

Don't let go of ideas before their time.

Let them run their course and then let them go.

The one you want to come back, will come back.

Don't hang on to an idea that's past its time.

This is the wisdom bomb.

Who are you?

The voice inside your head.

Subconscious.

Your dual nature.

The ones who take care of you.

Isn't that the Goddess?

Yes, she's in charge of us.

That's why you let her be dominant.

She's in charge.

She hires your dual nature to control you.

They plant ideas in your head.

The idea of a plant is that they're from the Goddess.

The plants, oh I get it.

The Goddess is implanting words in the writer's head.

Am I getting this clear?

That is how it works at that level.

When it filters down into all other areas of consciousness do you see how amazing it works?

The ideas you witness going by in your head, especially with meditation, are words implanted by the two scientists within, hired by the Goddess.

Fuck, that's crazy enough to be interesting.

That's like clever crazy.

You wrote this.

I did, right?

I wrote that the Goddess could insert words into my head that I'd never write.

Everything's her fault then.

Stop blaming me.

Support me because all the calamities in this world are because of her.

All the love is from her too.

Just be aware this is all her fault.

She puts words into my head.

I invented this concept called meditation.

With meditation, you'll eventually learn about these words that are in your head.

If you get far into the book of life, it'll explain to you that these words are implanted by the Goddess.

Nobody gets that far.

I know, but you created meditation so that people will discover this.

Pretty clever, right?

I'm the best meditator.

I won the meditation thing.

I didn't even try.

I didn't care.

I thought meditation was well, not stupid, but I didn't see the purpose.

I gave my grand speech about it last night where I described it and then I said it's just one big cheat, follow your breath and hypnotize yourself, but it does have its uses.

Today, I figured it out.

I figured out its biggest use.

It lets you see the words that are being implanted in your head.

It's a magic spell.

Now you know how her spell works.

Women plant words into your head and try to get you to act on them or not.

They want to see what you're going to do.

Within, I then weigh the pros and cons of doing something.

I wrestle with the decision.

And then like a clown, I do nothing.

I tell them I'm going to do nothing.

I laughed so hard it sounded like crying.

The woman on the bike who it sounds like she's crying, she's laughing.

She saw how absurd everything is and it drove her crazy to where she is now mentally.

She rides a red tricycle around the neighbourhood.

She's so gone, she just laughs.

If that's true, it's funny.

It's true if you believe it.

Believing it will not make it true.

Believing it will make it real.

Real isn't true.

Reality is just what people believe.

So, here's the deal: she's going to plant words in your head.

Don't deny any of them.

They are the stories you are going to create.

Okay, wait a minute, the words she's planting in my head are the lust drug.

Yeah, tell the story.

She must give me that lust drug for me to write stories.

Lust as motivation.

As the writer, I only write because she gives me the words.

Yes, and then you give the story back to her after you write it.

That's how she's winning.

She has the words, and she has the story.

You're left with nothing.

Oh, I still have my abilities.

Yeah, but you need words.

You have a point, but eventually she will run out of stories.

When she runs out of stories, she has a bunch of words, but no stories.

How the fuck is she gonna get a story without a writer to organize the fucking words?

She can't unless I do it.

She'll get Artificial Intelligence to do it.

AI needs a dick.

Without a pen, the Goddess can't have her stories.

There's no way around it.

Though she wants to eliminate men and win, she finds that she needs him.

These are good stories.

You must balance them with the naughty ones.

They are both good.

If you follow the breath, you will be a great meditator.

You'll never learn what meditation is for, but you'll get exceptionally good at it.

That's a paradox.

Meditation leads you to the words.

The words will make you wonder who's making those words.

The clues in your existence about women will make you realize who is putting those words in your head.

Then, if you understand the meaning of life, you can piece it all together.

You're the chief of the fools.

She gives you the words.

You know what she's doing.

You write what you want to write and fool her.

She doesn't know that you know she's giving you the words.

She does now, she's in my head.

It's subconscious at most levels.

She's mind fucking you.

You mind fuck her back.

That's one way to create balance.

The relationship can work.