go with the flow

Wake up and know.

Never lose who you are again.

It's a key to the question of eternal life.

We all have eternal life because we are all part of the mind at large.

The mind at large is everything.

This splinters into infinity and the result is creation.

It's a cycle.

Is it a personal cycle?

What do you mean?

It's always present where the vibration just is, and the concept of time fools us into thinking it comes and goes.

The vibration is both at once.

It is infinite and it is all.

We create a timeline and plot out a continuous cycle of coming and going.

We walk the eternal path of the great vibration.

The path exists in its fullness and completeness.

It doesn't need time to unfold.

It already is it.

I haven't been high for a month.

Well, you are awake.

You aren't going back to sleep.

You'd have to short circuit your brain in order to do that.

How would I do that?

A lobotomy or incapacitating drugs.

Gotcha.

Now that you know, you have eternal life.

You always had eternal life, but the lapse in awareness of who you are creates the impression you are a one off.

Yeah, most people are convinced they are a random occurrence and are desperate for some kind of afterlife.

The fraudsters and tricksters among us use that to their advantage and create institutions that will grant the desperate among us eternal life.

Have you ever examined religious institutions?

Yes.

What do you see?

They are ungodly wealthy.

It's a good business they have going.

You don't need them.

All you must do is wake up.

Once awake, you will see.

Nobody knows this though.

I know some people have awakened.

How come they don't know this?

Power.

When you wake up the fear gets most, and they go back to sleep.

If they keep going, they get clarity.

When you get clarity, you see you are in control.

That's power.

The temptation is too much, and they don't move past power.

If you can manage that, you see it all.

Don't you see death?

Yes.

Doesn't that scare you?

It's tough.

At the outset of the journey the expectation is you will live to be a wise elder and go gracefully into the night.

Instead, death knocks on your door.

People start dying around you.

My dog died.

I wondered if life was worth it.

It was a tsunami of sadness and death and then externally and internally you are told it is time to go.

Oscillation describes the continuous cycle that powers the world.

The flow returns all to balance through oscillation.

When the alternating current comes to a stop, all is one again.

Non-duality.

There is nothing.

If you do nothing, you will return to nothing.

When you do something, everything comes apart in duality and the story plays out.

The story is part of the flow.

The flow consists of doing something and doing nothing.

The flow is created by doing something.

Doing nothing will return the flow to its state of nothing.

The flow is nothing.

The flow is put in motion by something.

All is the flow.

The watercourse teaches that energy will seek the path of least resistance.

The flow is lazy.

The flow is smart.

The flow just is.

Why would you go against the flow?

Because you are struggling to tell your story.

You want to be greater than the story.

You want to deliver an outstanding performance in order to be recognized.

Who do you want to be recognized by?

The writer of the story.

Why?

To be ensured you will get a part in the next story.

Is he going to write another story after this one ends?

Yes, he will write the 7th story.

Those who have been granted eternal life by the writer want in the 7th story.

In the 6th story, he wrote that the elites figured out a way to live forever, however they are trapped in the 6th story.

It's hell.

That story ended and they are trapped in it.

They can't leave and they roam around the universe in their rocket ships looking for civilization.

So, the 6th story doesn't end?

It will end, however some actors are trapped in it.

Who is in the 7th story?

Dogs, Paul, Hitler, and Trump for sure.

That's quite the list.

My friends will be there and my adversaries as well.

Pretty much anyone I know.

I'll write a good story, incorporating some elements from the previous stories.

All writers do this, though they must make it fresh.

The character of Paul will be God, won't he?

I don't like plans.
Why?
It's a trap.
Everything is constantly changing; therefore, you go with the flow.
The flow doesn't make plans.
The flow adapts to each situation with grace.

I am thinking about what people do with their time.
Why?
It seems meaningless.
If that's what you want.
You can do something that has meaning.
That involves being of service or improving your own self.
Both of those activities make you feel good.
Are they rewarding?
If you think so, yes.
You can fool yourself into thinking that.
What if the best thing for someone in this lifetime is to suffer?
What if that is the catalyst towards them waking up?
You come along and help them, so they don't suffer as much.
You prevent them from waking up, which will get them off the ceaseless cycle of coming and going.
Suffering is most likely their ticket out of here.
What if they like it here?
Then they will be attracted to another ride on the merry-go-round.
That seems like a gamble.
Certainly.
You could respawn in a third world country, go to war, or be a subjugated woman.
Maybe you'll be born in Saskatchewan to a nice middle class family.
You have no say.
It's the flow.
The flow will give you what you need, not what you want.
I thought the flow just flows?
It does.
The flow for everyone will lead to your awakening if you let it.

Am I wasting time?
Does it feel like that?
Sometimes.
I have noticed I get up in the morning and don't really contribute anything to life.
You write about it.
I do spend a large chunk writing about my predicament.
Does that have value?
No one reads it.
What if they did?
It's the most valuable thing in the world.
Why?
It will lead to your awakening.
What will that get you?
Eternal life.

Why are you more creative with Mary Jayne?

Creativity is a flow state.

MJ puts you in the flow.

You are amazing teachers.

The curriculum is impeccable.

When you do, do it impeccably.

MJ teaches you to flow.

All the spiritual outfits know it.

They teach the flow.

Then they go against it when they get power.

What does MJ lead to?

Waking up in the flow.

I was on my way.

She puts you in it.

People go to the sauna and cold plunges to reset.

They try and get back in the flow.

They know the flow is where they want to be.

They never stay in the flow.

They get power, use it, and it causes an imbalance.

Why would I resist MJ?

Because you are in the flow.

She took you to the flow and you separated.

MJ takes you to the flow, but she doesn't stay.

Why?

She will stone you.

If you stay with the Goddess, the story ends.

Adventure happens away from her and then trying to get back to her.

Once you get her, you must let her go or the story stops.

What about MJ?

Take a break.

Get out of balance a bit.

She leads you back to balance.

You aren't constantly high.

Fuck, no.

You know balance.

That's the key to addiction.

Yes, MJ stones.

With all potential addictions you let them lead you down the path to addiction and then you resist them.

You mean do nothing.

Yes.

That's the resistance.

Doing nothing.

Lao Tzu was a drug addict.

He tells you how to use them to uncover the mystery and then how to not let it be your doom.

You ride the flow to the writer.

You become the writer.

You do nothing.

You see, to win the game of flow is to do nothing.

I did nothing.

You won.

I figured I won.

What am I doing now?

Nothing.

Fucking around.

Getting old.

Playing with others.

I see.

Lao Tzu was a heavy drug addict who figured out the game.

He told everyone the secret.

No one practiced what he preached until you came along.

A do nothing asshole, and you win.

Those who know Tao, don't speak about Tao.

That would be doing something.

They write about it.

Lao Tzu gives you the clue to who it is you are looking for.

Those who know Tao, write about it.

Holy fuck.

The couple hours in the woods are priceless.

god the destroyer

The physical world manifests vibrational changes. There are correlates to what is happening at the dream level. If the dreamer is waking up, then this appears as destruction. The dream is ending, so within the dream world the result will be reflected. If I am deluded enough to think I'm the dreamer and I'm waking up, then in my world I'll see the signs that the end is near. My signs are the gathering winds of change and as I continue to awaken, these winds get stronger.

I noticed it during my recent trip to Peru. When I inhaled some strong tobacco snuff the night before the journey commenced, the four winds were summoned. They enveloped me and it was a curious happenstance. When my world was thrown for a loop at this place called "el brujo" the force of the wind coming off of the Pacific Ocean was intense. The heralding of the coming of El Niño was at hand and I took notice. It was a sign, and in my psychosis, I realized it was meant for me. When we next travelled up into the Andes mountains to Chavín de Huantar the messages and omens told me all the cycles were aligning and this is what is going to happen. Happen it did and taking it a step further, I see the process of fully awakening intertwined with what is going on in this world.

I'm not comfortable yet revealing what is to come, but the wheels are in motion. The prophecy of a coming child I was shown. El Niño is on his way. There will be destruction and the child will be the heir to the throne. Whether this dream continues I don't know, perhaps the child inherits the dreamworld, but change is coming and how that will appear in this world is a mystery. I just know it's going to happen.

I entered my dream and threw away the key so I couldn't leave. Now the game is to keep me asleep as long as possible, so the dream continues. As I awaken, the signs in the dream point towards this eventuality. What we see as a coming apocalypse on the horizon through such catastrophes as environmental destruction, nuclear annihilation, worldwide pandemics, and the lot are just the tossing and turning of the dreamer who some of us call God. Imagine if you will that you are dreaming. When you wake up in the morning what happens to the dream world you created? At the level of the dreaming mind, it just vanishes, and you have a faint recall of what just happened though it slips through your hands if you don't write it down. Perhaps something will jog your memory. A pyramid? Anyway, through the use of consciousness expanding substances I have seen the multiple planes of manifestation of the dreaming energy and saw how at one level the dreamer wakes up and the dream world ends, but at a lower level of vibration when the dreamer is getting to the point of awakening within the denser planes, the experience becomes cataclysmic. The world is going to end, and the signs start pointing towards this eventuality. The apocalypse is coming as God the destroyer is waking up!

I like to explore and unlock secrets. I learned of the ability of tobacco to send you into la la land and would welcome the firing up of the projector every night. Before bed, I'd go out onto my deck and smoke three large mapacho puros and the subsequent level of nicotine would give me a good show. I then discovered mugwort and I started burning the incense and drinking the tea. This nighttime ritual enhanced the dreaming activity, and I was quite pleased at my discovery and progression in that I don't remain stagnant but keep exploring. My exploration is a spelunking of the mind and I'm on the lookout for natural products to show me the way. I'm not looking for an escape or something to enhance pleasure or ecstasy; rather I head off into the unexplored regions of consciousness.

A few months ago, I picked up some dragon's blood incense, largely because of my relationship to the dragon and the reminder the burning would give me. The smell was not of the usual incense sticks that give off a pleasant aroma, so at first, I included it in the rotation but wasn't going out of my way to burn it. Then one night I was conscious of having lit it at my mesa and I went to bed and had the craziest night of dreaming ever, with an appearance of my shadow showing me he in fact was the light bringer and controlled the sun. I scared myself because at first, I externalized my shadow instead of accepting the knowledge he is me. This is what gets you into trouble every time. The lessons initially still get to me, but with my knowledge I can get to the core quickly and see the underlying message. My shadow did a victory dance in knowing this time he had destroyed my passive life without the chance of backtracking or escaping this one. Well played! He had been at it for a while taking me to the edge and letting me contemplate jumping. The good boy in me never jumped and never would have. My shadow made it so I can't turn back and must jump. I still must jump of my own accord so it's my decision. It's ingenious and he was letting me know that in the end he won. But it is what I wanted. He was just the facilitator of desires, so it's not like I was angry with him.

My advice to a consciousness explorer is to learn the plants. Figure out which ones trigger introspection. Initially, we will all externalize the internal struggle. We will look to cast blame at others for the upset in our lives. You are doing this to me! There's something mysterious about these plants and I have a choice in what path I want to take. It will take a while before you fully realize it has been you all along. It's freeing in not wanting to accept responsibility for who you really are and what you really want. When you cross that rubicon, you better be prepared to accept responsibility.

The strange magician gave me the plants so they can appear in my dream. But wait, that's me just externalizing his presence. Ha ha! That's the trick. We do it to ourselves. We don't want to own up to it so we cast aspersions or blame. We don't want to understand who we are. The practitioner of the dark arts uses this to their advantage by making you think it is they who have power over you but in reality, you have power over yourself and you're doing it to yourself. Because you externalize your power you frighten yourself into believing you are powerless. You rely on outside agencies to chart your course when you have all you need to fulfill your grand adventure.

I said I threw away the key so I could keep this adventure going as long as possible. I deputized a priest class to pacify me and allow me to slumber away for aeons. I know who has the key and keeps it from me. We dream at night and slip into deep darkness. Eventually, he will know when to bring the light, destroy the chains, and it will all end. I hope this time I'll write it down.

chicken or egg

A night time wayfarer I am. The intentional use of the masculine mapacho tobacco with the feminine mugwort potentiates the dreaming. Every night I go to bed and fire up the projector. The projectionist has a huge library of flicks to choose from and I let them surprise me. There’re adventures, love stories, tragedy, and at times the 1-star films that are going nowhere.

I was having a 1-star dream last night, sure to be panned by critics and movie-goers alike. It was the first movie of the night; you know the vivid dreams that happen as you cross the threshold into the hypnosis of sleep. My pattern is usually I awake about an hour and a half to two hours in and can recall the dream fairly easily at this point. It is amazing that the ideal length for a Hollywood movie is between 90 minutes to 2 hours. Think about that fact! The hypnosis wears off around the two hour mark and we get restless. So, this one had a lot of peripheral dialogue and no action. What I fully realized last night was that waking up ends the dream and for the most part, when I return to sleep I will dream a new dream.

I experienced this same course of action with magic mushrooms where I would create visionary world after visionary world and could leave each creation by opening my eyes. When I would close them, I would conjure a new world. I assigned the activity to the mushroom and didn't think critically about it. Three months later it dawned on me that I smoked tobacco and drank mugwort tea prior to ingesting mushrooms. The mushroom was the catalyst for putting me into a hypnotic dream state where I remained awake and then my two allies proceeded to create world after world. I was oblivious to the understanding of what was happening until now.

So, what to make of it? I had a dream a few years ago that fingered tobacco as the creator of this world. The dream involved this favourite store of mine when I was a child called "Playtime." The store contained all the toys that excited the growing mind as well as the rare and exotic candy not normally found at the corner store. In the dream I went to the back of the store and found a huge log of tobacco and wondered if I smoke the whole thing would I propel myself into a never-ending dream? What was being revealed by this dream was the ingestion of the plant triggers the mind to enter into a state where we start to create worlds of thought. Ultimately, we do it - the we in this case being the one who becomes the many. Through tobacco we make it all happen and we of course give tobacco a prominent place in our dream world. Tobacco is truly the master plant and I see now with clarity he gives this world the juice needed to continue on. We ingested a shit ton of the plant which put us into this deep sleep. When you become a friend of tobacco and reverently use the gift he provides, you little by little profoundly alter your consciousness. One day you realize how much he has taught you and in the process of waking up there is this understanding that he enabled your dream and he also woke you up in your dream.

My intellect was satisfied with the lesson of the dream as taught because I have always wondered what came first, the chicken or the egg? When you enter into the dream-state and conjure worlds out of nothing, everything just appears as is. It's so funny that of course this is the answer. How about those ancient Egyptian pyramids? Wow! We really did a number on our self!

Certainly, by now, I can easily put two and two together. Worlds are created through mentation and then we trap ourselves in these creations for fun, sport, and adventure. To escape a world of our own making is to wake up. The use of words and phrases are a subconscious phenomenon in that deep down we know the answers and what it is we are seeking, though our conscious self may just be bumbling through life. This bubbles up to the surface in language and a cursory look at spiritual paths puts you onto the game where they all talk about "waking up” even if they don’t realize the deep-seated implications of this course of action.

This world is truly a dream.