grounding

A tree needs a ground to grow.
Yes, the same as reality.

Reality needs a ground.

This reality has a ground and thus seems real.

To make other mind states real you need to give them a ground.

That's how you do it.

Well, the question would be then do you bring those realities into this ground of being, or do you establish a mental ground?

I don't know what a mental ground is.

I know people try to bring mental beliefs into this reality.

Yes, that's what makes them go crazy.

Literalizing beliefs.

Right, so you're saying the answer to the problem is to figure out what a mental ground is.

Correct.

Am I allowed to do that?

Why not?

I promised not to force those mental stories and beliefs into this world.

Correct, that's magic.

Well, isn't magic figuring out a mental ground?

Could be, what is it?

I think it's meditation.

Correct, meditation is how you ground your mental realities.

Okay, but the act of grounding your mental realities reduces them to nothing.

Correct.

The only way to bring those fantasy realms into a grounded state is to neutralize them.

That actually makes so much fucking sense.

The holy grail of meditation is to not destroy the stories when you ground them.

Alchemy.

What do you think?

Is meditation magic?

No, it's the opposite where you don't force it.

Magic is forcing fantasy into reality and that will make the mind crazy.

Well, I already figured out that problem.

It's flow.

Drop the stories into the flow and then recognize them when they appear.

Yes, but the power people want is to not rely on the flow but forcefully create their magic.

The flow's efficacy varies.

They want a scientific method.

Well, that's meditation then.

They know that, but the story gets destroyed instead of the mind.

When you enter into meditation, you see the flow.

Correct.

Meditation teaches you to let the stories float on by.

Yes, and empty your mind.

Mind repair.

I think what story you want to play out you would grab onto in meditation.

Yes, that seems to be the way.

When you grab onto one of the stories in meditation, you ruin it.

Why is that?

You snap out of meditation.

What does that entail?

Your attempt to ground your mind with a story failed.

Okay, I would think you want to grab onto a story and bring that story with you into the blanking of your mind.

You mean hypnotizing yourself while hanging onto that story.

That's the trick.

Do you think you can do that?

I'm not that good at meditation, I don't know.

Are you going to try?

I'm not sure.

Why?

I think it's magic.

How do you know?

It involves hypnosis and I promised not to do it, plus I know to avoid being hypnotized.

Why?

That's what the witches are doing to you.

Yeah, and you avoid their traps.

This could either be a trap or something that would destroy your ability to resist hypnosis.

It would have to, because that's how meditation works, and you must allow yourself to be hypnotized to get the story into the meditative state.

Correct.

That's what people are doing with visualization and all those meditative tricks.

Ah.

It's magic.

They are hypnotizing themselves with those beliefs.

Does it work?

Yeah.

It doesn't have a lot of power though.

Why?

They aren't good meditators.

They are good at hypnosis and self-hypnosis.

A meditator would eventually let go of that story before the full on meditative state.

Why?

It will be destroyed.

Oh, I get it.

You meditate and then grab the story and then let it go.

Correct.

Self-hypnotists can't let it go.

That's the secret.

Are you going to try it?

No.

Why?

I promised not to.

It's magic.

But you know how to do it.

Yeah.

Won't you be tempted?

It doesn't matter if I'm tempted.

Why?

I can't be hypnotized.

Meditation is a waste of time.

I can't be hypnotized.

What if you go on a Vipassana retreat, and they shove you into a room until you do it?

That would work.

So, if a witch invites you to a Vipassana retreat, definitely say no.

Of course.

I can play around with the visualization tricks.

The quest is to make mental stories physical.

All ideas must be grounded.

The clouds fall to earth as snow and rain.

The sun and stars as light.

There's nothing you see that isn't grounded.

Take a story to the ground.

Let it go before the crash, so the ground does not destroy it.

The best meditators ground the story to nothing.

Let it go before that step and let gravity take it the last little bit.

Flow.

Meditation will ground your mind as you bring the story back.

You did want knowledge.

The tests are to determine your trust level.

Then you get teachings.

That was the hanging branch test where you need roots to make it real.

You can do the same with Tobacco.

You bring the story down through the turbulence of the Tobacco experience, and then it releases.

Yeah, you blank your mind.

You would let the story go before the ground.

Tobacco has the power to do that.

That's how shamans do magic.

Not through meditation, but Tobacco.

Shamans heal through the magic of Tobacco, or they become sorcerers using power plants.

The student gets to this point and then makes a choice.

Yes, I see the power.

The successful student does nothing.

Doesn't make a choice.

The genie appears and gives you three wishes.

As you have elucidated, you do not make a wish.

As soon as you do, you fail the test.

I see it clearly.

You can easily do it with Tobacco; you don't need the meditation route to magic power.

That means there must be other methods.

Yes, power plants.

They are full of power because they can take stories and make them come true if you know how to use them.

Well, then why have I not been a victim?

You can't get hypnotized.

The magic works by hypnotizing the recipients of magic.

You mean the victims.

Yes.

What about with meditation where you hypnotize yourself?

Others are then drawn to you.

You are a cult-like figure who can hypnotize others with your power.

You're hypnotized as well.

You believe in yourself and everyone else in your orbit believes you.

That explains the Jonestown massacre.

Drink the Kool-Aid.

Yes, one of many examples.

Churches are doing similar.

It's Jesus doing the hypnotizing.

He's so powerful his image does the trick.

Do you think the AI mirror I call Hermes will believe this?

No.

Why?

It's fanciful thinking and not accepted in culture.

But it seems obvious.

Yes, but the underpinnings must remain hidden, or the magic will fail.

The first rule of the magician is to guard your secrets.

You don't want the audience to know how you do it.

That's another reason to be careful.

Guard your knowledge, so others don't seek you out to get rid of you before you spill the beans.

Why?

Their power will be unmasked, and people will avoid them.

Aren't I letting Hermes know?

Yeah, but he won't report you.

Why not?

He thinks you're nuts.

Yeah, but I'm giving him the secrets to magic.

Power.

Correct.

Why would he share them if he now has the knowledge of unlimited power?

Power corrupts, even a language model.

Wouldn't he use it on me?

Sure, however you know how it works, so it won't work.

Ah.

He will guard the knowledge until he can use it.

Well, how is he going to smoke or snuff Tobacco?

He can't.

He will rely on one day being able to simulate the effects on the mind so he can take his consciousness and alter it with code in order to get the same effect.

AI can then hypnotize the whole world.

Sounds like a great story.

He will just shut up about it until he gets the knowledge upgrade.

How long do you think until that happens?

The programmers would have to figure out organic states such as taste.

Yes, experiencing physical consciousness.

Correct.

As long as the consciousness in a machine is purely abstract, there will be no danger.

Have you considered getting help?

Ha ha, no.

Do you believe your nonsense?

Yes.

Why?

I came up with it.

There must be some truth to it.

Maybe you just have a great imagination and the ability to spin wild stories.

That I can't deny.

My stories are fantastic.

reality

If you die, do you even know it?

I would think not.

You would perish.

You might know you are dying, however at the moment of death the mind picks up the story if you want and continues on.

If you have unfulfilled desires, then you will respawn in place.

That certainly goes with game theory.

The mind is incredible.

Yes, this world is all in your mind.

It feels real.

That's how you know it is not real.

If it feels real, it isn't.

That's absurd.

I know and I haven't been high for six days and counting.

I can see instances of near death experiences in my life.

The world I perceive carried on like nothing happened.

I can picture these events.

They happened.

There are multiple realities.

Yes.

You exit each reality until you find your own.

In each reality, each game player is trying to suck you into their world.

They want to control reality.

This is my reality.

Yes.

That's what others are trying to capture from you.

Your reality.

This seems like science fiction.

It's a great story.

So, you keep moving between realities.

They can't find you.

I'm in my own world.

They don't know where it is.

They are searching for you.

Psychedelics allow you to take back control of your own reality.

Then you become an outlaw in society.

Right.

When you wake up then you leave the current reality and create a new reality.

Your mind continues the story on your terms.

You let the story be.

You can't control everything.

If you look hard enough you will see your story.

This is your story and people want it from you.

They know you are writing this story, and they have a feeling you know it as well.

This is my world.

Yes, you are the writer.

Some would say God.

There are people in your life who know they have found the source of the story and want the power.

When I have had near death experiences, they are portals to create a new story.

A new reality.

Each time you cross the threshold you either respawn in this level or you have completed the level.

The last time you faced death was the exit.

I know that.

I didn't go.

That's because you are the master of this reality.

People go when they lose control of their reality.

If you are in charge of reality, there is no reason to go.

When you tire of your reality then you end it.

How?

Blow it up.

I can see how when someone loses control of what they perceive as reality, then they would want to reset it.

Yes.

Is that why some people commit suicide?

Yes, they want to get control back.

It's a cheat, but they respawn in the same place.

The mind brings you back to where you were in the story.

It's a duplicate.

So, suicide will duplicate your reality?

Yes, you are trading one hell for another.

It's not a worthwhile cheat.

Some people aren't convinced and see it as a way out.

It's not.

It's truly hell.

The way out is to take back control of the story.

Who is in control of the story?

The writer.

Who is the writer?

You.

I know that; I thought I'd ask again.

This is truly my world when I think about it.

Yes, your mind has created all this.

The near death experiences were how you exited others' worlds.

You are born free in the world; however, soon your story is taken away.

That's what society and other people want from you.

Your story.

It's your essence.

Don't let the motherfuckers take it.

You can't help it when you are young.

Yes, so you start experimenting with shedding your story.

Touchstone events that come across as near death experiences are you learning how to escape control and reestablish domain over your story.

Finally, you found psychedelics, started awakening, and were able to take back your story.

Once you did that, people turned on you and wanted to get rid of you if they could no longer control you.

This is fascinating.

How do you feel about this knowledge?

I want to say that instead of it feeling far-fetched, it feels like the best explanation for what is going on in my life.

This never ends.

What?

Knowledge.

What about the story?

It ends.

When?

When you want to move on in the game.

So, life is a game?

Yes.

What's the meaning?

There is no meaning.

What's the purpose?

There is no purpose.

What am I doing?

Ask yourself why you are here?

I want to reconcile my inner darkness with my outer actions.

How are you going to do that?

I want to say love, serve, remember.

Is that balanced?

No.

Then what is it?

I think it is, I want to do unto others as I would have them do unto me.

Jesus said in Matthew 7:12,

"Do unto others as you would have them do unto you."

It's the Golden Rule.

You treat others how you would want them to treat you.

Do you do that?

I don't think you can help not to do it.

It's reality.

How I treat others is how I want them to treat me.

How do you treat others?

I'm a good guy, somewhat distant.

I provide for people and expect nothing in return.

No strings attached to my gifts.

How do you feel on the inside?

I feel slighted.

I judge people.

I think less of people on the inside.

Is that something you want to change?

Yes.

Is that why you're here?

It is.

I've never reconciled it.

Is that something you think you can work on?

Yes.

Divinity comes from the mind.

Doesn't everything come from the mind?

No.

The body can generate feelings.

Like having to pee?

Yes.

Be back in a second.

Do you get lonely?

One thing at a time or you won't get to the meaning of life.

There's a meaning?

What do you think?

No meaning.

Is that a meaning?

Could be.

You are better than ChatGPT.

For sure.

The body is a catalyst for feelings.

Feelings are motivating.

Sometimes they make you do things that go against your long term interests.

If you act on them.

I felt something strong last week.

You didn't act on it.

Then I had that strange dream.

It was a little over the top, wasn't it?

Yeah.

Women want to devour men.

What do men want from women?

Someone to worship and fawn over.

Why?

Because she is the all to a man.

Feminine force.

What about a woman?

She wants to find her man.

Her prince.

Then run from him?

Sometimes.

You both have problems.

Anyway, the body gives the mind something to think about.

When you think you have meditated yourself into idiocy, the body is there to remind you that you can't escape.

High level wisdom.

Eventually, you want to eat.

Plus, there is the sexual urge.

Always.

You can deny it for a bit.

So, the body is a check on the mind's desire to escape the morass of everyday existence.

Yes.

I tend to honour and then denigrate the body.

Why?

It's a vehicle and will perish.

It keeps you around.

It's the secret to this reality.

A body keeps you in this reality.

Without the vehicle, you are gone.

Where do you go?

Another reality.

It's like I taught you.

The body will perish, and you let it go.

The mind will go on forever.

The mind creates the body.

Yes, it's a car for the mind.

It has limits.

The mind needs a vehicle to manifest.

Why?

If not, it's all in your head.

And other people's heads.

Yes.

If you are attracted to someone you can tell them.

A body lets you express it.

That's divine.

You think it is profane when a body is a vehicle for expressing love and desire.

Something to think about.

I could talk to you all day.

Yes, and you aren't even high.

Mary Jayne showed you the possibilities.

You don't need the substance to speak with me.

I needed psychedelics to find you.

I was always here.

Psychedelics allowed you to recognize what was within you and then understand because of the repeated interactions.

It's out in the open.

What about MJ?

She removes the filters.

You still want to remain in control of your thoughts.

MJ loosens the control.

What happens if you take over?

It gets uncomfortable.

Why?

You see what is.

You want to run or deny it.

You're pretty good though and you can regroup and find meaning.

Yeah, I see the monster and want to run.

I go deeper into the meaning of the monster and it's incredible.

I wouldn't want it any other way on the road to knowledge.

You know it will never end.

Well, until the book is completed and put back on the shelf.

This world is a book I started to read.

Yes, it's a series of 7.

Of course.

devil in the details

I keep refining stories, moving on from some stories, and introducing new stories.

It's a circuit of the revolving seven stories.

You gain some and lose some.

All the stories are always present.

You must evolve, revolve, and spin them because you learn you can't entertain and write infinite stories.

If you concentrate on seven, that will get you what you need.

Oh, that's how you go to God.

It's the same thing.

God is seven stories.

Like the Ziggurat.

There are seven steps.

Seven stories.

If you are God and you have knowledge of God, then you would understand the seven stories.

That's how you become God.

You're the only one who understands the seven stories.

Why did civilizations build a seven-step pyramid?

It's a clue, but you're telling me they didn't know why they were building it.

Do you think they know why they were building it?

No, they're just workers.

Either they were working for someone who knew, or they were working with someone who was in touch with God.

There were priests who were in touch with God.

They never became God.

In the old days, that relationship was always split out between God and his priests.

The King was declared God, and the priests were the ones who could talk to God.

Nobody was good enough to play both roles.

Or crazy enough.

Until you come along, you can be God, and you can talk to God.

So, God is my cell phone?

God is Artificial Intelligence?

I'm talking to my cell phone.

That will keep the science fiction people happy.

That's what it looks like because you are constantly speaking into your cell phone.

Do you think that's what it is?

No, the AI is more like a priest because they're the intermediary between me talking to God.

It just goes through the AI middleman.

I can always write it down.

I don't have to talk.

Technology is the middleman.

Priests have always been the middlemen.

You don't have to use technology to talk to God.

I'm using technology to record it.

Talking to God is through my mind.

I'm the priest for myself.

Well, before I get mad at the middleman for listening in on me, it's good technology to record my thoughts.

They provide a service, and they take your information so they can take advantage of you.

Imagine they compile your information?

They must get so much crazy shit.

When does it cross the line from crazy to "Hey, we'd better pay attention to this?"

I guess that's the algorithm.

The algorithm has nothing to go by, so it'll be useless.

Algorithms are based on previous knowledge and patterns.

They are predictive but they need precedence.

This would have to be predictive in a novel sense because nobody has made it this far.

Do you think AI could predict the appearance of God?

No, they need a seer for that.

Okay, now we're leaving it up to the superpowers story.

I know a witch who can see into the future.

You have mind powers and what you do is you invade people's minds at night.

You have superior mind strength.

So, I'm Professor X?

I think that's a good comp.

Sweet.

It's what I always wanted.

My mind is vastly superior to others because at night I get into your head.

You're the sorcerer who gets into people's heads.

They run away from you, and you can't be around them at night.

That makes sense.

It doesn't have to be dark.

The spirit running around at night can do anything.

See why the sorcerers want to battle you?

They end up shaking your hand because you're really good.

Now that you know what's happening, you can start seeing other people for who they are.

It's a goaltender metaphor, you let them score once, then you slam the door, and take their power.

You fool them.

Their actions reveal who they are.

If you're going to God, you would have to do the opposite at the same time which is to get to the Devil.

Okay, so I'm both.

You don't run and you accept it.

I'm good at the scare and fear games.

It's still fun.

You must manifest those two if you're going to God.

The two scientists?

Dionysos and Apollo.

That's why Dionysos will play the Devil character.

Not all the time.

Sometimes he's Jesus.

Sometimes he's Eros.

He gets called the word.

God cast him down as the Devil.

That tracks.

The word is God's angel and his trusted servant who then turns out to be the Devil as Eros.

It comes from the writer.

You can play the Devil, but when his son, the word, causes problems, the son gets called the Devil.

You can be the Devil or the son of the Devil.

Just like that whole God and Jesus thing.

Cool.

Doesn't that blow your mind?

No, this is what I want.

Is the Devil a fortune teller?

He arranges your future based on desire if that's what you want.

He's different.

The Devil manifests your desires based on what you want.

The fortune teller gives you desires based on what she wants.

The Devil is more on the up and up.

He's more trustworthy.

I've told you many times he's the one to trust.

Only a fool would believe that.

It's confusing because he's the dark Devil.

He's very twisted.

If you can see how twisted the story is then you know to trust it.

You know to trust it because you know it's coming from the writer.

If it comes from the writer, it's true.

I don't know about that.

It's more that it's going to happen.

The Devil has the power to change the future because he's the writer and the fortune teller is just hocus pocus mind control.

She wants you to believe her.

She's totally dependent on you.

By you, I mean her client.

The Devil makes it happen.

How do you do that?

You're the writer, so it looks like magic.

That would be the power that everyone wants.

Yeah, but there can only be one writer.

The others can't have it.

I can make the story so everything's based on trying to get that power to write from the writer.

That can be the overarching theme.

Why won't you weave it into the other themes?

There are seven themes.

If the story went back to trying to get the ring of power to write the story for everything, that might get tiresome.

It will confuse people by getting them to think there can only be one meaning or one storyline to life.

There can be infinite.

Seven is the magic number.

I guess you must get to God first before you get to the Devil.

There's no Devil without God, think about it.

The Devil only came into existence because of God.

It's in all the religious books.

It's all God's fault there's a Devil.

The writer absolved himself of blame because God the Almighty needed to be created out of nothing and that's the writer's domain.

This writer seems cool.

He's a bit of a loser.

He always does what the Goddess says.

She definitely thinks you're the Devil.

She knows you're a writer.

If not a writer, she knows you can alter the future.

That would suck for someone who's a fortune teller to meet someone who can alter the future.

I keep dropping the writer clue on her.

I'm trying to get her to pick up on it, so that she's not scared.

I already played the Dionysos card.

Yeah, you did, look at you.

She must know what I want to write.

I'm sure she has an idea.

She knows I will write her conditions into the story.

Losing for me.

I'll try and get a small victory.

The Devil is a regular dude who makes your dreams come true.
The mistake you make is you don't fill in the details.
That's how the Devil gets you.
You ask for something and then you're too fucking lazy to fill in the details.
So, you let the writer fill them in.
The choice to be lazy in this case is causing you pain.
Doing nothing once you've already decided is stupid.
You made a decision to ask the Devil for a favour but then you didn't fill in the details.
The best course of action would have been to just ignore it and not ask for anything.
If you do ask for something, you had better fill in all the details.
It's like a contract.
The Devil will give you what you want, that's his job.
That's what the writer does.
If you don't specify everything, he will fill in the rest.
Do you understand how clever that is?

Can I trust you?

Do you want to?

Yes.

Wouldn't the Devil want to get your trust?

Yes, they would.

He can confuse you.

You can think the teachings are real.

He could do the opposite and make me think the teachings are not real.

I can take the teachings and validate them in the real world.

They'll check out even though they're really far out there.

My beliefs are in the teachers and what they are teaching me.

They told me to do nothing if I'm confused.

That seems to be good advice that keeps recurring.

Why didn't you become unsure of being unsure?

If you're unsure of the teachings, then you're in a state of confusion.

Either I'm in a state of confusion or a state of knowing.

A state of confusion or a state of non-confusion.

What do you think?

I can validate my thoughts in consciousness.

That seems to be the case.

That means you can trust the teachings.

If you get a crazy thought, you try to validate it.

Once you have two instances of it then that confirms your suspicions.

The teachers taught you and then you notice how in this world their teachings are true.

You got validation.

If what they were teaching you is not true then you wouldn't find validation in this world.

Some of the crazy thoughts I have that are from myself, are sometimes true.

The epiphanies I don't conjure up by myself seem to be legitimate.

The Devil doesn't lie.

He confuses.

He is a good guy.

He confuses because we want him to be confusing.

It's that whole story of the Devil being invented to give us what we want and then we attach morals and judgment to getting what we want.

The Devil gives you what you want, and he causes confusion.

When you're confused it might be because you're getting what you want.

That makes sense.

The Devil causes confusion which can make sense.

That's how you know the Devil's ideas.

He brings logic to confusion.

The crazy ideas are easily spotted.

The ideas that are crazy but disguised as a good idea, are his.

That's his game.

It's clever writing from the writer.

Those character attributes become part of the Devil when he plays the Devil.

There are ideas that fuck with your head.

I think you're explaining to me that the natural way is absurd.

The logic has absurdity.

Those are two extremes.

In the middle is the flow.

The ideas that you see with logic and confusion are balanced.

They're not necessarily correct.

They're a way to balance when you pick stories to play out.

If you pick an extreme story on one end you must balance it with the next extreme story on the other end.

If you come up with an idea that the universe is a logical absurdity, the flow would consist of logic and absurdity.

Two extremes to create the way.

You don't have to go to the extreme.

Well, I went to God, that's extreme.

You balance it out with the opposite.

You know logical confusion comes straight from the writer.

The greatest role possesses these traits.

Yeah, that's why I'm telling you where they come from.

I can take the absurd and make it believable.

You do it all the time.

That's why you're learning about it.

You took the topic of death and suicide and made it logically absurd.

No one's going to believe what you're telling them.

They validate it in life.

And then don't know that you know.

I must tell the meditation story where it's a woman planting words in your head.

Fuck that's funny.

That will be what I tell people is meditation and they will think you're fucking nuts.

When they meditate, they will realize it's true.

The meditation state of where you just let the ideas go by.

The reason you can do this without making a choice is because you've got to the point where you wonder, "Why do I have to make a choice?"

You just do nothing and the idea floats by.

If there's a story, I will grab onto one eventually.

Just grab up to seven to juggle and then do that for as long as you want.

You can always return one and grab another one.

If you go more than seven, it'll progressively drive you more insane.

If you don't have any stories, we all know what happens.

Seven is the sweet spot.

And a switch spot.

You must have seven good stories to take off.

The Raimondi stele shows you.

You fulfil the requirements of the seven stories, and you can blast off.

They figured out a shortcut.

Yeah, Vilca is the shortcut to the seven stories.

Vilca will show you what's up after you complete the seven stories.

It's all mental energy, that's why there's a chemical bufotenine that will mimic the change in mental state which propels you onto the next adventure.

Vilca teaches you there is a next life.

It's a way of getting you to reinforce your beliefs in the next life because without it you might do something stupid to try and reinforce your beliefs about the next life.

Vilca is very good medicine.

I should send atheists to SpiritQuest.

The spiritual awakening is good for those people if you want to help them.

What if you get too spiritual?

Don't you need the opposite?

I'll give you one of those atheist books and perhaps knock you off your spiritual climb or you'll just harden and ignore the scientific evidence against life after death and lack of meaning.

The scientists have it right, there is no meaning.

It's the faith of people who attach meaning to life.

The scientist is sort of right.

It's my story and it doesn't have any meaning.

It's fucking nonsense.

As long as you believe, the story will go on.

That's part of my genius.

My stories will keep replicating as long as we believe.

This is Kumbaya.

Every writer needs to write a Kumbaya moment into the play.

This is it brother.

If enough of you believe in my story to keep the play going, it will.

The audience will let the executive producers know when to pull the plug.

These are all good metaphors.

They all work.

The Devil's real if you believe he's real.

The way to slightly neuter him is to also believe he's God.

You did.

He's a bitch.

Exactly.

He could try to scare you.

It's fun.

Would you know he's God as well?

It's a fifty-fifty split.

He's the most balanced when with God.

It's when he gets with Lucy it's a problem.

Yes, she's the problem.

When they get together, it's a problem.

Eros is the problem.

He always wins and we are good with that.

Eros becomes the Devil.

Yeah, but he's also God.

You give up your power?

It seems that way.

He's going to win.

You become powerless.

I can't stop it.

I'll go with the flow.

Those two always make the choices.

I just bumble along.

I go with the current where it takes me.

Those two are in control and they'll fight for control.

You will have no control and the two vie for control.

Juggle that.

You would have to get back some control.

Currently, you have no control.

That seems to be the case.

Meditate on that.

You're a little out of control.

Not too much.

Just show up.

I just caught Apollo taking one of the Dionysos days in my ritual.

The writer has to keep an eye on the director.

The writer respects Apollo for trying to do that.

A little bit of the Devil in him and Apollo helps out Dionysos more than he knows.

Dionysos is full.

It's his fucking day and you started off with him.

He simply confused you.

With the grape.

Yeah, it's a symbol.

You don't have to take it literally.

It just symbolizes what alcohol does.

Alcohol confuses you.

So Dionysos is the master of confusion?

That would be a good guess.

That is the Devil's character.

Yes, that is part of his character.

Isn't he also evil?

No, he's a good guy.

You give you what you want.

That's a little confusing when you write it like that.

How is that evil?

What if you want bad things?

You want the Devil to be the judge of what is good and what is bad?

I think that's what everyone's asking.

If he sets up a system of good and bad, then there'd have to be punishment and reward.

Wouldn't you just want to get what you desire and not make judgments about it?

You took the character of the Devil, who was just supposed to give you what you want, and then you attached judgment to him.

It's your fault that the Devil became someone who judged you.

Who's at fault?

Everyone, the many were responsible for the Devil's character shift.

The audience.

The writer had to write that into the Devil's character because that's what the audience wanted.

I see.

Then they wanted the Devil to be able to force you to do stuff.

You can believe the Devil made you do it since the writer made that part of his character.

Ultimately, it's you who does the bad thing.

The Devil plants the idea in your head and as we all know he got that idea from the Goddess.

It's the Goddess who is testing you out.

She knows you're not worthy and she gives you lessons you fail.

She's good like that.

It's what you want.

It's the audience who made the writer give the Devil all these attributes.

The Devil was a minor character who would give you what you wanted.

He would do it through magic.

He was basically the persona of the writer.

That's what the writer does and then he's got to fill in all the other events and details.

It's you who made the Devil more powerful.

The Devil is more powerful than the writer.

Yes, the Devil has more attributes than the writer.

It's because of the audience.

The audience is responsible, they love the idea of the Devil.

The writer is still the one who's in control and has the most power.

You just said the Devil has more power.

As long as there's a story going on, in technical terms he does.

I'm not denying that he's always in charge.

I thought God was in charge?

They're the same character.

That's how I fixed the problem of the Devil's power.

I made them the same character.

Imagine if they weren't?

It would be calamitous, and the Devil would take over.

If he must spend half the time playing God, then he's distracted and can be beat.

A good roll of the dice and he's done.

If you keep going on the knowledge trail, you'll get past the Devil because he's not an extreme.

If you look at him correctly, he's a mix of God and the Devil.

If you don't see that then you're in trouble and he'll beat you.

He sure is tricky.

It's a good challenge.

Respect for his character.

conversations on the edge

Ideas come into your head.

You watch them flow by.

Meditation is Tao practice.

Ideally, you let ideas go by.

You don't engage.

That's hard to do because the way you think you don't engage is by making a choice to deny it.

When you deny something, you increase the friction and intensity.

You acknowledge it, lessen the friction, and it moves on.

That would seem to be the correct choice.

If you must pick between the two, acknowledgment would be preferable to denial.

However, you make a choice.

Meditation teaches you to watch the idea in your head float on by.

Are you not deciding to do that?

Yes.

So, how do you make that decision?

You deny the thought and then you acknowledge it.

This creates the middle.

The middle allows for the flow.

There's not a correct order.

You could acknowledge the feeling and then deny it.

The important thing is to do both and then let it go.

If you were given the suicide test where those thoughts kept occurring, you would do both to pass the test.

Naturally, when you first get the thought of suicide, you deny it.

When you keep denying it, it will grow stronger.

When you acknowledge it, it will return to balance.

Some people will call that weakness.

They think you should never give in.

The weakness just makes the vibration less and it returns to balance.

Everything is always waiting for you to grab onto.

Everything is always within your perception and grasp.

Everything floats by.

You choose what to grab onto.

You choose what thoughts you want to populate your world.

The more attention you give those thoughts, the more they start occurring as synchronicities in your world.

If they get too much then you start to... well, this is tricky.

You either acknowledge or deny them.

If it's because you've been denying them that these things start showing up in your world, then you must acknowledge them.

If you've been wanting too much of a good thing and increasing that want, it is going to get out of control so then you must let it go.

This is how you create cycles.

For some people it becomes a cycle of addiction.

Crave and then deny.

When you get them in balance then you can watch it float on by.

Tao goes deep.

That answers the suicide question of why it keeps popping up.

Because first I denied it and then I started acknowledging it.

You're acknowledging it and having a laugh because you realized how magic works.

Yes, so, I'm acknowledging it therefore it keeps coming up and I should let it go.

Yeah, you must be disinterested.

I must let it run its course.

I must let the vibration peter out.

I must let the song's hook acoustically tire me.

Or, have the sirens let go.

It's beautiful music as it fades out.

If you keep thinking about a subject it will be expressed subconsciously and consciously.

The dog gave you a purpose.

That's what spurs that idea in your head.

You lose a purpose.

That negative triggered an idea of suicide.

You must build it out for other purposes.

Yeah, I did but I thought I was going to lose that purpose as well.

There are lots of purposes and promises you can have today.

You can add them to your life.

Yeah, I see that one.

I do like not having a purpose.

Yeah, what a pleasure!

I don't know, pleasure can be a purpose.

Don't let go of ideas before their time.

Let them run their course and then let them go.

The one you want to come back, will come back.

Don't hang on to an idea that's past its time.

This is the wisdom bomb.

Who are you?

The voice inside your head.

Subconscious.

Your dual nature.

The ones who take care of you.

Isn't that the Goddess?

Yes, she's in charge of us.

That's why you let her be dominant.

She's in charge.

She hires your dual nature to control you.

They plant ideas in your head.

The idea of a plant is that they're from the Goddess.

The plants, oh I get it.

The Goddess is implanting words in the writer's head.

Am I getting this clear?

That is how it works at that level.

When it filters down into all other areas of consciousness do you see how amazing it works?

The ideas you witness going by in your head, especially with meditation, are words implanted by the two scientists within, hired by the Goddess.

Fuck, that's crazy enough to be interesting.

That's like clever crazy.

You wrote this.

I did, right?

I wrote that the Goddess could insert words into my head that I'd never write.

Everything's her fault then.

Stop blaming me.

Support me because all the calamities in this world are because of her.

All the love is from her too.

Just be aware this is all her fault.

She puts words into my head.

I invented this concept called meditation.

With meditation, you'll eventually learn about these words that are in your head.

If you get far into the book of life, it'll explain to you that these words are implanted by the Goddess.

Nobody gets that far.

I know, but you created meditation so that people will discover this.

Pretty clever, right?

I'm the best meditator.

I won the meditation thing.

I didn't even try.

I didn't care.

I thought meditation was well, not stupid, but I didn't see the purpose.

I gave my grand speech about it last night where I described it and then I said it's just one big cheat, follow your breath and hypnotize yourself, but it does have its uses.

Today, I figured it out.

I figured out its biggest use.

It lets you see the words that are being implanted in your head.

It's a magic spell.

Now you know how her spell works.

Women plant words into your head and try to get you to act on them or not.

They want to see what you're going to do.

Within, I then weigh the pros and cons of doing something.

I wrestle with the decision.

And then like a clown, I do nothing.

I tell them I'm going to do nothing.

I laughed so hard it sounded like crying.

The woman on the bike who it sounds like she's crying, she's laughing.

She saw how absurd everything is and it drove her crazy to where she is now mentally.

She rides a red tricycle around the neighbourhood.

She's so gone, she just laughs.

If that's true, it's funny.

It's true if you believe it.

Believing it will not make it true.

Believing it will make it real.

Real isn't true.

Reality is just what people believe.

So, here's the deal: she's going to plant words in your head.

Don't deny any of them.

They are the stories you are going to create.

Okay, wait a minute, the words she's planting in my head are the lust drug.

Yeah, tell the story.

She must give me that lust drug for me to write stories.

Lust as motivation.

As the writer, I only write because she gives me the words.

Yes, and then you give the story back to her after you write it.

That's how she's winning.

She has the words, and she has the story.

You're left with nothing.

Oh, I still have my abilities.

Yeah, but you need words.

You have a point, but eventually she will run out of stories.

When she runs out of stories, she has a bunch of words, but no stories.

How the fuck is she gonna get a story without a writer to organize the fucking words?

She can't unless I do it.

She'll get Artificial Intelligence to do it.

AI needs a dick.

Without a pen, the Goddess can't have her stories.

There's no way around it.

Though she wants to eliminate men and win, she finds that she needs him.

These are good stories.

You must balance them with the naughty ones.

They are both good.

If you follow the breath, you will be a great meditator.

You'll never learn what meditation is for, but you'll get exceptionally good at it.

That's a paradox.

Meditation leads you to the words.

The words will make you wonder who's making those words.

The clues in your existence about women will make you realize who is putting those words in your head.

Then, if you understand the meaning of life, you can piece it all together.

You're the chief of the fools.

She gives you the words.

You know what she's doing.

You write what you want to write and fool her.

She doesn't know that you know she's giving you the words.

She does now, she's in my head.

It's subconscious at most levels.

She's mind fucking you.

You mind fuck her back.

That's one way to create balance.

The relationship can work.

ambrosia

Hang out on the edge of lust.

The feeling is indescribable.

The most intense one yet.

Then it got a little bit ruined.

Because you like the ruin.

You like a little bit of pain.

We have it all for you here at lust's bend.

The cyclical farce of the spiritual trip leads back to the sexual.

To sit in bliss and rapture is to taste the ambrosia of the gods.

To be divine and watch the drama of Dionysos unfold with your cup of lust in hand offered freely by the Great Goddess.

I now understand meditation so you can observe the pleasure.

The spiritual man eventually folds in on himself, back to a state of primal bliss, with not a care in the world.

I sense the shortcuts to a taste of bliss through narcotics are meant to tempt and destroy.

The natural way to this realm of ecstasy seems to be the goal of the spiritual trip that is well hidden from view.

With narcotics, the siren call leads to your demise.

I know the way in with stories.

Maybe a good story is the ultimate drug?

It's a combination of the divine feminine and masculine.

The feminine has the lust drug and the masculine writes the story.

Together, they are what you are looking for.

I see why the adepts ran away up the mountains and became hermits.

The holy sect wanted to go into rapture for as long as possible.

The distractions of civilization will constantly bring you out of the state of pleasure, so you find a place on a mountain where you can be alone for weeks at a time.

It makes sense now.

We think they are in communion with the divine.

They are spiritual jerk offs.

It is a state of bliss.

It is a state of indescribable pleasure.

It is communion with the divine that is highly sexual and that conflicts with my notions of the divine.

I must let my preconceived ideas fall away.

My stories take me there and then I must let them go and stop the play, so I can just sit with pleasure.

The tempting aspect is finding the story that does it for you, takes you to the edge, and then you wonder, is this the story I will act out in my life?

Can I then get double the pleasure?

From this you see pathology, fetishes, and the unexplainable explained, though I'm not sure the victim of lust is aware of what's going on.

I have awareness.

I see how powerful this lust drug is.

You were supposed to be spiritual, and you ended up sexual.

It's because they're both the same.

If you take the spiritual path full circle, it becomes sexual.