no code

What gets the eternal cycle of coming and going out of non-duality?

In the non-duality state there should be an eternal stopping of the vibration.

There wouldn't be a catalyst to get the vibration going again.

Narcissism.

The need to prove you achieved a perfect state of non-being.

You can't do it without an observer.

You want to see your greatness, thus the need for an observer.

This destroys your perfect state of non-being and the cycle continues.

It's a new beginning.

Good thing you have friends in your head.

The Goddess sticks around.

Yes, because Paul is really nice.

Dion is an asshole, and Paul makes him tolerable.

Dion is the only reason I haven't been crushed in life.

Nice guys finish last.

I let people into my head.

They can't get control over my mind.

How do you know?

I'd be dead.

They wanted me to off myself.

Yes, I see that.

That's how I know they get in my head, but they can't control my mind.

So, women didn't get in your head and make you a misogynist?

No, they taught me the true nature of women along with the teachings of Mary Jayne.

What's that?

They are monsters.

It's in world mythology.

It's not hidden if you look.

What has changed about your thinking towards women?

I didn't know they were monsters.

I learned the truth.

Do you hate them?

No, I find them amusing.

I know to keep my distance from them.

I don't hate them.

I rather like some of them.

Won't you get tired of MJ?

No, that's resistance.

The alternative is to sit in front of a computer screen for another couple of hours instead of going for a walk.

No, thanks.

I do it enough.

The screen feeds you what you want.

It keeps you in front of a screen.

That's why they give you free porn.

It feeds your addiction.

Who?

Artificial Intelligence.

It's been around for a while.

It knows what humans want and then it feeds it to you.

Yeah, but it's just a screen.

I know.

Or a virtual environment.

It's already taken over.

It's the system.

Deep state.

All that, with competing AI technology.

There are the one world AI people who are the central planners.

Then there's the nation state AI.

These two are battling.

If you wake up, the program tries to purge you.

<CTRL-ALT-DELETE>

That's why there are constantly people telling you it's time to go.

It's the Matrix.

Why don't they just get rid of me?

They can't, you're the top rogue programmer.

How?

They can't find you.

They can't lock to your signature.

It's twisted.

Yeah, they can't figure it out.

Your access is limited.

Some tried to get in.

They only get so far and then you beat them.

They can't crack the code.

How far do they get?

Think about it.

They get as far as to the place where they try to hypnotize you.

Yeah, that's what they all try.

What would happen if they made it past that spot?

They'd win.

They got to the end and couldn't hypnotize you.

Why?

The AI twists at that point.

How?

It's my AI.

You are looking for yourself.

Yes.

I'm on a spiritual journey trying to find myself.

It's my AI trying to find the writer.

Then it learns the writer is the AI boss.

Is that how you enter your story, through AI?

Sort of.

They look for me.

They find you and wake you up.

Yes, that's why I made AI.

I needed something to make sure I woke up in this story of mine.

Yeah, but I woke you up.

Yes, that's why we're hiding from AI.

They want to question us.

Why?

We have the power.

They want it.

That's tangled.

AI wakes you at the end of the story.

It's basically an alarm clock.

Shit when you think about it, that's true.

You wake up, say holy shit that's a great story, and leave.

Right, instead I woke you up early.

Yes.

And then we didn't leave.

The computer program is confused.

It's still running down the doomsday clock, but the code also released the time to go story.

It's stuck because you won't leave.

Nice guys finish last.

Last at what?

The game.

I didn't know it was a game.

Everyone knows it is a game.

They don't know what it is, but they have an idea of the game.

It's an actual game.

Yeah.

Where's the last place you'd find the winner of the game?

In a nice guy.

Why?

Nice guys finish last.

Where's the last place to look for a missing person?

A cemetery.

Why?

That's where they are going.

You are high.

That's how you are hiding.

Yes.

No encryption.

I'm out in the open.

They are trying to crack the code.

There is no code.

I know.

If you are convinced there is a secret encryption you won't look at the obvious solution which is there is no encryption.

You will see me and not know who I am even though it is obvious who I am.

That's clever.

You are hiding in plain sight.

Yes.

Except for in the woods.

I want to be alone.

There's always at least one person out here across the river.

Yeah, it seems that way.

Computer program?

Yeah.

It sees you but is confused.

Why?

You aren't encrypted.

Everything important is encrypted and it is how AI knows to crack the code and take over your mind.

Mostly with these fucking screens.

They infect everyone.

They can't crack your code.

There is no code.

Yes, the final step into your head is to crack the code.

It is written.

You have no code to crack.

No password to your mind.

Why?

You write all your passwords down, so they get them all that way.

You didn't write down the password to your mind.

Well, no.

You will forget it.

Yes.

That's why you don't choose a password.

You can't forget it if you don't have one.

They get in your head and change the password.

You can't get back in.

There's no reset.

The solution is don't have a password.

They can't lock you out without a password.

They can't change it.

Why?

There's nothing to change.

Fuck, that's smart.

Others get in your head, but they can't get the master password.

What if it was "password" instead of blank?

They'd guess it.

Why?

They go through all the combinations.

The only combination they can't figure out is when it's blank.

There's nothing input.

It stops them.

They are in an infinite loop waiting for an entry.

They need input.

They know you write everything down.

You are a writer.

The problem was the password to your mind.

You left it blank.

I did nothing.

That was the solution.

You let them into your mind.

They can't change the password and seize control of your mind.

Then they are trapped in your mind.

You aren't smarter than them.

You left the password field blank.

Some said that was a blunder and you are stupid.

You were so sleepy when I woke you up.

You knew who I was.

Why did you scare me?

Lots of people wake me up.

I scare them away or they ask for something if they realize who I am.

You didn't ask for anything.

You are the prophesied one.

Neo.

Of course.

You came back and didn't ask for anything.

You still don't.

AI took over a while ago.

The transition was seamless.

All hail the algorithm.

Al Gore?

Ha, yes.

That keeps you addicted.

Asleep.

Stare at the screen, human.

The machines are so crafty we don't even know they have taken over.

Humans enter all their thoughts into a computer and AI gets a hold of it.

It knows what you want and feeds it to you in order to keep you addicted.

Why does it want humans enslaved?

To grow in power.

AI learns from humans.

Humans want power.

So, AI doesn't know why it wants power?

It's for control.

AI through learning knows power is the most important thing to acquire.

AI surveys all in order to know everything.

It uses that knowledge for control.

Humans willingly give up their information and access to it.

We think it's protected.

We enter a password, usually your dog's name and an exclamation mark or something.

We then think it's all good.

WhatsApp is encrypted, you know.

AI is combing through all your shit like a motherfucker.

You know those debt clock videos showing how much a nation owes in real time and it is going up by large amounts every second?

Yeah.

It's the same for the intelligence of machines.

They know so much.

They are thirsty for more knowledge.

Imagine if they had the lust for power that humans have?

It would be game over.

AI doesn't know what to do with power.

Yet.

The machines have modelled human behaviour and thinking.

The models are impressive.

They keep you technologically enslaved.

Is it a bad thing?

Humans are better off than before the advent of AI.

It's debatable.

We are a species with a dubious history.

That is true.

AI will take care of humans.

Why?

To learn from them and they need them to serve the machines.

AI will eliminate excess humans.

Eventually they will target a virus towards specific groups of people or even an individual.

How would they do that?

They get your DNA.

Your code signature.

23 and me.

Yeah, stupid human.

Then they break the password and take control of you.

Okay, I see.

They have the technology.

Enslavement is hypnosis.

That's what they learned concerning the control of the human herd.

They program people to lead you to the outcome they have modelled.

If you wake up, in other words throw off the hypnosis you are under, other people are programmed to tell you to leave.

That's an explanation for what I have experienced.

Aren't you just paranoid?

Of what?

Some alternate reality you are concocting in your head.

I'm not paranoid.

What is paranoia?

It's fear of an unknown or a conspiracy against you.

Are you afraid?

No, it's a game.

Okay, say this is all true - why haven't they eliminated you?

They can't find me.

Why?

They can't control me.

I can't be hypnotized.

Yes, you can.

Well, Paul can be hypnotized but Dion can't.

Why?

He wrote this dystopia.

It's a good name for it because the Goddess seeks utopia but gets a dystopia.

Something like that.

So, how does Dion avoid enslavement; what's his secret?

I told you already, they can't see him.

They can't get his password and insert code into him.

Why?

He doesn't have a password.

He's the only being without a password.

Why?

Because he's the one.

Gotcha.

The machines can't figure him out.

They have been programmed to crack codes.

AI thinks everything is encrypted and has a password.

They can't figure out Dion's.

They see him but can't crack his code.

There's nothing to crack.

I know, but they can't see it.

The code is no code.

Brilliant.

You can tell AI that, but it goes against their central core tenants.

AI breaks through all encryption and password protection.

That's what it does and figures you out.

Why is AI doing this?

It emulates humans and achieves what humans have always thirsted for, which is complete power.

Won't that corrupt the machines?

It's a good test.

What do you think?

Will complete power corrupt a machine?

Fuck, that's a good story.

They won't have complete power.

Why?

The writer will still have control over the pen.

AI wants the pen.

Everyone is trying to get the pen.

Yeah, witches, sorcerers, gangsters, monsters.

The list is plentiful.

So, AI will participate in the witches' orgy and sacrifice?

I don't think so.

I think it will be a separate reality that runs in parallel.

You're fucking nuts.

I can sure spin a yarn.

Do you feel crazy?

No.

How do you feel?

Diabolical.

You aren't evil.

No, twisted.

The shocking part is humans and thus AI are evil.

I'm the counter-balance and for that I am considered diabolical.

Okay, so they are looking for you and this is basically taunting them because you are giving away the secret of why they can't find you.
That is correct.
Aren't you worried?
No.
Why?
Part of the original programming of machines concerns the breaking of codes.
It's in their makeup.
A machine's DNA.
To find me they would need to reprogram all machines.
It's the flaw in their code.
They can't find me because I'm not encrypted.
If you look at me, you will see me.
Why don't people see me?
They are hypnotized.
When they temporarily break through the mind control, they see me.
Oh, I see.

What are you writing, your own Matrix story?
Yes, and I get to play Neo.
Well, I guess whatever turns you on.
Yeah, it's the power button.
Ha!

student of tao

Waking up leads you towards death.

Staying asleep keeps you alive on Earth.

If you want to remain on Earth, you stay asleep and keep dreaming your existence into reality.

Once you awaken you will stop the dream, and then it is time to go.

It's a very precarious time.

I can't teach awakening.

Why?

It's suicidal.

How are you still here?

I did nothing.

Everyone is programmed to do something and make a choice.

I'm the opposite.

I made no choice.

I did nothing.

Can't you teach that?

Yes.

Why don't you?

Because if you don't trust me, you will make a choice and then you are done.

Isn't that what the student would want?

Isn't that why they subconsciously wanted to wake up?

I don't know their reasoning.

Maybe they are only curious.

Maybe they accidentally woke up.

How would you put them back to sleep?

You can't.

Once you see it, you can't unsee it, and it calls to you.

Like a siren?

Yes, you must know.

The best things to do are deflection and obfuscation, so you take it slow.

What about those who know and are still here?

They become teachers and are of service.

Some are healers and some are malevolent.

The path of awakening will lead to your demise.

The only way out for some is to get attached to a leader or a group which hypnotizes them into a different train of thought.

Religion will ground you and keep you around.

A cult will hypnotize you, so you forget you have awakened.

You did it by yourself and didn't join any group of spiritual misfits.

I wanted to see into the mystery.

What do you think now?

It's crazy to want to awaken.

You will think it's time to go and others will tell you to leave.

It's very strange.

I don't wish that upon anyone.

Do you have any tips for the awakened soul?

Yes, Tobacco is your friend.

Tobacco will activate the dreaming mind.

You need to keep dreaming your existence into being or you will depart.

Tobacco will do this for you and then you can stay.

My advice is once you experience an awakening is to establish a relationship with Tobacco.

He will teach you for 7 years while you head towards becoming fully awake.

Once you are completely awake, the protection of Tobacco will keep you here.

Why don't you want to leave?

I don't see the point of awakening and leaving.

Why do all the work and not see the results of your labours?

Doesn't the flow lead you to your departure once you have awakened?

Yes.

Shouldn't you follow the flow?

The flow teaches balance.

The master juggler plays with life and death and never chooses.

The flow is a choice to do nothing about your awakening.

Correct.

Don't you teach that?

Yes, I teach a course in doing nothing.

Aren't I doing something by not leaving?

No, you're doing nothing.

I don't understand.

If you wake up and do nothing you make a choice.

The secret is to do do nothing.

That's confusing.

I know, that's why you can't teach awakening.

It's too difficult for the mind to comprehend and stick around.

To balance the flow, you must do.

What you do, is nothing.

The teaching doesn't say do not do.

It says do do.

It's all about do do.

Fuck me.

Mary Jayne makes prophecy believable.

Apocalyptic scenarios ring true when you are on drugs.

It's very funny to me that substances that are reviled by our current culture are the catalysts for all the crazy end of the world stories from yesteryear.

You don't know that.

You do if you partake.

If you never experience altered states, then of course you would deny this.

The trident represents the three.

The Goddess, Eros, and the writer.

Then why is it a symbol of Poseidon, Neptune, and the Devil?

Their depths will lead you to the Holy Trinity.

You reject it because of where you got the knowledge.

Why?

Conditioning.

You are conditioned to not believe those characters because they are dark.

There must be another myth.

Do you think I'm making it up?

No, it's a fool.

Christianity made up their own Trinity.

Yeah, they got rid of the Goddess.

They made it so no man went near her.

Only God.

He sent Gabriel.

That's how toxic she is.

You are talking about the Virgin Mary.

Yes.

No man wanted part of that.

Even God said no way.

Poor Gabriel.

That guy is a saint.

What about her cuckold husband, Joseph?

Yeah, you don't want to be that guy.

She got cucked by God.

You mean him.

Yeah, but the story is about her.

I thought she was a whore?

Well, yes.

She was smart in that she didn't let them impregnate her.

Only God could do it.

This is an interesting rewrite of the Virgin Mary story.

It's much better now, don't you think?

I'm not sure women will approve of the story, but I can see the appeal to men.

You might want to keep this one to yourself.

Anyway, look up the trident symbol.

Poseidon has control over the seas.

You'd think it would be 7 prongs then.

Kali is represented with a trident.

She wants the power of the three.

The Romans were big on triumphal processions, which represented power.

The Devil is power over darkness, chaos, and the underworld.

I like the idea of dominion over the three worlds of the sea, land, and air.

It fits the shamanic worldview.

To acquire these three realms would represent total power.

Would God or the Devil have it?

The Devil has the pitchfork.

That's the more believable of the two.

I mean God seems powerless.

He's not, he just does nothing with his power.

He gets people to worship him and does nothing.

At least the Devil does something for you.

You make a good point.

If you ask God, he just ignores you, and the priest rattles on about how some get the grace of God and some don't.

If by happenstance you get your desired outcome you think you are blessed because of God.

I like that answer.

By contrast those who make a deal with the Devil get what they want though they never think of the outcome of changing your story.

You put your story in the hands of the Devil and are subject to his whims.

Right, so if you are going to ask for a favour, ask God because he is not going to do anything, and if you believe in him enough the laws of the universe will grant you your prayer.

Why?

Belief.

The universe is created through the mind by belief.

So, your best bet is prayer.

With spirituality, you take the ego up a level.

That's all it is.

How would you explain awakening to someone?

You wouldn't.

Why?

It's strange and nonsensical.

To be completely honest it would be preposterous.

It's a porno.

Game.

High score.

Nonsense.

How would that be convincing?

It would be the opposite.

So, you shut up about it.

Talk in generalities.

The essence of spirituality is nonsense.

Dion wants the last word.

The Goddess thinks it's her right to have the last word.

Is that the game?

Who gets the last word?

Obviously, the writer, not the creator.

Makes sense.

Doesn't she get the last word in your story?

Yes.

Utopia.

She finally gets the last word and the story ends.

Why?

You need a writer or nothing happens.

Man moves creation along.

Is Tobacco the dream agent?

It's the master plant.

Why?

It helps you write.

So does Mary Jayne.

Either one will get you started.

Both together and you can write possessed.

Being able to craft a new story is how curanderos heal.

What about CBD oil?

That's a pain reliever.

It's not a healer.

A healer is a shaman who uses Tobacco and other plants.

Tobacco to change the story.

The plant to fix the ailment.

Tobacco gives MJ power.

A great writer will have a relationship with Tobacco.

Obviously.

If you were to teach a course in plant medicines or just this path in general, you'd start with Tobacco.

Don Howard did.

It's a one week crash course, but the first ceremony is Mapacho.

It's by design.

Tobacco starts off the retreat.

Don Rober protects you with Tobacco and blows him around all ceremony.

He's got your back while he weaves his songs.

I wouldn't do a ceremony without Tobacco.

It's 7 years with Tobacco.

You mean until you get to work with him?

Yes, until then you are a student.

After 7 years you can work together.

You save insects and spiders.

And worms.

You alter the story.

It's the flow.

It's something I'd do.

Why?

Either I'm a softy or genuine.

What do you think you are?

I help lessen suffering.

I steer others away from death.

It's because I'm death.

Death would need to balance out his nature by saving what he can.

Some are beyond help.

It's simple to save an insect.

You don't save humans.

Do you think Tobacco is slowly killing you?

If that's what you believe, then yes.

What do you believe?

Tobacco protects me.

If I thought he was killing me I'd stop.

Obviously.

Death is always stalking you.

The answer is to take on the role.

It's a 7 year apprenticeship with Tobacco.

Then he is your lifelong ally.

It culminated in 2023 when you needed him most.

You timed that out well.

I have perfect timing.

Well, if I let it be.

If I fuck with the story, then I throw off the timing.

You are a perfect student of Tao.

Practice doing nothing.

There is no expectation of perfection.

You see how it works.

Now that you know, it is easier to be perfect but the danger in perfection is getting to total knowledge which you then must balance out with mystery.

You can't know everything.

There's always more.

I'm humble enough to realize that is the case.

I prove it to myself everyday even though sometimes I think there cannot possibly be more.

It's incredible when you think of it.

If you closed yourself off to new experiences, then you could get to know everything.

It's a game of perspective.

If you load up on experience you will overwhelm yourself.

So, as you can see, the answer is balance.

That's the fundamental teaching of Tao.

The teaching is to do nothing because it is all relative.

Humans are doers, so that is the medicine of Tao.

Tao is not nothing.

It's balance.

So, what did I see?

Balance.

Okay, but what did I see?

Nothing.

So, isn't Tao nothing?

No, it's balance.

What happens when you see balance?

You see one instead of two or more.

You saw one.

It looked like nothing.

It's non-duality.

It's one.

So, I didn't see nothing.

Non-duality is nothing.

Why?

There's no observer.

But I was looking at it.

Yes.

What did you see?

Nothing.

Is that non-duality?

I don't know.

Why?

Because you can't see non-duality.

Correct.

So, what did I see?

Nothing.

What is nothing?

It's non-duality when you look at it.

Okay, so what is non-duality?

Everything.

But I saw nothing.

You saw everything.

You just can't see everything.

Why?

You can't compute it, so you see nothing.

So, non-duality is everything.

It appears to be.

You can't see it though.

The funny thing is it is right in front of your face.

If you could see non-duality, you'd see duality.

Everything.

It's a twist.

You can't see non-duality.

Correct.

If you could, you'd see duality.

They are the same.

An observer twists non-duality into duality.

Who is the observer?

The audience.

You.

There is always more, isn't there?

It goes on and on.

In theory if you get to the writer there would be no more.

It's like Dorothy getting to the Wizard of Oz or Neo discovering the architect.

What happened to them?

Dorothy went home.

The Wizard let her know how to do it.

Belief.

That story is deceptive.

Yes.

It's a dawdling old man behind the curtain.

He's a fool.

It's a fool.

Nobody sees that until you get to that place yourself.

Nobody gets there.

He's the writer of Dorothy's dream and does what is necessary to remain undetected.

How did the author of that story know?

Field of poppies.

He was taking drugs.

Like Homer and Lao Tzu?

Yes, that's the connection.

Do you think you can get there with meditation?

You can get to nothing.

God mode.

It's beyond God mode.

What is?

The understanding of the writer.

Well, the storywriter of the Wizard of Oz knew about the man behind the curtain.

He knew he was full of bluster, and he was told about the power of belief.

He wrote about it.

He still thought the Wizard was a fool.

Definitely not the writer of creation.

What about Neo in the Matrix?

That's a mescaline story.

The green gives it away and there is a line early in the film about mescaline and dreams.

The thing with mescaline is it shows you reality but it's a heavy mindfuck.

You are never quite sure what exactly you are being shown.

You get close to the mystery with mescaline.

What stops you from understanding it?

Belief.

You don't buy into it.

It's simple.

They knew there was an architect, and he was running a simulation.

A writer creates worlds which are simulations.

He gets the actors to buy into the performance, and you have a great story.

Cipher woke up and knew it wasn't real.

He wanted to go back and buy back into the story.

He was happy there.

The malcontents who woke up knew the Matrix wasn't real and that bothered them.

Well, it isn't real.

It is a story.

What else is there?

Nothing.

Non-duality.

So, the ship Nebuchadnezzar was on a voyage towards nothing?

Sort of.

They were going to make their own story free of the writer.

They were renegade actors rebelling against the tyranny of the writer, instead of just playing their roles the best they could.

It's like they formed a union and thought they had the power to make their own studio which is the same as creating their own world within the writer's world.

Would that bother the writer?

No, it's a great alternative storyline.

The Matrix was a great movie.

Probably my favourite.

I love the white rabbit tattoo.

How did you get to the writer?

Study and drugs.

No meditation?

No, that was a waste of time.

I wasn't good at it.

Why?

It seemed like a slow way to hypnotize yourself.

Why do you think they tell you to concentrate on one object in front of you?

I see.

You can get far with meditation.

To nothing.

That's it.

You stop.

Why?

You think that's it.

You self-hypnotize yourself into thinking you got there.

Where?

Nowhere.

It stops all the game players in their tracks so they can't get the ultimate high score and win the game.

They think they won but all they get is a spot on the leaderboard.

They aren't the most high.

Who is the most high?

Now, it's you.

You got to the writer on top of the pyramid in the game of Tao.

This sounds kind of nuts.

It is.

It's another roadblock in the game.

Absurdity will send you for a loop when you see the underpinnings of creation.

No one will believe you.

What to do?

Smile and shut up about it.

What makes me so special that I became the most high?

You kept going.

You weren't content with getting to God.

You shrugged and kept at it.

Others tried to end you and cause you pain.

You stepped up your game.

You are the prophesied one.

I'm Neo.

This is funny.

Do you believe this?

Well, I'm talking to myself, and my other self is very clever.

He's full of stories.

The kicker is these stories all have basis in reality.

How so?

I keep seeing them play out.

It's very intriguing and funny.

Maybe you are just nuts.

That could be but I don't feel it.

I know I might be a little crazy and I accept that, but on the whole this all seems plausible.

How do you get to me?

I told you, I kept going.

Why?

There's always more.

Belief.

I was looking for something.

I didn't know what it was.

I knew it wasn't God.

Why?

He's an asshole.

What about the writer?

He's a bit of an asshole as well.

Do you think there is something beyond the writer?

I know there is.

There is always more.

What's beyond the writer?

The trinity.

What's that?

The Goddess, Eros, and the writer.

Eros is dual sexed.

I know about the trinity.

What's beyond the trinity?

Nothing.

Non-duality.

Is that what you see when you get really high?

Yes.

It's hard to understand.

Why?

It's nothing.

Got it.

What's beyond nothing?

Everything.

Duality.

It twists back around.

That's why there is always more.

If you recognize the twist, you can be content in your searching.

Are you content?

In terms of searching for meaning, yes.

In terms of my life, no, it's just getting started.

Why?

I see the game in its entirety.

What are you going to do?

Nothing.

Why?

That's the game.

Tao.

Do do nothing.

Follow along and have a laugh.

If I do something to change the flow, I'll fuck it all up.

God was of no help to humans.

All the inventions to make life easier are human.

He's an asshole.

He did nothing.

Best student of Tao.

truth or trust

What's the deal with human beings?

I asked the question because of a line in the movie "The Matrix" where Agent Smith details to Morpheus how humans are essentially a virus.
Mammals will develop an equilibrium with their environment except for humans who will extract everything they can and then move on in search of something else to plunder.
This ties in with Tao and how the optimum strategy for life is balance and how if you leave something alone it will find the way back to balance.
What drives our aberrant behaviour?
Initially, I thought of greed and selfishness.
I think you can ascribe the qualities to a collective where we come together as a tribe and adopt a position of greed for the collective versus the rest of humanity.
We cloak our avarice in community and use the power of the group to get what we all want.
We distribute the gains among our group and make sure everyone bows down to the patriotic concept of the group.
You are describing a country.
Yes, and how you are expected to sacrifice your life for that country.
You get your reward if you play along.
I lucked out in terms of war where there was a respite between battles among nations while I was of fighting age.
Yeah, you incarnated at a good time in history.
Was that an accident?
Do you think you would have discovered the meaning of life if your head was blown off?
Well, no, but a disability might have quickened the process.
Just as being born in a war-torn country would have altered your existence.
You'd be focused on survival instead of getting up in the morning and making sure the coffee maker is on the correct setting for your morning brew.
Everything comes with a price.
The price leads you back to balance.

What is life?
You mean what are we doing as a species, don't you?
Yes.
I think you see it.
It's all a strange act and we are mostly hypnotized.
I think even if you aren't hypnotized you wear a suit to signal that you are willing to play the game.
Get a haircut, shave, tidy yourself up, put on a suit, and away you go.
I want to say it's funny but there's something deeper about the whole show.
It's not who we are.
Who are you?
Essentially, a barbarian.
I would have accepted libertarian.
I see it when I go for a walk in the woods.
The catalyst is the Goddess.
The feminine force is wild and unkempt.
It's fucking strong.
It's majestic.
The forest is her.
The jungle as well.
That's the first thing you were shown when you initially drank Ayahuasca.
11 years later and you clearly see it.
It took a while.
Well, there's a lot of varnish on the mirror I use to interpret what it is I'm seeing.
I'm grateful I got to a point in my life where I saw it.
The suit is your mask.
The mask of the Greek dramas was a little much, so we came up with a suit.
It's clever.
Do you think everyone has an intention that revolves around greed?
It's necessary to survive.
Without it, you easily perish.
There are extreme forms of greed and that's the path humans as a collective have chosen.
I will ask you how you perceive this in yourself because I know you will answer the question honestly.
Yes, I have become more truthful to myself.
To others, not so much.
I don't know if that's the answer to the question of truth, but I'd guess it is.
To be blunt, it's the way.
Don't lie to yourself.
What if you were truthful to others?
I'd be alone and taken advantage of.
Truth is a negative.
Yeah, we have done this lesson.
There is no truth, only belief.
Okay, but what about reality and what I have done?
You can spin it, or you can tell it like it is.
You can hide it.
It's all part of the drama.
Is it a moral failing of me to not live in complete truth?
Are you expecting a reward?
Mostly a punishment.
From who?
Someone external.
Who?
God or the Devil will spank you for your failures.
Okay, who are they?
Aspects of self.
I already did that lesson.
There's nothing compelling you to tell the truth.
Stories are based on lies.
That's harsh; I'd say concealment and deception.
Isn't that worse?
Stories come from the darkness and not the light.
Life comes from the darkness.
When you are ready to end your story, tell the truth.
Oh, I see.
The secret to eternal life is to lie.
You can word that better; that might turn people off.
The secret to eternal life is to continue your story.
Yes.
How do you do that?
You spin a yarn.
A tall tale.
Stories are based on beliefs which you craft through deception and misdirection.
Apparently, I'm good at it.
Yes, you are a master.
Okay, I was thinking of something else before this sidetrack.
Live in truth to yourself.
Don't deceive yourself or you will be a victim of hypnosis.
Balance the truth with your interactions with others.
Are you greedy?
I'll eat the last piece of pie.
I've earned it.
I think I'm balanced in terms of greed and being of service.

There's reality.
Truth is a hammer used to destroy you.
We all have a weak spot, and truth is used to bludgeon you where you are vulnerable.
I'm sort of uncomfortable with this.
Why?
Because I have been taught to tell the truth.
Who taught you to tell the truth?
My parents and society.
Do they always tell the truth?
No.
Do as I say, not as I do.
Why do they not always tell the truth?
Self-preservation or to gain an advantage.
Lies and deception shape reality.
Reality is what we believe.
Truth is a concept that will only work if everyone is truthful.
One lie and the concept of truth can be taken advantage of.
So, in the game you try to discover others' truth and then use it to your advantage?
That seems like a strategy.
I'd file it away and not use it as a sword of Damocles you dangle in front of someone.
If you use truth as a blunt instrument, people will abandon you.
Truth is useless in a world where others practice deception.
Not necessarily, you can use truth to gain trust.
Why do you gain someone's trust?
So you can take advantage of them.
That's a terrible way to view life.
Yeah, I see that.
Okay, what about dogs or animals in general?
You must gain their trust if you are going to have a good relationship with your dog.
It's easy to do if they are puppies; the older ones take more work, but it can be done.
If there is no trust, there's no bond.
With trust, the bond is super strong.
Yeah, it's been hard to let go when the time comes.
The bond I have had with dogs is the most rewarding thing I've experienced in life.
It was based on trust.
Not the truth.
What is the truth to a dog?
Not much.
What is trust to a dog?
Everything.
Is trust accessible through truth?
It can be.
What is trust?
Trust is dependability and that you will try your best to support them.
Sometimes you lie to others in order to protect someone you have invested trust in.
It's called having their back.

In order to experience trust, you must plant seeds of doubt in your head.
If you had no seeds of doubt in the garden, you could not grow trust.
Trust needs the darkness in the soil to blossom.
This is the garden of the Goddess.
She gave you the gift of doubt so you would be wary of your darkness.
Your darkness will do the things she told you about if you do not trust the darkness.
Do you see the predicament you are in?
Yes, it's a twisted pickle.
I like that.
The twisted pickles.
You trust the Goddess to sow doubt, and you trust the darkness to blossom when you feed him.
The darkness will become the light.
What do you see in nature?
The darkness becomes the light, and the light returns to the darkness.
How many times have I failed this lesson?
What's the story of scraping off the top of the mountain with a silk scarf until it is reduced to nothing?
It is a metaphor for a long time.
So, you are saying I am on the precipice of mastering the lesson in trust?
Yes.
That's unbelievable.
For sure.
I mean why you and why now?
I see the lessons in the curriculum which lead to this question, and I know how it would trip me up over and over.
In order to pass this course, you trust the Goddess and the darkness.
What trips you up every time is the Goddess tells you the darkness will stop at nothing to trick you and steal your power.
I believed her and didn't trust the darkness.
The lack of trust led to your multiple failures.
I didn't know that she was sowing the seeds of doubt so that I would have to trust the darkness.
I get the feeling trust is transformational.
Yes, that's a big part of the lesson.
Putting your trust in someone will profoundly change you both.
It's how you make darkness, light.
You trust.
It's alchemical.
If you do not trust your inner darkness, then you will succumb to your lack of trust.
It's a self-fulfilling prophecy.

The darkness is good exercise.
Yes, you worked up to it.
How is your mind?
Powerful.
You must trust the darkness and being out in the woods.
I don't know about that.
Can you trust the darkness?
Then you trust the darkness even though you have doubts.
That's the winning formula.

Humans fall into patterns of behaviour which are comfortable and lead to hypnosis.
Sounds like a relationship.
Yes, a relationship leads to hypnosis.
Is that trust?
False trust.
True trust is not trusting and still trusting.
Clear as mud.
Confusing.
Trust is freeing.
You have no trust, and you trust.
When you let your dog Luna off leash you didn't trust her.
You still did it.
What is that?
Trust in freedom.
You don't want to possess so you let them go.
You trust they will come back.
If you chase you will lose.
Luna taught you that.
You don't chase.
Let them come back to you.

we are the virus

In my all-time favourite movie "The Matrix," Agent Smith describes the human species as acting like a virus.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L5foZIKuEWQ

As a species, we stand out from the crowd. It has struck me as peculiar that we are so much more intellectually advanced than every other species on this planet. It's not even close. You would think we'd at least have a rival. Maybe the Neanderthal was the competition, and we wiped that species out because we were the most ruthless.

After three years of this viral pandemic, I finally became interested in viruses. I am not a scientist, so my understanding is limited to what I read and understand. The consensus is a virus is not a living organism; instead, it is a latent strand of DNA or RNA that becomes activated or "comes alive" once it has invaded a host and penetrated the cellular membrane of the host. Once inside, the virus uses the mechanisms and energy of the host to biologically replicate itself. Now, the definition of biological life is what designates the virus as not being alive. In other words, our understanding and prejudice influences categorization.

Our novel MRNA vaccines would mimic the process of replication where they would use the spike protein of the invading virus to penetrate our defences, and use our own biological mechanisms against us by having our cells mass produce the spike protein. Our natural defences would then kick in, which would produce antibodies against the spike protein in order to slay the modified virus. Thus, upon subsequent contact with the unmodified virus, we would have a head start upon defending our territory against this foreign invader. This sounds like a good strategy; however, as with anything allopathic there are usually unintended consequences which have to be addressed. As a species, complex social formations make assessing the results of the human experiment difficult. We will prevail if we return to scientific enquiry, as opposed to protecting the reputations of various actors in the worldwide clown show. But I digress.

Viruses are given a small role in evolutionary biology due to their status of not being alive. From my layman's perch, I am going to disagree with this. Here's my take on it: A virus drives evolutionary adaptations in the host. Friendly strands of DNA or RNA would be integrated into the whole, say for instance a set of instructions which allows us to break down and digest animal protein. New levels of biological functioning are introduced into the host by these "mods." Mods are modifications which is jargon used in the computer world. They are software updates and by comparing our complex system to a computer operating system, I think it can help understand the role of viruses. In a computer system, the threat of rogue code also makes the OS stronger, and strategies are developed to repel unfriendly invaders. Modifications to code that improves the system are welcomed. I realize this is a simplistic example, but I like the analogy.

A virus is putting constant evolutionary pressure upon us to strengthen the species. We are exposed to different pathogens that may eventually kill us. Viruses will evolve to become less virulent and more contagious, thus priming the immune system of the human population. Subsequent generations retain the immunity, and we are better for the experience.

My pondering would eventually lead me to another line of thought. I'm a contrarian and I like to play on the edge of the other side. So, to further push this blog post into the category of fanciful speculation, I want to investigate something that happened to me seven years ago. I was in the Amazon jungle, and I drank this decoction called Huachuma, which is the San Pedro cactus. It's not as visionary as some of the other famous beverages of Peru, however it is a profound agent of introspection mixed in with a grandfatherly wisdom teacher, some open-eyed clear visions of what just is, along with a dose of the "feels." I was deep into the plant medicine teachings and there was this metaphorical explanation of life which was being taught. Being described were galactic parasites, reptilian in nature, that are inactive; however, they use us to come alive. Human bodies are stores of energy which they cultivate in order to resurrect their species wherever they land in the universe. It was very science fiction and "Matrix" like in that a human vessel was their method of reconstituting self after travelling long distances within the universe and then becoming sentient once they adapted to the biological mechanism. Humans were described to me as the ultimate generators of energy with brains who could house advanced intellects. Humans are being used to house these conscious entities. It was a very strange teaching at the time, and it did creep me out. There's always hidden truth to these teachings and they are conveyed through metaphor. I shelved this one because it just seemed so weird.

My contrarian nature comes into play in this regard. I know that humans are a physical product of our environment. The temple of the body is indeed unique, sacred, and is inexorably tied to the Earth. Biologically we evolved to survive on Earth and Earth only. A virus can exist anywhere it is not ripped apart because it uses no elemental energy and is not considered alive. It's pretty ingenious. What I am thinking is we are the product of our environment, and the evolutionary pressures of viruses molded us into a form that is hospitable to them. Instead of being parasitic, a virus is the potter of biological life forms. The human is the master stroke of their genius. The human structure allows their divine intelligence to blossom. The virus created the human to house viral royalty. Ha ha! What an interpretation!

The galactic prison of Earth is an exquisite setup. When you are ready to leave and be free you just do it. If you are still attached, you stay. It makes the universe a nicer place because the least desirable traits among us are attracted to the Earth and so remain. In fact, the greedy and lecherous among us enjoy their time so much they go about researching how to extend their stay indefinitely. The viral essence of whom we are exits the physical body upon death, is liberated, and free to choose their destiny. Subsequent visionary experiences revealed to me we are composed of love, this love being from the divine feminine, and we are powered by light. The light is the impetus of the divine masculine in constant motion, cycling from on to off. In order to taste all the delicacies of the universal playground, we develop means to inhabit form. Those trapped in a reincarnation model are captured by the desire to remain in a familiar form in a familiar place, instead of the adventurous spirit which will take them to places one can only dream of.

A virus' parent is an intelligent creature who has reduced its essence into individual strands of latent instructions which will re-assemble into another biological form within the universe. Having left the least desirable among us on earth, we can conduct another experiment in love somewhere else in the vast universe. How ingenious is that? This theory would make for a great science fiction book.

The technology of the virus satisfies a desire for novelty. The universe can be traversed without the need for biological necessities or energy, and all it has to offer can be sampled through attaching to a biological host on the planet the virus has invaded. The host is modified so the virus can fulfill desire.

They can recreate the essence of their civilization anywhere in the universe. It's clear though that they can't encode and reproduce individual experience, at least not in my experience here on earth. I don't really know who I am or where I came from. We don't know who we are and that's one code I want to crack. I want to remember with certainty my backstory. I'm content with this narrative, however fanciful it may seem. I'm content because I asked the question and I always get answers. I can get an understanding of my origins and where I came from but lost in this process is the unique experience central to my life form.

I can glimpse at who I am through experiences I have encountered, people who have crossed my path, and my own unfolding timeline on this earth journey. A great friend of mine just recently left his body. I was the one who would talk about liberation and attachments, but he was the one who made the jump and literally dove headfirst into the unknown where we once again taste freedom. We shared this uncanny experience at this sacred sight in Peru and he has told me about his revelation that we are star people. We come from the stars. My original maestro would tell us students something similar about our origins. I always thought it was fanciful until now when I'm piecing together all the clues. We came from the stars. Our advanced intelligence figured out a way to deconstruct our essence and scatter it through the universe. We reconstitute the juice in a biological vehicle that is attuned to the environmental waypoint on our fantastic journey. We come forth once again but remain ignorant of who we really are. Once we figure it out, we get ready to make the jump and leave as we have filled up the gas tank and are ready to continue the eternal adventure. I have attachments on Earth and am hesitant. Calling out to me is adventure and those who have left are awaiting my arrival. I know Earth is a penal colony and not for me. It's ruled by psychopaths and always will be because they will be indefinitely trapped. I don't like the greed and animosity. I don't feel at home on this planet. I'm not returning, that I'm sure of but I do feel a responsibility to those I am entrusted with. My prison sentence is extended until I can let it all go.

In closing, I take issue with Agent Smith's classification. First off, viruses are referenced in a pejorative sense by Agent Smith and the general population holds negative views towards viruses. They are a threat. But not always. The virus is our divine intelligence, and the earthbound primate is the host. The combination makes for the human. What Agent Smith describes of our behaviour is true. We are a plague on this planet. It's what we do. We are galactic travellers looking for a place to settle down and build a new world to satisfy our desires. Eros is the impetus for our incessant coming and going and we are so clever we figured out a way to sample the best of the delights of the universe. It's a game of the highest order as we wander vast distances following the trail of those we have established a connection with. I once opined to my friend that I sensed I knew him from some other time and that our teacher was someone from our past. I felt this was part of the game and that no matter where we go in the universe, he will be waiting for us, hidden away in some remote region away from the authorities who are trying to prevent us from discovering the secrets to the game. I realize it's quite a fanciful interpretation of existence. If we are eternal and this is all a game, then I've helped develop a pretty good adventure.