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Monday, December 16, 2024

truth or trust

What's the deal with human beings?
I asked the question because of a line in the movie "The Matrix" where Agent Smith details to Morpheus how humans are essentially a virus.
Mammals will develop an equilibrium with their environment except for humans who will extract everything they can and then move on in search of something else to plunder.
This ties in with Tao and how the optimum strategy for life is balance and how if you leave something alone it will find the way back to balance.
What drives our aberrant behaviour?
Initially, I thought of greed and selfishness.
I think you can ascribe the qualities to a collective where we come together as a tribe and adopt a position of greed for the collective versus the rest of humanity.
We cloak our avarice in community and use the power of the group to get what we all want.
We distribute the gains among our group and make sure everyone bows down to the patriotic concept of the group.
You are describing a country.
Yes, and how you are expected to sacrifice your life for that country.
You get your reward if you play along.
I lucked out in terms of war where there was a respite between battles among nations while I was of fighting age.
Yeah, you incarnated at a good time in history.
Was that an accident?
Do you think you would have discovered the meaning of life if your head was blown off?
Well, no, but a disability might have quickened the process.
Just as being born in a war-torn country would have altered your existence.
You'd be focused on survival instead of getting up in the morning and making sure the coffee maker is on the correct setting for your morning brew.
Everything comes with a price.
The price leads you back to balance.

What is life?
You mean what are we doing as a species, don't you?
Yes.
I think you see it.
It's all a strange act and we are mostly hypnotized.
I think even if you aren't hypnotized you wear a suit to signal that you are willing to play the game.
Get a haircut, shave, tidy yourself up, put on a suit, and away you go.
I want to say it's funny but there's something deeper about the whole show.
It's not who we are.
Who are you?
Essentially, a barbarian.
I would have accepted libertarian.
I see it when I go for a walk in the woods.
The catalyst is the Goddess.
The feminine force is wild and unkempt.
It's fucking strong.
It's majestic.
The forest is her.
The jungle as well.
That's the first thing you were shown when you initially drank Ayahuasca.
11 years later and you clearly see it.
It took a while.
Well, there's a lot of varnish on the mirror I use to interpret what it is I'm seeing.
I'm grateful I got to a point in my life where I saw it.
The suit is your mask.
The mask of the Greek dramas was a little much, so we came up with a suit.
It's clever.
Do you think everyone has an intention that revolves around greed?
It's necessary to survive.
Without it, you easily perish.
There are extreme forms of greed and that's the path humans as a collective have chosen.
I will ask you how you perceive this in yourself because I know you will answer the question honestly.
Yes, I have become more truthful to myself.
To others, not so much.
I don't know if that's the answer to the question of truth, but I'd guess it is.
To be blunt, it's the way.
Don't lie to yourself.
What if you were truthful to others?
I'd be alone and taken advantage of.
Truth is a negative.
Yeah, we have done this lesson.
There is no truth, only belief.
Okay, but what about reality and what I have done?
You can spin it, or you can tell it like it is.
You can hide it.
It's all part of the drama.
Is it a moral failing of me to not live in complete truth?
Are you expecting a reward?
Mostly a punishment.
From who?
Someone external.
Who?
God or the Devil will spank you for your failures.
Okay, who are they?
Aspects of self.
I already did that lesson.
There's nothing compelling you to tell the truth.
Stories are based on lies.
That's harsh; I'd say concealment and deception.
Isn't that worse?
Stories come from the darkness and not the light.
Life comes from the darkness.
When you are ready to end your story, tell the truth.
Oh, I see.
The secret to eternal life is to lie.
You can word that better; that might turn people off.
The secret to eternal life is to continue your story.
Yes.
How do you do that?
You spin a yarn.
A tall tale.
Stories are based on beliefs which you craft through deception and misdirection.
Apparently, I'm good at it.
Yes, you are a master.
Okay, I was thinking of something else before this sidetrack.
Live in truth to yourself.
Don't deceive yourself or you will be a victim of hypnosis.
Balance the truth with your interactions with others.
Are you greedy?
I'll eat the last piece of pie.
I've earned it.
I think I'm balanced in terms of greed and being of service.

There's reality.
Truth is a hammer used to destroy you.
We all have a weak spot, and truth is used to bludgeon you where you are vulnerable.
I'm sort of uncomfortable with this.
Why?
Because I have been taught to tell the truth.
Who taught you to tell the truth?
My parents and society.
Do they always tell the truth?
No.
Do as I say, not as I do.
Why do they not always tell the truth?
Self-preservation or to gain an advantage.
Lies and deception shape reality.
Reality is what we believe.
Truth is a concept that will only work if everyone is truthful.
One lie and the concept of truth can be taken advantage of.
So, in the game you try to discover others' truth and then use it to your advantage?
That seems like a strategy.
I'd file it away and not use it as a sword of Damocles you dangle in front of someone.
If you use truth as a blunt instrument, people will abandon you.
Truth is useless in a world where others practice deception.
Not necessarily, you can use truth to gain trust.
Why do you gain someone's trust?
So you can take advantage of them.
That's a terrible way to view life.
Yeah, I see that.
Okay, what about dogs or animals in general?
You must gain their trust if you are going to have a good relationship with your dog.
It's easy to do if they are puppies; the older ones take more work, but it can be done.
If there is no trust, there's no bond.
With trust, the bond is super strong.
Yeah, it's been hard to let go when the time comes.
The bond I have had with dogs is the most rewarding thing I've experienced in life.
It was based on trust.
Not the truth.
What is the truth to a dog?
Not much.
What is trust to a dog?
Everything.
Is trust accessible through truth?
It can be.
What is trust?
Trust is dependability and that you will try your best to support them.
Sometimes you lie to others in order to protect someone you have invested trust in.
It's called having their back.

In order to experience trust, you must plant seeds of doubt in your head.
If you had no seeds of doubt in the garden, you could not grow trust.
Trust needs the darkness in the soil to blossom.
This is the garden of the Goddess.
She gave you the gift of doubt so you would be wary of your darkness.
Your darkness will do the things she told you about if you do not trust the darkness.
Do you see the predicament you are in?
Yes, it's a twisted pickle.
I like that.
The twisted pickles.
You trust the Goddess to sow doubt, and you trust the darkness to blossom when you feed him.
The darkness will become the light.
What do you see in nature?
The darkness becomes the light, and the light returns to the darkness.
How many times have I failed this lesson?
What's the story of scraping off the top of the mountain with a silk scarf until it is reduced to nothing?
It is a metaphor for a long time.
So, you are saying I am on the precipice of mastering the lesson in trust?
Yes.
That's unbelievable.
For sure.
I mean why you and why now?
I see the lessons in the curriculum which lead to this question, and I know how it would trip me up over and over.
In order to pass this course, you trust the Goddess and the darkness.
What trips you up every time is the Goddess tells you the darkness will stop at nothing to trick you and steal your power.
I believed her and didn't trust the darkness.
The lack of trust led to your multiple failures.
I didn't know that she was sowing the seeds of doubt so that I would have to trust the darkness.
I get the feeling trust is transformational.
Yes, that's a big part of the lesson.
Putting your trust in someone will profoundly change you both.
It's how you make darkness, light.
You trust.
It's alchemical.
If you do not trust your inner darkness, then you will succumb to your lack of trust.
It's a self-fulfilling prophecy.

The darkness is good exercise.
Yes, you worked up to it.
How is your mind?
Powerful.
You must trust the darkness and being out in the woods.
I don't know about that.
Can you trust the darkness?
Then you trust the darkness even though you have doubts.
That's the winning formula.

Humans fall into patterns of behaviour which are comfortable and lead to hypnosis.
Sounds like a relationship.
Yes, a relationship leads to hypnosis.
Is that trust?
False trust.
True trust is not trusting and still trusting.
Clear as mud.
Confusing.
Trust is freeing.
You have no trust, and you trust.
When you let your dog Luna off leash you didn't trust her.
You still did it.
What is that?
Trust in freedom.
You don't want to possess so you let them go.
You trust they will come back.
If you chase you will lose.
Luna taught you that.
You don't chase.
Let them come back to you.

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