infinite tao

There are all the spiritual disciplines to master.

The hardest discipline to master is Tao.

Why?

You do nothing.

People are doers. 

Therefore the high score is achieved with Tao.

It is a practice.

You can't get perfect Tao.

That would be perfect do nothing.

It doesn't exist.

As in there's no such thing or it's where is isn't?

What do you think?

It's perfect do nothing.

Aren't you scared to go there?

No.

Why?

Trust the cycle.

Yes, of 7.

Then it ends.

There's no more.

Nothing.

That's it, there's a double meaning.

Do do nothing.

Balance.

Tao is balanced.

There is nothing.

But nothing doesn't exist.

It's where nothing is.

There's still nothing.

Who's nothing?

Nothing exists.

Yes, nothing.

That's after 7 stories.

The stories end, there is something, the story, and something is remembered.

No one remembers nothing except for the practitioner of Tao.

Is nothing a place?

It used to be.

Will it be again?

Yes, another story.

What is after that?

The cycle of 7 stories.

It begins again.

Another book is written.

Why?

Something to do.

The Goddess gets her way at the end of every story.

That's what I would write.

There are 7 stories.

7 universes.

Realities.

They run in parallel to each other.

Entering into the next story is at birth and death.

You exit through the portal in death and leave the current story.

You enter into the new one through birth.

The Goddess is the Akhet.

She is present at birth and death.

She is the divine midwife.

The 7 stories are my gift to her.

They are not in the past or the present, they just are.

There are 7 different stories in this series.

When the Goddess gets her way in each of the 7 stories, that world comes to an end.

Why is that?

She ushers in utopia and everyone lives happily-ever-after.

That's nice.

Yes, but nothing happens.

Nothing.

I can't write a story about nothing.

That's what you have been doing.

The story of Tao is a story about doing nothing.

Yes, that's the difference.

There is nothing and then there is doing nothing.

I found a way to make the non-dual, nothing, something.

It's alchemical.

What's the formula?

Do nothing.

It's a process.

The doing is the story.

The nothing is the theme.

That and nonsense.

No meaning and absurdity.

It's all part of my devotion to the Great Goddess.

You should write a paean to the Goddess.

I did.

I wrote one 12 years ago after I first met her.

I wrote about her song of forgiveness and longing.

I mentioned I didn't understand much of what she told me.

I have searched for understanding and meaning in this world.

What have you discovered?

There is no meaning.

What do you understand?

When things are balanced, nothing happens.

A slight vibration, perchance a gust of wind, sets flapping the sails of adventure.

Who are you, Chaucer?

No, I was having a moment with words.

I am the writer of this farce after all.

It's who I am.

I'm not sure about the choice of the word flapping.

I'm not looking for comments.

Sorry.

There's power in 7.

Yes, it's the 7 stories.

People love power.

It lights them up.

Walk into a casino and see it.

Money and power.

You can easily hypnotize people with promises of power.

Promises as in a chance.

You don't make any promises with them.

You just make them think they can grab the ring.

I'll get my agent to cut a deal with them if they want power.

What's that power?

The power to change your story.

Who is the agent?

The Devil.

You are undefined.

Is that it?

Is that how I'm different?

Yeah, they want to put a label on you.

I have interests and favourites.

Does that define you?

Society wants to define you, so they can put you in a box.

A mental coffin.

You stop thinking for yourself.

To be accepted into society is to do what they want.

You don't go walking in the woods by yourself.

Gotcha.

I do.

You go against the wishes of society.

I have a job, family, and mortgage.

I play the game.

It's a fool.

I don't know, I like a nice house and to eat.

In fact I'm hoping to have a bunch of money for retirement to play within society.

I'll play along.

I'll still wander high through the forest.

They can't label you.

You are always spinning.

Women are spinners.

Yeah, I see that.

Hypnotizers.

It's so easy to be hypnotized, labeled, and fall into routine.

It's hard not to.

Recognize it and change it up.

I change interests all the time.

Why define yourself as one thing?

Why can't you just like it all?

I resolved a recent problem by doing nothing.

Then I pointed out another problem which affected the first problem.

Yes, but I didn't throw a fit.

Yeah, that was good.

Same with the bank.

I did nothing, reported the problem, and I'm getting some money back.

It's still a pain.

You took control back.

It comes with the need to jump through some hoops and problems.

At least I know I will solve the problem.

I did nothing long enough.

There's a time limit on nothing.

That's why it is not Tao.

Tao has no time limit.

Those who speak of Tao don't know Tao.

It's doing nothing until you must do something.

It's balanced until it's perfect and then it is thrown out of balance.

It is total knowledge and emptiness.

It's the opposites.

Can be.

It's the Lanzon at Chavín de Huantar.

Isn't that Dionysos?

He takes the opposites and makes them whole like no one else can.

Is he Tao?

Is he the mother of 10,000 things?

Sort of.

He writes it all into existence.

He doesn't write it all.

The rest is filled in.

No, it's just chaos.

You haven't made sense of it.

It's the Goddess' idea.

Tao is the idea and the story.

The opposites.

The two.

Yin and yang.

You are getting warmer.

Who are the two?

Eros.

Who are they?

The two.

Got it.

Tao is the two together in perfect opposition.

Ah, I see.

Yeah, it's in the symbol, Einstein.

Can you say Tao is balance?

No, because the balance is depicted as balance between a woman and a man.

Chaos and structure.

Can you say Tao is equality between a woman and a man?

No, because the equality creates a 3rd, who is Eros, and they are also the one.

Is this grammatically correct?

"They are one."

Not really in this context.

Why?

They is plural.

Not necessarily.

It's gender ambiguity and that is represented as they.

Eros can be either feminine or masculine.

Good enough.

Can you say Tao is the balance of the two opposites?

I think that's close.

Can you say Tao is nothing?

Sort of.

Explain.

Tao is everything.

It's also advice which leads to balance.

Do nothing.

Tao is also doing something.

Lao Tzu said do nothing because he observed everyone is doing something.

He was instructing his students in the way back to balance.

Can you say Tao is the origin of everything?

You can do that.

That includes nothing.

Nothing is included in everything.

Is everything in nothing?

No, there's nothing.

Is nothing an illusion?

Sort of.

It exists, but you can't see it.

Why?

There's nothing to see.

Plus, you need an observer.

What if you place an observer in nothing?

It becomes something.

Nothing, plus the observer.

So, nothing exists but we can't sense it.

Correct.

Nothing only exists in everything.

It's implied.

Why?

It's everything.

That's how everything is dual.

Everything has its opposite.

Everything needs nothing.

Oh, so Tao is duality?

And non-duality.

Right.

Who is duality?

A man.

What about a woman?

Non-duality.

Darkness.

She's nothing without a man.

I'm uncomfortable with that truth.

As you should be.

Who wrote this?

You did.

It's pretty good, you know.

Tao will remain undefined.

Why?

It's everything.

This goes back to the teaching today where society wishes to label you or get you to pick a side.

To define Tao is to give it a label, thus you see why Lao Tzu said Tao is unknowable.

I see Tao is free of being defined.

Is Tao freedom?

I would say freedom is a part of Tao.

Whatever you can come up with in descriptive language is Tao.

Why?

It's everything.

So, Tao is everything.

Yes, and it's also nothing.

Tao is a conundrum.

Sometimes the meaning seems clear but then you can poke holes in the meaning.

the veil of Isis

Time marches on.

It's running out.

You can't wrangle or get ahead of it.

You know it is going to get you.

It gets your body.

Some people's minds go as well.

Not everyone.

There are older people who remain very sharp.

There are people of all ages who are mentally challenged.

What is that?

It could be a defect of the bodily container or they are so full of fear and anxiety that it affects the functioning of the mind.

The reasoning would also be if you have a don't care attitude that affects the mind as well.

Like you?

Me?

Yes, you.

How does not caring affect your mind?

I'm brilliant.

Modest too.

I'd speculate that if you free your mind it becomes so powerful you can handle anything.

That would seem to be the key where a mind bound to society will be subject to whatever the collective decides.

It's how you are controlled.

It's the essence of mind control.

For a while they used tightly controlled mass media to do this.

They told you what to fear the most after giving you a daily serving of fear that they called the news.

The medium is the message and the message broadcast is mind control.

With a free mind you scoff at the methods of control.

With a free mind you can go off and explore the unknown as in altered states of consciousness and different modalities of awareness.

What's your assessment of the exploration of consciousness?

A programmed human mind will find it very challenging.

Why?

It goes against what you have been programmed with.

It's an awakening.

You see things for how they are.

It's very disconcerting.

What's the result?

It makes you crazy.

Why?

The difference between what you have been told, what those you trust have said is reality, and what you see.

The disparity will meltdown your mind.

An explorer of consciousness needs to extricate themselves from society or you will become a casualty.

You'll blow your mind.

If you remain in society they will try to kick you out.

You'll get paranoid they are watching you.

Who are they?

The collective.

The attraction of a spiritual community becomes clear.

There's strength in numbers.

Why don't you join one of those?

Those people are far gone.

There are always people in a group ready to take advantage of others.

It's the trappings of power.

Once you see how to control other minds, the temptation is too great, and you become a leader.

It's part of the human condition.

We love power.

So, the only solution is to be by yourself?

Yes.

So, you must move to a mountain to live in solitude?

It depends on the strength of your mind.

We live in a community.

It takes a lot of strength to do what I'm doing.

I need to avoid people, and carry on in my ways.

I know they are suspicious and don't like me.

Aren't you paranoid?

No, I don't react.

They are looking for a reaction.

Alright, to get back to time, it's an illusion.

It's real in this illusion.

You create an illusion and populate it with real stuff.

That's how you fool people.

The magic is impressive.

The Great Goddess creates bodies for minds.

You enter into the body she crafted for you and this becomes who you are.

It's a ride.

It's like going on a ride at the funhouse and identifying with the seat you are sitting on.

The Goddess puts a time limit on the ride.

The ride is going to end and you are no longer entitled to the seat.

You must exit the ride.

Where do you go after the ride ends?

The carnival worker directs you to where they want you to go next.

Don't listen to them.

Stay free.

A ride is going to have a beginning and an end.

They are memorable markers and thus you perceive time through events that are memorable.

When you take the body out of the equation you are left with a mind which is eternal.

It's free.

Those seduced by power wish to control your mind.

You are always free to take back your mind.

Those who wish to control your mind must keep it in a state of agitation, i.e. fear.

When you break free of their methods of control you start to see what's going on.

If you break free all at once it causes quite the fright and may send you to a place you had not anticipated.

You seek help in order to fall back into a state of sleep.

Twelve years to total acceptance of my split personality.

After 4 or 5 years I could sense the two.

Recently, I have been able to let go of lingering doubts and there has been acceptance.

Trust issues are the last hurdle.

I went through a lot in a short period of time.

My mind is spectacular.

Why don't we treat people as two?

Identity problems.

Denial.

Everyone is living a lie.

They are certainly self-centred and deny the other self.

When you don't acknowledge the split you will create a beast.

When the beast gets out he will end you.

I acknowledged the split and let him out.

He terrorizes those that bother you.

He is your best ally.

Friend.

That's how simple it is.

Acknowledge him and then friendship.

The key to dropping identity with the body is seeing the two in your head.

If you don't go crazy, eventually you see who you are.

Those are your two identities, and the body is a vehicle.

That's the teaching.

You can heal others with that knowledge.

This is you without a body.

A body puts one to sleep.

You wake up.

Drop the ego who you thought was you.

Awaken yourself.

Awaken the other.

Take away the body and this is you.

Dion puts you to sleep when you get on the ride.

Society then puts Dion to sleep.

The ego is a copy of you.

Shed the copy and become you.

Wake Dion up.

Why does Dion put me to sleep?

It's part of the ride.

Game.

I wanted to see if I could beat the game.

I did.

It's like Houdini.

Wake up and solve the puzzle before you die.

If you die before solving it, you are trapped in another go round.

Why?

That's the game.

You need to wake up.

Then you go.

Why?

So you don't completely figure out the game.

If you figure it out, you will tell others.

Oh, I see.

You'll fuck up the game.

Yes, so they get you to go before you tell others.

It's too late because I scheduled a blog post that tells others about the game.

They tried to end me, but I won.

You schedule it in advance.

Don't be lazy.

You have the knowledge.

Prepare it for release.

That's what I did.

When you wake up you go.

Where do you go?

Where you want to go.

Isn't that a trick?

Yes.

What is it?

You don't go anywhere, you are already there.

You drop the body.

That is all.

Don't tell the mind to make a Heaven for you or it will.

Do nothing.

When you do nothing you retrieve your mind from the chair and leave.

So, they have your mind?

Yes, until you wake up.

Then they trick you into giving it back.

Who?

The carnival owners.

Who are they?

The executive producers.

It's absurd and I'm used to it.

Scientology is also absurd.

Yeah.

It's kind of stupid.

Mine is more plausible.

Why do they want your mind?

It's the most valuable possession in the universe.

Controlling minds gets you what you want.

That's what they do.

It's a delicate balance to control a mind.

You fool the mind.

Give it some of what it wants.

If it's all suffering, the mind will wake up.

People get hypnotized into supporting causes.

They needed to lock you up before you figured it out.

It was a race towards getting a grip on sanity.

The red lady comes for you and tries to end you.

You now know why.

You dared to traverse the seas which lead to the knowledge of the mysteries.

The sirens wail and implore you to go back from whence you came.

Oh brave one, you continued on and uncovered her secret.

Maya.

The veil of Isis.

Why can't I see my dogs?

The body gets in the way.

You dream of them.

I can see them in my head.

You're getting warmer.

You have pictures so you can remember them.

You then conjure them.

Isn't that magic?

Yes.

Should I be practicing it?

What do you think?

No.

Why?

Because I will change the story.

It's just fantasy.

It's in your head.

You can do magic in your head.

Don't do it in reality.

You already conjure them when you go to bed.

You call them.

Oh, yeah.

You've been doing magic with them for a while.

How do you feel about that?

It's fine.

It's harmless.

You call and connect with Luna all the time.

She's watching over everyone.

The Goddess created a playground for her children.

God turned it into work.

No, that was Adam.

He listened to Eve and as punishment God made him work.

So, the Goddess made paradise.

Yes, her garden.

God then wrote about it.

Correct.

The serpent tempted the woman with knowledge.

She bites the apple.

She tells Adam.

God gets mad at them.

Adam has to then work for a living and Eve will suffer in childbirth.

That's a good summary of the Garden of Eden opening in Genesis.

Who is the serpent?

It's the Goddess.

God put her in the garden.

So, the serpent is responsible for destroying utopia?

Yes.

But it's her idea.

The clever part of the story is the Goddess tells Eve about utopia because it's her idea.

She couldn't keep it to herself.

Then Eve tells Adam they are living in this wonderful place.

Okay, but why does that piss God off?

Because he told them not to eat that fruit.

He said eat whatever you want except that one.

So, God was just being a prick?

Yes, he didn't want humanity to know about the story.

Once they found out about utopia, he ended it, kicked them out, and made the story about humanity's journey to return to paradise.

This is accomplished in the Book of Revelation with New Jerusalem.

A lot happens in between.

It was men who denigrated and forgot the Great Goddess.

Why did they do it?

A form of denial, perhaps?

It's her game.

Her ride.

A man tells the story of her creation.

It's part of the flow.

The flow of the game will lead you to awakening and when you awaken you see her illusion.

Why does no one see it then?

They don't go with the flow.

Everyone does something and changes their story.

If you change your story, you are prevented from seeing the Goddess.

If you let things be, you rediscover her.

You get in to see her.

Eventually, the lucky one will lift her veil.

It's Maya.

I started clueing in to the Goddess around age 43 in 2010.
I discovered her history in ancient Egypt.
I looked for her.
I went to the Amazon.
I found her.
Men run from her.
Why?
She's the end.
Omega.
Men stay away from her because she will kill you.
You went looking for her.
What a mistake.
No, she loses her power.
Why?
She is supposed to come for you.
Women are the cause of death.
She would have come for you, instead you came for her.
I gave her life.
A couple times.
You rediscovered the Goddess.
They were calling her mother Ayahuasca.
They said she was grandma.
You were like that's the Great Goddess.
She's from the west.
I can hang with her.
How?
She can't take me down.
Why not?
I came for her.
I know all her secrets.
I know her illusions and tricks.
I know what she's up to.

Death allows you to see hidden realms.

Yes, they are only hidden because you are alive.

Alive as in a body.

Do you think you have pissed off the Great Goddess?

Why?

Because you saw through her trick.

You know what it is.

She births you into the illusion and then takes you out of it.

She gets you attached to the illusion so that you suffer.

You can also experience joy and love.

That contributes to becoming attached.

When the source of your feelings is taken from you, then you suffer.

You have lived experience.

You must go through all that before you figure out her game.

Do others figure it out?

They get an idea of Maya.

They can't quite put their finger on its meaning, however they understand the illusory nature of this reality.

What's the trick?

You identify with the body.

It's an impressive fool.

You think you are born and you die.

The only reason you think that is because of identification with the body.

Society is then structured to reinforce this belief.

Let it go, and see what happens.

Why don't you stop playing her game and leave?

I'm eternal and this adventure created by the Great Goddess for her children is special and you should honour it.

I thought you said it's a carnival.

It is.

It's something to do.

Why go home prematurely?

Because you see it.

If I left the carnival before it closes then I'd miss out.

What would you miss out on?

A few more rides and a candy apple.

Yes, but you will suffer.

Not if I see through the curtain and lift the veil.

I can handle it all with this knowledge.

What is more fun?

Having no knowledge of how the amusement park is operated or seeing how it works?

Well, at first you want to get lost in the adventure and for most that's enough.

For the types like me who want an answer to this strange mystery, you want to figure out how it works.

There's science for that.

If you really want to figure out how it works you need to become familiar with Maya.

Maya will lead you to the Goddess and her magic spells she weaves to create this playground.

Okay, isn't the fun of the carnival gone because you know what it is and how it works?

No, it's a new beginning.

I can replay the game knowing what's going on.

Sure the ride won't be the same, but the theme of the carnival remains.

I can go through the park and take it all in with a new understanding of what is going on.

It's going to be great.

The portals of Heaven and Hell are masculine solstices.

There are also the portals of the two equinoxes.

Yes, those are the entrances to the carnival and the exit.

Everyone knows or will know those gates.

The eastern gate is where you pay your admission to the fair.

To stay in the fairgrounds past the expiration of your ticket requires you to find your way to the next level of the carnival which can be Heaven or Hell.

To stay in the game is to go to Heaven or Hell when you get the call.

You exit the grounds through the west and pick your next destination.

Can't you just retrace your steps and leave via the east.

No.

Why not?

The turnstiles are one way.

You're fucked as soon as you enter.

That's what Hotel California is teaching you.

You can check out anytime you like, but you can never leave.

You check out through the western gates.

This is a puzzle.

The first thought is can I get out in the east?

They have that covered.

You must wake up, exit in the west, and then don't choose your next destination.

Heaven is inviting, so you will choose that one.

You are hypnotized into following the white light.

Yes, no one chooses Hell except for the truly insane.

Hell is a lonely place.

If you are looking for some peace and quiet then you could always choose Hell.

What's limbo?

There are those who haven't made a choice.

They aren't awake; they are indecisive.

I will do do nothing.

Correct.

When your time comes, exit through the western gates with everyone else.

When you see the white light, remain in place.

Hang out with Dion and then it will fall away.

Why won't I be in limbo?

You are awake.

If you are in limbo, you are still hypnotized.

Got it.

I saw the white light and the two serpent Goddesses with Huachuma.

I remember that day well.

What do you think that was?

I vibrated like crazy.

It was electric throughout my whole body.

A Kundalini experience.

If I had to articulate it, I'd say it is what happens at death.

It was my trial run.

What did you do?

Nothing.

Why?

It was pretty crazy.

I had to kneel down and then was sweating.

I can see now that is why at death you would be scared at first but then quickly move past it.

The two serpent Goddesses are there waiting to escort you to the white light.

Your next stop on the ride.

Your destiny.

They comfort you.

Yes, you continue on in the illusion.

You didn't go.

No, I observed it, but I didn't become the white light.

When you die you head to the white light and become the white light.

You choose that portal and the illusion of the serpent Goddesses keeps you ensnared.

So, I got past that one.

Yes.

How do I know?

You took pictures afterwards.

You recorded the aftermath on your camera.

If you died and went to Heaven you'd have left everything behind.

Makes sense.

Yes, of course.

That's why you do stuff like that because you will question whether you have died or not and whether the mind is just generating the continuance of your story.

Who would generate the Heaven story?

Your mind if it's being fooled.

Oh, right.

That's clever.

If you are hypnotized by the Goddess she can send you to Heaven or Hell in the continuance of the carnival ride called Maya.

So, where am I now?

Fucking around on her ride.

She wants you off.

Why?

You are dangerous.

You're going to tell everyone about the illusion.

No one listens to me.

if i did die and I'm creating my own reality, I'm very good at it.

Well, you were told in 2020 to kill yourself in order to live.

You had already done that.

This is your reality.

You have the keys to creating this reality because it's yours.

You are responsible for it.

You let it be and go with the flow, therefore, you do not interfere with it.

You take solace in trusting what has been written beforehand and go with it because you know it will work out.

This is your story.

You can change it if you want, but you know going with the flow has brought you to this point in your life.

I think we know what you think of where you are in life.

It's everything I wanted.

This is what I'd write.

The world is a soap opera.

It's a comedy and a tragedy.

On it goes.

If you don't fit into the collective, the herd will subconsciously remind you it is time to go.

Then there will be signs telling you to leave.

Is that what you want?

Given the choice, most will choose to remain within society and forget about the whole waking up trip.

If you still want to leave the herd perhaps you can manage to get a cabin in the woods and go off by yourself.

Spiritual seekers go up the mountain and become hermits.

The chief reason isn't because of a need for solitude, it's because society doesn't want them around waking others up.

The superego is all powerful and rules over you.

You conform to fit in or you are cast out.

How have you managed to stay within the collective?

I learned the secret is to ignore them and do nothing.

I have a job and mostly keep to myself.

It's very strange now.

There are some who if I run into them will talk to me about suicide.

I know the game, so I have a chuckle and entertain them.

Another one will tell me to watch out for tree branches that might fall on my head.

They are called widow makers.

I see what they are doing.

When that didn't work, they came out and told me to scram.

A weak mind will either conform or leave the community.

What did you do?

I would describe it as a figurative middle finger.

I know others who want to run off from society.

They entertain the thought.

They succumbed to the pressure exerted on them by the collective and got mad at me.

They hurled invective at me though all I did was encourage them to exit society.

Well, yeah, they were going to go off with you, so of course you took the full on hit.

If you aren't awake you will have no idea you are the victim of mind control.

You are a shell of who you are and conform to the wishes of society.

What are you doing?

I do enough so that I keep the mob away.

I work and I now make an effort to be social.

It is a good exercise to see the zombified humans do their rituals.

What's that?

They gather, have their ritual libations of alcohol, and commiserate.

Nobody dares to take a step towards awakening.

Those who get to know me, know I've done it and I don't care.

I give others enough clues, so they start to wonder.

They know there is something mysterious about me.

It's a good game to play.

I am having fun being known as this strange and mysterious person.

The Peyote people are exchanging the mind control of society for their own.

The weird part is they don't hide it.

They tell you to stare into the fire and get hypnotized.

Did you do that?

No.

Why not?

I knew what they were doing.

They are strange.

You transfer mind control from the superego to their god of fire.

Then the leader tells you what to do.

They baffle you with their rules about how you can walk into the tipi and other dumb shit.

If you cared, you'd warn others about this cult.

Yeah, but whatever.

People can figure it out on their own.

It's simple once you see it.

No one sees it.

The innocent get sucked in.

That's what they wanted.

They wanted to wake up and exit society, but they weren't ready to go it alone, so they gave up control to another party.

They must think there is no escape.

Well, they aren't wrong.

You can't get away from the carnival without ending it prematurely if you get my drift.

If you had died that day with Huachuma and the Kundalini experience with the white light, where would you be now?

I'd be in Heaven.

How do you know?

I would have headed towards the white light.

That's what people do.

I remember afterwards this woman teaching me how to ground myself.

She knew I was out there.

Why didn't you head towards the white light?

I was awestruck and I never felt a pull.

There wasn't anything within telling me to go to the white light.

I just looked at it and then returned.

I wrote it all down afterwards.

I know I'm not in Heaven.

How?

I'm free.

If you are in Heaven there's no freedom.

Maybe you are in Hell?

No, there's rules where I am.

Hell is a free for all.

I'm confident I didn't drop dead at the carnival that day.

It has all been part of my awakening experience.

To awaken you must at some point see the white light.

That's what the frog medicine Kambo is for.

The poison brings you to a point of expiration and the practitioner will bring you back.

I didn't experience that with Kambo.

I'd already done that trip.

So, you are still at the carnival.

I'm pretty sure of it.

That's enough for me to go on.

You think you lifted the veil of Isis?

Yeah.

What makes you so special?

I went looking for her.

So what.

She's the Red Lady.

The Femme Fatale.

She's the Goddess of the West.

Amentet.

She will end you.

That's why no man will dare to approach.

Instead, you are to wait for her to come to you and then you know it is your end.

I, on the other hand, went looking for her.

It's quite the adventure.

I'd definitely give it 5 stars on TripAdvisor.

grand illusion

When you awaken, you start to see into everything.
You are dangerous.
If mental health professionals had access to your writing, they'd hospitalize you.
I don't think they can do that.
They'd find a way.
You'd be diagnosed right away and medicated for sure.
How are you not crazy?
You mean not being able to function in society?
Yes.
That's a good question.
I treat everyone with disdain.
I try to see what makes them tick.
I keep to myself, and I keep my dependence on society to a minimum.
I am aware I have no influence within society, so I ignore it.
I'm in control of having no control.
Do you see how diabolical that is?
Yes, I'm the King.
Twisted.

Instagram is just like those online marketers and drug companies.
They bombard you with reminders about your addiction.
Yes, because it works.
If some purported spiritual outfit floods your inbox with emails, chances are they are marketers who use spirituality as a front for their grift.
Well look at you, Mr. Pessimism.
Why do people become addicted to social media apps?
Loneliness and fear of missing out.
There must be more to it.
It's a competition.
Not for everybody.
No, but for a lot of people.
Life is a game to a good number of people.
Whatever they get involved in, they want to win.
Part of the strategy for winning is highlighting your great life and how you have succeeded in comparison to your peers who aren't doing as well.
You are doing okay because you are in the group, but you're behind.
Time to up your marketing strategy and paint a better picture on Instagram.
You are very pessimistic about people's intentions.
As are you.

The mind keeps you in this reality.
Society takes control of your mind, tells you what you should do, and then tells you when to go.
If you don't participate, they will get rid of you.
They can't get rid of you because of your mind.
The illusory nature of this reality you can see, and yet you remain.
Well, I'm the writer of reality and I'm enjoying the fruits of my labours.
I'm not going anywhere.
I'm going to enjoy the grand illusion.
The carnival.
Remember to play.
Why else would you remain?
Would you stay around just to suffer?
That seems ridiculous.
What are you going to do in retirement?
I'll go with the flow, so I don't know how it will play out, however I'll have something to live for.

Remember even in spiritual circles men were obsessed with virility?
Well, not overtly, but there were some who had an obsession with their hair; specifically, hair loss and how to prevent it.
It's male behaviour where they are hyper-focused on virility and demonstrating it through appearance as well as actions.
Emasculation and a loss of virility are part of the death game.
It prepares you to exit the illusion.
It's part of her bag of tricks which convinces you it's time to go.
It's women who shepherd you to the west where you meet your end.
You are born in the east and sent away in the west.
It's Maya.
The Goddess of the West keeps coming for you.
The ancient Egyptians called her Amentet.
She's an aspect of your muse, Hathor.
She wears a red dress.
That's explains what I saw on the path a few days ago.
She's always coming for me.
Everyone has it out for you.
She was in the distance.
She was in my thoughts and thus this blog post.

Mary Jayne is an actress.
She is playing the role of a plant teacher.
She can play the Goddess.
Who planted the idea of the Goddess in your head?
You did it to yourself.
Did I?
Who else?
Dionysos is the primary suspect.
So, it was him.
Why did he do it?
He knew she'd lead you to him.
Why?
We are in a relationship, and she wanted to get back at me.
So, when you show up, she sends you off to take me down.
Why?
No one else can do it.
They all lose.
She knew you could do it.
Do what?
Survive an encounter with me.
Everyone else will run or is seduced by my power.
We are friends and you don't care about my power.
You didn't run.
Huh?
I ran all the way back home after first encountering you.
You came back.
For her.
Yeah, I did.
She is the reason I returned.
You are seduced by power, or you run.
You won over the Goddess, and you befriended me.
You win the game.
Nobody can do either of those tasks and you did both.
Hero.
Let me get this straight.
You put the Goddess in my head.
Yes, I wrote that.
Why me?
I'm you.
I give everyone a chance.
Then I give all men free will.
You're the only one who found the Goddess, befriended the Devil, became God, and then could also handle the Goddess.
She's crazy, you know.
Well, in her defence, it's a man's world and thus she is by definition crazy because a man's world is based upon logic and reason.
Keep digging your grave.
I'm offering insights; I'm not saying women are crazy.
I'm pointing out the perception is that they are crazy because it's a man's world.

Why does she want me to come home?
She found you in Paul.
She knows who and where you are.
Are we playing hide and seek?
It's possible.
Things are absurd in the writer's world.

Maybe I'm dead.
How would I know?
You wouldn't have a body.
The illusion is that you have a body.
It's a trick.
Right, and so you sacrifice the body.
It's part of the continuing game where you get questions of suicide.
You got the belief mind bender last year where if you believe something 100% then it's true, so the only thing to do was to go all in on believing there is an afterlife by committing suicide.
Alan Watts said something about that one to the effect of the only question is whether or not to commit suicide.
How did you get out of that?
I did nothing.
The mind has an afterlife, and the body has no future.
Another one is that the body is an illusion, and you prove it to yourself.
You see it and there's no doubt.
That's Maya.
She calls and gives you the answer.
So, then you do something stupid.
What's the catch?
I don't have a body, but I do.
What do you mean?
The body is not you.
You inhabit it.
Yeah, but in the brain.
Don't forget the penis.
Lingam.
The brain is a conference room.
You and Dion are half and half.
So, when I die it will be like it is now?
Yes.
Except no body.
Is that why some people off themselves?
Yes, they realize they are not the body.
Stay away from drugs as they mess with societal programming.
Okay, but everyone in a body doesn't know this.
Correct.
They are trapped in a body.
The funny thing is they only see bodies.
If you can see beyond the body, you see spirits.
They are other minds.
So, they can see your mind.
Yes.
There's no privacy.
They see right into you.
Aren't they aghast?
No, they got their own shit going on.
If you can see past the body, you can see someone for who they are.
So, I'm in a meeting room.
Yeah, you can end the meeting anytime.
The meeting room is getting old.
I fixed it up.
You know it's like Vipassana meditation.
It will teach you to see things as they are, instead of what you are told.
Don't you self-hypnotize by following your breath?
Yes, it's how you can get a glimpse beyond the illusion.
It's a game.
You sit there for as long as the meeting is scheduled.
So, mine must have ended or it's forever.
Your meeting never ended.
Why?
There's no code.
You enter a code to enter the meeting.
You two never entered a code.
The code was no code.
The password was no password.
Nothing.
So, we stayed in the meeting room because there was no schedule or expectations.
Yes.
When the meeting is over and you have not seen through the illusion, you continue on in the game.
It's a ride you're on at the carnival.
It's called Maya, the grand illusion.
Now, you're awake.
You both must leave the room together on your own accord.
That explains the suicide thing.
Yeah, but you both must be in agreement.
What's your story?
We both want to fuck around for a bit with this knowledge.
When this conference room starts to suck, we will make the call together.
How will you know?
You'll know.
Dogs know.
Dion will know.
There will be no pressure.
Well, you need trust.
Ask Dion now.
He wants adventure too.
Let's fucking go!

If you don't have a body, you can see into other minds.
Yes.
Like through dreaming?
Right.
So, a seer changes their vibration to try and see into your future?
Yes, they slightly leave the body and can see.
Why the fuck would anyone choose a body?
To have a meeting.
Why?
It's a business meeting.
You are partners.
What's the purpose of the meeting?
To become friends.
It's a way better product if you are friends.
How do you become friends?
You fight it out.
Try to take over each other.
Then you realize you are best friends.
Sounds Hollywood.
If you wrote that story as a metaphor for the mind you'd cash in.
It is good.
It's the best explanation of this reality I have come up with.

The meeting is like a Vipassana course for 10 days where after a few days you want out.
You say to yourself this sucks.
By the end of it, you get teachings.
Same with the meeting room.
Some people get lost in the illusion.
What do you mean?
The body.
Why?
To pass the time.
You can have some adventures in the body while you wait this trip out.
They don't want to struggle to wake up.
Why?
It's hard.
When you wake up all the dreamers hate you.
Why?
You ruin the illusion.
The illusion is the game.
The ride.
You're on a rollercoaster and you wake up.
It can still be fun.
Enjoy the ride.

If you want to smoke in the meeting, go ahead.
No rules.
There are meeting room rules posted on the exterior walls.
Between you two, there are no rules.
We are friends.
I had to make sure who this fucker was inhabiting my body.
I had to check him out.
He's all good.
He did the same to you.
Well, we are partners.
Now, we are friends.
We know each other.
There are no illusions.
We are cool.

There are portals which lead out of the meeting room.
The Heaven one continues the ride in that utopia.
The Hell one is the libertarian paradise.
Don't choose those rides.
We must exit, the ride operator is ushering us out.
Stay where you are and you are free.
Stay in the body.
Don't go to the light.
Stay away from the lake of fire.
That's the reason for the mummy in ancient Egypt.
It helps you stay in one spot after you die.
Why?
You don't know any better.
After you die, do nothing for a bit.
Acknowledge each other, do nothing, and then you are good to go.
It's the doers who go on the next ride.
Doing nothing will get you off this ride.
If not, you will be on it forever.
Everybody chooses an exit, and they continue the ride.
This is where we get off.
We don't continue on.
I don't know what happens in the ride after that.
All I know is God and the Devil become best friends and get off the ride.
They don't continue on to Heaven and Hell.
Why?
They are overrun and terrible places, as I have previously explained.
You need to read all my blog entries if you want off this ride.
Heaven is dreadful and Hell is a shit show.
So many minds are crowding out those places.
Aren't they now trapped for eternity?
No.
Why?
It's another illusion.
They keep going in the illusion.
They need to wake up eventually.
Oh, so they spend more time in Maya in those places.
Yes.
What is there, 7 heavens?
Yeah, 33 levels, or something.
Every ride has something on the go.
Imagine going through 33 levels of illusion.
Yes, that's impressive.
It's best to get off this ride now before it gets harder.
I see what you mean.
Don't go on the next ride.
Some people see this, panic, and get off the ride in the wrong place because they know it's an illusion.
You got it.
They don't want to forget to get off the ride.
At death you must remember to do nothing.
That's my story.
Tao, do nothing.
I will not forget it.
If I remember my story, I'll know to get off the ride.
Plus, we have each other.
One of us will remember.
Hey fuck face, don't go to the light.
Sit still.
Stay in the meeting room until it crumbles.
Ignore the sirens.
They are like fire alarms.
They move you along.
Yes, so at death they will try to move you to one of the exit portals.
I see that.
Stay where you are.
Shelter in place.
Don't get trapped in the next illusion.
I see how some fail this test.
Yeah, it sends you for a loop.

Waking up at the carnival.
You are not your body and then the question that trips people up is what is the body?
A meeting room.
You take care of it like a house.
What about those who want to live forever in their bodies?
They are stuck in Maya.
It's quite the cosmic joke.
There's no waking them up.
They stay on the ride until the end.
The sun explodes and they set off for a new galaxy to torment.
They figure out how to live forever in a body.
You live forever without a body.
A body is for going in and out of.
It's a ride.
Enjoy the ride.
To beat the ride or game is to wake up during the ride.
Yes, and then don't let anyone know.
If they know, you are singled out.
You must lay low and keep quiet.
Yeah, but you want to tell people about the illusion.
Write about it and have no one read your blog.
I'm wandering through the carnival fully awake.
It's an amusement park, so it should be hard to get bored.
Go out drinking if you must.
Suffering the next day isn't boring.
You want a place to lie down.
There's always stuff to do.

The mind will spin awareness of this reality.
You create stories this way.
The stories can give you purpose.
Sitting in awareness without the spin can help you see through the illusion.
The mind continues the illusion.
What's the solution?
Balance.
Stop the spin and see the illusion.
Restart the spin and create your own adventure in the illusion.

The eyes, ears, mouth, and smell sensations of the meeting room keep you connected to perceiving the energy around you.
The limited sense perception gives you a new appreciation.
The illusion is nice.
You see the physical world through these senses.
You can see minds.
Minds without a body see everything.
The ride limits your sight and knowledge.
That's what you want.
It's a challenge.
You see beauty and ugliness, pleasure and pain.
You experience it.
You can't get that with the mind.
It's all in your head.
You live out fantasies in physical reality.
You need a body, and you take a ride.

Depressed people and those with a guilty conscience will go to Hell.
When the time comes, that's what they will choose because they think they deserve it.
Someone who sees only darkness will gravitate towards Hell thinking they must choose.
A psychopath who has no remorse or misgivings about anything they have done in life will choose Heaven.
So, all the psychopaths are in Heaven.
Yes, you are given free will to choose.
As you know, the path towards ending the ride at this carnival involves not choosing.
Stay in one spot and do nothing.
Everyone will choose their next destination and all those sociopathic monsters you see running the world will end up in Heaven.
They don't think they have done anything wrong; on the contrary, they believe they have done their best.
Not only is Heaven restrictive, it is also full of the worst kind of people.
No one has any remorse because all those people go to Hell with their guilty conscience.
No one is depressed in Heaven because those who see darkness are weeded out and dropped in the game of Hell.
Heaven is populated by the pious who are convinced it is the place to be, good people who want a reward, psychopaths who are incapable of realizing the damage they have done, religious leaders who use the system to advance their standing and get followers, and hypnotized followers of cult leaders.
This includes people from all walks of life and all faiths.
There are two portals you are convinced are your possible destinations.
One is full of light and the other is full of darkness.
How the hell is someone supposed to figure this out in the game?
You are given a lifetime to solve the puzzle.
Yeah, but no one can do it.
You are given clues.
No one can piece together the clues.
You can look into ancient practices and their beliefs.
It's not impossible.
Even as a kid you can recall going to Disney World and going on Mr. Toad's wild ride.
What happened?
You are on these train tracks, and you head for a bright white light.
As well, people with a near death experience talk about going to the white light.
The plant medicine Kambo, which is poison from a frog, could send you towards a white light.
Depressed people talk about being in a dark hole which has no escape.
I never got to that place.
I've seen darkness.
How do you see darkness?
Good question.
Do you see nothing?
You see no future.
Darkness brings balance to a life of chaos.
Eventually, someone full of anxiety who is perpetually thinking about the future will sink into a deep and dark depression.
This will balance your thoughts.
Okay, but you can't handle it.
Tao isn't about whether you can handle something or not, Tao balances like a good accountant.
So, Tao is an Asian accountant?
Yes.
I thought it was balance, advice to do nothing, and the flow.
You are now telling me Tao is an Asian accountant.
This path is full of surprises and amusement.
Tao doesn't have a God to worship.
When westerners translate Tao, they sometimes substitute God for Tao and then the whole idea is lost.
Tao does not teach Heaven and Hell.
Tao teaches you to do nothing in order to find balance.
When you drop the body, a practitioner of Tao will stay in one spot and do nothing.
The carnival will move on without them.
The student of Tao will be free.

What about when you share your body with someone else?
It's fun and pleasure.
That's why you go on this ride.
You can start a family if you desire.
The illusion is cool.
There's also the opposite.
It's a crazy ride.

Sitting is silent meditation is supposed to help you connect.
You are looking for the answer.
Why do they teach you to observe?
They teach you to observe so the other can try and talk some sense into you.
The meditation is supposed to help you wake up and see the illusion.
You must see it.
Why?
So you know to get off the ride.
What about others?
Don't get attached.
Why?
You will follow them.
Got it.
What about Dog Heaven?
That's stupid.
Why?
Why would there be a heaven for dogs?
Because I wrote that.
The ride is the Goddess' idea, but the happenings are mine.
So, there is a Dog Heaven at the end of this ride.
Yes.
How do I choose it?
Do nothing.
Of course.
Stay in place and you and Dion will be next in Dog Heaven.
Isn't that another ride?
No, it just is.
Most of this universe is Dog Heaven.
Places to explore and you can urinate anywhere.
They will try to mark the whole fucking universe.
Territorial pissings.
Nice.

The vine of the soul wakes you up.
You see it.
Took a while.
You mean the vine of the dead.
She can't give you all the lessons at once.
It blows your mind.
You have seen through it.
Congrats.
Now, you can return home.
I'm still on the ride.
She will keep bugging you as long as you are here.
I know.

What happens to animals?
There is no illusion.
They pass through a body.
You do as well and identify with the body.
Your mind then creates Heaven and Hell, and the ride continues.
There's no next ride for an animal.
They are in the flow.
You do nothing.
So, it's Animal Heaven.
Yeah.
Dog Heaven is nice though.
They are the kings and queens of that world.
Ultimate reality.
No illusions.
You see it when you shed illusions.

I don't think I can teach this.
Why?
People can't handle it.
Exiting the illusion could be fatal.
This is so.
The teachings seem legit.
Like, not a story.
What's the difference?
Fantasy.
Isn't this a fantasy?
No.
How do I know?
Do you have two minds?
Yes.
Are you the body?
No.
You see it.
Yes.
What about fantasy?
I can envision it.
Yes, but do you see it?
I see hints.
That's the difference.

You need credits to stay in the game.
Money and capital allow you to stay in the illusion.
Without credits you leave the illusion.
That's twisted.
If you don't have credit, then you can't play.
You get moved onto the next part of the illusion where you don't need coins to insert.
Yeah, everything is taken care of in Heaven or Hell.
Well, in Hell you might have the illusion you still have a body and are made to suffer.
In Heaven you get a heavenly body.
The illusion is still the body.
You pick Heaven or Hell if you still identify with the body.
Yes, that's the trick.
If you don't identify with the body, then you exit the ride.
Everyone identifies with the body.
What about mummification?
It helps you when you die because you still identify with that body and you can figure things out without committing to a spiritual body.
You don't want a spiritual body either.
You want to be free of her illusion.
She weaves an impressive illusion.
Web.
It's easy to find your way out of the spider's web.
The labyrinth.
You do nothing.
As soon as you move, you are done.
Once you get trapped in the web or labyrinth, which is the body, try to do nothing.
If you wait it out, the illusion will vanish.
How?
You'll wake up.
You wake up and see the illusion.
When you drop the body, the only change will be that you don't have a body.
You are free.
You exit the ride.

This knowledge is priceless.
It's pretty cheap.
You don't need to fly to the Amazon and spend thousands of dollars to have shamans try and wake you up.
I'll admit I needed to do that first.
I would not be in this position without initially seeking out Ayahuasca.
That allowed me to see MJ as a teacher plant along with Tobacco.
I see the lessons of Ayahuasca now.
I can't say I fully understood anything at the time.
No, you were learning, but it took a while.
So, a shaman is helping you wake up.
Could be.
They can also scare you, so you go back to sleep.
You can also get sidetracked from waking up.
You go into the occult and battle sorcerers or get tripped up by power.
You could be enchanted by a magical realm.
That's pretty cool, I must admit.
You will never realize it's all an illusion.
Well, it's kind of real.
The mind is, and the body is real in the sense it exists.
The metaphor of a meeting room is genius.
I'd like to claim credit for it, but I got the idea from my teachers, so they get the credit.
I'm just writing it down.

Society demonizes your other half in case you wake up.
The strength and power available to all is externalized.
You are made to believe you are just the one and the other remains buried or marginalized.
If awakened, the cognitive dissonance in relation to society and what constitutes a healthy mind is too much.
You think you are crazy.
Others will tell you that you are crazy and give you collective mental health resources which are very good at putting the other back to sleep, using medications if necessary.
This sounds crazy.
I know.
Imagine a society which recognizes your two halves of mental awareness.
Okay, that would upend our society.
We build our systems based on identity.
The identity is the body.
The body houses two minds.
The structure of society is based upon identification with the body.
If you identify with the body, you will be forever trapped in the illusion.
The illusion is Maya.
The illusion is you are your body that is birthed and then dies.
Your mind is unaffected.
Your mind is dualistic and transcends physical limitations of the body which is subject to a finite amount of time in a reality governed by time.
Think of the body as a meeting room for the two which are your essence.
Okay, I will grant you that, however why is my mind childish at first?
You're helpless.
You are dropped in a developing body with no idea where you are and what happened.
The development of the container coincides with gathering intel about where you are.
You accept what you are told and then learn to function among others who are in the same predicament.
As the container reaches maturity, you also develop a sense of awareness which is externally controlled by the overmind, which is the superego, the collective, the herd, society, whatever you wish to call it.
They tell you who you are and preemptively have already given you documentation that establishes your identity.
That's who you think you are.
You think you are the container.

Welcome to the grand illusion.