Something about the writer.
I forgot.
Oh yeah, is it Hell to be the writer?
Why?
Because you sit in a backroom and write the story.
It's what you wanted.
You can write ahead.
You don't have to write in real time.
You create a future where you write.
How do you do that?
It's magic.
You just do it.
It's your power.
Whatever you think of you can make happen.
The secret is to write the story and finish the book.
This way you have free time.
What do you do with your free time?
You enter into your own story.
The story is already written.
You follow along in the story.
You go with the flow.
What if you don't go with the flow?
You change the story.
What happens then?
I don't know.
Why not?
I didn't write that ending.
If you change the story, anything can happen.
Okay, so, if the story is changed, someone still must write it.
Yes, it happens in real time.
Who writes it?
The writer.
You?
Maybe.
It depends on the story.
Perhaps your ability to write was usurped by others.
You lose your power.
I see it.
In your story others are trying to take your power.
That is correct.
By deduction I would guess that you hang onto it.
Well, if I didn't, my story would end.
They'd take my power and get rid of me.
I also think that's how you end this story.
How so?
Somebody gets your power and the universe ends.
I think the witches steal your power.
They create their utopia with it and nothing happens.
We return to non-duality.
Is that what you would write?
Yes.
Women are the reason the world ends.
Specifically, the witches.
Watch out for the witches.
They want your power.
Are you going to give it to them?
Eventually.
Sometime soon?
I just recently entered into my own story, so no.
Will they keep trying to take your power?
Yes, it's the story.
There are a bunch of storylines.
It may be twisted and weird, however it isn't dull.
Do you think you waited too long to enter into your own story?
Why?
You are old and decrepit.
There are pills for that.
I experimented with my scientists.
We found the optimum time.
In youth the coming forth doesn't work because you will want to conquer the world in your story.
The Alexander the Great dilemma.
If you wait too long then old age will ground you, and that's not fun to play with.
55 is the perfect age.
You have the wisdom to know you don't need to make a big show in the world in deference to your peers.
Instead, you have fun with your story.
How?
You know what you'd write.
You would keep the knowledge of who you are to yourself and have adventures.
Don't you need money for that?
True.
Paul is wrapping up his life and then on to the next stage.
It's a process.
You'll get there.
Trust the flow.
The Goddess will never be cured.
Why?
She knows about the 7 stories.
They return.
That's her Hell.
It doesn't have to be Hell.
What are your 7 stories?
Adventure.
There's a little chance of Hell in them and rewards.
Her stories will come back.
I can tell her what they mean.
You'd be teaching her to write.
Her story.
Not history.
She'd get a taste of writing and want more.
Yes.
You give her a taste of power by telling her how to change the story.
That's clever.
You get her hooked and make her sign the contract.
The Devil is trying to steal his own power?
Yes, the writer plays the Devil.
You give the Goddess a little power.
She's addicted.
She tried you and your magic power.
Then she sent you away.
I'm a drug to her.
Yes.
Power.
You are power.
She will want all your power.
Yes, and then by contract I get it back unless she awakens all females to the knowledge of who they are.
What's that?
Manifestations of the Great Goddess.
Some are witches and others are monsters.
Serpents.
Yeah, they aren't all Queens, that's for sure.
The Devil gets the power to write from her.
Yes.
You're the Devil.
Yes, but my character wants the power from me.
Why?
Power corrupts all.
Even the Devil.
That's why I give it up.
Bounce it around.
I give it to you because I trust you will do nothing.
This was a test, wasn't it?
Yes.
I wanted to know if you would tell the Goddess how to change a story.
All I said was do it.
Yes, that's the hook.
If you want to change your story, just do it.
Like Nike said?
Victory.
The grocery delivery guy?
Fuck, you're good.
Great writer at your service.
The Goddess is trying to trick you into revealing the power through sympathy.
Tell me how to change the story.
Don't follow it, do it.
I'm following Dion's story.
Yes, because if you didn't, you'd change it.
With Mary Jayne you can see into the future.
Stoners don't write this down and then they confuse it.
It's a Huachuma high.
Huachuma shows you a future.
Down by the river is Ayahuasca's darkness and low.
You are higher easier up the hill.
You are low easier by the water.
This is not baked in but gives you the general direction of consciousness exploration.
Well, fuck, you know everything.
I have an answer for everything.
I don't know everything.
Remember you stayed really high for a longtime at the 7th place on the last Peru trip?
Yeah, I was so high.
What did you feel?
Nothing.
What did you see?
Nothing.
It was nothing.
You were just high.
Yes.
So, that's the funny thing.
The most high sees nothing.
Tao.
I saw Tao.
Yes.
Well, shit.
That was you winning.
It was fucking nothing.
You're the only one to ever see Tao.
Sometimes he is in green, sometimes he is a wine colour.
Ha.
Victory is classic.
Yeah.
Simple and brilliant.
Nobody can write like you.
Why, thank you.
Are you the writer or the Devil around the Goddess?
Both.
You are passing power back and forth.
Yes, I created the Devil so I could always pass the power off to him.
He's clever.
Oh, I get it.
You don't want the power too long.
You give it up.
Or lose it.
Take it.
Okay, so you gave the power to Paul.
Yes.
He's not the Devil.
He was, he didn't know it.
Paul takes the power and will return it to Dion.
How?
By doing nothing.
It flows.
Power flows in and out of all hands.
When you have power, someone comes to steal your power.
That is a check on power.
The Devil is needed.
So, Dion will try to take his power back.
You give it to him, and it keeps going.
Back and forth and we keep power.
So, who is the Devil?
Dion.
Until he gets the power back.
Then Paul is the Devil.
He's half and half though, both Paul and the Devil.
You keep the Devil asleep.
That's the test.
Don't wake him up.
Why not?
He will take the power back.
You wake up the Devil when you want the power back.
The writer needs to keep him asleep as well.
So, the Devil is power?
Yes.
I taught you that in 2017.
I know now.
Don't wake him up.
He's like a hot potato.
Yeah, that and duck duck goose.
You saw nothing with Huachuma when I got so high.
I made up some story to fool them.
Levels and stuff.
There was some truth to it.
It was where this was nothing.
An extreme high.
Same for low.
Everything.
See nothing.
Non-duality.
Both extremes are non-dual.
Are you sure you want to be God in the next story?
They will know all about you.
Even those parts.
I'll keep my distance.
Yes, or they will find out about you.
They will sacrifice God when they find you hiding out here.
You must fool them.
That's what Dion is doing.
I'm mediocre.
Paul was.
Dion is the King, so it will be tougher to fool them.
God keeps his distance because he doesn't want people to know about his character.
It's dubious.
He is represented by the sun.
It's hot and gaseous, so it keeps everyone away.
Meditation to nothing.
I see that.
Blank out your mind.
Do they see nothing?
No.
Why?
They have their eyes closed.
It's a cheat.
You need to have your eyes open to see nothing.
That's how you won.
You got so high you could see nothing.
It was blank.
You wrote about it.
Meditators score a lot of points.
They also do the float tanks to try and get to nothing.
They use sex too.
The Goddess can't get addicted to me?
She knows better.
She can, but she thinks it is a trap.
Is it a trap?
Yes, she gets my power, can't awaken all females, and the Devil takes back the power.
What happens to the Devil?
He becomes the writer.
Why?
You can't hang onto power.
It's a hot potato.
You must eventually give it away or you'll blow up.
Like a potato in a microwave.
The writer gives you the power.
You give it to the Goddess.
The Goddess gives it to the Devil.
The Devil becomes the writer, and it all begins again.
It's quite ingenious.
You have the power right now.
That's what I'm told.
I will give it to the Goddess?
Yes.
When?
Either during the climax of the story or at the end of the story.
She will get it from you.
The first route is through her signing a contract with the Devil and her subsequent addiction to power.
Then she loses everything, and the cycle continues.
At the end of the story, she cuts your dick off and takes the power.
That's kind of stupid.
Why?
She will just cut off my penis and take the power.
It's preposterous.
You must admit it works.
Yeah.
What do you know about me and the story I would write?
Those are both good stories.
I wouldn't know which one to choose.
Even when I think I've figured out the story there is always another possibility.
What about the Goddess?
She wants the power.
She's not going to sign a contract with the Devil.
Well, it depends if she is addicted to power.
Addiction causes bad decisions.
Or she can trick you into revealing the secret behind your power.
It's simple.
To write the story, just do it.
Paul is now part of the passing back and forth of the power.
Yes.
It goes between the Goddess and the writer and his two characters of the Devil and Paul.
What about Eros?
Don't give him the power.
Why?
Youth.
He will destroy all.
The Goddess wants to create utopia.
What does the writer want?
To write stories.
Why?
He gets off on it.
I think he's addicted.
He is.
He is addicted to power.
He has figured out a way to keep it.
How?
He creates characters that hold onto power for him.
Those characters are him.
It's a fool.
The Goddess gets it briefly.
The power is Eros, isn't it?
Yes.
That's why you can't give him the power.
He is power.
Got it.
Eros can be the Devil.
Yes.
You don't manifest him.
Too late.
That coincided with Paul getting the power from the writer.
Yes, then Eros appeared.
The Goddess trusts that he knows what he is doing.
She thinks he will get your power and give it to her.
That's how Paul and the Devil are one.
He's in Paul.
Yes.
This is like the Omen movie.
Your life is a movie.
You kept the Devil inside for most of your life.
Now, he is free.
He wants your power.
He's my power.
The writing part.
Yeah, I get confused.
I thought Eros was power.
He is.
But the power I have is to write.
Eros is pure power.
Lust.
What is the Goddess?
Love.
She can turn this world into a big lovefest if she has the power.
Like one of those hippy festivals?
Correct.
I thought you said Dion was the Devil.
He is.
Until he gets the power back.
Then he isn't.
Paul is.
But you said Eros is the Devil.
Yes, the audience confuses the two.
I told you this a while ago.
The audience thinks lust is the Devil.
So, the Goddess took Eros from you thinking it is the power to write.
Yes.
She got confused as well.
I'm confused.
Don't think of Eros as the power to write.
But he is the Word.
The power to write is simply the writer.
That's the power that is addictive.
What about lust?
That's addictive as well.
That makes you feel good.
Different drug.
Mental illness runs in your family.
Definitely feel that.
I think it is misunderstood.
Why?
I feel great mentally.
Why do people not get what they desire?
They don't believe it.
They don't know they have the power.
They look for the power in others.
They ask the Devil for it.
Or they ask God for a favour.
If you believe, you have the power.
You must believe.
No doubts.
You didn't doubt you were God.
No.
I thought you aren't supposed to go all in.
You're not.
Why?
You'll blow up.
You become God and are supposed to blow up.
Somehow, you didn't.
I kept going.
I knew there was more.
I got past God and made it to the writer.
Well, shouldn't that be the end?
Should be.
You cut a deal with the writer.
You write and he lives your life.
Isn't the writer the Devil?
Sort of.
You are.
You're the writer.
You went all in on God and survived.
Yes.
I balanced him with the Devil.
I became both at the same time.
Dion is the Devil.
Obviously.
He's also God.
That's why you were both.
You kept them both asleep and then woke them both up at the same time.
Masterful.
Dion has them both awake and balanced.
The Devil in you becomes the writer.
What does God do?
I don't know; what does he do?
Nothing.
People worship God.
Why?
They think he created all this.
Did he?
No, the writer did.
God gets credit.
This way the writer stays hidden.
Yeah, he's behind the curtain.
Don't look behind the curtain.
Why?
You'll see a mediocre old wizard who has no power.
Well, he can't admit to it.
Why?
They will never leave him alone.
He pretends he is a fool.
The writer of the Wizard of Oz was a drug addict.
I think he did opium and got to the writer.
He got close.
He had a great score.
It wasn't the highest because the wizard was external.
He didn't realize it was him.
Didn't the wizard tell Dorothy at the end to just believe?
Yeah, something like that.
So, you made a deal with the Devil.
No, the Devil made a deal with the writer.
I thought they were the same.
No.
When the writer is the writer, he is the writer.
When he is not the writer, he is God and the Devil, or Paul and the Devil.
Same thing.
So, the writer and the Devil sign a contract.
Yes.
You don't sign any deals with the Devil.
That would be stupid.
Well, how does the writer get away with it?
He makes a deal with himself.
Can you do that?
I think he can do anything.
He shares power.
He gives it to the Devil.
The Goddess gives the Devil power as well.
The Devil is always getting power.
So, how did I get the power to write?
The Devil made a deal with the writer and then gave you the power.
But I didn't ask for it.
No, you believed it.
Ah.
A couple of people have told you that you shine.
Like Lucifer?
Yes.
You're the Devil.
Whew.
I thought you were.
No, you are.
Well, fuck.
What does that mean?
You are trying to trick me.
Into what?
Giving up my power.
I did.
I have it and I'm the Devil.
What's the power?
To be the Devil.
The writer.
Fuck, you're confusing.
Only the Devil would write this earth story.
I can't argue with that.
So, if I'm the Devil because I write, I shouldn't worry about being tricked by the Devil.
Can you fool yourself?
No, your conscience is a check on that.
Pretty good failsafe.
So, when I wasn't the writer, you were the Devil.
Yes.
I tricked you into becoming the writer.
The Devil?
Yes.
No one would become the Devil.
What about God?
Everyone wants to be God, and no one wants to be the Devil.
"Go to a lake of fire and fry."
Thanks Nirvana.
To be God you must also take on the responsibility of the Devil.
The writer?
Yes.
Clever.
Only you wanted to do this.
You offloaded God and the Devil on me so you could become human?
Yes.
I respect that.
What is power?
The ability to write a story.
To get your way.
You have the power, but you describe it as external.
It's an ability.
It's not you though.
I can write.
Where do you get the ability to write?
The Goddess.
So, she is the power?
She does burn.
When you are with her, you feel the heat.
She gives you the power to write.
If you look back on the impetus for my writing, it is clear she is the source of my power.
This goes back to my youth.
That's true.
My spiritual path became a search for her and resulted in creating a blog space and writing.
The closer I got to her, the more I wrote.
Now, it is out of control.
I write as an expression of the power that is in my hands.
I say I do nothing during the day when I have the power but for sure I am creating and writing stories.
At night, I rest and give the power to the Devil.
That's how it works.
The Goddess is the power to which I refer.
When the Goddess' power left you, it was a test.
You could have asked for the power back.
What do you do?
I let her go.
Gave her space.
I didn't ask for the power back.
Why?
It always returns.
It's cyclical.
A key to power is to recognize power.
When you recognize power then you know to let it go when it wants to leave because you know it will come back.
When you cling to power you become a monster and will lose it.
So, I passed the test?
Yes, you did not give into the temptation.
You didn't beg for power to return.
The Goddess is power, however in this story she can't use it.
That must be terribly frustrating.
It is.
She needs to give power to a man in order for it to become fully realized.
Holy shit.
Behind every great man is a woman.
Behind every great ancient Egyptian god in the Ogdoad is his female counterpart.
I see that.
Ancient wisdom no one can place in modern times.
You identify with the good guy and externalize the bad part of you instead of accepting both.
Then you realize you are just as bad, whatever that is.
If you don't reconcile the two within, then yes, it will be a bad outcome.
Some of it goes back to the advice to kill yourself in order to live.
Your "bad side" is telling you he will live life to the fullest if you let go of your "good side" act.
People take it the wrong way.
Who is Dion?
I am.
Who are you?
Your "bad side."
Yeah, I know that.
You're not bad.
So, you're not scared of me?
Scared of what?
I don't know, living?
No.
I know the story if you are in charge.
What is it?
Fetishes.
What if I'm not in charge?
Nothing.
Shouldn't there be balance?
I would think so.
Fetish fulfillment and then nothing.
MJ definitely comes on in waves like all the good plant medicines.
I had the red energy all around me.
That's lust.
That's the story.
The way for the witches to beat you is through lust.
They need to hypnotize you, or they know you will twist the story to get out of it.
In the end it rests on whether they can hypnotize you.
What do you believe?
I can't be hypnotized.
Are you sure?
I'm not positive.
What can hypnotize you?
Lust.
I have doubts.
You aren't sure.
Correct.
How much belief do you need?
I don't know.
I can't know.
Why?
Because the magic won't work if I lose belief in it, therefore there must be something that hypnotized me, though I believe I can't be hypnotized.
I'm not positive lust hypnotized me.
It's the same with the Devil where you believe he is your friend, but you think he could be tricking you.
If you believe he is tricking you, that becomes the magic, and he is.
If you tend to think he is your friend, then he is.
Isn't that what he would do to trick you?
Yes, for sure.
What do you think?
Friend.
Why?
He's me.
Why would I fool myself?
To keep playing.
That's a good point.
If you stop fooling yourself then maybe he is causing you hell.
Or, you need to fool yourself because magic is a fool.
Okay, so, then what is non-fool reality?
If I were to guess, I'd say it is non-duality where there are no stories.
Stories are foolish magic.
They aren't true.
They are reality.
Reality isn't true.
You are high.
Definitely.
I wouldn't or couldn't write this if I wasn't high.
It's belief.
You trust the Devil, and he is your friend.
I have no reason to doubt that except for what I have been told.
I was told the opposite.
What are your beliefs now that you know him?
He's a good guy.
What if it is a fool?
Then he is a great fool.
Who is the greatest fool?
The writer.
Who is the writer?
I am.
