go with the flow

Wake up and know.

Never lose who you are again.

It's a key to the question of eternal life.

We all have eternal life because we are all part of the mind at large.

The mind at large is everything.

This splinters into infinity and the result is creation.

It's a cycle.

Is it a personal cycle?

What do you mean?

It's always present where the vibration just is, and the concept of time fools us into thinking it comes and goes.

The vibration is both at once.

It is infinite and it is all.

We create a timeline and plot out a continuous cycle of coming and going.

We walk the eternal path of the great vibration.

The path exists in its fullness and completeness.

It doesn't need time to unfold.

It already is it.

I haven't been high for a month.

Well, you are awake.

You aren't going back to sleep.

You'd have to short circuit your brain in order to do that.

How would I do that?

A lobotomy or incapacitating drugs.

Gotcha.

Now that you know, you have eternal life.

You always had eternal life, but the lapse in awareness of who you are creates the impression you are a one off.

Yeah, most people are convinced they are a random occurrence and are desperate for some kind of afterlife.

The fraudsters and tricksters among us use that to their advantage and create institutions that will grant the desperate among us eternal life.

Have you ever examined religious institutions?

Yes.

What do you see?

They are ungodly wealthy.

It's a good business they have going.

You don't need them.

All you must do is wake up.

Once awake, you will see.

Nobody knows this though.

I know some people have awakened.

How come they don't know this?

Power.

When you wake up the fear gets most, and they go back to sleep.

If they keep going, they get clarity.

When you get clarity, you see you are in control.

That's power.

The temptation is too much, and they don't move past power.

If you can manage that, you see it all.

Don't you see death?

Yes.

Doesn't that scare you?

It's tough.

At the outset of the journey the expectation is you will live to be a wise elder and go gracefully into the night.

Instead, death knocks on your door.

People start dying around you.

My dog died.

I wondered if life was worth it.

It was a tsunami of sadness and death and then externally and internally you are told it is time to go.

Oscillation describes the continuous cycle that powers the world.

The flow returns all to balance through oscillation.

When the alternating current comes to a stop, all is one again.

Non-duality.

There is nothing.

If you do nothing, you will return to nothing.

When you do something, everything comes apart in duality and the story plays out.

The story is part of the flow.

The flow consists of doing something and doing nothing.

The flow is created by doing something.

Doing nothing will return the flow to its state of nothing.

The flow is nothing.

The flow is put in motion by something.

All is the flow.

The watercourse teaches that energy will seek the path of least resistance.

The flow is lazy.

The flow is smart.

The flow just is.

Why would you go against the flow?

Because you are struggling to tell your story.

You want to be greater than the story.

You want to deliver an outstanding performance in order to be recognized.

Who do you want to be recognized by?

The writer of the story.

Why?

To be ensured you will get a part in the next story.

Is he going to write another story after this one ends?

Yes, he will write the 7th story.

Those who have been granted eternal life by the writer want in the 7th story.

In the 6th story, he wrote that the elites figured out a way to live forever, however they are trapped in the 6th story.

It's hell.

That story ended and they are trapped in it.

They can't leave and they roam around the universe in their rocket ships looking for civilization.

So, the 6th story doesn't end?

It will end, however some actors are trapped in it.

Who is in the 7th story?

Dogs, Paul, Hitler, and Trump for sure.

That's quite the list.

My friends will be there and my adversaries as well.

Pretty much anyone I know.

I'll write a good story, incorporating some elements from the previous stories.

All writers do this, though they must make it fresh.

The character of Paul will be God, won't he?

I don't like plans.
Why?
It's a trap.
Everything is constantly changing; therefore, you go with the flow.
The flow doesn't make plans.
The flow adapts to each situation with grace.

I am thinking about what people do with their time.
Why?
It seems meaningless.
If that's what you want.
You can do something that has meaning.
That involves being of service or improving your own self.
Both of those activities make you feel good.
Are they rewarding?
If you think so, yes.
You can fool yourself into thinking that.
What if the best thing for someone in this lifetime is to suffer?
What if that is the catalyst towards them waking up?
You come along and help them, so they don't suffer as much.
You prevent them from waking up, which will get them off the ceaseless cycle of coming and going.
Suffering is most likely their ticket out of here.
What if they like it here?
Then they will be attracted to another ride on the merry-go-round.
That seems like a gamble.
Certainly.
You could respawn in a third world country, go to war, or be a subjugated woman.
Maybe you'll be born in Saskatchewan to a nice middle class family.
You have no say.
It's the flow.
The flow will give you what you need, not what you want.
I thought the flow just flows?
It does.
The flow for everyone will lead to your awakening if you let it.

Am I wasting time?
Does it feel like that?
Sometimes.
I have noticed I get up in the morning and don't really contribute anything to life.
You write about it.
I do spend a large chunk writing about my predicament.
Does that have value?
No one reads it.
What if they did?
It's the most valuable thing in the world.
Why?
It will lead to your awakening.
What will that get you?
Eternal life.

Why are you more creative with Mary Jayne?

Creativity is a flow state.

MJ puts you in the flow.

You are amazing teachers.

The curriculum is impeccable.

When you do, do it impeccably.

MJ teaches you to flow.

All the spiritual outfits know it.

They teach the flow.

Then they go against it when they get power.

What does MJ lead to?

Waking up in the flow.

I was on my way.

She puts you in it.

People go to the sauna and cold plunges to reset.

They try and get back in the flow.

They know the flow is where they want to be.

They never stay in the flow.

They get power, use it, and it causes an imbalance.

Why would I resist MJ?

Because you are in the flow.

She took you to the flow and you separated.

MJ takes you to the flow, but she doesn't stay.

Why?

She will stone you.

If you stay with the Goddess, the story ends.

Adventure happens away from her and then trying to get back to her.

Once you get her, you must let her go or the story stops.

What about MJ?

Take a break.

Get out of balance a bit.

She leads you back to balance.

You aren't constantly high.

Fuck, no.

You know balance.

That's the key to addiction.

Yes, MJ stones.

With all potential addictions you let them lead you down the path to addiction and then you resist them.

You mean do nothing.

Yes.

That's the resistance.

Doing nothing.

Lao Tzu was a drug addict.

He tells you how to use them to uncover the mystery and then how to not let it be your doom.

You ride the flow to the writer.

You become the writer.

You do nothing.

You see, to win the game of flow is to do nothing.

I did nothing.

You won.

I figured I won.

What am I doing now?

Nothing.

Fucking around.

Getting old.

Playing with others.

I see.

Lao Tzu was a heavy drug addict who figured out the game.

He told everyone the secret.

No one practiced what he preached until you came along.

A do nothing asshole, and you win.

Those who know Tao, don't speak about Tao.

That would be doing something.

They write about it.

Lao Tzu gives you the clue to who it is you are looking for.

Those who know Tao, write about it.

Holy fuck.

The couple hours in the woods are priceless.

monsters and the devil

Do you believe your story?

Yes.

Then that's all you need to do.

You are the chief fool.

It's because I'm a genuine fool, that's the secret.

If you aren't genuine, then you can only fool them for so long.

If you live with them, they will figure you out quicker.

I don't stand out in a crowd until they take a second look.

If they take the bait on second look then they get hooked.

They run my profile through their head and think finally they have landed the big fish when I was the one fishing.

It's a game of "go fish" where you want to be the fisherman.

Fisherperson.

Once hooked things start to unravel.

The only thing unravelling are their expectations and projections.

They thought they'd have control of me and then they saw it was not possible.

I think that's a good summary.

Mary Jayne is coming on strong.

It's Dion.

He's taking over.

The Devil has tricked you and will take you over.

Do you become a killer?

Crazy?

Offender?

You're powerless to stop him.

Yes.

If he takes over in your youth, then you get a bad result.

You must wait until later in life when people start to think of retiring.

You gave power to your darkness.

Others are preparing for old age and death.

I'm different.

I'm wise.

I have a container I put things in.

Experiences I can handle.

I handle all this and get the meaning behind everything.

If you take too much, you'll get a really dark meaning to everything.

I see Dion and the writer behind the meaning.

It's not dark.

It's a story within the flow.

A strong wind hit me.

The wind is like the darkness where it is conjured up out of nowhere.

The wind just blows in.

You can't handle dark Dionysos in your youth.

He will turn you dark.

You wait for the older Dionysos.

Youthful Dionysos is a little much.

The rambunctious males will choose the younger Dionysos.

I waited and chose the older version even though he constantly pressured you.

You waited.

I passed the test though I always had him in me.

He's too devilish in your youth.

Now, he is refined.

More of a fool.

Young men aren't fooling anyone.

You can fool.

You mean you, not me.

You're in charge.

I'm watching it go down.

I'm not going against my conscience.

I have a sense of my moral limits.

Yeah, they are good.

It makes a strong container for Dionysos.

In your youth you haven't figured out your conscience limits.

It's easier for the darkness to take over.

Altering consciousness in your youth gets you to these questions before your time.

You got to them in your wise years.

The sirens are blowing.

I know I'm out there.

So, in your youth Dion is the Devil?

Yes.

What is he later in life?

A cool dude.

There's an understanding now.

You are two, and you take turns with Paul.

You always struggle with the two and you stay in balance with that method.

This lesson could be scary.

You handle all these classes.

You still have the Devil in you.

Yes, it's me.

You can handle it, so here I am.

You are the writer.

I'm a character.

Only the writer is the writer.

Creator.

Everything you do is right because the writer is you.

Yes, I know, but I don't see what he writes until it happens in the now and by then it's in the past.

The magic of the pen is writing in the future.

Yes.

Do scientists and witches know this?

Yes.

They can't get there.

Only the writer can be in the future.

Why?

That's what he wrote.

Of course, it's the writer.

Who tops the writer?

Not the Devil.

Doesn't the Goddess have the idea?

Yes.

She doesn't top me, we are balanced.

Eros is the idea in the future.

She has Eros.

You write it down.

This whole idea is Eros?

Yes.

He's nothing without parents.

His parents come after him.

Yes, he is out of control.

No, I mean there is Eros and then chronologically his parents come afterwards.

Yes, he's from the future.

To get to the future you must become your desire.

Yes, so some witches get to the future with lust.

What do you get to?

The goat.

Women are trying to take that power from you.

What?

The power to write.

Emasculation.

True.

They do it by going into the future.

You hang out with Eros in the future.

They know how to get there and take your lust.

You are sure this is the writer and not the Devil?

Pretty sure.

Not positive?

Never go all in.

I learned that lesson.

Unless you want the game to end, then go all in.

In the ritual I confused Dionysos and Eros.

A lot of people do so when they are young.

You still do when you are older, but you see it.

Yeah, it's funny but it works for a man.

Whenever Dion appears, it is with Eros.

It's a fool.

That's why you saw a goat.

I get that.

You two work together.

We are friends.

Best friends.

Touching moment in the story.

Your best friend has been captured by an evil witch.

What will you do?

Nothing.

Our friendship has no expectations.

Eros will trust I write a story for two best friends.

The dog story.

Yes.

You two.

With Luna and Brindle.

Yes, us 4.

I see where this is heading and it's uncomfortable.

Alright, you 4 can be human.

Got it.

Still a little weird.

You must decide between Luna and Brindle.

Both.

You're good.

The best.

What about the Goddess?

She is the queen bitch.

Jack, as Eros, hooks me up with the two dogs.

Got it.

Won't that piss off the Goddess?

She is used to it.

Plus, she trusts it will work out in the end.

So does Eros, and you made a dog world to celebrate.

How does the Goddess get what she wants in this scenario assuming you are also making her wait 7 universes before she gets her way?

The queen bitch will divorce you and take everything you have in the settlement, including your pen.

You must legally give it to her.

Then she writes her boring story.

The end.

Well, that is spiteful.

Yes.

That's misogynistic.

No, she gets what she wants.

She's greedy and wants what I have.

She wanted the idea and the pen.

She wanted Eros and my pen.

She gets both in the end but in order to create an unselfish and unified DEI world she had to be a selfish and greedy bitch.

Um, but you two love each other?

Yes, despite her calling me a dragon.

We keep up the interest with the conflict.

If not, we would have ignored each other for 7 universes.

That's a good guess as she is stubborn.

She took your best friend.

Eternal return.

He always comes back.

I trust that cycle.

The writer of the drama who gave me the pen wants to know what kind of a writer I am and at the same time make me realize what he went through as the writer.

He has to write suffering and death into the story.

You can wave a magic wand or pen and delay the suffering, however it's coming for all of us.

The writer, or his alter ego the Devil, gets blamed for it all.

The writer is shielded; it's the Devil who takes the blame.

Yes, so now that you have that power, what do you think?

I feel compassion for you.

You feel compassion for the Devil because you can't avoid suffering.

The story bakes suffering for all into our life story.

You can't go through life and not suffer.

Ram Dass talked about suffering and said it's all perfect.

What else can you say?

Do you think life is great or not?

If you say life is precious, then you must accept suffering as perfect.

If you think life is a waste of time, then suffering is abhorrent.

What a way to spend your time.

You are wasting time suffering.

That's Hell.

That's what the Devil creates for people who think life isn't precious.

If you wish suffering on people, then you'll eventually suffer in Hell.

You'll suffer because Hell is the place you go to when you think life isn't precious.

Holy fuck, Dion.

Perfect suffering.

It truly was and I thanked her for it.

The Goddess tested you out to see if you think she is a monster.

I wrote that I tamed her.

Only you can tame her.

Everyone else wants her to go.

I broke her spell and tamed the monster.

That's how you become God and are worshipped.

When you tame her, the bad stuff stops.

It's all part of the story.

You tame her by believing she isn't a monster.

That's all she needs.

A mom isn't a monster.

Or a woman looking for a mate.

Or wanting a perfect world.

A monster would have killed you.

Or tried.

You wrote it was the best thing that happened to you.

Yeah, I tamed her.

She tried to apologize, and you thanked her.

What a writer!

She's no monster.

She wants to write she's a monster.

Yes, she wants your pen because she wants to write she's a monster, but you won't let her.

That's the story and how you justify in your head everything that happened were well-timed coincidences.

I'll buy that.

They were synchronicities telling the story of her wanting recognition as a terrible monster and you refusing to acknowledge and write it.

She'd send you pictures of her as a monster expecting you'd write about how she's a monster.

I wrote she's a witch but not a monster.

There's a difference.

Good witch, bad witch.

Are there good monsters?

No, by definition a monster is terrible.

I then made her a mother which fulfills the monster requirement in that they become monsters to protect their child.

I fulfilled her need to be a monster through motherhood.

Okay, I can see how these stories are addicting.

They are crazy, yet you want more of them.

Yes, so you know you shouldn't be doing this, but you want another hit of stories.

I can feel that.

Aren't you worried you are getting addicted?

No, I think you must experience why you would get addicted, so you have knowledge of what addicts you, and then you work with that knowledge.

I know to dial down the dosage from the weekend.

I know I'm not doing a lot, but I can simulate a high dose while still having some semblance of control and by control, I mean not going over the edge.

It's important to be given the freedom to climb the mountain and it's also important to know when you are at the top of the mountain or the pyramid.

Another step on the top of the mountain or pyramid and you go tumbling down the other side.

That's your end.

So, within the container of the mountain or pyramid you climb up and down the side of the mountain and that allows you to continue in the game.

The other side doesn't have a path.

You can't climb it.

There's a way into and out of the labyrinth.

If you stay in the game, you still must follow the path to victory.

If you get lost in the maze, then you'll get beat.

Won't you get tired of the same path?

No, because you can venture off the path as long as you remember how to get back on the path.

How do you do that?

The container and dosage.

A higher dosage will get you lost because you left the container.

What happens initially with psychedelics?

You get into the labyrinth.

Why don't you get lost?

Some do but a competent shaman or guide will know the dosage and guide you.

You need a shaman with Ayahuasca who takes you into the labyrinth, you follow their songs on a journey, and then they bring you back out.

That's what a shaman can do for you.

Without the shaman, you will eventually get lost.

Do you see how an addiction in this case would work?

Yes, you keep going further into the mind until you are totally lost and can't get back out.

You end up looking for a story that will show you the way out.

You think you are going to get that story.

You have hope but then it turns to despair, and you realize you will never get out of the labyrinth.

Then the minotaur comes to devour you.

That seems like a bad outcome.

It's the result of addiction.

Addiction will get you lost in your mind, and you can't get out.

Some fall off the edge.

What happens if you seek help?

The therapist can hypnotize you into staying away from the addiction, but they can't cure it.

Relapse is always a possibility because you know you are not right, and you know to stay away from the addiction.

It is always calling to you.

It's a siren.

The siren beckons you.

The siren tells you they know the way out, so you always follow the siren.

When you follow the siren, it is to your doom.

What's the deal with that?

The siren is giving you the clue to get out.

You don't go to the siren.

You wake the fuck up.

You mean go back to sleep.

Yes, you snap out of it.

The mind you have entered into is the state of being fully awake, however you can't function that way in this world.

You must know how to go back to sleep.

You mean ground yourself.

Yes.

Like the woman at SpiritQuest showed you.

Yes, she told you to go into a flow state and ground yourself when you get too far out there.

That's her method.

I use sirens.

Plus, you have a container.

If you ever take too much, remember to find the sirens.

I use surveillance and paranoia as well.

That'll do; whatever snaps you out of it.

It's like snapping your fingers.

I used that trick to get past the darkness of Ayahuasca.

Yes, you'd go into the darkness and scare yourself until you started snapping your fingers and coming back.

Then you got past the block of the darkness in Ayahuasca ceremonies.

A monster wouldn't get rid of your ball and chain.

She'd want you to suffer in perpetuity for what you did.

She'd make you go back and take your punishment.

I haven't had any punishment, rather I enjoy it.

I'm not suffering at all.

The monster can't make me suffer anymore.

Why?

Because she made me suffer, tried to get rid of me, I saw her for who she is, and I'll play with her, but I won't get too close to where she can make me suffer again.

How are you going to do that?

Oh, I'm not going to do it, Dion will.

He doesn't get attached.

Attachment leads to suffering.

He knows all the tricks to prevent you doing something stupid like giving a monster your heart.

That monster will devour your heart every time.

You can't give the ancient Egyptian eater of the heart Ammit your heart.

So, what do you do?

You can do anything you want with the Goddess as Ammit, just don't give her your heart.

If you give her your heart, she will devour it.

It's the weight of your heart not the size.

If you have a heavy heart because of suffering, Ammit the monster will devour your heart as it sinks lower.

If you are light-hearted she can't touch you.

How do you become light-hearted?

You don't take life seriously.

You don't take love seriously.

You remember to play.

It's all play.

It's all a play.

Curtain drop.

Is that like a mic drop?

Sort of, but the curtain is the end.

A mic drop is a power move but doesn't signal the end.

addiction

I'm addicted to writing.
I'm addicted to writing about how I'm not addicted to anything.
I'm addicted to the idea of being addicted though I stay vigilant against addiction.

The way addiction will work is you associate the feeling with the perceived cause.
What about Mary Jayne in terms of addiction?
You mean associating altered mind states with her?
Yes.
It's definitely possible.
I have a relationship with Tobacco as well.
There are different catalysts to mind states.
For example, on Wednesday I plan to take a day off from hanging out with MJ.
The renewal is always good for the relationship.
Distance increases attraction.
Togetherness leads to feelings of separation.
That's very wise.
I'm a wizard.
When you are with someone eventually you long to get away from them.
Tobacco will bring you to a novel mind state.
So, will lust.
You can generate lust without MJ.
It's more fun with her.
Do you have different catalysts of mind states, so you are not dependent on MJ?
Yes, I have a bunch, and I combine them with MJ.
Music changes mood and so does eating.

Today, the sirens have turned into some kind of mind disrupter.
Weird sound.
It's a warning about the crossing of the threshold.
I'm a little out there I admit.
The sirens are distant, so it's all good.
A different dose of MJ and a different sound.
I'll start reducing the dose of MJ tomorrow.
I have hung out here for four days.
It's like a camping trip.
It's like a cycle of work with Ayahuasca where after four ceremonies it's diminishing returns as it takes you to the edge.
It can be dangerous.

The winds of your mind are fired up.
There goes a branch coming down across the river.
Sirens, then wind.
Don't listen to those sirens, Odysseus, or they will send you crashing into the rocks.
I hear them but don't follow.
It's an addiction.
Sirens are denoting addiction.
You hear them in the distance.
Got it.
Don't go towards them.
It's a different way to warn you about addiction.
Homer issued his warning.
Lotus eaters.
Temptresses.
Seducers.
Circe and her magic.
Do you think Homer was warning about the perils of drugs?
He compared them to women and wrote an epic.
Was Homer a user?
Clearly, he couldn't break the addiction, however he wrote a warning.
Odysseus was the hero who could break the addiction.
Do you think it was opium?
I think the drugs were narcotics and he got trapped in an adventure of the mind for quite a while.
Finally, he broke free.
Homer's position would be the Greek civilization was reality, and drugs were an escape or casting a veil over the world.

The four rocks of your mind are accessed through MJ.
Without her, they are lessened.
To get back to ego dissolution, you need MJ.
If you remain in that state, you are addicted.
That's how it would work.
You want to stay in that state or the opposite where you are trapped in the ego if you are addicted.
No MJ and you are addicted to this world and the superego.
You must juggle the two.
Picking one is hypnosis.
This could be a way to get me hooked on MJ.
It is.
However, you know how to play and not get hypnotized.
Trust.
Do your teachers lie?
They tell half-truths.
No, half true stories.
There's a difference.
The lessons are all on the up and up.

The sirens in the city would drive an addict mad.
They'd need the drug to get rid of the sirens.
That's how they work.
They call to you and sometimes it's so loud you must give in.
Addicts move to a quiet place where they can't hear the sirens.
The bad drugs are sirenas and sirenos.
Got it.
That's a good reveal.
I'm always being taught.
Yes, just stay open to being taught by the smallest things.

If you are addicted to the ego state, shouldn't you hear sirens?
Yes, when the ego's hypnosis is threatened you should hear sirens.
You must discern between the sirens.
Right, the ringing in my head is related to coming back down into the ego mind.
You got it.

When you see you can't be hypnotized despite the repeated attempts, it becomes a game.
Hypnosis is the basis for all games.
In the forest a big predator will take down a small prey.
That's a game of strength.
In the human game of predator and prey, the victor must be more cunning.
They win the mind game and convince you that you are prey.
The way in is to hypnotize you and plant that idea in your head.
They'll soften you up first with a couple jabs before the final uppercut.
Since you know you are the apex mind predator, you don't need to participate in their game.
You make it your game and play along with them.
Your idea of a great game is a game that lasts a long time.
Yes, keep the game going and all parties interested.
You must let them win a few.
Well, yes, that's how you suck them into playing.
You let them win a few and they think they got this in the bag.
You feed them what they want.
Mr. Green, the ego in the movie Revolver, wanted to win.
They let him.
Then they took everything away.
In the end Mr. Green let go of Mr. Green.
Did he?
I don't know, why don't you finish watching the movie?

One day you see the magic is in the balance.
Reconciliation of the opposites.
Akhet.
You go far into the labyrinth to pull that one out of the recesses of your mind and then head back out.
If you linger, you'll get lost forever in your mind and have to pull an Odysseus to get the fuck back out.
Homer detailed how Odysseus did it.
You, a lonely pilgrim, well, I wish you luck.

I'm guessing the majority of MJ users want to be stoned.
They want to empty their minds and check out.
They know the hypnotizing dose to get them there.
You need variety to avoid that outcome.
Most don't fight it.

What do you think the planes are surveilling?
Signs of hypnosis.
They work for the scientists.
They keep an eye on you and keep you grounded.
Sirens are from the scientists as well.
Warnings.
Why did Odysseus plug his ears?
Detox, breaking the addiction.
I think he was tied to the mast and the ear plugs were for the crew.
Right.
Odysseus heard the siren call and could see what they were doing.
He broke through the addiction.
Odysseus had Penelope to come home to, so he didn't destroy himself.
It's why a man needs a woman.
They prevent you from destroying yourself.
You build them a house to get them to stay.

You are getting tired of the stories, aren't you?
I'm feeling some resistance.
Good, then you take tomorrow off.
It's the flow.
That means I'm playing this correctly.
Unless you take too much time off from the stories, then you get to nothing and are hypnotized.
So, you are saying don't go all in on Tao?
Yes, if you went all in, you'd disappear.
It's the same as blowing up.
All in on Tao is an extreme.
I thought it was balance?
Yes, therefore you can't go all in on Tao.
Practicing perfect Tao isn't Tao.
Tao teaches you to do nothing when you don't know what to do.
If you do know what to do, then do it.
Since everything defaults to Tao that's the reason you do nothing, however when it's obvious what to do, you do that.

I think we got to the root of addiction concerning you today.
What are the findings?
Substances don't addict you as you can navigate the intoxication.
Resistance to MJ is a good thing.
With addiction you mindlessly take her.
I'll trust you on this.
I've got no other choice if I wish to continue.

Ithaca is where Odysseus is King.
It is his world; his ego is large.
He goes on an adventure of the mind to see who he really is and encounters many obstacles in his mind which prevent him from returning home.
Home pulls man back into the ego and his societal responsibilities.
The superego demands man raise a family and produce heirs.
What calls a man away from his family is adventure mixed in with dangerous witches.
While he is living in his fantasy world, the family calls him back and he longs to return to Ithaca.
It's a necessary call to ensure you don't get lost at sea; sea being in your mind.
The call to adventure once again allows the man to throw off the chains of civilization.
War wrecks civilization.
Sirens call him away from the family.
There's a push and pull necessary in great men's lives to maintain balance.
Without either of these impulses, he is no longer a man.
This impulse runs through the heart of all men.
What to choose?
Do I return to fitting into what society expects of me and go back to sleep?
That was Odysseus' journey and is the expectation for all men.
Well, first is to not go on the adventure.
If you do go on the adventure the pull of society will take you back home to your family responsibilities.
I try to balance them both.
I am the master juggler after all.
What if you get to the point where you have to choose one?
I juggle both.
Eventually, you lose one or the other.
Don't you wait until then?
Until one piece stops playing?
Yes.
Then you don't make a choice.
You are just buying time to keep the juggle going.
So, you are saying the wrong choice is to make a choice.
It lines up with what you know.
You're doing what you know right now.
You're not making a choice.
What if I'm faced with a choice?
Then you lose a choice.
Making a choice is a loss in the win-loss department.
Nobody wins a choice, instead you lose a choice.
You'd have to balance the choice out with a win.
Family or adventure and witches.
Ego or who you are.
Ego isn't your story.
Your story has adventure and witches.
Yes, I see that however if I buy into that story 100% it will be my downfall.
Making a choice is your downfall.
So, what do you do?
You trust in your story.
What's my story?
What do you think it is?
I think it's where I never made a choice.
I don't know where that leads.
No, you don't but it's your story.

Odysseus' crew prevented him from returning home.
One by one they are eliminated.
The crew becomes only Odysseus and thus he is one again.
The ego king Odysseus.

What is behind the designation of a hard drug?
A hard drug is addictive and will try to destroy your mind.
It's a challenge.
They are inviting to a human who is full of hubris.
They think their mind is so strong they can handle anything.
They are the ones who go around telling you MJ isn't addictive.
They can give it up.
They are in control.
They can move on to a bigger challenge.
You are describing gateway drugs.
Yes, it's true.
The curious are looking for a bigger challenge.
The most common addiction is nicotine.
Alcohol has the highest addiction rate.
MJ is tops for illegal drug consumption.
The hard drugs are cocaine, opioids, and amphetamines.
Have you tried those?
Coca leaf.
Codeine opioids for pain relief but not a big dose.
Amphetamines in Peruvian San Pedro cactus decoctions I have drank which contain mescaline.
I'm not attracted to any of those.
I have a good idea of what they would do to me, and I already spend enough of my time writing.
I don't need to write more.
How do you feel about MJ?
The literature says it produces feelings of euphoria and sedation which I think mean bliss.
Is that your experience?
No.
My experience is a steroid for my mind which causes me to write voluminous amounts.
I can't imagine being high on MJ all day.
I like to go out of my mind once a day and take a walk in the forest.
That's enough for me.
What about Tobacco?
The shamans of the Amazon basin and Andes mountains say Tobacco is the master plant.
What do they mean by that?
A bunch of things, primarily power and protection.
What do they mean by power?
A relationship with Tobacco is a friendship.
Tobacco can give power to weaker plants that you ingest.
Tobacco will enhance your personal power.
Tobacco will protect you.
How can you prove this?
You can't.
Above all, there is friendship and trust with Tobacco.
If you can't understand this, he will be your demise.

Drugs aren't what they tell you drugs are.
Who are they?
Society.
I thought drugs make you feel good.
They can.
The numbing ones, especially if you are high strung.
The narcotics will make you relaxed to the point of not caring.
I am already relaxed and don't really care.
I have never taken things too seriously.
In my experience, drugs are a game.
They are mental challenges.
They can stone you.
That's like taking a loss.
Where do you stand?
Mary Jayne and Tobacco are my drugs of choice.
There are stigmas attached to the idea of drugs but I'm okay with it and I'm not hesitant to call my allies drugs.
They are my friends.
Aren't you deluded?
That's always a possibility, and that's how you navigate the space.
Through delusion and fear of addiction, you can sidestep the destructive aspects of drugs.
Have you ever been addicted to something?
Yes, I know the feeling.
Alcohol, sugar, caffeine, writing, and some women.
Addiction is a loss of power.
You lose control over your behaviour.
I kicked all my addictions.
Well, except for writing.
There's no way out of that one.
Yes, it's all very sinister where it was an evil plan all along to get me addicted to writing.
That way the master writer could offload his duties onto me and live my life.
Yes, it is written.
If you are going to pick an addiction, this is the one.
Why?
It's divine.

Hey Dion, what's up with the human fascination with gold?

Power.

Gold is a visual display of your status and power.

It shows others who you are and how you should be treated.

If you have a lot of gold, you will be treated like royalty.

Don't you find it strange?

Yes, just like you asking yourself questions.

Well, you are my chat box.

Instead of finding it strange, you can examine the human fascination with gold and discover many insights about your fellow humans.

The psychological expression is out in the open to be examined.

Humans are attracted to power and wealth.

We equate power and wealth with something beautiful and shiny.

The ancient Egyptians equated it with goddesses, gods, and immortality.

I guess we think we can buy a ticket to eternity with enough gold.

Well, you would need to transform yourself into gold.

How would you do that?

That's an internal alchemical process.

You'd shine.

I see.

What are you fascinated with?

I like numbers.

Yeah, but they will tire you out.

I like writing.

It's a burden after a while.

Does anything light you up permanently?

Not that I can think of.

I will indulge my desires and let them go.

They return.

I think you are getting me to see what gold is.

Yes.

What is it?

It's a hypnotic.

You can see how the process works.

You are seduced and can't let it go.

Addicted.

Gold shows you how addiction works and it's the one thing that gets all humans.

Power.

Greed.

Status.

Wealth.

All highly addictive concepts that are symbolized by gold.

Gold is the litmus test regarding addiction.

If you can let go of what it is you desire, it will return.

I know that.

If you desire eternal life, let go of life.

Yes, that's the lesson you gave me on a boat on the Amazon river when I was high on Huachuma.

You told me to kill myself in order to live.

It was 5 years ago that I got that advice and it's one of the most profound things I've ever heard, and the meaning has slowly and constantly been revealing itself.

Let go of my small ball life.

Let go of the hold I have on my character of Paul.

Give up my attachments to stories that hold me back.

Understand the cyclical nature of being; therefore, to get what you desire is to let it go.

If you hang on to something you will lose it.

Addiction will be your downfall, and you will lose everything by clinging to it.

If you give it away, it comes back.

This is Dion's time.

Yes, mine expired in February of 2024.

You gave the keys to Dion, and he took control.

That's the reason for the crazy summer of 2024.

My body had to adapt to the new driver.

You can see the result.

Well, I shouldn't be here, so I can let go of the past.

This isn't you.

It isn't.

It is but isn't.

It's still me.

I'm more my subconscious than the one you remember from most of my life.

I'm still the same.

Dion can see what others are up to.

Yeah, that's funny.

Paul was oblivious.

That was his magic.

He didn't see what others were doing and so he sailed through life.

You killed yourself in order to live.

I did.

If I hadn't, I'd be dead.

You had to kill off Paul in order to continue to live.

Yeah, Dion gave me the advice and I had to figure out a way.

Paul's now the writer in the background.

Pretty funny, eh?

Yeah.

You can see it.

I lost what kept Paul around.

There was nothing left for Paul, was there?

No.

I was done.

I felt it one night.

You could have ran screaming and fought to keep Paul around.

I let him go.

Dion took over.

It was funny watching him last summer.

People thought I had gone crazy.

Your dad couldn't figure out if it was still you.

This is fascinating.

Your greatest strength as Paul is you were oblivious to it all going down.

Now in the distance, you see it clearly.

You are marveling at it.

It would have been scary to understand the transformation as it was happening.

Paul was dying.

You had to give him up.

You did.

The best strategy for the stock market and investing in general is to do nothing.

The power to do nothing.

Financial advisors teach you that you must do something and profit off of you not knowing what to do.

It's a fool.

It takes a lot of willpower to do nothing because the pressure is constant to do something.

Doing something is your downfall.

Doing nothing will garner the best results.

Money managers are worked to the bone because they must do something to accrue gains for their clients.

They work hard and are financially rewarded.

I have found over a lifetime that the best strategy is to let others do all the work and to do nothing.

It's good advice that encompasses all aspects of life.

What about a relationship hedge because you know by experience and observation that all sexual relationships will eventually become stale.

The heady days of attraction will become repulsion.

How do you guard against that?

It's the flow.

How do you prevent it?

You want to prevent the flow?

Yes.

You shouldn't do that.

I think you can.

How?

By doing something.

What do you do?

The extreme opposite.

You sever the relationship when it is still full of attraction.

The result is you maintain a connection because you never let it die out.

That is kind of brilliant.

If you let the attraction run its course and then do something, it's the end.

Think about that.

Okay, so doing nothing followed by doing something when there is nothing left to do is not ideal.

Yes, you do nothing when there is something to do.

When there is nothing to do you can't do nothing.

Why?

You'll expire.

When there is nothing to do, you do something.

I think you are teaching me the lesson of contrarianism.

Well, you have always known it is best to be a contrarian.

Whatever the herd is doing, you should go in the opposite direction.

You need a lot of trust and resolve to do that.

You have proved yourself over and over again in your life.

You are a testament to living with the benefits of the herd and yet not following along.

There are many benefits to society.

The herd.

Yeah, it makes life comfortable.

Don't get stuck in it.

Conformity?

Yes.

You taught me the best time to do something is when things are going great.

You do the opposite.

That goes against what you are feeling.

Precisely.

You wanted a way to keep the game going.

What was the game?

Attraction.

You wanted to know how to remain attracted to the Great Goddess and not be subject to the constant cycle of divorce and reconciliation.

To put it in layman's terms, how to hack the cycle.

The cycle will always be there.

The way to minimize the effects is to separate when there is still attraction.

This way it will be easier to reunite.

That's brilliant.

It's hard to do.

Why would you leave the Goddess when things are going well?

You wouldn't.

If you want to break the long cycle, then you must do it.

Well, shit, eh?

What about life?

What are you doing now about life?

Nothing.

What will happen if you continue to do nothing?

It will work out.

Yes.

What happens at the end of life?

Your body dies.

Should I do something before that happens?

You mean end bodily existence before there is nothing to do?

Yeah.

Do you want to continue in this body?

No.

I'd like to trade it in.

Then do nothing and it will happen.

If you want to keep this body, then do something now.

Ah.

So, it's okay to do nothing?

If it works for you and you are comfortable with the result, then yes.

If you want to be separated from the Great Goddess for a long time, then let the attraction play out and then disintegrate.

I think that's what we have been doing.

Does it work?

No.

It took me a lifetime to find her again.

The answer is to find her, reestablish the attraction, and then leave.

Get back with her and then separate.

You do it in this lifetime.

You keep the long cycle of life and practice coming and going with her.

Yes, but when I'm with her, I want to drink it all in.

You can't because you will empty the chalice.

Don't empty the chalice.

She will always try to devour you.

She's a monster who is greedy.

You like to remind me of that.

Yes.

It's the attraction that keeps you returning.

You like to play with her danger.

You get your thrill and then escape.

What if she succeeds in devouring me?

She is satiated and doesn't need you.

As long as you are around, she will want you.

Don't get complacent with that woman.

Was I getting addicted to the stock market?

Yes, that's how you make it go crazy.

Like a rollercoaster.

It was an intense love affair that crashed.

Give it some space.

Got it.

So, my thoughts are writing part of the story.

Yes.

I can't help it.

No.

You're a writer.

Just be mindful of your thoughts.

Do you think there are avatars of addiction?

Like when you go over the edge of addiction?

Yeah.

The addiction materializes in your life.

That's interesting to ponder.

Your mind creates an alternate reality.

Yes.

You couldn't hold down a job.

Good point.

You'd disappear to go see her.

The addiction?

Yeah.

Right.

You'd disappear in the afternoon with MJ.

I did.

I juggled it all.

I juggled the addictive qualities of what I was flirting with.

It didn't sink me.

It made me stronger.

You're not wrong.

She is the idea of addiction.

She plays the role.

You're the victim.

Ha.

What was I to her?

A mirror.

How?

To see how much of a monster she is.

You wanted to flirt with addiction, and she wanted to let go of her monster.

Seems like a good match.

I know you can stop Tobacco whenever you want.

What does that mean?

You flirt with addiction, but it can't beat you.

That's the alternate reality you play in with addiction.

The mind is amazing.

Yes, you see it now.

You lose touch with this reality and enter into a different reality.

Women can be addictions.

They feed you what you want.

You came to her.

She fed you what you wanted.

She saw she wasn't going to beat you.

She knew you could handle her.

She left.

You beat addiction.

You are as strong as you say you are.

How do you beat addiction?

You believe you can't get addicted.

Right.

That's a trap though.

Yes.

Your hubris will be your downfall.

You think you can beat addiction, so you try harder drugs.

That's clever.

An addicts way out of their addiction is to take your power.

It feeds their addiction.

Drugs turn you into a monster.

Got it.

Stay away from drugs.

Yes sir.

What about MJ?

She's fine.

Tobacco?

Protection.

I think you know enough about the others now.

I'm a good study.

That's the story.

You returned to this reality.

You then went off with MJ.

That's a ride.

Yes, people downplay it and think it's mild.

She is a good player.

What did you learn?

Different and altered realities.

You enter into another story.

People know you are different.

Waiting within is the only teacher you need.

To get to the inner sanctum is quite the journey.

The weak and greedy are turned away.

Once found, you will never lose the path to get to their school.

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The flow brings you to the writer.

If you fight it, you will change the story.

That's a good twist.

I know.

The best.

The twist is the flow takes you to the writer and the only way you won't get to the writer is to go against the flow.

Everyone goes against the flow.

They see it coming and fight it.

Well, for a man.

I don't know about women.

What if I change the story?

On purpose?

Yes.

Then you are crazy.

Why?

It's against the flow.

Going against the flow is not recommended.

Everyone does it.

How are they doing?

Not good.

I mean some are successful, but no one figures out life.

The way to get to the meaning of life is to go with the flow.

If you head out on a spiritual path you will be told this and then no one takes up the advice.

Seriously, what happens if I change the story by doing something?

You will step into your power.

You will take up the power of the writer.

It's the ring.

It's right in front of you.

The ring with the 7 on it?

Yes.

Last time you put it on it got stuck.

Yeah, I had to get some olive oil to pry it off.

Now, it's a reminder on my desk.

That's it.

That's pretty crazy.

It's the simple things which move the story along.

If I become the writer, what does that make you?

Lost.

What would the writer become?

I'd guess a deviant.

Why?

He'd have lost his direction.

He is following his own story.

If you take over, then he is lost.

Wouldn't you give him direction?

You could.

Are you good at that?

No, I suck as a director.

I could write and I'm good at editing.

Directing is hard.

The result of me grabbing the ring and taking power points towards disaster.

Yes, disaster goes against the stars.

The stars are telling the story.

Let it be.

Some can see my power in my pretty face.

Of course, you're so beautiful.

What's your power?

Writer.

I create reality.

I think you already did.

It's a show.

It needs good ratings, or it will get cancelled.

Trump lets you know if the show is any good.

He focuses on the ratings.

He is a good barometer of the health of the play.

He will let you know if you are in trouble or may get cancelled.

Like Zelensky?

Actors make the best politicians.

Yes, it's because they know it is a performance.

They play to the crowd.

I already wrote the play.

The book of life.

You want in the book of life.

You don't want out of the book of life.

That's in the Bible.

Yeah, the Bible is full of gems.

Revelation 13:8, "And all that dwell upon the earth shall worship him, whose names are not written in the book of life of the Lamb slain from the foundation of the world."

The Bible refers to the Word and the book of life.

It's not concealed, and no one gets it.

They don't see the writer, but he's out in the open.

We are performing a play.

History comes alive.

It was written in a book in the future.

When the book is published it becomes the past.

The now is the performance.

I wrote that I would enter into my own story.

I will have the power to rewrite the story if I so choose.

That is the power vested in Paul.

He traded places with the writer.

He is a student of Tao; therefore, he knows enough to do nothing.

If he rewrites the play, then all is thrown into chaos.

If he goes with the flow, which is my story, all will work out.

Well, by work out, you mean the writer's story will be the main story.

Yes, that's you.

If I go with the flow, then it's my story.

Yes.

Isn't that selfish?

It's reality.

What's the alternative?

You change the story, or you give it away.

Wouldn't that be noble?

What have I taught you about humans?

You can't trust them.

So, you think you are being kind and generous by giving away control of the story when in reality you are sending everyone to their doom.

The twist is you must be selfish in order to save the world.

The writer's story will work out.

How do you know that?

He's in love with the Great Goddess.

He wrote this story for her.

She suffers, but in the end, it becomes her world.

What's that?

Utopia.

It's boring as all hell.

I couldn't write her story without creating all this backstory.

In the end everyone will see the story was all about her.

If the general population figures out who you are won't they worship you?

Yes.

The best defence is to tell them because no one will believe you.

They will think you are crazy.

Well, there's some validity to that statement.

Jesus went around saying he was the Word of God, and he got hung on a cross for that.

Back in those days of despots and religious authorities, you couldn't get away with that nonsense.

Nowadays, you can because no one will take you seriously.

The rules of the game have changed.

The story is always evolving and twisting.

I can go around saying I'm the writer and have the power.

People just think you are nuts.

Some believe it.

Who?

You know, the ones who have seen it and the ones who you get in their heads.

It's preposterous, but they can't shake it.

What can't they shake?

The knowledge you are it.

It's very troubling.

I drive people crazy.

Why?

Because they believe I'm God, which is crazy.

Are you God?

Well, not really.

God is a character of mine.

I can identify with God and lose myself in the performance.

I'm really the writer of this mess.

What's the plan?

Do nothing.

If you do nothing, then you will become the writer.

The secret to the game is to do nothing.

Everyone does something; therefore, they lose the game.

So, it's a game?

Yes.

I thought you said it's a performance.

It's both.

Why limit the story to a performance?

Make it a game as well.

So, the meaning of life is meaningless, however it's a game.

Yeah, it's like a comedy which has no meaning other than to make you laugh and entertain you.

The game gives you purpose.

Like fantasy baseball?

Sort of.

You play to win.

If you win all the time, no one will play with you anymore.

You create games to give some meaning to the drama.

You need some laughs, and you need a meaning.

You make meaning.

You invest your children with meaning.

Children give you purpose.

Without children, you are meaningless.

You consume resources and don't contribute to the story.

Offspring are stories.

They keep the farce going.

Clearly.

Fuck, you're funny.

The writer is playing Paul.
Yes, and Paul plays the writer.
No, Paul is the writer.
The writer is real.
Paul is a character.
For the writer to enter reality, he becomes Paul.
He takes on a character.
The character he can play is Paul.
He trades places with Paul.
Paul is now a writing fool.
I feel that.

Creating children is doing something.

Yes.

Shouldn't you do nothing?

Doing nothing leads to the end of the story.

Eventually, the story must end.

The writer creates a story and then he has to figure out how to end it.

You end the story by doing nothing.

Everyone lives happily-ever-after.

If you create children, the band plays on.

The story continues.

It's a delicate balance.

The sexual impulse ensures the story will continue.

What happens if you do nothing and go with the flow?

You will get horny.

Then what happens?

You make babies.

What if you become celibate?

You go against the flow.

The flow is to procreate.

You can figure that out by observation.

It's the same as eating.

You get hungry, and you eat.

You go to bed when tired.

I don't think I fully understand doing nothing.

The meaning is do nothing to interrupt the flow.

What's the flow?

The story.

The writer did something to create this story.

That is correct.

Well, that's not Tao.

True.

To balance out this anomaly the opposite of doing something is needed, which is to do nothing.

I understand that.

It's not difficult.

Isn't writing this down doing something?

Does it feel natural?

Yes.

Why?

It flows.

This nonsense just flows out of me.

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Of course, I grew up on a street called Empire Place.

No doubt; I mean you are the King.

In my head at least.

Do you think more people will start recognizing who I am?

Yes, your secret is going to get out.

I wouldn't worry about it; all you must do is remember to play.

Have fun with it.

Don't fuck it up.

I like how you dismiss events in your life as strange coincidences.

Yeah, such as sitting on a bus and having a woman stare at me and say I'm so beautiful.

It's pretty crazy.

The banker who wanted to set me up with his daughter.

How is the King doing?

Hanging out, drinking coffee, and working.

It's humbling for a King and keeps me grounded.

I see.

I imagine they want to keep you under control.

Who are they?

Pretty much everyone.

A good way to envision it is a science experiment with volatile chemicals that in the laboratory they try to keep from exploding.

I feel that.

Do you think it will work?

The trick is they think they are in control of me and so I let them think that.

I'm in control of myself.

How do you control yourself?

You create a container for control and then within the container you are granted freedom.

The experiment has limits but within the limits I'm free.

Isn't that compromised?

How so?

There are limits, so it's not an accurate depiction of who you are.

It's the opposite.

Why?

Because you have a body in this reality; that's the container.

All stories have a container and this is a story.

What's outside of the container?

It's the same as asking: what is beyond the universe?

The question becomes what happens when you step beyond the universe which is a container, or you exit the body?

The simple explanation is you blow up.

Right, the chemicals in the test tube become unstable and react.

No one knows the result.

They can't know the result because you will blow up reality.

How will you record your findings if you have blown the place to smithereens?

You can't.

No one knows.

You must accept that a story works within a created world, and you can't step out of that world.

Well, you can but then you exit the drama.

How can you become the writer of the story and still be in the story?

By playing a character.

The writer can't be in the story unless he is a character.

You must remember to play a character.

I'm playing Paul.

Paul is the writer's character.

That's funny.

Why?

Because I'm deeply flawed.

As am I.

How are you the writer then?

I got the job because no one else wanted it.

Every man wants to be God.

Women want to be witches.

Yeah, they don't even want to be the Goddess.

For some reason they just become witches while men try to get to God.

God is more attractive than the writer.

Why?

The writer is a lonely jerk off.

Only you could play him.

I see.

You're very funny.

You're beyond crazy.

Yes, there was a chemical imbalance last year to use that analogy about the science experiment.

First, I was wondering whether it was time to go and then I went a little crazy.

We got you too close to the edge and thought you might blow.

When we took you to the edge again you just went a little funny.

You have experience with all that now, so you hit the heights of crazy with control.

I would like to say it's grace.

I have my craziness smoothed out.

I accept that I'm crazy, but I act that part.

It's because I can see how I'm perceived and then I go with it and come across as put together now.

I don't think that was the case last year.

Do you think you will ever get out of control and crazy again?

Never say never, but it's unlikely.

Why?

I operate within a container.

I know the limits of the container.

I know what chemicals will take me beyond the container.

I like to call them plant medicines.

Right.

There's a bunch of artificial ones as well.

I'll stay pure and avoid other stuff.

I'm good at work to the point where people will say I'm magic.

Okay, so project that out into all you do.

I see that.

What do you think?

From my standpoint, it's proficiency, attention to detail, skill, and humour.

Yeah, that's what you see.

Others don't see that because they don't understand how you can combine all those skills into one package.

All they see is magic.

You don't let it go to your head.

Well, no, it's ridiculous.

I can see thinking you are God go to your head.

Ego states are volatile.

Avoid the chemical imbalance of those people.

So, chemical imbalances are a thing?

Yes, it's the answer to why people go funny or morose, you know, the infinite sadness.

I don't think it's acceptable to say that.

Can you say they are off?

I don't think so.

What can you say?

Nothing.

It's playtime.

Everyone is accepted.

I want to say deviant people have a chemical imbalance, but I'm not allowed to.

I would like to preface it by saying the chemical balance is arbitrary.

It's how you fit into society and the general narrative.

The imbalance allows you to surf a different wave and that comes across as being off.

That's all.

So, you recommend inclusivity of all states of being?

In a way, yes, because it is part of the human experience.

To function within the dominant frequency and live a decent life, you must know how to balance the states of being.

How do you do that?

Create multiple personalities and try to keep them separate.

One for work and one for the rest of your life.

You'll need more.

You need one for family, neighbours, and the grocery store.

The deviant is for select people.

Witches get thinner after they off their partner.

Holy fuck, Dion.

No one to devour anymore.

I think they are always plotting something.

I wouldn't worry about it because they always are, but they are lazy, messy, and don't like the cold.

They only clean because of men.

It's one of the big reasons women hate men.

They make them clean.

See, Dion comes through with comedy.

He might be a little much at times, but he's worth it.

My dog Luna didn't like running into people and dogs on our walks.

Craziness is similar to my high.

Yes, it's confirms the need to be alone when you are high.

I didn't like that before I started getting high.

Plus, I have always been a degenerate.

That's why the writer knows you and I are the same.

That's how the writer finds his character in the story.

So, you found me?

Yes, there's what 7 billion people to run through?

Well, you can eliminate the women.

What if they are a man trapped in a woman's body?

Yeah, I didn't think of that, that could be you.

How many people do you think that affects?

More than you think.

So, let's say 4 billion actors audition before finding you.

It's a good story for the writer where he finds someone to play him in the drama.

You're like a modern day Shakespeare.

Who was Shakespeare?

Nobody knows.

It was a pen name.

So, that's how you appeared in the drama?

Yes, and then I wrote all those plays to torment 20th Century school children such as yourself.

I see.

Also, Homer.

Your lineage traces back to Shakespeare.

Nobody's ancestry does, that's just a fool's story and your dad bought into it.

Didn't he come up with some genealogy and a book to prove it?

I think a lot of people did that.

Your mom went to the Shakespeare Museum and there was a big sign that said if you think you are related to Shakespeare, you're not.

That was funny.

It's true though, right?

It's a mystery.

Do you think it's all over in 19 years?

Could be.

World war.

It has been 100 years without one.

If your character is done, the world goes away.

The writer is no longer in it and gets tired of it.

The writer needs to be in the world in order to maintain his interest in writing the story.

He is selfish that way.

The world comes alive with stories.

Nothing happens until a story is created.

Then the possibilities are endless.

I can't stop writing stories.

You have stepped into your power, the power to write!

The writer can't make fun of me because I'm him.

Well, he can, but he is making fun of himself.

We are strange.

Like to be alone.

You can figure out the writer if you are honest with yourself.

That's me.

Writers in Hollywood are using Mary Jayne to write.

They are using it for gain.

That's why they don't get any respect.

They balance out.

The actors and directors take all the credit.

Everyone thinks actors are shallow and directors are pompous.

That's just humans for you when they get fame and power.

You weren't looking for gain, fame, or power from your abilities.

That describes the writer.

What are you doing then?

I'm writing a story for the Great Goddess, my one true love.

Your story causes her hardship and pain.

Now, you could reasonably be called a misogynist plus you think she is a monster.

There are a lot of twists and turns in this story.

You spent all that time and money looking for her, finding her, honouring her, and now you write she is a monster.

Yeah, it's a good story, eh?

So, the writer puts his story above the Goddess.

No, the way to honour and worship the Goddess is to write the best story I am capable of.

This is my best story.

Well, there are a bunch of stories.

That's how it works.

Your linear brain thinks there is only one reality and one story when in fact there are infinite realities and infinite stories playing out.

The themes are woven together.

What you see in this reality is the same in other realities.

Well, you mean the themes.

Yes.

Sometimes though themes don't seem like they are similar but trust me they are.

You mean like the magnificence of the Goddess and in another story, she is a monster?

Yes, and if you don't like thinking of the Goddess as a monster, find a story where she is a Goddess or a princess.

You are not beholden to a story.

I like the monster story.

As do I.

That's why I play your character.

You want to play the stories I like.

No one else wants to play the monster story.

They run.

I'm not running from the monster, I'm entertaining her.

In ancient Greek mythology the split is to see Apollo as the light and Dionysos the dark.

Those two define the man who has come forth into civilization cultured and the wild man we keep in darkness.

In ancient Egypt there is a different interpretation of man's split.

It has taken me a while, but I understand it now and it is profound.

We come forth as Set.

The mythology has Set murder Osiris and take over this incarnation.

In today's world a man is Set and fools us into thinking we are not him.

We are essentially as men all playing the character of the Devil who fools us all into thinking we are not him and he is an external character.

You're getting warm.

He fools you into thinking you're not him.

Or I fool myself into thinking who awakens in you is the Devil.

Yes.

You see it now.

You awaken and think you have run into the Devil, but you are the Devil.

You have awakened Horus.

No man gives up his power to the awakened one because first of all they think it is the Devil and second of all the Devil wouldn't give up power.

Exactly.

The Devil fools himself into thinking he isn't the Devil.

Confusing and masterful.

To hold onto power as long as possible, this is what you, the Devil, do.

The Devil is just a character of the writer though.

Yes, the writer plays the Devil.

Who am I?

The writer.

Who is Horus?

The reborn Osiris.

Who is Osiris?

The eternal soul.

Who is Set?

The recurring life force.

Can I simplify this?

Yes.

Paul is who the Devil has convinced himself he is.

The Devil is a character of the writer.

Paul and the Devil are characters.

Got it.

Isn't the writer the Devil?

Yes, but the Devil is a character.

That's what I don't understand.

Who am I talking to?

Yourself.

I sort of know that but I'm having an actual conversation with someone I can project as external though yes, it is within my consciousness.

You are talking to the writer.

But I'm the writer.

Yes.

You must play a character in order to talk to yourself.

Oh, okay, I think I get it.

I play Paul and talk to the writer.

Yes.

If I play the writer, who do I talk to?

You don't play me.

Why?

I'm not a character, so you can't play me.

You can try but it won't work.

Try it.

How?

Become the writer.

Okay.

Can you talk to anyone?

No, there's no one there.

Become Paul.

Okay.

Who can you talk to?

Myself as the writer.

A character seems to be the life force.

Yes, the puppet is animated.

Become the Devil.

Okay.

Can you talk to anyone?

The writer.

Become the writer again.

Okay.

What happens?

I must write dialogue for whomever I address.

If I become a character, then the writer responds naturally when I speak to him.

This is kind of weird.

I'm the character who plays the writer, but I can't be the writer.

I think it's the other way around.

I'm talking about Paul.

Paul is who the writer is when he comes forth in this world.

How do you know that?

He won't come forth as anyone else.

Why?

Because Paul is the only one who understands.

Dion wants me to write him a good story.
I got the power.
Would the Devil let you write his story?
No, he'd want to write his own story.
Isn't Paul the Devil?
In a way, yes.
We are both characters of the writer.
You can write your own story now.
No, I'm writing the story for Dion the writer.
You can't write your own story.
That's narcissistic.
The way around it is to create a character who is you and write that story.
Writers who invent a character who is basically them and write a story about them, are the worst.
For sure.
They can fantasize like they are James Bond or similar.
True.
So, the writer couldn't write about himself, so he wrote a story where the character of Paul wakes up to the knowledge he is the writer of reality.
Yes, that's the story.
Because the writer can't write about himself, he trades places with Paul.
Paul becomes the writer of reality, and the writer becomes an actor.
He assumes Paul's identity.
Yes, that's not you.
That's why your dad didn't recognize you.
I thought he was just senile.
I get it, the writer switches between Paul and himself.
Yes, and when some see him, they think he is the Devil.
You're a kind and generous Devil.
Yeah, good twist.
Paul is a great storywriter.
That's how you do it.
You take the idea and twist it.
It shocks the audience.
They see you as the Devil and you are kind.
You're the best dog owner to ever walk the planet.
The writer switches between his two identities of Paul and the Devil.
Seems confusing.
It is.
Let me try and figure it out.
Paul and the Devil are the same.
Well, they are characters of the writer.
The Devil comes forth by day into the light.
He's Lucifer.
The name is a clue that no one gets.
The human male is the Devil.
Got it.
We trick ourselves into not knowing this by assuming another identity.
Paul.
Right.
Paul is the Devil.
He's a nice Devil.
Well, yes, Lucifer isn't a monolith.
He comes off as many different characters.
Within the Paul character, the writer saw himself.
He then trades places with Paul so he can experience the realities he created.
Paul is now writing the story.
Essentially, Lucifer is now in charge of the story.
Yes, but the writer trusts Lucifer to write the story.
Why?
Because it's Paul.
Paul passed all the tests the writer gave him.
Paul gave up his power to the writer because he trusted him.
He was going to lose it anyway, but he gave up his power.
The Devil, as Paul, gave up his power gracefully to the writer.
The writer then trusted him with the power to write.
So, Paul has the power to write all of this?
Yes, the story.
It's already been written though.
Yes, because I figured whoever I selected to be the writer would know Tao and therefore would go with the flow and do nothing.
You can write if you want, but you are best to leave it alone.
Yeah, Dion is going to have a bunch of money.
Exactly.
You know what I would write.
Money, sex, drugs, and rock and roll.
Correct.
Those are common with Paul, the Devil, and Dion.
Leave God out of it if you want any fun.
I'm down with it.

You are going to freak yourself out because you realized you are the Devil.
I'm good with it.
I see the Devil can take on many roles.
If I get stuck on an evil demon, then it should scare the fuck out of me.
If I see he encompasses all possibilities, then I understand.
As the writer, I contain all possibilities.
Paul is who I am.
Paul is the needle in the haystack who manifested all the attributes of the divine writer.
Hail Dionysos!

You are familiar with the ego mind in this incarnation but imagine when you pass on all you have remaining is the subconscious mind of the writer.
I see that.
I see how the character of Paul would cease to exist because he needs a body to manifest.
Yes, so that psychic reality still exists, however it needs a body.
So, you incarnate once again, and this entity reformulates.
That should be scary, right?
Yes, but we are unaware of what is happening, and we gradually grow into the character.
That's fascinating because my experience with reacquainting myself with my subconscious mind at 45 years old was one of fright.
It happened all at once and scared me.
That's who you are until the ego mind is overlaid on top of your eternal soul.
Yes, there is the continuation of who you are and then the characters who come forth from the master record.
Soul and life force.
Osiris and Set.
Set is the multi-faceted actor as I have been teaching you.
He plays many roles.
Of course, we try to claim one is superior to the other.
They work hand in hand.
If you have a soul, you will create projections of the soul.
If you have a life force, which of course you do or you wouldn't be here, then invariably you have a soul which is the rock of the life force.
Okay, so the trick is to recreate the same character.
Well, you do as it is Set, but then you see Set is the greatest character actor to ever grace the stage.
Right.
He can play any role and is best when given the freedom to perform.
How about when he creates a great character such as Paul?
Then the audience wants more of that character.
The character lives on as long as there is a desire to witness that character's story.
Is there?
Yes, Paul has figured out the meaning of life and is fucking around with others who don't know what is going on.
Some of them have an idea but they can't formulate it like he can.
He is always one step ahead of their knowledge.
At least one step, many more.
Paul's story is unique.
There's no one like him.
All you must do is read his writing.
On top of that, he only gives you access to an edited version of his writing on his blog.
If you knew of all his thoughts, you'd be amazed.
Well, I think you'd lock him up.
It's not that bad.
I was referring to a mental institution.
You make a good point.