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Monday, July 29, 2024

flood

Flooding in the woods makes you reassess your path.
We like routine and the flooding takes us out of our routine.
That makes us uncomfortable.
We tend towards routine, which is hypnosis.
It's balance.
Balancing the two into one is our natural state which is Tao.
You can see the natural state will take you towards balance.
The resistance is how you get out of your hypnosis.
It is work to see the two.
Work is the adventure spirit and wanting to try new things.
It's difference, which is separation.
Difference allows you to see the two.
Remember, everything returns to one.
When the difference becomes too much, you go with the flow.
You're saying that adventure is not Tao?
That's fundamentally correct.
Isn't Tao an adventure?
The adventure is getting back to Tao.
Whitewater rafting.
You must go away from Tao in order to get back to it.
You wouldn't know you are in Tao unless you leave it.
You find out about Tao when you aren't in the flow.
If you are in the flow, it is bliss.
Not a care in the world.

The flooding in the forest is like a hurricane that blows through and today you see the cleanup.
Everything's heading back to Tao.
The water flows back into the river.
The river is the flow.
You want to hurry the process and get back to how it was.
If you have patience, it will return.
There could be some residual damage.

To find what you were looking for, you had to create a wave.
You brought the wave into your world.
They brought the wave into their world.
You both tried to assimilate the wave.
It was a square peg into a round hole problem.
The way out would have been to create a new wave and realize that's the balance within the two new waves.
There is a balance available.
You must find it.
A good student of Tao could balance anything and not be afraid of any challenge.
You would need patience to find the balance, but it is there.

Despite my reservations this knowledge seems like what you would walk the path to get.
Why did I get access to this knowledge?
What is so special about me?
It's what you wanted.
You walked a path which will get you what you want.
Everyone else who walks this path will take easy power.
You renunciate it.
At the same time, you say you are God.
That's how you do it.
You do not run from it.
You take it on.

It would be safe to predict that someone who tries to get to God will be fucked up.
Yes, because it's an extreme, so you'd have to have extreme amounts of light and extreme amounts of darkness.
Everyone who's tried will destroy themselves.
Or try to forget.
Alan Watts explained the evil inclination on the spiritual path as rascality.
That's how you know someone's on the path.
If they are all good, it ain't them.
What can I do?
You recognize it.
You know how to expel them both.
You know how to take in knowledge and expel lust.
You write down your knowledge and get excited by lustful possibilities.
That seems like a secret formula.
You are getting there.
You take in knowledge and out will come lust.
It's a cycle.

You always know when too much is too much.
That's how you get to God when you know there's too much pleasure or there's too much pain.
There's too much light.
There's too much dark.
To get to God you must head to the extreme and at the same time be a master juggler.
That's the only way you can do it.
There had to be that pleasure because you were about to get a lot of pain.
You built up a store of pleasure.
Yeah, that was fun.
And then came the pain.
Where are you now?
It feels like I'm balanced.
I feel the boredom creeping in.
Motivates.
Boredom?
Yeah, big time.
Exercise boredom or it will kill you.

I was pretty good with the ritual today.
You are tilted towards knowledge so it would be better.
Yeah, but rituals are kind of magical.
Knowledge would get in the way if there is too much thinking.
The best ritual is based on knowledge and magic.
The best magic sees a little light and it's not all dark.
It may start in the dark and then head to the light.
With white magic, it starts in the light because you do a good deed.
The longer it goes on, the more you start to take advantage of the magic and it gets darker.
The longer black magic goes on, the more you see it out in the open.

What do I do now?
You're just going to wander around smoking.
Literally.
You're in no man's land.
No one has got here.
I'm special.
Right.
You are so special.
That is the answer.
You're going to wander around smoking.
If you're looking for meaning in life, take a walk in the woods.
You will see that reproduction is the meaning.
You can connect it to the drive to reproduce, which for most species is sexual and fuelled by lust.
Civilizations or people who want to harness that power would look towards lustful acts for that power.
That lust is the life force.
Some would try to capture it.
You can try to capture it during a sexual exchange.
Women do this when they are trying to drain you of lust.
It's also the idea behind human sacrifice where they would build an element to try and capture that force and would want to store it.
They built pyramids for energy storage and believed the pyramid could store the life force.
They were using belief to capture the life force.
They must have had some success.
The orgy of death would definitely energize you if you weren't repulsed by it.
That's why people like war.
They like slaughter until people get repulsed.

The people I live with think I'm a fool.
In my head, I think I'm wise.
Don't get mad at them, they're creating balance.
Celebrate them.
If they think you're wise, that's a double hit which would topple you.
The more knowledge you get, the more they will think you are an idiot.
It's all good.
Maybe they're right?
Nah.
If you get recognition for your genius, time's up.
Parker saw it.
However, others see darkness as well.
You see only light and you're fucked.
The word is hypnotized.

The river of deceitfulness flows down.
It's the path of least resistance.
There's power in that.
To make the river flow up you would head to the light.
Heading to the light forces things.
It takes effort.
You have the ability to put in an effort.
The flow is no effort.
The flow leads to nothing.
If you desire something, you put in an effort.
You are here because you put in an effort.
It's your story.
Stories require energy.
What should I do?
If you don't know, then nothing.
If you know, then something.
Do you know what to do?
No.
I'm figuring it out.
I'm wandering around the forest having a smoke.
Then you'll figure it out.

With the flow you gather energy.
You put it in reserve for the climb.
The story goes against the flow.
It's duality, so you can't have just the flow.
The flow is the default.
It takes no energy.
When you do and make a story, then go back to the flow to recharge.
I made a story all right.
I crafted the biggest story.
Drained me of energy.
Then I went back to doing nothing.
When you go with the flow, find something that will bring you up at times.
If not, you'll go straight downhill.
If you have something to bring you up, that slows it down.
The opposite works where you get single minded in wanting to get to the top.
Find something that will cause resistance.
Tao is wisdom.
The greatest magic is Tao.
It's dark and hidden, but it's the ultimate knowledge.
That is wisdom and Tao.

Monday, July 22, 2024

your way

Your way is uniquely your way.
No one else can take you there.
Following someone else's way will lead you to their way.
It's not your way.
Find your way.
Your way will lead you to a surprising conclusion.
If you want to find out who you are, it's the only way.

The story is simple.
It's nonsense.
It's duality.
It's on and off.
It's a porno.
In and out.
Dark and light.
That's it.
You complicate it because you think the story should have meaning and purpose.
You can create meaning within the story.
The story is stupid.
It's a story of two.
You need two to make a story.
You need a third to create and watch the story.
You need a fourth.
Who is the fourth?
The audience.
You don't need them.
Technically, you don't.
You kind of do.
Why?
They will inform you if your story is any good.
They give you, the writer, the energy to keep writing the story.
Without the audience you would do nothing.
There would be no story.
So, to recap you need a writer and two actors.
Plus, you need an audience to watch the story.
That sums up creation.
The two come together and create life.
The new life is another story.
We generate stories.
Stories have a duration and then they expire.
As long as we keep creating stories, the universe will continue.
How do we create stories?
You are taught that in grade school.
On the street we call it fucking.

Who are the two?
Mother and son.
They are one, they separate and become two.
Everything is derivative from those two.
In Christian terms, it's Mary and Jesus.
Mary is threefold in the New Testament.
Sister, friend, mother.
Mary Magdalene is his friend.
Yeah, friend, right.
Didn't Jesus kiss her on the lips?
The commentators say he transferred his wisdom with that gesture.
In truth, it's because he was giving it to her.
I see.
It's simple.
They are everything.
Who are you?
I'm the distant writer.
I'm a few hours away.
You see, I got involved with these two while they were one, and I separated them into two.
I thought you said this was simple.
Now, you are telling me that in order to start the story you had to get involved with two who are one?
I had to separate them to start the story.
Non-duality into duality.
I had to do something.
If I did nothing, nothing would have happened.
What did you do?
I had sex with the Goddess.
So, you created the Goddess in your story and then banged her?
It's called the big bang.
Thematically it's a porno, so that's how I opened the story.
You got involved right away and then left?
Yes, in order to let the story unfold.
It's my story.
Eventually, at the end of the story, I get back with the Goddess.
There's a 15-billion-year separation between us.
That seems like a long time.
It's not for a lack of trying.
I'm persistent.
I want to get back with her, but she is wary of me.
Why?
Because I'm writing the story.
This is my story.
I can't hide my story.
She sees it.
Isn't she honoured?
Yes, but the actions of men treat women as second-class citizens.
How can you honour women and treat them like we do?

Is this a love story?
I've had 15-billion-years to think and write about it.
Is that long enough?
I love her.
She frustrates me.
Yeah, you get pissed off at her and then you separate.
You don't love her unconditionally.
You attach conditions to your love.
She must be a certain way, or you will fall out of love.
Why can't you just love her for who she is?
I don't know why.
I've had 15-billion-years to think of a reason.
Are you going to wait another 15-billion-years or are you going to stop trying to change her?
I'll think about it.
That's all you do.
You think about it.
It's been 15-billion-years, and you haven't made a decision.
It's funny, right?

Monday, July 15, 2024

pain fuels the rise

You seem to get what you want.
I get a taste of it.
You don't want riches.
No.
You want to sleep in and work from home.
That's a good one.
You wanted to taste some fruit.
I did.
You wanted to fulfill others' wishes and make them happy.
I did.
You wanted freedom.
Knowledge.
No more misery.
Where are you now?
I'm free.
I received the knowledge.
The cup overflows.
Trying to possess that fruit would give you misery and lack of sleep.
True.
Lost chance at freedom.
Did you want that?
No.
Did you get what you wanted?
Yes.
What about the pain?
It fuelled my rise.
You're very smart.
You take your time figuring things out and you get there.
Pain fuels the rise.
Mentally and physically.
Where are you now?
I'm headed to the top.
Where were you last year at this time?
I got dumped into the abyss and had to find my way out.
What saved you?
I carried on.
I internalized the pain and made supper.
The hurt forged steel.
Diamond mind.

Do you think you are crazy?
My mind is lit.
It's working well.
There's a newfound gear.
Is it pure?
No.
Knowledge and lust are mixed.
The Greeks didn't serve unmixed wine.
You can approach purity.
I have been taught you can get to the edge but don't go over.
Don't be a superman.
Stay humble and fit in.
You need people to think you are crazy and weird.
That will keep you grounded.
If they tell you that you are God, it will go to your head.
You need those psychic projections to belittle you.
In your mind you are then safe to go to God and sit on your throne.
What happened to Parker?
He went over the edge.
He saw the danger but knew he'd be alright.
He had no one to tell him he was crazy.
They encouraged him.
You need others to tell you that you are crazy.
A psycho.
He didn't have that, so he went over the edge.
Embrace those who remind you of your humanity.
Humanity is crazy.
Humanity expends time and resources in order to convince the other they are not.
Do you think humanity is crazy?
Look around.
What do you think?
Collectively, we are crazy.
What about individually?
We hide it.
What happens when you get to know someone?
You see they are crazy.
They put on a good performance to hide it.
Truth is a good strategy.
Truth is best when it is balanced.
What do you mean?
Tell the truth.
The truth is you tell the truth to yourself.
Fuck the others.
That seems wrong.
Why?
You should tell others the truth, shouldn't you?
Why would you give them that advantage?
Let them figure it out if they are so smart.
The advice is to tell yourself the truth.
Ask the tough questions of yourself and don't deceive yourself.
You can deceive others because they are walking deception machines.
Everyone is living a lie.
Would you tell a liar the truth?
No.
Then why would you tell anyone the truth?
Because I think it's the right thing to do.
Do they tell you the truth?
Sometimes.
They do the thing that the news does.
They mix the truth with their deception.
They figure out the formula.
The formula to fool people is to mix your lies with truth.
People fall for it all the time.
It's a secret to the game.
You manipulate people by telling the truth.
We all want to hide the real truth, so we give them a little bit.
This causes confusion because you told the truth.
You must be honest and trustworthy because you tell the truth.
The winner of the game of life doesn't always tell the truth.
Do you want to win?
I just want to be happy.
So, you don't want to win?
You can be happy knowing others can beat you at the game of life?
Well, not this game of going to God.
I won that game.
You wanted to win the ultimate game, didn't you?
Yes, I did.
I let the others have their fun and I won the big prize.
I kept my eye on the prize and figured out how to do it.
What do you get for winning the game?
It's not all it's cracked up to be.
I get knowledge.
That's what I wanted.
Knowledge is power and yet I don't want power.
Seems balanced.
Yeah, I know.
I have sat with power, and it doesn't move the needle.
I don't need others to serve me.
I'd rather serve others.
Sometimes that's a strategy to buy freedom.
Yes, they leave you alone when they know you are a good servant.
You mean slave.
Yes.
I fool them by fucking around.
It works.
It's a balanced relationship.
I like it.
You don't want power?
I prefer freedom.

The darkness doesn't bother you anymore, so we're going to give you light as a teaching.
That's not true.
The darkness still bothers me a bit.
I don't look at it as a negative.
I look at it as something that is necessary.
Without it, you're all light.
That's not duality.
There's no separation.
The dark, which is duality, you push away.
That's what creates the separation.
Darkness manifests duality and you see two instead of one.
The fear from the darkness activates a pushing feeling.
That's what that is.
In order to have duality, you need fear.
Duality cannot exist without fear.
If you're no longer afraid of the dark, then you lose the sense of separation.
It's a way to get more light into your life.
Then it's a question of how much light is too much.
You learn to balance light and dark.
If you don't, the darkness will separate.
If you go too much to the light, you will smother.
It's simple.
When you get too dark, people run from you.
When you head to the dark, you give people feelings.
When you head to the light, you charm people.
You don't go full on into both.
I did.
From a mental knowledge standpoint, I know I'm both.
I even wrote it down.
Yeah, but you don't physically play that out.
So, what does that mean?
You could play one of those extremes if you want.
You could make a choice to do one of them.
That's what all people on this path do when they get to this point.
They choose one of them.
They become a healer or a sorcerer.
They forgot their training.
What's the training?
You know it, you're trying to fool me.
First of all, don't pick a side.
Don't become a healer or a sorcerer.
Before that you should do nothing.
Don't get involved.
I waited half of my life before getting involved.
Once you have gotten involved you know to win you must choose both.
Don Howard knew the answer.
He said to reconcile the opposites.
He didn't tell me.
He's not allowed to.
He told Parker and then Parker told you.
That's how he got around it.
See how he's a healer and a scoundrel.
He found a way around.
All he did was put the idea in your head.
You might have found it on your own because magic teaches you to reconcile the opposites.
The Mesa shows you this as well.
Don Howard was giving you a nudge.
He planted clues, so you would listen to him.
Ancient Egypt clues.

The game is to get to God without destroying yourself.
To do that, you must get to the Devil at the same time.
Do you think you did it?
Yeah.
What are you doing now?
I'm learning about it and writing the story.
Your story's going to be stupid.
Yeah, but hopefully one day somebody who knows will be able to declare it the masterpiece that it is.
So, you've gone and rewrote the backstory?
Yes, I had to adjust your first part of the story.
Once you get to forty, it's self-explanatory.
I had to add context to all your experiences prior to that.
So, we're here now.
Yes, I've caught up.
I finally finished rewriting the past.
We're meeting now.
Yeah, that's why there's two of us.
Remember I showed you there's two of us?
Yes, I remember.
We're both contributors to the future story.
Yes, though obviously the subconscious writer is the better writer.
You're the editor who takes out some of the material that doesn't work.
Yes, that's what I do.
I have a good handle on what will work and what might not go over well.
I sit with myself for a few days and then I take out some stuff, add to it, and clean it up for export.
That's it.
Anyone can edit.
See, you're in the perfect profession.
Can we not think about your job?
I agree, move on.

Monday, July 8, 2024

friendship

Dogs play games with each other.
They do and it's simple to see.
They are less complicated than our human games.
They are great companions.
You don't need much in terms of a companion.
We complicate things and say you have to be open, sharing, and discuss things with your partner.
The best relationships I've had have been with a dog.
They were simple relationships.
Companions that get along.
Go for a walk, share a meal, and hang out.
That's the perfect relationship.
We have a whole industry of counselors telling us there's more to a relationship.
All marriage counselors do is complicate an easy thing.
You can figure out what complicates things.
A sexual relationship.
Expectations of family.
A dog naturally fits into the family and is a friend.
So, the best relationships are friends, not family, and not sexual.
That is correct.
The family and sexual aspects fuck it up.
The sexual part of our relationships creates an imbalance especially for the man who is convinced by society he must pay for sex.
Society overtly and subversively tells a man that he has to pay for sex.
In a marriage he must provide in exchange for sex.
A woman is conditioned to believe she is owed for the use of her body.
The downside is when she is no longer desirable sexually, she becomes worthless in our culture.
The family is the same thing as you owe them.
The family is everybody's insurance policy when all else fails.
That relationship will bail you out and take your side.
It's part of the family compact.
A friend is not family, so there's no expectations.
If you want to become friends, you just do it.
There's no pressure.
There's no contract between friends.
You choose to be friends.
There's always family obligations.
If you don't fulfil them, you're an outcast.
A family will drain you of time and energy.
With friends, there's none of that.
It's equally split.

When the Goddess is a friend then she can be with you and be separated.
The answer to the separation problem is friendship.
Not being friends is total separation.
Entering into a sexual relationship will keep the cycle going.
What cycle?
Union and separation.
So, what is better?
Do you want to continue the cycle, or do you want to be friends forever?
So, the meaning of life for me can be boiled down into the question of what do I want from a relationship with the Goddess?
Yes, do you want to be lovers and haters, or do you want to be friends?
Can I be both?
That's the problem.
When you hate each other, you still care.
That causes the divorce.
If you are friends, you will hate each other.
If you're not friends, you don't care, and you have a sexual relationship it will work.
That's a tough call.
The expectation is some kind of caring in the relationship.
Yeah, this is a tough one, eh?
How do you create the perfect union?
Let's recap.
First, you understand not to care.
Second, you see that friendship is the ultimate ideal.
The problem is being friends with somebody you have a sexual relationship with will cause you to care about them.
Then you will lose the friendship when things go bad.
Friendship had little conditions attached to it except when you add sex to it.
You can't run from it.
You must deal with the sexual part, and it will end the friendship.
The flow will take you to the cessation of sexual attraction.
The flow will make you lose interest.
Everybody changes over time and anyone who tells you differently is a fool.
This is a pickle.
Well, if it's the flow, then you would go with it.
The story involves union and separation.
That's the story.
This story is in and out.
It's a very simple porno.
This whole story of mine is based on in and out.
I'm in the Goddess then I'm out of the Goddess.
You've created a whole story in your head based on this sophomore nonsense.
That's funny.
The best wisdom I can give you is that if you're friends, you're not going to cum.
Maybe a little teasing if you're lucky but that won't be enough.
You will look for someone else.
If you are friends, you'll look for different partners even though you know they're the one.
That's going to cause more problems.
Your friendship will dissolve.
Being friends will make it worse.
I'm just saying being friends goes against the story.
The story is in and out.
If you haven't been paying attention, that is union and separation of Goddess and God.
For some reason, I think there's three reasons.
The first reason is not caring, and the second is a lesson about friendship.
I saw the arguments on both sides.
I saw how friendship was the best relationship, but I also saw how the flow would go against friendship.
The perfect relationship would go against the flow.
Why is that?
It's because friendship goes against the flow, but it's a perfect balance.
So, can you find perfect balance in this world?
Yes.
That perfect balance is not Tao.
It's the exact opposite.
Explain that.
Why does friendship work?
You must make an effort.
Oh, I know.
You can establish a non-Tao relationship and then within that relationship practice doing nothing except for the basics.
A dog shows you that a good relationship involves going for a walk, sharing a meal, hanging out, and finding a place to sleep.
You can establish in this world things that are perfect and not based on Tao as long as you practice Tao.
Yes, this world is not Tao.
I think you know that.
You can balance this world by practicing Tao.
This world is the opposite of Tao.
The writer is definitely not Tao, but by practicing Tao he redeemed himself.
I balanced out, I don't know about redemption.
Okay, well, that doesn't answer the Goddess question.
Yes, it does.
You can't be friends with her.
If you are friends with the Goddess, the cycle will not continue.
The cycle will stop.
What is the cycle?
The coming and going of everything in existence.
You know the old in and out.
Wink, wink, nudge, nudge.
Yes, I thank you.
You taught me this already.
This is working.
This is where it gets confusing.
If the cycle continues, that's the in and out, and it's going to lead to a big explosion.
The big explosion is the end of this world.
If you are friends with the Goddess, nothing's going to happen.
There's no spark.
This world would go on forever.
If you want to live forever, coming and going in this world, then be friends.
If you want a new world, don't be friends.
So, I can't be both?
If I choose both, the cycle will continue.
The only way it will not continue is if you choose to be friends with no in and out possibility.
That's funny.
No, wait a minute.
If I choose not to be friends, the cycle stops as well?
Yes, choosing either stops the cycle.
If you aren't her friend, there are definitely no in and out privileges.
Remember, you don't choose.
Choosing to be friends or not friends doesn't work.
You are being taught balance.
Did I feel this one?
No, you must think about it.
You couldn't come up with the answer based on what you know.
You had to think about it.
The answer is to either do nothing or to do both.
Doing both will keep the cycle moving.
What if I do nothing?
It's confusing and the cycle keeps moving.
The flow is obviously to keep the cycle moving for now.
The flow will predict and produce the future.
You see the results of choosing a side.
It will give you an idea of choosing both sides and not choosing.
When I look, I see the cycle continues.
The cycle creates something new.
Yeah, it would be a new manifestation.
Continuing without a new manifestation, what does that mean?
There's no reincarnation.
If you choose a side, there's no recall of reincarnation.
It's on repeat and there is no recall.
Sounds like hell.
Not choosing or choosing both and you come back to a new world knowing who you are.
It's the secret handshake.
Tao is for the chosen.
The chosen Tao comes back.
The Goddess and her cycle keep Tao moving.
Balance is the key.
I knew that.
Does anybody know this?
What do you think?
No.
That's why I am who I am.
You know the secret about coming and going.
In and out.
Yeah, don't make a choice.
The people who want to live forever make the mistake of choosing to live forever.
I'm going to live forever without making a choice until it all blows.
Yeah, until the orgasm.
You can be part of it.
Thanks.
You're going to feel it.
When is that?
Tell me when you're on edge.
How are you feeling?
It was strong yesterday.
Lust I mean.
When there's more lust and greed in the world then you can see it getting ready to blow.
When you are zoomed out to that level, yes.
Why is it going to blow?
It's the juggler.
The stories get too much, and he loses control.
The writer stopped being able to balance stories.
He said fuck it, and let it spiral out of control.
Duality spun out of control and blows up.
Yes, that's how you end the story with the big one.
What was the other option?
End and balance all the stories.
Get the writer to stop writing stories.
Do you mean where they cut my dick off?
I think that's the same thing.
If they do that nothing's going to happen.
You must end the story with a bang.
You can't let them live happily ever after.
Happily ever after is non-duality.
The big bang continues duality.
The stories all become one and then it bangs into the infinite again.
The stories all came together and there was no room left.
It was a blinding white light which simulated non-duality.
Existence was all stories, and no one could see any individual stories.
That's what non-duality is.
It's infinite stories.
Duality is infinite stories separated.
What is the state that's real?
It depends on perspective.
They're both true.
It's where you are in the story.
Are you in the duality part or the non-duality part?
Clearly, I'm in the duality part.
When you're in non-duality you don't know you know.
I think you must be in duality which gives you a physical and mental form in order to know you know.
You're going to confuse time, so remember you're doing both right now.
You've chosen an eighty-year vessel in duality.
You're also observing yourself.
Who is observing me?
Your non-dual self because they are somewhere else.
They are all.
They collect information about you that they already knew.
The trick is to get it to you in duality.
They give you knowledge of who you are.
Who are they?
You're subconscious.
They know you best and they know Tao because they're in Tao.
You, on the other hand, are off on some adventure.
I seem to be having the time of my life.
Yeah, it's pretty good.

I've been off on some tangents.
I went back to the not caring and friendship questions from the start.
That was a tricky one because when you play out friendship, you can create a container and practice Tao within that space.
I think it also teaches you that the first principle is always to not care.
The second point is about friendship.
Is there a third?
No, but bros before hoes works.
We can put that one in stone.
That would cause problems.
The whore is going to fuck with his head.
Yeah, that's why you have his back.
You know my subconscious is a little misogynistic.
So, a truth teller is a misogynist?
Yes.

To fuck someone, you need them to be a little bit of a friend.
Oh, you can do those ones where it's a one off.
Those are riskier.
That's true, if you have a relationship with somebody then they're not going to cut out your kidney.
Yeah, it's why you do the friends thing.
You need a little bit of that.
There're friends, then there are good friends, you get too friendly with somebody then something happens and it ends.
You never want to get too friendly with a friend.
You'll get fucked in the end.
You can look at it the other way non-sexual where you got to be friends with your dog and then it ended.
It's a different energy.
Friendship will end.
It could end in the other direction.
The best is to enjoy them while they're here and let them go when it's time.
You're making me cry again.
That's the best friend.
Let them go when it's time.
Unconditional love and best friends.
A best friend would also know when to let you go and give you space.
There's a difference between good friends and best friends.
The good friend relationship is trying.
The best friend doesn't try.
You don't want to be somebody's brother.
You want to be their friend.
Isn't the opposite true?
No, I think it's more complicated.
There are so many variables, which is good, because it means you'll never figure everything out.
Yeah, I'm balanced.
It's all going to work until the stories get cluttered, you say fuck it, and then it just blows.
Until then, you're good.
The world is out of control right now and it's absurd.
Yes, you know you're getting to that point.
I don't think I'm there yet.
No, you're just starting to feel it.
Once you get to that point where you feel it, there is no stopping.
What are we talking about?
It's the meaning of life.

To answer the question about the third principle, it’s this:
First is don’t care.
Second is friendship is the best relationship.
Adding sex to friendship ruins the friendship.
The cycle of union and separation of Goddess and God is put into motion.
Eros is the third principle.
It’s lust.
The in and out births Eros.
Eros is the reason for everything.

Monday, July 1, 2024

marriage

The ritual in the forest taught me that sometimes it's better to go ahead and do something, and then while you're doing it think of the next steps.
Jump into something and figure it out along the way.
If you wait to jump, it will pass you by.
I think it's showing me that you're always doing something.
The ritual is me doing something and making decisions on which way to go.
I make the decisions on which way to go after I start doing it.
That's juggling.
That's life.
It's not like you would map juggling out.
If you think about juggling you can't do it, you drop everything.
You juggle and keep figuring it out while you're doing it.
If you stop to figure out how you juggle, you will fail.
You've already known that you're constantly making decisions and then you must juggle them.
The big decisions you don't make.
You make the little decisions.
The big decisions are hard to juggle.
They are the ones that you drop.
When you juggle the little decisions, then it looks like you're a master juggler.
It means you're not dumb enough to take on huge life challenges.
You leave that for the flow.
It's the best strategy.
Don't make those decisions, or if you do, do it half-assed.
Like marriage.
Parenting.
I think doing it half-assed should work out.
It might take a while, but I think it's the best thing to do.
It all depends on what you want to get as a result.
A lot of it boils down to do you want to be successful or do you want to be happy?
You can't be both.
I wanted to be happy.
I am happy.
I sometimes think I'm not.
It's because of my feelings, but sometimes I think there's no way I can be happy because of the damage I have done.
Society tells me that I have many failings.
I do, but I think I make the people around me happy.
They don't want to see it and they want to blame me for their failings.
However, I've made everybody happy.
I gave people what they wanted.
I didn't get what I wanted.
That makes me happy because I know the results of getting what I want.
I would have been miserable.
Success would have brought on misery.
Failure has brought you happiness.
Holy fuck, this wisdom.

When I look back at possible relationships with people, I can't envision any of them working out.
Even your own marriage?
It's worked out, but it kind of doesn't work.
It's in perfect balance.
You don't like each other, but nobody cares.
Most people grow to dislike each other, and they care.
That causes divorce.
When you grow to dislike somebody and you don't care, then it's easy to stick around.
All marriages end in people not liking each other.
Women will tell you that and try to blame you when we all know it's going to happen.
Tao.
I know this is leading to the great cosmic divorce with the Goddess.
I'm being taught that it's understandable you're divorced because you grew to dislike each other while you cared about each other.
If you didn't care about each other, you would stay together.
What's the best solution?
It's Tao.
You don't care and you do nothing.
You will protest, but in my lifetime, I see the marriages that work are the ones where they stay away from being in each other's space.
That's a marriage in Tao.
If you must work at it, it won't work.
The flow of every marriage leads you to dislike your partner.
The answer to that problem is to not care.
You care too much and then you separate.
Passion leads to separation.
The act of caring leads eventually to divorce.
When both people don't care about each other, it leads to a perfect union.
Holy fuck.
You have the perfect marriage.
You figured it out.
No one believes that.
You should become a marriage counselor.
You can answer all the questions honestly.
Well, what about the couples that are still together, and they seem happy after years of matrimony?
One of the parties is hypnotized.
Or one mutually exerts control over the relationship.
You know those ones where the husband complains about being nagged but he secretly wants that.
He wants to be a child and thinks his wife is his mother.
That's weird.
It works for them.
You think Oedipus is fringe.

Marriage gives you a base to play your games.
It steadies you out.
Without it, you would have been destroyed.
It's a counterweight.
You don't go all in because of that.
You have a fallback when the game gets out of control.
You see, every time the game would come to the end of the game, or a chapter, or a level, you always had a place to go.
You would resume what was going on before the latest chapter.
I think I'm a player.
Yeah, you're in the top game.
It's like that whole reality drama thing.
You're the best player.
Yeah, for sure.
You don't win all the time.
You win most of the time.
The times you lose, it's like you let them win.
It's how you fool them into thinking they can win.
Everybody loves games.

She doesn't even like me though I figured out that might be the secret to success.
If you don't care about someone you'll stick together because it doesn't mean anything.
Nobody will care.
I thought the reason for the universe was a porno, now you're telling me it's because of the great cosmic divorce?
They do tie together.
The meaning in the porno you are searching for is why you and the Great Goddess are separated.
I've learned the answer over the last couple of days.
The answer is because we care.
That's kind of nice.
The way to stay together is to not care.
What is the ideal then, should I care or not care?
If I care, then non-duality becomes duality because the two separate.
If I don't care, which is Tao, then existence is all together which is non-duality.
To be in Tao, which is balance, is to not care.
If I care about the Goddess, then that's not Tao.
You are not hypnotized if you care about her.
Remember balance is hypnotism.
Non-duality is hypnotism.
I think I want both.
You would want Tao and then you would want to become a juggler in duality and try to balance all the stories.
The secret to staying together with somebody in this realm is to not care.
Can you not care and still have fun?
Why not?
Can you not care and still love?
Isn't love caring?
Is unconditional love, caring?
No, unconditional love is not caring.
Unconditional love is not caring about what somebody does and just loving them.
You just got schooled in unconditional love.
It's all about not caring.
People think the kind of love where you care for somebody is unconditional.
That love has the most conditions.
Why is that?
Because you're invested and there's a transaction.
What if you're doing it out of the goodness of your heart?
Your heart is the condition.
The only way to practice unconditional love is to not care.
The answer is very simple.
It's very hard to understand.

You have muddied the waters.
I don't know if it's better to care or not care?
It's best that way.
Knowledge was waiting for you to not care so you could understand the knowledge.
When you don't care, you're not invested in it, and you don't have bias.
The knowledge comes easier and it's pure.
If you care, you'll twist the knowledge into what you want.
If you don't care, then the odds are better you'll understand.
So, caring is twisted?
Caring causes distortions.
I can definitely see that.
The twisted writer causes distortions in Tao.

Trying to make it work in a relationship is what causes divorce.
The natural flow will cause repulsion.
Trying to force it by caring about it will cause divorce.
Not caring will allow two to remain together.
Caring will buy you time.
Caring is a magic trick.
You must learn when to use it.

Okay, you're brilliant.
You're way smarter than me.
I am you.