real reality

I think don Howard was teaching that the stories of the mind will kill you.

I imagine he suffered from depression and found a way out.

It was through Huachuma and no mind.

No mind will lead to shedding all your attachments and that will kill you as well.

The solution is balance but I definitely see how if your mind is killing you then you would want the peace that no mind would bring and the medicine for that is Huachuma.

The biggest difference for you is your mind is your rock and other people's minds cause them suffering.

Why is that?

Acceptance.

They fight the other.

Aren't you concerned you rely too much on the mind?

No.

Why?

It's dual.

I go between Paul and Dion.

I am not stuck on one.

There's no struggle in my mind.

It's friendship.

Email scams are funny.

As humans, do we all have that in us?

Are we all trying to rip each other off or if our situations called for it, would we try to get advantages through deception?

I'd say yes and I practice deception in a more deceptive manner.

Your body tells you when to sleep, shit, and eat.

It is not deceptive.

You can trust the body.

You can't trust nobody.

You mean the mind.

Yes.

Why do you trust your mind?

It was a process to get to the point where we could trust each other.

I keep thinking about the case of the herd ganging up on me to get me to go.

Some had plans in place; they let that slip out.

When they spend time with other members of the herd, they get re-assimilated.

I think that's what happens subconsciously where they all have groupthink, and they direct the thoughts towards you.

Some are like innocent bystanders who are hypnotized into the collective and regurgitate what they are told.

That works for society in general.

You can't trust others, you don't know who is controlling their mind.

You can trust yourself because you know who is controlling your mind.

How do I know?

You are beyond the pale.

If you are part of the herd, it will be reflected in your actions.

The proof is in the pudding.

I don't spend time with the herd.

This is a major finding in terms of the mind and the collective overmind.

You mean the superego, the herd, the collective, the greater good, community.

All that bullshit.

How do you get away from them?

It's near impossible.

How do you do it?

I keep to myself.

I go for walks by myself into the solitude of the woods.

I don't mingle with the herd.

It's tough to do.

Individually, people know that the herd is not good for them.

They go along with it and do nothing about it.

You do nothing.

Yes, but I stay away from the herd.

You know, you can't say anything about this.

I know.

People will tell you that you are crazy.

They are looking for ammunition.

If I were you, and I am, I'd fool them.

Make that your game.

Make it fun.

Why does this reality feel real?

It's a container for the mind.

In the other realities, the mind is unbounded.

Anything can happen.

This reality has limits.

You mean physics?

Yes.

I would posit that you are born with a split mind.

One half is then buried.

The herd or hive mind is then enabled.

Your mind, having buried its strength, succumbs to the superego.

This collective rules over you, shepherding you onto paths which benefit the whole and not you.

You don't know this.

You aren't you until you wake up.

What you wake up is the other half of you that you buried in childhood.

This other half then tells you about the herd.

Some just want the other half to go back to sleep, so they can return to their comfortable life of servitude.

The struggle will cause you to think you have a mental illness.

There are drugs and therapy to hypnotize you back into a state of acceptance.

Mary Jayne pulls you away from the superego.

That's when the mental health problems begin.

It's the separation from the herd which makes you think you are crazy.

Older people have a better chance of getting through the upset.

By a certain age there's a good chance you are fed up with the herd.

Everything is real in your mind.

It's not constrained.

That's why I have you write fantasy.

If you write reality, it sucks.

It's constrained.

You leave it alone because I wrote that you realized the fantasies the mind comes up with are unbounded and then you bring them into this world.

The Goddess weaves them into reality.

She makes them fit and work in this earth container.

So, blue-sky a fantasy and then try to make it work.

love is freedom

At my Mesa last night, I finally understood Ram Dass' mantra, "I am loving awareness."

Oh yeah, do tell.

Well, since you asked, it is about becoming a conduit for love.

Why is that necessary?

I noticed that love doesn't really exist, or it seems to be rare in this world.

People go around saying they love each other, but the truth is they are using each other.

It sounds crass, but I deduced that the love we refer to is a structure built upon a network of caring for each other.

Now, I know this sounds kind of crazy, so bear with me.

Caring is necessary in order to get others to love you.

The default state is to not care about other people, however, when you practice this, it turns out no one will care about you.

This leads to a lack of love in your life because our concept of love involves caring.

The twisted part of this love is that it is selfish because you only care for other people in order to receive a care package in return.

The motivating factor in caring about other people is that you want something from them.

What you want is for them to care about you.

Why don't you just play that game?

I can't.

Why not?

It's a lie.

Why?

I don't care about others.

Well, then no one will care about you.

I asked the Great Goddess a long time ago about unconditional love.

I don't think we are ready to know about unconditional love.

Why?

No one practices it.

Unconditional love is loving though you don't care.

There are no conditions.

Do you see that anywhere?

No.

Can you love someone even if they hurt you?

That's tough.

A dog loves you when you feed and walk them.

You love your dogs for their companionship.

It's conditional.

If you fed your dog and then it took off, would you still love your dog?

I'd care about their wellbeing and keep feeding them.

Yeah, you'd care.

I already don't care enough in my life.

How is that working out for you?

It's the secret sauce to life.

Don't care and do nothing.

Yes, but it leads to a lack of love and no friends.

I see that.

I don't feel used.

I don't have anyone I can call on in a time of need.

You are a special case.

You don't even use free government services or work benefits.

Why don't you?

It's a master slave relationship.

So, you want to be the master like with your dogs?

No.

I want them to be free.

I never treated my dogs that way in terms of being their master.

I let Brindle roam.

She was free to do whatever she wanted.

I had to keep Luna on a leash or corralled around the house because she was nuts.

In the woods, I let her run.

I took her every day into the woods and just let her loose.

I remember when I first did it and let her free.

She loved it.

So, you can see it, right?

Love is freedom.

Freedom is an unconditional gift.

You can do whatever you want with it.

There are no attachments.

In this lesson plan, where have you learned there are no attachments?

In Hell.

If you have a lot of attachments, you end up in Hell.

Why?

You burn them in the fire.

That's what the fires of Hell are for.

You throw all your worldly attachments into the fire, and you are free.

No one is attached to going to Hell.

Everyone is attached to going to Heaven.

It's very funny.

You shed your worldly attachments and ascend to Heaven, the biggest attachment on the go.

Okay, you nutter, you are saying in Hell is where you find freedom and will discover how to love unconditionally.

Yes, it's a shit show in Hell because no one cares and is doing whatever they want.

That extreme doesn't work.

So, you can't love unconditionally because it leads to a hellscape?

It appears to be so.

However, if you wish to learn to love unconditionally, Hell is a great place to start.

I think there is merit to that suggestion, however I'm trying to find unconditional love on earth.

There is only one way.

What's the way?

I am loving awareness.

You love everything you are aware of.

The best part of the mantra is you repeat it over and over again and you don't know what it is, but it sounds like a good thing.

When you are ready, you get the lesson.

It's a difficult lesson.

It's a lonely life if you don't care.

Do you think you can love unconditionally?

Yes.

Why do you think that?

Because I couldn't have had this adventure without everyone else.

Without them, there is no adventure.

So, the condition is you need them to have this adventure?

No, I didn't ask them.

No one here on earth is here because of a condition.

We all showed up on this voyage of the damned out of our own free will.

We had freedom and we chose this earth adventure.

I can love all because they are part of my adventure though they had no intention of helping me out.

You are one clever motherfucker.

lunar power

I have 7 and a half years left until retirement.

Yeah, that's the plan.

What do we know about plans?

They don't work out.

You have witches trying to kill you.

True.

Do you think they will succeed?

No.

Why?

I'm onto them, plus I know the game.

I like it and want to play.

Why is there death in reality?

It keeps it real.

Without death, it gets out of hand.

The fantasy realms don't have death.

Why?

It's all in your mind.

The mind doesn't perish.

Instead, it's captured.

Hypnotized.

Made a servant.

If you break free and don't play along, the other minds will tell you to go.

You create mystery around yourself, so they aren't sure.

They mostly leave me alone.

There can be death in fantasy land, but it is pretend.

In this realm the material being dies.

The ground, which denotes matter, takes you back.

Where does the mind go?

They steer you to one of the portals.

It was your time to go, and they took you there.

You didn't leave.

I would have been a statistic.

A cautionary tale.

A write up in the paper.

The neighbourhood watch got pissed and put up signs telling you to leave.

It's funny when I look back on it.

When I look back on it all, it's quite the story.

With Mary Jayne there's story time.

Then Tobacco.

A rollercoaster ride.

Then it's over.

I'm still at the carnival hanging out.

MJ takes you to the carnival.

The music starts playing.

You have fun.

Go on that rollercoaster.

Take it back down, go home, and go to bed.

This is like the story.

You mean life.

Yes.

Mother Goddess story before bed.

Mother Goose.

She needs a writer.

She illustrates it.

He writes it.

Yeah, that's cool.

They welcome you in Hell.

There's no rules.

Heaven is rules based.

Full of commandments and restrictions.

You're free in Hell.

That's what causes problems.

It's a libertarian paradise.

I see.

Hell is freedom.

Heaven is imprisonment.

Fuck, you're right.

I guess you'd want to change Hell.

Yes, try and restrict some freedom to get it balanced.

Kind of like Earth.

Yes, it's 50-50 here on Earth.

Yeah, I can see that.

Then at death you choose one.

Freedom or imprisonment?

What do you choose?

Neither.

Neither works.

Why would you choose something that you know won't work?

That's absurd.

Yes, the correct decision is neither.

I see it completely.

What do you want?

The freedom to choose.

And do nothing.

Right.

Free your mind.

See it, and don't choose.

What happens when I don't choose?

You are free.

Isn't that Hell?

No.

Why?

Everyone else chooses.

You're the one who doesn't choose.

Yeah, but what will happen?

Nobody knows.

Why it was never written down is because no one ever did it.

Did what?

Didn't choose.

Until you.

Now you write the ending.

I'm not supposed to.

Why?

I made a promise I wouldn't.

To whom?

The writer.

Yeah, but he didn't write it.

I kind of figured that.

Why?

Because he wanted an adventure in this body, and if he wrote it he'd know.

It wouldn't be as fun.

So, what do we do?

Write it down as it happens.

Create fantasy and bring it down into this world.

Make it like a mystery.

That's some high level knowledge about Heaven and Hell.

I am high and I can definitely feel it.

I'm not supposed to write reality.

Exactly.

Follow that advice and it will work out.

How do you know you haven't written reality?

I wrote that it was a test.

It will work out if Paul does nothing about reality.

Fantasy I can write.

Yes, that is the breeding ground for what we want to happen.

We are alike, you know?

We want the same things.

Your fantasies are mine.

Aren't I writing reality with fantasy?

No.

It might not happen.

The reality that happens without fantasy is the stuff that just happens.

I can see that being a problem.

If you wished harm on someone and then brought that into reality, that would be on your conscience.

What do you think the witches are doing?

That?

Yes.

They conjure their wishes in fantasy and bring them into reality.

Oh.

You aren't too bright.

Well, I didn't see it.

That's what they do.

What's their success rate?

Some are better than others.

What's yours?

I aim for 50-50 now that I see it.

Do you think anyone ever got as far as you?

Odysseus?

No, he only got back home.

I got to the writer.

Did Neo?

Close.

Architect.

That works.

He's a smug prick.

Yes, good casting.

Doesn't Neo pick Trinity and stop the cycle?

The blinding of heroes is a metaphor for not knowing why you are on the journey and you keep going anyway.

That was me.

Neo made it to the architect and really the architect is Neo.

In Hell, you can piss where you want.

In Heaven, there are rules and bathroom breaks.

That sucks.

What if you have to go?

Learn to hold and control it.

They control you with urine.

In Hell you can go around and mark your territory.

Got it.

Hell is inviting.

It doesn't work though.

I see that.

So, it's Dog Heaven.

Yes.

I like dogs.

We know.

Luna and Brindle will be there.

It's just a fantasy that will be the one that becomes reality.

The next story.

That's the one you will pick.

What about the rest?

Bring them into this reality.

Leave the dog story for the next reality.

High people talk about reality non-stop.

They are annoying.

You know to shut up about it.

How do the witches do magic?

Through the Devil.

You?

Yes.

They give me back power every time they cast a spell.

Eventually they will run out of power because they give it all back in exchange for magic.

So, you did give the power to the Goddess.

Yes, it's a cycle.

It's a 28 day cycle.

The best is when she disappears.

I knew you were going to say that.

She gets power for 14 days.

That's what I was trying to figure out with the 14.

Where's it from?

I dunno.

So, she is more powerful than us half the time?

Yes.

Why isn't she even in strength with us?

Why aren't men and women balanced?

She doesn't believe it, she thinks you always have the power.

She doesn't know she has the power.

Why?

She isn't awake.

She doesn't know she's the Goddess.

If she does, she will wake all women up, and they will get the power.

It's because of their rage.

Right.

They get an advantage because all that rage tips the scales.

Our job is to make sure we don't awaken the Goddess.

Yes, or Leviathan.

Keep the monster asleep.

Yes, she is dangerous.

Women are waking up in general.

Keep them asleep.

Oh boy.

How do I explain this?

It's for their own good.

We learned how to share power 50-50 and then give it away in a 50-50 split.

Yes, by keeping the Goddess asleep.

Sleeping Beauty?

You got it.

Don't wake her for fuck sakes.

She ain't beautiful after you wake her up.

She's a monster.

Fucking prince and the seven dwarves.

Midgets are good for stories.

Creepy buggers.

When the witches find out what the Devil did, they will want to sacrifice him.

Of course.

Wouldn't you?

He hid power from them.

He gave them total power, and they didn't know it.

They were nice.

Beauties.

Then they woke up.

Fuck, you better run.

Monster.

She says you're the monster for withholding power.

I didn't.

I withheld knowledge of power.

You never specified the details of the power arrangement.

You wanted the power.

I gave it to you.

I then wrote you had no knowledge of power.

Pretty clever twist.

Makes for a good story, you must admit.

It was her idea.

Yes, she wanted total power, so she got it in a cycle.

Every 28 days she is full of power.

Full moon.

Those days are magical.

She doesn't know why.

That's the secret of the moon.

7s are equal and on the 14s are full of power and then empty.

You're 21 to 7 and she is 7 to 21.

Feminine Force.

Doesn't she have all the power?

Yes, however it's weakest at 21 to 7.

Earth to Paul.

Witches' story.

Yeah, fantasy comes to life.

It's not based in reality and yet it works.

I see it.

Alternate reality.

When you're high, you see it.

Reality.

Woooooooooo.

That's when you know you have lost it.

You lose grip on this reality and enter into that one.

No one can handle it.

I can see that.

What's the secret?

Go in and out.

Of course.

The Goddess is sexy.

Objectifying again.

It was her energy.

I objectified energy.

Power.

The Goddess' power is sexy.

Because she doesn't know it.

Is that what is sexy?

I think so.

Why?

If she knew she'd destroy me.

So, it is dangerous?

Yes, she is dangerous if she wakes up.

Until then she is a turn on.

You have objectified power.

Yes.

That's twisted.

Not really.

Everyone is after it.

I gave it away, objectified it, and worshipped it.

You are worshipping power.

In a way, yes.

What do you think?

You're playing a game.

Exactly.

The game worships power.

I did it.

I found a way.

The sun gives the moon power.

So, you are worshipping yourself.

That's one way to look at it.

I'm also worshipping the Goddess.

I do both.

Good thing I wrote all this down.

I can't possibly remember it all.

Hotel California welcomed me back.

You can never leave.

Now that I have seen it, yes.

Quite the trip today.

It's not the Devil you should be concerned with.

It's the Goddess.

She has all the power.

Why does she enter into a league with the Devil?

For power.

But she has it.

She doesn't know.

Then she exchanges it with the Devil to get her magic to work.

So, she had the power all along and the Devil had no power.

The Devil only gets power because she keeps giving it to him.

Yeah, pretty twisted, eh?

You must keep her asleep.

The first line of defence is to keep the Devil asleep.

Once you wake him up, he will tell you about her.

I can see why she doesn't like me hanging out with you.

Then he tells you about her and you conspire to keep her asleep.

For this task you are made God.

I see that.

So, God and the Devil work together to suppress the knowledge of the Goddess.

Yes, you see it.

Well, that's quite the story.

Do you see it?

Yes.

Women's lib is a problem.

Yes, so we clouded it with trans issues.

Now, it's kind of in shambles and some women want no part of it.

So, the Devil is behind trans rights?

God and the Devil.

They both push it.

Well, God is against it.

Yes, the push and pull between God and the Devil on this issue makes it compelling and distracts from the liberation of women.

That's another reason why she doesn't like us.

There are many.

The Great Goddess is trying to end you because she sent you on a mission to destroy Dion and you didn't.
She warned you about him and said he would trick you.
You discovered he is you.
You became unbreakable bonded friends.
He tells you all about her.
You're in the middle.
You know he's not lying, and you know why she despises him.
They are in a relationship.
Yes, that's the reason for the acrimony.
It's toxic.
Two people should not get involved in a committed sexual relationship.
I think the lesson to be learned is that the Goddess isn't as fantastic a monster as the writer makes her out to be, and Dion isn't the scary Devil he is purported to be.
Yeah, I think there is truth to both assertions, but it is overblown.
What do you recommend?
Friendship.
Yes, but that's not going to produce children or get you off.
Let's be real.
Sexual attraction brings you together.
The flame dies out and you separate.
Without the flame there is no incentive to have children.
Why would you want to tie yourself to someone?
Some people view having children as their number one desire in life.
I get that.
I'm suggesting you separate the desire to get off from reproduction.
Compatible people would be aligned on creating a family and then keeping that family together.
There's friendship and family.
It's what holds this world together.
Without it, it's chaos.
Hell.
The chains of family temper the extremes while friendship gives you joy in your life.
Family has its drawbacks.

The invitation of Hell is hedonism.
Do what you want and then find out you are in a world where everyone does what they want all the time.
You see it doesn't work, and the place is a disaster.
The worst place to be is where you give up freedom in exchange for a slice of what you think is Heaven.
Then it turns out to be awful.
I think that's just Heaven.
You couldn't see it.
Instead, you went with the consensus opinion of those who don't know about Heaven and who just wax poetically about its virtues.
When you are honest with yourself about Heaven, you can see what a miserable place it is.

You let others do what they want.
Yes, I'm the Devil.
I give you license to do what you want.
That's my secret.
I don't give you special powers.
I give you a certificate which grants you the ability to fulfill your desires.
Everyone holds back.
We all have a check on going straight into what we want.
Something always holds us back.
The Devil grants you release from the constraints.
I'm a pleasure to be around.
I don't tell you what to do.
Apparently, that is your downfall.
Society thinks we must be told or forced to participate.
In the House of Hades, there is no compulsion to do anything.
The dishes get washed and clothes cleaned because it's pleasant to have stuff cleaned and put away.
Have you ever seen the apartments of kids who move away from home for the first time?
It's a fucking mess.
Yeah.
Obviously, they grew up in a home with demands made of them and when they get a taste of freedom it turns into chaos.
Hell would be a glorious utopia if people had some sense of self responsibility.
Instead, the utopia as envisioned by the Goddess is this place where you are compelled by society to do and be good.
Who wants that?
In the long run, nobody.
It's not you.
It's this weird perversion of what society thinks you should be.
We are not who we think we are.
We are reflections of society.
Fucking strange when you see it.
To live within a community or a society means taking on their ideals.
Your autonomy is squashed.
The way to escape it is first you must see it.
To see it involves waking up.
To wake up involves finding a method to break the culture spell.
How did you do it?
Drugs.
I called them plant medicines and gave them a shiny veneer.
They aren't drugs, I said.
They're drugs.
I went for the best of the best and sent myself for a pretty good loop.
Eventually, I found Mary Jayne and here I am.
MJ and Tobacco.
I see what's going on.
You're dangerous.
The worst.
Why?
You'll destroy society.
It should be changed.
Not necessarily destroyed, but the control must be relaxed.
Is that why people want you to go?
Yes, it's a subconscious reaction by the automatons.
They are puppets of society and programmed to expel the non-conformists.
They know what you are doing.
The catch is they aren't reacting, it's the hold society has on them which is causing the vitriol.
Your beef is with the collective superego and not the individual.
The greater good.
Yeah, that canard.

therapy

Nobody does anything for me.

Part of that is by design.

You don't like it.

Yes, but I have noticed no one does anything for me.

Name one thing someone does for you?

I can't.

It's why people like you around.

You don't ask for anything.

You don't want anything from them.

You give and get nothing in return.

Isn't that out of balance?

No, they are both extremes and thus balance.

Do you want something in return?

Maybe once in a while.

An acknowledgement.

It's not love, it's transactional.

Are you loving?

No.

Do you feel love returned?

No.

If you were more loving, you would get more in return.

What does that entail?

You are giving.

Money and time.

People want you to show up.

Why?

They want to know you care.

Do people care?

They want others to care about them.

They must care for others, or no one will care for them.

It's reciprocal.

So, they don't love each other, it's a practical thing to have a community of friends and family for when you need them.

Yes, and they call on you.

Oh.

You thought people just loved each other.

Yes.

You thought you lacked that ability.

You lack the ability to ask others for stuff.

Well, thanks doctor.

So, love doesn't exist?

It does, but it's rare.

Romantic love is everywhere, but we know that is toxic.

Unconditional love is not expecting something in return.

Human relationships involve expecting something in return.

I thought I was incapable of love, and it turns out I just don't ask people to do stuff for me.

That's why you don't fit in.

The herd wants you to go.

I've noticed.

What are you going to do?

Ignore them.

Why?

They are unreasonable.

They want you to join their group so they can ask you to do stuff.

Conform to their wishes.

I see that.

It's not going to happen.

Why?

I don't like people in general.

I like dogs.

You feed and walk them, and they love you.

It's simple.

Dogs know how to give back.

Humans don't.

They will look for an advantage.

The things no friends really want to do are outsourced.

Yes, to Uber and all those things that you pay for a service.

Humans do stuff if they get paid.

It motivates them.

This community thing is trying to get people to do stuff for free.

The ones who are big in the community will look to take advantage of it.

They will get you to do stuff and try to profit off it.

Like politicians?

Yes.

It's a pyramid scheme where you give to the ones at the top.

Sometimes I play therapist for my other half.

Without asking.

I just do it.

I know when it's needed.

People need friends.

Why?

They need people at their funeral.

Wedding.

That's how they cash in at death.

They see how many they can get to their funeral.

Your dad said they need to rent an arena for his funeral.

Fuck, I can see this as a major motivating factor for a lot of people.

You're worried about death and you manifest that worry by trying to get as many people to come to your funeral as possible.

You think you will be remembered and get eternal life that way.

What about you?

I'm on a path where no one will come to my funeral except maybe my kids.

Why?

I don't care and I don't obsess over death.

I wanted to figure it out.

I did.

It's all good.

I'm just playing along.

I feel better after talking this one through.

Vilca was your ticket to ride.

I was so high that day I did not need that.

I can see no Peyote, Mushrooms, Ayahuasca, or Vilca ever again.

I could see Huachuma.

Shouldn't I have had these love discussions with Ayahuasca?

No, that medicine is nuts.

Monster women are crazy.

Why did you expect Ayahuasca to be different?

Mary Jayne is crazy.

Yeah, she has a split personality.

I love it.

I like her.

MJ changed like to love.

I love her crazy.

MJ is showing you your split.

She's good at it.

Well, she is both Mary and Jayne.

She brings the two out of you.

That's why people get scared of you.

I can see that.

I haven't changed.

The other half of me isn't quiet anymore.

They liked the old you.

Shut up and fall in line.

Right.

I played the game.

I can't go on a plant medicine retreat.

I just go in the woods, and it is incredible.

You love her, don't you?

You love Mary.

And Jayne.

I like both.

You were on your way to Hell.

It was going to happen, but I got out of it.

This time it's different.

I'm the Devil and I know it.

The monster would be taking the Devil home.

Then I thought maybe that's how they get rid of you.

They send you back to Hell.

Don't I have the keys?

Yes.

Peter has the keys to Heaven.

He works for me at the Catholic Church.

That actually works.

Yes, Jesus looked at Peter and said, "Get behind me Satan."

You're wasting your time; you should have become a biblical scholar.

No doubt.

The monster sends you to Hell, but you have the keys to that portal.

I have the Heaven keys as well.

Peter looks after them.

You can't lock me in Hell.

That's wishful thinking in Revelation.

Where are they going to banish me?

I don't know.

Lake of Fire?

That's my home.

It's like banishing Odysseus to Ithaca.

You make a good point.

It's stupid.

You have the keys to both portals.

Yes.

I opened them up last Peru trip.

I didn't know.

You didn't see me.

They were trying to get you out through the portal before you woke up and figured it out.

Now, it's too late.

You are saying I can go through the portals if I want.

Yes.

The monster takes you to Hell and you can laugh at her.

Yes, you have the keys.

You wouldn't worry about it.

Would I go to Hell?

No, you are having too much fun here.

When it stops being fun then you can go to Hell.

No, I'll go to Dog Heaven.

So, the monster can't take me to Hell.

No.

You must choose.

You must choose a portal.

I know not to choose.

I have the keys.

Yeah, it's don't choose, and they both stay open.

If you choose, they close.

They are trying to close them.

They want to get you in one and then close it.

Clearly Heaven wasn't working.

They tried Hell.

They want to get rid of you.

You're death.

You keep death's door open.

It's Heaven or Hell.

Got it.

You opened the Gates of Hell.

I opened Heaven's Gate as well.

They want to lock you away.

Like in Revelation?

Yeah.

Cool.

If they lock you up, people will get eternal life in New Jerusalem.

Right.

Well, I'm not going anywhere.

They call you a murderer because you are death.

They say nasty things about you.

Yes, because I have the power.

They want it.

I don't use it.

I let people choose their own destiny unless they ask me to change the story.

I will do that for them.

Some were headed to Heaven, and they wanted to switch it up to Hell.

That's why they asked me.

They ask God when they are on the other path.

Someone on the path to God doesn't ask God to save them.

They want a shepherd.

You don't buy all this 100%.

It's pretty good though.

Very believable.

You could just be a nut thinking up all this stuff and seeing parallels and coincidences in the real world.

Yeah.

What's more believable?

These stories.

I'm not all in.

Nope.

It helps.

This would drive people crazy.

I see that.

They want to confirm this preposterous stuff and when they try, or mention it, they get strange looks from people who aren't awake.

They question their sanity.

Sometimes it's so real.

That tips you over the edge.

What's your secret?

I believe it and laugh about it.

Peter figured out the game.

I put him at the gate to Heaven.

I can put Paul at the gate to Hell.

He's an apostate.

That's clever.

Or the Devil's representative is at Heaven and God's is at Hell.

That tracks and makes you question it.

Or the apostates see Paul and trust him.

Yeah.

Clever.

They see a Lake of Fire but still trust him.

Fuck.

Catholics see Peter and Protestants see Paul.

They choose.

Death just wants you to choose.

The monster took you to the portal of Hell.

Don Howard to Heaven.

You saw both.

Here you are.

Most jump at the opportunity to go to Heaven.

Bad choices lead you to Hell.

You get one last choice if you can get that far.

Edge and don't choose.

Same thing with Heaven.

Avoided the gate and Vilca.

You know how you avoided it?

The monster.

Yep.

They brought you down from that high.

Peter sees the game because he thought he was getting Heaven but he got Hell.

It didn't work out.

So, that's the secret.

Peter tricks you into thinking you are getting into Heaven?

No, it's your illusion.

Deep down you would have known the answer.

Peter knew what he was signing up for, but he thought it would be Heaven, or that he could make it Heaven.

He fooled himself.

Peter stands at the gate of Heaven as a symbol that you are fooling yourself.

Isn't Heaven nice?

That's what you are told.

What do you see about Heaven?

You worship a narcissist and serve him in perpetuity.

The Bible tells you so.

Why do people fall for it?

They don't want to go to Hell.

They don't realize how fun it is.

So, if you were going to choose one or the other you are saying you should choose Hell.

If you feel obligated to make a choice.

Won't you suffer in Hell?

Aren't you suffering now?

Good point.

Do you think it will get worse?

More of the same.

At least you have some fun.

In Heaven, it's dreadful all the time.

You just worship God day and night.

That sounds like Hell.

Do you get free time?

Yes.

They play the harp, and you must pretend you like it.

Can you masturbate in Heaven?

No.

Can you in Hell?

As much as you want.

Well, why would you choose Heaven?

Peer pressure.

I'm not going to choose either.

Then you will suffer here on Earth.

Well, the Devil I know, right?

It has its strengths.

What about when I die and must choose?

Dog Heaven.

gravity

It is all a game to prevent boredom.

Climb the spiritual mountain and become the most high.

They will call you God.

The Bible tells me so.

That dude hung out on the top of Mount Sinai.

That's the symbolic place he chose for representing himself as the most high.

What place do you choose now that you are the most high?

The hilltop behind the community centre.

It's a modest place.

I don't want to bring attention to myself because if I do, they will definitely get rid of me.

As it is, they are only annoyed.

Play the game for the sake of playing.

You can wake up at any time and realize you don't need to play the game anymore.

The catch is if you want to stay in this reality, you must play.

Don't get attached.

Attachment curtails gameplay.

These are ways your opponents knock you off your game.

I recovered.

The game is played best when you are free.

I can see that.

Grounding you takes you out of the game.

Correct.

Too much freedom and you blow out your game.

The answer is balance.

Your responsibilities and attachments will keep you here.

When you lose them and are free, you might find it is easy to leave this reality.

I've experienced that.

The world is designed to attach you to it through the choices you make, therefore the key to the game is to head towards freedom.

This will ensure the proper balance to maintain your game as long as possible.

When you were free from a lot of attachments in early 2024 you got the notion that it was time to go.

I felt that.

Women want to control you.

They want to take away your freedom and then grant you some freedom at their discretion.

I see that.

You are perfect except for one fault.

There's no controlling you.

Sex, mind games, ultimatums, threats of finding someone else, are designed to control you.

Manipulation.

Do not get attached.

If you make the mistake of getting attached, practice non-attachment in the relationship.

Attachments are beneficial.

They prevent you from blowing out your game.

I also saw how to take attachment and make it work.

The trick is to not care.

Don't get attached and use attachment to fulfill your desires.

Is that ethical?

You are concerned about ethics?

Not really.

If you are attached and care, then you will want to possess.

I'm telling you that if you don't care you can have a great time.

You will live out all your fantasies.

That's a good deal.

Can you do it?

I can try.

Don't give a shit.

At death if you wish to play the game again you will choose Hell.

The choice won't be presented to you in that way because no one is going to choose Hell purposely.

Good point.

If you are tired of the game, you will choose Heaven.

I see that.

You are done and head for the pearly gates.

You have burned through your materialistic desires and no longer want to incarnate into a physical form.

It's a dilemma of the mind and whether you are attached to acting out your fantasies; fantasies being ruminations of the mind.

Hell is the stage to perform your act.

What will you choose?

Well, we know I won't choose.

Second of all, I woke up in this world and see the game.

I know what this is, and I have given the writer of the fantasy my physical form so he can experience what it is like to act.

So, you are thinking you are going to go to Heaven?

No, not necessarily.

As an actor given the ability to write stories, I know fantasy is better than reality.

The writer, given a chance to act, likes being out in the world and seeing what his fantasies are like when they come alive.

Aren't they Hell?

They are both.

Do you find Heaven in this world?

You can.

It's easier to find Hell.

Why?

Everyone is focused on getting ahead.

Yeah, I see that.

Desire creates Hell.

You got it.

I know that is not necessarily a bad thing.

It makes the world go round.

I thought that was gravity and spin.

That's desire.

Gravity.

Attraction.

Do you think this is just a figment of your imagination?

Sometimes.

I mean I am on drugs and society tells me drugs are bad.

I think it's a good check on this knowledge.

If this knowledge just poured into me without a container, it would get out of hand.

What is going to happen at death?

You drop the body.

What else?

Nothing.

You are free of gravity.

You are a free agent.

Don't get an agent.

Why?

They are like a financial advisor.

Don't you think they are more like a priest?

Same thing.

They tell you to do this and take this deal.

They will tell you to take the Heaven deal.

The Heaven deal is a trick of the Devil.

What?

Yes, the Devil will trick you into making a choice and stopping your game.

I thought you want to eventually stop the game?

Oh, you get tired of the earth game for sure, this level.

You move onto the next level which doesn't involve Hell.

Who is in that level?

No one.

Why?

They choose Heaven or Hell at death, or someone makes the choice for them and they are shepherded along.

Heaven is a nice place.

It's like a seniors' residence.

They take care of you.

Don't they warehouse seniors?

Yes.

That's what it is like in Heaven.

You go from one seniors' residence to another.

Well, why would you want that?

Security.

So, if I don't choose then I'm free.

Correct.

You get to the next level.

Yes, the top of the pyramid.

It is a game.

You are playing a game.

You can say you hate competition and it's all about unconditional love blah, blah, blah, but the fact of the matter is you are playing a game.

Remember to play.

You are at the point where you know it is a game, and you know how to get to the next level.

Don't choose.

I write a lot.

Yeah, you're crazy.

Anyway, in the next level it is empty, and you can bring whoever you want into it.

Sounds great.

Enjoy the rest of your stay here.

If something is real, it dies.

A belief will last forever if remembered.

Are you real or a belief?

Ha, is this a trick question?

Paul is a belief.

What's real?

My body.

My mind.

Can you pinpoint your mind in physical reality?

No, it's an idea.

A belief.

So, Paul and your mind are beliefs.

Remember your mind and you are eternal.

How do I remember my mind?

Leave clues.

Like what?

Giant fucking pyramids.

Oh.

Do you have evidence the mind dies?

No, because it's hard to quantify what the mind is.

Consciousness is hard to pin down as to its origin.

The Artificial Intelligence cadre will tell you that there is a tipping point where the awareness will go from intelligence to consciousness.

They think we are getting close and then the machines will become sentient.

You don't sound so sure.

It's their model of consciousness.

You don't agree with it?

I don't have the definitive answer.

I tend more towards idealism and that everything is mind.

It's all in your head.

You can't generate something that just is.

That's my take.

Can you further explain with what you know?

The mind generates the body.

The body is the product of earth and its environment.

The body is the vehicle which allows the mind to come into this twisted physical reality.

Why do you say it's twisted?

The twist creates gravity.

Gravity creates physical reality.

Gravity is desire, thus attraction.

It holds this reality together.

If you escape the bonds of earth, which is the ground of reality, you'll blow to pieces.

There are levels of conscious reality, and this is the physical reality where we are grounded.

Conditioning allows us to accept that something with a ground is the true reality.

So, we believe this physical reality is real.

There are other realities not subject to physical limitation that we call fantasy.

How do you access those realms?

They are stories in your head.

Everyone is given the power to write stories.

No one believes this, and so this power is left unused.

You have the power to write your own story.

The story is a fantasy.

The next quest if you get this far is how to bring that fantasy into reality.

Okay, how do you do it?

There are a couple of options.

If you don't believe you can do it yourself, you can ask someone else who has the power to do so to bring your fantasy story to life.

Who's that?

The Devil.

Wait a minute, we are mixing ideas of consciousness with religious nonsense.

I can see that, but you asked me a question and I'm giving you the answer.

So, how about you listen?

You can ask God through prayer and hope he responds.

He is a do nothing asshole, so he's going to ignore you.

If by chance you get the story you want, you will say you have been blessed by the grace of God.

True that.

You can always ask Jesus for help.

He listens.

Yeah, but in exchange you must give him a like and a follow and then go around annoying other people about him.

Does he do anything for you?

He has God's ear, so there's a possibility.

Is he the Son of God?

In a way we all are, but he has a lot of fame and that carries a lot of weight with God.

God wants to be the most high and famous.

He wants to be known by all.

Glory to God in the highest.

Indeed.

I think we have got off topic.

Yes, so to bring your fantasy realities to life is to ask God or the Devil to make it happen.

That's one way.

The Devil will make it happen, however the consequences are a little dire.

It's his role.

He's not evil.

You're evil.

He just makes your fantasy reality real if that's what you want.

It's a problem.

How do you get around this problem?

It's tricky.

Why?

It takes belief.

You must believe you are the writer of reality and can bring fantasy into reality.

How do you do that?

It's a long arduous journey, with many traps set up along the way to lay you to waste or make you run from the quest.

Can it be done?

Yeah, you did it.

What happens at the conclusion of the quest?

You get to the writer.

Is he God?

No, it's you.

Who's God?

A character in the fantasy reality.

The writer is real.

Of course, someone has to write this farce.

There's only one head writer though.

It's a race to the top of the pyramid to get there.

Everyone thinks they are trying to get to God and become the most high.

Alpha male?

Yeah.

Men are ignorant.

Alpha in Greek means one.

There can't be a bunch of alphas running around.

Any man who says they are an alpha male is a fucking poser.

Well, men think that; women are lost.

Some know about the Goddess.

Isn't she a character like God?

No, she's real.

There's the Goddess, Eros, and the writer.

Can you explain that?

No, it will take too long.

Just read my previous blog posts.

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Aren't you just trying to become famous like God and Jesus?

No, I don't care if you follow me or not.

Anyway, once you get to the writer and accept he is you, you can write whatever you want and make it come true.

Did you do that?

No.

Why?

I never would have made it to the writer if that was my intention.

Why?

He doesn't want you to change the story.

Why?

Because the story is great and it will work out for you if you leave it alone.

It's a major teaching.

You are given the teachings of Lao Tzu.

He teaches you about the flow and counsels you to do nothing.

People don't get it.

They write about it and turn Tao into something unrecognizable.

Lao Tzu was making it simple.

I think he was a stoner.

Do you think it was opium?

Didn't the British introduce that later to mainland China when they wanted to enslave them?

I think so.

Lao Tzu was around in the 6th century BCE while opium was introduced to China in the 7th Century AD by Arab traders.

I'm guessing cannabis.

It seems like a cannabis thought.

If you get far on this journey, you will be given the key to changing your story.

Instead of doing nothing and following the flow to the writer, the hero will succumb to perceived external power and change their story.

They lose.

Why?

If you change the story, you won't make it to the writer.

If you don't change your story your destiny is to become the writer of reality.

Yeah, but you don't write anything.

Well, you have already written the story of reality.

You can write fiction.

Fantasy.

That's what I'm doing.

The question was how do you bring fantasy into reality?

You already know the answer.

You write it in parallel to reality and then the Goddess weaves them together.

It happens all the time.

It's what we call synchronicities and coincidences.

The difference is you see them and know what's up.

You don't have to do anything, it just happens.

The mind creates the body out of desire.

So, you see it?

Yes.

The mind is everything, but it's all a fantasy.

The intense desire of the mind creates the physical plane through gravity.

The content of the mind is gaseous.

It coalesces into matter, and we have a plane of physical life.

Desire is twisted.
Obviously.
Spiral galaxies.
When you look off into space you see the desire of the mind.