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I think fluoride makes your teeth hurt.

It gets in the holes in your teeth and makes them hurt so you will go to the dentist.

Fluoride is a tool of the dentist.

That's how it prevents cavities.

That's an interesting conspiracy theory.

Thanks, I came up with it all on my own.

A key to investing is paradoxical.

You must have a high risk tolerance and then patience to do nothing when that tolerance is tested.

Because you can handle risk, the temptation is to make a risky decision to do something when faced with adversity.

The level of risk you need is the strength to do nothing when faced with the turmoil of high winds.

Others will offer you advice so you can repeat their mistakes.

Do nothing.

The siren is present within communities.

It's a call to join their outfit of assimilated people who were at one point independent and happy.

Communities have fines, bylaws, and jails.

Communities have snitch lines.

People talk behind your back all the time.

Why are you living in this community?

Good question.

Ideally, you would find a place which lacks neighbours and community.

It's a rollercoaster ride.

Stocks.

Drugs.

Life.

You touch a high.

You keep trying to get back to that high, but you can't.

Why?

You try to do too much.

The secret is to do nothing, and you will return.

Well, you are doing something, you are just aware to do it within a container and with discipline.

It's a little surprising in your case because you will take chances.

What about the low?

People try to avoid the low point again.

How?

Advice, diversification, and strategy.

Won't the rollercoaster return to the low point?

Yes.

Nothing lasts forever.

The ride will end for all.

Even the great companies you invest in.

Your biological life will come to an end.

Drugs are a wildcard and can take you low without warning.

What do you do?

Nothing.

If you do nothing you will return to the low.

Yes, it's natural.

When you fight it, you invite the return quicker.

Why?

The resistance makes it stronger.

So, you just let it ride.

Yeah, don't touch it.

Ride the rollercoaster.

The writer gives everyone a good ride on the rollercoaster.

When you fuck with it, then the rollercoaster goes off the tracks.

Don't fuck with the rollercoaster.

My decent retirement ahead is by luck.

Hard work doesn't get you ahead.

You will spend the money unless you find a place to put it where it is hard to get at.

I think that's the secret the credit card companies know about.

If you have easy access to it, you will spend it.

Putting your money into the stock market gets you ahead if you know how to manage your money.

An advisor will help you make steady gains.

They won't make you wealthy.

They are risk averse.

Hard work is overrated.

Staying employed and getting a decent amount of money to invest long-term is the reward you should seek.

Plus, buy a house and make those payments.

Will the rollercoaster return?

Always.

Are you scared?

No, it was a perfect ride last time.

Gratitude.

My life was spared.

That was the death spiral.

Dion saved me.

Just so we are clear, he played the Devil and saved you.

Yes, the Devil saved me.

Doesn't that make you scared?

No, that's so cool.

I didn't even ask.

It is because we are friends.

That's what friends are for.

The best friend you could hope for is the Devil.

That's a show stopper.

Dominant people want to dominate anyone.

Or animals.

Or ideas.

Submissive people want to serve.

They both don't have issues with gender, they just want control or to submit.

Is it a fetish?

Yes, but lots play it, not necessarily sexually.

You must pick a side to play.

Who says?

They do.

Some will pretend to be submissive and then take control.

That's their game.

Physical and mental dominance.

You didn't fall for it.

I never took control.

They give you power, and you are supposed to take it.

You didn't.

I'm impressively high.

Climbing the ladder today.

Notice how you don't go to the top of the ladder or the heights of your mind.

I know what it is like.

You'll fall.

You did okay on the very top of the ladder and at the edges of your mind.

Yeah, don't stay there.

Why is their freedom on the way up high?

You're dropping attachments.

Why?

You are told to.

You know what is the biggest attachment?

Heaven.

Attachments weigh you down.

You take them into Hell and burn them all.

That's why you go to Hell.

That's why Ammit, the devouring divine feminine monster of ancient Egypt, takes you there if you have a heavy heart full of attachment.

She takes you where you need to go.

You burn all your attachments and get free.

Yes, like an attachment to Heaven.

Precisely that one.

That fools you every time and you have been playing a long time.

Yeah, so people will eventually figure it out.

Then they pick Hell.

They think they must choose.

When they are finally convinced Hell is Hell, they do the no choose, nothing thing.

Does it go in that order?

Any order to figure it out.

Is this my first time playing that game?

I think so.

Why?

I don't remember choosing a side.

If I did, I'd remember.

You remembered blue water jugs in a massive Déjà vu.

That was pointing towards SpiritQuest.

It was a vision.

You remember Dion.

Yeah.

The Goddess.

Yeah.

I'm still playing the ritual game at the carnival.

I haven't beat it.

Yeah, but it's your game.

Yeah, I brought it to the carnival.

Why?

Because you go on all the rides at the carnival.

Why not do them again?

People don't do that.

They want to do them all.

Like at Disneyland.

Yes, and then they leave.

I knew I'd do them all and eventually get tired of them, so I brought my own game.

It's kind of stupid.

Easy to play.

I always lose.

Then I win some.

I have to do it 7 times in a row perfectly to win the whole game.

That beats the game.

Are you close?

No.

It also helps me beat other games.

How?

When I get really high or low, I play it.

It balances things out.

That's the reason behind my altars and mesa.

So, I'm playing this game wherever I am.

That's next level knowledge.

If you were going to design a nice day up here, this is close.

Some will complain about the bugs.

The worry would be greater if no bugs were out.

The movies you identify with are revealing.

Blue Velvet, The Matrix, Fight Club.

Wild at Heart.

It made it seem like I am disturbed.

You are.

I woke you up.

That what disturbed really means.

Yes, you woke the demon as in that kid is disturbed.

It fits.

Then the community conspires to put the demon back to sleep.

If not, they lock you up.

Once you are out, you aren't going back in.

Yeah, you must figure out a way to fit in.

What makes me or you special?

I'm out and there's no need to lock me up.

I'm cultured.

I can go out with you in public.

Okay, I see that.

You lay low for the most part.

It's all good.

How are you feeling?

I'm great.

You still have resistance.

Yes.

Good.

Why?

Balance.

Tao.

The two are resisting each other to create balance.

We are friends.

Yes, but there is some resistance.

You think I'm the Devil and I think you aren't trustworthy.

I do have a history, so your concerns are valid, however I made you like a dog and I'm great with dogs.

If you get good at the ritual, you can sense danger.

The ritual is your guide to staying at the carnival.

Have mesa, will travel.

There's no one up here because of the mosquitoes.

This is great.

Thank you, mosquitoes.

The branches creak and the wind blows when you are this high.

Sirens.

I finished all the rides at the carnival.

The monster was the last ride, and the ritual keeps you here.

She is still around.

It is a fun ride.

So, I've gone on all the rides at the carnival?

No, there's always more.

You did all the major rides.

You avoided the rides you shouldn't go on.

They are for fools.

Maybe I should go on them?

You're the fool, not a fool.

The great fool would see those rides are not something you should go on.

The shady character at the entrance should give it away.

The drug dealer?

Exactly.

They are illegal rides.

Even in the permissible countries, they are illegal.

That should give you a clue.

Yes, but so is Mary Jayne.

Why is she illegal in a lot of places?

She shows you the game.

She reveals the carnival nature of reality.

Why are some countries now okay with this?

Because with education they feel they can mitigate the problems she causes.

The mental health industry is all for MJ and Magic Mushrooms use because they will exacerbate and explode the mental health crisis.

I see that.

When you see the nature of reality, it is so confounding and absurd it will cause you to enter psychosis.

Why didn't that happen to me?

You have the strongest mind, plus you shut up about it.

When you do speak about it, you sound rational because you back it up with examples in the real world.

Like the whole Trump soap opera?

Precisely.

You write about it constantly.

Yeah, but no one reads it.

Whoever reads it thinks you are a little off.

I don't hide it.

I am pretty much together though.

I have my shit together in consensus reality even though I know it is a front for the carnival.

How does this reconcile with the idea of reality being a porno?

The porno is creating the customers for the carnival.

The carnival is the set that the Goddess created.

The writer is responsible for creating the story at the carnival.

He does it by creating rides.

You wander through life in the carnival, and you go on rides.

I see that.

The rides are fun.

Sometimes scary.

The ride ends and if you are still around you walk around, get something to eat, see a show, and so on.

Go on some more rides.

Watch others on their ride.

Everyone wants you to watch them go round and round on the Swings or Merry-Go-Round.

True.

They wave to you.

Look at me on this ride.

This is absurd.

It's amazing.

Diabolical.

The writer is twisted and makes the best amusement park.

That's why they get him to write the story.

Without him the carnival sucks and closes down after only a little bit.

The carnivals that move from town to town know they have a short shelf life and keep moving.

They are alternate stories by shit writers.

The only true carnival, the only true reality, is the one I have written into existence.

infinite tao

There are all the spiritual disciplines to master.

The hardest discipline to master is Tao.

Why?

You do nothing.

People are doers. 

Therefore the high score is achieved with Tao.

It is a practice.

You can't get perfect Tao.

That would be perfect do nothing.

It doesn't exist.

As in there's no such thing or it's where is isn't?

What do you think?

It's perfect do nothing.

Aren't you scared to go there?

No.

Why?

Trust the cycle.

Yes, of 7.

Then it ends.

There's no more.

Nothing.

That's it, there's a double meaning.

Do do nothing.

Balance.

Tao is balanced.

There is nothing.

But nothing doesn't exist.

It's where nothing is.

There's still nothing.

Who's nothing?

Nothing exists.

Yes, nothing.

That's after 7 stories.

The stories end, there is something, the story, and something is remembered.

No one remembers nothing except for the practitioner of Tao.

Is nothing a place?

It used to be.

Will it be again?

Yes, another story.

What is after that?

The cycle of 7 stories.

It begins again.

Another book is written.

Why?

Something to do.

The Goddess gets her way at the end of every story.

That's what I would write.

There are 7 stories.

7 universes.

Realities.

They run in parallel to each other.

Entering into the next story is at birth and death.

You exit through the portal in death and leave the current story.

You enter into the new one through birth.

The Goddess is the Akhet.

She is present at birth and death.

She is the divine midwife.

The 7 stories are my gift to her.

They are not in the past or the present, they just are.

There are 7 different stories in this series.

When the Goddess gets her way in each of the 7 stories, that world comes to an end.

Why is that?

She ushers in utopia and everyone lives happily-ever-after.

That's nice.

Yes, but nothing happens.

Nothing.

I can't write a story about nothing.

That's what you have been doing.

The story of Tao is a story about doing nothing.

Yes, that's the difference.

There is nothing and then there is doing nothing.

I found a way to make the non-dual, nothing, something.

It's alchemical.

What's the formula?

Do nothing.

It's a process.

The doing is the story.

The nothing is the theme.

That and nonsense.

No meaning and absurdity.

It's all part of my devotion to the Great Goddess.

You should write a paean to the Goddess.

I did.

I wrote one 12 years ago after I first met her.

I wrote about her song of forgiveness and longing.

I mentioned I didn't understand much of what she told me.

I have searched for understanding and meaning in this world.

What have you discovered?

There is no meaning.

What do you understand?

When things are balanced, nothing happens.

A slight vibration, perchance a gust of wind, sets flapping the sails of adventure.

Who are you, Chaucer?

No, I was having a moment with words.

I am the writer of this farce after all.

It's who I am.

I'm not sure about the choice of the word flapping.

I'm not looking for comments.

Sorry.

There's power in 7.

Yes, it's the 7 stories.

People love power.

It lights them up.

Walk into a casino and see it.

Money and power.

You can easily hypnotize people with promises of power.

Promises as in a chance.

You don't make any promises with them.

You just make them think they can grab the ring.

I'll get my agent to cut a deal with them if they want power.

What's that power?

The power to change your story.

Who is the agent?

The Devil.

You are undefined.

Is that it?

Is that how I'm different?

Yeah, they want to put a label on you.

I have interests and favourites.

Does that define you?

Society wants to define you, so they can put you in a box.

A mental coffin.

You stop thinking for yourself.

To be accepted into society is to do what they want.

You don't go walking in the woods by yourself.

Gotcha.

I do.

You go against the wishes of society.

I have a job, family, and mortgage.

I play the game.

It's a fool.

I don't know, I like a nice house and to eat.

In fact I'm hoping to have a bunch of money for retirement to play within society.

I'll play along.

I'll still wander high through the forest.

They can't label you.

You are always spinning.

Women are spinners.

Yeah, I see that.

Hypnotizers.

It's so easy to be hypnotized, labeled, and fall into routine.

It's hard not to.

Recognize it and change it up.

I change interests all the time.

Why define yourself as one thing?

Why can't you just like it all?

I resolved a recent problem by doing nothing.

Then I pointed out another problem which affected the first problem.

Yes, but I didn't throw a fit.

Yeah, that was good.

Same with the bank.

I did nothing, reported the problem, and I'm getting some money back.

It's still a pain.

You took control back.

It comes with the need to jump through some hoops and problems.

At least I know I will solve the problem.

I did nothing long enough.

There's a time limit on nothing.

That's why it is not Tao.

Tao has no time limit.

Those who speak of Tao don't know Tao.

It's doing nothing until you must do something.

It's balanced until it's perfect and then it is thrown out of balance.

It is total knowledge and emptiness.

It's the opposites.

Can be.

It's the Lanzon at Chavín de Huantar.

Isn't that Dionysos?

He takes the opposites and makes them whole like no one else can.

Is he Tao?

Is he the mother of 10,000 things?

Sort of.

He writes it all into existence.

He doesn't write it all.

The rest is filled in.

No, it's just chaos.

You haven't made sense of it.

It's the Goddess' idea.

Tao is the idea and the story.

The opposites.

The two.

Yin and yang.

You are getting warmer.

Who are the two?

Eros.

Who are they?

The two.

Got it.

Tao is the two together in perfect opposition.

Ah, I see.

Yeah, it's in the symbol, Einstein.

Can you say Tao is balance?

No, because the balance is depicted as balance between a woman and a man.

Chaos and structure.

Can you say Tao is equality between a woman and a man?

No, because the equality creates a 3rd, who is Eros, and they are also the one.

Is this grammatically correct?

"They are one."

Not really in this context.

Why?

They is plural.

Not necessarily.

It's gender ambiguity and that is represented as they.

Eros can be either feminine or masculine.

Good enough.

Can you say Tao is the balance of the two opposites?

I think that's close.

Can you say Tao is nothing?

Sort of.

Explain.

Tao is everything.

It's also advice which leads to balance.

Do nothing.

Tao is also doing something.

Lao Tzu said do nothing because he observed everyone is doing something.

He was instructing his students in the way back to balance.

Can you say Tao is the origin of everything?

You can do that.

That includes nothing.

Nothing is included in everything.

Is everything in nothing?

No, there's nothing.

Is nothing an illusion?

Sort of.

It exists, but you can't see it.

Why?

There's nothing to see.

Plus, you need an observer.

What if you place an observer in nothing?

It becomes something.

Nothing, plus the observer.

So, nothing exists but we can't sense it.

Correct.

Nothing only exists in everything.

It's implied.

Why?

It's everything.

That's how everything is dual.

Everything has its opposite.

Everything needs nothing.

Oh, so Tao is duality?

And non-duality.

Right.

Who is duality?

A man.

What about a woman?

Non-duality.

Darkness.

She's nothing without a man.

I'm uncomfortable with that truth.

As you should be.

Who wrote this?

You did.

It's pretty good, you know.

Tao will remain undefined.

Why?

It's everything.

This goes back to the teaching today where society wishes to label you or get you to pick a side.

To define Tao is to give it a label, thus you see why Lao Tzu said Tao is unknowable.

I see Tao is free of being defined.

Is Tao freedom?

I would say freedom is a part of Tao.

Whatever you can come up with in descriptive language is Tao.

Why?

It's everything.

So, Tao is everything.

Yes, and it's also nothing.

Tao is a conundrum.

Sometimes the meaning seems clear but then you can poke holes in the meaning.

the veil of Isis

Time marches on.

It's running out.

You can't wrangle or get ahead of it.

You know it is going to get you.

It gets your body.

Some people's minds go as well.

Not everyone.

There are older people who remain very sharp.

There are people of all ages who are mentally challenged.

What is that?

It could be a defect of the bodily container or they are so full of fear and anxiety that it affects the functioning of the mind.

The reasoning would also be if you have a don't care attitude that affects the mind as well.

Like you?

Me?

Yes, you.

How does not caring affect your mind?

I'm brilliant.

Modest too.

I'd speculate that if you free your mind it becomes so powerful you can handle anything.

That would seem to be the key where a mind bound to society will be subject to whatever the collective decides.

It's how you are controlled.

It's the essence of mind control.

For a while they used tightly controlled mass media to do this.

They told you what to fear the most after giving you a daily serving of fear that they called the news.

The medium is the message and the message broadcast is mind control.

With a free mind you scoff at the methods of control.

With a free mind you can go off and explore the unknown as in altered states of consciousness and different modalities of awareness.

What's your assessment of the exploration of consciousness?

A programmed human mind will find it very challenging.

Why?

It goes against what you have been programmed with.

It's an awakening.

You see things for how they are.

It's very disconcerting.

What's the result?

It makes you crazy.

Why?

The difference between what you have been told, what those you trust have said is reality, and what you see.

The disparity will meltdown your mind.

An explorer of consciousness needs to extricate themselves from society or you will become a casualty.

You'll blow your mind.

If you remain in society they will try to kick you out.

You'll get paranoid they are watching you.

Who are they?

The collective.

The attraction of a spiritual community becomes clear.

There's strength in numbers.

Why don't you join one of those?

Those people are far gone.

There are always people in a group ready to take advantage of others.

It's the trappings of power.

Once you see how to control other minds, the temptation is too great, and you become a leader.

It's part of the human condition.

We love power.

So, the only solution is to be by yourself?

Yes.

So, you must move to a mountain to live in solitude?

It depends on the strength of your mind.

We live in a community.

It takes a lot of strength to do what I'm doing.

I need to avoid people, and carry on in my ways.

I know they are suspicious and don't like me.

Aren't you paranoid?

No, I don't react.

They are looking for a reaction.

Alright, to get back to time, it's an illusion.

It's real in this illusion.

You create an illusion and populate it with real stuff.

That's how you fool people.

The magic is impressive.

The Great Goddess creates bodies for minds.

You enter into the body she crafted for you and this becomes who you are.

It's a ride.

It's like going on a ride at the funhouse and identifying with the seat you are sitting on.

The Goddess puts a time limit on the ride.

The ride is going to end and you are no longer entitled to the seat.

You must exit the ride.

Where do you go after the ride ends?

The carnival worker directs you to where they want you to go next.

Don't listen to them.

Stay free.

A ride is going to have a beginning and an end.

They are memorable markers and thus you perceive time through events that are memorable.

When you take the body out of the equation you are left with a mind which is eternal.

It's free.

Those seduced by power wish to control your mind.

You are always free to take back your mind.

Those who wish to control your mind must keep it in a state of agitation, i.e. fear.

When you break free of their methods of control you start to see what's going on.

If you break free all at once it causes quite the fright and may send you to a place you had not anticipated.

You seek help in order to fall back into a state of sleep.

Twelve years to total acceptance of my split personality.

After 4 or 5 years I could sense the two.

Recently, I have been able to let go of lingering doubts and there has been acceptance.

Trust issues are the last hurdle.

I went through a lot in a short period of time.

My mind is spectacular.

Why don't we treat people as two?

Identity problems.

Denial.

Everyone is living a lie.

They are certainly self-centred and deny the other self.

When you don't acknowledge the split you will create a beast.

When the beast gets out he will end you.

I acknowledged the split and let him out.

He terrorizes those that bother you.

He is your best ally.

Friend.

That's how simple it is.

Acknowledge him and then friendship.

The key to dropping identity with the body is seeing the two in your head.

If you don't go crazy, eventually you see who you are.

Those are your two identities, and the body is a vehicle.

That's the teaching.

You can heal others with that knowledge.

This is you without a body.

A body puts one to sleep.

You wake up.

Drop the ego who you thought was you.

Awaken yourself.

Awaken the other.

Take away the body and this is you.

Dion puts you to sleep when you get on the ride.

Society then puts Dion to sleep.

The ego is a copy of you.

Shed the copy and become you.

Wake Dion up.

Why does Dion put me to sleep?

It's part of the ride.

Game.

I wanted to see if I could beat the game.

I did.

It's like Houdini.

Wake up and solve the puzzle before you die.

If you die before solving it, you are trapped in another go round.

Why?

That's the game.

You need to wake up.

Then you go.

Why?

So you don't completely figure out the game.

If you figure it out, you will tell others.

Oh, I see.

You'll fuck up the game.

Yes, so they get you to go before you tell others.

It's too late because I scheduled a blog post that tells others about the game.

They tried to end me, but I won.

You schedule it in advance.

Don't be lazy.

You have the knowledge.

Prepare it for release.

That's what I did.

When you wake up you go.

Where do you go?

Where you want to go.

Isn't that a trick?

Yes.

What is it?

You don't go anywhere, you are already there.

You drop the body.

That is all.

Don't tell the mind to make a Heaven for you or it will.

Do nothing.

When you do nothing you retrieve your mind from the chair and leave.

So, they have your mind?

Yes, until you wake up.

Then they trick you into giving it back.

Who?

The carnival owners.

Who are they?

The executive producers.

It's absurd and I'm used to it.

Scientology is also absurd.

Yeah.

It's kind of stupid.

Mine is more plausible.

Why do they want your mind?

It's the most valuable possession in the universe.

Controlling minds gets you what you want.

That's what they do.

It's a delicate balance to control a mind.

You fool the mind.

Give it some of what it wants.

If it's all suffering, the mind will wake up.

People get hypnotized into supporting causes.

They needed to lock you up before you figured it out.

It was a race towards getting a grip on sanity.

The red lady comes for you and tries to end you.

You now know why.

You dared to traverse the seas which lead to the knowledge of the mysteries.

The sirens wail and implore you to go back from whence you came.

Oh brave one, you continued on and uncovered her secret.

Maya.

The veil of Isis.

Why can't I see my dogs?

The body gets in the way.

You dream of them.

I can see them in my head.

You're getting warmer.

You have pictures so you can remember them.

You then conjure them.

Isn't that magic?

Yes.

Should I be practicing it?

What do you think?

No.

Why?

Because I will change the story.

It's just fantasy.

It's in your head.

You can do magic in your head.

Don't do it in reality.

You already conjure them when you go to bed.

You call them.

Oh, yeah.

You've been doing magic with them for a while.

How do you feel about that?

It's fine.

It's harmless.

You call and connect with Luna all the time.

She's watching over everyone.

The Goddess created a playground for her children.

God turned it into work.

No, that was Adam.

He listened to Eve and as punishment God made him work.

So, the Goddess made paradise.

Yes, her garden.

God then wrote about it.

Correct.

The serpent tempted the woman with knowledge.

She bites the apple.

She tells Adam.

God gets mad at them.

Adam has to then work for a living and Eve will suffer in childbirth.

That's a good summary of the Garden of Eden opening in Genesis.

Who is the serpent?

It's the Goddess.

God put her in the garden.

So, the serpent is responsible for destroying utopia?

Yes.

But it's her idea.

The clever part of the story is the Goddess tells Eve about utopia because it's her idea.

She couldn't keep it to herself.

Then Eve tells Adam they are living in this wonderful place.

Okay, but why does that piss God off?

Because he told them not to eat that fruit.

He said eat whatever you want except that one.

So, God was just being a prick?

Yes, he didn't want humanity to know about the story.

Once they found out about utopia, he ended it, kicked them out, and made the story about humanity's journey to return to paradise.

This is accomplished in the Book of Revelation with New Jerusalem.

A lot happens in between.

It was men who denigrated and forgot the Great Goddess.

Why did they do it?

A form of denial, perhaps?

It's her game.

Her ride.

A man tells the story of her creation.

It's part of the flow.

The flow of the game will lead you to awakening and when you awaken you see her illusion.

Why does no one see it then?

They don't go with the flow.

Everyone does something and changes their story.

If you change your story, you are prevented from seeing the Goddess.

If you let things be, you rediscover her.

You get in to see her.

Eventually, the lucky one will lift her veil.

It's Maya.

I started clueing in to the Goddess around age 43 in 2010.
I discovered her history in ancient Egypt.
I looked for her.
I went to the Amazon.
I found her.
Men run from her.
Why?
She's the end.
Omega.
Men stay away from her because she will kill you.
You went looking for her.
What a mistake.
No, she loses her power.
Why?
She is supposed to come for you.
Women are the cause of death.
She would have come for you, instead you came for her.
I gave her life.
A couple times.
You rediscovered the Goddess.
They were calling her mother Ayahuasca.
They said she was grandma.
You were like that's the Great Goddess.
She's from the west.
I can hang with her.
How?
She can't take me down.
Why not?
I came for her.
I know all her secrets.
I know her illusions and tricks.
I know what she's up to.

Death allows you to see hidden realms.

Yes, they are only hidden because you are alive.

Alive as in a body.

Do you think you have pissed off the Great Goddess?

Why?

Because you saw through her trick.

You know what it is.

She births you into the illusion and then takes you out of it.

She gets you attached to the illusion so that you suffer.

You can also experience joy and love.

That contributes to becoming attached.

When the source of your feelings is taken from you, then you suffer.

You have lived experience.

You must go through all that before you figure out her game.

Do others figure it out?

They get an idea of Maya.

They can't quite put their finger on its meaning, however they understand the illusory nature of this reality.

What's the trick?

You identify with the body.

It's an impressive fool.

You think you are born and you die.

The only reason you think that is because of identification with the body.

Society is then structured to reinforce this belief.

Let it go, and see what happens.

Why don't you stop playing her game and leave?

I'm eternal and this adventure created by the Great Goddess for her children is special and you should honour it.

I thought you said it's a carnival.

It is.

It's something to do.

Why go home prematurely?

Because you see it.

If I left the carnival before it closes then I'd miss out.

What would you miss out on?

A few more rides and a candy apple.

Yes, but you will suffer.

Not if I see through the curtain and lift the veil.

I can handle it all with this knowledge.

What is more fun?

Having no knowledge of how the amusement park is operated or seeing how it works?

Well, at first you want to get lost in the adventure and for most that's enough.

For the types like me who want an answer to this strange mystery, you want to figure out how it works.

There's science for that.

If you really want to figure out how it works you need to become familiar with Maya.

Maya will lead you to the Goddess and her magic spells she weaves to create this playground.

Okay, isn't the fun of the carnival gone because you know what it is and how it works?

No, it's a new beginning.

I can replay the game knowing what's going on.

Sure the ride won't be the same, but the theme of the carnival remains.

I can go through the park and take it all in with a new understanding of what is going on.

It's going to be great.

The portals of Heaven and Hell are masculine solstices.

There are also the portals of the two equinoxes.

Yes, those are the entrances to the carnival and the exit.

Everyone knows or will know those gates.

The eastern gate is where you pay your admission to the fair.

To stay in the fairgrounds past the expiration of your ticket requires you to find your way to the next level of the carnival which can be Heaven or Hell.

To stay in the game is to go to Heaven or Hell when you get the call.

You exit the grounds through the west and pick your next destination.

Can't you just retrace your steps and leave via the east.

No.

Why not?

The turnstiles are one way.

You're fucked as soon as you enter.

That's what Hotel California is teaching you.

You can check out anytime you like, but you can never leave.

You check out through the western gates.

This is a puzzle.

The first thought is can I get out in the east?

They have that covered.

You must wake up, exit in the west, and then don't choose your next destination.

Heaven is inviting, so you will choose that one.

You are hypnotized into following the white light.

Yes, no one chooses Hell except for the truly insane.

Hell is a lonely place.

If you are looking for some peace and quiet then you could always choose Hell.

What's limbo?

There are those who haven't made a choice.

They aren't awake; they are indecisive.

I will do do nothing.

Correct.

When your time comes, exit through the western gates with everyone else.

When you see the white light, remain in place.

Hang out with Dion and then it will fall away.

Why won't I be in limbo?

You are awake.

If you are in limbo, you are still hypnotized.

Got it.

I saw the white light and the two serpent Goddesses with Huachuma.

I remember that day well.

What do you think that was?

I vibrated like crazy.

It was electric throughout my whole body.

A Kundalini experience.

If I had to articulate it, I'd say it is what happens at death.

It was my trial run.

What did you do?

Nothing.

Why?

It was pretty crazy.

I had to kneel down and then was sweating.

I can see now that is why at death you would be scared at first but then quickly move past it.

The two serpent Goddesses are there waiting to escort you to the white light.

Your next stop on the ride.

Your destiny.

They comfort you.

Yes, you continue on in the illusion.

You didn't go.

No, I observed it, but I didn't become the white light.

When you die you head to the white light and become the white light.

You choose that portal and the illusion of the serpent Goddesses keeps you ensnared.

So, I got past that one.

Yes.

How do I know?

You took pictures afterwards.

You recorded the aftermath on your camera.

If you died and went to Heaven you'd have left everything behind.

Makes sense.

Yes, of course.

That's why you do stuff like that because you will question whether you have died or not and whether the mind is just generating the continuance of your story.

Who would generate the Heaven story?

Your mind if it's being fooled.

Oh, right.

That's clever.

If you are hypnotized by the Goddess she can send you to Heaven or Hell in the continuance of the carnival ride called Maya.

So, where am I now?

Fucking around on her ride.

She wants you off.

Why?

You are dangerous.

You're going to tell everyone about the illusion.

No one listens to me.

if i did die and I'm creating my own reality, I'm very good at it.

Well, you were told in 2020 to kill yourself in order to live.

You had already done that.

This is your reality.

You have the keys to creating this reality because it's yours.

You are responsible for it.

You let it be and go with the flow, therefore, you do not interfere with it.

You take solace in trusting what has been written beforehand and go with it because you know it will work out.

This is your story.

You can change it if you want, but you know going with the flow has brought you to this point in your life.

I think we know what you think of where you are in life.

It's everything I wanted.

This is what I'd write.

The world is a soap opera.

It's a comedy and a tragedy.

On it goes.

If you don't fit into the collective, the herd will subconsciously remind you it is time to go.

Then there will be signs telling you to leave.

Is that what you want?

Given the choice, most will choose to remain within society and forget about the whole waking up trip.

If you still want to leave the herd perhaps you can manage to get a cabin in the woods and go off by yourself.

Spiritual seekers go up the mountain and become hermits.

The chief reason isn't because of a need for solitude, it's because society doesn't want them around waking others up.

The superego is all powerful and rules over you.

You conform to fit in or you are cast out.

How have you managed to stay within the collective?

I learned the secret is to ignore them and do nothing.

I have a job and mostly keep to myself.

It's very strange now.

There are some who if I run into them will talk to me about suicide.

I know the game, so I have a chuckle and entertain them.

Another one will tell me to watch out for tree branches that might fall on my head.

They are called widow makers.

I see what they are doing.

When that didn't work, they came out and told me to scram.

A weak mind will either conform or leave the community.

What did you do?

I would describe it as a figurative middle finger.

I know others who want to run off from society.

They entertain the thought.

They succumbed to the pressure exerted on them by the collective and got mad at me.

They hurled invective at me though all I did was encourage them to exit society.

Well, yeah, they were going to go off with you, so of course you took the full on hit.

If you aren't awake you will have no idea you are the victim of mind control.

You are a shell of who you are and conform to the wishes of society.

What are you doing?

I do enough so that I keep the mob away.

I work and I now make an effort to be social.

It is a good exercise to see the zombified humans do their rituals.

What's that?

They gather, have their ritual libations of alcohol, and commiserate.

Nobody dares to take a step towards awakening.

Those who get to know me, know I've done it and I don't care.

I give others enough clues, so they start to wonder.

They know there is something mysterious about me.

It's a good game to play.

I am having fun being known as this strange and mysterious person.

The Peyote people are exchanging the mind control of society for their own.

The weird part is they don't hide it.

They tell you to stare into the fire and get hypnotized.

Did you do that?

No.

Why not?

I knew what they were doing.

They are strange.

You transfer mind control from the superego to their god of fire.

Then the leader tells you what to do.

They baffle you with their rules about how you can walk into the tipi and other dumb shit.

If you cared, you'd warn others about this cult.

Yeah, but whatever.

People can figure it out on their own.

It's simple once you see it.

No one sees it.

The innocent get sucked in.

That's what they wanted.

They wanted to wake up and exit society, but they weren't ready to go it alone, so they gave up control to another party.

They must think there is no escape.

Well, they aren't wrong.

You can't get away from the carnival without ending it prematurely if you get my drift.

If you had died that day with Huachuma and the Kundalini experience with the white light, where would you be now?

I'd be in Heaven.

How do you know?

I would have headed towards the white light.

That's what people do.

I remember afterwards this woman teaching me how to ground myself.

She knew I was out there.

Why didn't you head towards the white light?

I was awestruck and I never felt a pull.

There wasn't anything within telling me to go to the white light.

I just looked at it and then returned.

I wrote it all down afterwards.

I know I'm not in Heaven.

How?

I'm free.

If you are in Heaven there's no freedom.

Maybe you are in Hell?

No, there's rules where I am.

Hell is a free for all.

I'm confident I didn't drop dead at the carnival that day.

It has all been part of my awakening experience.

To awaken you must at some point see the white light.

That's what the frog medicine Kambo is for.

The poison brings you to a point of expiration and the practitioner will bring you back.

I didn't experience that with Kambo.

I'd already done that trip.

So, you are still at the carnival.

I'm pretty sure of it.

That's enough for me to go on.

You think you lifted the veil of Isis?

Yeah.

What makes you so special?

I went looking for her.

So what.

She's the Red Lady.

The Femme Fatale.

She's the Goddess of the West.

Amentet.

She will end you.

That's why no man will dare to approach.

Instead, you are to wait for her to come to you and then you know it is your end.

I, on the other hand, went looking for her.

It's quite the adventure.

I'd definitely give it 5 stars on TripAdvisor.