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Monday, March 9, 2026

spells of coming forth in daylight

Along with an inflated ego, humans also like to collect things.
They are related.
I noticed I now have a collection of ChatGPT generated images that were made from my input.
Without my say so, they would not have come into existence.
It's a form of magic if you wish to loosely apply the definition as in a conjuring.
I am making plans to keep and possibly display the images.
They help form my identity.
Well, Sherlock, why don't you add up the clues?
Okay, ego and identity are intertwined.
Correct.
Why are they important?
Role play.
Correct.
Why do you need a role?
You are a character in a story.
So, using the reductive method of science shows you that reality is based on a story.
Sort of.
The sets are props aren't derivative of that, and they don't follow your logic.
Well, they aren't characters per se.
They are the stage.

Physics is the science of figuring out the sets and props of the story.
Psychology is the science of figuring out the actor.
We know we are an actor; however, we haven't taken the intellectual leap to acknowledge it.
Why not?
Meaning collapses.
We are still searching for meaning.
Does a Hollywood actor search for meaning within a role?
Sort of, I mean if they want to sell it and win awards, they do.
They become the character and the audience is wowed.
You can do the same.
What happens when the movie or story reaches an end, but refuses to go?
It gets absurd, less compelling, and kind of stupid.
It's like the whole "Jump the Shark" motif.
When interest in the show or performance starts to dwindle, the absurdity is taken up a notch.
That's how you know the end is near.
When things get strange, the production has peaked and is heading downhill.
Do you see that in what is called real life?
Yeah.
What do you think?
We take our roles seriously.
The ubiquitous "they" or the "powers that be" is the story.
Yes, it is your responsibility to ascertain the collective story and then fit into the story.
Do your part.
Play your part.
Do you see it?
Yeah, but nobody else does.
They will say I'm crazy if I discuss it.
At best, I will be told it's an interesting analogy, however, it is not serious.
Why?
Performances would collapse if they aren't taken seriously.
Why is that?
Nobody would care.
We'd wonder what the purpose is?
Don't we do that now?
Yes.
What's the difference?
We don't know what the purpose is.
If we figure out the purpose, then the whole carnival tent comes tumbling down.
Then you have a bunch of out of work actors.
What happens then?
Revolution.
New story.
We revert back to how things used to be.
What is that?
We become animals.
An animal has no part in the play.
They are beyond the pale.
The pale delineates the limits of the story.
You perform your role within the pale.
If you aren't going to play, you must leave.
If you try to figure out what the fuck this all is, you are told to leave.
By whom?
The powers that be.
The story.
Why?
The story is paramount.
Doesn't someone have to wake up and inform others of this?
Yes.
What would you call them?
A union leader.
That's funny.
Or, a bodhisattva.
You gather everyone together and tell them what's going on.
Tell them to stop acting unless the Writer gives in to your demands.
What would be the demands?
Equality, equity, or some kind of mumbo jumbo, kumbaya thing.
You mean like Communism?
Yeah, or Utopia.
So, Communism threatens the story?
Yeah, it will get dull in a hurry.
The only interesting things in that story are those at the top of the Communism pyramid because of the power they have over the people.
In the story, power is destabilizing; therefore, the antics of those in charge will keep the story alive, but it will be dreadful for the actors who have unionized into an extreme form of socialism.
Competition keeps the story going even for those with lesser roles.
Capitalism is best for all.
Sure, but it creates a lot of disparity, inequality, and cruelty.
The story engine thrives on that.
What would the do-gooders do without exploitation?
I don't know.
They would become destructive.
They would create situations that allow them to do good.
So, you are saying do-gooders are the ones who are creating the problem?
I think they contribute.
The problem is the story.
There is no story unless there is asymmetry and then some peculiar need to return to symmetry.
We all seek balance.
The rollercoaster goes up and we push it down.
It gets too low, and we strive to get it to return.
We miss the midpoint and the merry-go-round keeps turning.
That's pretty much it.
Is that materialism or idealism?
It's both.
It's not applicable.
Why?
There are actors, non-actors, along with sets and props.
Put whatever label you want on it.
Production?
Sure.
Existence is a production.
We argue over the origin of the production.
We are all trying to do our part.
Why?
To keep the story going.
That's what we are doing through reproduction.
Creating more actors to keep the performance moving through time.
The faces change, the sets and props are improved, and the story continues.

When you studied ancient Egyptian thought, you concluded that a lot of it was inversion of physical norms.
That is correct.
What were your conclusions?
I kept seeing that funerary literature and references to the dead were describing the state of being ignorant.
Coming forth by day to me was their term for awakening.
Is that the scholarly consensus?
No.
Are you okay with your interpretation being off?
Yeah, because I think for an outsider, that is how you must understand it.
Why?
We take people literally.
If you read the texts literally, then it is liturgy for the dead.
Osiris is the god of the dead.
He's sacrificed, mummified, and inert.
He is awakened, Isis procreates with him and engenders an heir.
She raises him from the dead in this realm.
It's quite the tale.
So, you are saying Osiris is the symbol for the soul being ensconced in matter.
Yes, something dense like wood, so the myth in matter is a coffin, like in the Anpu and Bata tale where the coffin floats to the shores of Byblos and the soul becomes inherent within the trunk of a tamarind tree.
Your knowledge is next level.
Yes, I have learned to shut up about it.
Why?
No one understands me.
Is that a problem?
Yes, at first because we seek validation or we drop the idea.
I never dropped the idea.
I shelved it and then went from Egypt into the Amazon jungle and carried the myth with me.
Individually, we are to awaken this principle within us.
Yeah, this means the West becomes a symbol for the internment of the soul into matter.
Or, for most of us, the release of that principle when we drop the body.
What is the East?
The birth of the physical body or the release of the soul.
Awakening.
Your awakening triggers a symbolic event of being born in the East.
Then you are to leave.
Why?
You see through the game.
You reach Nirvana, Moksha, etc.
In the ancient Egyptian myth, Osiris engenders an heir through magical means and then once Horus is birthed, Osiris is discarded once again.
He dies twice.
You are spiritually born, interred in matter, resurrected, and then you die again.
Ah, I see that.
Isis had to use magic to procreate with Osiris after gathering his discarded remains.
Yes, her magic was proto-boner pills.
Of course.
I have an image I photographed from Abydos of that scene.


Yeah, Osiris is laying on his back, fully erect, while Isis as a kite bird hovers above him.
What do tourists think of that?
It's off the beaten path.
Mostly avoided.
It's an effort to get to Abydos.
It's worth it though.
So, what does this all mean?
Awakening is a process.
When accomplished, the signs are unmistakable.
There's no confusion in regard to your awakening.
Have you seen them?
Yeah.
I'm awake.
So?
Osiris leaves.
I haven't left.
I'm at odds with the myth.
Oh.
Is that a problem?
Yeah.
What are you going to do?
Nothing.
Why?
I don't have to.
But the story says you must leave now.
I know.
That's the fun part of it where I have next-level understanding.
Which is?
You don't have to follow the story.
Why not?
There's no enforcement other than other people telling you what to do.
Stage direction.
So, you ignore them and do nothing.
That seems to be the key to your philosophy.
Yes, Lao Tzu taught that.
The ancient Egyptians didn't know about it.
They followed ma'at.
Ma'at says it's time to go, buddy.
You ignore her.
So, you are saying the production doesn't have executive producers?
Sort of, they are part of the production.
In the hierarchy, the executive producers are part of the story, not outside of it.
They must act from within the story.
Can you ignore them?
Yes.
How?
Make it part of the story.
If they were outside the story, then they could eliminate you by fiat.
How?
They would tell the writer to get rid of you.
You are the Writer though.
Yes, I'm outside the story and within the story.
So, you are basically Osiris.
Correct.
The difference is that I ignore Isis.
Why?
She will tell you to leave.
The subtext of my divine play is in order to awaken and remain within the play, you must ignore women.
So, she is correct.
What do you mean?
She said that you are a misogynist.
How so?
You ignore women.
How does that make me a misogynist?
It doesn't really.
However, that's one of the major themes in your story.
Ignore women.
Yes, but it's how you awaken and stay incarnated.
It's story-craft.
Misogyny?
No, ignoring women.
It's the same.
No, it's not.
They are two separate things.
I'm not so sure you can argue this.
So be it.

The judgment scene from the ancient Egyptian Book of the Dead is about the monster Ammit coming for you.
It's a scene where as a man you are judged by the standards of women.
If they don't like you, off to Ammit for you.


If you pass, they cut off your dick, and you become mummified like Osiris.
I guess I didn't pass judgment and Ammit showed up.
I think they cut your dick off regardless.
You may be right.
You are emasculated and mummified.
I think as Osiris you accept it.
I didn't do either.
This judgment scene has a binary outcome.
You are convinced those are your only two options.
What if you rejected them?
Nobody ever did until you came along.
First, you passed on leaving when they sent you to Osiris.
You didn't bother going.
Then they came and failed you with the second judgment and sent you to Ammit the monster.
You never engaged her when she came for you.
Now, you are free of judgment.
Maybe that's the game?
Well, it's the ultimate move.
Free yourself of judgment.
Everyone thinks it's the white light and Osiris you head to when afforded that judgment.
The image is instructing you to head that way.
The response of the one who knows is to avoid judgment.
Get your freedom from judgment.
Neither outcome offered is great.
Women think all men are guilty.
The witches give you two choices.
You stupidly pick one.
They give you an out when they come for you.
The game is initiated.
You take it.
You didn't.
That's why you got her coming for you.
Ammit.
She came to fulfill her role.
Ammit drags you down into the abyss and shows you your misdeeds.
Then devours you.
It's a good story.
It takes belief.
She gets you to believe she has come to destroy you.

Ignore women.
Yes, they tell you to leave.
That's their role in your life after they birthed you into this world.
East to West Goddess.
Men are scared of the Goddess.
Just ignore her.

Monday, March 2, 2026

mapping resistance

Do you think with consciousness altering substances that when you go too far it will lead to extreme outcomes?
Yes, that's what I intuit.
Those are the stories I get.
Sacrifice and suicide.
What was the low while at a plant medicine retreat?
Darkness.
I was wary of it.
Did you resist it?
At first, I did.
Then what did you do?
I stopped fighting the onset of darkness.
Why?
I became an explorer.


At first, I wasn't.
I investigated strategies of love and light.
Isn't that resistance, and wrong?
It's part of the process.
It's expected.
Look at it another way - what if you embraced the darkness upon first contact?
There would be no process of understanding and reconciliation.
If you accept your darkness without questioning it, you will lose.
If you run to avoid the confrontation, you lose.
So, you need some resistance?
Yes.
How do you know how much and when to resist?
It's a feeling.
Don't worry about it, there is enough latitude to be successful.
Everyone wants a hard and fast rule such as don't resist ideas because that will make them stronger.
On the surface, that's a good rule.
It's not applicable in most cases.
Why?
In order to understand something, you need some resistance.
Acceptance is a path towards complacency.
You really can't teach this path.
That is correct.
It's touchy feely.
It's your path.
Only you can determine next steps and the way to do that is through feeling.
It's a tactile mental approach.
That's what you can teach.
It's pointless to teach someone rules about an internal experience that is unique to everyone.
The best you can do is be a guide and not a teacher.
That's what a shaman is.
They guide you into and out of the altered state.
Westerners want so badly to pedestalize these practitioners of consciousness and think they are teachers.
They can share their knowledge.
They are the ones who are aware the process and journey is yours, and they need to get out of the way.
Okay, so what happened when you stopped resisting the darkness?
It came at a time when I was starting to understand the darkness.
I was longer scared and became curious.
I had turned down offers of power, and I started to see an equal who was me, but I didn't understand how the darkness was me.
It's a strange time in which you are internalizing something you thought was external.
How did you end up reconciling with your darkness?
Friendship.
Throughout life and my exploration of consciousness where I have touched on absurdity, love, meaning, belief, and truth, I have found friendship is something you can always count on.
Do you think it is the highest ideal?
It's up there.
With what?
Belief and trust.
Is that your trinity?
I think so.
Friendship, belief, and trust.
Absurdity and meaning are dependent on belief.
What about love?
There's unconditional love, but that seems to be hard to find.
Everything has a condition.
I say you can find unconditional love through friendship.
How so?
There are no expectations with a friend.
There's no exchange.
You hang out if you want to hang out.
You enjoy each other's company.
You help them out if you want.
That's a best friend.
Yup.
Is that what you found with your darkness?
Yeah, I started talking to him in altered states once I got past the fright.
What happened?
He opened up.
I felt like a therapist, almost like I was in the driver's seat.
It was a strange feeling to have someone that society teaches is the Devil, confiding in me and becoming my best friend.
Do you see the instability in that, and the fortitude needed to ignore society and keep going?
You are told you can't be friends with them.
I ignored all that.
So, you're best friends with the Devil.
Yeah.
Uh, that's a problem.
Correct.
You become an outcast.
People don't want you around.
Why?
You're the Devil.
It's uncomfortable.
What happens when you are around?
It's nice.
Comfortable.
I'm pretty chill.
Why don't others see and accept you then?
They are told not to.
What do you do?
I'm left alone.
I'm okay with it.
Why?
I'm my own best friend.
I understand myself.
Don't you want external companionship?
I'm selective and I curate my time.
What the fuck does that mean?
I only come out to play if I want to.
How do you pull that off?
I learned how to do it in life.
You ignore other people and get them annoyed at you.
You reduce their expectations to almost zero.
So, you have a bunch of people who don't count on you for anything and then another group who wants you gone.
Yes, that's my life as well as providing for a few people with a healthy amount of distance either physically or emotionally mixed in.
How can you function in a society based on obligations if that is your method?
Don't think about it, just do it.
And by doing, I mean don't do anything.
What do you think will happen when you don't fulfill your obligations to society?
Some will tell you to leave.
Others will stop depending on you.
If you take a step back, you will see the big picture.
What is it?
It's freedom.
I do what I want inside a container that grounds me.
If I moved to a cabin in the woods away from everyone, I wouldn't last long.
I'd get so high I'd leave.
Society is an anchor which allows me to continue my game.
So, this is a game?
Yes, it's the fourth pillar in my trinity.
The pillars of belief, trust, and friendship.
The game is the unspoken pillar.
Why do you need pillars?
Without them, there is no meaning.
Isn't there ultimately no meaning?
Yes.
Pillars give your story a ground.
Who are you?
The Writer.
This is my story.

You are constantly generating stories.
Yeah, that seems to be some kind of an anchor.
How so?
Almost like a ballast where I know I'm of sound mind if I continue to generate stories and write about them.
Isn't that a sign of mental instability?
I can see how you would think so if you took them all literally.
Right, that's the catch.
Precisely.
The road to madness involves an increase in the ability to author stories.
The tipping point is believing your stories.
Madness is the result.
Why?
People tell you your stories aren't true, and it pisses you off.
How do you avoid that outcome?
Don't tell anyone your stories.
Why?
They will tell you that you are crazy.
Being crazy is an external condition.
Your mind can internally process many states.
What it can't process is external consensus that you are crazy.
You need to keep to yourself.
Well, why don't we then?
The mind seeks validation from others.
That's a conundrum.
How do you deal with it?
Write about it and drop it in the flow.
What's the flow?
Blogger.
Ha.
No one reads it.
Exactly.
A few people read it.
Yeah, they want you to be declared mentally unstable.
Why?
That's the process.
They identify the ones who stray from the herd and assimilate or eliminate them.
Why?
It's destabilizing to the group.
Why?
They will be responsible for an outbreak of clarity.
The clarity will allow you to see the game.
What's the game?
It's a carnival.
You play a bunch of games and ultimately you will lose.
If you understand the mechanism of the casino, you will either stop playing or you will know how to win.
What's that?
It involves a lot of doing nothing.
Playing leads to a bad outcome at the casino.
Yeah, I see that.
Observe the casino.
Okay, so I would guess in your life the authorities would be looking to label you.
Yes, tattoo you with one of those psychotic designations.
How do you avoid it?
A way of keeping to myself and being independent.
Having others rely on you.
Once you must rely on someone else, it's curtains.
That's quite the edge.
I know.
I must ride it for as long as possible until that danger passes.
What's the danger?
Losing financial independence.
It's a big one to keep your freedom.
You lose that, they are going to have you committed.
Does that concern you?
No, it makes the game fun.
You need a challenge.
If it is all gravy, you get complacent.
So, what's the plan?
I'll ride.
Stay on the rollercoaster and see where it goes.
Aren't you worried about the destination?
The future?
Yes.
No.
Why?
What am I going to do?
Change it.
I could do that to get more certainty.
That just opens up a new can of worms.
I'm going to ride this rollercoaster to the end.
If it dumps me off prematurely, then I'll take a few months off and figure it out.

Notice how you get to the same sacrifice story.
You keep writing it.
Yeah, by getting to the edge.
Don't tip over.
Stay within your dosages.
That's how you know you are on the edge.
That sacrifice story.
As long as you recognize the edge, you are good.
When you can't see it, it is a problem.
Why?
Because you have seen it.
Always know the edge and where you are in relationship to that edge.
It's sacrifice for me.
Got it.
If you get high and don't see the sacrifice story, you went too far.
Turn around.
What are you doing?
Building a map.
The edge of insanity.
It might be too late if you don't get that sacrifice story.
Got it.
Advice for you.
I was getting that story with Huachuma the last time out with the medicine.
The dark low takes you to suicide.
Ah, I see.
You generally inflate to the sacrifice story.
Women inflate and then deflate you.
They are a rollercoaster of emotions.
You could plausibly call women similar to a plant medicine journey.
Yeah, especially Ayahuasca.
Are you going to do that?
No.
Why not?
Experience.
I know when to shut up.

The map is finding the threshold to maximize power out of the altered state without going crazy.
The good shamans know the edge.
They don't need much.
They know the edge will tempt you.
When the rollercoaster heads down, you go with it.
Don't resist.
If you exceed the dosage and don't get the sacrifice story, that is a problem.
Welcome the thoughts of annihilation.
It means you're still here.

Monday, February 23, 2026

ticketmaster

If you don't go mad, you will find happiness.
How does that work?
Whatever was designed to drive you crazy didn't work.
How do you get past it?
Ignoring, not caring, and doing nothing.
All of it.
Then you are happy.

Allies and protection you have cultivated.
How?
You respect the plants and don't take them seriously.
I thought they wanted seriousness?
Who told you that?
A bunch of people on the path.
They said it was work and not play.
I think that was to encourage you to integrate the experience as opposed to thinking it is just a trip.
A mindfuck trip and you are done.
Most people take drugs because they want to be entertained.
Blow their mind.
It's the same reason you'd go to a theme park or a sporting event.
Theatre.
You got it.
Drugs are entertainment.
We are drawn to pleasure and entertainment.
Friday nights are for Netflix and chill.
Get your favourite foods, drinks, and indulge.
You can get that with drugs if you want and enter into another reality.
That's why some people love reading.
They get lost in the story.
It's the same thing with drugs.
So, I'm not unique?
Yeah, you are.
How so?
You don't find them pleasurable in a physical sense.
You mean Mary Jayne?
Yeah.
I can get a rush of lust, which is nice.
The other purported effects of bliss, stoning, appetite, and amusement aren't as much.
Why is that?
I think it's my shamanic training.
You were trained?
No, I experienced altered states.
I didn't get much training.
I went to the deep end and was tossed in the pool.
I had to learn to swim.
You think that is the best way?
No, but it was for me.
How do you know?
It worked.
There are gateway drugs, so you get your feet wet before you try the heavier ones.
I didn't do that.
I flew to Peru and trekked into the Amazon jungle.
I then drank a couple cups of Ayahuasca and went on a journey.
I wasn't prepared at all.
They give you a diet and sexual restrictions to follow so that you will take it seriously.
Did you do that?
For the most part I did.
Pre and post.
So, were you serious about it?
I think so.
Why?
I was trying to figure it out.
I didn't know what it meant other than that I'd meet these spirits.
Mostly the spirits were the Goddess, and this dark figure I had trouble identifying.
He sometimes said he was God.
Sometimes, he said he was the Devil.
I didn't know what to think at times.
I ran from him.
I engaged him.
All in all, those were the two main characters.
In retrospect, I see it.
The Goddess and Dion.
Same thing with Magic Mushrooms where there were those two as well.
Then with Mary Jayne I'd get the same, but the experience with MJ solidified my identification of Dion.
I was never unsure of the Goddess; however, my shadow's identity was always slippery.
I had mostly figured him out with Ayahuasca and Huachuma, but I had lingering doubts.
My experiences with MJ allowed me to fully understand him.
Do you think you fully understand him?
As much as I need to.
I think it works both ways.
How so?
He's not omnipotent and struggled to understand me as well.
Why?
I'm unique.
No one understands me.
They try.
They can only get so far before they get scared.
Why is that?
The darkness.
It scares you, imagine someone else?
Yeah, they'd run.
Get the fuck out.
What do I do?
Nothing.
Maybe say their name.
Yeah, that's a brilliant move.
You did that to me.
It's incredible in its efficacy.
You do nothing.
If you did something, the trick would fall apart.
Do you remember what happened?
Yeah, you said my name and I ran.
Then my mind did the rest.
I was my own worst enemy.
You didn't do anything.
That's brilliant.
That is the world's best magician at play.
You manifest and say hi.
It scares the fuck out of people and they run.
Especially if they do drugs.
All the people you meet who are habitual drug users you easily get in their heads and scare.
Some recover.
Why?
You do no harm.
They realize it after a while.
Other people aren't so sure.
That's why people tell you that you are in their dreams.
If you try to forcefully get in someone's head, they can defend the goal.
If you casually wander in the unlocked door, they can't stop you.
Drug use opens a port and makes you vulnerable.
A networking analogy.
Yeah, it works.
Take drugs and you need a software patch for the vulnerabilities.
Is there one?
No.
When others fuck with you, they get smacked down.
Why is that?
They try to force their way in.
Sure, but you leave the front door unlocked.
Correct, I invite in the attackers.
Why would you do that?
It is easier to control them.
Why?
You see them right away if they walk in the front door.
It is a trap.
How so?
They can't resist.
If they would go in through the side door that has been left open by drug use, they would not be detected, however, everyone will try the front door first.
Why?
Human nature.
It's the flow.
Least resistance.
See if you can get in the front door.
You let them in.
You identify them and send them on their way.
You have the capacity to deal with them.
Okay, that's cool, but that means your method of getting into people's heads is not the flow.
That is correct.
I thought you were supposed to follow the flow?
Well, you are seeking balance.
Everyone is coming in the front door, so you go to the side door for balance.
Yes, that's what I do.
Everyone locks the front door.
The sequence is a knock at the front door.
You are let in or denied.
You go to the side door and look for a way in.
If you find an unlocked entry, you enter, if not, you move on.
Who gets let in the front door?
Those you want to play with.
Oh, okay I see it.
That's interest and attraction.
So, you say you skip that part?
Sometimes.
It's random.
You do both, don't you?
Yeah, Paul knocks on the front door and Dion goes to the side door.
There are two streams.
Do you now see how it is different?
Yeah, people act in a unified psychic field and go to one door at a time.
You are dual and knock at the front and side door at the same time.
Well, you don't knock at the side door.
You see if it is unlocked.
If it is, you enter.
How are you not detected?
Paul is distracting them at the front door.
Ah.
Isn't this unethical?
Why?
You are uninvited.
The door is unlocked.
That is the invitation.
They took drugs and unlocked the side door.
You should be aware of that.
That's not taught.
It kind of is.
You are warned about it.
When you take plant medicines such as Ayahuasca or Huachuma, you are told about the probability you will meet what you perceive as light and dark spirits in your travels.
Some people will tell you how to dismiss the dark spirits and thoughts.
Yes, that's spiritual bypassing.
People use that term all the time.
I never got what it meant.
Love and light, baby!
Those people are intolerable.
One dimensional.
I never understood spiritual materialism either.
What is that?
Beats me.
What do you think it is before you look it up?
I'd guess it means embodying your new found holiness and not doing any integration.
That's pretty close.
It means collecting spiritual experiences to boost your ego as opposed to transcendence of the ego.
You mean practices such as yoga, meditation, and acquiring knowledge to inflate oneself as spiritual.
Yeah, that's good.
Do you do that?
I keep to myself.
If anything, I'm more weird and creepy as a result of my spiritual path.
I wouldn't even call it spiritual anymore.
I did at first, before I understood it.
Do you practice yoga or meditation?
No.
Why not?
They seem like achievement markers, so you can assure yourself that you are spiritual and enlightened.
Do you think you are enlightened?
I'm awake.
Two times.
I see a carnival and the Goddess of the West.
The Goddess of the West comes to take you home.
Home as in death of the body.
Yes, the carnival is her illusion, and she decides when you leave.
If you wish to say I'm enlightened, then my definition of enlightenment becomes awakening twice and seeing the ticketmaster who tells you to leave her amusement park.


No one will believe you.
I know.
What were we talking about?
Seriousness and whether you should take the plant medicine path seriously.
That's a test.
Why?
Because you should and then when you get to the resolution of the journey, you drop the seriousness.
That's clever.
Yeah, you gotta do the work.
Then you must know when to stop taking it seriously.
When is that?
It's obvious, you see the carnival.
Why would you enter a carnival and take it seriously?
It's supposed to be fun.
What happens if you take the carnival seriously after seeing it?
The same thing that happens to everyone.
The Goddess tells you to leave.
Why?
You're a killjoy.
You are going to tell everyone about her carnival.
Isn't that what you are doing?
Yes.
She wants me to leave.
Why are you still here?
I don't take it seriously.
It's fun.
So, you are awake and having fun?
Correct.
If you awaken, see the carnival, and take it seriously, you are cooked.
Why?
You'll run.
Don't run.
Laugh.

You can choose what reality to live within.
It's easy to adapt your beliefs into this reality.
Other people will think you are crazy.
It's because we accept consensus reality.
That's what grounds us all.
There's a consensus narrative we follow.
That's why reality is shared.
We have all tuned our dial to that frequency.
Ah, I see it.
Yeah, so you take control of your dial and tune into another band.
That's a good metaphor to explain mind states.
Ram Dass would talk about changing channels.
This is similar.
He never told you what those other channels were.
Yes, because he was a Harvard psychologist.
What do you mean by that?
He knew the human mind couldn't handle the other states of reality.
Research all pointed towards people going crazy.
He was doing it.
He went a little crazy; however, because he was aware, he was able to come back.
Why didn't he teach that?
It's not ethical.
You'd be responsible for the dropouts.
The ones who permanently exit would be on your conscience.
It's best not to teach it.
What's in these alternate realities?
Different stories.
You can make them fit into consensus reality if you wish.
You might have to bend and twist them, but they will fit.
How does that work?
It's the same energy.
The amount of paint is the same.
You paint a different picture using the same paint.
Another sharp metaphor.
Yeah, I see it.
Consensus reality gives you an acceptable image of reality.
When you tune in to a different frequency, i.e. a perspective, you can give the snow globe a shake and see things differently.
The potential is enormous.
You shape feminine energy into a serpent and then watch it play out in this world.
That's pretty cool.
You take masculine energy and make a bull.
Then you observe the mating habits of men.
Have a laugh.

Disney teaches that happiness is when all your dreams come true.
No, that is the ending of your story.
It's happily-ever-after.
The moral of that story is that you find happiness when you leave the carnival.
You will not find happiness in the carnival.
You find madness.
That is true, however, I found that if you get past the madness, you find happiness.
How so?
I don't know.
Then how do you know you found happiness?
It's a feeling.
I can't explain it.
What's the feeling?
You are content.
Why are you content?
I figured out the story.
You aren't supposed to know until you leave the carnival and are shown.
Wouldn't that make you mad?
Yes, a little.
So, even in your discovery of happiness you will find madness.
Correct.
I found the carnival.
Doesn't that make you mad?
No.
Why?
I wanted to know.
Isn't that your dream?
Yeah.
Then that should be a happily-ever-after.
Yes, but there's always more.
You wanted to know the origin of beliefs and the meaning of life.
You pretty much found them.
Yes, it makes me happy as it should.
Why?
I made my dreams come true.
It's a fancy word for desires.
It's sanded down for consumption.
Clearly.
Okay, so you can now live happily-ever-after.
Correct.
Why don't you do that?
I am.
Yes, but it's the end of your story and your story isn't over.
That is correct.
Why?
Who said that happily-ever-after means nothing happens?
No one, it is assumed.
Why?
Because if you do something you will fuck up your happiness.
It's logical.
You are continuing at the risk of destroying your happiness.
It won't.
Why not?
I know it's a carnival game.
It doesn't matter what happens.
Why not?
It doesn't matter.
It's a story.