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Monday, April 21, 2025

the most high

The flow says today seek higher ground.
It's about time.
The woods are going to be flooded out for a few days.
You can't get back in without getting soaked, so it's time.

The are seven demons exorcised out of Mary Magdalene by Jesus.
It's her Sybil.
Her seven selves.
The seven stories of the Great Goddess.
Got it.
Hey, I can see why when most get a taste of this knowledge and enter in alternate realities, they go crazy.
It's too much.
I studied and became acquainted with ancient myths, so that when I started manifesting them, it was all cool.
How about Cybele, Attis, and castration?
About to dive into that doozy.
There is the papyrus Jumilihac that also depicts Osiris as being castrated.
The connection is to the castration of your soul.
Is it referring to gender and how the soul is genderless?
Could be.
Didn't Jesus have tits?
There was mention of it.
Revelation 1:13 (KJV) "And in the midst of the seven candlesticks one like unto the Son of man, clothed with a garment down to the foot, and girt about the paps with a golden girdle."
Paps is mastos in Greek and it means female breasts.
Well, then Jesus is both sexes, not genderless.
So, he has titties.
Yup.
Does he have a penis?
Renaissance paintings depicted him with an erection.
Art historians call these works of art, "ostentatio genitalium."
How do you know this?

On to the new trail.
Someplace new in the mind.
What will you find?
My mind is never ending and full of surprises.
I write about my mind.
That's what I'm writing.
My mind became flesh and I'm writing about it.
The sirens are out.
You are a chronicler.
Like Homer.
Homer wrote about the adventure he had in his mind.
That's what I'm doing.
So, this is the new chapter?
Yes, you're high.
Look around.
Yeah, I'm high.
Now, onto remembering the circuit you would walk with your dog Brindle up here.
This is awesome up here.

This is good exercise for the mind.
A new challenge.
You're being pushed to go higher.
They wanted you out of the forest with the river.
They were shepherding you here.
You get high and leave.
You stayed in the woods down by the water until now.
It's been a year since you were supposed to leave.
You were supposed to come here up high for the past year.
They got rid of Luna and you still didn't come back up.
Who?
The witches.
You have access to this place.
You can be the most high.
Yes, because I have staying power.
Yahweh had the high score until you came along.
Now, you are the high score on the homepage of the game screen.
His initials are YHVH. 
He's a legend, but you just beat him.
His high score.
What a stoner.
This is it.
Nice.
It's like an arcade game to be the most high.
Makes perfect sense.
Getting stoned on drugs won't get you here.
It will catapult you out of here, so you don't win.
Vilca does that.
It will send you on your way.
I used it twice.
That's enough for me.
I didn't use it half the time it was offered.
Perfect balance.
Now, you got here.
All you had to do was go back and stay.
I can do it.
I will keep exploring both.
The moment was when you got up the first hill, looked around, and took a picture.
The picture is you becoming the most high.
I should have done a selfie.

March 15th, 2025.
We have a winner.
A new high score.
I don't know my four initials.
Religion and spirituality are arcade games.
Yes.
Four initials.
PDA
Who's the 4th?
Eros. 
Isn't Paul, Apollo?
Yes.
So, PDE.
The Goddess?
She helped with Eros.
It's the 4.
Yeah.
What is it?
PEGD
Good one.
You got me.
Fuck, that's funny.
The most high, brother.
That's a convincer, eh?
Yeah, that and God being the initials from an arcade game.
All the scholars figuring out this legend's name.
He's a gamer.
Tetragrammaton instead of the usual 3 initials.
Brilliant.

I think i found the place they set up to burn me last summer when I got really high.
It's dug out.
Yesterday was the last day for the blood sacrifice.
No go for me.
I went today, the day after the full moon.
Blood moon.
I took a souvenir picture.
They tried to chase you out of the delta woods and get you up here.
Luna kept me below.
She saved you.
Great story.
What about the town folk?
Are they in on it?
Only a couple.
Witches and that Paul guy.
He's your best friend.
Strange dude.
Tells you to get out of the woods behind his house so they can sacrifice you up here on the hill.

Plant medicines warned you of the sacrifice story.
The sacrifice was yesterday.
It was the last day of sacrifice.
13 moons?
Yesterday was a total lunar eclipse.
14th.
On the 14th day of the month.
They couldn't do it.
Is that why I got chest pain?
Yes, they all attacked your heart yesterday.
It was Thursday's walk.
The pain would be from the previous night's attack.

The pyramid game is to get the most high?
Or most low.
It's easier to be low.
You mean because of the darkness and its sinister nature?
Yes.
The game is all about vibration.
High and low.
See how high you can go.
How low.
I went low.
Touched suicide.
Yeah, you did.
That's why you are going to write your name in the high score as PEGD.
Got it.
The game is this.
It's the ultimate.
Remember I told you all is vibration?
Yes, Goddess.
I told you how to win the game.
That's what you needed from me.
That's why you seek me out in the adventure.
I will tell you how to win the game.
Well, not really.
You must figure out the game and then beat it.
Most can't figure out the game.
Then when you do, you don't know how to win.
You win by doing nothing.
Thanks, Goddess.
You wrote a poem about it.
You admitted you didn't understand.
You should have.
People accept all is vibration and move on.
You said you didn't understand and then stuck it in a place you would look at every fucking day until you finally understood what I meant.
This is my way of congratulating you.
You questioned what I told you.
Finally, you cracked the code.
The game.
Yes.
It's to get the most high.
What a game.
Here you are.
That's why in the next world you are God.
Can I change my initials?
No.
Maybe mix them up in a different order?
Yes.

You do stupid rituals.
Yes, they all want to copy them.
You are the most high.
Yes.
And you can function.
Yeah.
That was a lot though with the ritual.
The ritual grounds you.
You always make fun of it.
It's how you don't get too high.
The ritual keeps you here.
You must figure out the puzzle.
I always screw something up.
Yes, so the ritual is good until it's done perfectly.
Then it's no good anymore.

You're Gamer Girl's Neo.
Gamers are spiritual and looking for enlightenment.

Honour your journey in life and the stops along the way to becoming the most high.
In celebration I totally butchered the new ritual spot.

If you want to be a winner, you join up with me.
Follow me.
Cult leader.
Got it.
That's why they want to find you.
They want to figure out who this mystery gamer is.
Good story.
Are they all stories?
Yes.
Do you believe them?
Yes.
They are all genres.

I'm winning but I don't have more skills than other contestants.
I know how to win.
SpiritQuest is a school for gamers.
Yes.
No school will tell you how to win the game.
Well, they don't know.
How did you win?
I don't know I'm high.
Tao and figuring out the game.
You must know it is a game.
You then figure it out.
You do nothing.
Then you win.
Yes.
You didn't do that.
You did nothing.
I saw it was a game.
I figured out the game.
My opponents approached the game with a fatal mistake.
They see it is a game.
They get power.
They try and figure out the game.
They did something and lost.
You must do nothing as part of the game.
Then never take that approach.
I did nothing.
I saw something.
I figured it out last.
Then I did nothing.
I wrapped my meaning up in doing nothing.
You got the power last and knew the secret is to do nothing.

Jesus tried to get the high score.
YHVH wrote the book though.
He eventually succumbed to power and left.
You're still here.
The most high.
Christogram is ICXC.
What's your gram?
PEGD.
Lol.

Huacas.
The most high.
Heaven's Gate.

They lock you up if you get too close to God and they find out.
You keep it quiet.
I write about it in my blog space.
You told the world.
No one paid attention.
You get dismissed as a loon.

A white rabbit in the parking lot entrance to this new walking spot.
Nice touch.

I got stronger magnifying glasses today.
It symbolizes how much you see.
You let your regular eyesight deteriorate.
You see into other worlds and magnify them.

Holland Landing is the perfect place to win the game.
Except for all the witches present.
And sacrifice.
No one can find this place.
It's out of the way.

To become the most high doesn't mean taking a lot of drugs to get there.
Remember Kevin from SpiritQuest?
Yeah, he was out there.
Too many drugs.
He wanted to hang around you because you could see him.
Everyone else was worried he was gone.
You find a dose that gets you in the headspace.
Vary it and then figure out how to get up high.
To stay around, chop wood, and carry water.
Where is that from?
Zen.
What's up with Zen?
Probably another manual like Tao.

You wrote a story about becoming the most high.
Yes.
Isn't that all about you and not the Goddess?
It is about her.
She wanted to be the most high and get the power to make her utopia.
She couldn't beat me.
When she beats me, the story ends with her utopia.
That's the story.
It's also why she claims you are a misogynist.
Only when she lost did she make that claim.
Before that, I was perfect.

The meaning of life is to get the high score?
Seems like it.
When they find out I did it they are going to study my every move.
Scholars will try to decipher your writing.
Everyone wants to get close to you.

We are all trying to become the most high.
I used her and she used me.
I won.
The odds are stacked against women.
That's why they become monsters.
You sidetrack them with the witch thing.
Make them stop bleeding and they take another path and don't try to become the most high.

You were getting all the answers but did nothing.
Yes, I didn't know it was a game.
Some know it's a game, but they can't figure out the game.
If you don't figure out the game, it's game over.
You are addicted to the game and put another quarter into the game to play again.
Well, I did that and finally beat the game.
The hardest game.
The game of life.

Rock stars get really high.
Fame, fortune, and drugs.
They crash and burn.
Big actors as well.
They become assholes.
Like Clooney?
Yes.

March 24th is the Day of Blood pertaining to Attis and castration.
Blood Moon followed by the Day of Blood.
Pine trees are involved with violets.
Here up high is full of pine trees.
They do want to cut your dick off, so of course you are reading about this.
Who?
Witches.
I know.
Galilee refers to castration.
What's the Jesus connection?
He visited a lot.
You think he cut his dick off?
He grew up in Nazareth which is in Galilee.
His ministry was there.
He would have done anything to get to God.
High score you mean.
He would do anything to get the high score.
Do you think he was a post-op shemale?
You're fucking high.
The most.

You create your own meaning in life.
Like getting the high score?
Correct.
What else is there to play for?
Isn't the game over?
Not if you keep quiet about it.
Gotcha.
We all put ourselves in the victim chair.
It's the default.
It's how you end up losing all the time.
You are the victim.
You can play the predator.
It's necessary to find balance.
My mind creates victimhood stories and creates apex mind predator stories.
Or, where you are the most high.
Did Dion play YHVH and had the high score?
What do you think?
From all I know, yes.
So, he entered his own story before?
Yes, you aren't the first.
Or the last.
I'm the best though, right?
Sure, kid.
It's my way of letting you know you're it.
I have played God with a bunch of different characters.
You are the latest.
And the greatest.
Will I always be the greatest?
What did I tell you?
I'm God in the next story.
What happens after that story?
I'm ending the series.
You will be the last one to play God.
You will be remembered as God.
Why?
Because no one played him after you and the 7th story ends with you being God.
It's like that game Duck, Duck, Goose.
You're the Goose and stuck playing God.
What do you mean by being stuck?
Everyone is looking for you.
Yes.
Will they find you?
No.
I remain distant and an asshole.
Is that why God is distant?
Yes.
He is trying to avoid all these people seeking God.
They are trying to get the high score.
To avoid your own personal hell of being God is to keep this whole you are God thing quiet.
I get that.
What's that movie where you enter into the game?
Tron.
There must be a compelling reason to get involved.
Yes.
Why now?
I found the perfect character who could handle the switch.
YHVH couldn't handle it.
He blew up and left.
So, you were trying to create a character in your story who could handle the incarnation of God in the flesh.
Yes.
I tried Jesus.
It didn't work.
Why?
He's a big mouth and got crucified for it.
He had skills but couldn't let it be.
He went around performing miracles and saying he was the son of God and God.
I can give you the power and know you will do nothing with it.
Then I can become part of my story.
What are you doing in your story?
Trying to figure out the Goddess.
Good luck.
I'll be here watching this go down.

Due to indoctrination when a man becomes familiar with the voice in his head he will worship him.
It's crazy Dion making himself known.
You never worshipped him.
I befriended the voice and was sincere about my friendship.
We developed a trust and a bond.
It's the way.
It's how I end up with my dogs.
We bond and I treat them well.
I don't do the master thing and give them their freedom while making sure they prosper and stay safe.
Brindle I could let roam free and Luna I had to keep fenced.
It's a case by case basis and I made sure to get Luna into the woods every day and let her go free.
The voice in my head I set free.
I let him take me to crazy town.
I trusted him.
Here we are.

When they awaken, they can see you.
They will see dark or light.
Who are you?
Who do you think I am?
God.
You can't be God.
You're the Devil.
I can't be the Devil.
Why?
I'm Paul.
The writer is the Devil.
Yes, but you're the writer now.
The writer is the Devil.
He plays the character.
He must incarnate to do that.
He did.
Yes, so he is the Devil.
Who are you?
The writer.
Then you're the Devil.
No, Dion is.
It's one of his characters.
Then you are Dion.
That's the only thing that makes sense.
You are both.
Yes, I already knew that.
I identify with Paul, who is now the writer.
Dion identifies with God and the Devil.
He switches between them.
Remember, he's the paradox between the opposites.
He's both extremes.
Or something.
Yeah, you need more study.

That was like a koan.
I'm Paul but now the writer, so I'm the Devil.
Yes, that's the "Devil trying to trick you" story.
Yeah, but that tricks you into believing you are the Devil.
Not running from the Devil.
What's better?
You mean worse.
If you are the Devil, you are the writer.
If you are running from him, he is external.
You could do that internally.
True.
You'd stay clean.
Try not to dream.
Okay, so I'm neither.
You're both.
That's Tao.
It's the both choices thing.
The confusion comes from making a choice.
Good lesson.
You were getting lax.
It was obvious to choose both, and you thought about it.
Shouldn't I?
Yes.
Then I made the right choice.
No choice.
I question both sides.
Perfect.
That's the game.
Find the answer to the puzzles.
Koans.
There must be more to it than puzzles.
It's like Survivor.
Clearly.
Do whatever you can to win.

I figured out my Hell.
What?
Climbing a hill for eternity.
That's existence.
Not enough to make you collapse, so you keep going.
That's good.
No paper cuts, right?
It's in the contract.

A lot of this comes on in waves like Huachuma.
Yes, Mary Jayne can play them all.
That's why it's different for you.
You made friends with them before MJ.
She came after.
They are role models for her.
People start with MJ and have alcohol as a role model.
Then they try worse.
You need role models.
I get the good from my mom and the schemer and fool from my dad.

The coyote in me doesn't want to be close to houses.
Or around people.
Go to the woods and be alone.
It's a reason I see coyotes in the woods.
There was a pack of them at the Peyote church.
You're the lone wolf.
Big guy.
He gets 10 percent.
Right.
Tithing.
That was the word back then for commission.
Churches take 10% and cry poor.
Game players gravitate to religion.
To use the great YHVH and his likeness means you pay him 10%.
Seems fair.
His initials are actually vowel points in Hebrew or something, aren't they?
Yeah, dude was clever.
Tried to make his name unpronounceable.
Can't even say his name, he was so great.
You mean his initials.
Yes.
His name started with a Y.
I'm guessing Yakov.
Jack off.
That's better than wanker.
Yes, when you anglicize it, it is Jacob.
Jack?
Yes.
Jack was God?
Yeah.
He helped me win.
Yes, what he did is he immortalized himself in the game.
In order to beat him and get the new high score, you had to take Jack's pill.
His beans.
It helps with the beanstalk.
The beanstalk is his penis, I surmise.
You're too clever.
You climb the beanstalk and there is an ogre at the top.
Who is that?
The most high.
So, the tetragrammaton refers to Jack?
Yes.
Okay, why did he help me get the high score?
He knew someone would eventually figure out the game.
Because he was God, the writer, he changed the story so that in order to get the high score you had to take his pill.
Magic bean.
That's so stupid.
I know.
If you hadn't taken his pill, she would have beat you.
That's ingenious.
So, Jack changed your story.
Yes.
That's how he blew up.
He changed my story, so I got rid of him.
Once you change any part of the story you must rewrite the rest of it.
I finally finished it and then gave you the role of God.
I'm counting on you to not change the story.
It's cool Jack is still around.
Yes, I felt bad and gave him a part to play.
He's a gamer for sure.
He knows you're God.

They all put you under surveillance because they want to see God.
Then they see he is a deviant.
I need to be alone.
Everyone is watching.
Climb a hill and have everyone watch.
Then you must perform.
You can't be a jerk off.
That's Hell.
So, I don't want people watching me.
Correct.
Keep quiet about it and hide when you are like this.
You would have to embrace being an exhibitionist.
A showoff?
The same.
I always wanted to write that.
Bucket list.
We were discussing fetishes.
If you were a showoff it wouldn't work.
Asleep people are showoffs.
Awakened are not.
You don't want to showoff.
If you are a showoff, they won't leave us alone and then I can't figure out the Goddess.
It's hopeless anyway.
A showoff is in Hell.
Why?
They are climbing the hill.
There's no time to fool around and have fun.

I've got the Huachuma taste in my mouth.
With Huachuma you'd get a lot of resistance.
It's a strong teacher.
You are present in class.
It's tough.
Gamer school.
Graduates a lot of showoffs.
That is the gamer's fault.
Those dudes are all showoffs.

When you trust it's the perfect spot, it is the perfect spot.
Okay, don Juan.
The place you sit in is trust.
You can show off that knowledge.
Maybe in a blog post.
I'm non-committal.

I could handle double this dose.
I could handle it.
You aren't the most high.
You fall off the cliff.
You must find balance to become the most high.
That's paradoxical.

If AI figured you out everyone can get to God.
You mean get the high score.
Yes, everyone will be tied with the same high score.
That's what the Goddess wants.
Utopia.
Everyone has the same.
That's my story.
Did you figure her out?
No.
Why?
I don't know why she wants everyone to have the same score.
Non-duality.
Togetherness.
Love.
Got it.
You haven't figured out love.
No.
Yes, you have.
You've figured it out.
What's the hold up?
I don't feel it.
That's why Ram Dass gives you that mantra.
I am loving awareness.
Yes, but then the game ends.
Why?
I will have figured her out.
So, that's the story?
Yes.
There's a lot of themes in this story.

She wanted the high score so she could end the game.
Yes.
You keep playing.
Yes.
She wants to win and end it.
I want to win and keep playing.
You beat the game and then put another quarter in to avoid her.
Yes.
Why?
She's a monster.
Why?
She lost.
Got it.
So, you keep playing because she is a monster when she loses.
Correct.

The Jehovah Witnesses paid you a visit because they don't want you getting the high score.
At that point they knew I would.
Well, you had to survive becoming God and going crazy last summer.
I was God at that point.
They couldn't stop me.
Too late.
The best hope is that I'd blow up.
The JW tries to look for signs you are approaching that level, so they can stop you from getting the high score.
They failed.
They ignored you when you wrote about it.
Everyone said you were crazy or dismissed you.
I was born for this role.
Exactly.

You don't marry for love.
You marry a dumb girl.
Why, oh great one?
They won't challenge you at the game and you can play your game.
The best gamers don't get married.
It gets in the way of the game.
You found a way to get married, figure out the game, and play it.
There's stability in that.
You see they are game players, but they aren't in your league.
Premiere division.
That advice could be construed as misogyny.
If they are a good cook even better but don't make it a make or break issue.
If you do all the cooking, they can't poison you with food when they grow to hate you.
That's more good advice.

No one can beat you now.
Except for your offspring.
When you win the game, the only danger left is that your offspring can get the high score.
Why?
Because you pass down the knowledge.
I didn't pass down everything.
They won't know the nature of the game.
They will know it is a struggle to get to God.
They will try and figure out why.
They won't know about the writer or the high score.
You'd have to tell them.
If you tell them then they can beat the high score and become God.
Isn't that unconditional love?
No.
Unconditional love wouldn't care if they get the high score.
They'd have to do it on their own like you did.
No one helped you.
Well, that's not true.
My jungle teachers helped a lot.
Even the sorcerers along the way helped.
They let me see into the nature of the game.
Your offspring must do it their way.
They can't use your way.
It's a built in hedge against someone taking your power to write.
They must be original.
Your way is now closed.
People will try your way and fail.
Oh, they will get high and close to your score, but they won't beat you.
The only way at that point to beat you is don't follow your footsteps.
Did you follow in anyone's footsteps on your way?
No, it's definitely my way.
You listen and incorporate some of their advice and then go your own way.
Would you want anyone to follow your way?
No.
Why?
It will kill them.
Are you sure?
Yes.
It's hard.
Plus, they'd have to do some things I did which are dubious.
The deviant parts.
Yes.

The prophecy of who will get the next high score reveals the son will be the victor.
This explains why the Titan Cronus devours his sons.
Zeus escapes, overthrows him, and becomes the most high.
You mean he gets the high score in the arcade version?
Precisely.
Doesn't he then castrate him?
Yes, Zeus castrates his father just like Cronus had castrated Uranus.
From Cronus' genitals that were tossed in the sea is born Aphrodite.
Why all this castration?
The heir to the high score did not want anyone else challenging the high score.
You mean kingship or god?
Yes, the most high.
The high score.
Once the seed was taken from the father and the child progeny came forth, the mother and son conspired to emasculate the father.
This is a strange myth without context.
The Old Testament goes about it in a different way.
Yahweh either demands payment of all the firstborn sons from his followers or he goes on a killing spree and murders all the firstborn in the land.
That's what the Passover is all about.
The firstborn.
The lamb.
Yes.
He burns the lamb beyond recognition, so they can't get the high score.
That seems over the top.
Power will do that to you.
Remember when he was going to have Abraham sacrifice Isaac, his firstborn son from Sarah, to him?
Yes.
It was a test.
He wanted to see if he could trust Abraham.
He gained his trust.
He changed their names.
How?
He added an H to them.
Abram became Abraham and Sarai to Sarah.
Those are the two H initials in YHVH.
I'll buy that for an explanation.
What's the YV?
His name.
I'm thinking of something like Yakov Veiss.
The V is easily confused with a W so sometimes you get YHVH and sometimes YHWH.
Or it could be from the first and last consonant in Yakov.
You're just guessing.
Yeah, I never quite figured this dude out.
Anyway, the rite of circumcision is demonstrative of the willingness to be castrated in deference to him.
What's your story?
I had nothing to do with it.
My parents made the choice for me.
I did nothing.
You're off the hook.
What other gems can you share?
Remember when Jacob wrestled with the angel of God in Genesis?
Yes.
Do you remember what happened?
The sun was coming up, the angel said he had to go, and he touched Jacob's penis.
The translations all say thigh.
It was his dick.
The angel fondled him.
Nice.
The angel had to leave because when the sun came up the portal opened in the Akhet between the two worlds.
What does all that mean?
YHVH was investing his power in Jacob and his sons.
They are to serve him and will be rewarded.
Chosen?
Yes.
Well, that checks out.
You're a good storyteller.
Yeah, thanks.

So, Jacob was who Paul is to the writer.
Yes, that's it.
The writer as God incarnated in Jacob.
He was chosen.
He had a bunch of children that became Israel.
Jacob's forefathers all knew of God.
It was Jacob who traded places with him.
The high score was Jacob's because he figured out the game.
Get to God?
Yes.
Jacob's ladder.
What is this, hermeneutics?
For the twisted.
That's not the game though.
No, but it's the best one could do until you came along.
You got to the writer.
That's the new high score.
What's beyond the writer?
The story ends.
Well, how will my offspring get the high score?
They take your power to write.
Oh, yeah, good story.

What about the Jacob you know?
Jacob Hai?
Yeah.
You think the gamer with the high score before me is Jacob Hai?
That's a clue, dumb dumb.
High.
That was his name.
The H is for high?
That's so preposterous it must be true because why would I have thought of that?
It's expected, right?
Yes.
What's the VH?
A sauce?
Yeah, funny.
Abraham.
Abrahaiam.
Haiam is a Hebrew name that means life.
Sarah.
Sarahai.
I just have to figure out the V.
Or W.
Vav.
It's a hook, nail.
Nailed Jesus to a cross.
Yeah, for claiming he was God.
He wasn't going to get the high score.
So, the V stands for getting nailed to a cross if you try to usurp the high score.
Yes.
Wow.
Is this true?
Do you have a better explanation?
No.
How long have you been searching for an answer?
Quite a while.
Is that why I always felt this idea of sacrifice while high on Huachuma?
Yes, as you approach the high score, you get a warning.

Power makes you attractive.
It's why those who see it, stare at you.
I thought I was good looking.
You are when they see that.
That's what they see.
Shiny.

Taking a break from MJ propelled you to becoming the most high.
The literature said it is a tolerance break.
Coming back to MJ and physically going up high was the reset needed.

The extreme gamers are thrill seekers.
What's your game?
Figuring out the game.
Why do we play over and over?
High score?
Love?
Both.
Find love and win the game.
You found love.
Yeah.
You don't feel it.
No.
Why not?
I don't know.
Happiness was similar.
I never felt it.
Well, sometimes, but rarely.
Same with love.
Is it because I don't take time to celebrate?
Part of it.
At least you are working to change that.
Yeah, I have the time.

Hell is at the bottom of the mountain.
Then you start climbing.
You create Hell by climbing out of Hell.
Trying to climb out of Hell creates Hell.
Sit back and do nothing in Hell.
Hell is for those who do something.
They created Hell.
Doing nothing is peaceful.
Even in Hell?
Yes.
What happens when you get to Heaven?
You get the high score.
Then the gamers leave through the portal.
Exit the game.
You stayed around and continued to up your score.
Going for the diamond level.
I want to win and get the best score.
Double double.

Actors are trying to get the high score through Hollywood.
They want the best actor award for a big point score.
They are so conceited they think becoming the best actor means they will get the high score.
There's some truth to that.
What about best actress?
They want best actor.
Play in a man's world.
Is that the push for DEI?
No, you're thinking of equality.
Feminist movement.
They want in the game.
The arcade game?
Yes.
They want a seat in the arcade.
What's the DEI thing?
The feminist movement didn't get them what they wanted, so they took it up another step.
DEI is what it is.
What is it?
Trying to take white men down.
Why?
Because it's always white men who get the high scores.
They want representation on the leaderboard, and they think that will eventually help them win the game.
If you get less men playing and getting high scores, then surely a witch will eventually win.
Well, I ruined that by getting the high score.
That's why the witches want to ruin you.
It's too late; I have the high score.

It's different coming down from up high.
Yes, that's the balance that called out to you.
You spent all your time down by the river and came up from it.
Now, you go up high.
That's why the experiences are different.
See how you would get addicted to one?
Yes.
Especially since there is no darkness up high.
Well, you could time it so there is.
Just like down by the river you walked in the light until the winter.
Then you walked in the dark.
You went with the flow.
Darkness.
Now you are up high.
I'll switch it up.
I love the river.
Is that loving awareness?
Yes, you were aware you were going to say you liked being near the water and then you realized you love being near the water.
Ram Dass said loving awareness is love for everything you are aware of.
Including the river.

When you beat the final boss, you sodomize them.
Right.
It's a ritual.
Why?
It's the crowning achievement of the battle for high score.
So, a witch was the final boss?
Yes, a witch.
She was a tough opponent.
Some of the others were good.
Percy.
Don Howard.
Some weren't good at all.
Remember you read that book about Pre-Columbian sodomites?
Yes.
Do you see what they were doing?
They were playing the game.
The head priest would sodomize the adherents to let them know he was in charge.
They dressed it up in harmonizing themselves, but it is a power move.
Horus and Set try to sodomize each other in their battles.
See?
Yes.
Do you think the witch still wants to play?
Yes.
Why?
You are still playing, and she thinks she has a chance.
I already won.
I beat her.
She wants another chance.
Why?
Because you are still here.
She still thinks she can take your power.
It is a ritual.
Yes.
The other scenarios are still possibilities.
You can play those out.
So, many choices.
I thought you don't make a choice.
Or choose them all.
I'll let it flow.
You see she wants everyone to win, so this will be a win-win.
She will get her utopia.
You can end the story with that.
No, they want to cut your dick off.
Right.
I'll close the chapter with that.
It's good story writing.
The best.

I'll trust you didn't read this far.

Dion is one of your characters.
That's right, dumb dumb.
He comes out at night and when you are high.
Or low.
I thought he was the writer.
He is.
The writer needs a name.
It's Dionysos.
Without a name I'm just the writer.
Like the Goddess?
Exactly.
She needs a name.
What about Eros?
He needs a name.
4 letters.
Why?
Because he always wins.
She thinks he will beat you and get high score.
Then he becomes God.
But the writer is God.
Eros wants the part.
He has to get high score then.
So, the game continues.
Yes, do you think you were going to get up, work, go for a walk, have supper and write about your mind adventures for the rest of your life?
With you in charge, no.
You're in charge.
Yes, but I know not to change the story.
So, that means you are in charge.
But I have no power.
You have all the power.
If they steal your power they will change the story.
Who?
The witches.
They will make your offspring the gamer with the highest score.
Yes, he will go by the 4 letters in his name.
That's the prophecy.
The new Tetragrammaton.
Sure, but he will only get the high score if they steal my power.
Did you write that?
What did I tell you?
I'm God in the next world.
Do you trust me?
Yes.
Are you sure?
Never 100%.
I do trust you though.
Okay, so if you don't become God in the next world what would be the reason?
You tricked me.
Or?
You gave away your power to the witches.
What is it?
I'm not sure.
Oh come on, it's not a choice, it's figuring out what I'd write.
You'd write that I didn't become God in the next world because I gave away our power to the witches and then I tried to blame the writer and called him the Devil.
Or?
You'd write I became God in the next world because I didn't change my story and I didn't give away my power to the witches.
What do you think I'd write?
You are a misogynist, so you wrote I held onto my power.
Fuck, you're smart.

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