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Monday, April 14, 2025

hades

Is it possible to conquer death?
It's the final enemy of a man of knowledge.
All will be laid to waste upon completion of your journey.
We accept our fate after fighting for survival.
Jesus gives you a way out.
All you must do is believe in him.
Yes, that will work, however it's his story.
How do you get around that problem?
Make your own story.
In my story I'm the King.
Not only that, but I am death.
To conquer death, become death.
Death is your ally.
Your friend.
Death leads to the next world.
Without death you are trapped in this reality, and you'll never see your loved ones again.
Without death you suffer eternally in a Hell of your own making.
When you banish death, you unleash the hounds of Hell.

Aren't I the reaper?
Yes, that's one of your games.
Can you beat death?
No.
That's part of a koan as well.
How do you beat death?
You can't.
You become death.
Well, the writer writes your final scene.
The writer is naturally death.
That is ingenious. 
Thanks for taking me for a walk.
You get the gift of death knowledge.
You get in people's heads.
You don't do nothing, and they see who you are.
Darkness.
When they see your darkness, they see death.
If I get too close, it's not good, and they run scared.
Isn't it because people see death as the end?
Yes, it's out of balance.
Death is rebirth.
You are offering rebirth.
If they accept death, they will get rebirth.
Yes.
Believe.
You do nothing and have faith.
People try to hang on as long as possible.
Some cryogenically have frozen their bodies, so they can be thawed out and cured in the future.
If you accept death because you are eternal, he won't be your end.
You don't run from death.

The reaper lesson is a day late.
Or you were a day early.
Oh, yeah.
When you lose your memory things become more of a mystery.
Your path of teaching is about eternal life.
You are teaching belief.
This is quite the story.
It makes sense as well.
The better you write, the more believable the story is.
You wrote it.
I am better.

Some people wanted to talk to you about death.
Yes, suicide.
You listened.
Who better to talk to about suicide than you?
I had to take the course, so I could teach it.
She wanted you to show her, so she wouldn't be afraid.
If death is so sure about continuing on, why are you still here?
You must teach and reap. 
Somebody has to.
If I left, there would be no death.
The story would go on forever.
Who wants that?
I need to stay to keep the story going.
Once I'm gone, this story will turn to shit.
It will blow up.
Yes, because humans will think they are invincible.
Nuclear bomb blasts everywhere.
Yeah, that is terrible.
As long as death is around, he will prevent the blowing up.
You'll leave when they figure out how to stay in this reality.
That's what they are working on.
They will blow it all up.
Then there will be immortal aliens traveling the universe.
That's awesome.
Yes, they got rid of death.
Science fiction masterpiece.

So, anyone who lives after you are gone will suffer?
Yes.
They will be trapped in this reality.
What about the ones you want to take with you?
I'll give them dog characteristics and take them along to the next story.
That's why I compared Dion to a dog yesterday, so I will take him.
You're taking the witches as well?
Yeah.
I don't know about the sorcerers.

It's fair to call the writer death.
Yes, it's a power.
I'm not going to use it.
I know you won't.
You shut the fuck up about it as well.
You take death for a walk in the woods.
They should leave you alone.
A little surveillance is okay.

Can they kill death?
No, they have tried.
It doesn't work.
Near death experiences.
Mentally challenging you with the pressure of it's time to go.
They just have to wait death out.
Death will be when the writer ends his story.
The scientists in this reality take control of the story from the writer and then there's no death.
The writer dies in the end.
Yes, he doesn't want to be trapped in this story.
Or maybe he doesn't die, and he writes he lives, but has lost the power to write.
The sacrifice.
Exactly.
You continue.
I will keep writing this one.
Maybe you do both.
One timeline continues and another starts up.
It is duality.
It's twice the work.
Yes, you need two writers.
You and me.
Which reality do you want?
You want the new world of dogs or this witchy one?
I don't choose, so I get both.
That's a koan.
Tao is a koan.

All the people who live after me will be in a hellscape and suffer endlessly.
Yes, because I can't write the story.
In that story you would write you get the power back and immediately end the world.
You'd have to.
It would be nuts.
Stories must end.
If you want to hang onto this reality, you will end up in Hell.
If you want to go to the dogs' world it's Heaven.
All dogs go to Heaven.
There's never been a truer saying than that.
I will end Hell when people realize they need death for the stories to end or they will get out of control.
That Hell story will end.
Everyone will move on.
That's religious.
It teaches death.

You're writing.
You are now the writer.
This is your responsibility.
Hell is all yours, buddy.
I see that.
I will let this reality play out.
Do nothing.
It's already been written.
The fantasy realities I am actively writing.
They must line up with this one though.
Yes.
I make them so my influence is nothing as well.
It's the flow.
Things are arranged so the story will get to where it needs to go.
So, you are just going to watch?
I'll also figure out what I'd write and follow along.

The woods are full of life and death.
It's a good place for the writer to collect his thoughts and write.
They desecrate my spot in the woods on Sunday.
Why would they fuck with death?
I don't get too close to people.
I pull back.
They aren't ready and wouldn't understand.
You're the writer, so you have the power of death.
That seems obvious.
Yes, but you don't see it.
Hypnotized.
The whole world is a fake.
Illusion.
Then you wake up and see it.
I eventually will if I'm the writer.
Wouldn't I give life as well?
Yes, but it's complicated.
The Goddess has the responsibility.
I will help.

In Hell, if you lock people up for bad behaviour, eventually everyone is locked up.
That doesn't work for society.
The result is everyone is free to do bad behaviour and will live forever.
That is the result of having no death.
You don't want eternal life in Hell.
I see the urgency for loved ones to not have them go to Hell.
They just have to believe, and they are saved.
If they don't believe, they go to Hell.
They just have to believe you.
Yes, me.
Me too.
Yes, me too.

You found the death portal by not waking up until the very end.
It is through a maze to get to the portal.
The secret is to not realize it's a maze until you are almost through.
If you wake up too soon you will get lost in the labyrinth.

Elon Musk is a good actor.
He is learning Trump's skills.
Stay in the news and get in people's heads.
He will take over the world.
They are going to need his rocket ships when they beat death and blow up the world.
They will need to escape the hellscape to come.
He is a lizard person inhibiting a human body.
Alien.
Yes, good story.
After humanity beats death, he takes over the world to save humanity from the end of the story.
He's the antichrist.
Yeah, good one.
Prophecy in action.
Jesus will return soon.
There is the rapture of all the believers in death.
1260 days with Elon.
Yes, three and a half years.
See, my story works.
Revelation, dude!
Elon will give you eternal life.
In Hell.
Jesus shows you the real way to eternal life in the next story.
Believe in him in death.

You can't beat death to death.
They must respect and fear you while keeping their distance.
In my lifetime, they will figure out death.
Yes, the humanists will and then ceremonially sacrifice death.
Tremendous.
It will be like sacrificing Jesus all over again.
Yeah, he said too much.

In Hell everyone has merit and skill.
What a disaster.
They will kill off who they think are useless.
They will get rid of reproduction, and it will be their world.
They will keep some people around as servants but won't give them access to eternal life.
It will cost too much.
You give money to those who need it in the dystopian story.
Then they will work to destroy the hell world.
Like in the Matrix.
Exactly.

They tried to lock you up.
Made me a loner but the flow leads to your death.
They know that doesn't work.
They think sacrificing death will work.
Well, they must get rid of you for their plan to work.
They can't kill death.
They think sacrificing you will work.
Doesn't it have to be self-sacrifice like voluntary?
Yes.
They can't even use mind tricks because the writer will see through them.
How?
Death is the writer.
The writer has to go of his own free will.
Well, he's going to.
There's another story to write.
This one will have run its course.
Yes, but the elites don't want the story to end.
They don't want the writer around.
You mean God.
Yes.

Do you think Elon offered Trump eternal life?
Yes.
They tried to kill him before he got it, but they couldn't.
Yeah, Trump has a special place in the mind of God.
You mean the writer?
Same thing.
Now, in the continuance of this story, Trump will have eternal life.
Yes, for as long as it keeps going.
The elites are already preparing the world for their takeover.
Depopulation.
Exactly.
Conserve resources for when they live forever.
This is going to be a disaster.
It will be Hell.
These galactic misfits never learn.
They always spoil and ruin their home.
Earth will become another hell world, and they will get in their rocket ships and fly away.
They will figure out how to hide among the next civilization they encounter.
So that's what's up with the UFOs?
Yes, it's these same people who figured out how to live forever.
They got rid of death in their world, destroyed it, and then travelled the universe looking for another world.
They find one, settle in, and then want to try and stay forever in this new reality.
Right, so then they figure out a way to eliminate death in the species they have taken over.
Good story, eh?
It is.
So, they do the same thing again?
Don't they know they will create another hell world?
They think it will be different this time.
They will try to create a utopia.
They will try to eliminate wars.
They must or they will blow it all to pieces again.
How come there are people that get a hint of what they are up to?
They can see it.
When they explain it, they come across as nuts.
What to do?
Shut the fuck up about it, and watch it go down.
Shouldn't I say something?
Why?
To warn people.
It's the elites that perpetuate their own Hell.
Everyone else will get out.
How do the elites get out of Hell?
The writer would have to make it so.
Is he going to do that?
He likes to see them suffer.
They haven't suffered enough.
It's all good.
Only the worst of the worst are in Hell.
Like Hitler?
No, he is in the next story.
How is he not the worst?
I have my reasons.
I don't think that's good enough.

How do you know that the elites haven't already started their plan?
They have.
Have they figured out death?
No.
They are close.
They are trying to stay alive for as long as possible.
When they lose the body, they must find another one to inhabit and start over by accumulating stuff.
They are trying to hang on.
Once they stop dying then you know they have succeeded.
Yeah, but the writer will be gone, so he won't know about it.
No, he's going to go into hiding after the attempted sacrifice.
I think they already tried to sacrifice me.
Yes, you got away.
They can't find you.
I'm out in the open; how can they not see me?
It's complicated.
They tried jabbing you.
Mind control.
Nothing seems to work.
Do they know who I am?
You mean the writer?
Yes.
No.
They think you're God, but you want nothing to do with God.
I thought you said I'll be God in the next world.
You will.
Trust me, you don't want to be God in this world because these goons will come for you.
Got it, I trust you.

My dog Luna was a black dog.
Yeah, she was a symbol of darkness.
Black dogs symbolize depression and bad luck.
Something like that.
Messengers from the land of the dead.
That fits.
How about a messenger of death?
Yes, that's why you had a crazy black dog named Luna.
The black dog is the messenger of death.
Death is coming.
Everyone runs in fear.
You surveyed the oncoming storm and became the storm.
I saw my power.
I didn't know I had that power until faced with it.

Since your children will live on past the conquering of death, how is that going to work in the story?
There will be an obvious ancient Egyptian tie in which kingship is passed down at death.
So, they can't really get rid of death if you have an heir?
Seems that way.
They would have to prevent an heir from taking the throne.
Who are they?
The elites.
Once they are old enough to take the throne, death will resume.
Yes, but will it be too late for civilization?
Who knows?
What will happen is the elites will escape in Elon's rocket ships before the coronation.
The followers of the true King will move onto the next story and join up with all the faithful followers of the writer.
Got it.
This is better than Revelation.
Who will be the saviour?
Well, it's the one who sits on the throne.
Death sits on the throne.
The writer.
The heir will be the writer?
In that world, yes.
I have moved on to the dog story.
I stayed for a bit in the story with no more death without my power, but I was able to transfer it to my child and then leave with everyone.
You were still the writer?
Yes.
When I transferred it to my heir, the story came to an end because death returned.
Except for the elites who escaped.
They can't go back to that world, or they will die.
They look for another world.
They are the misogynistic galactic misfits from my Ayahuasca vision in 2013, aren't they?
Yes.
Well, that all weaves together.

They will find you.
I'm right here on Olive Street.
They don't know that.
They have massive data collections set up and AI to flush you out.
That's how they figure out death in every civilization they conquer.
I'm not hiding.

Ob la di, ob la da comes on as the sirens blow.
Going out there and coming back in.
That song was grounding.
I was thinking about how far Mary Jayne will take you with continued use.
Far out man.
You need a container and discipline.
If not, it will get too much.
Take a break when you need it.

Ever since your first trip into the Amazon you have become weirder and stranger.
That's just Dion.
He can be a little much.
You get used to him.
I did, however he keeps it fresh.

Ever notice at some point in your life you cannot return home?
You have a fallback option that falls away at some point.
I don't know when and where that was for me.
It is because you left home and never wanted to return.
As long as you want to, you can.

MJ can give you a distorted perception of reality.
Yes, we buy into this reality, and you see other realities with her.

Nobody can beat death.
That's the one thing in life that a winner must face up to.
Death gets you in the end.
Carlos CastaƱeda wrote about it as being the last of the four great challenges for a man.
Fear, clarity, power, and death.
Death is always stalking you.
Does this not become the ultimate koan?
How do you defeat death?
You don't run from death.
When he comes, you face up to it.
In 2023 to 2024 he was around.
I took it all in.
I saw the suffering, pressure, and the mind games.
I walked through the fire.
I acknowledged my power of death.
I stepped into my role and accepted it.
How do you defeat death?
You become death.
How do you do that?
You realize death is a phantom.
You mean a transition?
Yes.
It's fear that gets you.
Fear was the first test for a man of knowledge.
Do you see why the warrior's first test is fear?
Death is a fear to everyone.
There is no escape.
Your body is still going to give out.
You are a man of knowledge, and you go with the flow.
Doesn't your mind deteriorate?
It can.
Society will weaken your mind.
If you want to stay sharp, pour a proper amount of disdain upon society.
Exercise your mind.
How do you do that?
Go out of your mind on the regular.
Don't get caught up in what others want from you.
Stay free.
Your mind will stay strong if you keep free from the junk food of culture.
If you consume that shit, it will break down just like the body.
Your body is going to perish.
Yes.
Therefore, I can't beat death.
Become death.
What?
The reaper.
That's grim.
You sacrifice yourself and become death.
Just like Jesus.
That's what he did.
He sacrificed himself so everyone could have eternal life.
He died for your sins.
I'm going to take it a step further.
How?
I became death.
I have the power of death over everyone.
I have been taught Tao, therefore I do nothing and let death run his course.
I don't use my power.
When I die, there will be no more physical death.
Jesus gave everyone the chance at eternal life in the next story of his father's heaven.
The body still perished.
When I die the body will no longer perish.
Are you going to be sacrificed like Jesus?
Yes, I think that's the way.
Do you think you're better than Jesus?
No.
He was teaching his way.
He knew of the power of belief and sacrificed himself on a cross so people would look up to him and believe.
Ever notice you must look up to see him on a cross?
Yes.
That's by design.
He was a clever marketer.
Fuck, you're funny.
So, you're going to end bodily death?
Yes, that's what people really want.
What's going to happen?
Earth will become Hell.
A place of eternal torment.

Some people flirt with death.
Do you think they know that?
They don't at first, and then they see it.
That's why they want to get rid of you even though you're perfect.
They are flirting with death.
It must come to that if you are a flirt.
Eventually, you'll make a mistake.
That's the big one for a flirt.
They flirt with death.
They are fatalists and will not live out their dreams.

You will live forever with an artificial knee.
At least.
Your body will be filled with inflammation however you will never die.
That sounds like Hell.
It's the perfect Hell for those who do not accept death.
Death needs to be accepted into society.
Society wants to banish him.
If you accept death, you will live on in the next story.
If you deny him, you will live in a Hell of your own choosing.

There are different portals around the world.
Heaven's Gate.
The end of the Camino de Santiago trail.
The church or ocean?
Could be both.
I'll avoid them.
They will suck you in.
What about Abydos?
Could be.
The body goes to the Heaven's Gate portal?
Or a reasonable facsimile.
The mind goes to Hell?
That's the strategy.
Hell is eternal life.
Yes, Hell for the body.
The mind is eternal and so you head to eternal life for the mind.
It's all a state of mind.
You have a negative connotation of Hell.
Well, yes, it's where people will suffer eternally.
People make Hell hell.
Hell is eternal life.
You don't want the body to live forever because you will be trapped in the material reality.
All your friends and loved ones will have left and you will be stuck with the degenerate elites who figured out a way to physically live forever.
It will be a cruel and suffering world with no restraint on people being bad.
Death keeps people honest and in check.
Death allows you to cherish family and friends because one day they will pass.
You will see them again when you die.
How do you know that?
If you believe it, it will come to pass.
Your body goes to Heaven?
Well, the heavens.
You will become a star.
The power of the body will transform into a star in the heavens.
That's nice.
I know; I write happy endings.

Doesn't Jesus promise eternal life in the body?
Yes, I think you keep the body.
Do you go to Heaven?
No, they set up New Jerusalem on earth in conjunction with the tree of life.
Okay, so wait a minute.
Jesus is giving you eternal life of the body but instead of a hellscape he is offering a utopia.
Yes, that's his pitch.
The resurrection will be of the body.
That's the same thing as the elites who are trying to figure out a way to live forever in the body.
They are trying to do it without dying while Jesus says you will be resurrected.
You want neither.
You give up the body.
You keep the mind and consciously live forever.
Those other options will trap you in this reality forever.

Vaccine experiments on the population by the elites.
They'll scare people into taking these shots so they can conduct mass experimentation.
Through MRNA and gene therapy they will figure out immortality.
Just as Jesus returns, you will be given a choice between immortality and believing in him.
What will you do?
Nothing.
Neither.
Follow the flow to your eventual death and say sayonara to this reality.

Your mental block is you think only one story can be true.
I've shown you multiple realities.
You must admit they all work.
Yes, they add up which is a fancy way of saying they are believable.
It doesn't take much to convince someone the story is plausible.
They will have a little doubt, however the synchronicities and events are undeniable to the point where they must accept it.
All these stories are plausible.
Yes, well, the ones with legs.
The others are in development.
They aren't believable.
I have a lot of stories.
Mary Jayne brings them out of you.
Stories will keep you going.
I would guess if in one of the stories you face your demise then that could be curtains.
Correct.
The thing is you can't avoid it.
You can't run from death.
I didn't.
I faced up to the possibility in the story.
What did you end up doing?
I became death.
I take the story and make it my own.
You weren't ready to die, so you twisted death into becoming death.
Why wasn't I ready to die?
You are full of stories.
It's the secret to eternal life.
Tell stories.
We all contain this gift.
We rely on others to tell the story and lose the power to direct our own fate.
You're a puppet waiting for the writer to pen a part for you to play in the next drama.
Comedy.
Tragedy?
Precisely.
Is that what you want?
Is there something better?
You could do nothing.
What's that?
You don't know you exist.
Where is that?
Non-duality.
So, non-duality is nothing?
Yes.
Tao.
Everything leads back to Tao.
The mother of ten thousand things.
It's her utopia.
Everything is equal.
Nothing happens.
Is that a bad thing?
No.
What is it?
Nothing.
You're the opposite of Tao.
You could say that.
My stories are centred around Tao.
I'd say they touch on Tao with the caveat don't go all into Tao.
Ride that edge.
If you fall off the cliff, the story ends.
You let it blow.
The perfect state of Tao doesn't know nothing.
I can see that.
In order for the state of Tao to know it has reached Nirvana there needs to be an observer.
It's the fatal flaw.
How so?
Non-duality becomes duality so the narcissistic spiritual seeker can realize they did it.
Did what?
Got to nothing.
What do you see?
Nothing.
You are told about the heights of spirituality and when you become the most high you see nothing.
It's quite the trip.
Apparently.

Demeter is taking cooking lessons because they think the reason Persephone stays with Hades is because he is a good cook.
Their food is bland.
She can't sleep in and be lazy.
Hades puts up with her.
She can do whatever she wants.
She doesn't have to work, and things get taken care of.
If she went back to her mother's house, she'd be miserable.
She couldn't stay up and do nothing.
She'd have to get up early and do stuff.
She pretends to like it, but she prefers being with Hades.
That's what women want.
Hades is the perfect husband.
Hades will take care of her and her children.
He adores her.
You turn your mates into Persephone.
He keeps them captive.
They are free to go but they choose to stay.
Why?
The easy life.
Hades is easy?
No.
If you sleep with the boss and move in with him, then things are easy.
He wants you to move in with him.
Is that what you do with dogs?
Seems like it.
I take them in and give them a great life.
They don't have to do anything.
They were always free to go.
I let them off the leash.
Some people think I'm Hades and others think I'm a great dog owner.
It's the same thing.
Same character.
Yes.
How do you equate the two?
Living with Hades is easy.
To put it another way - if you are friends with the Devil then life is easy.
I don't know about that.
Think about it.
If you make a deal with the Devil, he is not your friend.
He is in a business relationship with you.
That's not a friend.
That's good advice.
If you make friends with the Devil, he will make your life easy.
I get this.
It's twisted, but it makes sense.
To sum this up, you're saying people should make friends with the Devil.
Yes.
Hades.
Death.
Friendship is the answer.
It's another profound lesson on the path of the heart.

When you went crazy last summer, it was the death of your character.
You can treat these life touchstones too seriously and think the death to which you are drawn to is the body.
It was the act which needed to be exited off the stage.
It's a fascinating way to look at things because in essence you can see how this affects people who have a weak mind and become suicidal.
They wish to end their character, and they take drastic measures to do so.
The master of the drama can change characters at will.
He is a chameleon, giving the audience what they want and fooling his fellow actors by his performance.
Aren't you dishonest by doing this?
It's fluidity and not being stuck in a role.
Yes, but shouldn't you be true to your nature and not deceive others?
What is my true nature?
Is it the good and compliant Paul who everyone loves?
He scores a lot of points with his white magic.
He is loved at work.
He is a good man for his family.
That's the role people in my life want me to play.
Is that you?
No.
Who are you?
It's complicated.
When left alone I'm a deviant pleasure seeker who searches for the meaning of life.
Around others, I take a back seat to their desires.
Trusted with the care of a dog, I become the greatest human who ever walked the planet.
So, you tell me who I am.
You are undefined.
Thank you.
The greatest role to play is undefined.

So, last summer you killed off Paul.
The springtime made it clear it was time for him to go.
All the signs were there.
I let him go in the summer.
You fucking stank.
I went a little overboard with my character assassination.
Once completed, I had to let go of some of the baggage I still carried with me.
I grabbed back the pieces of my heart I had given away.
I maintained the facade of Paul but he's in the past.
Dion is now in charge.
Who are you?
The same.
I have swapped roles within myself.
Therefore, I'm still recognized as Paul by society, but I'm not Paul.
Others wonder where I went.
They know I'm not there anymore, but the physical signs bely the mental change.
They think I'm crazy.
Wouldn't you think you're crazy?
Yes, because you aren't there anymore.
How do you feel?
Oh, the same except I know what's going on.
Isn't this deception?
Why?
Because it's not who you are.
Who am I?
The role you defined.
That role is tainted with the expectations of others and society.
That's not me.
As you age, shouldn't you give up that role and become who you are?
Not according to others.
They want you to play your role until the end.
Why would the master of the drama do that?

It's natural that you wish to define me so you can know me.
You know who I am.
Writer.
That role you can be sure of.
It's a role?
It's the pinnacle.
There are three main roles in the story.
Writer, Goddess, and Eros.
The three great spirits take turns playing these roles.
Who are the three great spirits and before you answer why are there three great spirits?
Three is the magic number.
Parents and child.
The child is everything.
They create the parents and bring them together.
The story goes from the future into the past.
We live it out from past to the future.
The story is wound up from the future and we live in the recoil.
That's interesting.
Yes, so when we reach the tipping point where the past and future merge, that is the end of the story.
That answers why.
So, the other question was who are the three great spirits?
They are one who take turns becoming three.
Who is the one?
They just are.
Non-dual.
Dual as in three.
Isn't there four?
In duality, you intuit your two halves so you would see your two and then the Goddess and Eros which explains why you would say four great spirits, however the Goddess can be a witch, and Eros can be both genders so that's six.
Did I answer the question?
I think so.
You can search for two if you realize you are one of the three.

Why is my supplemental credit card ending in 0420 and then sending me an update at 4:20am?
It is a reminder that it's all a dream.
Got it.
What's the alternative?
Coincidence?
Some weird addiction?
Dream makes the most sense, not that I'm looking to make sense of a dream because dreams are nonsense.
Yes, you understand.
It's nonsense.
Within the container of nonsense, you can find sense.
I think I did.
You are the master.
This world is a container, and the container is your body.
When you let go of the body you breach the container.
You are on your way.
Yes, you head off into the unknown.
That's what that blast off Raimondi stele is showing you.
That dude is exiting the container.
Vilca is a way to practice exiting the container.
Yes, it feels like death is coming.
That is the removal of the ties that bind you here.
It's amazing we can discover substances in this world which prepare you for your destiny.
Yes, however the class is in session.
You are here for a reason, so instead of seeking ways to bypass the school, you immerse yourself in it.
What is the class?
It's teaching you nonsense.
Got it.

A second life would be what you are writing about where you get rid of your main character and assume another one.
That explains the popularity of those role playing games.
People are trapped in their lives and virtually play a game which facilitates their escape from life.
That's a good summation of the phenomenon.
You did just that.
The reaction was spiteful.
Yes, that's strange where these people want to escape their character and then when someone does, they hate them for it.
What's the old saying, to thy own self be true?
Yes.
Become your destiny, not someone else's idea of who you are and should be.

Monday, April 7, 2025

bali

Talk about it and you will sound crazy.
Write about it and it's all good.
No one will read it.
Is that one of the keys to not being taken seriously?
Yes, no one reads your writing.
Your power remains dormant.

Going into the mind will reveal how diabolical you are.
No one is prepared for this and gets the wrong idea.

Accusations of misogyny keep you away from figuring out the Goddess.
They are designed to stop you in your tracks and make you change course.
Instead, go into it.
Why do women cause misogyny?
They are the number one cause of misogyny.
They want your power.
Men have power and women want it.
If the reverse was true, men would want women's power.
Women do have power over men.
They use it all the time.
Yes, but they use it to try and take men's power.
Don't men take women's power?
No, they subjugate them.
Okay, I see what you are trying to figure out.
The Goddess becomes a monster when she is subjugated.
When a man puts a woman under his thumb, she will turn into a monster if she is not controlled.
Such a woman needs a strong man, or she will go full on monster mash.

How do you view women?
They are for pleasure.
Yes, and pain.
That's the monster.
They do both.
So, the answer is to not view them that way.
You mean a friend.
Yes.
The answer you are looking for is to become friends.
You wanted to figure her out.
Despite appearances, it is not complicated.

Women want to devour you.
They don't want friendship.
I thought you figured them out.
They want to eat you.
I see.
They don't want friendship.
They want to see if you are capable of friendship.
I proved that.
Exactly.
Now she will want to feed on you again.
Why?
They are monsters.
Why are they monsters?
Because you only want to use them and fuck them.
That's what they want.
Yeah, it's complicated.
That's why I'm still here trying to figure it out.
They don't want to be treated that way, but they ask for it.
Maybe they are just wired that way.
Yeah, but why?

People sacrifice everything except for themselves.
I've noticed.
They give up food.
They temporarily deny themselves some pleasures.
If they start getting serious, they do the animal sacrifice thing.
Then it progresses to other people.
There's the Old Testament firstborn sacrifice.
How about yourself?
That would be the ultimate.
Who are you sacrificing yourself to?
That's a good question.
I'd say, yourself.
You trick yourself into sacrificing yourself.
Who tricks you?
Your inner voice.
Why?
Because you are an irredeemable asshole and the genie within has tired of your tyranny.

The monster wants to eat flesh.
Could be, I mean we think goddesses and gods are all benevolent when clearly they are dual.
Yes, so when you call upon them for favours, you turn them into a monster.
It's in their nature.
The only way out of it is friendship.
You seem to be teaching yourself.
Why?
Because you are trying to figure out the Goddess.
Women in general.
You know everything but you have forgotten most of what you know.
Yes, I didn't write it down.
Why?
I was busy.
I was writing the story and didn't write down the reason the Goddess is a monster.
If I keep searching and trying to understand, then I know eventually I will figure her out.
It's a matter of time.
That's what I'm doing.

You worship her.
Yes.
That's what turns her into a monster.
Stop worshipping her.
I only found her because I worshipped her.
I got to her because of it.
No one could do it except for me.
Women do it all the time.
They worship themselves.
Doesn't self-worship turn you into a monster?
Yes.
Is that the answer?
Could be.
Women turn themselves into monsters by worshipping their inner Goddess.
Men become monsters by doing the same.
You mean men worship God.
Yes.
Why don't you worship God?
It would be like performing fellatio on yourself.
You mean you'd blow yourself?
Yes.
Funny.
We become monsters when we celebrate ourselves.
I think we are getting somewhere.
You think you are God.
Yes.
You're not a monster.
No.
How did you do it?
I didn't externalize God.
He's the voice within.
It's me.
This is duality.
The trick is in order to perceive this, you must externalize the other.
We then treat the divine as the other and worship the divine as God or Goddess.
This turns them into monsters.
So, I can easily converse with you.
Yes.
I can see how you would become a monster.
The tendencies are evident.
Why didn't you become a monster?
Because you befriended me, you didn't ask for any favours, and you gave me my freedom.
I treated you like a dog.
Yes, that's what you did.
How do you treat dogs?
I honour them.
I feed them.
I walk them.
I care for them.
I love my two dogs.

A monster will try to get in your head and destroy you.
The ultimate trick for them is they make you do the final act of destruction.
That's their sacrifice.
They sacrifice you.
They make you stick the knife within yourself.
This seems like a situation where you create a monster, you become a monster, and then it ends through sacrifice.
The sacrifice is you do something stupid.
What's the solution?
Tao.
Do nothing.

You friend the voice within.
If not, it will turn you into a monster.
Or you think it is God or the Devil.
They are already in your head; it's best to make friends with them.

She's addictive.
You were both looking for her.
Paul found her.
Impressive.
You know magic.
You know about the moon.
Dion knows you know about the Goddess.
He used you to get to her.
I can see that.
She trusted you.
You were supposed to go after her husband.
I did.
You befriended him.
It's me.
You weren't supposed to let him find me.
Why not?
We are separated.
He is your husband.
When you sent me away, I realized who I was.
I will always find you.
Even if my other mortal side must do it, it will be done.
That is love.
You can say I shouldn't find you and tricked Paul.
That's not true.
He is me.
If he wasn't me, he wouldn't have found you.
Why?
The writer finds you.
We are the divine.
Why do you hate me?
You are a misogynist.
How so?
You use women for pleasure.
Is there another way?
Friendship.

You found her and she played games with you.
You beat her.
She left.
She blames me but she was playing games, so I had to win.
She hates you because you win.
Yes.
I let her win until the end and then I twist it around and win.
She hates that.
Why?
It sucks her into playing because she thinks she can win.
If you are around her, she will play.
If she tells you to get lost and you go, then she doesn't play.
She still plays.
Just not with me.
She is a monster and a sore loser.
You always win.
That's quite the couple.
You're in the middle of this.
No, Eros is.
Paul and Eros are caught in the middle.

If I don't get back with the Goddess, at least I found her.
I can figure her out with this information.
She likes to play games and is a monster.
Why?
She thinks she can beat you.
She thought she had the mind down and could beat you.
She practiced and got good at it.
Not good enough.
Physically, she thinks she will be able to beat you.
She was a little unsure but getting confident.
You're skinny.
I see.
I kept up with her.

Isn't she trying to destroy my mind?
Yes, with Mary Jayne.
Right.
MJ is my teacher.
Yes.
MJ is destroying your mind through teaching.
Filling it up.
It's the only way.
I'll never know everything.
That's the way they have figured out how to destroy you.
Instead of weakening your mind, they make it so strong you can't move.
Why can't you move?
Knowledge.
You will see death coming and know how to avoid it.
You change the story.
They are trying to get you to change the story and give the pen to them.
The witches?
Yes, I keep reminding you.
So, what's up with MJ?
She gives you what you want.
A plant medicine teacher.
She works for the witches to help destroy your mind.
That's fair.

I get stuck in la la land.
I go off on a knowledge adventure.
It's what you want.
You got what you wanted.
A teacher.
Did I ask for it?
No.
You became a student.
There's a difference.
Yes.
A student doesn't ask.
They observe.
Ah.

Do you think MJ will destroy your mind?
Are you going to stop learning?
No.
Then yes.
Don Howard said there is always more.
He is a wise elder in the game.
Dropping clues.
You can keep taking MJ and she won't destroy your mind.
The others will.
Why?
Too much at once.
With MJ you can handle the crazy.
I handle the Goddess' craziness.
There is always more.
He's right.
If there wasn't, it would end.
Your mind would be destroyed, and you couldn't write.
They want you to write and write until the addiction consumes you.
It would have if I took more.
If there isn't more, it ends.
Yes.
Non-duality.
The Goddess.
Monster.
Apophis in ancient Egypt stopping the cycle of rebirth and creation.
She's trying to stop the story.
Duality is you and she is non-duality.
Utopia.
No stories.
Got it.
She's a monster who plays games.
She wants to stop your stories.
Taking my pen leads to non-duality.
It's so boring, write stories.

Why don't you let her win?
The stories will end.
She is a monster because she needs to win to stop the stories, and I won't let her win.
Who is more liable to trick you, a man or woman?
Woman.
They do tricks.
The Goddess tried to trick you into getting rid of me.
She said you go after you.
It didn't take me long to figure out I was the dragon she was referring to.
She was curious about how I got in to see her.
When she sent me away to go after myself that was symbolic for go fuck yourself.
That is plausible.
Or she was enamoured with me for chasing her.
I was sincere.
Yeah, she checked you out and you did it with no motive.
It was pure.
Qodesh.
That's how I did it.
Odds were long on that but finally someone got through to her.

I had an idea in my head and then I lost it.
It annoys me.
Yes, because you want to know everything.
It's your fatal flaw.
The road to being a know-it-all.
This is a lesson to forget things, so that there will always be something to remember.
If you don't forget then everything is a continuation of the story.
Sometimes that's good, isn't it?
If I remember my dogs then they continue on with me.
If I forget them, they are out of the picture.
Out of the story.
What about the bad times with the Goddess?
You want to forget those and just remember how much fun she is.
Yeah, but you'll never forget.
You'll only forget if you fill up your mind so you can't remember.
When you can't remember what she did to you, then you will give her your power.
Is that the story?
Could be.
For sure.
She will always remember how she can't beat you.
She forgets.
She thinks she can beat me.

You are trying to remember everything so you can figure out why the Goddess is a monster.
It leads back to you.
That seems undeniable.
The more you remember, the more you are to blame.
Well, that's only because she wants to beat me.
I think if you friend them, like Dion and I, then they don't become monsters.
I think you tame the beast.

Monday, March 31, 2025

go with the flow

Wake up and know.
Never lose who you are again.
It's a key to the question of eternal life.
We all have eternal life because we are all part of the mind at large.
The mind at large is everything.
This splinters into infinity and the result is creation.
It's a cycle.
Is it a personal cycle?
What do you mean?
It's always present where the vibration just is, and the concept of time fools us into thinking it comes and goes.
The vibration is both at once.
It is infinite and it is all.
We create a timeline and plot out a continuous cycle of coming and going.
We walk the eternal path of the great vibration.
The path exists in its fullness and completeness.
It doesn't need time to unfold.
It already is it.

I haven't been high for a month.
Well, you are awake.
You aren't going back to sleep.
You'd have to short circuit your brain in order to do that.
How would I do that?
A lobotomy or incapacitating drugs.
Gotcha.
Now that you know, you have eternal life.
You always had eternal life, but the lapse in awareness of who you are creates the impression you are a one off.
Yeah, most people are convinced they are a random occurrence and are desperate for some kind of afterlife.
The fraudsters and tricksters among us use that to their advantage and create institutions that will grant the desperate among us eternal life.
Have you ever examined religious institutions?
Yes.
What do you see?
They are ungodly wealthy.
It's a good business they have going.
You don't need them.
All you must do is wake up.
Once awake, you will see.
Nobody knows this though.
I know some people have awakened.
How come they don't know this?
Power.
When you wake up the fear gets most, and they go back to sleep.
If they keep going, they get clarity.
When you get clarity, you see you are in control.
That's power.
The temptation is too much, and they don't move past power.
If you can manage that, you see it all.
Don't you see death?
Yes.
Doesn't that scare you?
It's tough.
At the outset of the journey the expectation is you will live to be a wise elder and go gracefully into the night.
Instead, death knocks on your door.
People start dying around you.
My dog died.
I wondered if life was worth it.
It was a tsunami of sadness and death and then externally and internally you are told it is time to go.

Oscillation describes the continuous cycle that powers the world.
The flow returns all to balance through oscillation.
When the alternating current comes to a stop, all is one again.
Non-duality.
There is nothing.
If you do nothing, you will return to nothing.
When you do something, everything comes apart in duality and the story plays out.
The story is part of the flow.
The flow consists of doing something and doing nothing.
The flow is created by doing something.
Doing nothing will return the flow to its state of nothing.
The flow is nothing.
The flow is put in motion by something.
All is the flow.
The watercourse teaches that energy will seek the path of least resistance.
The flow is lazy.
The flow is smart.
The flow just is.

Why would you go against the flow?
Because you are struggling to tell your story.
You want to be greater than the story.
You want to deliver an outstanding performance in order to be recognized.
Who do you want to be recognized by?
The writer of the story.
Why?
To be ensured you will get a part in the next story.
Is he going to write another story after this one ends?
Yes, he will write the 7th story.
Those who have been granted eternal life by the writer want in the 7th story.
In the 6th story, he wrote that the elites figured out a way to live forever, however they are trapped in the 6th story.
It's hell.
That story ended and they are trapped in it.
They can't leave and they roam around the universe in their rocket ships looking for civilization.
So, the 6th story doesn't end?
It will end, however some actors are trapped in it.
Who is in the 7th story?
Dogs, Paul, Hitler, and Trump for sure.
That's quite the list.
My friends will be there and my adversaries as well.
Pretty much anyone I know.
I'll write a good story, incorporating some elements from the previous stories.
All writers do this, though they must make it fresh.
The character of Paul will be God, won't he?

I don't like plans.
Why?
It's a trap.
Everything is constantly changing; therefore, you go with the flow.
The flow doesn't make plans.
The flow adapts to each situation with grace.

I am thinking about what people do with their time.
Why?
It seems meaningless.
If that's what you want.
You can do something that has meaning.
That involves being of service or improving your own self.
Both of those activities make you feel good.
Are they rewarding?
If you think so, yes.
You can fool yourself into thinking that.
What if the best thing for someone in this lifetime is to suffer?
What if that is the catalyst towards them waking up?
You come along and help them, so they don't suffer as much.
You prevent them from waking up, which will get them off the ceaseless cycle of coming and going.
Suffering is most likely their ticket out of here.
What if they like it here?
Then they will be attracted to another ride on the merry-go-round.
That seems like a gamble.
Certainly.
You could respawn in a third world country, go to war, or be a subjugated woman.
Maybe you'll be born in Saskatchewan to a nice middle class family.
You have no say.
It's the flow.
The flow will give you what you need, not what you want.
I thought the flow just flows?
It does.
The flow for everyone will lead to your awakening if you let it.

Am I wasting time?
Does it feel like that?
Sometimes.
I have noticed I get up in the morning and don't really contribute anything to life.
You write about it.
I do spend a large chunk writing about my predicament.
Does that have value?
No one reads it.
What if they did?
It's the most valuable thing in the world.
Why?
It will lead to your awakening.
What will that get you?
Eternal life.

Why are you more creative with Mary Jayne?
Creativity is a flow state.
MJ puts you in the flow.
You are amazing teachers.
The curriculum is impeccable.
When you do, do it impeccably.
MJ teaches you to flow.
All the spiritual outfits know it.
They teach the flow.
Then they go against it when they get power.

What does MJ lead to?
Waking up in the flow.
I was on my way.
She puts you in it.
People go to the sauna and cold plunges to reset.
They try and get back in the flow.
They know the flow is where they want to be.
They never stay in the flow.
They get power, use it, and it causes an imbalance.
Why would I resist MJ?
Because you are in the flow.
She took you to the flow and you separated.
MJ takes you to the flow, but she doesn't stay.
Why?
She will stone you.
If you stay with the Goddess, the story ends.
Adventure happens away from her and then trying to get back to her.
Once you get her, you must let her go or the story stops.
What about MJ?
Take a break.
Get out of balance a bit.
She leads you back to balance.
You aren't constantly high.
Fuck, no.
You know balance.

That's the key to addiction.
Yes, MJ stones.
With all potential addictions you let them lead you down the path to addiction and then you resist them.
You mean do nothing.
Yes.
That's the resistance.
Doing nothing.
Lao Tzu was a drug addict.
He tells you how to use them to uncover the mystery and then how to not let it be your doom.
You ride the flow to the writer.
You become the writer.
You do nothing.
You see, to win the game of flow is to do nothing.
I did nothing.
You won.
I figured I won.
What am I doing now?
Nothing.
Fucking around.
Getting old.
Playing with others.
I see.

Lao Tzu was a heavy drug addict who figured out the game.
He told everyone the secret.
No one practiced what he preached until you came along.
A do nothing asshole, and you win.
Those who know Tao, don't speak about Tao.
That would be doing something.
They write about it.
Lao Tzu gives you the clue to who it is you are looking for.
Those who know Tao, write about it.
Holy fuck.

The couple hours in the woods are priceless.