Do you believe your story?
Yes.
Then that's all you need to do.
You are the chief fool.
It's because I'm a genuine fool, that's the secret.
If you aren't genuine, then you can only fool them for so long.
If you live with them, they will figure you out quicker.
I don't stand out in a crowd until they take a second look.
If they take the bait on second look then they get hooked.
They run my profile through their head and think finally they have landed the big fish when I was the one fishing.
It's a game of "go fish" where you want to be the fisherman.
Fisherperson.
Once hooked things start to unravel.
The only thing unravelling are their expectations and projections.
They thought they'd have control of me and then they saw it was not possible.
I think that's a good summary.
Mary Jayne is coming on strong.
It's Dion.
He's taking over.
The Devil has tricked you and will take you over.
Do you become a killer?
Crazy?
Offender?
You're powerless to stop him.
Yes.
If he takes over in your youth, then you get a bad result.
You must wait until later in life when people start to think of retiring.
You gave power to your darkness.
Others are preparing for old age and death.
I'm different.
I'm wise.
I have a container I put things in.
Experiences I can handle.
I handle all this and get the meaning behind everything.
If you take too much, you'll get a really dark meaning to everything.
I see Dion and the writer behind the meaning.
It's not dark.
It's a story within the flow.
A strong wind hit me.
The wind is like the darkness where it is conjured up out of nowhere.
The wind just blows in.
You can't handle dark Dionysos in your youth.
He will turn you dark.
You wait for the older Dionysos.
Youthful Dionysos is a little much.
The rambunctious males will choose the younger Dionysos.
I waited and chose the older version even though he constantly pressured you.
You waited.
I passed the test though I always had him in me.
He's too devilish in your youth.
Now, he is refined.
More of a fool.
Young men aren't fooling anyone.
You can fool.
You mean you, not me.
You're in charge.
I'm watching it go down.
I'm not going against my conscience.
I have a sense of my moral limits.
Yeah, they are good.
It makes a strong container for Dionysos.
In your youth you haven't figured out your conscience limits.
It's easier for the darkness to take over.
Altering consciousness in your youth gets you to these questions before your time.
You got to them in your wise years.
The sirens are blowing.
I know I'm out there.
So, in your youth Dion is the Devil?
Yes.
What is he later in life?
A cool dude.
There's an understanding now.
You are two, and you take turns with Paul.
You always struggle with the two and you stay in balance with that method.
This lesson could be scary.
You handle all these classes.
You still have the Devil in you.
Yes, it's me.
You can handle it, so here I am.
You are the writer.
I'm a character.
Only the writer is the writer.
Creator.
Everything you do is right because the writer is you.
Yes, I know, but I don't see what he writes until it happens in the now and by then it's in the past.
The magic of the pen is writing in the future.
Yes.
Do scientists and witches know this?
Yes.
They can't get there.
Only the writer can be in the future.
Why?
That's what he wrote.
Of course, it's the writer.
Who tops the writer?
Not the Devil.
Doesn't the Goddess have the idea?
Yes.
She doesn't top me, we are balanced.
Eros is the idea in the future.
She has Eros.
You write it down.
This whole idea is Eros?
Yes.
He's nothing without parents.
His parents come after him.
Yes, he is out of control.
No, I mean there is Eros and then chronologically his parents come afterwards.
Yes, he's from the future.
To get to the future you must become your desire.
Yes, so some witches get to the future with lust.
What do you get to?
The goat.
Women are trying to take that power from you.
What?
The power to write.
Emasculation.
True.
They do it by going into the future.
You hang out with Eros in the future.
They know how to get there and take your lust.
You are sure this is the writer and not the Devil?
Pretty sure.
Not positive?
Never go all in.
I learned that lesson.
Unless you want the game to end, then go all in.
In the ritual I confused Dionysos and Eros.
A lot of people do so when they are young.
You still do when you are older, but you see it.
Yeah, it's funny but it works for a man.
Whenever Dion appears, it is with Eros.
It's a fool.
That's why you saw a goat.
I get that.
You two work together.
We are friends.
Best friends.
Touching moment in the story.
Your best friend has been captured by an evil witch.
What will you do?
Nothing.
Our friendship has no expectations.
Eros will trust I write a story for two best friends.
The dog story.
Yes.
You two.
With Luna and Brindle.
Yes, us 4.
I see where this is heading and it's uncomfortable.
Alright, you 4 can be human.
Got it.
Still a little weird.
You must decide between Luna and Brindle.
Both.
You're good.
The best.
What about the Goddess?
She is the queen bitch.
Jack, as Eros, hooks me up with the two dogs.
Got it.
Won't that piss off the Goddess?
She is used to it.
Plus, she trusts it will work out in the end.
So does Eros, and you made a dog world to celebrate.
How does the Goddess get what she wants in this scenario assuming you are also making her wait 7 universes before she gets her way?
The queen bitch will divorce you and take everything you have in the settlement, including your pen.
You must legally give it to her.
Then she writes her boring story.
The end.
Well, that is spiteful.
Yes.
That's misogynistic.
No, she gets what she wants.
She's greedy and wants what I have.
She wanted the idea and the pen.
She wanted Eros and my pen.
She gets both in the end but in order to create an unselfish and unified DEI world she had to be a selfish and greedy bitch.
Um, but you two love each other?
Yes, despite her calling me a dragon.
We keep up the interest with the conflict.
If not, we would have ignored each other for 7 universes.
That's a good guess as she is stubborn.
She took your best friend.
Eternal return.
He always comes back.
I trust that cycle.
The writer of the drama who gave me the pen wants to know what kind of a writer I am and at the same time make me realize what he went through as the writer.
He has to write suffering and death into the story.
You can wave a magic wand or pen and delay the suffering, however it's coming for all of us.
The writer, or his alter ego the Devil, gets blamed for it all.
The writer is shielded; it's the Devil who takes the blame.
Yes, so now that you have that power, what do you think?
I feel compassion for you.
You feel compassion for the Devil because you can't avoid suffering.
The story bakes suffering for all into our life story.
You can't go through life and not suffer.
Ram Dass talked about suffering and said it's all perfect.
What else can you say?
Do you think life is great or not?
If you say life is precious, then you must accept suffering as perfect.
If you think life is a waste of time, then suffering is abhorrent.
What a way to spend your time.
You are wasting time suffering.
That's Hell.
That's what the Devil creates for people who think life isn't precious.
If you wish suffering on people, then you'll eventually suffer in Hell.
You'll suffer because Hell is the place you go to when you think life isn't precious.
Holy fuck, Dion.
Perfect suffering.
It truly was and I thanked her for it.
The Goddess tested you out to see if you think she is a monster.
I wrote that I tamed her.
Only you can tame her.
Everyone else wants her to go.
I broke her spell and tamed the monster.
That's how you become God and are worshipped.
When you tame her, the bad stuff stops.
It's all part of the story.
You tame her by believing she isn't a monster.
That's all she needs.
A mom isn't a monster.
Or a woman looking for a mate.
Or wanting a perfect world.
A monster would have killed you.
Or tried.
You wrote it was the best thing that happened to you.
Yeah, I tamed her.
She tried to apologize, and you thanked her.
What a writer!
She's no monster.
She wants to write she's a monster.
Yes, she wants your pen because she wants to write she's a monster, but you won't let her.
That's the story and how you justify in your head everything that happened were well-timed coincidences.
I'll buy that.
They were synchronicities telling the story of her wanting recognition as a terrible monster and you refusing to acknowledge and write it.
She'd send you pictures of her as a monster expecting you'd write about how she's a monster.
I wrote she's a witch but not a monster.
There's a difference.
Good witch, bad witch.
Are there good monsters?
No, by definition a monster is terrible.
I then made her a mother which fulfills the monster requirement in that they become monsters to protect their child.
I fulfilled her need to be a monster through motherhood.
Okay, I can see how these stories are addicting.
They are crazy, yet you want more of them.
Yes, so you know you shouldn't be doing this, but you want another hit of stories.
I can feel that.
Aren't you worried you are getting addicted?
No, I think you must experience why you would get addicted, so you have knowledge of what addicts you, and then you work with that knowledge.
I know to dial down the dosage from the weekend.
I know I'm not doing a lot, but I can simulate a high dose while still having some semblance of control and by control, I mean not going over the edge.
It's important to be given the freedom to climb the mountain and it's also important to know when you are at the top of the mountain or the pyramid.
Another step on the top of the mountain or pyramid and you go tumbling down the other side.
That's your end.
So, within the container of the mountain or pyramid you climb up and down the side of the mountain and that allows you to continue in the game.
The other side doesn't have a path.
You can't climb it.
There's a way into and out of the labyrinth.
If you stay in the game, you still must follow the path to victory.
If you get lost in the maze, then you'll get beat.
Won't you get tired of the same path?
No, because you can venture off the path as long as you remember how to get back on the path.
How do you do that?
The container and dosage.
A higher dosage will get you lost because you left the container.
What happens initially with psychedelics?
You get into the labyrinth.
Why don't you get lost?
Some do but a competent shaman or guide will know the dosage and guide you.
You need a shaman with Ayahuasca who takes you into the labyrinth, you follow their songs on a journey, and then they bring you back out.
That's what a shaman can do for you.
Without the shaman, you will eventually get lost.
Do you see how an addiction in this case would work?
Yes, you keep going further into the mind until you are totally lost and can't get back out.
You end up looking for a story that will show you the way out.
You think you are going to get that story.
You have hope but then it turns to despair, and you realize you will never get out of the labyrinth.
Then the minotaur comes to devour you.
That seems like a bad outcome.
It's the result of addiction.
Addiction will get you lost in your mind, and you can't get out.
Some fall off the edge.
What happens if you seek help?
The therapist can hypnotize you into staying away from the addiction, but they can't cure it.
Relapse is always a possibility because you know you are not right, and you know to stay away from the addiction.
It is always calling to you.
It's a siren.
The siren beckons you.
The siren tells you they know the way out, so you always follow the siren.
When you follow the siren, it is to your doom.
What's the deal with that?
The siren is giving you the clue to get out.
You don't go to the siren.
You wake the fuck up.
You mean go back to sleep.
Yes, you snap out of it.
The mind you have entered into is the state of being fully awake, however you can't function that way in this world.
You must know how to go back to sleep.
You mean ground yourself.
Yes.
Like the woman at SpiritQuest showed you.
Yes, she told you to go into a flow state and ground yourself when you get too far out there.
That's her method.
I use sirens.
Plus, you have a container.
If you ever take too much, remember to find the sirens.
I use surveillance and paranoia as well.
That'll do; whatever snaps you out of it.
It's like snapping your fingers.
I used that trick to get past the darkness of Ayahuasca.
Yes, you'd go into the darkness and scare yourself until you started snapping your fingers and coming back.
Then you got past the block of the darkness in Ayahuasca ceremonies.
A monster wouldn't get rid of your ball and chain.
She'd want you to suffer in perpetuity for what you did.
She'd make you go back and take your punishment.
I haven't had any punishment, rather I enjoy it.
I'm not suffering at all.
The monster can't make me suffer anymore.
Why?
Because she made me suffer, tried to get rid of me, I saw her for who she is, and I'll play with her, but I won't get too close to where she can make me suffer again.
How are you going to do that?
Oh, I'm not going to do it, Dion will.
He doesn't get attached.
Attachment leads to suffering.
He knows all the tricks to prevent you doing something stupid like giving a monster your heart.
That monster will devour your heart every time.
You can't give the ancient Egyptian eater of the heart Ammit your heart.
So, what do you do?
You can do anything you want with the Goddess as Ammit, just don't give her your heart.
If you give her your heart, she will devour it.
It's the weight of your heart not the size.
If you have a heavy heart because of suffering, Ammit the monster will devour your heart as it sinks lower.
If you are light-hearted she can't touch you.
How do you become light-hearted?
You don't take life seriously.
You don't take love seriously.
You remember to play.
It's all play.
It's all a play.
Curtain drop.
Is that like a mic drop?
Sort of, but the curtain is the end.
A mic drop is a power move but doesn't signal the end.
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