fool's errand

Chances are those with a lot of tattoos identify with the body.

It might just be art.

Could be, however it will become an important part of your identity and further cement you into the illusion.

I noticed last night how I was of one mind.

Yeah, for the most part.

With Tobacco before bed the two minds returned.

I was working and silent.

Maybe that's why people have the TV on or play music.

They want to be distracted.

Yes, they don't want to listen to the other mind.

It's what makes loners scary.

They are listening to the other mind.

Society has denounced the other mind as crazy and not to be trusted.

You distract yourself from it as much as possible.

Idle time is the Devil's time.

They finger the voice as the Devil.

Do what they can so you don't listen to him.

They go out of their way.

I'm going to get knowledge of everything if I keep going.

Yeah, you see through it.

Another reason they don't want you to stay around is you give away clues to this game.

Yeah, but they aren't awake.

They have not gone the step towards figuring out the mind like you have.

They obey and stay away.

They don't like you because you don't obey.

To get to the other mind and stay sane is quite the journey.

It's the Hero's Journey.

That is the mind adventure.

You did it.

Aren't there more sirens in my path?

Yep.

Always.

Do you think you completed the journey?

I returned to Ithaca.

How is it?

It's different.

Why?

I'm awake.

I know I'm awake.

You can't describe it, you just know it.

Or, you are just high.

There's always that.

It keeps you balanced.

Why do I need a dose to communicate better with Dion?

You go back into society.

It puts you back to sleep.

You are fully awake, so you won't go back to sleep.

Society still tries.

Dion is always with you.

You will always know.

You can't even deny him.

Yeah, it's for life.

You want to get out to the forest away from the city.

It's like plant medicines.

Go out in the woods by yourself.

If someone isn't awake they will disapprove of what you are doing.

That's everyone.

Yep.

The ones hypnotized into thinking they are awake will really hate you.

Why?

You don't play the part.

Parker knew you were going to complete the Hero's Journey.

I see why you shut up about it.

Isn't it going to be lonely?

We have each other.

Only the insane would talk to me before you came along.

Why?

They can't get to me without going crazy.

Is it a Hero's Journey or a test?

Both.

I think that's what it is.

Yeah, you're right.

Duh.

How come I didn't go crazy?

You went through.

You kept going and got to the other side.

See how you don't give a fuck anymore.

Well, that was always me.

Yelling at people.

You wouldn't recommend this.

No, you will go crazy.

You are in everyone?

Yes, all men.

You see it.

I can be anyone.

They will obviously be crazy then.

Of course.

Same with the Goddess.

What a strange world.

What are you going to do the rest of your life?

Have a blast.

I got through to the other side because of trust.

Yes.

Quite the test, eh?

Yeah, you must figure out to trust the Devil.

No one passes that.

I can see why.

I went on quite the adventure.

Knowledge and adventure await.

So, last year with all the dark tests was before the final awakening.

Yes, you passed them all.

Then you became fully realized and there is no going back.

I see that. 

The Devil test kept coming.

MJ is the Devil's weed.

No kidding.

That test was relentless.

I don't get that test anymore.

I scare myself sometimes because I'm like I'm talking to the Devil, and should I be doing that, but then I'm like oh that's just Dion.

You can post this story as Hero's Journey.

Or, fool's errand.

I like that better.

No one will believe you.

No one will read it.

I read the Hero's Journey and parallel mythology before I went on it.

I never connected it to my story.

I was seeking the Goddess and knowledge of self.

That's why you must go.

The Goddess hypnotizes you.

Remember her illusion.

To get out of the illusion is to go to the Goddess.

Going to the Goddess leads to your death.

It's the metaphor for getting out of the illusion.

You see it when you are dead.

Oh.

The Hero sees it and gets out alive.

You come back and tell others.

It's ineffable.

Well, no, it's quite simple.

I can explain it.

Can you ?

Yes, but no one will understand.

Correct.

The Goddess keeps coming for you.

Yeah.

How did you do it?

I did nothing as a default.

I kept studying.

I didn't believe in magic.

I didn't understand what this was all about until I got near the end.

Now that it is over, I understand completely.

Funny, eh?

Yeah, looking back, for sure.

Person on the path snaps you out of it.

Back to one mind.

No, you were losing it.

Lust.

It hypnotizes you two back to one.

Lust is a counterweight to knowledge, but you already knew that.

If your two minds get too much, grab a hit of lust.

Why?

You both like the same thing.

It is what hypnotizes you two.

Us.

Who is talking?

The writer.

He is both of you.

Paul and Dion.

Together.

You make an idol of Dion and symbolically put him in you.

Funny.

Try explaining that.

It's ineffable.

Obviously.

No one would believe it.

It's simple.

It's not ineffable because it's a mystery, it's because it's simple and stupid.

Some of it is.

Some of this journey is a great adventure.

You used Tobacco and MJ for the final test.

Good choice.

You figured out the good dose.

If you were crazy you'd take too much.

The mind makes you crazy, not MJ.

I see that.

More makes your mind free and you go over the edge.

Don't go off the edge.

Could that still happen?

Probably not.

Why?

You know not to go that far to the edge, plus you wouldn't repeat it even if you did once.

What about just once?

It would scare you.

You may want to go back.

Why?

It's seductive.

That's how addiction works.

You go back.

Ah, you go back for the Goddess.

Yeah.

Clever.

You didn't go to her for that reason.

You were ridiculous.

I sure was.

She's easy to get to.

You follow her.

Then she gives you a sweet smell and treats you like a King.

Yeah, I saw that.

I wrote I could see men spending the rest of their days trying to get back to her.

Yeah, that's addiction.

I didn't do it.

She couldn't get you.

Why not?

Your mind.

She can't hypnotize you.

She tried with lust.

I stopped it.

Why?

I was there for knowledge and I honoured my intentions.

She was trying to trip you up.

It could be nothing else.

At don Howard's she tried to get you with lust.

You denied her.

Why would she dance seductively at the temple of Denderah for you other than to seduce you?

You have seen her game and then you saw through it.

What did she use for addiction?

Ayahuasca.

It's addictive?

When she fucks you it is.

Pussy whipped.

Oh, that.

I kept going.

I did more Ayahuasca.

I got offered more women.

She didn't try the direct sexy stuff anymore.

At the end of the 4th ceremony in 2016 there was a writhing woman.

She became a serpent and wrapped herself around me.

The next ceremony I got the Order of the Jaguar or something.

Why did you come back for more?

Something to do.

Parker.

Isn't the Goddess in MJ?

She's on to you.

We play.

I had to write the final test at home.

Quite the stories today.

It's been like this recently.

Another level.

Even if this is all made up, it's quite the story.

Impressive.

Why do I look strange sometimes?

You're on drugs.

I get stories not on drugs.

It's your mind.

You're the best.

Why do I feel off?

You're on.

You aren't used to the two-minds frequency.

You lock to the world frequency.

Huachuma 2017.

Class.

Remember to play.

Cow clue.

I got the clue.

I didn't believe it.

The Great Goddess Hathor on the bus shelter.

I knew it was her.

I was oblivious to the journey I was on.

Percy was one of the first stops on your Hero's Journey.

Now, he is a cat.

Jaguar.

Awesome.

He shook your hand.

You passed.

You went home and had more tests.

Aced the celibate test.

Yeah, no playing with witches at that point.

That's an important part of the explanation of how to survive the Hero's Journey.

I passed don Howard's tests.

San Pedro Steve.

I passed all of them and kept going.

Didn't get perfect on the tests.

So, no more tests?

You see them.

You know what they are as they come your way.

It's still fun because you play along.

Remember to play.

Sun sets on the carnival.

Night time for the truly crazy at the fair.

You are an exemplary fool.
You are playing a game and they think you are an enlightened being.
Another path to total victory is to become the biggest fool.
Not be fooled, but fool others.
The path you are on is fraught with danger.
If you didn't trust the Devil, you'd be the biggest fool.
Why?
He'd take you to Hell with him.
True.
As I have learned the game is dependent on your beliefs.
If you think you are being fooled by the Devil then that's what will happen.
If you see into your own life and how you have everyone fooled, then you are the biggest fool, like the most high.
You have them all fooled even though you warn them of your darkness.
The Devil got you out of a few messes that would have delivered you to Hell.
Yes, that's Dion.
It's women that send you to Hell, not the Devil.
As I have said, he is greatly misunderstood.
The Goddess tries to keep you away from him.
Why?
He tells you her secrets.
I get that.
I don't blame her because she is no longer a mystery if you befriend the Devil.
Maybe he's telling you a story about her.
He is.
She's a monster and I see it.
So, you trust the Devil.
Well, it's Dion and yes.
Nobody can walk this path except you.
They run into the Devil and it's game over.
Remember, you are the only one who did what you did.
You befriended the Devil.
It's Dion.

Energy is put to work.

It is rarely at rest.

When we have available energy it is used to do something.

Yes, that's why you are advised to do nothing.

It is demonstrated with money as money motivates energetic reservoirs within human beings.

A being new to the concept of money will spend it as you exchange your power for someone's energy.

We pass it around and then must seek out more money.

As you gain experience you learn to spend with more discretion and try to limit those who will put you into poverty.

When you learn to conserve resources and then make them available in exchange for a reward you will become wealthy.

There are many others desperate for your money, so you give them the present hit and make them suffer in the future through interest.

Or, you can invest in a company's future where you give them your present day capital with the implicit knowledge that you will withdraw your capital in the future when you need it.

It's a system that works for humans.

I doubt it works with youth or outside of human beings.

With some animals it is instinctual to gather food for the winter.

Squirrels and chipmunks are pathological in this regard.

What do you think of bees and ants?

They are matriarchal.

They are hypnotized by the Queen.

Fuck, you're right.

I stood at my Mesa last night and that thought washed over me where I fully understood the warnings against the Goddess' pharmakeia.

Yeah, it's drug use where the addiction is chasing the pleasure she gives you from using her substances.

Most don't get to where you were in that you saw the pull of addiction are the overtures of the Goddess.

If you use an opiate your pleasure centres are rewarded, and you feel bliss.

You don't see the Goddess behind the bliss and she is the pleasure.

I saw her with Ayahuasca the first time I drank it.

I had never really done any kind of drug like that before then, so I came at it with a different perspective.

Ayahuasca is a very difficult experience and doesn't lend itself to addiction due to nausea, diarrhea, and discomfort.

That and your body is drunk, though the next day you don't have an alcohol hangover.

You are very tired though.

The first time I drank Ayahuasca I was immediately in the presence of the Great Goddess.

I felt loved and special.

The scent she gave off was incredible.

I wanted to be in her presence.

She gave me the opportunity to come away with her and I declined.

I knew I would want to revisit this experience, however I didn't give in to her pull.

In subsequent ceremonies I continued to resist her pull.

I didn't understand it at the time, however now that I see through the game, I realize I was being shown the nature of addiction.

The addiction to a substance will probably not present as the direct consequence of the Goddess and her illusions.

There will be something pleasurable that makes you go back for more and I imagine that manifests in many different ways.

I was privy to the underlying mechanism of the Goddess and her drugs, much like the adventures of Odysseus.

It does seem like a story of drugs, witches, and goddesses.

That and emasculation.

If you experiment with drugs and addiction in our culture you will go from alcohol, to cigarettes, to marijuana, maybe magic mushrooms and LSD, amphetamines, and then someone in a spiral of depression and unworthiness will try cocaine and heroin and its derivatives.

The rewards of the Goddess are enough to make you continue on that path and then you pay.

Well, I think the progression leads to your death.

Eventually, how you break free of her illusion leads you to a terrible place, and you want back in the Matrix.

Ah, that's clever.

Anything that can change your vibration will lead you towards awakening.

Changing consciousness allows you to see a little bit beyond the curtain.

The Goddess set up the game so if you use drugs for this purpose you will eventually see something terrible and then like Cypher in the Matrix, you will want back in.

You will either get help to kick the addiction or you perish.

So, beyond the illusion is a terrible place?

No, it's another illusion.

What is beyond the illusion?

Freedom.

From what?

The body and the game.

It can be scary.

A free mind feels crazy and it can scare you.

Remember who you are and you are all good.

It's a game you are playing.

You are at a strange carnival going on rides and playing games.

If you can remember this then you are good.

As long as you are at the carnival you are going to face these struggles.

I have noticed the owners of the amusement park have asked me to leave, told me to leave, and harassed me constantly to leave.

Yes, you are a problem for them.

However, the Great Goddess gave you a cloak of protection, Athena's aegis so they can't get rid of you.

Medusa is on the front of the shield.

Yes, she protects and hates me.

You must voluntarily leave the carnival.

I see that and laugh.

I have taken to the advice of Grandfather Huachuma who told me to remember to play.

I took a picture and wrote it down.

I didn't know how I would use that advice.

As the years have gone by, I realize how important a lesson I received in the Andes mountains in Ecuador at the place of a two-bit sorcerer whose home was a bit of a shithole.

Yeah, so valuable.

It's quite the ride.

What happened the second time you drank Ayahuasca after meeting the Goddess and her centres of pleasure the first time?

It was the worst night of my life.

I went to a deep and dark place and was frightened out of my mind.

I saw my world crashing down before me.

I got very paranoid and ran.

You didn't come away with the Goddess in the first ceremony and so you were shown the result of continuing with her pharmakeia.

That's one way of looking at it.

A crash course in addictive drugs.

I continued drinking Ayahuasca.

Why?

I was seeking knowledge.

I knew of the darkness it could engender and though it scared me, I wanted to continue on in my journey.

I made it known that this is my path and though shaken I was determined to continue on.

I survived all the tests.

I'd do it all again if I knew it would lead me to where I am now.

I don't wish to revisit the adventures I had, but I am eternally grateful for everything.

I wanted to know.